#why cant someone care

[robinmage]

one thing i really appreciate about jinshi's character is how he has NEVER once actually had any intention of succeeding the throne. every time the idea is brought up he immediately detests it. so hes giving maomao as much as he possibly can, even though maomao has many qualms about it due to their difference in social status, but jinshi DOESNT CARE because hes NEVER cared about or wanted the status of crown prince! its been nothing but a burden to him! from his perspective the ONLY thing keeping the two of them apart are outside influences. he has no doubt within himself-- hes horribly down bad, in fact. but unfortunately his stupid JOB is getting in the way of him skipping off into the sunset with his favourite little cat

#jinshi literally maiming himself infront of the emperor and empress: “can you please fire me so i can marry the girl of my dreams” #emperor: “no. now go to the west capital relatively unsupervised with the girl of your dreams andpromise REAL HARD u wont something stupid” #also not to mention i think maomaos problem isnt that she doesnt want to marry jinshi bc she doesnt care about him-- she cares abt him A LO #which is precisely why shes convinced herself she cant marry him. she wants whats best for him and #she wholeheartedly believes that marrying her is the EXACT OPPOSITE of whats best for him. #like she has. yknow. not the prettiest of backgrounds. growing up in a brothel might do that to you #shes mentioned before- shes basically a commoner. she has her biologicaldad but hes more of a wildcard selfmade man with no real connection #and she doesnt even like him. #but she just CANNOT comprehend that someone would sacrifice so much for her and ask for nothing in return but her company #i just love them a lot your honour. #the apothecary diaries #the apothecary diaries spoilers #for the anime/manga onlies #READ THE LIGHT NOVEL #kusuriya no hitorigoto #kusuriya no hitorigoto spoilers

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

#witch hat tag #orufrey #these kinda suck lol i feel like i cant draw right now *irritated sigh* BUT I FEEL EMOTIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #if you are gay go watch good omens season 2 right now. NO YOU DONT KNOW THO!!!!!!!!! #i know being this affected by good omens is probably cringe. I dont care any more. the last 1 minute of good omens season 2 was #some of the most affecting acting i've ever seen in my life. sometimes someone acts with the force as if their entire career led to that #like during the credits part the very end im not even talking about before that. holy god #aziraphale i know everything about you. i know what you are feeling right now. i can see everything on your face. we're going to make it #ER.... NOT THAT THIS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS POST. IT'S NOT SPOILERS !!!!!!!!!!!!! #I JUST FEEL THOROUGHLY CHANGED !!!!!!!!!!! SHIT GETS REAL FROM NOW ON.. LIKE IN GENERAL! IN MY LIFE! #tormented gay love tormented gay love TORMENTED GAY LOVE TORMENTED GAY LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #btw the first 3 images were drawn earlier with an entirely different feeling and an entirely different mood. #Why do you keep pulling away from me? #It is because i love you that i do this #the lyrics from one of my japanese orufrey songs (A SONG THAT THE CREATOR LISTENS TO!!!!) led to feelings #“あなたが知らない私を残さず見ててほしいの” but i'm not translating it cause it just sounds weird. if with his eyes oru's asking “WHY don't you want #to let me in? to see all of you?“ those lyrics are like ”I actually want you to see every last bit of the parts of me you don't know“ #oru you have no idea how much i want to lay bare my whole soul for you #maybe it's an alternate version of chapter 40. to me #i need to draw something really fucking good or i'm not going to forgive myself. i will not rest in this life #until i have made the orufrey that fully satisfies me nor until i have seen what the manga is leading to #NO STORY MEANS ANYTHING WITHOUT TORMENTED GAY LOVE AT THE HEART OF IT. THATS THE HEART OF THIS WORLD!!!!! #........... so Hi im normal :) haha *goes and finally makes breakfast*

[princealberich]

the "empath" shit really did a disservice to autistic & adhd people who suffer from hyper-empathy

#zchat #its Not Fun Cutesy uwu i care too much or Magical Spiritual Intuition #it sucks is what it is #if im near someone whos in a megative mood my Whole rest of the time until i encounter a good mood is bad #its damaging!!!!! its bad!!! its bad for Everyone!!! #its one of the contributing factors of why i cant watch movies or series too often #because when bad stuff happens to the characters i get TOO stressed and not in a fun way

[haunted-xander]

So. Fatebreaker, right? Ryne's biggest fears made manifest, daddy issues personified, yes?

He's an amalgamation of Thancred and Ran'jit, his face, his voice and his weapon is Thancred's, but his body, his fighting style and his words are Ran'jit's.

