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AN: Thank you nonnie for this request - I hope you enjoy this. I canât seem to write anything short at the moment!
heyyy, this is my first request, i love your work!! i was wondering if you could do a blind reader or blind OC and bucky barnes. Bucky has been attempting to help her around even if she doesnât always need it. he keeps trying and itâs dosent really go his way and he keeps just doing the wrong things but they get there and eventually they fall for each other and it ends with them trying to navigate the only thing they havenât yet, a sex scene. sooo angsty fluff with a smut ending. thanks you much love đ
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Summary: Bucky just wants to help you, but it would be better if he asked you first.
Relationship: Bucky Barnes x Blind SHIELD analyst Reader
Word count: 5.1k
CW: Human disaster Bucky, mild angst, fluff, Nat being Nat, miscommunication, pining, disabled Bucky Barnes, sex with banter (oral - m receiving, unprotected PinV sex)
The first time you met him, you did have to forgive him.Â
Most people didnât know how to react when they met you, not expecting someone in yourâŠposition, to be doing the job that you were. For the most part youâd given up being mad about it - people either realised very quickly that your disability didnât affect your job at all, or they felt the sharp end of your tongue and scuttled off with their tail between their legs, so to speak.
You were busy concentrating when Nat brought him into the room where you were working, but not so engrossed in your work that you didnât register the arrival of new people. Your fingers were flying over the keyboard, typing out your code, and you knew that Nat would wait for you to finish before introducing you to whoever sheâd brought into your sanctum. You pressed âenterâ and turned your chair towards her and your new guest, lifting your chin and tilting your head to the side as if regarding them - an action left over from when it made a difference.
âHey, Nat! Good to see you. What brings you to my neck of the basement? And whoâs the fresh meat?â
You grinned at the same time that she chuckled.Â
âDo I need an excuse to come and spend time with my favourite Oracle?â
You rolled your eyes at the nickname.
âIâve told you before - I donât know the future. Iâm an ordinary human, just like you.â
She snorted at that, and you heard her pull over one of the other chairs before she dropped down into it, settling behind your right shoulder as you resumed typing.
âNothing ordinary about you. And speaking of which, Iâd like to introduce you to Bucky.â
Oh! Thatâs who it was.Youâd heard of Bucky, Captain Rogers best friend, released from decades of Hydra brain-washing, but this was the first time youâd been introduced. You spun your chair back towards where heâd been standing when he entered and held out your hand.
âNice to meet you, Bucky.â
There was a heartbeat of silence, and you heard the tiniest exhale off to your left.
Shit!
âIâm over here, doll.â
You turned your chair more, grateful when Nat moved out of your way, and stood up, taking a step closer to where Bucky had spoken from.
âWell, you move as quietly as they say. Normally itâs only Nat who gets the drop on me. If you hadnât guessed by now, Iâm blind. And donât you dare say youâre sorry.â You heard Natâs muffled giggle, confirming your suspicion that Buckyâs mouth was flapping up and down with the apology he was about to make lodged in his throat.
You held out your hand again and gave him your name. âBut Nat, here, calls me Oracle, because of my knack of interpreting intel and predicting likely scenarios.â His hand, warm but calloused, took hold of yours and gave it a gentle shake.
âUmmm, nice to meet you, Oracle.âÂ
You could feel the awkward tension in the air, and you couldnât help but let out a sigh.
âLet me get this out of the way, and then we can move on, okay? I was born sighted, but was diagnosed with a condition called Retinitis Pigmentosa as a child, which meant that I slowly lost my vision over time. I became completely blind about 18 months back, but I remember seeing. I know what colours look like, animals, etc. I learnt to touch type as a teen, and although my keyboard does have Braille on the keys I donât really use them. I manage just fine. FRIDAY reads back my code to me, so I can spot errors, I have my cane and I have Jimbo.â
âJimbo?â
Aha! So the famed former assassin hadnât noticed everything.
You gave a quick whistle and felt Bucky start as your faithful companion uncurled himself from under your desk where heâd been sleeping and came to stand at parade rest by your right leg.
You crouched down and gave him a pet, and in return he booped his nose against yours.
âThis is Jimbo. The best seeing-eye dog ever. Arenât you, boy? Yes you are!â
You stood back up and made your way back to your chair, Jimbo returning to his sleeping spot now that he realised his services werenât currently required.
âSo thatâs me. Iâm damn good at my job, and I promise that youâll never have to worry about any mission information that you get from me. And if you canât trust me, trust Nat. Iâve never steered her wrong.â
âUmmm. Good to know. I⊠ummm⊠if Nat trusts you, then I do too. And it was good to meet you⊠and Jimbo⊠but I⊠uh⊠gotta go. So⊠see you later, Nat? And again, nice to meet you, Oracle.âÂ
His footsteps retreated from in front of you and you heard the sound of the door opening and closing before Nat burst into a fit of giggles. You turned your chair towards her, crossed your arms over your chest and raised an eyebrow at her.
âReally Nat? You didnât let him know in advance?â
âHey, itâs not my story to tell, itâs yours. And besides, I wanted to see what you made of each other. Suffice to say, I wasnât disappointed.â
âItâs a good thing I love you, Nat, otherwise Iâd have to sic Jimbo on you.â
Nat moved towards you, and must have crouched down from the way her hand brushed your knee. You knew what she wanted. You scootched your chair back to allow her to reach under your desk. A satisfied huff from Jimbo let you know that Nat had found the sweet spot behind his right ear.
