#whyrosewhy

[lostfae]

y'all really out here huh

#lapidot car said gay rights #lapidot #steven universe #lapis #lapis lazuli #peridot #whyrosewhy #but seriously i was getting groceries and????

[haisepunmaster]

Imagine non-binary magical girls though

#yes please #i kinda headcannon Homura as a demigirl #i just want non-binary magical girls #like some would be cool with being called a magical girl but some might prefer like magical being or a totally different badass title #whyrosewhy

[lostfae]

quarantine depression has me feeling like there's no point in being alive 🙃

#im sad #and lonely #and depressed #and i cannot get a therapist for at least another month #:( #whyrosewhy

[lostfae]

you know its probably a good thing that im too afraid to drive because otherwise id be long gone right now.

#whyrosewhy

[lostfae]

kinda feeling like dy*ng rn tbh

#whyrosewhy #its fine #just a rough patch #i hate school #i need affection #i hate everything #living is painful #im so edgy rn but whatever #i just lost my only emotional support for the next two weeks so #fuck covid

[lostfae]

I need a therapist tbh

#its 430am and i have been crying 😎😎😎 #whyrosewhy

[lostfae]

oops the night for me to cry finally came

#could only hold it back for so long #whyrosewhy #but i need to hold it back for longer

[lostfae]

THE FACT THAT I DONT OWN PINK OVERALLS IS PEAK HOMOPHOBIA

#whyrosewhy #wait im an adult who can purchase things... #and im sad.... #🤔

[lostfae]

oh fuck i just realized that i can say almost whatever i want here and thats pretty cool

#whyrosewhy #olay so theres a girl that i kind of like but she lives on the west coast and im currently in italy and live on the east coast so :/ #were not that close now but i wanna get closer to her but im bad and building friendships #and im not sure how close we could get #but we havent had an actual long convo just the two of us yet #but shes really cute and seems cool and likes a lot of the things i do and is also lesbian who wants a gf #also it would be a bit weird because how i know her is through my ex cause theyre friends #and also idk i might be just really lonely #theres also another girl i like but that shit be kind of difficult #its hard being abroad but also craving romance #everyone is too far away and i want something serious #so dating here wouldnt be a good idea #jdjsjesjwjjweueidjjdjejduejwjsjjesi #shits confusing #the other girl i really dont know if i have a shot with or if were that compatible but she is cute af and also want gf but jswkkqjsjsjsk #and long distance would still be an issue!!!! #sucks #okay ciao!

[lostfae]

too sad to sleep too sad to stay awake

#whyrosewhy

[lostfae]

uwu life sucks im getting sent back to the USA and i've been up for 22 hours

#whyrosewhy #duakajjdjwkqowso #im sad

[lostfae]

I love winter but it's also e v i l

#fukc this #where THE HECK is my seratonin?!? #every summer im like? depression who???? #and then the sun goes away and im like shocked pikachu face #i really wish my brain would just work right!!!!!!!! #and its like i just wanna be happy bro #but im just stressed and depressed and anxious so #i just wanna be held or something okay #its homophobic that i have to get out of bed and go do stuff now #whyrosewhy #seriously though kinda wish i had medication or something cause i just feel awful and in my experience its not gonna get better for a while

[lostfae]

sometimes being in a mood fucking sucks i need to go to bed!!!!

#whyrosewhy #ive been in a mood #people are complicated #and im complicated #kind of wish i had anybody to get advice from but im kind of in too deep now and it would require the kind of trust i cant afford to give #so ima try and manage for now

[lostfae]

so instead of doing my homework i’ve been being sad and scrolling my old personal posts like one does and I’ve literally made a post about seasonal depression each year during the first week of november for the past 3 years. Like my brain may be a bitch but at least she’s consistent! 

#also yes i am still listening to mitski #I should do my homework so I don't feel worse about myself #hmmmm #whyrosewhy

[lostfae]

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#todays mood is AAA #i need to scream im overwhelmed and the one thing i was looking forward to was just brutally ripped from my hands #why is being gay and a functioning student/human being so damn hard #i hate this i just need freedom #whyrosewhy

[lostfae]

Fuck Trump :)

#arent there already enough tensions with the middle east? #just stfu boy #and stop being evil #whyrosewhy