#why i didnt report

[moeblob]

I am really tired of a situation rn.

#fe three houses #felix hugo fraldarius #me using felix on my angy days because he is my angersona? you bet! #anyway if you want to try to get someones money or something bc you hurt your own car banging into mine #can you try to be a bit more timely with it buddy come on you hit me on feb29 ! #why am i getting your insurance company calling me today ! #also i would like to point out i didnt do it and neither of us were hurt and i filed a claim with my own insurance comp #and also filed a police report bc he didnt even suggest calling the cops to the scene #so like yeah hey man maybe you and your insurance company can move a lil faster or smth #literally everything that happened the day of is - according to my dad - an intimidation tactic #i look like im 15 and he probably thinks he can take advantage of a new driver but ya know! tough luck! #im just really tired and stressed over multiple things not negative so getting this on top of it was like #bro .................... anyway my phone didnt pick up for some reason so i called back and then nothing got resolved #cause the person who actually called me wasnt around to connect the line to from the guy who answered #idk man just its a lot despite my v minimal energy #got a job interview on monday tho ! and then also next week is an eye exam #and you might be thinking isnt that a good thing to get your eyes checked? you are correct but i am horrified #there are two body parts that give me absolute anxiety and eyes are one of them #and i know my eye sight is declining and im just v anxious #its fine im going to be fine i just have to be anxious about it

[almost-nostalgic]

Art delayed due to me losing my glasses in a freak go karting accident. I'm not kidding, I am so blind without my glasses, and I only have my prescription sunglasses now.

Here's what I was working on, and very much intend to finish once I have new glasses.

This is referencing the classic baphomet pose, btw. I guess you can also see my current process with this? I've been working with lighter to darker colours, making the shapes cleaner as I go. It also means the colours look nice.

I am furious that I can't currently do the cross hatching I like, without my glasses. I have to be literally 10cm from the pages to draw accurately. Literally FINALLY got to a point in which I'm happy with an art piece, and now I CANT DRAW IT.

#went go karting for my friends bday and had a great time #sad that i cut it short by losing my helmet glasses and hair net in a crash #those helmets were DANGEROUSLY loose. i was wearing the smallest size. ive left a scathing review and reported them to work safe #the helmet issue is the tip of the iceberg with safety there #anyways lol #dungeon meshi spoilers #almost art #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #winged lion #religious imagery #cw religious imagery #cw caps #idk why ryoko made him so shapely but it gives me more places to add excessive detail so i dont mind #dungeon meshi fanart #delicious in dungeon fanart #winged lion fanart #i was second by 0.2 seconds btw. i swear on my life i wouldve won if i didnt almost lose my head

[fonixen]

What else is going bump in the night?

#my art #witherburn after school news #wasn #you know whats been on my mind since is listen to ep 14? #why didnt birdie tell the reporter that someone was there? #birdie is usually listening in on the podcast- we know this because of he messages #hell in ep 15 she messages the reporter to ask if shes okay #unless the storm brough down birdies power and she couldnt listen to the ep #i dont think shes going to be malicious but ive got my eye on yoh birdie #or she straight up could bave not been listening that time #who knows djddj

[redpenship]

a double flash event near empire territory has been detected by satellites

#unless eggman just doesnt test his nukes at all #although he could do underground tests #im actually a little intrigued by his decision to murder-suicide by launching an SLBM at station square while he was still there in sa1 #why use surface burst? its like he wasnt trying to maximize destruction at all #moreover how was he able to get a ballistic missile submarine so close to station square #coast guard was sleeping? #also SLBMs are mostly used as second strike (retaliation) rockets since theyre more likely to survive a first strike due to being underwate #where are your normal icbms eggman #maximizing retaliatory capacity is beta nuclear power behaviour #dont you want to set the standard for what your enemy can strike? loser #unfortunately i was forced to read 400 pages about nuclear programs + development last weekend and its rotting my brain #tons of nuclear accident reports too #theyre kinda wild like these morons actually drove a bomber into a warehouse full of nukes that should have blown up a significant #chunk of england. and they just didnt go off so they got very lucky #also reactors used to catch on fire a lot #redposts