âThis sweetheart? Iâm more scared of you than I am of him.â
âDamn straight!â
After your less than stellar introduction to Bucky, it seemed that from then on you kept bumping into him. Or rather he kept bumping into you. Literally.
You were making your way back to your office from the bathroom, cane in hand, although you knew the route like the back of your hand, when something caught on the end of it, sending it flying out of your hand. A heavy body then crashed into you, pinning you against the wall.
âShit! What the fu⊠Oh. itâs you! Sorry. Sorry.â
Oh, god!
âBucky⊠could you get off me please?â
âWhat? Oh! Yes, yes. Of course⊠umm.âÂ
He pushed away from the wall, and you sucked in a deep breath. Boy, was the guy heavy. Part of your brain decided to tell you it was the right kind of heavy. You told it to shut up.Â
Bending down you reached out your hand to find your cane, only to find Buckyâs hand - he was obviously trying to help. His fingers closed over yours, and you turned your head upwards in reflex.
âBucky, you are not my cane. Do you have it there?â
âYes⊠umm.. Yes, of course. Let me, justâŠâ
Without any warning you found yourself jerked back to your feet. The sudden movement unbalanced you and your free arm flailed, searching for purchase. Which it found by curling into the fabric of Buckyâs top, bringing you flush up against his chest, pressed to him for the second time in that many minutes. That part of your brain started clamouring for attention again. It was telling you that this was actually quite nice, and that Bucky smelled wonderful. Then, to add insult to injury the rest of your body started to join in, a gentle throbbing starting from between your legs.
Jesus, you needed to get laid, or at least find time to schedule some âself-careâ, if you were reacting like this to a frankly frustrating man youâd only ever met twice.
You pulled your captive hand free and let go of his shirt, smoothing down your own top to cover your discombobulated state.
âWell, thank you, but I was capable of standing back up myself. I just need you to pass me my cane.â
âOh, right. Hang on.â You felt the movement of air on your face as he quickly ducked away, and then he was back by your side, pressing your cane into your hand.
âCan I⊠umm⊠walk you back to where you were going?â
âWell, I do know where Iâm going - Iâve worked here longer than you but, sure, you can tag along. Just going back to my office.â
âSounds good!â
You couldnât help but giggle. He sounded like an eager puppy. Maybe he wasnât so bad⊠no scratch thatâŠ
You were just about to set off walking again, when Bucky threaded your left arm through the crook of his right. You couldnât help it, you rolled your eyes. It was obvious he meant well, but by the same token, wasnât used to being around someone with a disability like yours. You lurched forwards as he set off walking, effectively dragging you along with him.
âBucky! Stop! Wait!â He came to a halt and you bounced off his, very muscular, arm.
âWhat? Are you okay? Did I hurt you when I bumped into you?â
âNo, itâs not that, itâs just that itâs actually harder for me to walk with you pulling me along like this. I need to walk at my speed, and use my senses. Iâm a grown woman and perfectly capable of navigating the couple of hundred yards between the bathroom and my office. I do it every day.â
ââM sorry. I justâŠâ You held up your hand.
â... wanted to help? I get that, I do. But if I need help I will ask for it. Assuming I need help is ableism, pure and simple. I may be blind, but Iâm not helpless. Now, if youâll excuse me, I have work to do. Iâm already behind schedule.â
As you strode off down the hall, your cane moving from side to side in front of you, you did feel a bit bad for chewing him out. He did mean well, after all, but youâd had your fill of âhelpfulâ people - people who saw a problem that they had to solve for you, instead of trusting you to sort it yourself.
Lost in your thoughts you didnât hear the dejected sigh from behind you.
It would have been alright if that had been the end of it, but it wasnât. Bucky seemed intent on helping you every chance he could. Unfortunately it just kept going wrong.
Like at a mission briefing when you were making your way to the table. You pulled out your chair and went to sit down, but suddenly it wasnât there and you were landing on the floor with a shout.
What the fuck?
âShit, Iâm sorry, doll. I just pulled your chair out a bit further to make it easier andâŠâ
You gritted your teeth, trying to ignore the smell of his cologne and what it did to your equilibrium as he helped you back up.
âItâs fine, Bucky. But I was okay.
Like the time he accompanied Nat to see you in your office. Heâd said hi, but nothing else, leaving Nat to check some mission intel over with you. But then you heard the tell-tale sound of hands patting thighs, and Jimbo brushed past your legs, followed by the sounds of canine mastication.
âUmm, Bucky⊠Are you feeding my dog?â
All was silent apart from the sounds of Jimbo snacking.
âErrrâŠâ
You pinched the brow of your nose and tried to ignore the tremors of suppressed amusement from Nat next to you. You strode forward and somehow managed to swipe the offending bag out of Buckyâs hand.
âI thought he might like a little treat for being so goodâŠâ
âAnd thatâs very sweet, but heâs not allowed treats when heâs working. And even if he was itâs good manners to ask. He could be on a specialised diet or something. If he gets an upset stomach, not only do I have to deal with being without him while he recovers, I somehow have to clean up doggy diarrhoea, which I can tell you isnât fun when sighted, let alone blind.â
âDoll, IâmâŠâ
âYes, Bucky. I know. Youâre sorry⊠You always are.â
You turned your back on him and went back to your chair, tucking the doggy treats into your desk draw and going back to your conversation with Nat. You tried to pretend you didnât notice when Bucky slunk out. Nat, sensibly, didnât say anything.
