#why is my family so unstable who knows hahaha
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" MEMOIR "
hello, my Marjorie Visperas, everyone calls me Marjs, let me tell you a story of mine which is my journey get ready your paper towels hahaha anyways, I grew up with my mother's cousin is not sure if they were cousins but I think it's my mother cousin, anyways I grow up without knowing both my mother and father and it was hard, go back when I was a child I always compare myself to others like look at them what they what always have or look at them, I wanna experience those moments with my family but as I grow I never experience those moments and it broke my heart as I grow older I've always imagined how unhappy am I when I was young. at school I was doing great at that time I gained a lot of friends by joining extracurricular activities I have those best memories of mine.
when I reached high school things started to change differently. In my 7 and 8 grades things were great i joined some extracurricular activities but ended up crying because I didn't meet the grades that I had always wanted but still proud of myself a little for achieving some achievements. by grades 9 and 10, I transferred to a public school due to the pandemic things were tough, and financially unstable when I was in grade 9 I got depressed and cried a lot because I started to miss both my mother and father i started to blame my self and my anger issue got worst and wordt like how could they do this to me? what I have done to them? am I the reason for their divorce? could they do this to their DAUGHTER?? I cried so hard in silence, that I could feel the ache in my heart so bad. My grade 9 journey was complicated and the worst and it affected my academics time I got 79 that time I cried so hard until my heart got heavy, and I didn't have anyone to lean on to let my tears until Icalmedm Then I decided to go to the church and I didn't expect to cry so hard I got embarrassed because people notice that I cried. I talk to god-like WHY? This is so heavy lord I could not even handle this situation I want my mom and dad a happy life a happy family getting my parents together again this is all I ask for you, not this one lord this is so heavy please let me experience happiness and help my heart to calm down lord I don't even know what to do with this life, how should I end this life and I don't even know the other messages I talk to god after I pray I promise to myself to move on. after my grade 9 journey, I exhale then move forward
when the time I stepped on my grade 10 journey I thought I couldn't survive it. you see I met this boy named Vincent Baguio when he approached me that time, he is so friendly and I love his humor so much he is the only person who helped me to move on from the past and focus on the present, i did well that year i laughed a lot just like what I ask to god I received pure happiness of mine that I could not even imagine in my whole life, with his help and gods help I wouldn't receive the honor certificate sometimes I can think about my family but I'll remain calm. I thought those journeys would last forever but they didn't when the time it was the awarding ceremony I got jealous of those schoolmates, classmates of mine because they had their mom or dad to honor their achievements, ents or sometimes both of their parents showed up to be proud of you. When I only had my guardian and was not even interested in coming I cried after the ceremony and my anger issues were back again. I came to church after that day and prayed to god about how great he is hoping next year I still get an award and a calm heart again.
by the time I reached senior high, I prayed again to god to let me experience that happiness again. By the day I stepped into our classroom I was slightly nervous so I remained calm around 3 months into my 11 journeys slightly bad because I didn't receive or obtain the grades that I wanted even though I worked so hard I cried and cried and then it's getting worst but in the end, I'll manage to the honor list so I thank god so much and ask more but this time my business I prayed that when I reached at the age of 18 I have my own small business. *passforward my grade 12 journey is still resuming, but I noticed something about myself, my grades were falling started to feel depressed and empty, I started to lose the passion for something that I've always done, which I fully gave up everything, all I wanted is to have a physically mentally rest, while my life gave up my aunt invited me to go to the church to. niño basilica and we prayed I only prayed that time to be productive and happy again and also let me heal this pain and sickness I've been trying to figure out, unexpectedly, she invited me to the confession room and while I got chills, and nervous when it's my time I was shaking I don't even know what to do but father calms me down while I was addressing all the pain the never-ending heartache I felt, also my family situations and my business I can't handle my teary eyes I burst into tears and after that, he prayed for me. after that, my heart was slowly healing. received a message from my dad that told me to come home and ask for forgiveness he wanted to repay all the things he did he wanted to make it up. I've never been so happy in my whole life seeing those messages from my papa. like this is the first time my papa would never congratulate me, or thank me but I'm glad he wanted to make things right I know I have some issues with my family but as father told me to forgive my parents and talk to them with my Besides that, I got my business at 18 and I'm so happy and it's growing and growing.
there are so many stories I could share but I have some issues like I don't even know where to start and when should i start. all I can say is to always pray to god and thank god for everything and try to confess your sins and pain Father I promise after that you will receive great news. the end my journey will continue soon thankyou for your Time...the end.
#autobiography
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So I finished Helluva Boss today. I like to make notes when I consume a piece of media. I never said those notes were peak maturity. Far from.
Enter.
Two seconds in: holy shit is that MORDERCAI?? 😰😰😰😰 no wayyyyyyyy.
And that kids, is how you traumatise a class of kids. I mean, I know I’m meant to feel bad for… whatever her name is, but those poor children 😭
HELP I LAUGHED LIKE AN IDIOT WHEN SHE THAT KID GOT CHOKEHELD IM A MONSTER OMG. IM SORRY 😭 it was just so funny 2 me I’m so so sorry.
She’s kinda hot tho when she’s a demon. Ngl.
I need the furry wolf’s number. IMMEDIATELY. I am DOWN BAD.
Is that fucking… stock horror music? HAHAHA- no no I’m imagining it, but imagine if it was.
HES BRITISH. THE BATHTUB GUY IS BRITISH.
BRUH. HES DOWN BAD, EVEN AFTER THE SHIT HES STILL RAMBLING ON?? HIRE A HOOKER!! GOD ITS ALWAYS… certain types of… I’m Irish, okay?!?! It’s a personal attack on me!
HAHAHA. L. L MOXIE L. The family just died anyway that’s a fucking LlLlLlLlLlL.
Closing thoughts: give me the satanic wolfs number immediately. I am down bad rn.
Rating: 3/5.
It kept me entertained, and hooked.
Episode 2:
This song reminds me of a particular band, I just don’t know what. There’s a certain “style” that’s familiar to it. I don’t know what.
Yeah I just. I saw that exact thing coming. Something going wrong, and something going wrong fast.
Octavia is just like me except my dad hates me and is just as unstable as my mom.
Okay so here’s my question: his eyes. Uhhh, the British bathtub guy. I forgot. It’s full red, is that his iris? How huge is his range of vision? Because MINE? Hun-knee, I have visual snow syndrome and shit eyesight, I’m nearsighted, this British fucker- see I’m Irish so this is a personal attack on me.
If you become a demon when you die, are their kids biological or did they die too?… dark thought.
Is there another… character that isn’t Moxie? Because I don’t care to remember his name tbh. So I’ll call him ‘Not Moxie’.
Blitzo, Stolas, I get it mixed up. And I can’t tell who Moxie is and who… the other one is. Moxie has a high voice, right??? I don’t know. I’ll learn it eventually.
Imagine your dad loving you. Couldn’t be me. Ever. Now I’m shedding. Skin or tears? You decide. (I shed my skin when emotional, like a snake. HISSSS)
Thoughts: Poor Via.
Ranking: 3/5. I liked it, I guess.
Episode 3:
God damn it why are all the female demons so hot. Damn you episode. I mean, *ahem* hello senora. ;)
I think my favourite characters so far are uh… what’s her name? Something -ica, and uh…….. the asshole. What was his name? Is he Stolas or Blitzo? I keep forgetting. 😭
Can I call her Titanic? No reason. She just looks like a… Titanic. Surely there are kids called that. (Rereading this I had a reason for this but I don’t fucking remember what the fuck?)
Blitzo. Gotta remember that. Blitzo. Ok. I’ve got it.
…UH OH. IVE BEEN CAUGHT. HELP THAT FOURTH WALL BREAK CREEPED ME OUT OK IM SORRY FOR BEING A SIMP IM SORRY.
Overall thoughts: None.
Ranking: 5/5. It was my favourite episode so far.
Episode 4
Uh… I liked how the piano switched places just to fall on his head? Yeah this episode kinda was meh.
2/5.
Episode 5:
Yeah I didn’t care much for this either.
2/5. Maybe I’m not paying attention enough.
Episode 6:
Okay so Red girl (what I’ve been calling in my head) is called Millie.
“Ee-dough” it’s pronounced Eh-doe period. In Japanese, ‘e’ means the ‘eh’ sound.
Is that. I was right, that’s just House Of Leaves or whatever?? It’s not bad to use horror stock music just funny.
Ohhh, Stolas is the bathtub guy. I think I’m developing a sexual attraction to him. Not as much as I was down bad for Loona. And the other one. Ika. I’m calling her Ika. Wait, Verosika?
Episode 7:
Okay… I am now realising that Moxie and Millie are married. I’m kinda dumb.
Season 2:
Lmao M&M.
HELP STOP GASLIGHTING MOXXIE INTO THINKING HES FAT EVERYONE IS SO MEAN TO HIM SHHSHSHS
Ah yes, the angel dust treatment. “Harder.”
Bro the pain of someone typing and then not responding.
Ok… why is season one episode 8 only out now? Huh? I don’t understand… (I checked the desc, nvm my words)
The mean girls reference XD.
I’ve heard of holding your breath, but not under honey?
The more I hear Kesha-
You: Her name is Beelzebub
Me: Anyway Kesha
The more I hear her, the more I might develop a Keshaccent. She’s cool but she seems like the kind of girl who would’ve bullied me for being autistic in high school.
So this takes place after uh… what happened again? I forgot. The night at the… lust club? Yeah whatever I forgot. Obvious from the start, just forget what exactly happened… anyway, how the fuck can Blitzo DIE ALONE?! HES IN HELL! You need a cold shower man…
Overall thoughts: I liked it. I’d give it a 7/10. I thought I wouldn’t like it, but I also thought that about XRA… I liked some characters, and even the ones that are like- beyond horrible people (like stella) I found entertaining to watch at the very least.
Pro’s:
- I liked the characters relationships with each other in various episodes. It made for comedic, or sometimes sad situations.
- I rarely found myself bored.
- It was pretty okay.
Cons:
- Some of the humour bordered on whiplash. Going from an emotional scene to comedic can be… really distracting. It wasn’t too much of an issue. I guess it’s intended as comic relief. Some of the humour was also immature which can throw some people off but I didn’t mind, I like vulgarity.
- Honestly, I can’t think of much else to critique. It was pretty good. It just didn’t impress me, or wow me, or make me feel much other than ‘oh, that’s sad’ or ‘oh, that’s funny’. But that’s okay.
Edit: I forgot to watch the pilot episode… and a new episode dropped today. So yeah, did that, been there. It’s been there did that, not… did that been- ugh why do I care about the semantics of this?
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Dying in his arms
A/N: Too much brainrot from fluff. I crave for angst 🙃 I've been seeing this prompt floating around and wanted to make my own version of it. Enjoy! 🥀
⛔️ TWs: (your) death, lot of tears, full-on breakdown (don't we love it when they're broken hahaha), no 'moving on' endings (well... maybe one?), angsty stuff galore (whee!)
Luffy
Denial denial denial d e n i a l
This is just a bad dream. A really bad dream.
He's had those sometimes, visions of Ace shielding him and going limp in his arms.
And now it's you.
That's all that there is, right?
And then he realizes that the sensations are too vivid to be just a bad nightmare.
The familiar scent of blood, the sensation of you going limp in his arms, the way you struggle to breathe properly...
It hits him so much harder because he's experienced someone dying in his arms once before.
If he didn't get to say goodbye to you, he would be crushed and will be practically inconsolable.
Screaming and kicking and punching everyone who's trying to coax him to let go of your unmoving body.
If he gets to say goodbye, it's even worse.
Your image overlaps with Ace, and he can't process your words, doesn't understand how and why you're encouraging him to live on and how you'll be watching him when his name spreads across the whole world as the Pirate King's successor.
How did he let this happen? Again? And to you of all people?
What kind of Pirate King can't even keep his nakama alive?
Sanji
It reminds him of his late mother, but it's an even crueler version than that.
Because he can see you slowly leaving him right in front of his eyes.
He begs and cries and presses kisses after kisses to your forehead, knowing how much you love it when he does that and how you've told him before that it makes you feel safe.
Professes his love for you over and over again, pouring all his emotions into his words and the tender touches across your skin.
You're smiling when you finally close your eyes.
Even in death, you are still so beautiful to him.
It takes him a long time until he's able to do normal activities.
He always forgets and includes your portion when he cooks for the crew.
It becomes a daily occurrence. Your snacks, your desserts, your refreshments - he still serves it to your empty seat, as if you'll somehow see it and suddenly appear in front of him.
Soon enough no one says anything when he places your favorite food and preferred drink in front of your chair. Not even Luffy tries to steal it despite how they're left unattended.
Every night he'd eat all the things he made for you, trying to memorize the taste you so loved, in fear of eventually forgetting.
Afterall, he thinks he's already forgotten the feeling he used to get whenever you called his name.
What does love feel like again?
Ace
Oh god. Oh dear. Oh no.
Full blown crying, bawling, literally a mess.
Holds you close to his body, and when he feels how cold you are he warms up his own body so you won't get cold.
Such an innocent gesture and yet so macabre.
Will literally do anything to try and keep you with him just for a little longer.
Calls out for Marco even if he's not around. He can't make sense of anything in this state.
Parts of his body are exploding and turning into flames because his mind is so unstable.
(But none of the flames touch you somehow)
Tries to hold back from sobbing and whimpering when you call his name.
Who cares if his lips bleed when his heart feels like it's been sliced open?
Hangs onto every single one of your last words while he's concentrating on your voice, your eyes, the way your lips move and whisper his name.
And when your eyes flutter to a close, he's pressing himself close to you, back to uncontrollable sobbing and yelling profanities at the cruel world. The world that scarred him and took you away.
When his own end comes, he smiles.
Not just because he's glad to have his family with him in his last moment and feel how loved he was.
But also because he's finally going to see you again.
Law
His immediate reaction, unsurprisingly, is to activate Room.
Even though he already knows from a glance that you're too far gone, that there's no hope left for you, he still does it anyway.
Inside the sphere, he can see and feel everything, and it's both a curse and a blessing in that moment.
He can feel it all. Your breathing weakening. Your heartbeat slowing. Your life, slipping away from him.
But doctors are stubborn beings when it comes to preserving life. And Law's no exception.
His thoughts going a mile a second, he's moving on autopilot: stitching everything back together, trying to stop your bleeding, removing any harmful toxins in your body, mending your broken bones - everything he could do at the moment with the very limited equipment, he does it without hesitation.
He knows all he's doing is will only result in prolonging your end for some measly extra seconds, and even though you tell him to stop, he doesn't care.
He doesn't stop even when your heart does.
The crew finds him still trying to fix you, hours later.
Eventually passes out of exhaustion from overusing his power for such a long duration. Then he's forced to stop.
It'll forever haunt him. In his dreams, in the day and at night, as long as his own heart is still beating inside his chest.
The sin of not using his Devil Fruit's ultimate power to trade your life with his.
He'll never hold anyone so close to his heart, ever again.
Kid
Loud shouting and angry yelling.
Does not understand that moving you around is worsening your condition until you manage to wheeze out a soft 'Kid, it hurts'.
Only then he freezes and as the situation dawns on him, he's utterly lost.
