#why is there ghost blaine

[slothydaydreamer]

Before I forget it:

Last night I dreamed I had to kill Blaine and cover it up. (With the hindsight of a person who's now awake and not dreaming, the plan was poorly thought through and executed, but somehow it looked in-dream like I could get away with it.) Then Liv & co. started investigating (because of course they can't just be happy about it 🙄) and I tagged along at the crime scene subtly trying to hide anything that could point to me.

While ghost!Blaine was haunting me and making unsolicited comments about my sloppy work.

#izombie #the funniest part was Liv realising she had to eat Blaine's brain #but then she never did? #I think this is why I was at the crime scene #dream!me was a zombie and saw a chance so they volunteered 🤣 that was probably the reason why ghost Blaine was haunting me

[smilingbuckley]

2023 writing wrap up

Tagged by @jamespearce9-1-1

Aka every fic I wrote in 2023 separated in each month. And I wrote a lot so I don't know if Tumblr will allow me to post all links.

Anything I will write before the end of the year will be added - as long as I don't forget to do so lol.

Tagging @watchyourbuck and @thewolvesof1998

Fics are under the fold :)

Challenge: figure out how many titles are 5 Seconds of Summer lyrics.

January

I wanna cry, I wanna fall in love, but all my tears have been used up

Buddie, 7,8K, M

Done with his (what he thinks) unrequited feelings for Eddie, Buck tries to move on and starts dating again. He really, really tries. But his feelings seem to not be able to go away. And to make things worse, Eddie starts pulling away.

I'm better than him (just saying)

Buddie, 9K, E

Eddie’s point of view of the previous fic.

Just as Eddie was about to ask Buck out, planning to spend the rest of their lives together, Buck announces that he's dating again. Eddie isn't just hurt, but he also feels incredibly jealous and might try to sabotage a date or two...

Kinda hoping for forever

Buddie, 10,1K, E

Buck and Eddie finally have their first date, but it gets interrupted by someone needing medical attention. Both immediately get into EMT mode and Buck saves the man life. Watching Buck be so heroic, in a suit... Eddie has never been so turned on before. And he shows Buck exactly that when they get home.

God forbid you leave me like all of the rest did

Buddie, 33K, 10/10 chapters, T

Buck’s life changes when he loses his boyfriend on a call and Eddie’s body is never found. The only thing keeping him here is taking care of Christopher. He struggles to figure out how to live without the love of his life and what decisions would be the best for Christopher, but gets support from not just his found family, but the Diaz family as well.

Meanwhile, somewhere, Eddie is fighting to stay alive.

The universe's punishment (or perhaps a miracle)

Buddie, 2,5K, T

A record-breaking heat wave is about to take out the power in Los Angeles, causing Buck to get stuck in an elevator with a patient in labor. He's the one who has to help her bring her son onto the world.

February

Why does it feel so good to be bad

Buddie, 7,1K, E

While Athena and Bobby are finally able to take the cruise they planned for their honeymoon, it's Buck who gets chosen interim captain this time. And Eddie, newly dating Buck, wasn't prepared for how horny it would make him to see Buck in charge. Of course, things take a turn when Eddie disobeys an order at a call.

(No BDSM)

And I love to love you (for God's sake)

Buck & Bobby, (Buddie background), 8,9K, T

Multiple moments over time where Bobby shows Buck what it's like to have a loving parent.

I'm the chords (and you're the melody)

Seblaine, 2,9K, E

Instead of going to their anniversary dinner like they planned, Blaine has figured out a new idea on how to celebrate their wedding anniversary. It involves Sebastian’s old Dalton blazer and... well, literally nothing else.

The ghost of survivor's guilt can be so unkind

Buck & Athena, 2,7K, T

In the edge of a breakdown, Buck starts to run on a sleepless night. But then he can't stop. He kept on pushing as his body protested until he literally couldn't continue anymore. Unable to move, he watches the sunrise in an unfamiliar park.

Then Athena shows up.

The darkest night never felt so bright (with you by my side)

Buddie, 4,2K, T

After a misunderstanding outside a club, a guy tries to beat Buck up. He goes home, planning on hiding this from his team, not wanting to worry them. But with everything, he forgot about his plans with Eddie until the man shows up at his apartment and demands Buck to tell him what happened.

His eyes only

Buddie, 3K, E

Buck’s not jealous. Jealousy means that he’s afraid Eddie would do anything with these women. Buck knows he wouldn’t, not only did Eddie figure out he was gay, he also was definitely not the cheating kind. Eddie was so hopelessly in love with Buck that even Buck could see it. No. What he is, is possessive. He wants to walk over there and show those girls who Eddie belongs to.

Wake up sunshine (somebody loves you)

Buddie, 1K, G

Buck wakes up from his coma with Eddie by his side.

Worth staying for

Buddie, 40,1K, E, 6/6 chapters

Years after the truck bombing, Buck has settled into his new job as a nurse. Then he meets Eddie Diaz, a single-parent firefighter who keeps ending up in the hospital. Eddie also happens to work with Buck's old team. Buck's friends and family encourage him to go for it, but he has been burned before. Would it be worth it, the possibility of having his heart broken again? He's not sure. But the universe seems to have some different plans for them.

Aka the start of the Nurse Buck series

Don't want to know the other side of a world without you (can't live without you)

Buddie, Eddie & Chris, 4,2K, T

Eddie and Christopher basically live at Buck's place when he's in a coma. One day, Eddie finds a few boxes hidden in Buck's closet. As he goes through it, he realizes that his feelings were requited all this time. But it's too late. The doctors aren't optimistic about Buck waking up and the 118 are slowly preparing themselves to say goodbye to Buck. So, really, it's too late. Right?

March

The sun will rise, the moon will fall (tomorrow never dies)

Buddie, 4,2K, T

Part 2 in the Nurse Buck series

Buck gets woken up by his colleague when a firefighter has been shot. Worried, Buck hurries to the ER where he sees one of his worst nightmares.

It was Eddie. Eddie is the one who got shot.

If I'm with you, I'll never die

Buddie, 1K, G

Buck and Eddie get into a fight when Eddie risks his life on the job to save Buck. Que the classic love confession during a fight.

Lights will guide you (so run like hell)

Buddie, 1K, T

Eddie shows up at Buck’s loft a complete mess having a gay crisis. Though looking at Buck, his crisis is solved.

(This was written before Eddie’s age was confirmed so that's why he's older than canon)

My love is your love (now and forever)

Buddie, 9,7K, E

Buck and Eddie are finally getting married today, but they can't keep their hands off of each other even before they said 'I do'.

I've got you, Kid

Buck & Bobby, 1,1K, G

Buck wakes up from his coma with Bobby by his side

It's hard to watch everything I want spilling down the drain

Buddie, 5,4K, T

Buck wakes up in a perfect world. He's married, he has adorable children, his parents love him, Daniel is alive, the 118 is closer than ever. But a voice keeps calling him back, begging him to come home. But... Buck doesn't want to.

You know it's gonna get better

Buck & Bobby, 1,2K, G

Unable to sleep during a thunderstorm, Buck gets a late-night visitor who seems to have a similar problem.

I'm not leaving

Buck & Bobby, 1,7K, G

Bobby gets lightly hurt on a call, but Buck worries. Bobby doesn't understand because he's fine aside from a minor concussion, and he'll be back at work in no time. Buck confesses that he hadn't told Bobby the truth about his coma dream.

Friends with the monster

Kaz & Wylan, 1,7K, M, Graphic description of violence

A new rival kidnaps Wylan to send a message to Kaz.

Just the memory of your face

Buddie, 1,1K, T

Buck and Eddie have a movie night together. When the main character's love interest dies, Eddie has a panic attack. Buck worries that it's because of Shannon, but it's because Buck dying still haunts Eddie.

Eddie Diaz vs the cat straight out of hell

Buddie, 2,9K, T

Buck convinces Eddie to take home a cat they rescued on a call. Buck and Christopher immediately fall in love with her, but Eddie is convinced she is a demon from hell.. (Or: 5 times Eddie hates the cat Buck brought home + one time she's not really that bad.)

Bring him back to me

Buck & Bobby, 1,2K, G

While Buck is in a coma, Bobby talks to the Buckleys... it doesn't end well.

Story of another us

Buddie, 1,3K, T

Buck still firmly believes that it should've been him who got shot. So, the universe shows him what life would've been like if that had been the case

April

And if I couldn't walk, I'd crawl to you

Buddie, 1,9K, G

Buck gets a flashback after hearing a gunshot, Eddie is there to comfort him. Buck finally tells him what happened after Eddie's memory fades.

Keep me in your heart, never let us part

Heartrender Husbands, 8,7K, M

The story of how Ivan fell in love, and why he, the Darkling's most loyal soldier, betrays his country to keep the man he loves safe.

What can I say except you're welcome

Buddie, 1,1K, T

Pepa sets Eddie up on a date. He doesn't want to go and is prepared to let whoever it is down, but turns out his tia knows him better than expected.

Knight without armor

Jespeanor, 3,8K, E

Eleanor wants to try something new in the bedroom. Jesper does whatever his princess wants.

You're the cure to everything

Buddie, 1,8K, T

Eddie takes care of a sick Buck

May

I don't want to talk about it (I'm already screaming inside)

Buck & Athena, 6,3K, G

Athena is great at hiding her emotions, so no one notices as she struggles with Buck's temporary death. But slowly it builds up, until she breaks.

'cause we belong together now

Buddie, 68,8K, M, 14/14 chapters

Buck and Eddie help with the birth of a beautiful baby girl on a call. After her mother dies, Buck falls in love with the baby as they drive to the hospital and is determined to adopt her. He and Eddie decide to adopt together. The problem? They're not together.

Desperate to give this baby girl a good home, Buck and Eddie try everything to be able to adopt her. Including a marriage of convenience and pretending like they've been together for a while now.

Pick you up if you fall to pieces

Buddie, 1,4K, T

Eddie comforts his husband after a tough shift.

This is a place where I feel at home

Buck & Bobby, 1,1K, G

After watching parents mourn the loss of their children, the 118 go to check up on their children. And Bobby... he's staring at Buck, and Buck is confused.

