#why am I me

[girlyteengirl16]

i feel more alone being with a group of people than i do actually being alone

#why am i me #actually mentally ill #lonliness #loneliest girl ever #i rather be alone #leave me the fuck alone #alone with my thoughts #feeling alone #always alone #leave me alone

[antisociallilbrat]

I L N U for the fic ask thing!

Wilbur I can always count on you to play these silly lil ask games, thank you

I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?

One of my guilty pleasures are a/b/o fics. Reading or writing them. I have no shame. They can be actually really good and the dynamics are always interesting. Tired of the negative stigma that some people can have with them.

L: How many times do you usually revise your fic/chapter before posting?

It depends, if its just a fic for an idea i just want to write out real quick I usually don't revise it but if it's a fic that i've been thinking about for a while or one I especially care about I'll revise it a few times- this why my writing style seems like it can vary 😭

N: Is there a fic you wish someone else would write (or finish) for you?

A lot of fics bc I love little ships so there's not a lot of content for them 🥲 but a fic of mine I would love for someone to finish for me would be my bichie fic with wheelchair user! Bill. I loved that fic but it just got away from me.

U: Share three of your favorite fic writers and why you like them so much.

AAAAAAAA okay. Wilbur you are one of them bc I loved how you wrote Girl!Mike and I completely adore your ongoing hsms au byler fic, your writing really puts you there in the moment with the characters.

Another one of my favorite fic writers is @grapesodatozier, I love how she writes Mike and Richie and if you're looking for good Wheelzier content I always recommend checking out Cami's blog. Mike is such a brat and she writes him so well.

Last but certainly not least is @the-angry-pixie they have written two of the best poly losers fics I have ever read. They never make a Loser feel pushed to the background and they display the love between the Losers so well. They also have a couple good byler fics too!

Fanfic Ask Game

#okay why can't i just put simple answers #why am i me #thank you wilbur for playing! #sam answers asks #ask game

[tellme-o-muse]

…I just realised I’m a horrible person who makes it difficult for people to disagree with me on mundane things. The question is whether it is succumbing to peer pressure or if I am a genuinely horrible friend (it’s the latter)

#I can feel it #i make a face if I disagree and most people cannot stand my face #Ough #why am I me

[gjoshmatheny]

#To Your Eternity #manga #anime #orange aesthetic #indie #aesthetic #hipster #nerd #nerdy #comic #comics #comic book #comic books #out of context manga #out of context comic panels #out of context comics #out of context anime #mood #why am i me #depression #anxiety #self awareness #mental illness #mental health #negative mental attitude #positive quotes #quotes #depression quotes #depression aesthetic #black and white

[faierius]

Guys, I absolutely do not recommend being a jaded cynic and also a romantic with severe trust issues. They just don't go together.

#why am I me #i hate being like this

[hailkiszka]

hmmmmm trying really hard to be okay tonight

#i just feel my heart dropping idk i think im just lonely and tired #i hate my anxiety i hatethat i feel stuck #why am i me

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[inkskinned]

at the end of the day it's not that you hate your job - actually, you like working, you like routine, you like feeling like an adult - it's that any time you fuck anything up, you feel like you're fucking dying.

because you could be actually fucking dying. because if one day you wake up and you misunderstood something - you could lose your job, and nobody is hiring, and nobody is paying, and nobody takes people like you, and that job you want hasn't gotten back to you. and what exactly are you going to do without insurance? good luck with those meds. you should have thought of that before being a person.

so it's not just that you forgot to CC someone on an email, it's that if you don't have this job, you can't afford rent. it's not that you misread a comment, it's that if you get fired, you will be in massive amounts of unpayable debt. it's not that you are bad at your job, but here are the stakes as they have been decided for you: be perfect or fucking die. like, literally, die. that is how much safety net you have: none.

it's not burnout, technically. but you literally just had two typos in your work, and you're already picturing the ending. you want to throw up & curl up & make it all go away. it is two typos. if he decides he is mad at you, you lose literally everything.

your mom says that you seem stressed. the thing is that you have never known a job that isn't stressful. welcome to capitalism. there is no other road, only this one. what the fuck is a career. you come here, and we hold your life against the barrel of a gun, and somewhere someone is spinning the chamber and pulling. eventually the bullet will come.

you live in a mugging. your boss owns three cars and has four kids. you worry about having enough to feed your dog. good luck. beg for forgiveness. CC the right people next time and be grateful, kid. somebody has it worse than you. someone, probably, has it worse than you. so what if you can't sleep or eat or focus. your work chat sound literally makes you panic. you had to change the sounds of computer notifications so you'd stop having such an upset stomach.

welcome to the real world! the rat race! the dog eat dog circus!

your doctor studies the results and frowns at you. "it's bad for your heart," she says. "try to reduce your levels of stress."

