#why is there so much grief

[uncanny-tranny]

Not a day goes by where I do not think about the advent of medicine like PrEP and wonder just what the people - especially queer people - who passed from HIV/AIDs during the AIDs crisis would think

And then, I read this survivor's testimony and it just makes me emotional. I think this is the closest answer we have. HIV has changed, and we must always remember the people who didn't see that change before it happened.

#gay #queer #lgbt #lgbtq #described images #image description in alt #i do try to learn from older queer people about this tome period because i wasn't around for it #but i always wondered what the people who didn't make it would have thought of where we are now #there's this weird grief and celebration because i am so glad we are where we are. i just wish everybody cpuld have seen this #this is why it's so important to learn from each other about everything #it takes a village to create community #i have been thinking about that twitter post at LEAST once a month since i first saw it #very complex feelings on this one folks #there is so much left to learn i think but this just hits me in a specific way

[merrikitten]

well my abigail hobbs hot take is that she understands alana as a shade of her mother (kind but blind, ineffectual and powerless), hannibal as a shade of her father (the monster who protects her and kills her in equal measures), and will as a mirror of herself (which is why she is repulsed and frightened by him despite all his efforts to connect with her)

#I think will feels the same way too which is why he flips out so much when he realizes the truth about her #if they could have understood and accepted each other it probably would have saved a lot of grief #hannibal nbc #abigail hobbs #will graham #hannibal lecter #alana bloom #meow posts

[kimwexlersponytail]

We are totally done with all that. Over and out. No more. Let's do it again.

McWexler in Every Season

SEASON FOUR

#bcsedit #better call saul #mcwexler #jimmy x kim #kim wexler #jimmy mcgill #season four warriors make some noise!!!! why is this the most underrated season in herstory like.... #it literally laid the groundwork for everything!!!!!! i love this season so much the mcwexler was sooo good #they had everything...the drama the romance the highest highs the lowest lows the inner turmoil the grief helloo!!! #third gif is so uglie but i had to include it bc look at how cute they were :(( #mcwes #mine

[arthursfuckinghat]

Say what you want about Mary, but nothing makes my heart ache for Arthur more than how fucking much they loved eachother and how much they knew it would never work.

Meeting Mary the second time, she absolutely lit up seeing that Arthur actually came to help her again. Even despite the rough circumstances with her father, they both went and had a wonderful evening at the theatre.

Mary had no idea that would be the last time she'd ever see Arthur alive again.

#and she didn't even say goodbye to him at the trolley #the last letter she wrote to him was about moving on and gave back the ring arthur gave her #I can't even imagine how much the guilt and grief ate at her for that #oh mary arthur loved you so much #he had a dysfunctional family just like you why couldn't you both see that #oh man #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #mick thinks #arthur morgan #mary linton #mary gillis #red dead redemption 2 spoilers #she probably wanted it to be the last time they'd meet because she wanted to move on #but how was she to know #how was she to know she would never see those blue eyes again

[scatterbrainedbot]

Hello :D

You're so cool

Anyway have you thought that in your rat sons au Splinter might outlive the boys?

You're very cool :D love your stuff dude

(tw for some blood, light gore, implied overdose (kinda??))

hi copper!!! this is a fantastic question!

so obviously typical irl rats have far shorter lifespans than the average irl tortoise. according to google (yes, be awed by my spectacularly in-depth wealth of research) the average pet rat lives between 2-4 years ish, and the oldest on record lived to be about 7. meanwhile, an African spurred tortoise (Splinter's species) averages more around a 50ish year lifespan in captivity, tho is suspected to possibly exceed 75 or more in the wild.

Now, the mutation does give us a lot of wiggle room for playing with these numbers. For the rat sons boys, id say their natural lifespan probably clocks in at about 45-55 years old? definitely not old by human standards, but not young young either. (though, its also important to note that the boys were exposed to the mutagen just days after being born.)

