#with my medical bills yk

[iwatcheditbegin]

i'm so sorry you're about to lose ur job. it's really unfair and it SUCKS. i'm sending love and strength <3

I’m just now seeing this, thanks for the kind words. It sucks, especially considering I was granted medical leave for ED treatment and they are saying it’s excessive absences. But thankfully I’m in a position where I don’t need to stress too much about that. I’ve got a place to stay so rn I’m just doing my best to focus on treatment.

#the reason Is shitty #but yk I don’t want to work for a company like that anyway #idk how it’s legal but there’s loopholes for everything #I guess this is common tho when medical treatment keeps you away for a few months #I was already back at my mom’s house for safety reasons anyway #and I don’t have many bills to pay rn #I don’t think I’ll have too many issues getting another job

[thebibliosphere]

as an aspiring writer its crazy to hear you talk about it because i wish i could write 5k per day or 100k per week only on emails holy shit???? i know its bad and being a workaholic is bad but it sorta feels like one of those things you have to do if you want to be successful these days? i might be wrong im literally only 22 i dont know much but its how it feels yknow?

like my life plan, which i know is unhealthy, is "lets work ourselves to the bone and get successful and then use the money to recover from it" which is sooooo dumb to say out loud but it feels like the only way to get anywhere yk?

While there is a lot of pressure to constantly create more and to keep up a stream of creative output, the reality is that for many people, that rate of work is just not sustainable, and you'll burn out, and it won't be worth it. The money you earn isn't enough to recover from and keep living after. It's just not.

Most of the money I made from Hunger Pangs all goes to therapy and medical bills. If I'd worked at a more sane pace and not almost killed myself with it, I could have, idk... gone on vacation instead.

Like, I'm not doing myself any favors in terms of marketability and the sales algorithm by not having new work out every year, but also like... I just can't do it. I want to make art and live. Not die trying.

[the-dumpster-fire-of-life]

Hiiiii, keep up the good work you feeding us so well mama<3

i was thinking about Bill or Tom (you choose) x a motherly reader ? Not in a weird way but in a mom friend way ? Like reader cooks/bakes for their bf, they're good medics, always have anything anyone could need at any moment in their bag (chapstick, water, snack, brush, etc..), they just love their bf sm and loves taking care of them and sometimes likes to baby them<3

(hi! Sorry this took so long and they may suck but I just decided to go with bill for now, hope that's okay! Enjoy!)

Bill Kaulitz x Motherly Reader

He would feel so safe man

You're just so comforting somehow

He'd be happy to see that you made him food

Especially if you baked for him

He'd be so happy

He'd refuse to eat if you didn't eat with him though

He'd cook or bake you something in return

He's not the best cook but he tries to bake

Even if it's not the best he tried

And you're such a good caretaker oml

He once cut himself pretty bad, I don't know how, during a set on stage and started bleeding

It was probably on his outfit

Yk the one he performed in with spikes all over it?

That one

Didn't even notice it until between songs your ass came running with a fucking bandaid and hydrogen peroxide

Was forced to sit as you patched it up all quick

Gave him a kiss and kissed his cut before you hauled ass off stage

You did it in under two minutes before the next song and he was so confused on how you did that so quickly

It's just the motherly instinct in you somehow he doesn't know

He is constantly missing stuff

Forgetful sometimes

But you somehow have EVERYTHING

Anything.

Whatever the hell he needs you pull it out of your never ending backpack of heaven

Will just watch as you pull possibly anything from your bag

"I forgot my-" 

Somehow it is already in his hand before he can finish the sentence

It's like magic 

He just stares between you and the item before smiling

Damn, he did find the one for his dumbass!

He probably gets sick easily I feel like at times

And when you care for him?

Oh my god he feels like he's already better even if he could be dying

Just wants to be cared for man

And sometimes he's tired and overwhelmed

From everything and just wants to be comfortable and happy for a bit

And you baby him sometimes, and your hugs are so comforting

He acts like a child once you hug him and he just feels overwhelmed

May sniffle a bit but bro he is hugging onto you for dear life

Especially if it was after a hard day

Will probably be held by you like a baby for a little bit

His arms around your neck and his legs around your waist as you're forced to carry him around

He is a full on child in a grown body

He can't help it man! You just are so welcoming to him and he just wants to be held

The motherly friend to the group but most of all to Bill

Sometimes he just wants to be held or have someone run their hands through his hair and to be comfortable

And you're the whole package!

