#won’t work for everyone and that’s ok

[plum-pitt]

LU Age headcanons:

Heyo! Been a while since i rambled about my favorite silly elf boys but this just came on the brain so I thought i’d talk about it! But as a twist, i’m conceptualizing their ages through the lens of a persons development in modern society.

(Disclaimer, this is based purely on appearance and vibes, with just a little input from canon. Also sorry sky fans looking at that mf genuinely scares me because i feel like he could be anywhere from 17 to 25 or even older than time itself and i still wouldn’t know. that fucker just can’t register in my brain.)

Wind: This is fucking textbook 14 year old boy. You can’t tell me he doesn’t still jump up to smack the top of every doorframe he walks through, and pull up clothed head to toe in obnoxious highlighter yellow athletic wear every day.

Four: He’s definitely a 16 year old but like- the kind of 16 year old that’s the only one in the group who has a car, if that makes any sense. Like he IS squad soccer mom.

Hyrule: He’s 17, but that very specific brand where he’s got everyone in his life getting on his ass to figure out what he wants to do after highschool, and probably won’t even figure out if he wants to go to college or not until like a week before graduation.

Wild: This here a 19 year old, he’s moved out already, leaving his high pressure home life behind to live happily somewhere far away with his gf, exploring a whole new world of possibilities free of expectations, and probably also his gender identity.

Legend: This fucker is that one 20 year old you know that is already so burnt out and jaded by the idea of adulthood you’d think he’s getting close to retirement age. But nah he’s just THAT over it.

Warriors: Frat guy who just turned 21 and slowly having the dawning realization that drinking is a lot less fun when it’s legal for him to do it.

Twilight: This man 22 and has his whole fuckin life together, went straight into work after highschool and is probably the only guy in his friend group with a stable income. Really just took to adulthood like a fish to the river. Definitely has nieces and nephews he spoils and brags to his friends about all the time like they’re actually his kids.

Time: Haha look at this fuckin mortgage payer. Ok so i can’t guess his actual mental age, but physically he looks like a guy in his early 40s, fresh outta his midlife crisis, looking confident and very dilfy, despite the fact that he’s woefully childless. Don’t ask me how i arrived at this conclusion or why it matters but he definitely collects antique furniture with his wife.

#lu wild #lu warriors #lu time #lu hyrule #lu four #lu legend #lu wind #lu twilight #linked universe #lu headcanons

[loveswrites]

hi love, I don't know exactly if you write reactions, I thought I would found something like this on tumblr but I didn't so i'd like to request a reaction of the vampires (in general, not just the Cullen's if it's ok, of course) to reader being their blood singers, like how would they deal with it and stuff (don't need to be poly if you don't want to)

thanks lovely <3

Head Cannon Cullens x Reader X Volturi Reacting to you being there blood singer.

Hi love, I hope this was kind what you were talking about. I've never done one like this before but I think this is what you meant. I hope you like it. I didn't get around to doing everyone but let me know if you would like me too.

Love <3

Word count: 871

Edward

~ Avoids you constantly until his curiosity gets the best of him. Always quoting Curiosity kills the cat. It’s like he forgot he himself was the cat. Yearns to be with you 24/7 but also aches to be away from you 25/8. The fact that he can’t seem to stay away from you kills him inside. The fact that he might be the one to lead you to your death kills him even more. Can’t help but to love you up close instead of afar. If he went more than a week without your scent he loses focus that he can’t regain. 

“Edward.”

“Edward!” Emmett yelled, snapping Edward out of his lovesick high.

“What?” Edward frowned, eyes still unfocused. 

“He’s doing it again!” Emmett yelled, shaking his head.

Jasper

~ Jasper would have the hardest time out of all of them. Jasper being scared of hurting you would over shine his love for you. But the fact that he’s even trying to have this much restraint when it comes to you shows how deep his love goes. He wouldn’t trust himself to be alone with you for more than two minutes. So count on spending constant time together with him, Edward and or Alice. 

“Come closer Jasper, Please I trust you.” You pleaded.