[that-cynical-bittch]

The new episode of gen v sucked 😭

#I loved the first 3 eps so much I was looking forward to this all week #wtf was that with Jordan and Marie?? that came out of nowhere #I was hoping for a build up or enimes to lovers or even a hate fuck but that? so bad. #also the whole sam and Emma subplot is waaaaaayy too rushed #like the first thing she says to him his ep is like ‘I’ll never leave you’? it’s been 8 hrs calm down #you have no reason to like this man #also the reporter plot was just weak #AND WHY DIDNT THEY SHOW SAM ESCAPING THEY JUST JUMPED FORWARD FROM YHE CLIFF HANGER?!?!! WHAT!??!!! #gen v #gen v ep 4 #the boys #marie moreau #jordan li #Emma Meyer #sam riordan #andre anderson #cate dunlap

[bombusbombus]

Did I ever actually post abt my JLI Glass Onion AU. With Clark Kent in his gay little outfits on an island full of deranged idiots (affectionate)

#jli #that's it that's the AU #skeets “you didnt seriously think that sweatshops were where they made sweatpants” dot jpeg #I swear I talked aboit this before #but I cant findit anywhere #“why isn't batman the detective” I hear you ask. #answer: vibes are all off. Clark is already an investigative reporter #plus: “im not batman.” [STIFLED LAUGHTER FROM THE KITCHEN]

[otlwoozi]

started trying to post kpop fanart on reddit n my first piece (dinito wait) got taken down im giving up

#at least when people send hate anons on tumblr or report me on twt i can see the reason why theyre mad #for reddit it rll is just... idk they didnt want to look at my art? lmao?? its literally just wait mv dinito #trying out new soc meds is crazy #reddit barely even a socmed rll #anyway ily tumblr #it talks

[oorevitcejda]

did anyone notice the spiderman that says "nowhere left to run, kid" before miles breaks out of the glass is the spiderson for metro boomin(?) its his style and the mask and braids from the album art on the official music channel on youtube

#its so cool that all the musicians involved have their own spider-man #across the spiderverse #spiderman across the spiderverse #spider man across the spider verse #ti talks #metro boomin #if you cant and already did #spoilers; #hobie called Beter a name before he runs after mayday #and i think there was a second longer spent on the spot back in brooklyn? #i tried to remember what it was. humble or bumble or something spiderman 'to the rescue' #idk if that was new but i heard a rumor that they were different for like a few seconds and idk why? #like how the first theater release of lion king didnt have the morning report as a song but the dvd version did #anywayyyy #spidersonas #are so cool even the rappers and musicians involved have spider sonas and one even got a voice line #the one whos name is on the album. metro boomin. good for them! good for them! #how fucking cool is that i love this movie so much the art the spund the music the love poured into every frame its all so good go see it #if you can

[dumbf1sketches]

Idk if you’ve seen this but since you also like jendo I obviously have to share. I see we’re having a jendo renaissance. Praise the lord I am ready for it

I had NOT and the knowledge of this surfacing in my emails one day may possibly get me through the remainder of the year!! Also the fact that you now associate me with Jendo does things to my heart 🥹!!

#ask #you saved me from posting a truly miserable oscar scrap so that i could vent in the tags #the work situation is getting weirder and worse #got called into the office and my boss was like “were you assaulted by staff member A on friday” #and i went “is it assault if i don't remember it?” to which she went “....do you have ptsd?” #and i of course went “is it ptsd if you don't remember it?” #she asked why i didnt report it when we have been reporting the escalating behaviour and threats for months #and I couldn't say “I didn't want to cry in front of you again only for nothing to be done about it?” #ugh whatever just hit me on cctv next time #also it was nothing serious but the person who was with me at the time reported it #like it wasn't great #but also im completely desensitized to their wildly inappropriate behaviour at this stage

[theclosetedskeleton]

please please please let my phone not be on its shenanigans anymore. my stupid pleading isnt gonna do shit but i don't wanna confront my parents about my phone being technically broken it stressing me out bad idk if will they'll yell at me