He can't move you, he can't get help, there's no way he's leaving you alone here like this, so what the fuck was he supposed to do now?
He only knows basic first aid and how to bandage wounds, so he does just that despite your protest.
Berates you when you tell him it's all going to be okay. You're most definitely not okay, how fucking dare you say some bullshit like that?
Never before he's this gentle and vulnerable with you, pressing your foreheads together, him rambling in panic as more and more of your blood seeped through the bandages.
"Fuck fuck fuck fuck hang in there, I-I'll build you a damn heart if I have to! Just-"
His flesh arm squeezes your hand tighter when your grip weakens.
He doesn't understand why you're smiling and how you're laughing when he's literally seeing the light slowly fade from your eyes.
"I'll do anything! Fuck, you can't do this to me [name] I haven't even get to say-"
Your lifeless, dull eyes stares through his broken soul and he's unable to stop his tears from falling as he brings your blood-smeared hand to his trembling lips.
"... that... I..."
love you
Killer
Is silent. Deathly so.
But the tears are streaming through his mask, betraying how 'calm' he might have seemed.
If seeing his face is your final wish, he will gladly throw his mask away.
His hold on you is so tender and so is the hand that's wiping away the blood from your face.
Firmly shakes his head in denial when you tell him you don't have much time left.
His usually level voice is trembling as he pleads to you to stay with him.
"Not yet. Don't leave now. Not yet."
In the end, this is the only time you don't - can't - abide by his wish.
And he can't even do anything as you die in his arms.
It reminds him how he's made for slaughter, not protecting people.
That his strength is nothing in front of the grim reaper when it's insistent to take you away from him.
That he shouldn't have been overconfident, saying pretty promises to you like how he'll protect you, or that he won't let you die.
Who was he trying to fool?
In the end, he's just a killing machine.
Doflamingo
Is expressionless when he surveys the extent of damage on your body.
A mere passerby would have thought that he didn't care that you were dying in front of him.
But you know he does.
He's handling you like shards of broken glass, which you are.
Broken and just waiting for your demise, your whole body assaulted by pain.
Pulls you into his lap, doesn't even care that your blood is now all over his beloved custom made clothes, and caresses your cheek.
Removes his sunglasses. His eyes are dry, but they hold just as much pain as what you're experiencing right now.
"Do you need me to make it easier, [name]?"
You close your eyes and when you reopen them, you give him the smile he's grown to love.
Still just as breathtaking, even if it's lacking your usual vigor.
You nod. He nods back resolutely.
"Wait for me in hell."
It's the easiest and yet the hardest kill in his life.
One string bullet through your head and you're gone.
Doffy closes his eyes, allowing himself a moment of grieving before putting on his signature sunglasses and letting your body slump to the floor.
He tells his family to clean up the body and take care of your funeral.
And if they see a single tear drop down his cheeks before he launches himself into the air with his strings, they don't dare to comment on it.
Sabo
Sabo hates the stiff rules and the long protocols he has to follow sometimes, being a revolutionary and the big organization's chief of staff.
But for once he wishes he has a protocol set in place to tell him what he was supposed to be doing.
For once he wishes he has some sort of guide detailing on how to save you when you're barely hanging on to the thread of life right in front of him.
He doesn't know what to do.
Was this how Luffy felt when Ace died in his arms?
How does he do it?
How can he continue living?
How can he laugh so carefreely knowing he's failed to save someone so important?
He can't.
Locks himself in his room and doesn't come out for days.
When he does come out, it's been weeks and he's missed your funeral. His colleagues greet him carefully and he gives them a stiff nod.
They're so glad he's looking a lot better, so Koala softly suggests visiting your grave together.
He blinks and gives them a wry smile.
"[name]? .... Who's that?"
A/N: Congratulations for making this far! You're a champ! Ah, this was so much fun to write and I hope it was an enjoyable read :)
#one piece#monkey d. luffy#sanji#portgas d. ace#trafalgar law#eustass kid#killer#donquixote doflamingo#sabo#headcanon
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Foxhole Court chapter 4
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Chapter 4
"I thought you had [your boyfriend] Erik," Neil said.
"I do, but Kevin's on the List," Nicky said. When Neil frowned, Nicky explained. "It's a list of celebrities we're allowed to have affairs with. Kevin is my number three."
Normally, I wouldn't even bat my eyes over such a casual mention of something like this. But in a story that's already pumped full of abuse, drug and alcohol abuse, and probably a lot more nonsense to come...
The idea of an “allowed cheating list” just rubs me the wrong way.
“Then the ERC threatened to revoke our Class I status and fire Coach if we didn't start winning more
often. Coach bribed Andrew into saving our collective asses with some really nice booze."
"Bribed?" Neil echoed.
"Andrew's good," Nicky said again, "but it doesn't really matter to him if we win or lose. You want him to care, you gotta give him incentive."
"He can't play like that and not care."
"Now you sound like Kevin. You'll find out the hard way, same as Kevin did. Kevin gave Andrew a lot of grief this spring,"
I know that this is probably difficult for these people to understand. But normal people don't make playing a sport their sole personality trait. That obsessing this much over a singular thing with no hobbies or interests outside of it isn't healthy.
"Kevin wants to know what's taking you so long. Did you get lost?"
"Nicky's scheming to rape Neil," Aaron said.
HAHAHA BECAUSE RAPE JOKES ARE JUST SO FUCKING HILARIOUS. /ALL THE GODDAMNED SARCASM
Andrew had a short knife pressed to Nicky's jersey. Where he'd pulled it from, Neil didn't know, but he refused to think Andrew wore one onto the court under his uniform. There had to be rules and regulations against that. The last thing Neil wanted was for Andrew to stab someone in the middle of a game. The Foxes would be banned from the league in an instant.
So this guy 1) is a drug addict 2) is an alcoholic 3) has to literally be bribed to even play 4) is clearly mentally unstable and ready to literally stab somebody at any given time
Tell me again why he's somehow better for the team than the risk of him going loco and costing the entire university team EVERYTHING?
"Andrew is a little bit crazy. Your lines are not his lines, so you can get all huff and puff when he tramps across yours but you'll never make him understand what he did wrong. Moreover, you'll never make him care. So just stay out of his way."
JFC, now Nicky is saying to just let this sociopath do whatever the fuck he pleases?
This overgrown child needs to be institutionalized; not allowed to play team sports for a university. This man is a danger to society.
"You be something. Kevin says you'll be a champion. Four years and you'll go pro. Five years and you'll be Court. He promised Coach. He promised the school board. He argued until they signed off on you."
"He—what?"
I don't know why Neil is surprised by this. These people pressured him so much until he agreed to sign to attend the school to play. Why the fuck is them making deals about Neil behind Neil's back somehow any different?
He hadn't even realized she'd been injured so badly after running into his father in Seattle.
Wasn't daddy dearest in prison? Why the fuck was he running around in Seattle? I'm so fucking confused.
This was why Wymack's contract, Kevin's lofty ambitions, and Andrew's words meant nothing in the end. It didn't matter what they offered or promised him. Neil wasn't like them. He was nothing and no one, and he always would be. Court wasn't for people like him.
THEN WHY THE FUCK DID YOU COME?!
What I'm going to tell you is an open secret. That is, we know it," he waved a finger in a circle, likely meaning the Foxes, "but no one outside our team does. It has to stay that way no matter what, do you understand? People could get hurt if this gets out. People could die."
I'm not going to deny that there are people in the world who would murder because of sportsball. But all I'm saying is that their mental state was probably not amazing to begin with, and they probably shouldn't have been in society in the first place.
"They built this complex around the same time we started construction on the Foxhole Court. Thought our team would be something and people would want to live in the area to be close to the stadium for games. Then we couldn't perform, so the apartments didn't fill. The lower floors are pretty full, and the middle floors get rented out during football season, but top two floors are pretty bare.”
Yeah, that's bullshit. People would still move into those apartments, sports team or no.
He hit full speed before he reached the street, going so fast he was nearly falling over, but he couldn't outrun his thoughts.
Chapter 4 summary: The next day, Neil tries to settle into his new life here. He goes for a jog before going to the stadium early to get changed before the others get in. They have summer practice with just those who are there (the wonder twins, Kevin, Nicky, and Neil).
After practice is over, Nicky randomly starts talking about how Andrew fucking hates the sport, which is baffling to Kevin. However, Andrew has a hard-on for Kevin. And Nicky warns Neil to stop openly staring at Kevin, or else Andrew might get jealous and attack Neil. Because that's fucking hilarious, you know.
Andrew shows up, and randomly threatens Nicky with a knife over how he was apparently flirting with Neil. Despite Neil stating that he only just wanted to play sports, not to hook up or have a relationship with anybody. Nicky relents, and after Andrew leaves, tells Neil that he isn't his type anyway. He also warns Neil to just let Andrew do whatever he wants. Because that's how you should deal with people like that... right?
They then go back to the field, where they set up a mock-game. And good grief. I thought that watching sports on TV was boring. Ain't got nothing on this tedious wall of bullshit. After a while, Kevin sends Nicky and Aaron inside, and it's just him, Andrew, and Neil. They continue to play for a bit longer, but then Andrew then starts to beat the shit out of Neil with his racquet. Which... okay.
Neil eventually goes home, where coach yells at him over having “blown out his arms”. And I get that this is college sports, and it's on another level than HS stuff. But at the same time... this is literally day two of summer practice. There is literally no reason to threaten to beat a literal child up.
We have a two-week time skip, and then Neil goes back to the stadium later at night to practice. Andrew is there, mostly sober because it's late and he apparently can't sleep with those drugs in his system? Sure, whatever. Anyway, he says that Kevin promised Neil over to some pro teams after his term at the university is over. Neil doesn't think that this is true. After Andrew leaves, and Neil tells Kevin that he came to practice, Kevin is rude about Neil's ability to play, and says that practice won't help. This goes into what Neil said: that Andrew is full of shit.
Neil then sits down in the locker room and thinks about his mother's death. I don't fucking care about any of this.
Neil sleeps in the stadium, and goes back to coach's apartment just in time to hear him getting into an argument with Kevin. The exy overseeing board (whatever they're fucking called; I don't give a shit), is like “We're forcing Kevin back to the Ravens.” and when Kevin refused, now they're going to make the foxes play against the ravens.
Coach then flat-out tells Neil that Riko smashed Kevin's hand because he was jealous of Kevin's playing. He says that he felt like the abuse had been going on for some time, but the hand breaking was the final straw, and Kevin decided to get out before something worse happened to him. He then tells Neil that the Moriyama family is part of the yakuza, or the Japanese mafia. This continues on for a long while, establishing just how shitty that this family actually is, and how the Moriyama family controls the entire sport of exy.
But despite how terrible that the foxes are, and Kevin's injury, he refuses to show any weakness to those assholes who screwed him over so badly. However, this just convinces Neil that he needs to leave, and he needs to leave ASAP.
#All For The Game#Foxhole Court#chapter 04#Neil Josten#Nicky Hemmick#shitty people are shitty#Aaron and Andrew Minyard#WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK#What Is Happening#plot hole time!#David Wymack#HEADDESKING#do you even know how the world works?#Kevin Day#Riko Moriyama
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Hi, I’d like a Hetalia matchup, please...
I’m bi, so a guy and a girl would be cool! Anyway, I prefer someone on the quiet, gentle side; maybe someone who could take care of me a bit. I have trust issues, and I tend to get shivery and nervous just thinking about talking to people and being in love... I want to have a relationship nonetheless, hahaha... I would just be happy with someone gentle, patient, and understanding. I might end up a bit more affectionate and clingy as the relationship turns long term, though, so maybe someone who’s also a little affectionate. I’d also love to learn about their culture and history, as long as that’s fine with them... Scratch what I said before, I might get SUPER clingy, and I might never leave their side. I’m probably the type to push myself to be more affectionate, even though I’ve never been in a relationship before, and I might constantly require a hug. I’m pretty sure I’m willing to give hugs and hold hands, but kissing and other gross stuff tends to weird me out... I mean, I guess I’d get used to it, and I’d be willing to try, I’m just weird, heheh...
My personality type is INFP (except I’m probably the worst of them), and—outside of my mental breakdowns—stand for peace and kindness. I want to be there fork someone, and I strive to be someone at least likable. I’d love to cuddle (as soon as I get comfortable with someone), and I’d also love to just be with them. My love language is probably words of affirmation, and I’m pretty naive because of that. I’m not good with socialization or eye-contact, but you’d be surprised at how it depends on the person. I can make eye contact with authority figures, but not peers??? I blush extremely easily, so if anyone finds that cute or something, I’d love to be cute and smol to someone else (even though I’m far from being a cinnamon roll)...
I can’t emphasize enough how much I’d just like to snuggle, curl up, and nap under a blanket with my s/o... I like stormy weather, it’s just so soothing. I’d just love to feel like they’re taking care of me and protecting me, and I’d just love to lay on their chest and fall asleep... Sigh~... I just wanna be seen as smol and stuff, and I just kinda wanna adore them, too... Just snuggling up on a quiet, rainy/snowy day and turning the lights out, lighting some candles, and listening to some soft music—that would be heaven... I feel weird saying all this about a fictional character, but at least there’s reality shifting! Haha... 😅😢
I tend to attract either quiet, lonely people. I’m not sure why, I just do. I’m a bit quiet and lonely myself, but I’m also aloof when others try to talk to me. I enjoy writing stories, drawing, and being out in nature. I also enjoy the idea of cuddling and snuggling up in someone’s arms (ideally someone taller than me, I’m only 5’3, so that’s quite a few guys, but I’m not picky with girls so much), but I might be shaky. I used to dance and sing a lot, but I’m too emotionally unstable to do it anymore. I hope this isn’t too morbid or weird or anything, I’m just...I dunno, haha... Other than that, a lot of the people that I attract tend to attract aren’t naturally trusting, and I tend to come off as trustworthy, so they tend to reveal a lot of things very quickly.
I have this burning feeling that every single Hetalia character would hate me, but what can I do? Even if someone doesn’t like me, I’ll make them like me. Uhh... I mean... I just hope someone would like me. I know I’m pretty much universally undesirable when people get to know me, and I may sound like a psychopath—I probably am—but I’ve never really known the feeling of someone other than a family member caring about me. It’s sick to say, but I’d rather be there for them than them be there for me. Maybe if they could relate to me in some sick way, I guess I’d be happy if we could mutually take care of each other. Just the thought of someone caring makes me cry, haha... Speaking of emotions, I’m pretty expressive and obviously can’t hide anything; my emotions have more plot twists than the average anime or K-drama 🤣😂
I hope this wasn’t too heavy or long or anything, and I hope I’m not too crazy for this, heheh... Thanks in advance, I’m kinda nervous...
I pair you with Toris (APH Lithuania) and Katyusha (APH Ukraine)!
- Toris is quite a gentle and kind person by nature, so if you're looking for a partner who will take care of you, he's a good fit! He can get quite anxious himself, so he always tries his best to be as understanding and patient to other people as possible so they won't have to feel that way.
-Katyusha is very affection, even if it's just to her friends, so if you're looking for an affectionate s/o, she'd fit the bill! She'd be happy to teach you about her culture and her life if that's something you're interested in-she'd love to know about your past too. She'd absolutely love your passion for peace and kindness as well, as she's a very sweet and generous person as well.