“I can’t.. I really wish I could But.. I’m just not strong enough.” Jasper stood in a corner with his eyes closed tightly. 

You sighed in slight disappointment. 

“I’m truly sorry, darling.” He spoke softly.

Alice

~ Alice would be one who can handle it as long as your blood stays in your veins. The moment it’s reached the oxygen of the outer world she gets upset at herself for her personal faith being so weak. Even though she’s seen that she never hurts you in the future she wonders if it’s her constant worry that keeps you safe from her nature. 

“You told me you wanted to take me shopping today.” You smiled at Alice. 

“I’m sorry but today won’t be a good day we’re going camping today. It was late notice.” Alice responded upset that she doesn’t know how strong she is when it comes to you. 

Carlisle

~ Carlisle though your blood, your scent is more tempting. He wouldn’t have much trouble with it. In fact your scent would be calming to him at the end of the day. After a long day at the hospital surrounded by so many scents of others yours is the only one he couldn’t wait to smell all day. 

“I missed you today.” He said smiling as you kissed his lips softly.

“Long day at work?” You smiled back.

He silently nodded softly stroking your hair. The simple act of love was like it made your scent smell sweeter. He was in love. 

Rose

~ She hates you at first. She takes pride in the fact that she’s never had one drop of human blood. And then here you come like you were made to be her number one temptation. And she hates you for that. She doesn’t talk to you. She doesn’t look at you. She stays ten feet away at all times. You and Alice became friends so the fact that you're sitting in her house. On her couch. Making the house smell like nothing but temptation from the devil himself she hates. She feels like Edward, which she also hates.

“Hey Rose!” You yelled trying to catch up with her. She brushed past you when you got up to greet her. 

“Rose?!” You yelled once again. Slowing down you frowned. 

Why doesn’t she like you?

Caius

~ You would have to build a very strong connection with Caius for him to even care to keep you alive. Once he smelt your scent he wanted nothing more than to drain you dry and watch your body go limp. In fact he got a thrill out of the thought. But he thought blood singers only come once in a lifetime and to kill you now would be a waste. Especially since in his lifetimes of living he’s never smelt a scent like yours. As your connection grew because your life literally depended on it he thought Maybe I’ll just have a sip every now and then.

“I love this painting.. What does it mean?” You asked, hands gliding against the moist paint. 

“It represents the desperation of death.” Caius spoke, wrapping his arms around your waist hiding his face in your neck hovering his fangs over the very line of your life.

Jane

~ Jane she wouldn’t know what to do with this information. Does she just kill you and get it over with or does she play with her temptations? She’d keep you around But when upset she can be very hostile and her actions may be unforgivable so keep your distance when you hear she’s had a bad day.

“Jane I saw this beautiful hair pin that I think would-”

“If I just suck you dry do you think you’d still be able to talk this much?” She spoke glaring at you with her piercing red eyes.

Once no answer came from you as you stood there with wide eyes she simply walked away from you.

#loveswrites #poly twilight #the volturi #x reader #twilight #cullen poly #oneshots #cauis x reader #edward cullen x reader #Alice x reader #carlisle x reader #jasper x reader #rosalie cullen xreader #jane volturi x reader

[dragonseeds]

there’s a horrible sickness in me that makes me want to stop and replay da:i whenever i start a different game. how am i supposed to resist the story of my own unwilling apotheosis? especially as lavellan, who doesn’t believe in the maker and who has every right to hate and mistrust the chantry but chooses to use what power they have to try save people, to fix what’s broken, no matter how afraid they are or how careful they have to be. walking side by side with the great trickster god/adversary of your people without knowing, befriending him, changing his mind about this world but ultimately not his choice. he understands what’s happening to you because it happened to him once and he gives you his castle, built over the place where he sundered the world, and paints your story there in frescos that will last long after you’re gone and after the story has been retold and reshaped so many times that the truth of who you are and what you did is lost—just as he did his own story, which was lost and perverted by war and propaganda, and he shows all of this to you knowing you’ll understand because you’ve lived through something similar, grown into something larger than yourself and your true name, and it doesn’t change anything but. he wanted you to see him just for a moment, even if he can’t tell you everything (or almost anything) and you can’t save him—because he owes it to you as a someone who is a friend, almost an equal, and because there’s no one else left who knows: a direct result of what he did to your people and which he now seeks to undo at the cost of this world.