For Splinter, meanwhile, aging is slightly more complicated. He lived the vast majority of his life as a regular normal African spurred tortoise (well, non-mutated at least. there were perhaps some shenanigans of a more mystical variety going on before he was mutated, but thats a separate matter) He was about 70ish i think? when the boys were born and they were all exposed to the mutagen. so he is already distinctly an old man turtle papa. id guess he'd probably still have another eh lets say 25-30 years after his mutation. he could probably push it a little farther even with some mystic nonsense, but when push comes to shove id say his 'natural' post-mutation lifespan would put his death like a solid decade or two before his sons.

of course, the tricky part of the matter is that theres no way for Splinter to know any of this. theres no way for him to know how the mutation affected them all, or if it even affected them all in the same way. especially since the boys dont show many physical signs of mutation for the first few years, and just kinda look like normal rats, (albeit with a more human sort of intelligence) — what sort of health standard do you hold them to? what if they simply dont show external signs of sickness or old age anymore? how do you actually know if something is wrong?

for a while there Splinter is very worried that one of his babies will just essentially reach the end of their normal rat lifespan, fall and not get up again.

so mostly, he just tries to live in the moment, enjoying whatever time he does have with his little ones, taking each day as a gift <3

still,

that fear

never

really

goes

away.....

#cue the 2003 tmnt dramatic Shredder sound effect TM #my art #rat sons #tmnt au #ask reply #TOOK ME A FULL MONTH TO ANSWER AND IM STILL NOT SUPER PLEASED WITH THE RESULTS BUT #also apologies if shits incohierent im v sick rn #but thank you so much for the question copper!! #a parents grief and terror at the thought of outliving their children #always gets me #and boy howdy these rat babies do Not make that shit easy for ol Splinter #all of them have brushed too close to death too many times #tbh thats probably why he started teaching them ninjutsu etc #like yeah yeah discpline and routine and practice all excellent lessons #but also #yall squishy babies and ur father is Stressed please learn to fight good so its one less thing he has to worry about #sorry splints theyre hamatos now theyre destined for danger #cw blood #cw gore

[longelk]

did you know kaycee's username on ebay is "Leshys_Gurl", we see from luke carders emails on the official inscryption site

just learned this and thought you should know, im in shock

WHY DID I ONLY LEARN THIS LIFECHANGING PIECE OF KAYCEE LORE JUST NOW OH MY GOD

#I FEEL LIKE IM GOING TO DIE THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR LETTING ME KNOW #GIRL WHATS WRONG WITH YOU #sjdfhsdfsdffdhgdfhiohvofdvj9dug903r900f9 s00cmu0us0f #ask #kaycee hobbes #inscryption #im maintagging this everyone needs to know her fucking bymbo ebay username #good fucking grief i need to lay down #ive surprisingly never went to the inscryption website despite knowing about it forever #i went there to confirm this is real. luke bought a legendaria pack from her #also why the fuck was she alive in 2021 did she not die years before #mf selling card packs off ebay as a gost. god shes so fucking lame

[zabiume]

the genuine horror and tragedy of early orihime's storyline is that, when a loved one dies, we all comfort ourselves with blanket statements about what they would have wanted for us by saying "they would've wanted us to be happy" / "they would have wanted us to move on" and we try to make meaningful lives for ourselves because that's what they would have liked for us (even if we ourselves feel like the world has stopped in their absence). so much of post-grief behavior is performative, trying to convince people you're fine and you're okay and you're moving on, and this is doubly so for orihime, who doesn't know much about the afterlife yet and is convinced she's got to put on a believable enough performance for her brother so he won't worry about her.

and most of us will never know or see if we grieved our loved ones right or not, but for orihime, the curtain is ripped apart and it turns out her performance is too good, her brother actually believes it's real and he lambasts her for grieving him the wrong way. of course, it's his hollow that's turned him to be selfish and possessive, but it couldn't have been easy for orihime to have been telling herself "i just have to smile for him, i just have to push through for him" only for him to go: why are you smiling? why are you pushing through? i'm dead. to make matters worse, he adds that he's lived his whole life for her, which is such an insurmountable guilt for her to bear and such a messed up thing to hear from a caretaker at such a young age!!!