Is not letting go.

#tokio hotel imagine #tokio hotel x reader #tokio hotel #bill kaulitz imagines #bill kaulitz #bill kaulitz x reader #bill

[griffin-black]

Toby *unprompted*: Yeah, my step dad was abusive. Tim & Brian: . . . Toby: And my mother didn't even want me. T&B: . . . Toby: They actually left me for dead when I was like seven lol. T&B: . . . Toby: Because I was too expensive to keep alive. Medical bills, haha. T&B: . . . Toby: I was also bullied in school, beaten everyday. T&B: . . . Toby: I also can't feel pain and needed to be in a hospital 24/7, but yk, my parents didn't want me alive so- I didn't. Toby: I also developed tourette's around the same time they left me to die too. Tim: Toby, are you-- Toby: And my sister died. And I was stalked by this tall looking thing all my life, it would torture me and speak to me and manipulate my thoughts. I don't even know if my own thoughts are my own anymore. T&B: . . . Toby: I also killed my stepdad and like six other teenagers and set my house on fire that night lol. T&B: . . . Toby: . . . Toby: Haha! Toby: I'm just /jk. T&B: BUt- all of that is true- Toby: /lh, /sarcasm, /funny, /untrue-- T&B: . . . Toby: /lying, /i'm a chronic liar, /haha this is funny, /please help me

#incorrect quotes #creepypasta #marble hornets #the proxies #slenderman #masky #hoody #ticci toby #toby rogers #brian thomas #timothy wright #/lh #/jk #/lol

[starrycassi]

I was talking with a friend about buying earrings, then the conversation went to our poor money management, and then;

Neil as an

✨ accountant ✨

Idk if for the foxes OR the raven

Let's do ravens first because I clearly have a serious favoritism over Raven!Neil out of all aus

Yes this could be serious HOWEVER I feel like doing silly little things

Kevin "Oh yeah ! My skin in naturally like this, I guess that all that exercise really keeps the acne away" Day vs Neil "I'm the one that has to order your five-step skin care rutin with like ten fucking different products just shut up already "

Neil is the one in charge of the diet. As a punishment, he gets the ravens a lot of fast food

"Oh you want to be the best? Well, play with sugar induced energy and nothing but that this week. YES SANDOVAL THIS IS BECAUSE OF YOU AND YOUR POOR PERFORMANCE. EVERYONE FUCKING CLAP AT HER"

He's a player too but no one is quite sure of how's captain, either him or riko

Riko "we are engaging in a all sea food diet this month to experiment with omega 3 and-"

Neil "No, we aren't. If you do that the only thing we'll be experimenting is a shortage on the amount of money the little lord allows to use in food and I am SO not about to start balancing everything out AGAIN. You can stick to the normal food and have sushi like at weekends"

Neil is also the accountant of his father's business so he's quite important for Ichiro, yk

What I'm saying is: Ichiro and Neil brother-ish relationship is everything I do because I love THEM.

Ichiro calls Neil like one day after Riko turned sixteen and goes "Do we have enough money to buy him a car?"

Of fucking course they do but Ichiro enjoys putting the boys against each other because life is hard kiddos.

Neil sighs very loudly and answers "We can afford the car. What we can't afford is having him crash it around time and time again so he first needs driving lessons"

Riko's right there the whole conversation.