#ughh its making me so scared #what if they decide to not let me have a phone because “You were supposed to take care of your old one” #what if I get punished?? #will they be mad?? shocked?? disappointed?? i didnt do anything to it i found it like this this afternoon idk how it happened #will they listen to me about that?? #who will?? #maybe my mom #idk about my dad #whats gonna happen too?? is it possible to repair?? #probably #am i being dramatic rn omhyg #well this isnt pairing up with the fact report cards are gonna be next week!!! laugh track #theyre going to get mad at me for some reason #theye mad at me theyre mad at me idk why but they are #im doingsomething wrong im doing sm #closet rambles again on tumblr

[theygender]

I've been trying to figure out and justify why I've been experiencing so much fatigue lately. At first I thought I may have developed anemia from my endometriosis making me bleed for 8 weeks straight but my blood tests came back fine. Maybe I'm just exhausted bc I had to work that entire time while actively sick? But I had quite a few days off to rest this month and I haven't been as sick recently, so what gives? Turns out I didn't need to look for an outside source. Apparently fatigue is one of THE most common symptoms of endo and it's just not mentioned often bc most doctors underestimate the impact fatigue can have on people's lives 🙃 The call is coming from inside the fucking house

#endometriosis #just decided to google if endo itself can cause fatigue and uh. turns out it fucking can! #one study im reading here had ~85% of participants with endo report pain. ~50% report heavy bleeding. and 100% report fatigue #that would make fatigue a more common symptom of endometriosis than the symptoms that DEFINE endometriosis #WHY have i never seen fatigue mentioned on any other resource before 😭 why did my DOCTOR not mention it #jk. one of the articles literally says that its under-discussed and under-researched bc most doctors dont think fatigue is a big deal #tell that to me sleeping through all of my fucking alarms missing class missing appointments and being late for work #rambling #at least i know now i guess #ive been having to explain myself to my professors and my boss and ive been correcting myself #to say 'fatigue from my chronic illness' instead of 'chronic fatigue' bc i didnt think this counted #but. looks like it fucking does. endo can cause chronic fatigue. fuck #can i just get this fucking hell machine taken out of me already #its not like im using it. and a month or two of recovering from surgery would be better than a forever of pain and gi issues and fatigue #menstruation tw

[sastiel-is-my-serotonin]

It's a bit hard for me to fully understand how bad first grade was for me. Not because the schoolwork was difficult, because I felt too challenged in a academic sense. I struggled, but not because the work was difficult, but because of the racism I dealt with.

My biggest problem that entire year had to of been my teacher. Starting from mispronouncing my name and refusing to say it properly. Accusing me of cheating on my projects because of how well they were done. While I did get help, she assumed my mom had always done all the work for me.

She liked to try and embarrass me, looked for opportunities to call me a trouble maker and would loudly announce my "bad" behavior, despite her simply mixing me up with students with similar names or appearances. Never apologized to me when she was wrong, which was every time.

Called me slow, would make comments about how long it took me to do activities, especially writing.

There were so many things she did that entire school year that added up. But the most disrespectful thing had to of been when I asked her for our Thanksgiving classroom play, if i could be one of the natives rather than the pilgrims. I'm native american, I'm the only native american in this class, I don't want to be a pilgrim. Guess who was a pilgrim?

And she made sure the native men were loud and ruthless and the native women were scared of everything and screamed and shouted in fear so easily. While the pilgrims were calm and collected, from the men to the women and they helped these poor natives.

My mom and me shared similar opinions on the play and she even talked to my teacher about how harmful it was to teach kids our history like that. The she should do better and emphasized the proper way to say my name. Which she pretended she just didn't know, I never corrected her. (My mom knew this was a lie as I was known to be very quick to correct people and sometimes hostile if they didn't quickly amend it. So yeah... Also, she continued to mispronounce my name unless my mom was there.)