Throughout the fight Fatebreaker constantly makes comments about how only he can protect Ryne, only he can provide for her, only he has even the right to so much as stand beside her, to be in her general presence. He's possessive and obsessive, repeatedly asserting that she is HIS and his only. Which is exactly what Ran'jit says basically every time we encounter him.

But this time it's in Thancred's voice. This time it's with the voice and face of a man she actually cares about.

Ryne isn't scared of Thancred, she never has been. Even when she first met him she was barely even nervous (as clearly shown in Thancred's short story). There's a lot of different feelings happening between those two, but fear has never been one of them.

But now, after things have gotten so much better, she is scared of Thancred becoming like Ran'jit. Because if Thancred was just a little further gone, if he was just a little less compassionate, he would've. It wouldn't be hard for him to go down the same path as Ran'jit did, to be incapable of letting go of the ghost of that girl he loved so so much to the point he'd stubbornly grip anything close to her he could. He didn't, but the fact he could've is terrifying.

It makes his final words, words that are Thancred's, so very important. This is her deepest fears made manifest, but he still says he wants her to be happy. Her happiness not only matters, but is important to him.

#Now we -the audience- ofc knew Thancred was unlikely to go down that path #bc if theres one thing hes been consistent in even in his darkest moments its living up to his loved ones' wishes and legacies #the only time he even speaks against it is his conversation w minfilia in amh araeng #and thats more a case of all his (poorly) repressed grief and stress exploding than him actually meaning what he says #and trying to control rynes life after minfilia literally told him to just let her live her life goes directly against that #i think about fatebreaker a lot. as i do all things related to ryne & thancred #and to me its so important to note that hes more or less ran'jit with just enough thancred in him to be *too* thancred for comfort #its so. her greatest fear isnt even the thing thats been haunting her her whole life (being forced to fill in for minfilia) #its having her free will taken from her by the person she cares about the most (thancred) #and for him to be trapped in endless suffering because he cant move on #just like ran'jit did and was #its not even necessarily that shes all that scared of ran'jit himself #what shes scared about is caring about someone like that #because then she wont say no or try to be anyone but minfilia #(thats also why this fear appears specifically after things get better) #(because she was already ready to forsake herself if it eased thancred suffering) #okay im gonna stop now i need to sleep gnight everyone #ryne waters #thancred waters #ran'jit #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #xander rambles #at this point i should make a tag for ryne ramble posts i make so many of them #tomorrow. maybe. if i remember #edit: i made it #xander being insane about ryne

[nevarroes]

can i be honest i never understood artists getting so mad or hurt about breaking mutuals or whatevr. like unfollowing without soft blocking or actually blocking

#its always giving insta mentality to me #not artist insta private one w the “im not ur fan remove me” #most mutual follows happen because i liked someones art nd they liked mine why does it matter so much if one party stops #like maybe smth u draw just makes me uncomfortable. maybe i just dont fw ur current fandom why do we make it SO personal #u couldnt pay me to care that much unless we actually were friends nd talked before and not just mutuals #im not saying that u cant feel hurt about unreasonable things right but the fact that this is the default idk…. idk dawg #maybe someone just doesnt like the art anymore im sorry why do u always assume its max level malicious #i also say artists specifically because i feel like that? should not just be about the person? #if someone doesnt like my art anymore (without straight up hating ME) I still like theirs like why r u guys always so petty

[kusuokisser]

saiki angst hc because i need him to suffer more than i am at any given time

saiki rarely feels genuine emotion. not in the way its displayed in the show, but in the way that the most he feels at any given time (unless something is happening to draw a specific emotion) is discontent with himself. he doesnt like that he is like this, but he cant bring himself to care past that.

he also has really low emotional permanence, so whenever he DOES feel a stronger emotion it usually leaves within a few minutes. his whole life is spent either chasing something that he views as his last connection with humanity or praying that he wont have to feel anything ever again.

on one hand, feelings are something fundamentally average. fundamentally human. something saiki would kill to have, if only to feel less like an other

on the other hand, feelings are truly bothersome. he doesnt like the back and forth of it all, and he especially doesnt like how disgusting it can be sometimes. he would much rather remain in a very constant, very neutral, emotion rather than constantly having to worry about preserving a mental state that wont last forever anyways.

and deep down, so deep that he doesnt even think about it, he doesnt care. he doesnt care about the apathy, the desire, the repulsion; none of it. all he wants is a connection. a connection, to anyone or anything, just to be able to connect. he doesnt care what state it is hes found in, as long as hes found..right? someone is going to love him despite himself..right?