So basically, Riko and Neil have the same power but not the same "assignments"

Because Neil can be a fucking figth-starter but he's also really good at maths

Riko is crazy. Plainly and simple (no it's not so simple I want to analize him around like a piece of broken glass)

Jean "Nat, I need new clothes for the upcoming banquet"

Neil "No the fuck you don't. You need some sewing classes and that's all"

He's so done half the time

"KEVIN AND DEREK, STOP SLAMMING EACH OTHER AGAINST THE WALL IN THIS INSTANT. YOU HAVE BIG DICK'S WE GET IT. THOSE HELMETS ARE NEW. IF YOU WANT TO DO THAT, TAKE THE FUCKING HELMET OF AND KILL EACH OTHER ALREADY I'LL BE CHEAPER TO FIND TWO NEW PLAYERS THAN TWO NEW HELMETS BIG ENOUGH TO FIT INTO THOSE HEAD OF YOURS"

"... we're going to stop right now—"

Neil, very late at night, broke into Kevin and Riko's room with a coffee on hands: "Riko. Riko, I don't care about your bullshit. No, look at my face, do I look like I give a fuck? 'cause I don't. Stop fucking torturing the god-damn players. The medical bill is almost as high as the other ones fucking mixed. I understand you have some weird fetishes and such but keep them out of the fucking court"

Riko, still half asleep: "It's about showing power, ownership, punishment, it's about control and-"

Neil, now wishing he was dead: "I'm sure your brother will be happy knowing that you're damaging the property of the Main Branch because you want to get a boner. Find some good porn and stop making this so weird. Good night Kevin, I hope you have some good earphones

Neil, 3 am, should be asleep but Jean is having a moment ™ because of his claustrophobia: "Ichiro this is ridiculous. We are not going to paint everything black AGAIN. It makes us need more AC money because it's so fucking hot in here. It's also such a weird color to find and so fucking pricey and for WHAT? it makes no sense to have it everywhere. It looks good on a suit not in the whole fucking room"

Ichiro, 3:30 am, should be asleep but his little brother is having a moment ™ of ranting because of some stupid color: "But do you understand that I don't even care about that? Talk with Kengo or something. Don't call me at this hours again unless someone is dying or I'll cut your throat open"

The idea is just so funny to me

"Nat, can we have for dinner some-" "Absolutely not. I don't know what you want but no. I refuse to. I saw your credit card score last month. So many lube and condoms, now go eat that shit if you're so hungry.

"Nat there's a man with a gun searching for u in the university saying that he's your faithful servant" "...shit, I confused my address and my dad's again"

"Why are there so many different dresses in my doorstep on a box, Junior?" "Why are there so many different knives on a package for you, nat?" "I really need to get better with addresses"

#should I continue this? probably #i Always get idea like .5 seconds before going to sleep #aftg #aftg au #raven!neil #aftg and my insomnia #I'll do the foxes some day #i guess

[landotheartist]

So Barnaby, I'm taking my kid to someone's party at a roller rink and I need to learn to skate so she will learn to skate and just a heads up I'm going to try and you might have to pay my medical bills again

Just don't skate- you can watch yk

[thatskindasapphic]

Trying to build savings in this economy is fucking impossible. Like if its not groceries its rent or car payments or school or phone bills or vet appointments or the dentist or medication etc etc so my savings acct takes forever to make any progress. And then because all of my income is going to yk. Life. If I actually want anything non-essential like clothes, a video game, a book, a cool piece of art, etc I have to dip into my savings for it and it makes me feel guilty so I don't ever indulge. And like at this point what am I even saving for? The average cost of a house in my country is like what. $700,000 or more? I'm never going to have a job with an income that would qualify me for a mortage like that. So whats the point of saving anyways?? Ok I'm sorry for being pessimistic its ok everything will be fine. Rant over

#h talks #like I have insurance but does the insurance cover 100% of costs? fuck no #I have two senior dogs with health issues so like all of my money goes to them #and its just so tiring cause I can't really work any more? I'm already burnt out and in debilitating pain as it is #I have my one job and then respite work but its not like the respite is super consistent? #and its just like ok realistically I might never have a partner so I won't have anyone to split the cost of a house with like other ppl do #Just. UGHHHH #I need to get my eyeglass prescription updated but I just know its going to be so fucking expensive so I've been holding off on it #and the only reason I have any savings to begin with is because I was working all through high school . I got a head start #and like if its bad for me how bad is it for everyone else who isn't as privileged yk? #if any of you tell me to invest I'll attack you. no fucking way am I touching the stock market #I have to take a look into gov subsidy and see if I qualify #like I live at home and still have all these expenses. plus the living here is its own expense on my health #I have friends who live at home who don't have pay rent or groceries or anything AND they have good parents. god I wish that were me #OK RANT OVER IM DONE BEING VULNERABLE

[unchatonnoir]

Dont take my word for it, but ill be hopefully streaming games soon and maybe posting gameplays to YouTube, so we will see lol.