#dragon age #solas #literally i am ILL #i love religious trauma and stifling hypocrisy and walking carefully so carefully through a place i don’t belong but i’ve chosen to be #and questioning everything and losing and discovering myself over and over #and accidentally becoming friends with my work colleagues #and most importantly dating an actual god who is just a nerdy little guy who keeps fucking everything up #he’s such a liar but he wants to badly to tell the truth but he can’t he won’t #yet he only really lies through omission and speaks carefully so as not to give himself away #ok and also he very much wanted the anchor and manipulated that whole situation #but he also shows you who he is and tells you a sliver of the truth #and he didn’t have to do that! but he chose to—he wants you to see him and on some level to save him from his path i think #also i debated sooo long about the phrasing ‘almost an equal’ because i think he does consider everyone as worthy of life & choice as him! #but ultimately he is making the decisions of a god whether or not he acknowledges himself as one #he is deciding for a whole world—so i think there’s some cognitive dissonance there #and i went with almost #i’m fr stalled out in the middle of bg3 like i miss solas i miss my work friends

[ssreeder]

how are we feeling about the new netflix adaptation of avatar??!!!!!!!!!!!! the zuko casting eats and swolzai is so cool to see actually translated well (although we will see how they treat the characters in this)

HEYYYYYYOOOOO!

The only thing I’m really looking forward to from the live action is being able to gossip about it with my mutuals. I don’t really have any other opinion, I mean… it looks cool! (Sokkas hair & zukos scar bother me but ehhhh what can I do?) But I’m an animation junky, I love my anime and my cartoons (bobs burgers beloved) so I don't particularly care for the “real people actors” taking over my cartoons but I’m totally chill about it honestly.

I will ABSOLUTELY be watching it and probably will form a more solid opinion after I actually watch the show.

#Omg I had to message a friend and ask who sowlozai was hahaha #I was like ummmm I don’t know this person #& they had to hold my hand and walk my old ass through it #But yeah! I guess I’m just not the kind of person who jumps to criticism #I mean don’t get me wrong I love a good gossip sesh #Don’t tempt me with a good time haha #I see a lot of effort being put into it so I want to give everyone who worked really hard to bring this show to life a chance #I can’t just tear apart all their hard work from a few photos and a couple trailers #I know it won’t be close to the original but it might be good #I heard the one piece live action was good #Idk I’m watching one piece currently so I haven’t seen the live action but ahhh luffy is so awesome haha #Again this show could be a dumpster fire but can it be worse than the first live action movie….? I think not #*points at friend who actually likes the live action movie* HAHAHA I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE #poor dads still waiting for book two hahaha #Sorry sorry I love you don’t be mad <3 #Ok well COME SCREAM AT ME WHEN YOU WATCH IT AND ILL YELL BACK!!!!!!! #& yeah they had no business making ozai look that offical… damn it live action CUT IT OUT #& im sorry but iroh is the most iroh looking iroh i could have imagined and i giggle every time i see him #But i will take jabs that Netflix threw all that money at the show and still always sunny did a burn scar on cricket 10000x better than zuk #Left eye paint job (i know it’s mean but i doubt anyone would have stopped watching if they would had added a little more realism to that…) #(They didn’t have to shave his brow but put some of that effect glue shit on it and plaster that sucker down #ONE EYE BROW ZUKO!!!!!!!!!!!! ) #& sokkas jet black hair with his front poof is just …. Damn it I think it’s actually stupidly canon for them to fuck up sokkas character #THIS MUCH - but again… maybe he’ll pull it off idk I JUST DONT KNOW #The girls are perfect & fuck it when azula picked up a bow #The first thing I thought was that fucking Annie song #“Anything you can do I can do better I can do anything better than you” #Zuko works tirelessly to master his weapon #Azula picks up a bow and laughs ‘silly zuzu weapons as child’s play’ *proceeds to hit a bullseye with no effort* #BECAUSE WHY THE FUCK NOT