#constant apathy fucks with your head #i imagine that especially with kusuo it would make him feel unlovable #why would anyone want to stick around someone who cant even be happy for more than a few minutes right? #who would want to be around the guy who doesnt care right? #he doesnt get it #the whole connections thing #recently in my fic i compared him to a beached whale hoping for a wave to come in and drag him back out to sea #and i thinnnkkk i should talk about that separately another time #five thinks too much #saiki k #saiki no psi nan #kusuo saiki #saiki kusuo #disastrous life of saiki k #saiki #kusuo #saiki kusou no psi nan #the disastrous life of saiki k #saiki kusuo no ψ nan #kusou saiki #the disaster of psi kusuo saiki #saiki kusou #tdlosk

[naturecalls111]

Wish I never had to sleep I wish I could just stay awake all the time and do nothing but draw and had no responsibilities

#nc111 talks #I remember once telling a friend that my ideal partner is one who takes care of everything for me #i dont even have to love them they just help with everything i need to have to survive while i draw #and she was shocked #she said she didn't expect that from me and that it couldn't be healthy i felt that way #and i was like #well. yeah. thats why its an ideal. that would never work ever in an irl context. the inevitable power dynamic diff is why i dont pursue it #like. i know thats not how irl relationships work and i would never subject a partner to that #i would never want someone I love to actually just deal with shitty stuff themselves while i stay selfish lol #hence why its a fantasy where i dont have to focus on an unachievable romance #i have a fantasy of the perfect romance in my head but the other ideal seems more attainable. that's why say fuuucckk it #someone does my taxes while i draw #imagine.... WHY WOULDNT THAT BE IDEAL? #Anyway im just rambling because i have class tomorrow and im upset i cant just stay up all night and draw everything i want to #anyone want to take a guess why im so extremely charmed and in love with sanji... LMAO

[skunkes]

dynamic

#a doodley #this is also why i dont think talon cld permanently replace al...i cant get any comfort from him 😭 #he'd probably tune out if i spoke more than a sentence to him #BUT sometimes u wanna care for someone.... #also idk. recent happenings have shown im the stayer i will always stay. #this is both an exploration of that in the aftermath while also having it as idk. a good thing? i do love talon...ykwim....idk #balancing it all out....al cares more for me and it makes me feel guilty in my brain -> #make a guy who you care about more than he cares about you #i do think he'd eventually ''get better'' in the sense of letting his guard down more and being just a bit more considerate #but he'd obvs never be al levels of gushy attentive caring loving open sensitive etc

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #p4g #persona 4 #persona 4 golden #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #so its canon then that yosuke tends to forget to take of himself when he gets busy/stressed/etc then :) #yosuke's already a lanky ass like my guy stop making people worry about you!!! #also i like juxtaposing this against his group cafe date like of wanting to date someone he can look after because its both #bro you cant even take care of yourself #but also yosuke understanding himself enough that to be cared for is to be loved #anyway this is why you should always always have lunch with yosuke and feed him thanks for coming to my ted talk #OK BUT I also love that it's something that yu noticed about yosuke too because its so closely related to how he does. you know. #feed his friends food as a metaphor for love and all that and how yosuke hasnt had much attention (from him) lately #ok jk I'll stop being delulu but also really. #i feel a lot of Feelings about how yosuke and chie are the later members to awaken their 3rd tier #for meta reasons obviously it's also the fact that after maxing out yosuke's slink there arent as many opportunities to hang out #and there are so many good fics of that i slurp it all up #but for yosuke to point it out makes me so. SO. #anyway one final note is also yes i commented about how yosuke wasnt really doing a great job looking after himself but #i also think about his later comment that when people are relying on him it makes him want to do his best for others #and how he says he will always be there for his partner #and it makes me interpret all of that as yosuke being very roundabout in saying that he wants the two of them to look after each other #he's good with his queue

[koipalm]

i also like the idea of jon and gerry meeting in college

#jonathan sims #my art #the archivist #tma #tma spoilers #the magnus archives #gerard keay #gerry delano #'kii why cant you post refined pieces' #BECAUSE... THERES STILL MORE TO DRAW..... #jongerry #lighting someone elses cigarette is one of the most intimate gestures. in my opinion #gerry (guy who is touchstarved) gets one cigarette kiss and immediately decides he would die for the guy #they are so romantic... THEY ARE.... SO ROMANTIC..... #heres how jongerry can still win. tbh. if you even care #jon sims

[hyperfixatedfandomer]

Spider wasn’t supposed to be tough. He was supposed to be safe.