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which shows/movies had the biggest impact on your life?
orange is the new black changed my entire life. hate to be that cringe-y bitch who says that a show changed their life but i’m genuinely serious. it helped me discover my sexuality, gave me the courage to come out, forced me to see who I really was! I related so hard to season 1 piper (before she became insufferable hahaha) and remember watching the scene where piper finally snaps and screams at healy that he doesn’t know her at all, as well as the scenes where she snaps at her family, and it just resonated with me - like, I felt the same way and had done for ages.
she’d been the good girl, she’d been the sensible girl, she’d been the daughter who did what she was supposed to do and it bored her to death - I UNDERSTOOD so fucking hard. I was always too scared to just go for it with a girl because of internalised homophobia and the fact that i’d been perceived by my family and friends as this sensible / straight edged bitch (mainly because my sister had been so unwell and I had to keep my shit together my entire high school life and be the stable one and the one who never fucked up), and deep down that wasn’t me at all! it took me having a full fledged breakdown at age 20 to embrace my sexuality fully and start doing more crazy shit without thinking so deeply about it - in 2017 after watching orange I started partying hard, got tattoos, travelled to so many places spontaneously, finally admitted my feelings to a girl who I felt connected to from the second we met (which was a fucking leap of faith lemme tell ya) but I DID IT and this led to us actually meeting up again in amsterdam and that trip was just so fucking cool and I have never felt so young and invincible and spontaneous and free, which segways on to another point about orange: piper and alex’s soulmate dynamic was just SO exciting to me. i’ve only ONCE felt such a weird and totally unexplained pull to someone and she was literally on the other side of the ocean and it was such a bumpy and unstable relationship - but it was exciting, whether that was healthy or not - piper and alex’s on again off again love hate dynamic was so imperfect and that’s exactly how it was with this girl - and looking back I think that was another reason why I loved orange so much - I understood the dynamic between alex and piper, and that scene where piper and alex are both with new people and piper goes into the bathroom and calls alex and is like “how are you? idk what i’m doing but i’m thinking about you” and just feels this desire to check in with someone she still thinks about all these years later - I GOT that and I felt the same with this person - I didn’t even care if we were together or if i ever saw her again - I just still felt connected to her and couldn’t shift it no matter how hard I tried - it’s like my body wouldn’t let me lose this person entirely - it was the weirdest and coolest fucking feeling man, and it’s the closest i’ve ever felt so a soulmate connection - idk how she felt but that’s how it felt for me, and it was so so strange and i’ve never felt anything like it since. craaaaaziness.
ANYWAY that’s orange. killing eve has also impacted my life so greatly. I relate so much to eve in so many ways for similar reasons - she was living a boring, sensible life and had a strong desire for more, even if she didn’t know what that meant - and I have always felt the same. I’ve always craved excitement and adventure and I constantly crave more out of my life in a similar way to eve. villanelle and eve’s dynamic is so intoxicating and exciting and you just can’t help but be pulled in. I think it’s so cleverly written and I love how you see eve go on such a journey and gain such strength and discover so much about herself. I think there’s something so relatable and human about eve realising that whilst she is not like villanelle, she is capable of hurting people in a way she never realised was possible - she cheats on niko and feels no remorse, and then beats herself up for not feeling guilty - and this is largely because of how unsatisfied she is with this blissful, sensible married life that she doesn’t want and knows deep down isn’t for her. villanelle is absolutely eve’s soulmate, and I’m not saying that they aren’t toxic for one another, but that the intensity of soulmate connections are often unexplained and seem insane to an outside perspective.
“A soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life.”
— Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
this quote truly sums it up, and eve realises that her life is empty without villanelle as the show goes on. it’s so unhealthy and insane but to the two of them it makes sense. and I think to viewers it makes sense too, because to some level most of us have a person or have had a person in our past that has made us feel that same sense of recklessness and excitement. moving onto villanelle, eve sees past her flaws and career and all of the messed up things she’s done and sees into her soul. eve is the only person who understands that villanelle is more than just a killer and can feel love and empathy to a certain extent (like when she saved her brothers and the way she interacts with iryna)!
her character development has been incredible, and we are learning that she isn’t a full blown psychopath and is capable of emotions that even she didn’t know she could feel. I ADORE the scene where she looks in the mirror at the club and cries her eyes out because it is the first time, maybe in her life, that she realises that she can feel genuine sadness and can love someone else in her own strange way!
so many of her scenes have touched me so deeply, for example in season two when she’s playing billie and she says “ "I hurt myself, it doesn’t hurt. I buy what I want, I don’t want it. I do what I like, I don’t like it. I’m just…so bored." that’s a feeling that so many of us can relate to and one that I feel almost daily. I also relate so hard to suppressing your emotions for years only for them to all rise to the surface at once and explode, and we see this happen to villanelle in season 3. i’ve been there so many times, and I really relate to that feeling.
anyway, I could go on forever but there you go - a literal essay on the two shows that changed my life! x
#answered#personal#orange is the new black#vauseman#alex and piper#killing eve#villaneve#villanelle#eve polastri#j#you#us
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Thanks for answering my questions! I know it was a lot lmao but I Am Have Questions and very few people informed enough to discuss them with xD
I suppose it is possible they Oniwaka and Co. were being rent from their exceptions and not to Tokyo itself, but I thought the way it worked was that MC rent their connection to Tokyo itself and overwrote it with their own! I hadn't considered your angle before; something to think about haha
If I remember right though, Sitri's wings, and with them his powers, only grew in recently right? Like, a little while before the first Valentine's Event? That's why he had so much trouble controlling them if I recall correctly! But sustaining himself on that energy is one thing that can be explained (though! It's possible that part of Sitri's deep desire for chocolate in general, but valentine's chocolate especially, is the love that gets put into them? Not to say he sustains himself solely on it or anything, but it might explain the strength of his desires ahaha)
Wait. Do those character quests mean that collisions can literally send people into the pasts of other worlds?? Like fr?? And also, does that mean collisions are like, direct overlaps with other worlds and not just illusory versions?
Part of why I'm trying to sort this all out is because I want to write a TAS fic, but I needed a better understanding of how, exactly, the system works, and was basically about to throw my hands in the air and say that actually nobody goes home at all until they've fulfilled their contracts ever and that's that xD I've finished all the story content btw! Including chapter 11 and most of the translated events, except for the Canaan one (gotta get on that, pray I get myself a Dagon 5★)
Does that mean that we contracts are *unfulfillable*? Like MC's connection with Agyo was basically like "I want friend lmao" and then they got their friend, but does that mean that Agyo is trapped in Tokyo until MC decides that they don't want to be friends with him anymore?
Also, do you think that if a Stray Transient does eventually run out of energy to sustain themselves in Tokyo, they get booted back to their world permanently, or do you think they just recover their strength in their home world and then get pulled back over?
Thanks again for answering my questions! I hope that this is proving as interesting to explore to you as it is to me hahaha
I don't mind that it's a lot at all! Lol it was just a surprise. I'm honored to be approached about this kind of thing, and I find it very interesting, yeah! 'u' I love worldbuilding and characterization so thinking about/sharing my thoughts on it for things I like is always a pleasure.
I mean it's possible they're rending their connection to Tokyo, but I feel like that wouldn't take the exception away? Because it came from an interaction they had, not Tokyo itself. I figured they were torn from the exception and the exception and fighting robbed them of all their energy in the proccess of making them a. . .screaming, mindless fighting machine lmao. Like rending a familiar from someone? But that familiar is inside them? If that makes sense? I don't remember if this was explained to begin with let alone how lol I should reread it lol
Sitri's wings did come in pretty recently, and they're implied to be a puberty thing. The problem is that he says they came in "the other day"--which doesn't necessarily mean "two days ago" as convenient as that'd be. The Japanese is even more vague, just saying "When I was taking a bath" without giving a timeframe. But I kinda figured that, until the wings popped in, love from his family was enough to sustain him. Because Bathym doesn't have a family here, really, he has his fans and the guild. But also since his family knew about the wings, saying they were a sign he was growing up, maybe they have a similar power that pops in during puberty and thus were able to feed him others' feelings. But yeah they were new which is why he couldn't control them.
As for the pasts in other worlds. . .time doesn't flow in other worlds the same as it does in Tokyo necessarily. El Dorado isn't even around anymore, time in Shangri-La flows slower than in Tokyo, etc--but these places still participate in the Game despite that. So worlds and timelines aren't entirely stable--after all time's been reset over and over. Also, we have time travelers from Utopia(which is the future???) so if they were forced to conform to a single space-time path that'd be kind of difficult? So, yeah, time and space and memories aren't necessarily stable in collisions. I mean, if a world collided based on memories, who's to say those places are still exactly as remembered? It works for the jungle in Shangri-La because it's a jungle and how much will that change--but the collided oceans are connected to towns in other worlds? Dagon connected islands from various worlds into one, too--those can't all be his own memories or from the same timeframe. Collisions are pretty unstable by definition so it doesn't surprise me that time can get screwed up along the way.
But yeah collisions seem to be actual overlaps of some sort--since Macan remembered that he heard MC's voice that happened in the collision, Xolotl met and saw himself in the collision, etc. And those things had effects that brought them to Tokyo to begin with.
Oh, there's also Nomad's character story where MC was invisible to everyone but Nomad--Nomad could feel them too--because the worlds were unstable under Ikebukuro Coliseum and they reminded Nomad of the prison he was in, causing the Collision.
MC could travel the collision/memory without Nomad around and get accurate information about its layout to help him escape.
If the collision doesn't alter the actual past then there's no way they'd know without Nomad physically with them. . .and there's no way Nomad would know where to go to escape the prison if MC weren't able to get actual information.
Then MC breaks the lights--only Nomad can see them, but they can affect reality/the past in a way that influenced everyone in it. And they're able to escape thanks to information MC gathered about and influence MC had on the world that Nomad would have no means whatsoever of getting/doing on his own.
Then they saw present Nomad who said MC was his, MC tried to reassure past!Nomad that it was okay, they were the same person, and past!Nomad felt betrayed.
Past Nomad sees MC through the transient light and chases after them, bringing him to Tokyo in continued pursuit of revenge.
. . .and present Nomad, now home with Mc and having had resolved the collision, remembered that he'd been chasing MC through the transient light but had travelled to Tokyo to find them--but had not travelled to them. He'd likely forgotten who he was looking for because he was kind of out of his mind at the time and thought he was chasing after his own hallucination to begin with.
Now that he remembers he wanted to kill MC for leaving him but also knows that he's the one who MC left him for, he deems them half a traitor for only betraying the him of the past not the him of the present and lets them off the hook for now.
(nice kabedon--DAMN THE TEN IMAGE LIMIT.)
MC was the one he wanted venegence against when he left Utopia, although he still has to get revenge against the people who turned him into a tiger. But he went to Tokyo to get revenege against MC and made a contract with them without remembering they were the target. He says he won't kill them for now but someday, when his other revenge is done, he'll come after them for betraying him. Until then they're his assistant and they'll be helping him get revenge. If they betray him again--betray him "one and a half times"--they'll become the new priority and he'll kill them first.
But even he said that he thinks that he's crazed for revenge is stupid so MC figured out that he wants them to keep him in check. (He calls them 'traitor' fondly(? He smiles while doing it, I think it's pretty fond) and I wish he kept doing that but it'd probably reveal more to people than Nomad is comfortable revealing lol so he calls you by name instead.)
Also, canonness note, he declares them his detective assistant when he declares them his accomplice--and in the Beach House Andvari he reiterates that's your relationship too. Which means that his character quest is canon across events. And if events are canon--whether through your choices or not(at one point in the story you know Gyobu but you only met him in events until that point???) that means Mc making pacts with everyone could be canon too.
. . .but yeah collisions are just time and space freaking out. Maybe they're past resets of sorts.
And oooh fanfics are exciting 'u' I'll give it a read if you link it! And congrats on reading everything! *U* I've gotta do that myself lol and good luck getting 5★Dagon!! I wanted 5★Tangaroa(someone I have added has him and. . .holy shit he heals himself, he heals allies around him, he's practically invincible) but I ran out of transient stones and I'm poor irl 8'D The Canaan event is fun and also chaotic and will probably give you even MORE questions about how the fuck timelines and collisions work. Because it kinda introduces a new mechanic into the mix. So uh brace yourself?
The problem with "nobody goes home until they've fulfilled their contracts" is that some people just don't have contracts. And their own desires only seem to cause gates to open and take them, not actually bind them--someone from Tokyo(or in Tokyo in MC's case) needs to be their binding agent if they're not like. A World Rep or someone similarly powerful enough to stay on their own(this is a guess--they're probably sustained by being the System and thus stand on the faith of all their people from their world. Alternatively they're bound to Tokyo via MC as the trophy.) Otherwise they wouldn't note that transients disappear eventually if unbound by a contract.
Gullinbursti isn't attached to MC by contract anymore not because MC said "I don't want us to be friends" or anything but because MC refused to make a proper contract with him because he'd misinterpret it. But he's still hanging out, so. It's not immediate. But, yeah, there are probably unfulfillable contracts that can only be broken by death or declaration. Agyo is stuck with MC until MC says he can go lol--I mean they're friends now but it'd defeat the purpose of the pact if they went away as soon as that happened. Because MC wants more and more companions they'll never truly have their desire to have friends fulfilled probably. So anyone summoned that way gets to stay in Tokyo until MC is no longer in it or maybe until MC decides "I don't want people around me anymore/I don't want to see anyone ever again" and truly means it--which will declare their contracts fulfilled and send them home, if they have a home/life to return to.
As for if Stray Transients go back permanently, yes and no. I think they go back and recuperate their energy and they stay home if they don't have an outstanding pact(whether they're aware or not)--however if they were just there because they went into the light and had nothing binding them to the land but that energy/will that brought them, they'd go home without bwing sent back unless they really wanted it again. Thus they can be resummoned, intentionally or otherwise. If MC one day dismisses everyone, regrets it, and says they want their friends back, everyone would come back. But if they didn't ask for everyone to return they'd stay home(disregarding that they'd probably all go NO WE WANNA GO BACK TAKE US TO MC and the transient light would bring them back to Tokyo again lmao.)
So. Yeah, they'll stay home until summoned again, even after they get their energy back, I think. If they don't have a home to go back to maybe they float in the void for a while, kinda like how MC just kinda existed as the Exiles without a home or like how Robinson says they can't stay anywhere forever because they're Wanderers.
(Somewhat related, Shiro mentions in the Apprentice Santa event that it must be hard to import turkey to Tokyo. . .import it from where? Tokyo is closed off on all sides INCLUDING THE OCEAN. That means someone's bringing turkey from other worlds into Tokyo--a business-like summoning contract lol. "Come to Tokyo, bring goods from other worlds, and you can go back until I need more" basically. Using another world like a manufacturing plant lol. . .little things like that make me consider that you can go and come back at the will of a summoner, assuming you donct have an artifact or ability that allows you to traverse worlds as you please.)