One thing about working for SHIELD was that for those that wanted, you could have accommodation to live in on site. Youâd jumped at the chance - anything to do away with an annoying commute. You just had to walk from the main building to the apartment block.
Jimbo sat down at your side as you let go of the handle of his harness, and pulled your key from your purse. You opened the door and signalled for Jimbo to go in, then closed it behind you and hung up your purse, keys, cane and coat, before removing your faithful companions' reflective harness.
âGood boy. You did so well today.â
You walked down your hall and into your open plan living room and then halted as an unexpected smell assaulted your nose.
Flowers?
How and why were there flowers in your apartment?
âFRIDAY!â You called out the AI, a little louder than necessary.
âYes, Oracle?âÂ
Damn Nat. And damn Tony.
You let out another sigh. You seemed to be doing a lot of that lately.
âAre their flowers in my apartment?â
âYes, miss. Roses and carnations. A large bouquet on the dining table. The roses are blush pink and the carnations are red.â
Oh, for fuckâs sake.
âAnd did Sergeant Barnes put them in here?â
âHe did, miss.â
You stalked back towards the door, grabbing your cane, coat and keys.
âAnd does Sergeant Barnes live in this complex?â
âHe does. Would you like to know his address?â
You thrust your arms into your coat and pocketed your keys.
âIf itâs not too much trouble, FRIDAY. I need to give him a piece of my mind.âÂ
âSergeant Barnesâ apartment is 2C.â
Okay, so one floor up and third apartment along. Not quite overhead of you.
As you opened the door you felt a nudge to your leg. Jimbo.
âGood boy, but stay. Iâm sure I can make my way upstairs.â
You gave him a pat and then walked out of your door.
You hadnât been on the other floors of the apartment block more than a handful of times. Nat always came to you if you organised to hang out, and you worked mostly on your own, not having really made friends with many of your co-workers. However, you found your way to the elevator and rode it up to the next floor.
You knew that apartment C should be the second on the left hand side of the corridor, so you walked along that side, and used your cane to identify the first, and then the second door frame. Squaring your shoulder and mentally preparing yourself, because you didnât really like confrontation, you raised your hand to knock and brought it down⊠on nothing.
No. Not nothing. A person. Bucky. You were confused.
âWhy is your door open, and why are you standing in it?â
âHeard you coming, doll.â
âOhâŠâ
You could swear you almost heard the smile in his voice. Shit! Your hand was still on his very warm, very broad chest.
âYou wanna come in?â
âWhat? Oh, yes. Thanks.â
You snatched your hand back to yourself as he stepped back and you walked through the door, using your cane to work out where he was.
âCan I take your coat, and cane? This apartment is set out the same as yours, more or less, and I can help you to the couch?â
âUmm, sure.âÂ
God! He was being so nice and considerate, which was going to make this more difficult. You could feel your frustrations evaporating by the second, and damn it, you wanted to stay mad.
You passed him your cane and shrugged out of your coat, then waited patiently for him to escort you. He moved to your left side, and this time he waited for you to start walking, gently steering you around his furniture until your hand made contact with the back of his couch, allowing you to find your own way onto it. As you settled onto it, feeling the soft leather under your fingers, you felt the other side dip. Bucky was sitting next to you, on your right, but not too close.
âSo, what can I help you with, doll. Canât say I expected you to turn up at my door.â
âBucky, you broke into my apartment and left flowers in it.â
âWell, I realised Iâve been a bit of an ass, and wanted to apologise. And you never let me actually say the words.â
You sank back into the couch and mulled on what to say.
âYou gotta realise that since I got this diagnosis when I was five, before I even understood what it meant, Iâve had people saying sorry to me all the time, and then trying to help me. Over and over and over. Running roughshod over my autonomy because I happen to have a disability. My brain works fine. I manage just fine. Itâs just so frustrating and itâs hard for those without disabilities to understand.â
The silence between you stretched for a few moments, before Bucky started to speak.
âIâŠâ You cut him off.
âDonât you dare say it!â
Then you heard something you hadnât before. A chuckle. Buckyâs chuckle.Â
Deep. Velvety. Downright sinful.
âWasnât gonna, doll. But I did want to show you something, so to speak.â He took hold of your right hand with his own. âCan I?â
You nodded, wondering what he meant, but it all became clear as he raised your hand and placed it on his left shoulder. You could feel the soft cotton of his t-shirt, but where it should have been stretched over his upper arm and bicep it in fact hung loose.
There was no arm there.
Your mouth dropped open and you whipped your head up towards him.
âHow did I not know?â
Your words were a strangled whisper, and full of shame.
âDunno, doll. Itâs in my file. Although I do have a prosthetic. A very fancy one at that. It gives me more than normal abilities, but I will admit, like any other amputee, when I get home, I like to take it off.â
âNat never mentioned it.â
âLike she never mentioned you being blind to me?â
âOhâŠâ
You didnât know what to say. You knew what it was like to be bombarded with questions about something so personal.
âWell, if you ever wanna talk about it, you know where I am.â
âI do, doll. One floor down and to the left.â
Your hand was still on his shoulder, and you felt a little awkward.
âI⊠well⊠I was wondering, could I feel what you look like? I mean, if you donât mind?â
He picked your left hand up from your lap and lifted it up towards his face.
