#why i dont wanna sleep

[anemonet]

local iterator seven red suns growing attached at record speed to life sucking abomination, more at seven (hah)

#rain world #seven red suns #spearmaster #rainworld #also kinda thinking about doing all the iterators with slugcats if peopel intrested in that? im doing it anyways but like you knwo fair war #ning or soemthing? #ahaha what do you mean my srs design is much to intrecate for my very simple coloruing style????? #oooohhhh you wanna ask about my suns desing oohhhhh #also spearmaster mains make soem noise!!!! #:DDD #song for today is he dosent know why by fleet foxes #also i dont think spearmaster sleep guys like huh huh i dont babay why svene why do that #my art #also seems like im doing some joe hills art tomrorow!!! go watch him!!!

[freaky-flawless]

Dead Tired Honey Swamp

Shout out to @deuces-stone-cold-style for the nightgown inspo!

#monster high #monster high fanart #monster high g1 #honey swamp #dead tired #finished this a couple days ago but couldnt post it #cuz my laptop battery decided it had had enough and finally went caput on me #i have a replacement coming within a i cant really draw until then and im super bummed about it #anyway this drawing was funny #i kinda hated it but thought if i could just add some color that it would help #and it did i love her #shes one of my most detailed mh designs so drawing her is always a doozy #i wanna design a dt wydowna to match because they are ghoulfriends #also sorry the nightgown isnt that accurate to the actual reference #i dont think honey is particularly a lace ghoulie which is why i went with the wispy plant fringe #and i really dont like drawing floral patterns i just used the csp presets 🥲 #i know the dt dolls come with little accessories but she gets a blankie #and i couldnt fit the sleep mask because i refused to get rid of the bow on her bonnet #id in alt #my art #sabz art

[b4kuch1n]

making of a feathered thing

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #tagging ship like a power word kill here #hi. linked there is a fic I wrote in uhhh. three hours? something like that #literally have no idea how to explain it to you at all. feel free to read if u wanna. mostly its like damn I keep puttings pictures into thi #s literary piece. #gonna cool down soon. oh boy is it hot here. probably why I wrote that #that took place in like november but the vibe is. summer. or something like that I really need to sleep #new ink arrived! its kinda watery! line still feathering! not into this! #I'll try to see if thats more my paper. dont enjoy that #but yeah Ive just been testing the ink and stuff out with these #doing these like. less than an hour each. no brain just go #man I wanna fly a kite... theres an open plot of land right next to me. I should try doing that #go out and hang out with so many bugs and fly a kite #gods. I need to sleep. idk not much to say here I simply think reki is a growing boy and he'll become great and awesome #thats all folks! have a good night. well good day. its 5am #sleep well! run so fast

[writinggremlin]

How's about a whumpee who desires pain?

A whumpee who wants to be stressed and panicked and hurt. Everything's been too good for too long, and maybe that frustrates them a little bit.

Why do they feel this way? They don't know. All they do know, is that that risky and/or hurtful scenario is looking quite tempting.

If nobody's going to make them worse, they'll do it themself.

#whump #angst #whumpblr #whumpee #caretaker #whump prompt #whump prompts #whump ideas #whump idea #kinda going through it rn ngl. dont really get why. probably just need to sleep. i did stay up super late last night ngl lol #I think i just kinda wanna feel alive y'know? i yearn for the pain of my heart squeezing in my chest. I want a problem. i want pressure. #eh. doesn't matter. like I said- I'm probably just tired. if somebody's seeing this for some reason- I hope you're having a lovely day/night #imma go to sleep now lol. night!