I almost forgot, I am a very quiet person, especially then. I only talked if I had to or liked you enough to talk to. She said even though I met the curriculum for the next grade, in fact, she had kept lowering my reading level until she got in trouble, that she wanted to hold me back for a year. She got an earful from my mom for that one, and I didn't get held back.

So that was what it was like in the classroom. Outside of it, I was often physically assaulted by four girls.

There was this one who was in my class and she made it her mission to stand next to me in line so she could force me to talk. I never did, so she would twist my arm, pinch me, punch me, try to bend my hand back, saying I just had to say something and she'd stop. She never got in trouble for it and it's not because she never got caught, many times I caught my teacher's eye while she was physically harming me, she'd smile and look away.

While I was outside of the classroom, outside of line, there was a group of three girls. They come up to me, make comments, grab my stuff, my belongings, corner me. I remember one weekend I got my nails done, they were yellow with glitter. They saw my nails asked if they were real, and proceeded to rip off every single nail. My best friend saw, alerted her mom who did work there. Not much came from that, they continued to harass me, they just made sure my friend wasn't around and her mom.

So yeah, it was really traumatic, dealing with so much every day at school. I remember walking to the bus one day, it was really windy, and I thought about how much I wished it would pick up more and knock me into the wall. Enough to hurt and kill me. I thought about death a lot that year. I didn't realize until I got older how much it truly affected me.

Also, fun fact, I ended up going to school with those girls again, we moved but in fifth grade I went back to that school, that teacher still taught there, and one of those girls was in my class. She never talked to me, she did give me dirty looks for getting questions correct if she didn't.

And later in middle school I ended up having several classes with all of them. I could tell they recognized me, but never said anything about it. No apologies. Nothing.

The one who twisted my arm, I never saw her again at the very least. But yeah, what a fucked up year, huh?

#Sorry just remembered some of these things tonight #I didn't understand at the time that they were being racist #I've always felt different #And never in a good way #And so i thought for a long time after that - that there was something wrong with me #I wondered what i did to deserve that treatment #What was wrong with me and why did i stay silent? #And now I just look back at it and realized I wasn't the problem #And the school was the problem #The people in the office made similar remarks anytime i was in there #They didnt care about it #And so what could i have done? #The one time a problem got reported the students hardly got in trouble #And I was treated as the troublemaker #So yeah there wasn't much i could do back then #Anyway im going to sleep now #tw racsim #tw abuse #tw bullying #tw suicidality #I remember always saying before i recognized how bad that yesr was thst i would never want to repeat the first grade #I hated first grade #And little by little i started to piece together why and even now I'm remembering things #This was also when my bio dad was a drunk and abusive #Such a great and fun time for sure #Damn fuck that year

[tibli]

*me resisting the urge to instantly block and report any blog without an icon or description bc i now know that tumblr literally forces new users to follow 3 blogs before they can even personalize their account*

#tibtalks #im sorry if you were legitimately a new user who got blocked and reported!!!!! #i didnt know!!!! tumblr didnt used to do that so i had no clue!!!! #why would they do that when they KNOW this site has an insane bot problem!!!!!!! jesus fucking christ #its like they WANT the site to fail!!!!! #anyway this is to let you guys know to give blank blogs a chance!!! they could be new users!!!

[strawberrybabydog]

the tumblr ads that play at 25%+ volume and keep playing audio long after i've scrolled passed is really successful marketting. i am not annoyed or off-put by unwanted screaming royalty free audio after 10 minutes of silent peaceful scrolling. infact, every time this happens i scroll all the way back to the ad with glee because i am overjoyed at the idea of downloading the hospital gore app for children

#do you know what i mean by the hospital gore app for children #a few days ago i kept getting recommended genuine real cartoon gore ads it was a game for kids #and i was like what the fuck child is downloading an app where you pull bugs and puss and hair out of peoples infected feet. actual trauma #i reported all the ones i saw and havent seen them again because they are genuinely fucking sickening. im serious they are #but how the fuck did that even get approved by tumblr #anyways this specific gore ad didnt blast me with music but a fuck ton of them do now and im like. why #i have to manually unmute videos that automatically play on my dash #theres no way to mute these ads unless you turn your phone volume off so rip any music u were listening to #like you just scroll by and the uwu woyalty fwee music starts playing on blast. on its own. no mute button no way to opt in or out of this #what is going on why is tumblr this fucking bad. who approved ads that yell at you????? who approved gore for kids ad??? #not dog #personal

[goatpaste]

I like Anasui because i find him annoying, so i am so sorry other Anasui fans annoy you like this, can we destroy Anasui together?