âI was waiting for you to ask. Go ahead.â
You placed both your hands on top of his head, feeling his hair. It felt long; tied back.
âWhat colour is your hair?â
âIâd say brown, but Nat says itâs chestnut.â
You hummed as you trailed your fingers down, finding his brow and sweeping your fingers over his eyebrows and round his eye sockets and cheekbones.
âAnd your eyes? What colour are they?â
âSorta blue-ish grey, I suppose.â
There was hair on his cheeks and jaw, long enough to feel soft against your sensitive finger tips.
You realised you were finding it hard to breathe. There was a tension in the air between you, a tension that you knew had been there from almost the beginning, but that youâd tried so hard to ignore.
Your fingers moved towards, and then traced across his lips. They felt plump, albeit slightly chapped and you found yourself wondering how theyâd feel against your own. With your left hand still on his mouth, your right trailed over his chin, feeling a small divot. You smiled as you imagined using it in order to grip him, hold his face still.
You were just about to pull your hands away, when Bucky reached up again, and held your left against his lips, so he could press small kisses to your fingertips. Your breath caught in your throat.
âIâm gonna say it, doll. Iâm sorry. Iâm sorry I was such an ass, and that I didnât listen to you. I was stupid because I was trying to impress you. I wanted to show you how good Iâd be for you, because almost from the first moment we met I was totally enamoured. Youâre so smart, and confident, and I just felt useless. And then every time I tried to help I made it worse. Nat had to give me a talking to because I was just making a fool of myself.â
You could feel the heat rising in your cheeks at his words.
âBucky, IâŠâ but it was his turn to cut you off.
âSo, Iâm saying sorry, and I hope you can give this one-armed super-soldier a chance to show he isnât an ableist ass, because Iâd really like to get to know you better.â
Your heart was beating so hard you thought it was going to burst out of your chest, and you could no longer resist what your body and mind was telling you to do. You took hold of his chin, just the way youâd imagined a few moments ago, grabbing his attention.
âYouâve frustrated me from nearly the moment we met - I hope you realise that. Gotten under my skin in a way I couldnât describe. I didnât know why. Well at least, not at first. Every time I wanted to chew you out, I also wanted to kiss you. For trying so hard and so earnestly, but still getting it so very, very wrong.â
âYou could kiss me now?â
Your lips twitched. âSmooth, Barnes. Smooth.â
âI like to think soâŠâ
âShut up.â You broke out into a full smile as you pulled him towards you by his cute chin until your lips met his. Â
It was everything youâd imagined in your private moments. The warmth, the restrained passion. Everything.
Your fingers tangled in his hair, strands coming loose from his ponytail. His arm was wrapped around your waist⊠and when and how had you ended up on his lap? You didnât care, you just wanted him to keep kissing you. When he finally pulled his lips from yours you ducked your head down to his neck, wanting to keep any kind of connection. It was like a dam had burst and you had no way of stopping the flood.
âDoll, you gotta stop. Please. âCause Iâm dying here.â He was panting. You could taste the sweat on his throat, feel his pounding in his chest, feel the firmness at his groin.
âYou really want me to, Bucky? Or do you want me to help you dig your grave?â
âOh, fuck, doll!â
In one swift movement his arm shifted to cradle your ass and he stood up. Your legs clenched around his waist and your arms went around his neck.
âI got you. I got you, doll. Just moving somewhere more comfortable, if thatâs alright with you?â
âSure is. I need space so I can âtake a lookâ at the rest of you.â
It was only a short walk to the bedroom, and he placed you, oh so reverently, on the bed. You pulled your top over your head and shimmied out of your work pants.
âI have no idea if this underwear matches - I was in a rush this morning.â
There was a rusting sound and the mattress dipped. Bucky took hold of one of your left hand and pulled it down so you could touch his, now bare, chest.
âYou look like a million bucks, doll. Now, I gotta warn you. I got some pretty ugly scarring going on here.â
You brought your right hand up, and lightly stroked over the left side of his chest. You felt the edge of the scarring that started just above the nipple, raised and hard, which led up to cool metal which covered all over the shoulder area.
âIs this what your prosthetic attaches to?â
âYeah. Unfortunately, when it was first done, the people doing it werenât concerned with the aesthetic of it.â
âGood thing Iâm blind then. I donât care.â
Bucky let out a bark of laughter.
âYouâre incredible, doll.â
âAnd so are you. Now lie still, so I can take a good look.â
âYes, maâam.â
Your hands roved over the rest of his body, feeling where his chest hair grew in patches around the scarring. When your palms brushed over his nipples he gasped and you felt him shift beside you. Impishly, you did it again, grinning when he let out a warning growl.
You took the hint, however, and continued your explorations, discovering the solid plains of his abdomen and feeling the strength within his core. No wonder heâd been able to lift you so easily, even with the help of his super-soldier serum.
When you finally âsawâ his cock, your hands gently learning the size and shape of it, every vein, every sensitive part, you heard his laboured breathing as he tried to control himself under the sweet torture of your touch.
âYouâre so pretty, Bucky. I wonder how you taste?â
You bent over, and licked a stripe up the length of him, revelling in the sound of his indrawn breath. It had been a while since youâd been with anyone, but muscle memory was your friend. You traced the contours of his cock with the tip of your tongue, tasting the sweat, the musk, the essence of him, before taking him into your mouth.