Fingertips on me (I can feel them still)

Buddie, 6,1K, E

A very drunk Buck and Eddie decide it would be a great idea to hook up. Then they wake up with no memory of the night before.

I'll give you the best years

Buddie, 2,4K, T

10 months after they got together, Eddie finds a hidden engagement ring.

Ain't nobody got a mom like mine

Buck & Athena, 1,6K, G

Buck wants to give Athena presents for Mother's Day, but he's nervous about it. Would that be crossing a line?

I need your love to guide me back home

Buck & Bobby, 3,6K, G

Buck gets brain damage during a call and loses his memory of everything and everyone. He can't even remember his own name. The only thing he remembers is the face of the man he firmly believes is his father. (Spoiler alert: it's not Phillip Buckley)

June

He ain't my blood, but he's got my name

Buck & Bobby, 2,2K, G

Buck has been acting secretive, making Bobby worried. But then he finds out why, and he couldn't be happier

Don't you worry child

Buck & Bobby, 1,6K, G

During a thunderstorm, Buck seeks comfort from his father figure.

Got nothing but love for you (fall more in love every day)

Buddie, 6K, M

5 times Buck and Eddie are almost caught + 1 time they are

Can't live without you

Buck & Bobby, Buddie, 9,5K, T

On a call, Bobby takes a bullet meant for Buck. Buck doesn't know if he'll ever be okay again. Thankfully his father figure is okay.

I'm not afraid to change your name ('cause I'm crazy about you)

Buck & Bobby, Buddie, 2,6K, T

Sequel to 'he ain't my blood but he's got my name'

5 times Buck gets called by his new last name + 1 time he has another name change

July

In the moonlight you look just like an angel in disguise

Buddie, 35,7K, 6/6 chapters, M

While Christopher is at camp, Buck and Eddie go on a vacation of their own to a small cabin in the woods... It goes as well as you'd expect.

Loved you yesterday, love you still, always have, always will

Buck & Bobby, 2,8K, G

Bobby finds out that Buck’s parents never told him he loved him. So, Bobby starts saying those words to Buck.

August

I feel it crash down (down on me)

Buck & Bobby, 2,4K, G

During therapy, Buck learns something new about his childhood. He struggles to process it. Luckily Bobby is there for him.

Let me fix it for you

Buddie, 10,3K, M

5 times Eddie fixes or builds something for Buck + 1 time Buck thanks him for it (... sort of)

And when I open my eyes, I hope to see your face

Buddie, 1K, T

Eddie wakes up next to Buck the morning after they get together and has some sappy thoughts.

September

Oh love (please have mercy on me)

Buddie, Buck & Bobby, 1,7K, G

Buck gets horrible news. Eddie finds him crying in bed.

October

I will be your gravity, I will stay and never leave

Buddie, 3,3K, G

What if Eddie had pressured Chimney into admitting why he was acting weird around Buck?

The other fics this months are all for Whumptober. Here is a link to the Whumptober series so I don't have to tag all the fics.

You're our missing puzzle piece

Buddie, Buck & Chris & Eddie, 4,8K, G

Whumptober day 1: swooning The night before a planned camping trip, Christopher gets sick. So, instead of camping in nature, Buck helps Eddie take care of Christopher.

Taking care of you is all I've ever wanted

Buck & Athena, Buck & Bobby, 5,1K, G

Whumptober Day 2: Thermometer While the 118 has temporarily parted due to family things, it's just Buck and Bobby at the station for the week. Buck can't afford to be sick right now... Except he gets the flu. But rest assured, Bobby and Athena take good care of their son figure.

Always thought I was hard to love ('till you made it seem so easy)

Buck & Chimney, 3K, T

Whumptober day 4: "You in there?" For Maddie's birthday, the Buckley parents are taking them out for dinner. It ends with disaster and Chimney standing up for Buck before comforting his brother (in law).

When the world ender comes, baby run for your life

Several 9-1-1 relationships, 17,5K, M

Whumptober day 5: Debris Another tsunami hits Los Angeles, this time the entire team is caught in it and gets separated, desperate to find their way back to each other. Buck had warned them something felt off... they should have listened.

Don't mind me (I'm just feeling kinda broken)

Buck & Chimney, 2,5K, T

Whumptober day 6: "It should have been me." To the outside, Chimney seems fine. He is there for his friends and family when Buck temporarily dies and falls into a coma. He comforts them, is a shoulder to cry on. But then Buck wakes up and things go back to normal. Except... Chimney hasn't moved on. He can still feel Buck's lifeless body underneath his hands. And at some point, Chimney breaks.

Fox on the run

Buddie, 17,5K, 4/4 chapters

Whumptober day 3, alternate prompt: lab rat When Eddie and Chris go to visit Buck for their usual dinner and a movie night, they find the place in shambles. Someone has kidnapped Buck. Months go by without any break in the case, but then suddenly a fox shows up in the Diaz backyard, and Christopher is certain that it is Buck. But Eddie doesn't think that's possible, because this isn't some sci-fi or fantasy movie. Right?

Falling and falling until I fell (for you)

Buddie, 4,3K, T

Whumptober day 7: radio silence / "Can you hear me?" Buck is having a fun day with Maddie and Jee-Yun when he gets the call from Eddie. Eddie is hurt and doesn't think he'll survive, so he spends his last moments confessing his love to Buck.

Earthquakes won't wait for another day

Buck & Bobby, Buddie, 3,4K, T

Whumptober day 8: overcrowded ER Buck and Bobby are preparing a family dinner at Buck's loft to announce and celebrate Buck and Eddie's engagement. However, an earthquake has different plans.

If I walk out the door, would you care enough to follow?

Buddie, 3,5K, T

Whumptober day 10: "You said you'd never leave." Buck confesses his love for Eddie. Their friendship ends. Heartbroken, Buck seeks advice from his parent figures.

(Soon to have a sequel)

These crutches were made for walkin'

Buddie, 2,7K, T

Whumptober day 11: animal trap On a beautiful morning, one of the last before the fall and winter come, Buck takes a grumpy Eddie hiking on a track in the forest. Things don't go according to plan.

My father's son

Buck & Bobby, Buddie, 27,3K, 4/4 chapters, T

Whumptober day 9: mistaken identity / 2023 prompt: kidnapped After a DNA test, that he took as a joke, Buck's entire life is pulled upside down. Traveling to Los Angeles with the thought of helping a man find his missing son, whose results Buck accidentally got, it turns out that there was no mix-up at all. Buck is that missing son, kidnapped just after birth. For twenty-six years, Buck has been living a lie. He tries to get used to his new life, his new family. He starts a new job. But there's another problem... he's falling for one of the firefighters under his father's command. And the people who raised him, the Buckleys, refuse to confess the full truth.

I just want to feel alive (tears hitting the ground)

Buddie, 4,6K, E

Whumptober day 12: "I'm up, I'm up." / 2023 prompt: nightmares Buck still struggles with having died. After yet another nightmare, he seeks out his best friend's comfort, who makes him feel alive again.

I love the heat, I love the noise (I love my name inside your voice)

Buddie, 8,3K, E

Whumptober day 13: cold compress Buck asks Eddie if he can use his driveway to wash his car. Eddie is not prepared for a shirtless Buck to look this hot while doing something so simple as washing a car. A water fight turns into something more... but after all the feelings have been confessed and sexual tension has been taken care of, Buck seems to forget something important: sunscreen.

It's not like we planned this (getting out of hand)

Buddie, 3,5K, E

Whumptober day 14: water inhalation, "Just hold on" / 2023 prompts challenge: sex injuries

Buck has an... unfortunate accident in the shower. The only person he trusts enough to call is Eddie

To wake up by your side is all I wanna do

Buddie, 14,3K, M

Whumptober day 15: "I'm fine" After a fire destroys his loft, Buck moves in with the Diazes indefinitely. Except neither he, Christopher, nor Eddie wants him to move out. Buck gets used to being fully included in the Diaz family and the changes it brings to be with them full-time. It's a dream come true, especially when things between him and Eddie start developing in a certain way.

I made a promise that I'll come home (soon)

Buddie, 4,3K, T

3rd in the Nurse Buck series

Whumptober day 16: gurney / 2023 prompts: adoption What is supposed to be a normal shift at the hospital ends in a nightmare. Buck has to try his best to keep one of the babies safe from the hands of the shooter.

I'll see you again my loved one

Buck & Bobby, 1,5K, T, Major character death

Sequel to 'oh love (please have mercy on me)'

Whumptober day 17: "Leave me alone." Bobby dies and Buck struggles to continue living.

I seek the stars above worlds to be the guides

Buddie, 3,8K, T, graphic description of violence

Whumptober day 18: Tortured for information Retired Navy SEAL Buck gets the message that his husband has been taken captive. His old SEAL team ask him to go on one last mission.

Under the neon lights, I think we might get married in Vegas

Buddie, 5,5K, M

Whumptober day 19: floral bouquet

Buck wakes up married to Eddie in Las Vegas. Neither of them remember how they got here.

'Cause I know where tonight is going

Buddie, 4,6K, M

Whumptober day 20: Blanket, found family The 118 prepares to join a mud run for charity but ends up in a bet about who will be the fastest. Buck and Eddie train together, but things go differently than planned.

I can still taste the ocean like it was today

Buddie, Buck & Chris, 1K, G

Whumptober day 21: restraints Buck wakes up in the hospital with no idea how he got there. The only thing he remembers is the water taking Christopher away from him. And he needs to find him.

I wish I said I love you just one more time

Buddie, Buck & Chris, 4,3K, T

Whumptober day 22: glass shard, vehicular accident On their way home, Buck and Christopher get into a nasty car accident. The 118 responds to the scene and is horrified to find out that it includes two of their own. Recovery after is tough, especially because Christopher doesn't seem to remember who Buck is...

Watch me

Chenford, 3,1K, G

Whumptober day 23: stalking Lucy has the feeling of being watched. After having hidden it from Tim, thinking it's just paranoia after her latest UC mission, he convinces her to check her apartment for bugs. Then it turns out that she should have listened to her instincts from the start.

Love like yours will surely come my way

Buddie, 1,4K, G

Whumptober day 25: storm Buck wakes up during a storm and goes to his best friend for comfort.