Another thing for you to consider if you wanna be a bit more puzzled: remember how much belief plays a part in how things work in Tokyo. Consider. . .if someone claims they're not a stray transient when they actually are and everyone around them believes that they have a contract or guild or something keeping them there even though it's not true. . .are they bound to Tokyo by that belief as long as they're around more people who think they're bound to somebody? Will they disappear if people stop believing them or they're around people who believe they're a stray? Consiquentially if people believe a stray will disappear sooner than later does their timer run out faster? If Ose somehow ran around telling people that transients won't disappear with his ability to make people believe everything he says, do they stop disappearing because no one thinks they will? I suppose he can't lie to nature, but can those beliefs sustain people? I mean belief can cause Oni to be hurt by beans, can cause Behemoth to regain his sense of taste, can cause people from worlds that've been destroyed to become demons because the Angels invading will it to be so. So where does belief's power end and the power of the System kick in? Does the game end if MC puts on Ose's crown and tells the Representaives it's over and they all lost? Or would the alternation of belief on a mass scale cause an Exception by clashing with something more powerful than it? What, since they so value Systems and the Faith that sustains them, to the point that losing Faith in your System causes a full on collapse of the world it holds together(see:Canaan), is more powerful in this game than the power of belief?
#danie yells with anons#danie yells answers#danie yells at tokyo afterschool summoners#long post#tokyo afterschool summoners
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Get To Know... Riley Liu
Thanks for the tag @mskaneko! I may have gone into way more detail than anyone could possibly care about, hahaha!
1. Name (+ bonus why did you choose that name?)
Riley Liu, or Riley Walker after the wedding
I almost never change first names (I don’t particularly like coming up with names, and I’m always afraid I’m going to give my MC another character’s name, but Brooks just didn’t feel like a realistic surname for a Chinese-American woman)
2. Faceclaim
Kaman Kong
3. Nicknames
Liu, Walker in canon universe after her wedding
4. Birthday
June 17th
5. Height
5′7″
6. Eye color
Dark brown
7. Hair color
Black
8. Love interest (why did she choose this person?)
Drake Walker
No one had ever understood her and made her feel seen like he did, and he flirted with her by teasing/bantering, which is how she flirts as well. She never felt like she had to watch what she said or how she acted around him, and he still wanted to spend time with her and really get to know her. Plus, she thought he was good looking.
9. Best friend
Hana Lee
10. Personality traits
Snarky, goofy, competitive, fierce, protective
11. Family background
Her mother (Mei) was 19 years old when she had Riley and had been dating her father (Henry, age 23) for 7 months when she found out she was pregnant. Her mother thought that they would settle down and be a nice little family, but Henry had little interest in starting a family. Her parents were a volatile on-again, off-again couple until Riley was 3 years old, at which point they broke up for good. Riley saw him only a handful of times before he moved back to Beijing when she was 6 years old. Her paternal grandparents never even knew she existed, and she hasn’t spoken to her father since then.
Mei struggled with depression and anxiety and turned to heroin to cope. Her addiction made it difficult for her to hold down a job, and she frequently stole from her parents to pay for her next hit. Not knowing how to help their daughter, and not having the money to get her treatment, Riley’s grandparents kicked them out when Riley was 2 years old. They thought that this tough love approach would force Mei to get clean in order to care for her daughter, but it didn’t work as they’d hoped. Instead, Mei and Riley had very unstable housing, often sleeping on the floor of apartments of Mei’s friends, boyfriends, or dealers. When Riley was 10, Mei was arrested for the first time, and thus began a cycle of Riley being placed with a foster family while her mother served time, Mei getting clean and regaining custody, but eventually relapsing and forcing Riley back into the system.
Mei died from an OD when Riley was in her final year of college. In order to pay off her outstanding debts and give her a minimal funeral, Riley was forced to drop out of college.
12. Hometown
NYC (Manhattan, primarily Chinatown or the surrounding neighborhoods)
13. Education
Completed 6 semesters of college through a combination of loans, scholarships, and service industry jobs before dropping out after her mother’s debt. Riley only applied to college because it allowed her access to subsidized housing away from her mother.
In the It Couldn’t Wait Another Moment universe, Riley does eventually complete those last two semesters.
14. What languages does she know?
English, and she can understand conversational Mandarin (and can speak a little bit, but cannot read or write it) from time spent with her maternal grandparents when she was very young. She’s picked up some basic Spanish over the years as well through friends, coworkers, and a good foster family.
15. Occupation
Duchess in canon, which will never stop feeling ridiculous to her. In the ICWAM universe, she gets a job doing image management for public figures with a PR firm after she completes her college education, at least for a while...
16. Dream job
When she was little, she wanted to be a rock star. Now that she’s older, she’s very much a work to live, not live to work person, so she counts a job that pays her well that she doesn’t hate as a win.
17. Hidden talent
Darts. She’s insanely good, even when drunk.
18. Her strengths
Resiliency, flexibility, adaptability
19. Her weaknesses
Fears of abandonment, avoidance of needed negative conversations, impulsivity, impatience
20. Pet peeves
Passive aggressiveness, bad tippers
21. Guilty pleasure
Soap operas
22. Ideal outfit
Skinny jeans, black leather boots, a bright colored top, and her trusty leather jacket
23. Favorite season
Summer
24. Favorite vacation spot
Anywhere with good beaches. In all honesty, she’d only been on one trip before Cordonia (with her first foster family, the Veras), so any vacation feels like a real treat to her.
25. Celebrity crush
Matt Rodriguez
26. Who is her inspiration
The two sets of good foster parents she had, Hana
27. Whats is the craziest thing she has ever done?
She got on a plane to a country she’d never heard of with a guy she met less than 24 hours earlier
28. Describe her dream date
A casual meal and drinks over some sort of competitive activity (pool, darts, poker, giant jenga, you name it) Teasing, banter, and competition are all flirting/foreplay for her.
29. What’s more important for her in a relationship: physical attraction or emotional connection?
She always thought physical attraction prior to Drake, because she never thought she would be in a long-term committed relationship. But her emotional connection to Drake is something she never could have thought would be something she would experience, and she treasures it.
30. Three things she would take to a desert island
A pocket knife, a lighter, a flask
31. What is one thing she could never forgive?
A partner who stormed out in a fight without letting her know where he was going
32. What gets her out of bed in the morning?
Like, what motivates her? When things are good, a general sense of wanting to enjoy what she currently has. When things are bad, the belief that it will pass and things will get better.
Or, if we are talking what physically gets her out of bed? Her annoyance with her alarm.
33. What does she use more often: her intuition or logical reasoning?
She thinks she is very logical, but if she isn’t careful, her panic response that she built up throughout her childhood masks itself as logic.
34. Would she rather be alone doing something she enjoy, or doing something she doesn’t like with her best friends?
Definitely doing something she doesn’t like with her best friends
35. What's her biggest regret?
In canon, accepting the duchy. In ICWAM, she comes to be at peace with her life choices through therapy.
Bonus: three random facts about your MC
- She loves New York style bagels, to the point that her social media handles often make some reference to being a “bagel bitch.”
- Her favorite animals are penguins. She can’t explain it.
- She uses a peach body wash, lotion, and body mist from Bath and Body works, even in the canon universe where she could afford nice perfume. Drake likes the way she smells, so she sees no point pretending to have richer tastes than she does.
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hello its me
hmm idk why i wanna write something here tho yknow i think tumblr d worded to my same gen tumblr moots ...
anyway
maybe one day when i die, my friends & family will find my blog and just /know/ you know but lmao theyre probably just gonna find my yn fics hahaha
anywayyyy back to the real reason why i wanna write here...
i find it scary im having these kind of thoughts lately i dont know if its because of my job? (maybee? its actually the only reason i see rn?) bc honestly... im doing fine in all other things..
friends? theyre okay.. we talk and meet up if this lockdown permits (yup 2021 and still in lockdown)
family? we're good as well.. im happy theyre healthy and well (hope it continues like that for a long time)
me? well.... i guess the problem starts there lol idk i keep having these thoughts bout wanting not to wake up from sleep yk lmao and it actually stems from not wanting to go to work with the role that i currently have ....
maybe im being ungrateful rn but i really feel like its not healthy for me to be in this role.. its too pressuring, gives me anxiety.. and i know im only a month in but do you really have to be in a situation longer for you to say that its toxic for you? toxic for your mental health?
honeslty idk i feel kinda bad that im prioritizing my mental health over earning like putting myself first is something so bad lol i feel so guilty about feeling this way
and i feel that im unfair bc my family is working so hard in different countries, working their asses off, literally one have to caught the virus (theyre ok now tho) but still work
and im here,,, being a fucking baby,, whining about how THIS is the worst situation that i am in lmao
but they just dont get it,,, maybe i was mentally unstable right before all this happened (my job) and now its triggering these thoughts out of me and seriously i have never wanted to feel this way, i swear.. i didnt want to feel so broken,, so weak,,, i dont want to constantly ask for help,,, show signs that im emotionally & mentally drowning,,,, its just so hard to be living this way..
i didnt even realize that I'll go to such extent of wishing i dont wake up from my sleep
but at the same time, im fucking terrified this "life" will last longer you know?
you know how in books/universe beliefs that what you want to happen will be jinxed if you keep thinking about it lmao
im so so terrified about it like,, what if i really wanna die but end up living 100 more years lol
like bitch i dont wanna live so long if im this unhappy.. i dont want this life if im just constantly insecure about everything, how im literally fucking depressed and unhealthy..
and im so fucking sick hearing about "you can change this for yourself" "live life/change your life for you" "youre the driver of this life" bullshit like BRO DO YOU THINK I DONT KNOW THAT
Like ok man i KNOW i can change my life but at this fucking moment???? i cant???? and its difficult to just wake up one day and feel inspired and be full of energy in a mental state like this???
yall r so fucking stupid if you also think depression is being so skinny, eating less, looking stressed and fuck bc depression is also the opposite.. like honestly?? i dont fucking look depressed but look at me now tho?? haha
im overweight, i dont look sleep deprived, i still eat, and i still sleep.. im here but sometimes im not here you know?
whats worse is that depression here is being so downplayed like its just "drama"& not a real fucking disease,, i have relatives who would think - they've been thru worse and that YOU feeling sad and depressed for them is just whines and worthless drama and that youre just overreacting like you dont have a fucking right to feel that way just because theyve been thru "worst" lmao ok bitch do you want a fucking "not depressed" award
well fuck im sorry my generation have to deal with your fucking trauma bc you let it out on us just because we're younger and you dont have any idea that the shit youre putting us thru is actually YOUR trauma???? like fuck
sigh
im just so tired of this unhappiness.. i miss my old self,, the better me,,, i miss my passions,, the things that make me happy,,, bc right now, i can only do so much and still feel this way..
i can paint and sing all day but it wont bring me back the same energy, the same joy it brought to me before - and i miss that...
why do i have to be this way? i just wanna be happy..
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30 Day Challenge:
Day 1 Topic-
About feelings
Let’s talk about facts:
Many of us have an uncomfortable relationship with our feelings. We might stuff down our sadness or sweep away our anger. We might even have trouble identifying what we’re feeling in the first place. We’re socialized to mask our feelings. We learn that we must cover up our emotions “in order to behave appropriately, professionally, and to avoid conflict and navigate relationships.”
We worry if our emotions are wrong, bad or even crazy. We fear being rejected or perceived as needy or foolish and sometimes believe to be weak if we feel sad or scared, so we avoid these emotions. Or we may ignore other emotions, believing they shouldn’t be feeling that way. While feelings may be tricky and we may view them with unease or even suspicion, they’re actually important and valuable. So it is just important that we know we are attuned to our feelings. It’s exciting to discuss about this, and I might say this Day 1 task got me really puzzled about feelings and emotions. What are the difference?
The Difference between Feelings and Emotions
Emotions vs. Feelings
In English, these two words are commonly used interchangeably. Actually, from a scientific standpoint, emotions and feelings are completely different. An emotion is a hard-wired, physical, universal human response to change of some sort. Emotions are instinctive, arising from the limbic system of the brain, developed and genetically programmed over many generations of human evolution. Psychologists do not agree on the number of human emotions, but basic examples include anger, fear, surprise, disgust, happiness and sadness.
In contrast to emotions, which are measurable physical responses, feelings are individual mental processes that cannot be measured. Emotions actually precede feelings, our personal mental reactions to an emotion. Feelings are generated by thoughts and images that we have paired with a specific emotion over time. Emotions are usually short-term and fleeting, while the feelings they provoke may last and grow over a lifetime.
Source: Talktoteach.com
Emotions are measurable physical response and feelings are individual mental processes that cannot be measured
Have you watched Disney’s inside out movie? The main characters are the emotions in a little girls brain and the storyline focuses on how to recover joy after a traumatic experience.
The movie feels really good, and different. It flies on the wings of an almost too-real message — that sadness is an inevitable and necessary part of life.
It’s a good movie to watch with kids and parents, showing how important emotions are and the need to be validated and undertood as part of a child’s development.
The more you are aware of your emotions, the more they help you know yourself and understand the people around you. Noticing and talking about feelings is a healthy way to express them. It keeps difficult feelings from building up. Here is a feelingswheel for you.
Questions about feelings:
Are you a sensitive person? Are you more emotional or less emotional than other people? What makes you think so?
Tbh, I am quite a sensitive person. I think I easily feel all those certain feelings especially when I come across a sad state. I mean, who is not? Come on. Especially when I was young and immature. I am so much unstable when it comes to handling them. It was only now that I am soon 30, I have come up with ways to handle them in a graceful manner. Emotions and feelings are all useful in order for us to better express ourselves and conform ourselves well in the society’s norms and traditions. In some people, handling difficult situations ending in negative emotions is not easy for them, and that may lead to break down and eventually lead to depression. And it’s them that needs social and emotional assistance the most. But for myself, I think I am fine. It just gets better everyday and with age, so I think. What about you?
Can you control your emotions well? How?
Lately, I figured out how to handle them with ease. I’ve dealt with these emotions and savored them like I am tasting them bit by bit. And then I learned to linger to a particular emotion for a time, until I am over it. But I don’t let each emotion affect my day to day, i.e my job and my relationships. If a sad news came, to be specific, a break up of some sort, feelings of reject and self pity comes along. Well what I’m going to do is feel sad about it for some time, and then just be sad until i am not sad anymore. Then after that, I accept that there are things beyond my control so it’s basically not my fault why I’m being rejected. It’s always the mindset that saves our ass in times like these. When we think, “Yeah okay I get it. But my life is great. I can still be able to meet and know other people and it will be fine” And repeat that thought until you’re finally okay. I mean it’s ok to feel sad about it, but to feel sad about it for a long time is your choice already. So it’s up to you on how you want your life to go on. Though sometimes, hormones usually gets mixed with it in some situations, and then I tend to breakdown. It’s so hard to be a girl you know. But I am working on making it better lately, handling these emotions well plus the hormones is a must asap.
Are you generally a positive person or a negative person?
After the things I’ve been through, I realized that I need to choose to be positive ALL the time. Even in negative situations, there should always be a positive thing in a day, may it be a simple smile or giggle of the neighbor’s baby or the warmth of your blanket that hugs you after a long tiring and sad day. You see, if we start appreciating things around us, instead of looking at what’s lacking, then there could be one or more positive things in our lives to notice from. So yes, always choose and think positive, in a way, the universe conspires along with it too! Hopefully!
Do you find it easy to explain your feelings to another person? If not, why is it difficult?