LIKE!! MY GOD!!

Anasui iS a lil funny, he's an annoying BITCH WHORE, and i think he's a little funny at times and can be funny in the right hands. i dont HATE him

but the way i see anime girlies talk about him on twitter im like.. good lurd

its like anasui fans deliberately go out of their way to missinperate his character just like him for his pink aesthetic half the time and i think thats so annoying OR

the fucking jolyne/anasui shippers im like, whatever if you like them togeather i dont actually care

but the way ppl talk about their canon material makes them look like they were watching something else

i saw someone say 'jolyne and anasui were ALL over each other during stocean <33' LIKE?? WHERE

like girlies even anasui himself knows he's a freakfuck, hes insane and he knows him. dont pretend for him

#aLSO #i made a post that was like #i personally felt like ermes got sidelined after the sports maxx fight #and wish she got to do more #it really felt like araki didnt know what to do with ermes after thart point #so he shoved her aside in favor of focusing more on anasui #and then weather report #and im a lil right! #but whether im right or wrong?? #PEOPLE GOT ?? #WEIRDLY DEFENSIVE?? #and really started debating on the post and outside of the post #whether i was right or not? #and saw a good few anasui fans seeing this as a personal attack on his character #LIKE I DONT CARE THAT HE IS TEHRE #BUT ERMES WAS THERE FIRST AND WAS MEANT TO BE JOLYNES JOBRO #SHE WAS IMPORTANT AND WAS SUCH A STRONG CHARACTER #IM SORRY I LIKE HER CHARACTER MORE THAN ANASUI AND WISH SHE GOT TO DO MORE??? #WHY ARE YOU MAD AT ME LOL

[piplupod]

shoutout to the time i thought juggalos were just a random type of clown in the same way rodeo and pierrot is, and I off-handedly mentioned them in a conversation about clowns to one of my DQ managers when I worked there, and she fucking lost her mind laughing and I was like. damn. I didn't think my joke was THAT funny but okay. and then I never looked up what a juggalo actually was until just last year, like four years after I'd stopped working at that place 🧍

#when u dont have internet access very often u don't use ur small bits of time to look things up #esp when u dont have any unmonitored internet access fjdkdl #i was scared to look things up at school and i couldnt look up very much on the home computer #and my mobile had net nanny installed on it lmfao it was set for like... 12 yr olds #NOW GRANTED. I ACTUALLY DID MANAGE TO BREAK NET NANNY ON MY OWN COMPUTER. u have to move some files around inside the program files #and then u can basically break and un-break it as u please #so i could have it on to keep up the charade that i had it installed and it was monitoring and reporting my good boy usage #but then when i wanted to do stuff like... go on tumblr. or look up slang or whatever fhdkdl i could break the program #until i was done and then fix it so it'd go back to normal #this didnt help v much though bc i couldnt lug my laptop to school v often #and i wasnt allowed internet at home fhfkdl unless I was using my mother's laptop for looking up piano music LOL #eventually i also figured out how to break the program on my phone too but that one was more luck than anything else i think #anyways. all this surveillance made me good with tech stuff but im not Good w tech djdkdl i just know how to look things up #and i learned a bit how the backend of programs work or weird tricks for hidden folders and stuff on laptops #hey why tf am i rambling abt this in the tags fjkdl I've lost the plot #anyways good morning everyone please look up words that u may not know the meaning of before u use them #i do this too often now fhfjld. i have to look up words that i DO 100% know the meaning of just to make sure i dont have it wrong somehow #pippen needs 2nd breakfast