[bo0zey]

anyone else ever get in those silly goofy moods where u just hate urself sooo much that u instantly feel physically almost violently ill just thinking abt urself and also even tho u worked a 12hr shift w no breaks or water running off of the 2 cups of coffee u had for breakfast 20 hours ago, the thought of eating instantly sends bouts of nausea coursing thru ur soul while churning in ur stomach bc ur brain hates u so much that its convinced ur body that u don’t deserve sustenance or anything else that’s life sustaining or promotes ur physical well being because u subconsciously convinced urself that ur such a shit excuse for a human being that u neither deserve nor have any right to anything regarding maslow’s hierarchy of needs bc u r such an awful thing u deserve to be neglected n treated like the nonliving object ur own brain sees ur living body as or am i just mentally ill lol

#laying in bed everytime i think abt myself i feel literally nauseated n like it’s so weird #this feeling comes in waves intermittently just even .01 sec of ‘hm i’m hungry’ FFFFFNOPE HRRGRHFFF VOMITTY #i want to curl up in a ball and die forever i don’t care about me i don’t want to take care of me anymore i’m not even good at it #whyyyyyyyy did i stop taking my meddsssssss i guarantee y’all this is why i’m being such a crybaby on the dash lmaoooo #i have a headache i’m def dehydrated from crying n sniveling n barely drinking any water today while sweating like a mf at work #imma go to bed 🛌 if i don’t wake up i will be soooo pleasantly surprised y’all have no idea FINGERS CROSSED🤞 #real talk tho can someone tell me why my body is literally reacting this way for like no real reason #like am i truly that disgusted with myself i make myself nauseous just thinking abt me #ok yeah the answer is yes lol BUT LIKE WHY THATS SUCH A DRAMATIC BODILY RESPONSE TO MY BRAINS DUMBASS THOUGHTS??? #ik the body and mind have a super powerful link n the brain influences the body like crazy but like #why this why does my brain literally want me to berate and degrade myself and isolate me and make me cry alone n starve me that’s so mean #i’m not starving btw i’m literally always eating just these past 2 days i’ve been such a fuckup my body won’t let me do anything #i had a chocolate poptart for dinner last night (thurs) n threw myself to bed #i hope i don’t end up hurting myself that would be so lame #i literally don’t have time for that like i am Not doing wound care duty off the clock for my damn self lol #also don’t want to take care of myself so i wouldn’t bandage myself up properly sooo yeah i’m not gonna do anything actually #cleaning ur wounds r super important ok yall ur literally playing god if u don’t do good aftercare snfjfbdj #i can’t believe i’m in this nasty ugly depressive episode i hate this so much i don’t have time for this i hate this cycle #i hate being bipolar 2 n my moods n meds have been so fkcdd up lately that i don’t even have the rlly fun hypomanic episodes anymore #i’ve just been constantly having mixed episodes im unbearable to be around im so sorry for everyone that’s ever spoken to me im insufferable #ok that’s enough im done being dramatic lmao #im gonna give myself a bolus PRN dose of clonnie then i’m going tf to bed #ramblings #shut up cianna

[1ovestay]