I don’t know but I am really bad at it. I am always afraid what people may perceive and if they comprehend the message well enough that they actually GET me and my point. And so often, I get misunderstood. It scares me before to think what others may think of what I convey to them. But RN I am determined not too care so much about it. I mean, well, I am responsible of what i say not for what they understand. So i’ll eventually get tired explaining myself if they believe what they think their minds say. So if you have a technique, feel free to share. 🙌🏻
What makes you feel very good?
I feel very good when my needs are met. See Maslow’s Hierarchy of needs. And I realized it’s not love from a partner that completes you. It’s the love for yourself. And knowing it actually makes me feel really good.
What makes you feel sad?
There are many things. I get sad when people die. And things that comes to an end. But I’ve learned to treat sadness with respect. I mean, it is important, an emotional mechanism that is built on our DNA for human survival and adaptation.
If you're feeling down, how can you make yourself feel better?
I do a lot actually. I feed myself, buy some clothes, or sing my heart out. But I don’t sleep. Many people tend to go on a hibernation when they are sad. But I don’t. As i’ve said before, I treat sadness with respect so I try to overcome it not escape from it. But among the things that I do to make myself better, praying is the one that works best for me. It’s my complete therapy to full recovery. Talking to God everything that makes me sad helps a lot. You should try it.
What is the saddest movie, song, or story that you know?
It was Titanic for me, as the saddest ever. I mean, losing someone you love to death is quite tragic. But what’s more sad is when two people who love each other but cannot be together. I mean it’s a torture. Seeing each other with a different partner is never a pleasant sight. Trust me, it hurts to the bones.
Do people know how you feel by looking at your face? Are you good at hiding your emotions?
This is an exciting topic to talk about. Many people assume they could really know how I feel just by looking at my face. Well yeah, sometimes when I am really happy, I can be obviously happy and also when I am sad. Most of all, is when I like somebody. All the emotions I am feeling can be read on my face. Like yeah, how can you hide turning red when your crush approached you? Like how? So embarrassing hahaha. But anyways, what i am good at, is when I dislike a person. You will never know unless I tell you i don’t but that will not happen sadly. I am not frank, I was raised to not hurt people by being so frank and always choose to speak in a nicer way. And if not, I must resort to avoiding people in the end.
What is the best way to deal with feelings of anger?
When i get angry, I get realllllllly angry. But I have managed controlling my anger in a way that saves my relationships with friends and family. It’s always best to choose a low tone of voice, no matter the argument is about. Shouting, as i often tend to do and i’m avoiding, is not the best way to address anger. Relationships are more important than short time emotions like anger.
Have you been in love? What is it like to be in love?
Yes I have. There are many kinds of it. And almost all of the states of love below, I have already experienced it. You come across each of the states, and all have different feeling to it. And explaining them is hard, cause love is immeasurable. That is, for me.
Which is more powerful between feelings of love and feelings of hate?
I’m gonna end this blog by answering this question. Throughout the years I have been juggling with both feelings and I must say, the feeling of love is more powerful cause it makes us go on and look forward to life. Well, it’s upon one’s preference still. Cause for me, I will always choose to love instead of hate. These 2 are both powerful because hate feelings, are the feelings that weighs us down, and makes us regret and think back. Therefore pulling us in a state of negativity flow in our life where everything is just heavy, a burden, a baggage and a prison that imprisons and rusts us deep down inside. If you let yourself get eaten by your anger and hatred, it can really affect you to your core. Feelings and emotions are natural mechanisms that helps us thrive and adapt to certain situations. If only we know how to handle them properly, then we’re going to be okay.
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this isn't what i meant by family bonding - jeongcheol ft. chan
genre: fluff and slight angst but really it's just panic
word count: 1.8k
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ok i should've been more detailed and through but no. but anyways!! enjoy hahaha
in which seungcheol, jeonghan, and their baby chan go to ikea to do some family bonding. and of course, things go wrong.
Seungcheol loves his family, he really does, but sometimes... just sometimes, he contemplates every choice he's made ever made during his twenty-four years of being alive; especially the one that led to being in Ikea at eleven in the morning, barely awake as he pushes a large metal cart through the household emporium. But Seungcheol manages to refrain from dozing off, mainly because his toddler son, Chan, keeps slapping his face with his tiny baby hands.
That and the fact that he knows Jeonghan will throw a fit if he doesn't participate in their 'family bonding.'
So he listens to Jeonghan's endless, out loud debate with himself about what chairs they should get for their dining room. Seungcheol would be concerned about his husband's behavior if he didn't know him--- but he does know him, so he's gotten used to Jeonghan's nit-picky, overthinking personality.
(And his tendency to do too much.)
"Okay, okay, okay," Jeonghan says as if he's starting a powerpoint presentation to pitch an idea. "Which one says, 'financially stable, but mentally unstable'?" Before Seungcheol knows it, his husband is already dragging a random chair next to the one in front of him. One chair is dark brown while the other chair is light brown. Other than that they look highly similar. "Nordviken or Lerhamn?"
Seungcheol looks at each one, trying to form an opinion that doesn't exist. Finally, he replies, "Um, the one that sounds less German."
"It's Swedish!" Jeonghan overdramatically exclaims, obviously appalled by his husband's lack of knowledge about the cultural origins of the company. "How can you even say that?"
Seungcheol doesn't answer Jeonghan's question and instead replies with, "...I love you?"
"I love you too," Jeonghan says, fondness in his voice, before he adding, "But go choke."
Chan giggles and lightly smacks Seungcheol's right cheek again, legs kicking in the front of the cart. In a giddy tone, he repeats, "Yeah, appa, go choke!"
Jeonghan shoots Seungcheol a glare as if it was his fault for their son saying that, and turns to the boy sitting in the seat in the cart. Instantaneously, he switches to his angelic, paternal side, going all heart-eyes when he sees Chan.
"Channie, don't say that to appa, okay? I'm the only one who can say that," Jeonghan tells his son, who is carefully listening to him, lips cutely pressing together.
"Okay," Chan says, in tiny font voice.
Jeonghan fixes Chan's baby hairs. His four-year-old son sways side to side, his heavy lil' head making him unbalanced, but adorable nonetheless.
"Whose baby are you?" Jeonghan asks Chan, who happily responds, "Appa's!"
This makes Jeonghan squish Chan's soft cheeks more than he already is, a little blush forming upon them. "That's right! You're my baby," Jeonghan says, acting like he hasn't heard his son say this before. He nuzzles their noses together and gives Chan three pecks on the same cheek. "Jeonghannie's baby!"
Seungcheol sighs, but a small smile graces his face. Then, he jokingly remarks, "Hey, you make it sound like you're a single parent."
Jeonghan whips around to acknowledge his husband and gives him a little huff, "I might be if you don't help me pick out some go---" Chan looks at him. "---gosh darn furniture. We can't keep eating and sleeping on the floor forever."
"What? We can't?" Seungcheol responds, cheekily. "I was totally into this camping indoors thing we had going on." A random stuffed animal prop is thrown at Seungcheol's face by Jeonghan, which he barely dodges. "I'm just kidding, I'm just kidding," he laughs, before reassuring his husband, "We're going to get the chairs, the bed, and everything else, and then we'll have our dream home and live happily ever after. The end."
His effort at soothing Jeonghan works, or at least, for the most part. "Speaking of beds, honey, it would splendid if you could browse for some while I look at these chairs again."
Seungcheol grins confidently, ready to take on the task. "Alright, no problem. You'll be saying, 'Wow this bed is so nice, I might f---" Chan slaps at his head. "---frick you in it.'" Seungcheol repeats in a small coo, "Frick."
Chan giggles and tries to bite Seungcheol's finger, failing to his utter disappointment. Jeonghan tsks, then begins to take the cart from Seungcheol's hands. "Well, appa, me and Channie will be over here---"
"I'll take Chan," Seungcheol tells Jeonghan. "You're always smothering him and we barely get to hang out. Plus you'll probably be too distracted by him to find the best chair ever, you know?" Seungcheol unbuckles Chan and takes the small boy into his arms. Chan pinches Seungcheol's cheek with his fingers. "So just leave him to me, we'll be fine, and I'll call you when we're done!"
Before Jeonghan can even attempt to argue, Seungcheol gives him a kiss on the cheek, and Chan does the same.
He can't say no to that, can he?
---
Seungcheol doesn't know what happened. One minute, he and Chan were looking at beds, jumping on them, and feeling how utterly soft they were when they laid down against them. The next minute, he was sleeping with Chan on his chest, on one of the king-sized showroom beds, only to be awoken by a concerned employee who awkwardly informs him, "Sir, these beds are only for display..."
Bashfully, Seungcheol apologizes and pulls himself together, away from the heaven he called a mattress. Whew, I must've been tired, the man thought, I really dozed off in the middle of a store.
"Channie, we gotta go, baby," Seungcheol mumbles, rubbing his eyes. Then he yawns. "Appa is going to be wondering why we haven't called him yet." Jeonghan was probably going to gripe about how they were going to miss all of the Swedish meatballs in the cafeteria and Chan would never have the full Ikea experience. Oh, the woe.
"Sir, who are you talking to?" the same employee says, still standing there, creeping the shit out of Seungcheol, who is now confused. "Are you talking to me? Because my name is Mingyu---"
"What?" Seungcheol asks, wondering if he isn't registering this conversation properly. "I'm talking to my son?"
The employee--- Mingyu--- scrunches his eyebrows and double-checks the space around Seungcheol, who is doing the same thing. "Son?"
Seungcheol's eyes go wide with realization when he sees that there's no little boy on the bed, under the bed, or within the bedsheets. (Yes, he really checked.) Quickly, his line of sight shifts from showroom to showroom, none showing signs of a little three-year-old boy.
"My son," Seungcheol says, agape. He can't form sentences because he's too shocked and can't fathom anything right now. "Who isn't here."
Apprehension blooms in Mingyu as he finds himself caught in a very unlucky and serious situation, but tries to calm the storm before it starts. "Sir, I'll call security and have someone announce that there is a missing child---"
Seungcheol shakes his head back and forth, and so do his hands. "No, no, no, please don't announce it. My husband will hear and he will have my ass---"
"Hear what?" a familiar voice asks, "And have your ass? For what reason?"
Jeonghan, who had been finding his way to the bed section, tilts his head with curiosity. Its a shame really, because his face is so soft right now, and Seungcheol doesn't want to be the one to ruin that innocent expression. And he certainly doesn't want to be the bearer of bad news, but of course, he can't avoid the question. And he also can't lie for shit.
So he looks up, down, left, right, and then all around before mumuring, "...Channie... I can't find him."
Jeonghan laughs, not getting it. "Were you guys playing hide and seek or something?" Seungcheol avoids eye contact with his husband, ashamed of himself, but also scared. "Is he around here?"
Seungcheol opens his mouth, then closes it, and then: "Uhm... not really?"
"What do you mean, 'not really?'"
"Not really... as in... not really, I just uh, fell asleep on one of these beds, which are, um, well, really comfortable and soft enough to make you wanna sleep in it if you're... you know, sleepy, haha, and um, well, when I woke up he was kinda gone..?"
Jeonghan stares at him. There's no emotion on his face, but Seungcheol knows to take a couple of steps back. "Kinda gone?"
"Totally gone," Mingyu adds, earning a smack from Seungcheol, a stranger.
"TOTALLY GONE?!" Jeonghan explodes, causing both Seungcheol and Mingyu to wince. "I left you with our son, OUR son, for like what? Thirty minutes? You couldn't watch him for thirty minutes?"
Seungcheol grabs at his husband's shoulders and tries to calm him down, but is panicking himself. "Hannie, Hannie, I'm sorry, this is my fault---"
"IT IS YOUR FAULT, YOU ASSHOLE---"
"Calling me an asshole won't fix anything---"
"It won't! But it will make me feel a lot better!"
"You guys, please--- OW, WHY ARE YOU HITTING ME?!"
"YOU'RE IN THE WAY---"
Jeonghan is about to snap when they all hear, "Appa?"
The sound of a familiar tiny voice makes them both turn around, slowly. And when they do, it's their son, all of him, in one piece, even his chubby cheeks and choppy hair (still flicking upwards). With him is another adult, holding his hand, sharp eyes looking from side to side at the mess in front of him. "So, I found... this young man wandering around the downstairs cafeteria."
Chan cheerfully holds up a meatball in his barefist, getting smooshed. With some food in his mouth he says, "Woo Woo got me food!"
Mingyu snickers, "Woo Woo?"
Wonwoo--- it says that on his chest--- refrains from flipping his fellow employee off and instead looks to the parents. "I've been asking everyone if they knew who this boy was, and then I got the message from Mingyu that a boy was missing... and then... well, you guys were obviously upset, so I put two and two together."
Chan lets go of Wonwoo's hand and runs into Seungcheol's arms. Seungcheol easily lifts him into the air and then kisses his face all over, not even noticing the tears of relief and happiness running down his cheeks. "You little rascal... I'm sorry."
Jeonghan joins to the reunion, also crying, but harder. A smile is on his face, though, while he leans into the other two loves of his life. "Stupid... this isn't what I meant by family bonding... Ugh."
All of these tears confuse Chan, who frowns and, with his free hand, wipes at them off their faces. "What's wrong, appa?"
"Nothing," Jeonghan answers, as Seungcheol's head leans against his. "We just love you so much, it hurts!"
Chan kisses both of their cheeks, and a warm feeling covers all of them like a blanket, right in the middle of Ikea.
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The Dornish Bird - Chapter 2
Hello, lovelies! Here I am with the newest chapter just for you. I was so eager to post this part, you guys have no idea. I’m so glad it’s finally time for this update! This one is bigger than the last one.
I’d like to thank you all again for your kudos and comments, it means a lot to me. I’m so glad you’re enjoying the series so far, it is so good to interact with you the way we are doing.
We have another song today, this one is from one of my favorite games ever. I’ll link it here. I love this song, I thought it was perfect for Arya in a certain way. Sera’s character is just amazing, I love how strong she is. They are quite similar in this aspect, don’t you guys think? Hahaha!
Word count: 2.254.
(Y/n) held her breath as the gates of Winterfell were opened for the arrival of the Royal Family. They would enter at any minute.
The girl stood beside Jon, wearing the best dress she owned. Her (H/c) locks were styled in a high bum. That way, her beautiful face was completely exposed to the chilling air. Catelyn convinced (Y/n) to hold her hair like that. It would attract good attention from the lads, she said. Motherly or not, the Stark woman wanted to find a husband to (Y/n) before her next name day. Arya teased (Y/n) to no end when she found out.
'You're marrying the Imp!', the young girl said. Robb looked shocked while his siblings' laughter fulfilled the air. The only thing (Y/n) could do was blush furiously.
She knew Arya was just teasing her, but that thought wasn't reassuring enough to her mind to calm down. She knew nothing about Tyrion Lannister, besides the stories about his stature and addiction to wine. He didn't seem to be the best choice, even not considering the age gap between them. Ned found the joke hilarious and did nothing to deny Arya's supposition, his wife only chuckled and decided to leave them be.
"Do I smell good?" (Y/n) asked, visibly nervous.
Jon tried not to blush.
"As good as a dead fish could smell, dear." Theon said.