âOh, God! Doll! I wasnât lying. Youâre killing me!â
You pulled off him with a pop.
âDonât resist it, Bucky. Give yourself over to âle petit mortâ.â
You returned to ministering to his cock, sucking strongly on the tip of it, while stroking the shaft with your hand. You teased his slit with the tip of your tongue, then swirled around the head. His whole body was trembling with tension and you could feel how wet you were, how aroused you were by the power you held over him.
âDoll, Iâm gonna cum! Fuck!â
You wished you could see Buckyâs face as he came, but instead settled for reaching up to twine your fingers with his. When his hips twitched under you, you hollowed your cheeks, and took him as deep as possible, moaning low in your throat as he spilt down it.Â
You continued to suck and stroke him through his orgasm, until he shifted under you, sitting up and dragging you up his body. You straddled his lap again, pleasantly surprised to realise he was still hard, pressing up against your heated core. He kissed you, licking into your mouth, either not caring about or enjoying the taste of himself on you. His hand pulled at the fastener of your bra, but this was obviously something he couldnât do one handed, so you reached behind you, quickly releasing the offending garment and discarding it.
âI need you, doll. I need to be inside you.â
âPlease! I need you too!â
You didnât want to pull away from him, even to remove your panties, so you pulled the flimsy fabric to the side, before taking hold of him and guiding him to your entrance.
Bucky let out a gasp and fell back onto the mattress as he started to slide into your heat. Your hands went to his chest, looking for stability and leverage as you moved yourself up and down, drawing him into you, inch by glorious inch.
It felt so fucking good! The stretch, the slight burn. And you were also certain that it wouldnât matter how long it had been since youâd last had sex, this, with Bucky, would still be mind blowing. His hand was on your waist, helping to keep you stable as you moved. You were so fixated on how he felt inside you, that it took you a few moments to realise that he was talking to you.
âYouâre fucking glorious, you know that? I swear, tomorrow weâre gonna do this when I have two arms and Iâm gonna take you apart. âM gonna fucking feast on you.â
You laughed and tossed your head as you continued to ride him. âIs that⊠fuck!... a promise?â
âSure is! Gonna help you remember what stars look like.â
âGet that hand on me and you can help me now!â
âYeah? You close, doll? I fucking hope so, âcause I swear âm gonna cum again, any second.â
Bucky moved his hand from your waist, sliding it between you and searching for your clit. You gasped, the bundle of nerves so sensitive, so engorged you knew it wouldnât take much to make youâŠ
You let out a loud whine, your body clenching down on his cock and your fingernails curling into the flesh of pecs as the pleasure washed over your body.
âThatâs it, baby. Thatâs it. Fuck! So beautiful when you cum. Gonna fill you up⊠youâre gonna have me leaking outta you for daysâŠâ
His words were cut off, becoming a shout as he came. And, fuck, he hadnât been joking. You could feel him pulsing inside you, feel the warmth of his cum filling you, and then leaking out of you, coating your thighs. It felt as though your orgasm just kept going as you rode out the aftershocks, jolts of pleasure continuing to shoot through you, just as you thought there couldnât possibly be any more.
Eventually they stopped and you slumped forward onto Buckyâs sweaty body. His arm came around your waist and rolled the pair of you to lie sideways on the bed. Your eyelids drooped; you were so tired. You desperately wanted to sleep butâŠ
âJimbo!â
You tried to sit up, but Bucky urged you back down.
âItâs okay. You sleep, okay, doll?â Iâll pop down, take him outside then make sure he has his food, yeah? Then Iâll be back, ready to sleep next to you, all night long. That sound alright?
You smiled softly, high on dopamine and sleepy as hell.
âSounds perfect, Bucky. Thank you for helping.â
âNo problem at all, doll. No problem at all.
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1719 words. Non-Powered AU. Tony meeting Morgan's favorite teacher đ€đ Read it on AO3!
"Shit, shit, shit," Tony mutters under his breath, slamming the car door louder than he intended. A woman with a stroller actually stops to give him a dirty look. Tony throws her an apologetic smile and hurries up the steps to Morganâs preschool. Itâs hardly the first time heâs late, but this time, on top of the meeting that didnât seem to want to end, heâd been stuck at a red light for fifteen fucking minutes. He curses again. He might have to consider getting a metro card. Or a fucking bicycle. New York traffic is getting unbearable.
Heâs now almost forty minutes past the time he usually picks up Morgan. Whoever waited behind deserves a huge fruit basket for their troubles. Wincing, he rings the bell, nervous and jittery all over. Heâd called ahead of course, several times actually, but nobody had answered the phone. Heâs imagined all sorts of irrational things while stuck in the car, even as he knew that Morgan was perfectly safe in Natashaâs hands. Itâs why he chose this place, after all.
Still, heâd feel a lot better if he could see that Morgan was alright for himself.
Whoever is working today, is taking their sweet time answering the door. Tonyâs just reaching for the bell again when the door swings open and he comes face to face withâ
Well, definitely not Natasha, for one. Or anyone he knows.
Itâs a man.
And what a man. Tall, broad. Blonde. And that smile. Wow. Tonyâs mouth works around nothing for a while. Finally, he manages to get out, "Hi, Iâm Tony. Morganâs dad."