won’t lie, experiencing some horrors

#just cried uncontrollably for like 20 mins #cried like 3 times yesterday too #i have no energy for like anything rn.. went to buy new glasses today tried on 15 pairs hated them all and then went back to my car #and cried because i really need new glasses since i fucked up my current pair and they don’t sit right now and dig into my face #tw death . my grandma passed away while i was flying home from canada #and it sucks because everyone got to be with her and say goodbye but i didn’t #and there’s a viewing tomorrow and my dad thinks i should go since it will be my last chance to see her but i don’t want to #i get that it’s a healing way to say goodbye for some people but i don’t want to see my oma lifeless #i know i’ll never get to see her again and that fucking sucks but she’s gone and i don’t want to see her like that #plus i have work and i already called in sick 2 days i don’t want to leave them short again even if it’s understandable #anyway the funeral is on tuesday at least i have the day off already and don’t have to worry about work #everything sucks soooooo fucking bad rn i won’t lie i’m not doing too great #and i miss el so much like i would kill to be able to hug my gf right now #their mom sent me a video today of them laying on the couch with their parents cat cuz they visited for father’s day #and i’ve cried twice while watching it… #argh. anyway. going to go watch a silly little video of some sort and maybe sleep early cause i haven’t been sleeping well #it’ll be ok 🧡 #p

[compacflt]

so desperately curious what ice & mav would think about the trend of the us military using tiktok e-girls as a recruitment tool

#the problem with writing military fanfic is that you can get lost in the weeds so quick LMFAO #like meeting recruitment quotas is definitely a top-level concern #ice: idk mav our numbers are down again this year no one knows what to do #maybe we should start another war or something #Mav: how about this let’s fund a blockbuster movie and make up an enemy for our pilots to go bomb #super cool #ice: no that won’t work because everyone will try to join the Air Force like last time #how about this; let’s tell all these lonely 18 year old boys that they can meet their dream girl at NAS Great Lakes #it would’ve worked on me #Mav: it would’ve? #ice: ok ill suggest it at our next recruitment standards meeting #and BAM government funded e-girls #alternatively #SECNAV tom kazansky circa 2021: mav can you tell me what an ‘e-girl’ is im lost #Mav: what’s tiktok am i supposed to know what that is either #You guys might have followed me for the fanfic but are coming to learn that i am genuinely insane in the tags

[sleebyconfy]

you are not defined by arbitrary ratings and grades.

you are worthy of respect and rest and joy, regardless of any superficial judgements others make of you.

you are worthy because you are alive and here.

sometimes things are out of your control, and it is ok and healthy to let them go and no longer worry about them after acknowledging them.

when things are out of your control and are unimportant in the grand scheme of things, no amount of panic and anger and guilt will fix it, and it is good and ok to turn your attention and energy towards other things.

#my post #affirms #need a more direct affirmation written out for Frank so: #getting a bad grade or getting a one star review does not mean you are bad. #it does not mean you are a failure. it does not mean everyone is mad at you. it does not affect your worth. #you are more than grades. you are much more than how customers and employers see you. #you are not defined by arbitrary ratings. you are not defined by arbitrary ratings. #you are a person worthy of respect and rest and joy regardless of any superficial judgements others make of you. #panic and guilt and anger are not going to help you fix things when they are out of your control and when they are unimportant in the grand #scheme of things #(got a mysterious one star rating at work with no explanation as to why and Frank is really stressed and upset and hurt about it #but it’s ok if they won’t tell us why then it is not our fault and is out of our control and it does not mean the world is out to get us)

[pepprs]

crying again lol ok

#purrs #and posting online abt it so i get immediate validation / support instead of asking for help from anyone im close to i know. but god fucking #damn it to hell. ok im going to be candid about this because it hurts so fucking bad. five years ago i met someone so important to me. and I #miss her so so so so much. and every space here i have a memory with her in. and she left in July and she’s gone. and im sobbing my eyes out #FOR WHY because it was over 6 months ago and im happier and she’s happier and we’re all happier. but i think im getting some aftershocks #being here for the first time without her exactly 5 years to the week we met: when she was so important to me. she was the whole reason i #even saw myself as something. and she’s fucking gone. she left. but she’s not dead like LMAO idk why im crying so hard when i could just #text her any time and tell her that i miss her. but idk. it’s just everything is stirring memories and they’re painful to think about now or #at least today because she’s gone and it all changed. i was just saying that i feel like im not having any emotions and tonight the grief ju #just rammed into me like a train and my fucking counselor sucks ass and won’t even help me work through it and everyone is busy and tired an #and im a staff coach so im not supposed to be having a fuckjng mental breakdown over **** pacing around in my bathroom at 1:23am but ive be #been thinking about her so much and remembering all the formative interactions i had with her here and missing her so much i want to explode #and die and p*ke and whatever. so stupid to cry about it but i fucking miss her. and i hate that she’s not here. and i’m trying so hard to b #be her but i have to be me but i can’t not have what she brought here and im just crashi ng and burning and can’t be honest and im having a #breakdown and crying so hard and i don’t know what to do. i ithink i’ll be fine after some sleep and reflection but my heart is like seizing #on itself right now and nothing takes my mind off it and i just keep crying LMFAOOOOOO. i hate it here #delete later #like how can you look at me like that and then fuck off to ****** 4.5 years later. you know? im about to punch a hole into the hallway #and i have to be quiet bc ppl are trying to sleep but it’s making me fucking crazy. #retreat tag