His voice startled the pair a little. Neither of them saw the Greyjoy approaching, but that reaction was quickly forgotten by the girl.
"Fuck off, Theon. I wasn't talking to you." She said.
Theon smiled with malice. They always had an unstable friendship. It all started when (Y/n) turned down Theon's kiss at one especially drunk act of him. He took that refusal as a snob response and started to treat (Y/n) that way. Robb and Jon found it amazingly childish, but there was no way of convincing Theon otherwise.
"If lady Stark hears you speaking like a drunk pirate, she'll starve you for three days once more." The boy said.
(Y/n) rolled her eyes.
"It only happened once, and it was my fault." She said. "Now, stop bothering me. I have to look attractive to... any rich man out there."
Theon laughed hard, Jon only sighed.
"That's a very good plan, for a whore." The Greyjoy said. "Are we losing our bird to a Lannister freak? Or do you prefer to choose some useless squire?"
"Oh, shut up! Maybe marrying a southern man would free me from your stupidity."
"Calm down, (Y/n). Your voice is too loud." Jon said.
(Y/n) bit her tongue, but chose to listen to her friend. She liked Jon too much to ignore his plea, and she knew he was right. The girl could feel Catelyn's gaze upon her back, the Stark's were listening to every word she had said to Theon.
The Greyjoy's frown didn't disappear with her lack of response, to Jon's infelicity.
"Why don't you marry Jon then? It would be just perfect. The bastard and the whore, can you imagine a better pairing?" He said.
Before (Y/n) or Jon could react, Robb kicked a small rock to Theon's back. The Greyjoy hissed, surprised by his friend's interruption. In any other case, Robb would keep his thoughts to himself. But he couldn't let Theon offend his brother and his friend at the same time.
That was what he liked to think, at least.
"(Y/n) is not a whore and Jon is an honorable suitor. Now shut up, Theon." The young wolf said.
"That's enough! Shut up, all of you!" Catelyn hissed.
The boys were silenced by the command of lady Stark. (Y/n) gulped hard, going back to her nervous state. Theon's words left a bitter taste in her mouth, but she couldn't defend herself. Not now, at least. She would definitely put horse shit in Theon's boots later. That's what he'd get as a reward for his shameless insults.
Jon bit his lip, unsure of what he should do. Harsh comments like that were frequent in his routine, he should not be offended anymore. But Theon had offended (Y/n) as well. The only girl in Winterfell that treated Jon with dignity beside Arya. Somehow, he felt disgusted by Theon's stupidity, as (Y/n) pointed a while back. Someone should do something about it. He shouldn't say those things to such a wonderful person as (Y/n).
But he knew he couldn't do anything at the moment. The only option Jon had was an attempt to make (Y/n) comfortable again.
He reached out to her hand discreetly. She was too distracted to notice until his warm skin was touching her cold left hand. She flinched with the touch, surprised. Her gaze fell upon her hand, and she found Jon's fingers playing softly with hers.
"You're smelling good." He muttered.
His words were kind, his gaze held strong feelings. Her knees trembled a little, and her cheeks became red. (Y/n) managed to give him a warm smile before whispering softly.
"Thank you."
She held his fingers for a short moment, before releasing his hand and turning her eyes to the gates. Jon felt his weeks warming up, a little smile rested upon his lips. Theon saw the whole scene, his eyes cold with anger. Without planning, he had just made an opportunity to (Y/n) and Jon to get closer. And, in his mind, the Bastard grabbed that opportunity with both hands.
"Where is Arya?" Ned mouthed, worried.
The group spotted the young girl running towards them, wearing a helmet that showed everyone what she was doing all this time. (Y/n) suppressed a laugh, hiding her mouth with the back of her hand. She felt Jon doing the same by her side, his reaction only made her smile. Ned took of Arya's helmet and tossed it aside as the girl entered the formation, assuming her position between Sansa and Bran. The oldest Stark girl rolled her eyes.
Boot's sounds filled the air, and the king's company finally entered the Starks home. (Y/n) felt instantaneously nervous again, but she wasn't the only one this time.
At Ned's side, Catelyn, who watched the whole scene looked at Jon and (Y/n) one last time before resuming her duties as Eddard's wife. She did not approve the relationship the two of them shared a single bit. In her eyes, Jon was far from being a good suitor to her protegé. The hatred she felt for the bastard boy blinded her from reason.
'I must act quickly.', she thought to herself. 'That boy can't have (Y/n).'
With that decision in mind, Catelyn smiled coldly and breathed deeply. Jon would never deserve (Y/n), he wasn't allowed to touch her.
Catelyn would not let that happen.
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"Who would dare to think 'His Grace' isn't truly gracefull?" (Y/n) whispered close to Robb's ear.
The boy wanted to laugh, but he knew it was too risky. Biting his lip to suppress a smirk, he moved a little closer to his friend to answer.
"Shut up, (Y/n). Do you want to spend your night being hanged?" He whispered back.
(Y/n) rolled her eyes.
"Don't tell me you're not thinking the same." She said, keeping her voice low enough to not be heard from anyone else. "Look at him, he eats like a swine. Are you certain he's not from House 'Pigratheon' or something?".
Robb couldn't hold back his laughter this time. Almost choking with wine, the Young Wolf peered around for a second to make sure no one noticed him laughing. To his luck, every person present in the feast was too occupied to notice.
"Stop it, (Y/n)!" He said, trying to sound convincing.
(Y/n) kept talking ignoring Robb's words.
"Queen Cersei is far too beautiful for him, don't you think?" She said.
Robb couldn't deny that fact.
"(Y/n), can you pass me the salt?" Bran asked.
Without glancing away from Robb, the girl helped the little one quickly.
"That's another example of a weird union. I mean, off the titles, they don't seem like a suitable match in my humble opinion." She said. "If he treated her fairly I wouldn't complain, but she doesn't seem to be happy by his side. I don't want to end up like her."
"By the Old Gods, stop talking about it!" Robb said.
"You know that I'm right, Robb. A simple glance at their direction would be enough to see it. There's a palpable tension between them. Just compare to your parents."
"(Y/n), please...".
Someone booted (Y/n)'s leg under the table. She let out a gasp, surprised by the collision.
"Mother is watching, (Y/n)." Arya hissed, warning her friend.
"(Y/n)?" Catelyn spoke.
The woman's calling sent (Y/n) to the edge. Her eyes widened, sensing all eyes upon her figure. The royal family's gaze was almost unbearable, she wished she could hide under the table for the rest of the night.
"Too late...". Sansa pointed the obvious.
Gulping harder than she ever did before, (Y/n) raised from her seat. Her body was trembling with embarrassment, but somehow she managed to march towards her lady.
When the girl was close enough to be heard by her, she bowed slightly before answering.
"Yes, my lady?" She said.
Catelyn successfully hid her amusement in a little sigh. She looked at Cersei, who seated at her side.
"This is the bard girl I have told you about, your grace." She spoke.
Cersei didn't seem to be truly interested but glanced at (Y/n)'s figure. Her thin lips contracted in an artificial smile.
"Oh?" The Queen said. "The Dornish one?"
'At least she paid attention to this information.' Catelyn thought, smiling a little.
"Exactly." She answered.
Cersei eyed (Y/n) entire form, silent as a rock. Everyone in the room waited for her conclusion. (Y/n) felt tiny under that intense gaze. The Queen clearly wasn't impressed.
"Shouldn't she be singing then?"
To (Y/n)'s surprise, it wasn't Queen Cersei who pointed that out.
If was the first time she paid attention to the young Prince Joffrey, and she wished to erase that face from her memory. He was a considerably handsome lad, but his eyes were cold as ice. In fact, he didn't even look like a boy. His appearance belonged to a young person, but his stance was completely distinct from Bran's, for example. (Y/n) shivered under his ominous look.
Cersei enjoyed the moment. Her amusement was clear as day as she smiled at (Y/n) in a grim way.
"You heard your prince." She said, her tone almost colder than Joffrey's eyes. "Sing."
"What should I sing, your grace?" She asked.
Cersei smirked.
"Why don't you surprise us?" She stated.
Nodding, (Y/n) bowed before retreating to her seat. As fast as she could, the girl picked up her lute. With quick steps, she went back to where the Queen waited. The only issue she had was simple yet huge at the very moment.
She had no idea which song she should sing.
That used to happen frequently when she arrived in Winterfell. After the lords let her stay, the girl's mind went blank. There they were, waiting for her to sing as she promised, and no song crossed her mind. That was the most embarrassing moment in her entire life. After she established a solid bond with the Starks, Arya started teasing her because of that moment.
And then an audacious idea popped into her mind.
She would sing Arya's favorite song.
With renewed determination, (Y/n) cleared her voice and vocalized the song she was proud of sing to her beloved friend.
It was a sang story about a brave girl. That was her mother's favorite tale as well. When (Y/n) were only learning how to sing, that song was the first one the girl was able to chant. Her father was amazed by his little girl's talent, and her mother could not be prouder. That song was part of (Y/n)'s life, it was a reminder of home. If she closed her eyes hard enough, she could feel her parents by her side.
When the song ended, (Y/n) felt breathless. She had put all her strength on that song. Her very soul was present in her voice. She sang perfectly, no one could deny it. Deep in her mind, she could see her mother's smile. She felt great, and not even the Gods could drag her down.
Arya started to clap loudly, and soon Brandon and Rickon followed her. (Y/n) flashed them a bright smile, blushing. Catelyn smiled at her, her gaze warm upon (Y/n)'s form. Even Queen Cersei was surprised by the girl's talent. She never thought of finding such a wonderful treasure living with the Starks, and that Dornish girl earned her curiosity.
"Go sit down, (Y/n). Thank you for that amazing gift." Catelyn said.
(Y/n)'s smile was flawless when bowed to her lady and went back to where her friends waited for her.
Jaime Lannister watched as the girl sat beside the Stark eldest son in awe, surprised by her performance. Nobody was paying attention to him, so he could drink in amusement and give a little smile to the girl that wasn't aware of his interest in her.
'Amazing indeed.' He thought.
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Could you live without power for a week?
I wouldn’t die, but it would really suck because then I’d have to watch out for my phone’s and laptop’s battery life, plus it would be incredibly uncomfortable without electric fans and aircons...I wouldn’t die, but I’d hate it.
When was the last time you slept on the floor?
The day before I got sick. End of May.
Have you regretted anything you said today?
No. I haven’t talked to anyone; it’s only 7:59 in the morning.
What do you think about airport security?
I think it’s essential. I understand why they have to be rigid; better that than not at all.
How many doors are in your house?
I just answered this on a recent survey, how interesting lol. 13.
Do you keep a journal?
This is it.
What was the last thing you wished for?
A tray of baked sushi.
Do you pray?
No.
Do you like it when your date pays, or do you feel bad?
I feel bad, but I’m also appreciative. I only let her pay when I’m short, or when I’m craving a certain restaurant but don’t have the budget for it that day. Most of the time we prefer splitting the bill.
Do you spoil your friends?
Just my girlfriend.
Are cramped places scary?
Not for the most part but my anxiety will sometimes get triggered. But what happens and what sucks about it is that it gets set off at the most random times, so I never really know when I’m bound to get scared.
Would you ever consider riding in a trunk?
If it was a dare and I’d be paid handsomely for it then I don’t see why not.
Does it irritate you when a fellow passenger brings lots of luggage?
No. Their business shouldn’t bother me.
Ever been leeched by a leech?
Nope.
Have you ever lied to make someone dislike you?
Why would I actively make someone dislike me?
Ever had a fear of mirrors?
No, I find them fascinating. All four walls in the elevators of the hotel that my mom works in are mirrors, and they’re fun to take photos with haha.
What song can you not stop listening to?
Right now it’ssssss no song without you - HONNE.
Do you take vitamins?
Yeah we take vitamin C tablets every night, but sometimes I’ll forget.
What's the longest you've stayed at a hotel?
A week.
Do you buy your music or download?
I stream them on Spotify. I used to either buy CDs (usually if I was a big fan of the artist/band) or convert YouTube audio to MP4 to transfer it to my iTunes.
Do any of your friends grow weed?
No. Not that I know of, at least.
Do you like arguing?
I don’t like fighting, but if by arguing you mean having a respectful and civil debate then yes, those are fun.
Does it bother you when people don't say goodbye before hanging up?
It doesn’t really bother me? It just confuses me haha. I need a verbal cue to know when I can hang up. If the person on the line doesn’t say bye I’ll just linger on the phone waiting until it starts to feel awkward and I go initiate the bye instead.
Have you ever owned an unlucky object?
I don’t believe in those.
Do you think voodoo works?
No but it’s funny to think about sometimes, in a childish way.
What habit do you find most disgusting?
I really hate seeing people spit in public. Usually it’s truck drivers or their co-drivers. I always encounter at least one spitter while driving everyday, and it has never failed to make me shudder.
Do you often feel ignored?
It’s not a strong feeling, no.
Can you read music?
This is on every survey lately... no I can’t.
Are you optimistic?
Sometimes. I think I’m a healthy balance of that and pessimism.
Does it scare you to walk over sewer vents in the street?
Yes. I always avoid them or skip over them, especially the ones that are already obviously unstable and wobble when someone steps on them.
Is your lifestyle healthy or unhealthy?
Unhealthy. I don’t watch what I eat and I’ve never entered a gym. But idk, the genes on my mom’s side are impressive and all of us have decent physiques and never get sick – my grandma is 74 but can honestly pass for 50 – so I must’ve taken after that side of the family.
Is it easy for you to remember stuff?
Yeah, very. Except for numbers.
Last electronic object you drowned?
That has never happened to any of my gadgets, fortunately.
How well do you handle responsibility?
Depends how comfortable I am with the task at hand and how much I already have on my plate, if ever. But I never not get anything done. I’m very deadline-driven and everyone who knows me knows I turn in everything asked of me at the end of the day, even if I don’t think I did well enough.
Are you afraid of getting old?
Sometimes I’ll start to get scared at how short life actually is and what can possibly happen after it, but these are fleeting thoughts. I like living in the present.
What's something you wish you could start over?
College. Just so I can do my freshman year the way I actually wanted it to go.
Are you a loud person?
In certain situations. I love being loud with my friends in a bar or when we’re at an amusement park, but I prefer that we don’t make a ruckus at the mall or at a restaurant.
Do you believe in guns?
No. I honestly don’t understand those who buy it for themselves when they can get other weapons if they’re really hell-bent on self-defense. But idk, I guess I’m speaking from a place (like, a literal place lol) where it’s extremely uncommon for ordinary people to get themselves guns.
Are porcelain dolls attractive, or scary?
Neither. I just find them a little unsettling, but not scary.
Are you friends with someone because you feel bad for them?
Not currently. But one time I did try to befriend someone who would be considered a loner, but I realized we had different personalities and interests so I stopped talking to her after a while. Oops.
Do you like back rubs?
No, I’m ticklish.
Do you give good ones?
No.
Which of your friends provides the most stimulating conversations?
All of them do, to tell the truth. I guess I’m just automatically drawn to intelligent people haha.
Do you wish to go to London?
It’s not high up on my list but eh, sure.
Have you ever felt like you were in a movie?
No. I feel that movies are outlets for situations that would never happen in real life, so I’ve never felt as if I was in one.