Your touch is made of something heaven can't hold a candle to

Whumptober day 26: working to exhaustion / "You look awful." Eddie takes care of Buck after an exhausting shift.

Since I met you, I just can't forget you

Buddie, 10,6K, M

Whumptober day 27: "Let me see." When Eddie adopts a cat he rescued on a call, he doesn't expect to develop a major crush on the cute veterinarian.

You were mine for a night (I don't know how to say goodbye)

Buddie, 11,3K, E

Whumptober day 28: alt prompts: panic, miscommunication After a strange Valentine’s Day shift, Buck and Eddie start being friends with benefits without really talking about it. Eddie wants to be more, but is too afraid of losing Buck.

Do you ever long for true love from me

Buddie, 5,3K, M

Whumptober day 30: borrowing clothes 5 times Eddie gives Buck clothes to borrow + 1 time he takes them off.

I love you a latte

Buddie, 9,3K, M

Whumptober day 31: setbacks / "take it easy." New to Los Angeles, Eddie meets a cute barista at a coffee shop recommended to him by Chimney. Even though he embarrasses himself by being flustered by Buck, he keeps coming back and starts a friendship with him.

Will the curse be reversed if I say it backwards?

Buck & Bobby, Buck & Athena, on going, T

Whumptober day 29: "What happened to me?", troubled past resurfacing After offending a witch, Buck gets turned into a baby. Athena and Bobby are stuck with raising him until the witch is found and they figure out a way to undo the spell. The biggest problem? Magic isn't supposed to exist. How do they explain where Buck went?

Oh, I'm falling for the first time (heart is gonna flatline)

Buddie, 28K, M, 3/3 chapters

Whumptober Day 24: neglect When Buck's Jeep dies, his best friend Sophia offers a ride to school. That's not strange, because the Diaz house is more his home than his parents' house is. However, this also means that Eddie Diaz, whom he's had a crush on for years, is his ride home. They slowly get a little closer, and when Buck gets kicked out of his house, it's Eddie whom he calls. Now he gets to stay permanently with the Diazes and his relationship with Eddie changes. (Aka a Buddie high school AU)

November

Heartbreak that I can't escape

Buddie, 4K, G

Eddie can no longer hide that he's not okay after Buck died. Buck makes a decision that surprises him.

When your world is on fire

Buck & Chris, Buddie, 8K, T

The 118 responds to what should be a normal house fire only to find out that one of their own is stuck inside and believed to be dead.

December

Caught up in your curls

Buddie, 6,1K, E

After having been in El Paso for awhile, taking care of his Abuela, Eddie can finally go home to Los Angeles. He fully expected his son to have changed over the past few weeks because he's a teenager, they change every day. What he didn't prepare for was Buck, who suddenly has grown out his curls. Curls Eddie has a weakness for. It causes for some... interesting situations, until Eddie reaches his breaking point.

#911 #ao3 #buddie #evan buckley #911 fanfic #eddie diaz #buddie fanfiction #fanfiction #writing #the rookie #chenford #grishaverse #heartrender husbands #fivan #the royals #jespeanor

[gwynndolin]

Jiminy by Bear Ghost has been on repeat for me frequently since it released last fall!

Wow, I genuinely was not expecting to like this as much as I did. When I first started listening I was kind of like "Ahh, this kinda sounds like something that would get pretty big as a Tiktok sound for a hot second because someone made a Hazbin Hotel shipping fancam". Kinda got some Will Wood stuff, some Jukebox The Ghost stuff (specifically around the Off To The Races era where they really embraced the Queen comparisons), and I was like, okay i'll probably pretty well enjoy this but nothing especially spectacular here. Then I got to the end of the first song, After Me, The Flood and it had that big glitched out part into Heavy News and I was like. Ohhhhh... OKAY....

I still stand by what I said absolutely though, like especially with Will Wood comparison, specifically like the sort of showtune-like aspects to a lot of the individual tracks on the records, which is probably where the "Tiktok shipping fancam" feeling comes from (see Peas & Love, I feel like that song was carefully designed in a lab to have a bouncy, exciting, decent to well edited video of two characters that hate each other and want each other to die but the fandom desperately needs them to have a moment). It's pretty clear this album wants to be like, somewhat culture critical about the current state of some parts of society, but honestly a lot of the lyrics really fall short of necessarily saying anything particularly interesting about the matter and just come off as pretty juvenile in that regard. Like, Rivers is a Vampire is clearly about high society and excess and sucking out the life from everything and its a great song for sure but its also just like. Yeah you sure did the rich people vampire metaphor again! Which is also another point towards it being very Tiktok consumable. That being said I'm only kind of using "tiktok consumable" as a pejorative here, but it is why I wasn't expecting to enjoy it as much.

Anyway this album has a pretty clear tonal voice here, like the songs do not really dip out of that same, bright, showtune-like quality, so there's not really many moments where the album slows down and takes a break from how hyper it is, which maybe as a full album is not such a good thing, but a lot of these songs individually would be a really great playlist spot.

I'm realizing now that most of this review has sounded like, extremely negative about the whole album, which is funny because so far this is like the most fun I've had listening and catching up with these music asks, I've already listened to the album through like 2 or 3 times and skipped around and re-listened to my fave tracks so. I don't really know what that means for my long term feelings about this album, but as it stands,

I'm feeling a really good 8/10 on this one

if I was pretty drunk and in a great mood I'm sure this album would've hit like 9/10 for me. I'm really into it, I might check out some of Bear Ghost's earlier stuff and see if I'd like it as much.

Fave songs: After Me, The Flood, Heavy News, Rivers is a Vampire, Big Town Banky Blaine’s Rockabilly BBQ, The Mario Cliché, When I’m Dead, Vulture

#music asks

[americanwh0resstuff]

-Good Side In-

Blaine DeBeers

(Human) Blaine DeBeers x reader one shot

Word count: 1,191

Kinda fluff ☁️ smut ❤️‍🔥

little bit of Blaine lore! Half boyfriend Blaine is back!!! Some more fluffy smut of human Blaine not knowing how to be in a healthy relationship works, trying his best to be affectionate...

-Good side in-

'I put up a fight, it's a light hit

I turned my good side in'

It was 10pm on a Friday night and Blaine and I had already gotten back to my apartment, now laying in comfy pjs and eating icecream while watching crappy horror movies. Earlier tonight we went on a date night to the local pub, but we soon realised that the loud music and chattering was too much. I guess my party girls days are truly already over...

We left after one drink and decided to spend the rest of the evening at home.

———

Home was a weird word for Blaine, he had always felt that it was more than just a house with his stuff in it, it was a feeling, or a place, he just hadn't found it yet.

He never had the best home life, an absent father and a dead mother, the only person around was his relentless nanny, which was somehow worse than being alone.

He had a few vague good memories, memories of his mother taking him to the park, holding him when he couldn't sleep, comforting him after his dad's outbursts. He was only 6 when she died, her face now a blank slate, all he could remember was her voice, and even that was becoming quieter and quieter each day.

His father was never a coddler, he told Blaine right from the start that she took her own life, simply explaining that she was ashamed to have a son like him, and that he drove her too it.

Sadly Blaine believed him, until he was about 13 years old, when he realised that it was most likely his dads doing.

From then on he never really felt safe, not wanting to call anywhere home, constantly looking over his shoulder, not trusting anyone.

That is until (Y/n) came into his life, the way she looked at him, not passed him, the way she listened to every word he spoke, actually interested and not just using him for his money. But nothing compared to her smile, that was home.

Blaine looked down at (y/n) the way she lay her head on his chest, her hand wrapped around his, this was safety, not just for him, but the way she felt safe with him, gave him pride and warmth he had never felt before...

———

I looked up at Blaine, smiling at him, he was obviously deep in thought, the way his eyebrows furrowed every so often, and how his eyes looked passed the television, he looked gorgeous, although he didn't take well to my compliments, as cocky as he was.

I pushed myself up, turning to face him. Still in his trance, i leaned in and kissed him, instantly making him smile.

"Why don't we go take a shower and get into bed?" i asked while smirking softly.

That seemed to snap him out of it, an immediate smile on his face.

he nodded and i stood from his lap, pulling him up and leading him to my small bathroom, i turned the water on and began undressing myself as it heated up.

When i was down to my underwear i turned to see Blaine staring, still in his pjs, i bit my lip and walked towards him, pulling his shirt over his head, kissing his neck and chest softly as i moved to his pants, my hand ghosted over his clothed member before stripping him completely, then turning back around for him to unhook my bra.

I slipped out of my panties and pulled Blaine under the hot water with me. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back, letting the water wash over me.

"You're awfully quiet tonight?" i opened my eyes to see him scanning my body, still slightly out of it.

He shook his head and smiled  "Oh sorry... don't worry gorgeous... just, how am i this lucky?" The smirk was back, the look that made me weak in the knees, the way his eyes traced over me, how his hands grasped my hips, it drove me wild.

"Don't get all cheesy on me now, Debeers..."

i giggled softly as i stood on my toes to kiss him.

His kissed back fiercely, backing me up into the cool glass wall, a hard contrast to his warm hands and lips.

i groaned into the kiss, his right hand reaching between my legs, fingers slipping between my folds as I lean impossibly closer into him, my legs already shaking in anticipation.

I reached up and tangled my hands in his wet hair, two fingers then entering me, making me gasp and pull away.

"That's it (y/n)... so needy"

His voice was deep and whispered, his lips ghosting my earlobe before attaching to my jaw, biting and sucking along the way.

He removed his fingers and tapped the underside of my thighs, signalling for me to wrap my legs around his waist.

He lifted me with ease, grinding his hips against mine before lining himself up with me, with a swift thrust he entered my tight cunt, throwing his head back with a soft groan.

He holds my face in one hand, watching me in awe as I choke out a moan.

I struggle to hold eye contact, feeling like prey under his gaze.

I turned my head and closed my eyes, mouth falling open as he started moving, my legs tightening around him with every thrust, nails scratching his shoulders.

Our moans echoed off the shower walls, drowning out the sound of the water trickling down Blaines back, the steam building more and more, making our already heavy breathing even harder.

