#why cant i just be happy

[envy-of-the-apple]

WHY IS SATOSUGU EVERYWHERE I LOOK PLS JUST LEAVE ME ALONE STOP REMINDING MEEE-

#I hate this ship so much #why cant i just be happy #i aint never seen two pretty best friends #one always dying #Satosugu #link click #hxh #atla

[simping4-2manyppl]

THIS SHOULD HAVE BEEN MEEE UGHH 😭💔 IM LITERALLY SO EMO WHY CANT HE BE MINE?! 😪😪

#tokio hotel #tom kaulitz #emo #sad thoughts #why cant i be happy #why cant i just be happy #😪😪😪 #my heart 💔💔💔 #my heart #i loved her #🤬 #😔💔

[merrcat]

Can today be over with already?

#selfie #cute selfie #boredom #bored #over today #over it #im over it #overthinking #over life #done with today #done with people #fucking done #done with life #done #im not okay #im done #can today just end #why cant i just be happy

[bundlofcigars]

With the amount of ts posts I have reblogged I think it is INCREDIBLY unfair that I have not become the toy soldier already :( I already have all the qualifications

*hands over my autism diagnosis*

#the mechanisms #the toy soldier #why cant i just be happy #(happy=the toy soldier)

[toastytransgal]

I wanna live a simple life, literally the dream is to have my own place, where I can just invite friends over and cook for them. That's it, like that's literally it. Maybe even ask for a job that doesn't drain my fucking soul??? A tall order apparently.

I feel like I'm literally asking for the BARE FUCKING minimum and it's not even enough. This system does not fundamentally work, how are there still people defending it.

The simplest dream of having literally enough fucking money to exist in the world is apparently a fucking pipe dream... If that doesn't drive you fucking insane than I don't know what will...

#fuck capitalism #fuck this system #this thought always just sends me spiraling #why is everything so expensive #why cant i just be happy #let me live my gay little life you fucks #you fucks being capitalists #im so tired

[that-one-furry-sky]

I’m getting tired of life…

Im fine

#i'm sad #why me god #i’m fine #i'm so fucking tired #why can’t i have nice things #why cant i be normal #why cant i just be happy #why am i like this #why do i do this to myself #why why why

[th1nm0nsterenergy]

alright here are some new rules to satisfy my brain for a bit

🌙skip breakfast

🌙lunch twice a week

🌙 i cant control my dinner since i live in a host family so just portion myself smaller portions and only grab one serving

🌙 no snacks in school/ after school

🌙aim for 10k steps

🌙workout the days i do eat lunch

🌙avoid: crisps, oily food, sweets, liquid calories (alc included), and fried food

#i want to cry lol #back at this again #i’m not doing well #why cant i just be happy

[saltysatellite804]

My dog had a dizzy spell today (he had it a couple years ago and strongly suspected vestibular syndrome) and got steroid meds but hes just not feeling well and crying a lot and wont eat yet (could be nausea from the meds). But I'm just too stressed to do anything but stress today. Especially since I had to call into work and use the little bit of ppto I had cuz of mental health days I've taken. It's not fair this shit always happens.

#why is life so hard #is it supposed to be this hard #i just wanna cry #i hope my baby will be okay #i just cannot keep up with everything and im always so stressed #why cant i just be happy #vent ig #im already stressing about what everyone at my work thinks of me #can i just #feel better for a change

[blackquillchillin]

Realizing you internalized some shit is the worst, especially when you know no one you actually care about meant to teach you that.

Mom didn't mean to encourage stereotypes, but she wasn't aware of them herself.

Your favorite teacher didn't mean to teach you life was meaningless if you didn't marry and have kids and be a good wife, but she was one voice amongst a huge congregation all telling you the same steps for happiness.

No one meant to tell you to hold it in and hold it together no matter how close to bursting you get so you aren't a burden on others, but you live in a society that views negative emotions as something wrong, and as a small member of a big family it was easier to just stay quiet so no one else gets upset.