#i know they reconcile later because of ichigo but god i cant imagine my dead loved ones coming back to tell me i didnt grieve them right #it would hurt soooo bad orihime my baby :( #this is why i loved the bruce-jason plotline too because jason gives bruce so much shit for not responding w the kind of grief he expected #when bruce was just grieving him and grieving him and grieving him. for YEARS. #this kind of angst is the one that gets me so good ngl it hurts in ways i love to think about #tw grief #orihime inoue #the absolute devastation is that not six months later‚ she has to see ichigo like that too. orihime was really going through it

[nyaaamato]

bad omens

#rin nohara #team minato #naruto #my art #URGH hi first art post... #i've had such big feelings about rin lately #specifically about the really haunted... distant way she expressed grief and resolution post kanabi bridge and in the moments before she di #d #<- lol the disrespect #it just keeps hitting me how seriously conditioned this generation was into not expressing/identifying with fear #and how reaching adulthood must have felt like such an impossible ordeal #crazy to think how few of the genin from this group ever made it past chunnin... #idk #i feel like she must have heard the death bells tolling for months after obito's death #(which would explain why she seems to grow up so suddenly... and kakashi sort of stagnates like he hasn't even begun to process it) #ARGHHHH i don't know there's too much to write #in like tags #i'm just kind of nuts about her

[yeyinde]

i need this moment to happen again but with True Form Sukuna

#this is why he has madddddddd grief w a teenager #man got hit w the sacred hands no jutsu and hasn't recovered since #sukuna #this was honestly so cold of Yuuji too the absolute disrespect of punching a man in his own domain is unrivalled by anything else #ryomen sukuna #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk gifs #yuuji itadori #he was so himbokuna this episode w all his goofy expressions love it so much need more trollkuna #my gifs #sukuna gifs #yuuji and sukuna #i hate tagging stuff #jjk anime #fml what elseeeeee #ju jutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen gif #sukuna jjk #yuuji jjk

[pinazee]

Erica probably has the healthiest coping of the 3 though. Chapel just keeps it all inside and M’Benga does a little recreational murder. Gotta vent that stuff out babes.

#ortegas once again proving why shes the best #i love her so much #and I sincerely wish melissa all the best dealing with her grief #that shit will consume you #star trek #star trek strange new worlds #strange new worlds #snw #lieutenant erica ortegas #erica ortegas #melissa navia #chapel #nurse chapel #jess bush #m’benga #doctor m’benga #babs olusanmokun

[giftedeath]

surprise is such a good episode for the vampire crowd like it rly takes the season one, half - baked soul lore of ' its a demon and it takes ur body but ur not really the human version of yourself thats dead ' and sort of puts that idea in a box and shakes it up bc the judge's first words to spike and dru are "u two stink of humanity u share AFFECTION 🥺 and jealousy" but then meets angelus and is like oh yeah .. there's not a spec of humanity on this one and to me .. to me ... that's just chefs kiss like what makes them different ? and like its LOVE 🥺

#this does have smthn to do w buffy and that #the vampire she surrounds herself in season 5 is spike who is ruled by this emotion #meanwhile she struggles w this ... feels like she can't feel it anymore #cant say it as easily / is calcifying .. seen too much done too much but hes there like #i literally am in love w u #and hes tried to kill her on multiple occasions but it takes CRUSH and his love confession for her to be like ... yeah uh stay away freak #DEFLECT DENY DEFLECT DENY #AND THEN its just AMPED up in season 6 #season 2 rewatch is rotting my brain in the very best way thank u <3 #why are you full of rage ? / because you are full of grief › meta. #spuffy / #like season 2 is so good but w season 5 + 6 it just makes it BETTER

[ghost-bxrd]

I love love love Owl Song, will Cass and the rest of the Batkids appear? And if so, when and how? Bc I want to see Cass and Dick nonverbally bonding ✨

Well, as of now Owl Song is still on track to end with Ethiopia so, probably not >.<

Although I think Dick would be very unnerved by Cass at first. He’s not used to humans being so quiet and communicating with body language alone, so he (rightfully) clocks her as a potential threat at first. Cass obviously recognizes this and would deliberately put herself into situations where she’s vulnerable and Dick would have a very easy time to injure her (similarly to how puppies expose their bellies to other dogs in a “I’m not a threat please accept me as pack” kind of way).