If I wasn’t already choking on the hot air around me, it was made worse (or better) by Blaines hand wrapping around my throat.

My eyes were clouded over, legs shaking and body weak, I was struggling to hold on, feeling so far removed from my body, I felt on fire at the same time, I didn’t even have time to warn him before I was coming around his cock, practically screaming his name.

If I wasn’t so out of it I’d have sworn I heard his low groans turn to high pitched whimpers as he too climaxed while gripping me tightly, his body pressing mine harder against the steamed up glass.

His head rested on my shoulder, laying soft kisses on my skin as he pulled out and let my feet finally touch the ground, he then pulled me back under the hot water, still dazed as he ran his hands through my hair, washing it as I stared at him completely in awe, the way he can be so demanding, dominant and cold, yet here he is, lovingly washing my hair, pressing soft kisses on my skin.

He was hiding something, though not anything bad, he was hiding his soft side, and I’m determined to bring it out.

#blaine debeers #izombie #blaine mcdonough #blaine debeers x reader #blaine debeers fanfiction #izombie fanfiction #blaine debeers smut #smut #choking #shower smut #fluff #kinda angsty #? #I would die for him #or better yet become a zombie

[klaineccfanficlibrary]

2023 Klaine Bingo Card

1. Debut - Express Yourself by Eaperanto

2. Page-turning - A Fine Line Between Us by MrsCriss2012

3. Box of Tissues - Underwater by dizzywhiz

4. Unusual Occupation - The Ghost Kitchen by HKvoyage

5. Wild Card - Show Me Love, Show Me Life by CoffeeAddict80

6. Summer - Camp Klaine by Kirakiwi

7. Challenge - I Don't Date Cheerios by TeddysHoney

8. LOL - Rim Job by GleefulDarrenCrissFan

9. Don't normally read - Never Saying Goodbye to You by lilyvandersteen

Thank you for your 2023 Klaine Bingo card!! There are now 92 stories in the collection. ~Lynne

1) Express Yourself by Esperanto *this story is already listed in this category

2) A Fine Line Between Us by MrsCriss2012

Kurt Hummel is a struggling actor hoping for his big break, while Blaine Anderson is a jaded, hard-headed theatre critic. It’s a fine line between love and hate.

3) Underwater by dizzywhiz

Blaine didn't intend to fall into bed with Kurt after the wedding reception, but it happened. Physically, he wanted it, but handling the emotional consequences was a different story. AKA what happens in that hotel room between Kurt pulling him in and telling him "I'll see you downstairs."

4) The Ghost Kitchen by @hkvoyage

At the start of the Covid-19 pandemic, Kurt lived in Lima with his father. Two years later, he returned to New York City. As he needed money to pay for rent and food, he got a job in a booming industry: food delivery. His first delivery order was a pick-up from Warbler Food Enterprises. Little did he know he would meet a cute chef there that would turn his world upside down.

5) Show Me Love, Show Me Life by CoffeeAddict80 | @caramelcoffeeaddict

When Blaine Anderson became a vampire over 800 years ago, he gave up on the idea of having close relationships – platonic or romantic – with anyone. As long as he could still have sex, feelings were unnecessary. But there was something different about the new transfer student, Kurt Hummel, that kept drawing him in. Kurt was unlike anyone Blaine had ever met. And Blaine was starting to think that he wasn’t the only one at Dalton with a supernatural secret. To most people, Kurt Hummel seems like your average high schooler; but there’s nothing average about him. Kurt is a warlock – a warlock that can’t use magic. When he was born, his magic went dormant, and no one knows why. But sometimes, he’s capable of things that no one – not even Kurt himself – can explain.

6) Camp Klaine by @kirakiwiwrites *this story is already listed in this category

7) I Don't Date Cheerios by @teddyshoney

Blaine, leader of the McKinley High bad boys is forced to join a club, and he winds up singing in front of the Glee Club. Who else would be in the audience besides Cheerio Kurt? Kurt's never been a fan of Blaine, but that's all about to change...

8) Rim Job by GleefulDarrenCrissFan *this story is already listed in this category

9) Never Saying Goodbye to You by @lilyvandersteen

Inspired by a beautiful drawing by @thisdoesnotsuck, this is a story where Kurt travels through time to the 1920s and falls in love with his great-grandfather’s secret beau. Featuring a family curse, doppelgängers, angst and confusion.

#2023 Klaine Bingo #Klaine fanfiction #klaine fanfic #glee fanfiction

[forabeatofadrum]

Ljubim te (18/24)

AO3 | S&C  

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NOSE

Quinn is lovely and Kurt hates it. He wants to hate her. He wants to say she is an awful person who doesn’t deserve Blaine, but she isn’t, and Kurt scolds himself for his childishness.

Blaine and Quinn ordered some pizza as well, and the three of them are outside, making small talk. During the entire dinner, Quinn and Kurt do most of the talking. Blaine remains awkwardly silent.

Quinn compliments Kurt on his looks and how can he refuse that kindness? She also looks marvellous and before they know it, Kurt and Quinn are bonding over fashion. Bonding. Kurt is bonding with the girlfriend of the boy he’s kissed.

“Oh, there is a hat shop over there,” Kurt says after Quinn’s detailed everything about her fancy sunhat. It’s a bit on the nose, but it is stunning and it keeps the sun out of her eyes. “You should check it out.”

Kurt gives Quinn the easy route towards Rikoma, Miha Kotar s.p.

Quinn beams towards Blaine.

“Oh babe, I keep telling you to not slick back you hair, so that you can wear a fancy hat as well. We should go there!”

Kurt’s stomach churns when he hears the term of endearment.

Kurt and Quinn await Blaine’s reaction. It’s an out. They’ve had their dinner and they can go. Kurt has given him a way out, and he didn’t even mean to. But to Kurt’s surprise, Blaine declines.

“How about you check it out?” he suggests to Quinn.

“Oh. Okay.” Quinn seems as surprised as Kurt.

“I’ll just, uh, stay here and catch up with Kurt,” he says, but then he looks at Kurt, “If you don’t mind.”

“I don’t,” Kurt and Quinn say at the same time, which makes Quinn looks at Kurt, then back at Blaine, and back to Kurt. It’s unnerving, especially since she gives Kurt a long look.

Then she kisses Blaine’s cheek and scurries away.

That leaves Kurt and Blaine together, at the pizza place.

“Do you… want to order more?” Kurt asks after an awkward moment of silence.

Blaine shakes his head.

“Let’s take it to Park Zvezda,” he suggests and Kurt agrees.

Once they’ve moved and they’re sat down - of course Kurt’s brought a blanket to sit on the grass – the awkwardness returns. Blaine’s asked to catch up, but now he’s not saying anything, so it is up to Kurt to start off.

“Quinn is lovely.”

Wow.

Great start, Kurt. Let’s start with his girlfriend.

“She is,” Blaine says.

Another beat of silence.

“Look, Blaine-”

“Kurt, I am sorry for kissing you,” Blaine says as he’s staring at the ground, “It was… I have a girlfriend. I can’t leave her.”

“I know,” Kurt says.

“So. Uh. Sorry.”

Kurt closes his eyes and he looks away. He can feel the anger building.

“If that’s all, then why couldn’t you just say so before?” he asks, trying to keep his voice calm, “You could’ve at least texted me. I-”

Kurt stops himself. He was about to say that he’s missed Blaine. That he’s been lonely.

But that just sounds sad. Blaine’s the one who ghosted him.

Suddenly, he feels a hand on his shoulder. It’s Blaine’s. Kurt looks back and whatever Blaine was about to say, his words die on his tongue, because he is staring at Kurt with his mouth agape.

Kurt wants to ask if he’s gotten something on his face, but he’s seen this look before. That’s the way Blaine looked at him before they kissed.

This guy is sending some mixed signals.

Kurt takes Blaine’s hand off his shoulder and he shakes his head.

“You have a girlfriend,” he bites out.

Blaine snaps out of it and he looks ashamed.

“Blaine, please, just talk to me. Tell me what’s going on, because this-” Kurt gestures between the two of them, “-is going nowhere if you can’t even tell me what you’re thinking.”

“I didn’t mean to kiss you. Truly,” Blaine says after a while.

That stings, but Kurt takes it in stride.

“I know.”

Then, Blaine suddenly looks around and he seems scared. It’s as if he’s trying to see if anyone is listening along, but no one seems to care about them. Still, Blaine is nervous.

He lowers his voice. He can’t look at Kurt.

“… but I wanted to.”

Blaine looks guilty and he’s again checking if anyone’s heard him, and things finally start to fall into place for Kurt. Kurt can feel the anger disappear.

Now, this is a revelation.

It’s silent for a while and Blaine looks conflicted, as if he’s wondering if he made the right choice by saying that.

“Blaine,” Kurt says kindly, “Do you like men?”

“No!” Blaine says back, too fast, too loud, and Kurt gets it.

He is reminded of all the times guys at school asked him, albeit in a mocking way, if he’s gay. Of course he isn’t gay! Boys? No! What makes you think that 12 years old Kurt likes boys?

Kurt knows the alarmed look on Blaine’s face. He understands the looking around, figuring out whether others can notice anything. He remembers loudly and quickly rejecting any claims about his sexuality.

“Okay. That’s fine,” Kurt says back, because he knows that is what Blaine needs to hear. But then he adds: “It’s also fine if you do, by the way.”

“I know that!” Blaine says back, “I have no problem with gay people.”

“But you have a problem if the gay person is you,” Kurt suggests carefully and Blaine’s face distorts. He looks afraid, but also relieved, but then guilty and sad.

Really, everything is starting to make sense. Kurt was right. Blaine is struggling.

Of course, this isn’t something to celebrate. Kurt remembers what it was like. He accepted his sexuality relatively quickly, but that doesn’t mean that he didn’t struggle, so he knows that this isn’t fun, but Kurt’s just glad he now knows what is going on.

Blaine looks deep in thought and Kurt’s afraid he’s overstepped. He’s about to potentially diffuse the situation, but Blaine’s frown deepens.

“I’d never thought of it like that,” he says quietly.

Kurt sees this as a permission to ask more.

“Have you ever had feelings for another guy?”

“No!”

Again, too fast, too loud.