The guy nods, as if that answers everything. Then his eyes wander up and down Tonyâs body. Tony has to fight the urge to fold his arms over his chest. He hasnât felt this around a guy in ages. Christ. When the guy finally looks back up, a slow smirk forming on his face, Tony actually stumbles a step. Hot guy snorts. "Well, come on in. Morganâs been telling me all about you." He pauses, considering. "Gotta say, youâre not what I imagined at allâŠ"
What? What does that mean? Is Tony better than imagined? Worse? Tony looks like shit right now, is the thing. If heâd known he was about to meet the most beautiful man on earth, he wouldâve made more of an effort. Or, like, worn a shirt that wasnât more holes than fabric.
But heâd been in the workshop all day, apart from that dreadful meeting earlier, and he tended to look, well, like he hadnât showered in days when he was down there. He fake-laughs, self-consciously brushing a hand through his messy hair. "Oh, well, uh, she hasnât told me anything about you. Not that. No, that came out wrong. Iâm not accusing you of anythingâI just meant."
"I get it," the guy says, still smiling. He sticks his hand out for a shake. "Iâm Steve. Started working here a week ago. Iâm sorry we hadnât had the time to meet yet. But I did meet your wife. Virginia, right?" He turns without waiting for a reply, motioning for Tony to follow. "Morganâs in the nap corner. She was feeling a little tired earlier."
"Ex wife," Tony corrects, following Steve into the house. "And you better not call her that to her face. She goes by Pepper."
Steve laughs. "Thanks for the heads up."
Tony smirks. He stops in his tracks after a second. Wait a moment. Steve. Stevie. "Wait, are you the legendary Stevie?"
For the past week, Morgan has done nothing but talk about Stevie . Itâs always Stevie this, Stevie that. Tony found himself wondering what this Stevie looks like. He imagined a hippie, if he was honest, a woman with shaggy blonde hair dressed in long flowing dresses, singing about world peace and how weâre all connected to nature, and whatnot. Definitely not a man and definitely not this man in particular.
Tony doesnât know many men that have the patience to expertly braid hair for hours on end or do flower bouquets out of the wild flowers growing in the preschoolâs backyard with the children. Especially men that look like that.
But here they are.
Steve ducks his head. "Yep, thatâd be me."
"Oh, well in that case, I do know you," Tony goes on, "Morganâs going on and on about you." He pauses, waving his hand around. "Honestly expected you to be a woman. Sorry."
"Yeah, I get that a lot âround here. Hope thatâs not a problem."
"No! Not at all."
Steve smiles. Tony is blinded for a moment by his smile. He shakes himself, clearing his throat. "Thank you so much for staying late. Things at work are a little hectic right now, and then traffic was just insaneâŠ"
Steve waves him away. "No worries, stuff like that happens."
Tony nods, wincing. "I did call ahead but nobody answeredâŠ"
Steve winces. "Yeah, weâre a little understaffed right now. Natâs out with a cold and I couldnât leave Morgan alone to rush to the office, sorry." He pauses, frowning. "If you. Well, if you donât mind, I could give you my number. You could text me whenever youâre running late. Iâm staying here until 4 PM anyway, working on finally finishing my dissertation. Canât do that at home, way too many distractionsâŠIâve got two cats and a loud roommate." He cuts himself off, folding his arms over his chest.
If Tonyâs not mistaken, heâs sort of blushing. Tony didnât know men like that could blush.
But then again, he also didnât think men like that existed in real life.
He opens and shuts his mouth several times. Well, if you donât mind, I could give you my number. Tony definitely does not mind, although if Steve knew what Tony was thinking, heâd probably kick him out. Working on his dissertation, too. So heâs like, what, in his early thirties? Tony is way too old for him. Anyway, heâs probably straight. And even if he wasnât , heâs Morganâs teacher, which is a big, red NO.
"Yeah, okay, uh," Tony frees one hand to fish out his phone and hands it over.
Steve takes it with a smile, rapidly typing in his number, then hands it back over. Tony glances at his profile pic and freezes. Itâs him in profile, smiling a wide, happy smile andâholding up a bi flag? Yeah, thatâs definitely a bi flag. Tony narrows his eyes. Well. That could mean a lot of things. So heâs an ally, good for him. But if he was, wouldnât he carry around the general pride flag? The bi flag seemsâŠrather personal.
"Thanks," Tony says, looking back up. Steve is frowning. Maybe at his reaction? Tony wants to yell, Hey, me fucking too! What a coincidence! Wanna date? and then fall into Steveâs muscular arms, but thatâs hardly appropriate. Steveâs on the job. Also, unavailable for a lot of other reasons.
Steve smiles, awkwardly now. "Morganâs through here."
Right.
Tony smiles at Steve, then sticks his head through the door. Morgan does indeed look very sleepy where sheâs curled around her stuffed bunny in the nap corner, but she jumps up the moments she sees Tony and vaults straight into his arms. Itâs the best feeling ever.
"Hey, baby," Tony says, picking her up and hugging her close. "So sorry for being late."
"Sâokay, daddy," Morgan mumbles into his shoulder.
Tony leaves a smacking kiss on her cheek, making her giggle. "Look at you, sleepyhead. Time to head home, huh? Someone needs their nap."
"âM not a sleepyhead," Morgan mumbles, but her eyes are drooping.
Steve snorts. "See you tomorrow, Morgan."
Morgan raises her head from Tonyâs shoulder long enough to reach out toward Steve with one hand. Steve takes her hand in his and mimes kissing it. Morgan giggles. Tony could die from the cuteness. Heâs in so much trouble. Smiling, he looks back at Morgan. "Think you can walk to the car by yourself?"