[everybodyloveshippos]

The Neverwinter trio sharing a bed; and Artemis is an elf-magnet

#why arent the blankets over them?? well umm they fell asleep fast and want to be ready to jump up and ummm I DREW ALL THEIR LEGS AND IM NOT #GONNA HIDE THEM #AND YEAH they all wear socks to bed bcus i dont wanna draw feet #artemis waking up: how the fuck did i get in the middle #i have a theory that drizzt is like. immovable in sleep artemis tries to nudge him and he just jams his forhead further into his arm #dahlia sin'felle #legend of drizzt #artemis entreri #drizzt do'urden #drow #dnd #dungeons and dragons #clare's art

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Thr thing abt me is that I want to know exactly how psychiatric medications work. I don't want the simplified version. Dont give me the "I'm talking to the public" answers. I want the specific mechanisms and how exactly it causes its side effects.

#but i dont wanna read the papers lol. i just find it fascinating #g protein coupled receptors my beloved #i got like 5hrs sleep which provided ample time to talk my self into and out of stopping medication bc its been giving me internal #restlessness. muscle weakness. and heart palpations. which the heart thing was freaking me out but i also get them linked with my #cycle and doctors dont seem concerned. i think i figured out why. the abilify is blocking the dopamine receptors that inhibit prolactin #production. which is making my estrogen levels drop which is y i get heart palpitations sometimes. science. ans it makes me feel better #abt staying on the meds. but i got side tracked #trying to understand how abilify is proscribed for major depression #i assume it must hold dopamine at a certain level but idk #part of thr problem is that its really complicated and no one entriely understands how it works #but i took thr meds this morning ;-] #unrelated

[xysidhequeen]

Current count since I last slept: 41 hours.

I think I've capped out at 46 before, I'm not sure because my worst fit of insomnia had me in no position to check times. But I'll say 46. So if we hit 48 we're setting personal records!

#i do not want to actually be awake #my body just physically cant process stress #'oh zee why cant you be in a car?' #this. this is why #and you might think: 'oh this cant be because you were in a car!' #it is. it so totally is #and also stress #but mostly i blame being in a car #everytime i get in a car i get sick #motion sickness vertigo dizziness insomnia #my body is violently against automobiles #which is actually so annoying because i finally own one of my dream cars #and wanna know when i last drove my baby? #A YEAR AND FIVE FUCKING MONTHS AGO #Also please for the love of fuck do not suggest anything to help me sleep #i. have. tried. it. #when im dealing with insomnia like this the only way it stops is preceiotion strength meds or my body calms itself the fuck down #no teas no melatonin no meditating no lettuce water no hot milk NOTHING will work #and also even prescription strength meds dont always work when its like this i have woken up like two hours after taking some b4 #when my body doesnt want to sleep it will not sleep #you can tell how little sleep im running on based on how unhinged these tags are

[madwickedawesome]

figured id visualize something i said today

#the quote was in fact “get mischaed bitch” u would never guess the context in a million years #SORRY if u met me while i was in a Mood i am in fact not always behaving like a sweet old grandmother who bakes u cookies sorry #i am still very much a teenage boy obsessed w a fictional youtube rapper #i finished my hwwww sorta yippee #mischaposting #guess whos back. back again #literally 11 pm NO ONE is gonna see this #giggles #mischa bachinski #rtc #mischa mischa mischa #[he appears before me like beetlejuice] #also ive been listening to the pride and prejudice film soundtrack and it is beautiful ? i really wanna watch it now #anywaysssssssssssss #ride the cyclone #i dont think i tagged that one already #the mutualcule can do the restOMG MY BOOTLEG DONE UPLOADING TO DRIVE #if i wasnt so fucking exhausted id watch moulin rouge but alas.. i got 3 hours of sleep last night #thats why im probably going sleepy sleep now GOODNIGHT!!! #(probably)(so much emphasis on probably) #11:11 make a wish

[spaciebabie]

does any other demiromantic (or arosepc doesnt rlly matter) feel like. extremely awful when they experience romantic attraction or is that just me.