Kurt gives Blaine a knowing look, and even Blaine seems to realise something.

“Well, no, really. No! Nope. I mean, my friend Wes has always looked super cute. Trent too, but you know, I was always looking at guys, you know, to compare myself, you know?”

That was three times ‘you know’. Kurt doesn’t point it out.

“And okay, when Nick and Jeff got together, I did wonder…” Blaine trials off and looks away. Kurt waits for Blaine to continue, but he doesn’t. Blaine shakes his head and Kurt decides to let it go.

An awkward silence hangs in the air. Blaine just bared a part of a soul, potentially a part he didn’t even know he had. Kurt feels for him, but he also needs Blaine to understand what he did.

Kurt closes his eyes and he deliberates what to do. He has an idea, but it might be a terrible idea.

But all of this is already messy.

“Blaine,” Kurt waves to get his attention, “Only you can decide who you are, and if you want to talk to me about it, that is fine, but I…” he takes a deep breath, “But I do like you, as more than friends.”

Blaine’s eyes go wide.

There’s no going back.

“And that is why I was so sad about the fact that you ghosted me.”

“Kurt-”

“And if this makes things weird between us, then I am sorry, but this is how I feel. I understood that you had to deal with something, but a part of me was also really upset, because I don’t want to be your experimentation.”

“You’re not,” Blaine hurriedly says, and then once again looks shocked by his own admission.

“I know that now,” Kurt shoots him a small smile, “But as you keep saying, you have a girlfriend.”

“… I do.”

Kurt looks over his shoulder and as on a cue, he can see Quinn walk out of the shop. She looks around for Kurt and Blaine and she smiles when she spots them. Kurt gives her a small wave and Quinn walks to them.

Blaine gets up to look at Quinn’s new purchase and Kurt sees that as his cue to leave. He rolls up his blanket.

When Quinn sees it, she asks where he’s going.

“I only just met you,” she says.

“Next time, I promise,” Kurt lies. He doesn’t think there’ll be a next time. “But now I need to go.”

“Kurt…” Blaine seems lost for words.

“It was good to see you again,” Kurt says earnestly and Blaine nods, “Call me, alright? Don’t ghost me again.”

He says the last part with a jokey tone, but it is true and Quinn’s head jerks towards Blaine. Kurt decides to let them be. Their relationship is none of his business.

#klaineadvent #klaine advent 2022 #klaine advent #klaine #glee #holy fuck I wrote #2023 #multichaptered #klaine advent: nose

[cassioppenny]

are there any other nightmare insecurity entities haunting any of the characters besides missingno in milesverse..........ALSO. if theres anythnig different from canon abt any of the gym leaders id like to hear it :)

hm well dawn and serena are possessed by giratina and zygarde respectively but that probably doesn't count. i don't have any plans for anyone else being tormented by evil shadow selves rn. maybe i'll think up something as i continue my marathon but rn nightmare insecurity entities are red exclusive sorry

as for gym leaders

surge, koga, sabrina, and blaine are or have been affiliated with team rocket. koga and sabrina aren't really willingly working with them for koga his daughter is being threatened and for sabrina they promised if she works with them that the pokemon tower will not be torn down for a radio tower (her family runs the tower and even though she's scared of ghosts she doesn't want an important burial ground for hundreds of pokemon to get torn down for capitalism). blaine assisted in the creation of mewtwo along with fuji and some unimportant blond guy. and surge is just an asshole (he becomes less of an asshole after red beats him)

blue kept getting in trouble for not using a monotype team while he was a gym leader. he eventually got fired post gsc and green replaced him lmao.

falkner, bugsy, and whitney were brendan's childhood friends before he moved to hoenn

not exactly differing from canon but mv hoenn is basically an orasified emerald so wallace is champion and juan exists

again not really differing from canon but NORMAN ISNT A SHITTY DAD like yeah he sucks ass at communicating with his son but he's not abusive like pokespe norman

anyway brendan's parents didn't know brendan went off on a journey and they don't learn until brendan (and wally) show up at norman's gym since he ran away without telling them

i think it would be funny if fantina had a weird gay thing going on with johanna. send tweet.

i really like the unova gym leaders as is so idk what to change about them except for kurusu obviously. maybe hilbert will challenge all three butlers like ash did in the anime idk.

dude i have no fucking clue with the kalos guys they're really forgettable sadly

mina find the weird kanto simulation thing (let's go) along with the kanto trio so that's why she's in let's go

this is more of a team yell thing than a piers thing but even though team yell started out as a a bunch of spikemouth residents it quickly explodes in members as marnie becomes the most popular gym challenger to the point piers can't control the hype around his sister at all. this gets so bad that rose ends up pitching to marnie to rig all of her future matches to her favor so they could make a ridiculous amount of merch about her so her fans could be happy

i saw a comic about larry coming from the real world but then getting eebied into paldea and i thought it was funny so i might incorporate it into milesverse. though im not sure yet incase the dlc gives us actual larry lore or something who knows

#milesverse #anyway yippie gym leaders!! #i do want to expand more on the gym leaders more eventually though #but anyway enjoy these guys for now :)

[randomgentlefolk]

CPC CHAPTER 143

He's just acting He's just acting He's just acting

I'm having a moment about him, so I'm changing my pfp to Frederick for some times

You know this— i don't know what to feel about this chapter. As usual, let's start it lightheartedly.

Hey why is Suzanna still allowed having long hair? As far as I know long hair is forbidden in the military. Is it.. Is it a wig? 💀

But Plaidypus? I will never pronounce nor write platypus the same way ever again. It's so good wth why do I actually like it.

Yoo ngl Leland's craft skill tho 💀 man shoulda been an artistic king or smth instead of petty abusive king. He shoulda design some clothes/uniform or become an architect.

Look at how many people are complaining over the Plaid Kingdom's outift. Like how the plaid fam never changes clothes 💀 and that one military person also complained about the uniform. Speaking of never changing uniform, we finally know how the Plaid Princes never runs outta jacket in the entire series. They fr stocked it up 💀

LELAND, MAN, IS SO PETTY LOOK AT THIS LIST

"Who ate my ham sandwich that one time" BRO HOW GOOD WAS THE SANDWICH? HOW GOOD WAS IT.

My gal Isolde being a huge mood

This is my friends whenever I explain cpc lore.

Noo Isolde blaming herself :'( I saw this one coming but it still hurts so bad.

So uh, why is there a single chair in nowhere?

Why is there— for what. For what. Tell me.

I'm guessing the trio (they need a name) is becoming closer to find out where Frederick is!

Is Leland really gonna kidnap the princesses? He said the big event will be tomorrow at the Corduroy Canyon.. which is the place the princes and princesses should get married at. Or is it perhaps something else?

BLAINE NO. NO! Please, I'm trying to hard to— 😭😭 I'm trying to make excuses for you, please. You— mhm yeah this is acting haha. Even if it's not he's gonna get a big redemption yeahh. Denial is a river in Egypt.

Yooo Leland why you do that??? 👀 Saw the theory that the ghost in Plaid Kingdom is Leelathae......Maybe????????

Oh shoot, well that ain't a good ending for the trio :'l how are they gonna explain this? "Uh hey we were just chilling here right in front of the room you told me not to go into....just having some besties talk ya know....of course"

Well that's all for this week's chapter's review! I'm just gonna read chapter 126 now..(sobs)

Mono out! (But still in to hear your thoughts)

#cursed princess club #cpc

[careless-with-your-heart]

WIP Wednesday - Lay You in the Ground (An iZombie Blaine x OFC Fanfic - Future Chapter WIP)

Because I'm writing this way out of order, here is a snippet from like five chapters away. Or something. Who knows. It's chaos in this Word Doc.

***

“Oh, sweetheart. I would never want something physical between us to hurt you the way others have in the past. I could kiss you right now—but a kiss before dying? Would it be worth it? I didn’t have that choice before I got saddled with the virus. I think all the time about what I would have chosen, if I’d had the chance.”

Kitty looks down at his hand, wrapped around the point of her elbow, the buttery leather of his glove dark against her skin. Oh. Even despite his neat, close manicure, and even despite his flirting and innuendos and the way those wintery eyes follow her every move night after night at The Post, she suddenly realizes that he has always held back from spontaneously touching her. Even in the upstairs apartment at The Post, the first day, he had skimmed his fingers over her legs as though he were handling the most delicate, breakable material. She’d warmed to the gentleness, but she can also picture so clearly the way his eyes had gone intense and heavy, how his breath had ghosted her lips just before he’d left—oh, so very close, but not touching. Hesitant touches, almost-kisses…

He has been protecting her. From himself. Had he given in to her that morning of the painted toenails and almost-kiss, cupped his hands around her hips, drawn her in—she would have let him. She would have let Blaine DeB—no, McDonough—kiss her in the still quiet of the home he had offered her, push her back onto the bed that she had slept in now for too many lonely nights, do whatever he could think up in that evil, hedonistic, wickedly inventive brain of his. But because Blaine has, at many points in his life, been the one without a choice; in childhood, in his search for somewhere to fit in, and certainly when it came to whether he became host to the beast inside of him that he is trying to shield her from—he’s been painstakingly guarding her ability to choose.

Her heart aches for him—as ridiculous as it would sound to anyone else. The man has blood on his hands. So why does she feel so protected by them?

“So that’s it? You turned the lights up so that you could tell me that you’re sorry Julien hurt me? That you’ve been protecting me from the big, bad zombie cooties? Is this going anywhere?”

He grins at her teasing, laughing, ostensibly trying to lighten the tension. “If we’re being confessional here, it’s not just that. I have other, selfish reasons.” He glides a gloved thumb over her lower lip, eyes chasing the movement. “I want to touch you.” The same thumb circles against her cheekbone. “Here. Under the light.”

He gestures to the blazing chandeliers above them with a flick of his head, looking up. “I’ve tried really, really damned hard to fight it, but I know you mean what you said during that argument. You don’t plan to stay, kitten. But every time I walk into this restaurant—long after you’ve decided to leave—I want to remember the way you looked spread out on top my piano, desperate for me.”