"No!" Morgan says, affronted. Tony laughs.
Steve smiles again. He smiles a lot. Probably because, you know, his job is to be around kids, but itâs making Tonyâs insides twist. He awkwardly waves at Steve, then hurries out the door before he can embarrass himself further. God. He hasn't felt this way since, well, since ever. Shaking his head, he hurries to his car, fastening a half asleep Morgan into her seat. Then he sits himself behind the wheel and gets out his phone, staring at Steveâs profile pic for way too long.
Fuck. Heâs so fucking gorgeous. And that fucking bi flag. Tony used to be better at reading men. And situations. But itâs been so long, and. Whatever. He knows heâs making shit up here. This is nothing but wishful thinking. Steve just went above and beyond for a well-paying customer, thatâs all. But Tony has his number and thereâs no reason he shouldnât text him his back, in case of emergencies and. And whatever else.
He clicks on the blank message field before he can change his mind, quickly typing out Thanks again for staying late. This is Morganâs dad btw
The reply is instantaneous. no problem :) iâm happy to help
Haha I feel like I need to pay you extra for this. Next week will be crazy at work :o
haha no need, this is my job
No, I insist!! Youâre going above and beyond here
well, i wouldnât say no to a nice dinner ;)
Tony stares down at his phone, unblinking. Did he just. No way.
A moment later, a second massage comes through. shit sorry that was so inappropriate. pls forget i said anything. nat will kill me
Tony lets out a hysterical laugh in his car. What are the odds? What are the fucking odds? Smiling, he types out, Does Friday, 8 PM work for you? I know a good Italian in Williamsburg.
Steve takes forever to reply. Then: sounds good :)
Tony lets out a heavy breath. Well, there goes his good intentions. But Steve. Steve is special, Tony can already tell. Steve could beâwell, Tony probably shouldnât get ahead of himself here. With one last look at Morgan sleeping peacefully in the backseat, Tony starts the ignition. He smiles all the way home.
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Hi! How are you?đ„°
What do you think about the changes made in the English version of the game? I see very divided opinions, I decided not to download the game and stick with the Japanese one but I see many people complaining on facebook and tiktokđ©
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Mmm, I have a lot of opinions on the localization! Since there's a lot I want to say (many of it spoiler-y), I'm going to place it all under the cut. I may reblog/add more thoughts later, since I'm still playing through chapter 2 right now.
Please feel free to share what you think as well, dear readers! I'm curious to hear what others' reactions are to the localization. It'd be cool to get a discussion going.
My Thoughts on the TWST Localization:
Firstly, I have to say that I like the general look of the game. I think the fonts are nice to look at, and I appreciate the little flourishes they added here and there. For example, they kept the original Japanese names of locations under the English names when we transition to new areas. The one thing I have to say I dislike is the size of the text bubbles. They are much bulkier than the ones in the Japanese version and take up like a third of the screen. The text bubbles were much slimmer in the original, so that will take some getting used to.
They translated the Tree element as Flora and Null as Cosmic. They also changed a cardâs Attack stat to POW (like... Power?). These donât really affect the story, but they do feel a little odd to read for gameplay purposes. Ultimately, I donât mind these choices. I definitely enjoy Flora (like the fairy from Sleeping Beauty?) more than Tree, and Cosmic makes sense as a replacement for Null (since Cosmic encompasses both Light and Dark magic).
Now onto the meat of my thoughts!
Something that I noticed immediately was that there seems to be a lack of consistency with terms used. For example, Floyd uses both âLilâ Goldfishâ and âGoldfishieâ to refer to Riddle. Another example is in the prologue, when Azul uses the term âdorm leaderâ, whereas âhousewardenâ is used everywhere else. At the very least, âheadmageâ seems to be more consistently used.
I also noticed a few mistakes, which tells me that whoever did the proofreading did not do it well. For example, Ruggie calls one of the Scarabia boys (I believe Kalim) Kamil. Let that sink in. KAMIL. Not Kalim, not Jamil, but KAMIL. Thatâs a mistake that I would expect a first time TWST fan would make, not an official localization. Another big one was during chapter 1, when Cater is explaining Split Card. In reference to his clones, he says âI have no siblingsâ. This is false and actually contradicts canon information, as Cater is said to have a few older sisters in the Japanese version. There are also some punctuation/grammatical errors, like âgotallâ (spoken by Trey in chapter 2) missing a space. Itâs just... confusing and at some points unprofessional. Like, these things should have been caught and fixed earlier.
I think some of the wording they chose was... interesting? I donât agree with all of them, but they definitely gave off certain vibes. Alchemy became Potionology and Magift into Spelldrive, which makes NRC feel less like NRC and more like theyâre trying so hard to be Harry Potter. Thaumark was definitely unexpected (I thought theyâd stick with Madol?), but I kind of like it! It helps give Twisted Wonderland its character as a foreign land. I believe the âmarkâ part is derived from a European currency, and âthaumâ is a measure of magic, so when you break the word down, it isnât that hard to grasp. I am, however, conflicted with âsignature spellâ replacing unique magic; unique magic sounds more special and individualized to me than âsignature spellâ does.