Eventually Dick would relax a little and watch closely if she’s just as docile around his other (squishy) family members. Once he’d ascertain that she’s no threat to any of them he’d tentatively allow her closer to the nest, and after a few days invite her inside for obligatory cuddle sessions by giving her a first coo (opposed to the wary hoots and chitters of before).

Cass fits herself so carefully inside the nest Dick gets impatient and just pulls her into the pile of limbs with a huff.

Dick feels a bit bad about not inviting her earlier because she’s radiating such unbridled joy-soft-love-content-gratefulness he doesn’t know how he could ever assume she’d hurt them. She’s as much a protector as he is.

#Cass would communicate more with head tilts and subtle movements than bird calls #so her and dick still have a bit of a rough start #but they both read body language like champs so there’s that #still dick knows she’s a skilled assassin #they wouldn’t get along right away #after Jason dick is much too paranoid to allow any kind of threat near his family #or what’s left of it anyway #Cass only ever sees sad-grief-protective-love-despair when she looks at him #and she doesn’t know why but it’s so acute she grieves with him #he’s so scared she’ll hurt his family #but she won’t #and if dick needs to hurt her to see that she’ll allow it #dick doesn’t of course #but it takes a bit for him to trust Cass #and realize she’ll protect the family just as fiercely as him #Cass asserts herself as the oldest sister #she’ll protect him just as fiercely as he does them #batfamily #dick grayson #batfam #bruce wayne #robin #jason todd #tim drake #cassandra cain #owl song

[sunshinediaz]

tease tidbit tuesday 🫧

hi friends, i'm procrastinating doing my fema courses in favor of watching season 4 <3 have a lil bit of eddie vs the hoa

It’s just—Buck is big and it kind of drives Eddie a little crazy.  Like? God, okay. He’s a little stupid over it. You’ll have to forgive him.  He is so big, right, larger than Eddie and Eddie isn’t a small guy. He’s filled out since finishing his probationary year, settling in his career and getting comfortable in the life he chose for himself and Chris. He’s more functional muscle than big gains; his stomach’s soft, protected by a sweet layer of fat, but his core’s solid and his arms are twice the size they used to be when he was twenty-seven.  See? He isn’t small.  But, like, Buck’s just bigger, wider and broader and thicker, and there’s something so delicious about having somebody that large at his mercy, at his every beck and call. Buck has this quality about him, no matter his size, like he’s always ready to drop to his knees and let himself be taken care of, and it has Eddie’s head buzzing in a way that most definitely isn’t from the beer. 

tagged by @wikiangela, @jeeyuns, @devirnis, @disasterbuckdiaz, and @daffi-990 <3

tagging @spagheddiediaz, @puppyboybuckley, @evanbegins, @honestlydarkprincess, @exhuastedpigeon, @thewolvesof1998, @theotherbuckley, and @monsterrae1 if any of you wanna share!