#scandalous #izombie #wip wednesday #blaine debeers #over here making myself blush #sir this is a wendys #but go on... #fanfic #fanfiction

[prismatica-the-strange]

Bite Me 😘 | Never me

Warnings: 18+, death (Someone is stabbed), unconsented kiss and grope

One if Blain customers has gotten antsy ever since Natalie's disappearance.

Short angst with a sweet end

The music from downstairs is a dull thudding beneath her feet and she finishes a call with one of the Shady Plots' human customers. The dull bumping turns into a sudden pounding at the door.

"Blaine!" More pounding, "Blaine, open the damn door!"

Cori contemplates running downstairs to get one of the guys since Blaine is out, but she decides against it. She can handle a customer on her own.

"Can I help you?" She asks as she opens the door.

"Where the hell is-" The man stops when he sees her, a small grin spreading across his face, "I don't think we've met."

"Uh, no," She chuckles, reaching her hand out, "I'm Cori, Blaine's... Associate."

"Yes, you are," He shakes her hand, taking in her ghost-white skin and dark-rimmed eyes, "And it's about damn time, I'm Daniel Elms."

She nods, pulling her hand from his tight grip.

"Well, Blaine's not here so..."

"I don't think I need him anymore," He smirks. She steps back when he traces two fingers down her arm.

"I-I can tell him you stopped by."

"Like I said, baby," He backs her against the wall, "The only thing I need Blaine for now is to find out your rates."

"My- What?" She doesn't like where this is going.

"A little test drive wouldn't hurt, now would it?"

He shoves his mouth against hers, hand slipping under the collar of her shirt to grope her tit.

Her eyes flare up red and she decks him across the face, knocking him to the floor.

"Chief!" She yells, growling at the Elms as he glares at her.

"Chief!" She stomps on the floor and the music shuts off. A moment later, Chief comes up the debasement stares, eye going wide at the scene in front of him, "Get him the fuck out of here before I tear his fucking head off!"

He grabs the man's arms and as he's dragging him towards the door, Blaine walks in.

"Whoa, what's going on here?" He asks, "Elms, I told you I'd tell you when I get a new..."

He glances over to see Cori pulling her shirt up, eyes bloodshot but fading back to normal. She avoids his look and he puts two and two together.

He rips him from Chief's grip and slams him against the wall. Frames are jostled out of place and one falls, glass cracking upon impact with the floor.

"You think you can put your hands on my girl?" His eyes change red and he wraps his hand around his throat, lifting the man off the ground.

"I-I-I didn't know- I-I thought-"

"Blaine," She says.

"What did he do?" He growls back at her, "Where did he touch you?"

"I already got a hit in," She says, grabbing onto his arm, "It's okay."

His head snaps back to her, rage simmering in his glare. He closes his eyes, takes a deep breath, and when he opens them up they've changed back to normal.

He lets Elms go.

She circles her arms around Blaine's stomach, slipping them under his jacket.

When Elms mutters something about a slut being a slut, she pulls out Blaine's butterfly knife from his back pocket, flourishing it in her hand before jamming it into his forehead.

Her breath shudders as she lets go and his body slumps to the floor.

"Baby?" Blaine reaches out to squeeze her heaving shoulders, "Deep breaths sweetheart, turn off rage mode."

He wraps his arms around her, hands on her wrists, rubbing her skin. He presses his nose into the crook of her neck, kissing her shoulder.

"Chief," He looks over at him, "Why don't you take our guest downstairs, show him the cremation furnace."

Chief nods and starts dragging the corpse to the basement.

"You're not a slut, gorgeous," He says, "You're the softest, sweetest, smartest girl I know. And he deserved what he got."

She feowns, "It's how I-."

"No, no sweetheart," He turns her around to face him, his hands on her shoulders, "He made a stupid assumption, don't let it get to you."

She gives him a small smile and he takes it, leaning in to kiss her forehead.

"Now, you wanna go hit the button that'll turn that son of a bitch to ash?"

"No, I think I'm gonna work on some stuff up here."

"You sure?"

She nods and steps back.

"I could keep you company?" He offers, "I've probably got things to do up here anyways."

"No, that's okay," She says, "I'm sure you'll just get in the way."

"Is that right?"

"Yep," She smirks over her shoulder at him, "If it wasn't for me, nothing would get done around here."

"You're about to get done around here, sweetheart," He grins, following her over to his desk, "Think you can get away with talking to me like that?"

"Well, someone has to."

She sighs dramatically and folds her arms over her chest as she turns to lean against the desk, "Everyone else is too scared."

She reaches up to pop his next shirt button, fingers slipping just beneath the fabric.

"Not you though?" He confirms, moving closer, her hand spraying out against his chest, "Never you."

"Never me," She breathes, pressing her lips to his.

#blaine debeers #blaine mcdonough #prisma self ships #prisma writes #bite me #izombie #blaine debeers x oc

[alexandersimpleton]

Frederick's legs were aching. It hadn't gotten any better since he was ten and first started showing symptoms, but they were still hurting more than usual.

He was talking with Gwen about a book he had an idea for during a sort of lazy day at their castle. They were in the living room with the other two couples, Jack watching the children like a hawk.

"So anyways, they're fighting the big parasite, but a bright light suddenly flashes in Ashling's eyes, and the book ends on one line."

"What what what?" Gwen was hooked

"'The woman woke up, noticing she was chained to a bed. A small part of her started to panick a little, as if she was seeing some sort of truth, but before she could complete the thought, she snuffed it out. After all," He added a final flare to the line, making sure the tone was just right "it would do no good to panick.'"

"Wow. Holy crap that would be so cool!"

"I know right! Someone should totally write that!!"

"Oh, you should write that!"

"Do you really think I'd be able to pull it off?" Frederick sounded flattered.

"Oh, you definitely would!"

Frederick smiled a little, but suddenly winced in pain.

"F-Frederick?"

Frederick found himself falling face-first into the floor, and blacked out.

Frederick woke up in a hospital bed. This brought back memories...

He looked around trying to distract himself, noticing Gwen looking at him.

Frederick was pretty flustered. "G-Gwen! I didn't notice you there." The worry won however, so he asked her "Uh, what's going-" he tried to pull his legs up to his chest, but he realized that he couldn't feel them. He looked down and tried touching them a little, but he didn't feel it on his leg, just his hand.

Gwen noticed the boy cut himself off. Why would he- he touched his leg a little, recoiling back. Did something happen to his legs.

Frederick started hyperventilating. He tried to push himself into the wall with his legs, but he still couldn't feel them.

Gwen put a hand on the boy's shoulder.

"F-Frederick." She took a deep breath. She was panicking just as much as Frederick right now. "Breath with me, okay. In two three four, hold two three four, out two three four." She has only saw Prez do this. Luckily, it seemed to be working somewhat.

Frederick's breathing slowed, and he seemed lucid, but he still looked at his legs, fear in his eyes.

"Do your legs hurt?"

Frederick shook his head.

"C.. can you feel them?"

Frederick shook his head.

Gwen didn't know what to say. She didn't know much more than Frederick.

Blaine walked in, breaking the silence and seeing his brother. Her ran up, hugging the boy tightly. Gwen saw more emotion in his face than she had ever seen out of him before.

But than, Isolde and Leland followed him. Gwen thought he looked rather scared of the latter as the scampered over to the side of the bed.

"Little bro!" Lance looked more panicked than anything as he rushed in. "What happened? Are you hurt? Are you dead? Are you a ghost? I don't want you to be a ghost!"

Frederick chuckled a little. "No, I'm not a ghost. I just-"

"Managed to break himself more." Leland interrupted. He looked at the boy coldly, as if he was some mut to be looked down on rather than his own son.

Blaine wanted to intervene. He wanted to yell at his father, say that Frederick wasn't broken, and that he was amazing, but if he did, Leland would... And he'd... Blaine couldn't. He couldn't take objecting to his father again, or the scars might start showing.

And so, he just looked down, clutching the floor as hard as he could. Gwen noticed the pained look on his face that he had failed to hide. Like his favorite recipe book was being torn up right in front of his eyes and he couldn't do anything about it. Like he wanted to pounce on Leland but couldn't. Isolde was having a similar feeling, though she was better at hiding it.

Frederick didn't look as impassioned however. He simply looked down as Leland berated him. All that light that has been slowly building up over time was gone from his eyes.

Eventually, the family, minus Frederick, left the building. As they left, Lance put a hand on Frederick's, taking it back after a glare from Leland. Blaine and Isolde just followed the man, heads down in redesigned silence.

Frederick just stayed in that position, that same, dead look in his face.

"C-can you just leave."

"If you want."

So, it was just Frederick. He pulled his legs up to his chest with his hands, resting his head on them a crying.

Frederick didn't know when he'd fallen asleep. He only knew that he had fallen asleep when he woke up to a window opening.

"Hey kiddo." It was Prez. "A little birdie told me something happened. How are you holding up?" Frederick noticed Monika was riding on her shoulder.

Little to anyone of the plaid or pastel family's knowledge, Monika had come to make sure everything was going well, and hadn't seen Frederick anywhere in the main parts of the castle, so she had searched all over until she found Frederick while he was getting berated by Leland and went to tell Prez.

"Uh," his voice was slightly raspy from crying. "I haven't died yet, I guess. C-can't say the same for my legs though." He let go of the now useless appendages, watching them slide back down the bed.

Both of the two noticed that he was about to cry.

Monika snuggled up to Frederick's neck. She knew crow feathers were soft, so she hoped it'd help.

"Wow. I didn't know crow feathers were so soft."

"Yeah, I know right." Prez said.

"But anyways, Monika said that she saw your father talking to you." Her hand clenched up at the mention of him. Her opinion of the man had been getting low as of late.

Monika turned back into a human. "Yeah, I didn't have my glasses, but you looked kinda sad."

Frederick nodded. "Yeah. Father said some.. not very nice things."

Frederick thinks that was the first time he ever saw Monika look pissed off like that. She had been mad at him for pushing her off a cliff that one time, but here she looked less like she was salty and more like she wanted to peck out something important.

"Kid," Prez seemed serious. "did he say anything about you being broken or whatever? Because if he did, he is so wrong! Got it?"

Monika nodded. "Yeah. You're awesome!"

Frederick blushed a little. "T-thanks."