#and none of those mf could provide it for him. #Spider got an emotional security with Sully siblings but never that physical protection and care he so desperate needed #With Quaritch he got SOME physical protection but little to no emotional support #WHY CANT SOMEONE JUST DO BOTH FFS #avatar spider #spider socorro #avatar 2 #avatar way of water #avatar quaritch #atwow #atwow spider #spider atwow #recom quaritch #avatar the way of water #avatar jake

[starlightsuncrow]

 The way i drew these each per month and my style decides to do its own thing keeps making me chuckle tbh They are my yearning experience and my comfort and my-

#gw2 #guild wars 2 #gw2 fanart #gw2 sylvari #gw2 oc #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #i think a lot how the commander has to be so touch starved but just like everything else they cant and wont do anything about it #it's their problem why should they burden someone with it and im like!!! PLEASE DO #You can take care of youself but let someone take care of you together *bites the wall* #caoimhe #cardamomo #crow #selkastra

[strawberrybyers]

it’s crazy to me that the hawkins family photos insta account hasn’t been clocked by netflix or the duffers when that account has thousands of followers posting high def pics where you obviously have to be near or on the set to capture them, but when we wanted the official scripts from that guy that would post scripts for MULTIPLE SHOWS FOR YEARS, he was taken care of with a swiftness 😭😭

i’m not saying hawkins family photos needs to be taken down. i’m just saying that it’s interesting they didn’t want us to see those scripts from episodes we’ve already seen, but high def pics where like obviously ppl who work on set would potentially see the person taking pics of season 5 is just going about their day???? nahhh something was in those scripts that was legit. something was in there they didn’t want us to see i swear. they told us those scripts were fake but idk something’s fishy 🤨🧐

#once again thinking about scriptgate #LIKE WILL RECOGNIZING DR BRENNER?? YEAH DUFFERS THATS RIGHT I HAVENT FORGOTTEN ABOUT THAT!! #i have no idea if hawkins family photos is the one taking the pics or if someone who works on set sends it to them #regardless #you’d think an account with that many followers would be taken care of or something like for all this time of filming they haven’t been #caught??? #like a show like stranger things is obviously going to have PAs and security so ppl cant just hang around #like if they can create a large distance between ppl and the set then they will #so idk just interesting #i’m thinking that hawkins family photos is created by someone on set and it’s part of marketing #and that the scripts were actually legit that’s why it was taken care of #that’s why nothings happening to HFP bc it’s controlled spoilers #scriptgate #byler #stranger things

[haunted-xander]

This started as just a redraw of an old Chiluc comic except I got carried away so. here ya go!

#chiluc is so so so complicated to me #diluc hates the fatui and everything they do and stand for but when met with someone who does everything for those he cares about hed cave #and childe knows what hes doing is fucked up but doesnt care enough to change paths and he doesnt get how diluc can look past that #bc diluc is angry and justifyably vengeful yet he treats childe like hes normal #despite bring well aware of what childe does and his stance on it #and it confuses him so much it makes him uncomfortable #bc diluc has rigid morals that he wont budge on yet can still look childe in the eyes without wanting to kill him #its a big ol 'wtf why do u like me stop that. thats weird. im weird and bad and fucked up u cant like that.' #and 'why do i like this guy hes everything ive dedicated myself to eradicating yet i cant bring myself to do so without express reasoning' #its a MESS #childe #tartaglia #ajax #diluc ragnvindr #chiluc #genshin impact #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art

[poems-of-a-lover]

will never be over this honestly

#BC WHAT THE HELL. WHAT. #WHYYYY DID THEY. WHY!!!!! #they knew good and well...... #god. insane!! #'world class insomniac' yeah right #seriously tho the 'i cant fall asleep easily (falls asleep immediately around That Person)' trope GETS ME #its so important to me #feeling a level of safety and trust and comfort in someone to be able to fall asleep around them is so special #shoutout to My Guy who ive fallen asleep on call with multiple times JGHSKJK unmatched imo #the way that they both just look so incredibly comfortable. literally not a care in the world. #they forgot abt their status and the rest of the world and everyone else bc they were with each other!!!! do u get it!!!!!!! #goodness i need to go to bed its nearly 2 am #this film is going to be the death of me #rwrb #red white and royal blue #alex claremont diaz #henry fox #henry george edward james hanover stuart fox

[sharlsainz]

maurice CLIVE from the movie maurice (1987) was foul actually. wdym you get offended when he was at lost of words from you subtly confessing to him. then to leave him alone like that? like ik you were so jealous of him getting on with another guy even tho you have a whole wife at home. like attend to your happiness is probably the coolest fuck you like, ever.

#maurice #maurice 1987 #im yours once till death if you'd care to keep me but im someone else's now i cant hang about whining forever #and he's mine in a way that shocks you so why don't you stop being shock and attend to your own happiness #i think about that whole monologue at least once a day #hugh grant #james wilby #rupert graves