#i've got 4 tests to take/procedures to read #and you know what? watching jinx eddie is one of my favorites but i don't think we talk about bobby and eddie's dynamic enough #what the fuck do you MEAN mr eddie told bobby word for word 'i'm not over her' in reference to shannon when they were #discussing ana and then a few episodes later eddie has a panic attack because somebody assumed ana was his wife? #eddie's story with grief (over shannon and himself together and separate) is so quiet and so glorious and so beautiful #i can't get over it? he loved shannon so much and god. GOD. he tried to move on and he wasn't ready but he had fun #he had so much fun with ana until it wasn't anymore and then. and then GOD. GOD? #i'm gonna have a little fit if i'm not fuckin careful? #and the way eddie's like 'you of all people should understand' and bobby's like 'i do that's why i'm telling you' #the bobby and eddie parallels here my god :) #also buck running and falling after brian the impersonator is never not going to make me laugh #mwah #tag games

[whumpfish]

I know International Whump Day is Daniel Jackson's birthday, and that's fair. But I would like to propose a National Whump Day on September 15th in honor of absolute whump icon Jason Todd, the single most whumped character in DC canon, to commemorate the time they did this

...resulting in the penultimate canonical Bad End Whump scene of all time.

Come on. It's the least this guy deserves.

#whump community #whump #whump scenario #whump prompt #whump tropes #whumpee #whumpblr #batman #red hood #jason todd #why do they hate him so much 😂 #dude is a full-time whumperfly generator #gotham war #a death in the family #good grief #in every sense of the word #can i count this as a voltober thing #idk #vtb-alterno.5 #dead girls

[joyflameball]

What in the goddamn did they put in Don't Starve to weave so much grief throughout it. I know I've posted about this before but I can't shut up about it. There's so much grief permeating so much of it, so many characters. Grief in the loss of a loved one. Grief in the loss of home. Grief in the loss of yourself. I'm gonna throw up

#cassie rambles #dst #don't starve #i'm serious when i say the grief is everywhere #you could run into it out of nowhere. but you'll run into it. it's unavoidable. #there's grief with charlie. in the loss of who she was #in how winona came to the constant to find a dead woman. one who's just a flicker of who she was. who can never become her past self again. #in how wx destroyed their past self lost their friendship with wagstaff and hated feeling about it so much they tried to destroy that too #and they couldn't. they clearly couldn't. #there's grief in wendy with how she lost her beloved sister and fell into horrifyingly and heartbreakingly deep depths of depression #grief with webber losing his family because he wanted their attention #grief with wigfrid losing herself because nobody wanted her until she was the valkyrie #grief in how warly just wanted his mother to remember him. and now he'll most likely never see her again. she won't even remember his name #grief in maxwell. in how he destroyed his past self because of his desire for power. in how that power started to destroy him too. #and in how that power imprisoned and tormented both him and his love. changing them both forever. #I'M GONNA EAT GLASS #THIS IS THE SAME GAME WHERE THE MAIN CHARACTER SAYS LINES LIKE ''LOOKS LIKE YOU'VE GONE FROM DAPPER TO SLAPPER'' WHY IS IT MAKING ME SO SAD

[pitske]

ROTZBACKE! HAKENZAHN! OI! OI! OI!

#I know some people will disagree with me here and that is totally okay : #I grew up watching httyd and I absolutely prefer the german version over the og (which doesn't happen often) #I think it is so undeniably better in my opinion because it 1) is what I am used to #and 2) because I'm a northern german and the way they talk seems so close to home its just nice- #um's auf gut deutsch zu sagen: die hamburgern so schön /lh #of course in my family we mostly speak like that for emphasis or whatever but I JUST AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I LOVE IT SO MUCH #I can speak along with the movie in its entirety in german I just-only piece of media that had more of an impact on my life than Undertale #I will say I am sadly not a third movie enjoyer. I'm sorry I just didn't like it very much but I respect the people who do #I also have only watched it once while I've watched rtte like... idk 3 times? #also finally getting to the drawing- I LOVE SNOTLOUT AND HOOKFANG SO MUCCH #also Rotzbacke's Synchronsprecher is just so damn funny- #oh btw Planzin and Tectco watched me go through the five stages of grief when I realized the reason why angel dust sounded so familiar #in the german dub was because the voice actor is the same guy who voice acts fishlegs in german #pitske’s art #pitskederdoenerhaendler #so much shit going down guys I need to draw the entire dragon rider crew #httyd fanart #httyd #snotlout #snotlout jorgenson #hookfang #how to train your dragon