No one meant to tell you getting help was shameful. But the older generation told you it was no one else's business when your siblings spiraled, and to just say they were not feeling well. (It wasn't anyone else's business, but behind closed doors was the only time anything like it was addressed)

No one who actually matters wanted to hurt you.

The only thing worse then realizing you internalized some fucked up shit is seeing it and refusing to change.

But dear God it is exhausting.

#personal #life #delete later #why is this happening #why is this so hard #why cant i just be happy

[dxwnpxors]

Homelander wip!!! (im never gonna finish this thing ((I CANT DRAW HIS STUPID HAIR)))

#the boys #homelander #fyp #art #digital art #send help #why cant i just be happy #cringe #current wip

[arcus-sagitta]

Why can’t I ever be happy??? (every show I watch ends up very tragic despite starting out fun)

#tv #tv shows #jujutsu kaisen #geto suguru #gojo saturo #good omens #aziraphel #crowley #hunter x hunter #gon freecss #killua zoldyck #tragic #why cant i just be happy

[cora-devil]

I have so many things going wrong in my life rn and I'm feeling so hopeless and I know I'm very close to have another depressive crises. I don't even know what to do except cry.

#depression is a bitch #life is shit #why cant i just be happy

[transylvanilla]

Real genuine fear that makes my throat tighten, theres so much pressure in my head and crying makes it worse. All I'm doing is hurting myself by imaging bad things that could happen but havent happened yet and probably wont. I know this, but my brain tells me if I sit here and do nothing to prevent it then it might happen. Theres no winning.

Ive begged people I love not to hurt me and they still did. I dont have that option. Theres nothing I can do and its stressful and scary. I have no choice but to trust that she wont hurt me, and I trust her sossosooooooso much but that 0.000001% chance scares me more than it should. The only thing I think I can do is show/tell her how much she means to me as much as I can. In any way I can think of. Someone like her wouldnt hurt someone like that. Theres no way.

Im still afraid it might happen no matter what I do. I dont know how to deal/cope with this so I just get stressed when it resurfaces. I think it upsets her. I dont know how to make it stop and I dont know how to cope or ignore it but I wish I did. Its annoying and even more stressful because whenever I fail to cope and get anxious and cry and explain myself I sound crazy, I sound hard to deal with. I'm so scared one day she'll think I'm not worth dealing with.

I know how unhealthy it sounds but I dont know what Id do if the worst happens. Ive never been friends with/dated anyone like her, Im convinced theres no one exactly like her, and from the bottom of my heart I can say I will love her always. I hope I never give her any reason to stop loving me. I hope if I do she can forgive me.

#vent #readme #actually borderline #borderline personality disorder #bpd #why cant i just be happy #im happy but sometimes im Not and its for No Good Fucking Reason #my brain chemically dislikes being happy for longer than 2 months #autism #asd #actually autistic

[melloeyed]

Ao3 is down and I am very upset 😵😵😵

#why cant i just be happy #i swear life sucks so much #ao3

[toxicknightaesthetics]

Honestly why do I keep hurting my own feelings with my daydreams,

I'm just trying to enjoy a quick hyper-fixation moment in peace but I keep getting bombarded by thoughts of "well that wouldnt really happen" or "he wouldn't like you like that" or especially "BUT YOUR BY YOURSELF"

That one seems to repeat a lot,I feel crazy sometimes. Don't I deserve to have a good daydream dammit ?🤣😤

#dan avidan #ninja sex party #game grumps #pauly shore #eddie munson #adhd things #hyper fixations #why cant i just be happy #honestly my mind hurts

[x-prodigy]

Anyways, I'm starting to notice that I think they're never going to use Prodigy as a character again because of how HORROBLY they fumbled him last year and now I'm sad.

#im so scared #why cant i just be happy #prodigy #david alleyne #I DONT CARE ABOUT WICKLING AND HIS FUCKING GOBLIN BOYFRUIEND. #GIVE ME MY PRODIGY