Do you drink enough water daily?
I don’t drink the ~recommended~ amount but I still the drink the most in my family.
Is burning things fun?
I’d rather watch other people burn things. I’m scared of fire, so.
Do you like morbid things?
Some.
Can you sew?
Nope.
Have you ever just sat and read a dictionary?
Oh my god yeah... after I watched Akeelah and the Bee for the first time I wanted to start joining spelling bees too, so I’d whip out my dictionary almost everyday and start reading the words. There were never any competitions to join here, but from 4th to 7th grade we would have spelling quizzes in our English language class and I aced all of those.
Whose cooking do you most despise?
No one’s. I love the cooking of all my loved ones.
When you were little, did your parents make you sit in the corner?
No but in school they made me do it once, for something that wasn’t my fault. My parents didn’t have any methods to discipline me because I was mostly a well-behaved kid anyway.
Red roses, or black roses?
Red.
Do you blast your music concert-loud?
I used to. Don’t really do it anymore.
Do any of your exes bother you?
Nope.
Do you like taking pictures of yourself?
Hell no. The camera has never been my friend.
How about just taking pictures?
I like taking photos of my dogs, my best friends, the food I eat, and new places I go to. So to an extent, I do. I don’t dabble in photography though; I just like taking snapshots.
Is cheaper really better?
Sometimes, especially when you’re naturally good at hunting down that kind of stuff. My sister will sometimes find Zara jeans or jackets for like ₱80 at an ukay-ukay lol
Last thing you ordered from Amazon?
I’ve never ordered anything off of Amazon.
Or do you prefer ebay?
Never ordered from eBay either.
Are you good at writing cards for people?
I love writing letters for my loved ones. I never buy cards that already have text in them as I want the whole thing to come from me.
Do you like camping?
I’ve never tried it so I wouldn’t know. I want to go camping at least once though, and with my best friends.
Last place you were stranded?
The highway.
Do you like dragonflies?
Omg no they freak me outtt.
How many pages is the novel you're currently reading?
I’ve started to reread Little Women because I’m planning to watch the 2019 adaptation, but I’m not sure how many pages it has.
What's something everybody's never heard of?
The sound of a tree falling in the middle of the jungle that no person is currently in. Hahaha that was my philosophy professor’s favorite example to use.
Are your talents recognized?
I think they are, yes.
Can you handle silence for long periods of time?
Only if I need it. Otherwise it tends to make me uneasy.
Do you do well against temptation?
For the most part, yep. But if food is involved I usually fail lol
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episode 32 + 33 liveblog
this is going to hurt
I’m going to watch the opening again - hopefully I’ve bypassed most of the spoilers.
He snuck in!? That’s an awful idea, no!
He’s gonna get blamed for something else now, isn’t he.
:,(
This is a little hard to watch
She saw him! Shoot.
No! Don’t just - walk out like that! Ahhhhh
Disembodied screaming. Great.
Aaaand hallucinations.
:,(
The bodies....
And Wen Ning lost control again.
Hmm. Don’t think he actually was burned, considering he showed up in episode 2. Explains WWX’s surprise at that, though
Wait. They really didn’t see him standing there? I assumed that they just thought he was someone else.
Aaaaand he’s pretty much lost it. Great.
What was the paper that crumbled at the gate?
Are the teacups like a pledging support thing?
Okay, a funeral rite.
‘Bandit chieftains’. Right.
:,(
And there he is. Kind of unhinged sounding now.
Did. Did nobody see him up there?
Still honest, but yeah. Unhinged.
Jiang Cheng hasn’t said anything. :,(
I hate like. Half of the clan leaders.
He’s crying. :,(
Yeah none of these guys ever really supported him.
Who shot that!?
Well. The blood disappearing thing is new.
The brass in combination with the flute music is interesting
Are they not attacking the Jiangs? :,(
:,(
Generally don’t have a lot to say during fight scenes, and this one is kind of long. Sorry.
Oh! It’s LWJ! ...where is he jumping from? It kind of looked like he jumped down, but this is kind of the highest building.
:,(
Okay so on top of all the other emotions, the flipping and flying is making me laugh a little. It’s a weird combination.
How has the situation changed?
Oh. Uh. Hmm. Okay bringing his sister might normally be a good plan but I know she dies and... ahhhhhh.
LWJ’s protecting him!
Hhhhh I’m scared
She doesn’t even have a weapon
Oh no who’s that!
They’ve got a flute too. Oh no. That’s uh. That’s a great way to. Oh no.
Ohhhhh no
Oh and here’s the army from the first episode, I guess
Oh no
Ohhhh no
no
:,(
Everything hurts
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
GODDAMNIT
c’mon really
and now the vocals start up
Oh he’s got the force choke now
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ending there.
Fine okay I have time for another episode today in a few hours fuck
End notes for that one:
Who was the second flautist there???
Everything hurts again! Huzzah! :,|
- episode 33 -
Yeah guys maybe don’t provoke the freshly re-traumatized unstable uber-powerful black magic user. Seriously.
Oh jeez is he absorbing the things that were flying around?
Not sure - they may just be being redirected
He coughed up blood? Was that from his magic or an outside thing?
(Background reprise of the romance song, ow)
I can’t tell if LWJ is killing live cultivators or just the puppets.
Haven’t heard this instrument in this show’s music before, I think. It gives a weird tone to the music, a bit.
Wait. The sky just lightened. It matches the opening scene now. How?
He broke the amulet?
Shoot, didn’t it influence Wen Ning? Is that why he seemed so out of it in episode 2?
Aaaand here’s the opening scene.
:,(
The laughing bit is new.
Owww
LWJ’s face
Jiang Cheng is still mourning in the middle of the battlefield
Owww
Ahhhhh
He’s still asking him to come with him
This scene is so slow - contrasts the last few and gives it weight. Which is good, but. Ouch.
Ohhhh he didn’t even respond, just let himself fall
Aahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
This entire scene is just. Very painful
Oh no Jiang Cheng
He’s not even walking quickly. :,(
LWJ’s face
All of their faces just hurt
He didn’t actually stab him. That’s. That’s actually worse. Oh my god that hurts so much worse.
The closeups on their faces, too
Owwwww
Okay I had to take a break for a minute there. Time skip time. 16 years. Wow.
You’d think that’d hurt less - it’s literally the first thing we see! But I guess if this happened sequentially I might have been frustrated too. That’s mostly staved off because I knew it was coming, so it felt a little inevitable.
Oh LWJ’s playing the song. :,(
Oh wait he’s got wwx right there
I guess the hiding-his-identity jig is up
Right, right. The recap is absolutely necessary here.
Did. Did Jiang Cheng not even refer to him using his full name? :,(
Is LWJ’s hairstyle a little different? It feels off, but I genuinely cannot tell
They really did just skip over any identity shenanigans
Three years later? Why three years?
LWJ looks tired
I feel like we skipped some things. Wasn’t the dancing statue that shattered an illusion? Where’s everybody else?
I guess they were kind of close to the Cloud Recesses, but it feels weird that they skipped over any hassle getting him there. Although I guess they can fly, so.
This music is really nice
:,( the flashbacks
Wait, didn’t this whole place get destroyed when the Wens attacked? I guess they did a really faithful job reconstructing it.
Awwww the bunnies
I’m a little confused that he seems to just be allowed to walk around here
OH
I was going to comment on LWJ not having a shirt on, but it does have a purpose. I’m no expert, but some of those scars look. Pretty deep.
Whips and a brand!?
Oh. They were probably for helping WWX. Or maybe endangering Jiang Yanli? :,(
The clans that I feel have more power and inclination towards this sort of thing probably cared a lot more about the former.
‘Underworld chamber’? That’s new.
It’s the nice baby-faced cultivator! The only one that I can recognize.
...How did that specific family happen to own something effected by the amulet?
Did. Did he have to use a spell to open the door.
WAIT. He can use non-red/black/evil magic again!
If LWJ’s taking over for the Grandmaster, does that mean he’s more powerful than him now? Wow.
Playing a flute might break any remaining semblance of a cover he still has, though?
See, even wwx knows that
He’s playing the romance song in the middle of a spell-song? Why??
Is he asking for no more flute because he’s scared or because the music is bad, haha. That might just be an effect of a hastily-made flute, though.
The sword fell, but it’s still leaking energy. Not sure what that means.
‘Infected’ by the amulet how??
Yeah maybe don’t grab the evil sword again. Remember how the last one turned out?
Oh that’s not good
At least he let go of it?
Why is Lan leader always bleeding from his mouth, anyway
Lan Sizhui is kind of being given more prominence than the rest of the group. Even in the first couple episodes. That hasn’t really happened for a while, but I guess a not-insignificant portion of our cast just did get killed off so.
Oh, WWX is talking to him! Does he know, or are there still identity-shenanigans to be had?
Oh he doesn’t excellent we need something less heavy like that
The sword was planted there, all right. I... think I did have some earlier suspicions, with the guy that tossed money at the story-teller (teacher?) that just happened to be talking about WWX as he returned.
He’s in a coma!? Yikes. They know that already?
I’m glad that somebody is asking about the mask.
I honestly cannot remember if LWJ’s hairpiece was always this big.
Oh! Okay, Xue Yang is relevant again! And. Has a piece of the Yin Iron. Which. Wasn’t the only remaining piece made into the amulet? We’re there secretly five pieces all along?????
Okay good they’re addressing it.
Oh? ‘The man in black’ - is that the guy who talked about spirits or the one who paid the teacher???
Do we have a suspect?
No, okay. I do wonder what the guy’s goal might be.
Okay no I recognize the face of the guy next to Lan Sizhui - he was complaining, I think?
And they’re off already.
This is. Moving a lot faster than I expected it to.
Oh those portraits are awful, hahaha
Hahaha his face
Strong contrast from the beginning of this episode, was not expecting to be laughing so soon.
Hahaha, that was one way to make an entrance! Why, though?
!!! It’s the nephew! :D
Well. Okay.
End notes:
Uh. Very strong swerve in tone in this episode. I was not expecting them to delve back into comedy in the same episode that the main character died.
I’m a little lost, but I guess the next couple arcs will include Xue Yang or the mystery guy who planted the sword?
I. Really don’t have a lot to say, I guess. A bunch happened, but I don’t know what’s going to happen next, and I’m not solid on how I feel about anything. Kinda bemused? I’m glad that we seem to be done with the angst, but it’s kind of weird to be seemingly done with all of that (for now) so quickly.
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Fantastic Four Vol 1 #218
Thu Sep 12 2019
[10:54 PM] Wack'd: So uh, this continues from Peter Parker, the Spectacular Spider-Man Vol 1 No 42
[10:55 PM] Bocaj: gonna pop over to it or just read a synopsis on marvel wiki?
[10:55 PM] Wack'd: Marvel Wiki
[10:55 PM] Bocaj: That’s the spirit
[10:56 PM] Wack'd: From now on I'm gonna check there to see if the Four actually appear in the prior issue
[10:56 PM] Wack'd: Thanks to the Nova debacle
[10:57 PM] Wack'd: Basically all we need to know if that the Frightful Four--having slotted Electro in as their fourth--kidnapped Spider-Man and plot to use him to destroy the Four
[10:58 PM] Wack'd: As we speak, Pete is wearing Peter's (oh, this won't get confusing) costume to scale the Baxter, hoping to trip an alarm
[10:59 PM] Wack'd: While Wizard, Flint, and *googles* Max wait patiently in a nearby hovercraft with a tied-up Peter
[10:59 PM] maxwellelvis: Just call him Trapster.
[11:01 PM] Wack'd: It occurs to me that Pete's paste and Peter's webbing are basically the same thing, one is just less versatile than the other
[11:01 PM] Wack'd: It'd be funny if Pete was like "fire his webshooters!" and a massive stream of paste shot out of his wrist
[11:02 PM] Bocaj: "AND DISRESPECT MY HERITAGE? I WILL ADDRESS HIM WITH THE NAME GIVEN TO HIM BY THE GLORIOUS LEE AND KIRBY! PASTE POT PETE PASTE POT PETE"
[11:02 PM] Wack'd: Look if I'm gonna call the Four Reed, Sue, Johnny and Ben it feels weird not to extend that to every character
[11:02 PM] Wack'd: Though it occurs Pete might not be his real name and I've thoroughly fudged this
[11:03 PM] Bocaj: Peter Petruski
[11:03 PM] Wack'd: Oh good
[11:04 PM] Wack'd: So Johnny finally notices something's up, lets "Spider-Man" in. And then Pete beats Johnny over the head while he's getting into costume
[11:05 PM] Wack'd: Then heads off to take care of the rest of the--hang on
[11:06 PM] Wack'd: Is the plot of this issue that Pete single-handedly defeats the Fantastic Four?
[11:06 PM] Wack'd: That's delightful
[11:06 PM] Wack'd: Where's Paste-Pot Pete Beats Up the Marvel Universe, huh? I'd read the fuck out of that
[11:06 PM] maxwellelvis: I hope he beats all of them by just sucker-punches, cheap shots, and lucky breaks
[11:07 PM] maxwellelvis: It's the only way he should win.
[11:07 PM] Wack'd:
[11:07 PM] Wack'd: Dude's apparently got some moves!
[11:08 PM] Bocaj: Hey, glue is the most dangerous weapon.
[11:08 PM] maxwellelvis: Finally, someone remembers the Spider-Signal!
[11:08 PM] Bocaj: Baron Zemo used glue to beat the whole Avengers
[11:08 PM] Bocaj: Until they used the magic of 'a solvent'
[11:08 PM] maxwellelvis: Peter's utility belt is so rarely used
[11:08 PM] Bocaj: Actually provided by Paste Pot Pete!
[11:08 PM] maxwellelvis: A solvent that only Past-Pot Pete could have come up with
[11:08 PM] Wack'd: Hahaha. Pete tricks Ben into punching a wall panel, which electrocutes him
[11:08 PM] Bocaj: wow
[11:08 PM] Wack'd: Two down!
[11:09 PM] Wack'd: Not only that, but the circuit was the manual override for the building's security
[11:09 PM] maxwellelvis: Yeah, but those two were the easy ones
[11:09 PM] Wack'd: Were they?!
[11:09 PM] maxwellelvis: Yeah
[11:09 PM] maxwellelvis: They're much easier to provoke, Ben and Johnny
[11:09 PM] Bocaj: how is reed not the easy one by default
[11:10 PM] maxwellelvis: Reed's a lot more cool-headed unless his family is in immediate danger, and Sue has the greatest power of all: Common sense
[11:10 PM] Wack'd: Easier to provoke but also traditionally the powerhouses of the Four. Let's not forget last time the Frightfuls showed up they basically wet themselves when they realized they'd only captured Reed and Sue
[11:11 PM] Wack'd: Wizard: clearly the Reed of this bunch
[11:12 PM] Wack'd: Which makes Pete the Sue--constantly ordered around and underestimated
[11:12 PM] Wack'd: Flint is Ben, obviously. A hothead who loves to fight
[11:12 PM] maxwellelvis: So I take it Sandman's the one who roped Electro into this?
[11:12 PM] Wack'd: And then a rotating fourth to parallel Johnny's capriciousness
[11:13 PM] Wack'd: @maxwellelvis *shrug*
[11:13 PM] maxwellelvis: Which is funny because up until now that's where the person who can match Ben tends to end up.