"Good." Monika said. "Now that that's out of the way... WHERE THE CRAP IS YOUR DAD?! I SWEAR I'M GONNA PECK OUT SOMETHING IMPORTANT!"

Frederick put a hand over her mouth, or tried before he fell off the bed, before crawling over with his hands. "Shhhhh! There are still doctors outside." He was giggling at the sudden change of the girl's tone.

Monika crossed her arms over her chest, resigning to silence, as Prez helped him back on the bed.

The two left the room eventually. They had to get sleep too after all.

But Leland seemed tired the next day. He said a crow kept squawking as he was trying to sleep.

#the cursed princess club #cursed princess club #cpc #prince frederick #cpc frederick #fanfiction #au #other cpc characters #don't wanna tag em all

[gleekto]

Klaine Advent 2022: Chemistry Sucks (11/?)

Summary: Nerd!Kurt/ Popular!Blaine high school AU - Kurt joins Glee club in his junior year to please his dad, though he’d rather just hide out in the library until he can graduate and get out of Lima.

Turns out he’s not the only gay kid in town. Too bad the other out gay kid is cocky and popular senior, Blaine Anderson. Sure of himself, gets all the solos, things served to him on a platter. Kurt finds him shallow and infuriating.

Blaine finds Kurt square and irritating.

Yet at a party one night, they promise to sleep together if they don’t have other opportunities by the end of the year. A dare. Naturally competitive spirits.

Day 1, Day 2,Day 3, Day 4, Day 5, Day 6, Day 7, Day 8, Day 9, Day 10

Chemistry Sucks (Day 11: Education)

"Are you seriously ghosting him?" Kurt slaps his hands down on the little circular Lima Bean table, almost spilling his mocha. It's been two days since they went to the gay youth group, and Blaine still hasn't texted Rich back. Which Kurt isn't exactly upset about, but still, it's the right thing to do.

"I'm not ghosting anybody," Blaine says defensively. "Because I never went out with the guy, never led him on, never even spoke to him. So, no ghosting. That would be un-gentlemanly."

"And you're a gentleman?" Kurt says with only a hint of sarcasm.

"Yes." Blaine looks almost hurt. "Or you know, I want to be or will be to my Mr. Right or whatever."

"Well, now you have the chance to practice on a real life person. Do you really need an education in basic etiquette? Let him down. It's kinder than ghosting." Blaine rolls his eyes then types something quickly on his phone before showing the unsent message to Kurt.

"There. You happy?"

B: Hey Rich. This is a nice offer but you remember Kurt from the group? We aren’t together. But I do like him so unfortunately sort of off the market right now. Nice to meet you though :)

Blaine had basically copied his own message to Matteo right down to the smiley face. "You would not," Kurt shakes his head.

"Why not? You did."

"That's because you got me into that mess. A revenge of sorts," Kurt folds his hands in front of his chest. " This has nothing to do with me. And if you say that, then the whole group will think that I like you and you like me but we're just too oblivious to realize."

"Oh no, can't have that," Blaine says as he hits send. He actually hits send.

"You know that when I see them this summer, there are going to be non-stop questions."

"Oh well, " Blaine shrugs. "Guess you'll have to field all the invasive questions while I'm dunking my cronut in my medium drip as I stroll through Central Park."

"All alone without me to sip with," Kurt teases but wow. It's only a few more weeks until nationals and then Blaine really will be gone. His rival somehow turned friend. Maybe even best friend? Dumb bet and all.

"Yeah," Blaine sighs and takes a sip of his coffee. "Without you."

Blaine knocks his leg against Kurt's under the table and leaves it there.

#klaine advent 2022 #klaine advent: education #gleekto writes #chemistry sucks

[klainetober]

Hey Hey it's Fave Fic Friday! Today we are offering up a few fics from the fandom's longtime provider of the spooky, suspenseful, magic filled, otherworldly original stories..... @sunshineoptimismandangels !!

If you haven't had a chance to check any of these out, Spooky Season is the perfect time to give them a read! Links are to AO3.

Heartstone

Ancient magic, lurking monsters, and a spell that has plagued Blaine’s family for centuries. All Blaine wants to do is survive in peace and hide from the evils that follow him. New York City seemed like a good place to just disappear, to let the gray anonymity of the city obscure him. He didn’t expect that New York City was where he’d find the one thing that was most dangerous to him, and he didn’t expect to find Kurt Hummel a man who could uncoil him with a smile and possibly make his cold heart beat again.

Calloway Place

Callaway Place is an old coastal mansion filled with magic, history and secrets. To eleven year old Blaine Anderson it is the place he is forced to spend his summer vacation when he’d rather be anywhere else in the world. But a magic mirror and a spine-tingling enchantment soon have Blaine glad he came.

Kurt Hummel is a young boy growing up in a quiet little town hoping for a bigger future. He is holding onto secrets few know about, while learning about an ancient magic that will transform his life.

Kurt and Blaine’s lives intersect in the most unexpected way and they are both forever changed, but what will they do as they grown into young men and are unable to leave the magic of their childhood behind?

All the Beautiful Pieces

Blaine Anderson is spending the summer after graduation flipping houses with his brother for Cooper's total home renovation show. The show features the worst houses Cooper can buy, with Blaine playing the role of lackey so that Cooper can torture him in front of his viewers. The last house Blaine has to renovate is an original Victorian House in San Diego, CA, which is in terrible condition. But this house turns out to be more than just another job. It was once owned by a famous Vaudeville ventriloquist by the name of Andrew Smythe. It houses a very interesting collection of items - among them, two life-sized puppets. Blaine isn't sure exactly why, but he's drawn to them - especially to the one with the beautiful blue eyes. He convinces Cooper to give him the puppets, and Blaine starts to restore them. In the course of the restoration, Blaine finds out that neither puppet is simply a run-of-the-mill puppet, and Andrew Smythe was hiding a secret that will be the key to saving two lives.

Not Another Ghost Story

When Kurt Hummel began an online ghost investigation show with his best friend and his step-brother he never expected to find himself alone in an abandoned and reportedly haunted hotel, but one stormy night Kurt finds more than he ever expected in the derelict and chilling Whispering Wolf Hotel. In fact, Kurt may have found exactly what he’s has been looking for. A story of romance, comedy, and sinister plots.

We hope you enjoy!

#fave fic friday #sunshineoptimismandangels #give 'em a read! #klainetober 2022

[usedpidemo]

Radical Red v3.1 Random Encounters (Route 1 only).

Yeah, this randomizer was cracked. Four legendary Pokémon and they're all insanely powerful. For reference, this was on scaled, so the species were randomized to match equal strength (I don't know why the game won't acknowledge it though), but it's insane that I got both Kubfu and Cosmog, albeit Kubfu was a day time exclusive only. It's insane you can get Urshifu-Rapid Strike as early as before Mt. Moon because of a lone Water Stone, and he was doing most of the carrying while the Cosmogs took nearly halfway to fully evolve. Lunala is absolutely cracked, to no one's surprise, being able to survive any one hit even facing down +2 enemies from full and inducing burns or paralysis back—depending on what the situation requires. Most of the lategame was heavily dependent on wearing down physical attackers with Wisp + Roost until they were in range to a boosted Hex or inducing paralysis as one of the very few speed control users. MVP easily. Solgaleo has the bulk to abuse Weakness Policy and slam enemies down with +2 Sunsteel Strike. I just wish it had access to something like Rock Polish or Autotomize because it had so much potential to sweep, but was held back by it's lackluster speed. Scarfed Urshifu-Rapid did a lot of the late game cleaning, picking off sashed leads with Surging Strikes. Not a lot of Rocky Helmet/Rough Skin abusers around really benefitted him and Urshifu-Dark. Cradily and Zebstrika were only there for the Lorelei rain matchup, but otherwise, the legendary quartet did most of the heavy lifting. At points I wanted to use the other mons and box the Legendaries because it was getting too easy, but I ultimately crutched on them for most of the run, heh. Never look a gift horse in the mouth. I still don't know if the randomizer is consistent; I've heard the encounter pool changes every day, but once I caught all the available mons with DexNav, I never really bothered to look back.

29 losses—2 to the Ariana & Archer tag battle, 2 to Silph Giovanni, 1 to May, 1 to Blaine, 3 to Cerulean Cave Giovanni, 1 to Lorelei, 5 to Bruno, 7 to Agatha, 2 to Lance, and 5 to Blue. I absolutely despise Agatha's Marshadow, being basically a perfect counter to my whole team with Ghost/Fighting dual STAB and being generally faster than my whole team. Spectrier, despite having the most one dimensional movepool ever and Scarf, two shotted Urshifu-Single even resisted. I found the Urshifu-Rapid lead to be more favorable for my team against Bruno than the Infernape lead. As for Blue, the faster matchups were just really annoying, and the AI clearly is smarter than at times—even my Scarf Urshifu-Rapid couldn't outrun Pheromosa. Crazy. Whenever I used Surging Strikes, it would U-turn out, but if I went for U-turn, it would go for Close Combat. Primal Groudon was arguably the biggest problem, being incapable of being statused by paralysis or burn and paralyzing the whole team outside of Zebstrika, who gets oneshot by any of its moves anyway. The goal was not for rocks to get up on my side on the field, which really hampered Lunala's Shadow Shield ability, even with Roost. It came down to Lunala being able to survive a Dark Hole from Yveltal on a damage roll, even at full, then chipping with Moonblast + Thunder from Zebstrika, otherwise it would get destroyed by Sucker Punch if Rocks are up. Mega Metagross is a strange one; it would go for Bullet Punch at times to fail Urshifu-Single's Sucker Punch even when the latter was healthy and Urshifu-Rapid wouldn't be able to take it out.

Anyway, this is kind of a way for me to practice a little but of writing between fics XD I get to tear my brain out because of bad RNG have fun playing Pokémon while getting my word count up by a bit. I'm not sure what kind of themed runs I wanna do. Monotype is overdone, Mono-region seems the most promising but the pool is extremely vast, but whichever way the wind blows for me, I guess.

#pokemon #pokemon radical red #rom hack

[klaineccfanficlibrary]

Do you any fics with superhero and supervillain Blaine and Kurt? They can be either or. Thank you so much!