#spacie spoinks #bruh #like. while im experiencing it i wish so badly that i wasnt 😭 #i feel disgusted. is this what romantic repulsion is??? #cuz like ill be experiencing all the lovey dovey stuff yk #''ooohb i wanna kiss dem oooh what if we help hands'' romantic crap but its like. anxiety inducing #like it feels awful??? is this normally how it feels?? i dont like it. #it like. doesnt feel right or natural and im assuming its b/c i just like?? barely feel it ever?? and thats why??? #strange as hell. #i recently felt romantic attraction 2 someone (it has been 2 or 3 years since i last felt it) and it came on really strong for like #a week and that was like the worst week of my life #i couldnt think abt anything else but them like it wasnt even like. fantasies or anything just like. #the concept of them. my brain would just be like ''hey remember this guy'' #I LIKE COULDNT SLEEP #HOW DO YOU PPL ENJOY THIS???? #me; clutching my head for ~a week: AUUUGH!! THE PERSON!!! THE PERSON!!!!! #im so serious this is how it feels w/springtrap. hes like a blight on my psyche #the feelings have faded mostly i think. i think im normal abt them again (thank god) #its so strange. i think a romantic relationship would be fun but then i start feeling the feelings and its. awful. #so horrid #also like. im considering that maybe the relationship i would like some day isnt romantic but a qpr #idk. ive never been in any kind of serious relationship (never wanted 2 and have never been approached for it) #sometjing 2 think abt i guess? #anybeans. i tire. #hope i never experience that again #ik that like in 2-3 years ill be like: ''man. idk what past spacie was talking abt. would be nice 2 feel romantic attraction again'' #NO SPACIE IT WONT!!! REMEMBER!!!!!! REMEMBER WHAT YOU WENT THRU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[liquidstar]

Oh fuck tomorrow I'm going to be a little birthday boy I keep almost forgetting

#it's probably bc i dont have specific plans im just playing it by ear based on how the newborn will be #(the amount of time I'll be needed w the other kids basically depends on how much sleep the parents got the night before lol) #so i dont wanna be out too late... ahh i miss the club bro i wanna go #i love kids just to be clear which is why i do this but i also think I've gotten any child rearing out of my system #so i dont want my own. in a way it's freeing bc my future will just be for me and i won't have to worry about this stuff long term lol #ah but if I'm free on the 4th theres also something else i wanna do so maybe i shouldn't get drunk anyway #maybe just wait for the next free day 🤷‍♂️ we'll see #I've been highover BAD though shit lasted until like 8pm the next day. and i had to take the day off w the kids #luckily there happened to be other family there that took over but dude it sucked. i remember trying to help them in the morning like #ok sorry 4 year old trying to find pants i have to lay down in your bed you can do it by yourself i believe in you #so. taking the day off was a good call for their sakes too lol #he was fine just to be clear he could've done it on his own either way. i was just unhelpful 😅 i promise im usually way more attentive

[skunkes]

#survived blood test humiliated self again by getting extremely nervous at the last second bjut #didnt try to escape this time #also idk how to describe this sensation to my parents but afterwards i feel really Gross #like i get home and im making sounds and theyre like ur being dramatic it didnt/doesnt hurt #like no it doesnt hurt more than the pinch and radiating soreness after...i do feel extremely disgusted and disgusting though idk why #like i want to crawl out of my skin and into a corner away from the injection site like it just feels gross!!! i dont know!! #anyway they gave me a lollipop after like here. since u wanna be a child. #(thjats a joke they were nice and im excited to consume it but ykwim. feels a bit embarrassing on some level... #that i got so nervous before and during...) #okey yey im going to try not to move my arm much lest i get incredibly bizarrely disgusted at the sensation and get some more sleep #talkys

[akaashii-keiji]

Yall max has to stop looking at my MC like a kicked puppy because I'm feeling guilty. Jin is my day one I'm sorry stop making it so hard to stick with Jin.