#spilled ink #warm up #i am OFF MY MEDS AND I FUCKING HATE IT #WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING #NOT GOOD FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[indigo6f00ff]

need to share an experience i had 30 minutes ago

(edit: thanks to @walks-the-ages for providing and reminding me to put alt text, sorry it slips my mind alot lol)

#my hands are still shaking to be quite honest i could not put a lot of effort into this. #but like. brain. why did you do that #literally i have been like hopelessly obsessed with de nonstop thinking abt it for the past couple of days it is Scaring me #it is terminal its soooo fucking chronic #disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #for anyone who wants to know i bumped into some guys car that was stopped for a school bus. i think my brain errored and thought #my foot was fully pressing down on the brake pedal but it wasnt. #i am like 99.99 percent sure neither of us had any major damage to our cars but we still filed a police report just in case #because insurance do be a bitch. dudes back bumper was scratched lightly and my front license plate has a dent now #also literally my first ever car accident that ive had ever yippee yay

[jeffffffffmza182]

The journey so far….

#photography #why am i me #alone with my thoughts

[rvros]

Me, before an important event, who knows I look terrible with any sort of fringe:

I should get a fringe

#rvro rambles #someone stop me #no it's too late #sweet mother theresa on the hood of a mercedes benz #yes I'm that old #jfc #why am I me

[hansoeii]

dear ed, I love everything about you.

#THE TEASER #I AM NOT OKAY #AHHHH #I was so nervous today that I had to draw something to calm my nerves #THEY'RE COMING BACK TO ME!! #i do not know why ed is wearing buttons shirt in that oen promo pic but i liek the vibe #ofmd #ofmd 2 #our flag means death #our flag emans death season 2 #ofmd fanart #ofmd s2 fanart #our flag means death fanart #stede bonnet #ed teach #gentlebeard #gentlebeard fanart #my art #digital art

[november-moon-longing]

a soliloquy on me

Why am I so tired? I have done literally nothing. All day. 24/7.

For a week.

#why am i like this #why am i me #so sleeeepy #so angsty #thanksgiving break #oh shiiiiiiiiiit biology homework is due

[schrodithecat]

Yearning

I am yearning, yearning to do something, I see everyone that do things, things that are great, that I like, that they get attention for, attention I want to get, but my hands can not make them, my hands can so rarely make things.

#why am i like this #why am i me #this is not a very neurotypical thing to write I think #attention seeking behaviour

[spaceshipkat]

congratulations! you’re now a pirate. your seventh most recent emoji is the symbol on your flag. mine is ™️

#akskdjdhdjsjs #why am i making another one #last one got 17k and i had to delete it #BUT I AM ALSO CURIOUS. COME ON LETS BE PIRATES. #REBLOG MY PRETTIES! #ive got editing brain #sorry #tag games #should anyone look at the tags yes im a colossal ofmd fan #it made me write fanfic for the first time in my writing career

[anna-scribbles]

last one i promise(<—lie)

#let’s as a society think more about why adrien wanted to go to school #and what. perhaps. he thought school was #i think the way chloe describes it she really is just a beautiful rich girl with too much time on her hands #and no one at school is treating her accordingly. #abby got so mad at me today because she thinks it’s too cringe that i keep taking about adrien liking ohshc #which is like. how are you gonna know me my whole life and then be disappointed when i’m cringe. #i’ve never hidden who i am. it’s cringe all the way down #anyway #ml #my art #miraculous ladybug #adrien agreste #chloe bourgeois #ohshc #wait i am gonna tag this thirteen actually. just go with me #thirteen