It really just depends on how good those black Friday sales end up being tbh

#i need to buy a gaming pc and the needed accessories #but other than that im good bc im not getting a camera im not doing face cam #but uhhh.. might need to get a mic in addition to the headset to use instead ... depends on the audio quality #but yeah i have a lot of bills... like a lot #regular and medical bills sooooo f u c k yk #that kinda... makes things harder #see i really do need a stimulus check bc im kinda behind #with my medical bills yk #but uh yeah #ill probably stream on youtube tbh like maybe i will post gameplays first #but uh i have no friends and i know things go so much better w/ streaming and stuff when you have friends with you lol #anyways... even if i had friends i wouldnt include them on my yt and all bc its supposed to be anonymous yk like i always wanted to have #like a yt channel and post videos but i was always so nervous of people knowing about it or yt people finding me irl so ive decided if im #really gonna do this i wanna do it anonymously 😊 so thats what im doing #i mean... special thanks to cry corpse dream etc for the inspo #edit: scratch out cry as inspo bc apparently he admitted to p*dophilia and child grooming. #and imma puke bro

[tenshindon]

Headcanon: Bulma actually was the one to cheat on Yamcha, but she keeps him in her friend circle and is paying him to keep his mouth shut about who she was cheating with(not Vegeta, another mystery character, canon or OC).

the implication that bu/ma cheating on yamcha with v*geta would be far from canon is already sending me to the moon and i didn't even mention anything else yet

#snap chats #theres so much to unpack in this ask #the ADDITIONAL implication that bu/ma has to pay yamcha for him to respect her business 😩 #he's hot and sexy he just respects her decisions anyway #he respects them too much 😖 #anyways i dont know what you want me to do with this ask ima be real with you chief #ive been raising my brow at it for five minutes #the ideal scenario is that bu/ma just approached yamcha and was just honest all #'yeah listen you see uhhh :///' yk #but if there has to be a cheater then like. it really REALLY isnt hard to imagine bu/ma being unfaithful #and telling lies that yamcha was actually the unfaithful one #by posting this am i gonna start another disucssion in my ask box im going to go insane #anon if that happens im sending you my medical bill for the headache im gonna get

[zephahhhh]

I've been taking the break for too long my brain started flooding me with endless fic ideas but I'm just too lacking in energy to actually write any of them.

But.

This one I HAVE TO write, ftm!Harry snarry no magic au, where Severus is the owner of a fine clothing shop near Hogwarts. And Hogwarts is an uni with middle and high school (secondary and sixth form)(I'm not totally sure about the education system in the UK so please correct me if I'm wrong). The "houses" still exist, but like it's school for certain fields of study: Gryffindors is business and law, Ravencalw is history, art and literature, Slytherin for medical and Hufflepuff for science. Harry built a friendship with Sev and he taught him everything about being a man- how to dress, shave, act on social occasions because James is a bigot and Harry never came out to him. (Or he did but James is transphobic af) Lily had passed away when Harry was little by perhaps cancer (haven't thought about it really, but I don't think Lily would let James hurt Harry like that so she must've not been around for a long time, maybe they got divorced?) Harry grew up with Ron and the two families were close. And I HAVE TO put ace/aro Charlie and bi Bill in it, they are good influences to Harry, like, the gay cousins, yk. They met Hermione when they were 16, she got into the school with a scholarship because Hogwarts is basically a school for children from rich families (yes the Weasleys are kind of rich but not as rich, the oldest three were probably gone with scholarship as well). And the three of them+Luna and Ginny live together in the house James bought near the school. (Of course they lived in the dorm before college) as for what they study, Harry and Ron are in management (but Harry hates it), Hermione is in law, Luna in Philosophy (duh) and Ginny in social work. Btw, linny, hmm. *cough cough* back to snarry. So Sev taught Harry a lot and brought him to dinner or drinks sometimes, helped him practice how to be himself and not be frightened by others' opinions. The Potters are rich af so money is never the reason holding Harry back when considering making purchases in Sev's store. Sev designed a lot of his products, including cologne, clothes, accessories, he also has a lot of items made by Malfoy's. Speaking of Malfoy, Draco is in medical, and Sev was in medicine. And I just- I want changing room sex and switching and boyfriend comforting and helping t-shots 🤌🏻

