Please my physical therapist has spent the last 2+ months teaching me how to walk. And yesterday she told me “why are you going so fast? I’m gonna have to catch up to you!” And my only response was “I have long legs, they have a mind of their own”
I didn’t even realise how long my stride was until people kept pointing it out. When walking with my best friend (before I became temporarily paralysed) he would constant have to pull me back cause I’d just walk half a mile in front of him on accidentally. It’s worse when I’m listening to music, I swear I break out into a full zombie like sprint. I can’t wait until my legs are back up to full potential, nobody is ever going to catch up to me ever again 😈
incredibly important amnesia the bunker information
okay so the settings have framerate caps of 15, 30 and 60 (which is based as hell i dislike people who want more than 60fps in every game)
there's an option under it called 'smooth framerate', which ensures the game will always run at 60fps no matter what, even if it has to alter the game speed. usually this means slowing gameplay down if you have a lag spike, but if i cap the framerate below 60 then tick that box...
it quadruples the game speed thank you frictional games
I'm so proud of myself about finances in the past couple months. I still struggle with money but I did enough meditation and journaling and practicing about it to make myself able to actually face my loans and credit cards and savings and bills and start really truly organizing and addressing them for the first time in years instead of just flying by the seat of my pants.
Like. This is a huge deal for me. I've felt like I'm in deadly danger every time I've tried to think about money for years and years. I'm finally able to look it in the face and stare it down and start to organize and plan on purpose instead of just keeping up with the minimum to stay afloat. I'm so proud of myself.
It's still a refrain of "GUILT (funny link)" every time I think about money but I'm able to actually make spreadsheets and face the numbers and monthly tracking again, and even make a new full budget which I haven't been able to do in ages.
still feel guilt, overwhelm, and helplessness, but no longer feel as much deep elemental shame and terror. that's progress baby
yes! it was a kind of medieval au where minho and felix were princes of a kingdom but their father died and left their stepmother on the throne; she immediately implicated minho in his father's death to get him exiled, and locked felix away in a tower 'for his own safety' so that she could have longer on the throne. the vague plot of the au was felix getting kidnapped by rebels pushing against the new queen's tyranny (led by chan) and minho desperately going after him with a loyal palace guard (changbin) in tow. as they go they obviously end up collecting a band of rebels and nobles (VIXX and Dreamcatcher were all nobles in the kingdom because I Love Them) who are loyal to the true king and taking back the throne in minho's name.
the ships were:
minbin: all the drama of minho being exiled royalty and changbin not wanting to fall for him because he doesn't think a commoner could marry the king - but maybe if minho never takes the throne they could be together (even though that feels like an awful thing to want)?
chanlix: chan does literally kidnap felix out of his tower but it's basically just because he thinks it's the best way to prove to the queen what they can do; and once he realises that the younger prince is actually kind and sweet and fiercely determined to help people he falls very fast and very hard.
hyunsung: hyunjin is one of chan's rebels, and jisung is the sole servant felix was permitted to have at his side. he refuses to let felix get kidnapped without him, and becomes very nervous of felix's growing relationship with chan. hyunjin tries to stop him getting in the way, and also trains him up to be something of a fighter. they argue a lot until they don't.
seungin: jeongin is another one of chan's rebels who gets caught during felix's kidnapping. he's subjected to some fairly awful treatment, and seungmin is the one palace servant who tries to make sure he's ok, sneaking in extra food or medicine to jeongin's cell where he can. he eventually manages to set jeongin free, and they leave the palace together to seek out chan and felix.
i think that's all i remember? it had fun vibes but it was going to be HUGE so i just never found the time/energy to commit to it as a project <3
It’s always funny to me when I have the same reactions as Dante and I never feel closer to them than when I am just playing with my vision of this weird reunion of outcasts as a big and loveable found family, only to see that vision crumbled down and challenged every canto by a sinner or Vergilius who exclaims loud and clear and often vehemently that it will never be anything more than a employer / employee relationship.
At those moments I react exactly like Dante when they are like: « Maybe I am the only one who thought we were sharing something together ? Maybe all the sinners are only here for their own goals ? Maybe they would never want to make an effort to create a meaninful relationship between each others ? Was I a fool to believe that this was the start of a friendship … that we could have developpe a bond more or less deep, a feeling of belonging … that we could have been a family. »
First there is the pain of having your hopes shattered but then that doesn’t stop us to continue hoping for it to happen.