#i literally haven’t gotten passed where to sleep decision because knowing max is going to be sad if i dont but jin will be sad if i do #i dont wanna be here anymore 😭 #they're not real why do i feel so bad lmaoo #overall ive been enjoying this season i do think that we still have the everyone is into the mc issue #but they had some moments that had me crying from laughing #litg #love island the game #litg s8

[fucky-oureyes]

kind of a dumb headcanon BUT i think whenever lance actually has some spare time (arceus knows he rarely has any of that) whenever he's not out and about with one of his Various Kids (kanto trio and johto quartet), i think he likes to knit. Specifically so that he can make stuff for the baby dratini in the dragon's den for the winter + stuff like hats and scarves for his own pokemon team. clair does the nearly the Exact Same Thing (crotcheting instead though), however, unlike lance, who would likely be calm about it being discovered (especially since silver would be the most likely to discover it since dad lance is real in my heart), clair would just Drop Kick the discoverer into oblivion (also likely silver. this time because it's funny)

#pokemon #champion lance #gym leader clair #this leads into my headcanon of over time silver getting into art. as a way to express and discover himself and as a form of healing and as #a way of showing vulnerability #so he sees lance knitting for the first time like Huh. You're The Champion what the FUCK are you doing #and eventually when he gets comfortable enough to express an interest in art lance goes out and gets silver the Fanciest most Expensive art #supplies because of course he's going to support silver's passions and help him grow and become a better artist. why wouldn't he #not pictured is lance also knitting scarves hats blankets etc for silver because Stubborn child who Doesn't Wanna bundle up vs. guy who #trains dragons that are Weak to ice #oh also it's funny to imagine clair and lance making each other gag gifts #clair crotchets lance a gag cape that says DONT ASK ME ABOUT DRAGONS (let's be fr lance has the dragon autism) and he wears it for april #fools at the league #i can't Sleep. as you can tell #rival silver #<- for the tags mainyl #MAINYL #. #not trying a 3rd time

[needylittlegirl]

anytime i stay up late and im not talking to anyone i feel like im a little cat that got locked out of a bedroom for knocking cups over so now im violently sticking my paws under the door

#there is two (2) people i want to talk to rn and i think theyre both asleep #idk why i wanna talk to them im just in a weird mood and ik talking to them would make me feel better #im sooo sleepy but i dont think sleeps comin anytime soon im gonna be so cranky tomorrow #tbd

[green-tea-lemonade]

extremely tired and sleepy but head screaming otherwise

#art #digital art #procreate #homestuck #nepeta leijon #im gonna scream #i just wanna nap #this is why working early mornings can suck because you get into the habit of sleeping after for a little bit #then the one time you dont your body says #okay lets not sleep all the time #in fact lets stay up well past the time you usually sleep in an eternal suffer state #there has been a point ive gone 3 very miserable days without sleep #and boy howdy its a trip #sorry for the rant im very tired

[opens-up-4-nobody]

As a stranger on the internet (so feel free to ignore or tell me I'm out of line) you might just be going through a grieving process. It sucks, a lot, and I don't really have any advice other than it will slowly get better, but it might help simply knowing.

Grief is different for everyone, and looks different for everyone too. But either way I hope you feel better soon <3

It's very possible, I just don't want that to be the answer because then I don't know what to do

#it feels more like im using grief as an excuse to not do anything and i find it really upsetting #i just dont kno what to do. i have a lightning talk to give tomorrow and i cant get anywhere bc when i try to get anything done i just start #crying and everything feels like a mess that i have no motivation to clean up #just everything. why did i decide to do this with my life? why couldnt i have chosen a functional career path? #i dont kno what im doing. i dont kno how im going yo get things together for my committee meeting Friday #or how ill get thru it without crying. i dont even kno what i want. i wanna talk to my dad i guess but ive never told anyone in my family #when im having a hard time and i dont kno how to do that without making him worry #ugh. tomorrow's gonna suck. so does today. i just want the semester to be over. but then i cant escape my project. so idk what i want #i want sleep for 1000 years or at least until all my problems are gone #unrelated