#my bs #severus snape #pro snape #harry potter #snarry #ftm harry #fic idea

[alltheglowingeyess]

You know what I'm gonna say: Bilco

Oh d e a r.

who’s the cuddler: Bill; he likes to skskskoot close to Dom whenever possible.

who makes the bed: Bold of you to assume they sleep in a bed. Real men sleep on the kitchen counter.

who wakes up first: Dom. The life of a sheriff yk?

who has the weird taste in music: Dom listens to K-Pop so,,,,, (/j KSHJDSJ K-Pop is good I'm not dragging it 😭)

who is more protective: Dom can be, but Bill gets heated and zaps anyone who hurts Dom or the turdles.

who sings in the shower: They do not shower. They are always clean.

who cries during movies: Dom, and it skskskares Bill.

who spends the most shopping: Bill because he's got an addiction to skskscrunchies, although Dom's horses cost a lot in general.

who kisses more roughly: No <3

who is more dominate: hELP-

who burns the dinner: Bill because he gets frustrated and does the lazer eyes thing.

who picks the restraunt to eat: They don't really pick they feed solely on Subway footlongs.

who forgets dates: Both of them so they make up dates <3

who has to remind the other to take their meds/pump/clean their medical equiptment: Dom because Bill is a skskskilly goose.

who has to remind the other to go to bed: Dom because Bill spends three hours on tiktok every night (projecting <3).

who makes breakfast in bed: We have established they do not have a bed.

who will eat food no matter if it is under/over cooked: They both will; I mean, they eat Subway.

who is more likely to get lost: Dom because he actually doesn't know how to ride his horse so it just takes him wherever it wants.

my raiting for the ship 1-10: 10000/10 it makes me want to live and die all at once .-.

#queven tag #ask game reply #billiam thabdrew skskolace #dominico #bilco

[mypimpademia]

But my parents did get it handle out, so atleast that is good. (kind of bare minimum but yk) oh they did apologize tho. (again bare minimum, my childhood was pretty chaotic )

They stabbed you and apologized- honestly the bare minimum would be the parents taking that child to therapy and paying whatever medical bills those cause cuz-

#juicytalks

[shkspr]

tagged by @devilsss-dyke​ ! thank u!

rules: pick five (5) shows, then answer the following questions and tag people.

my five shows:

doctor who

futurama

buffy the vampire slayer

star trek tos

the magpod i guess

who is your favorite character in #2?

turanga leela

who is your least favorite character in #1?

oh gosh. i mean, i’m not counting villains bc there’s complexities there re: appreciating a character vs liking them, etc., and i’m only thinking chars who are in more than one ep bc if i counted every char who was important in a motw ep then it would be h*tler without a question and that’s no fun. but honestly i think it’s the eleventh doctor lol. yeah every doctor counts as a separate char bc that’s how bad he was i cant reconcile him w the good ones

what is your favorite episode of #4?

the city on the edge of forever... but honorable mentions for amok time, the devil in the dark, who mourns for adonais, and the trouble with tribbles

what is your favorite season of #5?

season 4 but reluctantly. love that sweet sweet character depth and that satisfying narrative arc but the lack of tim is a big drawback. season 3 is a close second, for all the sweet sweet character depth and also a really good story, and also tim is there contributing to both of those things and i like that.

what is your favorite episode of #3?

doppelgangland ! honorable mentions nightmares, prophecy girl, band candy, the prom, fear itself, beer bad, hush, once more with feeling, tabula rasa, the body

what is your favorite episode of #5?