We have 56 in our Superhero!Klaine tag, and here are three wonderful verses to start you off. Enjoy! ~Lynne

All The Other Ghosts by rainjoy

It’s a big city for one more lost soul in a mask. Superhero AU.

Note: Read and download the pdf HERE or EPUB or read on LJ

Sequel: Grey on LJ or download the PDF or EPUB

Third in the verse:  Gloves and Masks [PDF]

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Fire and Ice Verse by @sunshineoptimismandangels

Blaine has a lot on his shoulders when he transfers to McKinley High, trying to get by as the new kid, hoping to join the Glee Club and of course hiding the secret that forced him to leave his last school. Blaine knows that the rest of the school year is going to be awful - until he meets the New Directions and a beautiful boy named Kurt.

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A Hero’s Hero by ItsNotEasyBeingQueen

Nightbird (aka Blaine Anderson), hero of the city, is in trouble. Fortunately, Kurt Hummel comes to his aid. A/U first meeting fic.

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Here are two where one of them is a supervillain. These were shared with the library, and I have not read them. ~Lynne

Taken Out by whatstheproblembaby

anon prompted: Klaine superhero AU meets enemies to lovers trope? One of them is a supervillain and the other is a superhero. They have had a rivalry (and sexual tension) for years, culminating in some big show-down. When it comes time for one to “off” the other, they can’t do it. Fluff ensues. They’ll figure out how to navigate the whole good versus evil thing later.

Added some Hummelberry supervillain duo-hood because why not.

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Dude We Could Be Heroes by Cloud Green

Fawkesbridge: home to dynamic duo Nightbird and Blonde Chameleon. Adored by all, they keep the streets clean and their identities secret. However, Blaine’s world turns upside down when he falls for the latest villain in town - a bank robber known as Shadow. Little does he know the boy under the Shadow’s hood may already be in his life. Comic!Heroes!Blam Misunderstood!Criminal!Kurt

#superhero!Klaine #klaine fanfic #klaine fanfiction #fic finder #supervillian!Kurt

[forabeatofadrum]

Ljubim te (19/24)

AO3 | S&C  

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ROOMY

Quinn knows Blaine better than any other person, so of course she picked up on the awkwardness.

“What was that?” Quinn asks the moment Kurt’s out of sight, “You ghosted him too?”

“Look, Quinn, I can explain.”

“You better! I have given you space, Blaine. I haven’t said anything about what happened when you ghosted me, because I do not want to push you. I want you to talk to me when you’re ready, but come on. I know you. I know when you put on a fake smile and the way you acted when we had dinner with Kurt was fake.”

When Blaine doesn’t say anything, Quinn goes on.

“And I saw you from inside of the shop. I don’t know what you two talked about, but I saw the way you looked at him.”

Fuck.

“It’s not- That was…” Blaine is looking for what to say, but Quinn didn’t specify what she saw exactly. Maybe she isn’t talking about the besotted look on Blaine’s face.

Blaine didn’t want it to happen, he swears! He was going to tell Kurt that the kiss meant nothing, but being so close to him again made his brain go mushy.

Because the kiss did mean something. Blaine wanted it. Fuck, he wants Kurt. Even while watching him leave, he couldn’t stop looking at him, because he looks so good. Blaine still wants Kurt, but he can’t have him.

“Talk to me, Blaine. What happened between you two?”

Blaine is running through excuses in his head, but Quinn is staring right into his soul. This is his girlfriend. This is his best friend. She can see through his bullshit, but Blaine can still try to lie.

He doesn’t want to lie to her, but what else can he do? He can’t be with Kurt. He’s with Quinn. That’s how it is.

Suddenly, Quinn’s eyes widen.

“Oh.”

Blaine frowns. Why does Quinn look as if she’s realised something big? She takes a step away from Blaine, but he reaches out to her.

“What?” Blaine asks, because he’s genuinely confused.

“You… and him…” Quinn says quietly.

Blaine freezes. He can feel his heart speed up and his cheeks turn red. Fuck. There is no way he can hide this reaction.

“Are you two a couple?” Quinn sounds on the verge of a breakdown.

“No!”

“Really?” her eyes fill with tears.

“I swear. We’re not- We didn’t- Well, I kissed him, but I just told him it wasn’t- It was a mistake!”

There. He said it. It was only a kiss, but he still cheated on her.

Quinn lets out a mix between a laugh and a sob and Blaine’s suddenly very aware of the fact that they’re in a public park, but Quinn is teary and he cares about her, despite everything. He can’t dwell on the people around him. He holds her hands, and she lets him.

“Quinn…”

“Do you want to be with me?” she asks and her lip trembles. Blaine feels like shit.

“Quinn-”

“Yes or no.”

The answer is no. Blaine knows the answer is no. It’s so clear to him now. He didn’t know what it was like to feel what he feels for Kurt. He didn’t know what he was missing until he met him. He’s never ever felt this way about Quinn.

He can’t deny it. He’s in love with Kurt. He’s tried to ignore it, or to play it down, or push it away, but he can’t.

The silence already says enough.

“Quinn.”

Blaine leans his forehead against her head. She doesn’t push him away. Instead, she squeezes his hands.

“Do you want to be with… him?” she asks. She sounds defeated, but not devastated. Blaine is waiting for her to fully break down, but instead she seems calmer, so he wonders if this is a trick question.

“I can’t.”

“Yes or no,” Quinn says again.

“Yes,” Blaine says without hesitation.

Quinn sucks in a breath. It’s silent for a few moments. The two of them stand together, heads resting on each other, hand in hand.

Then, Quinn surprises him by asking: “Why can’t you be with him?”

Blaine’s so taken aback that he looks up. Quinn does too and she has a determined look on her face. Blaine searches her face for a trace of sadness or resentment, but it isn’t there. And he knows her. He knows when she’s putting on a mask, the same way she can see Blaine’s.

“I just can’t.”

“Why?”

“Because… because this is how it’s supposed to be,” he says and he squeezes her hands, “This. Us. We are best friends, we have been together for over a year, we live together. I’m going to follow my dad’s footsteps, you’re going to become a CEO of your dream company and we’ll be together. We’ll get married, move to a roomy house in the suburbs and have kids.”

Quinn hangs her head.

This was their plan.

He never really gave to much thought about it. It was a good plan, and all he has to do is follow along. He and Quinn seemed fine with it.

That’s why he can’t be gay. That doesn’t fit into the picture.

Blaine remembers what Kurt said.

Blaine doesn’t mind gay people, but he minds the idea of him being gay. He can’t be. He’s had his entire life mapped out and that included a marriage with Quinn. Everyone’s always made clear that that’s what they expect. Friends, family… they are all so happy for Blaine and Quinn, so Blaine accepted it. Blaine’s life was already filled with expectations. It was easier to not think about how he constantly wanted the attention of his male best friend in middle school, or how he wondered what it was like to kiss a guy when Nick and Jeff got together in high school, or how he got distracted by one guy from his Communications class at Yale, or how he always shied away from his queer colleagues when they started talking about Pride.

There are so many things that have been buried in the back of Blaine’s memories. Blaine didn’t want to understand it.

But then he moved to Ljubljana and he let himself think about things he’s always pushed away. Because even now, when he says it out loud like this, he realises that he doesn’t want it. He doesn’t want to be with Quinn.

He’s gay.

He’s never fallen in love with Quinn. Instead, he’s fallen into this relationship with her.

But this relationship is the foundation of his life and he’s afraid of letting it shatter. He’s gay, sure, but that means that he was gay all this time and he was okay with pushing it away. He doesn’t want to be with Quinn, but they can make it work anyway.

Right?

“Blaine,” Quinn says kindly, “I think you need to follow your heart.”

“But-”

“I love you,” Quinn says, but she sounds uncertain, “I want you to be happy.”

Blaine tilts his head in confusion. What is she talking about?

“Are you breaking up with me?” he asks, afraid.

Quinn nods.

And this is what he meant.

He can feel himself go numb. It’s as if his entire life is being uprooted and cut into pieces. He’s drenched in panic, and he tightens his grip on Quinn’s hands.

“But…But…”

“Blaine, you’re not in love with me,” she says, still sounding defeated, “It’s not fair to either of us to keep this going.”

She frees herself from Blaine’s grip, so that she can cup his face. For a moment, Blaine wonders if Quinn’s going to kiss him again, just to try one last time, but she doesn’t.

“Look at me. You can agree that this isn’t right. This is not what we want. You want to be with him.”

Blaine nods. She’s right.

“I think we’ve been so stuck in the idea of what others want of us, but I think-” her breath hitches “-I think we just want to be happy.”

Blaine wants to fight her. He wants to make her see that this is a bad idea.

But he can’t think of any reasons to disagree.

“What- What happens now, Quinnie?” Blaine asks, fearfully and defeated. He’s trembling. Everything’s changed in such a small moment and he doesn’t know what to do.

“Calm down. That’s a first,” Quinn says and Blaine tries to match her demeanour. How can she be so calm and reasonable? Her life is being uprooted as well.

Quinn puts her other hand on Blaine’s face as well and together they wait for Blaine to calm down. It’s hard, but Quinn is right.

“Now, get on that bus and go after him.”

Blaine’s jaw drops to the ground.

Quinn just broke up with him and she’s telling him to go after Kurt?

What is happening?

Quinn can see the confusion across Blaine’s face, so she gives him a smile.

“It’s fine, Blaine. It really is. I lo-” she coughs, “I want you to be happy, so get going!”

She lets go of him and comedically pushes him in the direction of the bus station. Blaine’s mind is still trying to catch up with everything, but his legs start moving.

“Quinn…” he trials off. There’s so much left unsaid. He loves her, he truly does, but as a friend. That’s all that it ever was.

Quinn nods knowingly, and Blaine has her blessing.

He stops her pushing so that he can give her a big hug.

“Go,” she whispers.

And so he does. He runs towards the bus station, leaving Quinn and his old life behind. It’s terrifying. Blaine’s absolutely scared shitless, but Quinn is right.

Blaine also wants to be happy.

#klaineadvent #klaine advent 2022 #klaine advent #klaine #glee #holy fuck I wrote #2023 #multichaptered #klaine advent: roomy