Speaking of âsignature spellsâ, Treyâs Doodle Suit was changed to âPaint the Rosesâ???????? My guess is that it was done to make a more obvious Alice in Wonderland reference, since Riddle and Caterâs were left untouched. âPaint the Rosesâ may also be a reference to the Kanji for Treyâs unique magic in the Japanese version. I guess itâs just jarring when Treyâs voice says one thing, but the text says another, but other than that, I donât dislike the alteration.
I WAS FULLY EXPECTING THE CAT PUNS WITH CHEâNYA AND GRIM AND I WAS NOT WRONG đ (But luckily, they arenât as frequent as I thought they would be.)
IâVE HEARD THAT CHEKA CALLS LEONA âUNCAâ LEONA IN PLACE OF âOJITANâ abfhfahldilvsadvsiadsviadsviasvoasfvo THATâS???????? I mean, I get that they wanted to make Cheka seem cute and endearing, but... I donât know, âUncaâ sounds strange to me? In my experience, itâs a pretty uncommon phrase, even by 5-year old standards.
On the subject of nicknames... HORNTON for Tsunotaro. I know a lot of people donât like it, but personally? I think itâs fitting. Good for Malleus. It sounds silly to us, and thatâs because it is meant to be silly. The only reason Tsunotaro didnât sound silly is because many of us international players arenât fluent in Japanese. To someone who understands Japanese, Tsunotaro WOULD sound silly too. Hornton serves its purpose just fine.
UWU speak is canon in Twisted Wonderland. You can thank Ceremonial Robes Idia and his homescreen tap lines (about Lucius) for that. I honestly donât know how I feel about that, but itâs fantastic for the memes.
I suspected theyâd take out honorifics or not completely bring them over in translation (which turned out to be the case), but itâs super weird for me to read Sebek calling Malleus just by his name and no title attached. I do get that he wants to be Malleusâs friend, but in the Japanese version, Sebek still revered and respected Malleus, addressed him by a title...
One thing Iâve noticed a lot of people unhappy about is the use of big words. I donât mind it, really. We have students from all walks of life and with all kinds of personalities. Some of them are sure to talk differently than others. âBut they donât sound like high school students!â, you might say. Yeah. A lot of anime characters (and heck, even fictional characters in general) donât act like their age. I think itâs fine for the purposes of creative liberty and to help distinguish the characters from each other, especially in such a large cast. The decision to use big words outside of dialogue is also pretty cool, in my opinion. Old fashioned phrases like âphialâ, âvignettesâ, âsmorgasbordâ, etc. lend itself to the poshness of NRC, which is a school steeped in history and magic. However, the abundance of big words does lend itself into a negative point (which I will make later).
Some of the clever things they tried to do with the localization ended up coming across as awkward instead. An example of this is Cater deciding to call the âAdeuce combiâ (short, catchy) HUNTING SEASON (after a poker term where you hold an ace and a deuce card). I understand what they were going for, but Hunting Season is such a mouthful. Other times, thereâs puns they try shoving in or large words that read super weird in an otherwise normal sentence. Just because you can use big words doesnât mean that you should. They should be used sparingly and effectively to make an impact, not thrown around haphazardly just because you want to show off how big your dictionary is.
Honestly, I found the memes and modern slang off-putting. In trying to be âwith the timesâ, the slang and memes will actually date the game and I fear it will age poorly going forward.
It makes sense for some of the characters to have a looser way of speaking (Cater, Idia, Floyd, etc.), but it got to a point where it was excessive to read and took me out of the story. Cater and Idia are certainly âinternet kidsâ, so naturally, they would have the most âinternet slangâ... but??????? Who actually uses so many shorthand phrases (G2G, LOL, WTG, etc.) out loud instead of just saying the words they mean? Cater got especially grating to read because of him constantly shouting hashtags even during moments that were meant to be emotional, like Riddle crying after Overblotting. Cater. Buddy. Now is NOT the time to say â#WOWâ at your dorm leader having a breakdown. It makes it seem like Cater cannot read the mood, which shouldnât be the case for what we know of his character.
Floyd, well... I know that heâs a very fickle and âI do what I wantâ type of character, but seeing him shout things like âhairdryer go brrrrrâ, âyeetâ, and âyeah boiâ is strange to me???? And Iâm not sure why, because Floyd seems carefree enough to just shout whatever. I think itâs because those are things so heavily associated with old or semi-ironic internet culture that I canât help but see an old man walking in with a skateboard and going âhow do you do, fellow kids?â, trying to blend in and be âhip with the youthâ.
The strangest part of the localization (at least to me) was that they decided to change the laughs of several characters. (Ruggieâs ânishishiâ became âsyeheeheeâ, Liliaâs âkufufuâ because âkheeheeâ, and even Jadeâs âfufufuâ becamse âhee heeâ??????) Like... why? Was there something about their original laughs that sounded âtoo Japaneseâ, or could have been mistaken as something that wasnât laughter? Itâs such an odd translation choice to me.
Because of the culmination of all of this, the impression that I got while playing through and reading things was that the characters sometimes came off as entirely different versions of their Japanese counterparts. A lot can be conveyed about a character through their dialogue, and some of the choices made for the English dialogues paints the characters as oddly ânot themselvesâ, or like one extreme of their personality instead of a more well-rounded individual.
Overall, Iâm very mixed on the matter. It definitely wasnât the best localization, but it definitely could have been a lot worse, too. I havenât noticed any major censorship or changes, at least not this early in the game. The localization seems alright for what it is.
I will likely continue to play the English version along with the Japanese version just for the experience and the laughs.
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