does martin’s patreon exclusive poetry count. if not then probably mmmmm 92, 104, 117, 154, 158, 159, 160. honorable mentions 39, 56, 58, 65, 74, 79, 81, 94, 102, 108, 114, 118, 119, 120, 134, 138, 151, 152. trust me that is as far as i could possibly narrow it down.

how long have you watched #1?

since 2011, on & off tho not continuously. i didnt watch it regularly or keep up with new eps from like 2014 to 2017

how did you become interested in #3?

i just talked abt this the other day actually! i was 17, it was my first semester of college, i was depressed and living away from my parents for the first time and very very alone, both emotionally and physically more often than not, so i thought why not take this time to watch this show that everyone’s been raving abt since i was born. at worst it’ll pass the time yk. and it did better than that!

who is your favorite actor in #4?

mr. nimoy z”l

which do you prefer, #1, #2, or #5?

right now it’s the magpod hands down. and in recent times dw has taken precedence. but futurama is my fave show of all time soz

which show have you seen more episodes of, #1 or #3?

there are 144 eps of buffy and that’s easy. and with the maths i just did, counting all davids specials as one ep each except the end of time is 2 eps, including xmas specials and the 50th anniversary, there are exactly 144 eps of dw thru the end of series 10. however, i also watched series 11, which brings the total to 155, so the answer is dw.

if you could be anyone from #4, who would you be?

mmmmmm i wanna say spock but thats more the answer to who i would be if i were a char from star trek, as opposed to if i could be anyone. if i could be anyone of my choice i would be james t. kirk. everyone loves him and he is pretty and charismatic and bold and i could use some of that

would a crossover between #3 and #4 work?

i would literally kill to see buffy and kirk bonding over heroic anecdotes and hair care and sparring while spock teaches willow how to control her emotions and bones puts xander in a medically induced coma. dream crossover

pair two characters in #1 who would make an unlikely but strangely okay couple?

rose tyler bill potts rose tyler bill potts rose tyler bill potts

overall, which show has the better storyline, #3 or #5?

oh def the magpod. possibly the finest crafted storyline of any media ive ever consumer. so intricate and complex but it all fits so perfectly and im in awe.

which show has better theme music, #2 or #4?

fuck you this is the hardest question ive ever been asked those are the two best theme songs of all time. i guess futurama but barrrreeeely

i’m tagging everyone!! have a blast!!!

#p.txt #about me

[bettsfic]

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my grandpa is dying today. we’ve been waiting for it to happen since christmas and the day is finally here. i’ve been living at my grandparents’ house for the past week or so, trying (and failing) to be helpful, but, yk, points for being here i guess, even though i’m useless.

it’s all very much like my dad dying, so i’m having a ptsd response to boot, and that’s no good. i remember when my dad was dying, i had so many other things going on. i started a new job the day he died, and i was graduating from college, and sitting around waiting for him to die was one more thing on my to do list. and in retrospect, i’m horrified at myself, that i was so work-brained that i didn’t prioritize my own father’s death.

and now, much wiser, i still have that pull of “i need to make a to do list today!” even though there is literally nothing more important than being here for my family. it’s just bizarre, how we’ve been trained to be productivity machines.

with my dad, we were in hospice, and grappling with all these conflicting emotions -- relief, because he’d been so sick and in so much pain for so long; grief, because he was only 59, and he never really got to do any of the things he wanted; fear, because our medical bills were so high, and my mom knew even then she’d have to file bankruptcy and abandon the house; and a deeper, insipid relief, because now that he was gone, we could all recover from his abuse, which is still the saddest truth i’ve ever had to swallow, that we are happier without him. 

but my grandpa is 87. he’s not really in pain. he’s at home, surrounded by family, with his dog in his lap. it’s a lovely day and i think he led a good life. he was a chemistry teacher at my high school. i’m sad for my grandma, who has to live the rest of her life alone, which is a thought i can’t stand. i’m sad for my mom, for losing a father, because i know what that’s like, but she doesn’t. i’m sad for my grandpa’s dog, whom i may be adopting here soon. out of all the ways to die, i think, this one is maybe the best.  

#death tw #personal