[11:13 PM] Wack'd: True
[11:14 PM] maxwellelvis: Medusa's hair renders his strength of no aid to him, and Thundra's a match for him physically.
[11:15 PM] Wack'd: Sue: "I better go get my husband to fuck me. Also, I better go see why my kid brother is making moaning noises in the dead of night"
[11:16 PM] Bocaj: Thaaaaaats
[11:16 PM] Bocaj: an unfortunate juxtaposition
[11:16 PM] Bocaj: These two panels bad
[11:16 PM] maxwellelvis: "*ReEeEeEd! I'm wearing the nightie with the unstable molecules!"
[11:17 PM] Wack'd: "All of your nighties have unstable molecules, in case of--" "Reed shut up and get in here"
[11:17 PM] maxwellelvis: Send those panels to Superdickery! To Superdickery's Tumblr page because I'm pretty sure the website is still a nesting ground for viruses
[11:17 PM] Wack'd: Anyway Johnny is tied up in paste and the moment Sue realizes what’s happened Sandman grabs her
[11:18 PM] Wack'd: Hey. Hey max
[11:18 PM] maxwellelvis: Womp womp womp
[11:19 PM] maxwellelvis: "She took my squeezing arm!"
[11:19 PM] Wack'd: ...can Max do that? I feel like Max can't do that
[11:20 PM] maxwellelvis: He can do whatever the plot says he can do. Electro is one of those villains whose powers should be way more broken than they usually are.
[11:21 PM] maxwellelvis: Like that's not even the most broken thing I've seen him do.
[11:21 PM] Bocaj: CARBONIZING THE AIR
[11:21 PM] Wack'd: Like a tree do!
[11:21 PM] maxwellelvis: Yeah, sure, Wizard. Your plan.
[11:21 PM] Bocaj: even if that is a thing that made sense, the layer of carbonized air thats hard as a rock is thin as a sheet of paper
[11:21 PM] Bocaj: You could lightly poke it and it'd break
[11:22 PM] Wack'd: You know how trees turn people into living statues? Or, actually they oxidize the air, hang on
[11:22 PM] Wack'd: Breathing. Max has described breathing.
[11:22 PM] Bocaj: oh my god
[11:22 PM] maxwellelvis: Please just call him Electro
[11:22 PM] Wack'd: ...oh my god
[11:23 PM] Wack'd: Alright, max, for you I'll make an exception
[11:23 PM] maxwellelvis: Did you not realize that until just now?
[11:23 PM] Wack'd: Nooooope
[11:23 PM] maxwellelvis: Wow
[11:23 PM] Wack'd: Spandex over utility belt over spandex. This has not been a fun night for Pete
[11:24 PM] Wack'd: Honestly really impressive that he was able to do all of those stunts dressed like that
[11:25 PM] Wack'd: And now its all four against Reed
[11:25 PM] Wack'd: They have him on the ropes when--
[11:26 PM] Wack'd: He hit him to get a thing off of his face! Like in a Looney Tune! I love it!
[11:27 PM] Wack'd: (Also: "coulda had a V-8" existed in 1980! Huh!)
[11:28 PM] Wack'd: "In fairness, you're not laughing right now." "At my own joke? Don't be gauche"
[11:29 PM] maxwellelvis: "No! Not the shop-vac! Not again!"
[11:30 PM] Wack'd: Peter takes Electro out with a rubber hose
[11:30 PM] Wack'd: And Pete?
[11:31 PM] maxwellelvis: They all sweated him to death.
[11:33 PM] Wack'd: Should've worn multiple layers, Peter! Pete had the right idea!
[11:34 PM] maxwellelvis: Or transformation gizmo like Japanese Spider-Man
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I have wanted to do a post about matching characters/couples with Taylor Swift songs for ages. Now I’m finally getting around to it since her new album Lover was just released! Something I love to do is to associate characters with songs and often times, I can match them up to a song almost perfectly. So after having this album on repeat for the last few days, I’ve taken in the meanings to these songs and have applied them to Furuba characters that I think fit them. I think I’ll do this with Taylor’s other albums too and to other songs in general. It’s pretty fun!
I’m doing a video on YouTube covering this post so this is acting as my script. :))))
WARNING: Major Fruits Basket spoilers under the cut.
I Forgot That You Existed
“Then something happened that magical night
I forgot that you existed
And I thought that it would kill me, but it didn’t”
This one was tough at first. The first one that came to mind was Akito, but I don’t think most of the characters would be cold towards her. But then I started thinking about Kyo’s relationship with his dad and was like “That’s it!” This one is about having obsessively worried about the pain someone has caused you for so long and then one day, you forget about them and the pain they’ve caused you completely because you’ve moved on. After the series ended, I think Kyo really did move on from the hurt that his father put on him after neglecting him. Especially since he has Tohru who is someone who does give him the love he needed.
Cruel Summer
“I snuck in through the garden gate
Every night that summer just to seal my fate
And I scream for whatever it’s worth
“I love you”, ain’t that the worst thing you’ve ever heard?”
I really had to focus on what this song was about because I could not decode it haha. I had to look up the meaning. So I found out that this one refers to what happened in 2016 when Taylor was being harassed by Kim and Kanye West as well as on the internet and how difficult that period was. But at the same time, she had just met the love of her life and their relationship had just started. It’s about them going through this trying time together.
Based on the meaning, this song could apply to more than one couple, but I chose Yuki and Machi. They both were going through years of hardship and low self-esteem and when they met each other and were starting to fall in love with each other, they were still going through it, but they went through it together all while still worrying if they were burdening each other with their instability. The love and support they have for each other in both of their situations is beautiful. I can’t think of a more perfect song for them.
Lover
“I’ve loved you three summers now, honey, but I want ‘em all”
I got more than one comment from ya’ll saying that this song is Kyo and Tohru and yup, I agree. One of the most romantic songs ever so, of course, it fits them. I love how this song just lists off things that she and this person Joe plan to do as they spend the rest of their lives together. I can see Kyo and Tohru doing all these things after they moved away together.
The lyric I mentioned especially fits them because...they literally spent three summers together. In which one of those summers, their romance blossomed. That lyric alone is so them! I love it!
The Man
“They wouldn’t shake their heads and question how much of this I deserve”
Kind of reminds me of Akito? It’s about double standards between what a man does and how if a woman did the same thing, they’d get criticized for it while a man would be praised. The song talks particularly about excessive dating and how men are patted on the back for it while women are often slut-shamed for playing the field. Which doesn’t really scream Akito. Although she did play both Kureno and Shigure, she was never ridiculed for it.
However, she took on a male persona because her mom forced her to. It really makes me wonder how she would’ve been treated while still head of the family if she displayed herself as a woman. One post recently reminded me of what Kyo said after finding out she was female which was “Had I known, I wouldn’t have been so rough on her.” That quote is what made me relate this song to Akito because she was presented as a man. But I have no doubt the zodiacs may have viewed her differently, maybe may have been even less scared of her, had she lived as a female. Something to think about...
The Archer
“I’ve been the archer
I’ve been the prey
Who could ever leave me?
But who could stay?”
My favorite song! I did a single post about this one immediately after hearing it because I had to mention how much it reminds me of Kyo and Tohru. More so it reminds me of Kyo specifically, but it applies to his relationship with her as well. All that I could think of while listening to it for the first time was “Oh, my God, this is Kyo!” The song is about realizing how weak you are along with coming to terms with the fact that all everyone ever does is abandon you.
The chorus really reminds me of him. “I’ve been the archer”: he’s hurt others, including Tohru when he rejected her. “I’ve been the prey”: he’s been hurt by others, mainly the Sohma’s when they ostracized him. “Who could ever leave me?”: He can’t believe that they would just neglect him. Because who would? Especially a child?! “But who could stay?”: But he understands why. Because he is the cat. I will never not think of Kyo when I hear this song lol. Like I’ve said, I wanna do an amv to this song for the true form arc because it’s perfect!
I Think He Knows
“I think he knows
His footprints on the sidewalk
Lead to where I can’t stop
Go there every night”
This song sounds kind of obsessive to me. That really reminds me of Kagura and Kyo. Because that chick is crazy ahaha. Although the song talks about the love interest also being into her, which Kyo is not, I still apply it to them. Especially because I think Kagura is delusional in regards to how she thinks Kyo feels about her. So when the song says “I think he knows”, when I apply it to Kagura, I find it hilarious because Kyo thinks the exact opposite of her.
Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince
“It’s you and me, that’s my whole world
They whisper in the hallway “She’s a bad, bad girl”
Another one I had to really decode because it uses so much imagery. Apparently, it talks about her political stance which I kind of see? But it can also be interpreted as a romance that is unstable due to everyone around them trying to break them apart. It makes me think of Kyoko and Katsuya because, from the start, they’ve had odds stacked against them that kept them from really being together. Even after they were married, the Honda family was very hostile towards her. So they constantly were trying to overcome that. But I think ultimately they just focused on their love for each other and never let it go.
Paper Rings
“I like shiny things
But I’d marry you with paper rings
Darling, you’re the one I want”
This song is so cheesy but so cute. It talks about not carrying about formalities, such as engagement rings. She’d marry him anyway even if he gave her a paper ring because she’s that in love. I was reminded of Hatori and Mayu. The song also talks about the relationship being “cat and mouse for a month or two or three”, which Hatori and Mayu were for longer than three months haha. I can see Mayu not caring about the formalities of a wedding, she’d still be happy because she would be with Hatori forever and that’s all that matters.
Cornelia Street
“I hope I never lose you, hope it never ends
I’d never walk Cornelia Street again
That’s the kind of heartbreak time could never mend
I’d never walk Cornelia Street again”
This song is very story-based so it was a little hard to relate it to the characters because it’s so personal. Like, they’ve never been on a Cornelia Street that we know of lol. However, I think the chorus really applies to how Tohru feels about Kyo. In the latter half of the series, we see her so stressed about the idea of him being locked away forever because she doesn’t want him to leave her. And again, after he rejects her, she’s completely heartbroken so much so that it’s evident that time could never heal that wound. Fortunately, he stayed with her in the end. :)
Death by a Thousand Cuts
“I look through the windows of this love
Even though we boarded them up
Chandelier’s still flickering here
Cause I can’t pretend it’s okay when it’s not”
First thought was Rin and Haru because it’s the only breakup song on the album. It talks about someone leaving her and her not being able to get over it no matter how hard she tries to. Haru could never move on from Rin. Like we see in the manga, he tears apart a classroom because he’s that upset that she broke up with him.
I also love the lyric “Trying to find a part of me that you didn’t touch”. Rin and Haru have been together since they were children so there’s always going to be that deep connection between them.
London Boy
“They say home is where the heart is
But that’s not where mine lives”
Another very personal song so it was hard to relate it to the characters because none of them are in love with an English boy hahaha. But from what we got from Fruits Basket Another, Hana married a foreigner so I’ll just apply it to them. That’s all I got lol.
Soon You’ll Get Better
“You’ll get better soon
Cause you have to”
This song is deep, man. It talks about a loved one being in poor health and her being in denial about it. She just has to assure herself that they are going to get better. I really wanted to apply this one to Tohru and Kyoko, but Kyoko died before Tohru could think “You’ll get better” so there was no hope. Instead, I related it to Rin and Haru since Rin is in such bad health throughout the whole series whether it be mentally or physically, which constantly left Haru worried about her. He gave her the support that she would pull through in the end and from what we see, she did get better. And I just hope she’s in a better mental state after the series ends.
False God
“We might just get away with it
Religion’s in your hips
Even if it’s a false god
We’d still worship this love”
This one uses a lot of imagery about the toxicity of a relationship, but yet the two refuse to let it go. In my opinion and a popular one at that, Shigure and Akito have the most toxic relationship in the series and they’re aware of that. However, they couldn’t give a crap about it. As the lyric says “Even if it’s a false god, we’d still worship this love”. Even if their relationship was wrong, they’d still embrace them. I think it fits them perfectly. The chorus also alludes to a lot of sexual situations so that’s also pretty fitting as they’re one of the very few couples that we get any details of a sexual relationship about.
You Need to Calm Down
“You just need to take several seats
Then try to restore the peace
And control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”
Addressing the haters. So I thought it was perfect for Uo and Hana who are always so fed up with that Yuki fan club bullying Tohru. I feel like they would say all these lyrics to these girls. Good for them for standing up for Tohru! She needs it!
Afterglow
“I don’t wanna do this to you
I don’t wanna lose this with you
I need to say “Hey, it’s all me, just don’t go”
Meet me in the afterglow”
This one is really straightforward. It’s about someone sabotaging their relationship and apologizing to their partner for it. It makes me think of how Kyo felt after he called Tohru delusional and pushed her away. He very quickly regretted saying that to her especially after she fell off the cliff and for a few minutes, he thought she was dead. And the last thing he said to her was so hurtful. But he reconciles with her in the end and apologizes for being so stupid.
The song discusses that pain she feels that she hurt her loved one so badly. As we’ve seen so many times before, Kyo doesn’t want to hurt Tohru. Even though he hurt her feelings because he thought it would benefit her. But, no. Wrong thing to do! At least he learned from that mistake and I’m sure he will never do that to her again.
Me!
“One of these things is not like the others
Living in winter, I am your summer”
My least favorite Taylor Swift song ever actually. It’s so cringe. So I honestly don’t want to talk much about it. I guess I can relate it to Akito and Shigure? Because Shigure thinks he is the one for Akito and not Kureno? Idk...
It’s Nice to Have a Friend
“You’ve been stressed out lately, yeah, me too
Something gave you the nerve to touch my hand”
At first, I thought this was just a friend song, but it’s actually about two childhood friends getting married later on. So that changes things. I think of Kisa and Hiro. Although we never see them get married, they’ve been childhood friends forever and they have that very innocent relationship like the song describes. And I headcanon that they do get married when they’re older so...
Daylight
“I don’t wanna look at anything else now that I saw you
I don’t wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you
I’ve been sleeping so long in a twenty-year dark night
And now I see daylight”
Omg I’m obsessed with this song right now. The message of it really means a lot to me. It’s about being in a dark place for a long time and then someone comes into your life and you’re so in love with them that all the mistakes you made and trials you went through in the past are just a fading memory. This person is your daylight. The one that helped pull you out of the darkness and into the light.
Hands down, this is Kyo and Tohru. Specifically, I think it describes Kyo’s feelings towards Tohru after they got together. We see that he’s been in a horrible place for a really long time. He never thought he would ever find someone to love him back. But Tohru did and in turn, she helped him come out of that dark place. Like these lyrics state “I once believed love would be burning red, but it’s golden”, I think he saw love as a fantasy, something that couldn’t work. But instead of it being “burning red” (impossible and toxic) it’s “golden” (beautiful and amazing).
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So that’s it! If you have listened to the album and are familiar with the songs, let me know if you agree with the characters or couples I chose or if not, which characters would you associate with these songs?
#Fruits Basket#furuba#kyo sohma#Tohru Honda#yuki sohma#shigure sohma#akito sohma#machi kuragi#haru sohma#kisa sohma#hiro sohma#rin sohma#fruits basket 2019#fruits basket manga#fruits basket analysis#lover#taylor swift#manga#anime
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