[blazewatergem]

Ah hey hey, made it home safely. That’s a good thing that’s happened.

I, ah, I might be going quiet for a bit. Or very obviously distracting myself with blorbos, hobbies, and whatnot. I’m not sure yet.

Basically things are. Things are ok! Everyone should be ok. But also bad. It’s very confusing and I can’t tell if I’m overreacting or not yet.

Pretty much now adding on to the stress of me NEEDING to pass my Statistics class despite my shitty grade(and extreme lacking of math skills) I just learned my Dad is going to go and get tested for something dealing with his heart.

He says it’s normal, but, I’m still shaky and freaked tbh. Probably just anxiety but I. I can’t control that.

Sorry this is all over the place. Like I said I’m not. Exactly doing the BEST but I’m still doing. Still trying to stay upbeat and use hobbies as stress relief. I just wanted to explain my end in case I seem off.

Thank you for understanding.

#my brain is torn between tears and throwing myself into work #focusing or distractions of video games and blorbos #I’ll be ok. I’m sure of it. everyone will be fine #that doesn’t mean my brain won’t use this chance to lie to me though. it likes to do that #talking fire

[deus-ex-mona]

just me? ✨ok✨

#people who’ve had a no good; very bad week this past week say ‘aye’!!!!!!! [crickets chirp] #idk i just feel super drained and empty inside. prolly due to the horrible local trains here but h e y. #the hatred i have for these trains is unreal ok the seats are uncomfortable and y e t there aren’t nearly enough of them during peak hours #add in external (work) factors like coworkers who just ✨don’t get it✨ no matter how many times you explain something #or coworkers who aggressively rage at each other + passive-aggressively rage at everyone else on the work groupchat #a n d coworkers who can’t take no for an answer while saying stuff like ‘i don’t want to force you… but you have to do [thing] in exchange’ #and you end up with an idiot who’s unable to summon even the most miniscule of shreds of concern for others anymore #man. at times like this… i’m so glad that i have no friends bc i won’t have to dip into my negative reserves of sympathy to hear them out #bc that…… p much sums up all my interactions with my past acquaintances lmao #granted i’d force them to listen to me for a bit… but then it’d all circle back to them. and i just. yeah. #oh wells. i hope this week will be a better week (note: it won’t) #sunday’s 🧂saltfest🧂

[jemmo]

Something I noticed in ep 5. After his encounter with pran in the music shop it's like pat's whole world shifts. And for the rest of the ep it honestly looks like he can't breathe properly. Almost like he's suffocating. It's at the rooftop after their lips meet he let's out a breath like he found oxygen and after their kiss it's like he can finally breathe.

oh dear anon you’re just so right. and ive honestly spent long nights thinking about nothing but this. bc it’s kind of incredible how much pat commits to pran after he realizes his feelings. his world shifts in that music shop and he’s so off kilter for the rest of the ep, so not himself, but not in a way that he’s changed. it’s more like… well the only way i can convey it is that for the eps before it, you always see pat messing around, doing some kind of shit, with his friends, with pa, and in those scenes it’s not always about pran. he has things that he’s doing and thinking about that aren’t pran. but after the music shop it’s like that part of him shuts down, bc suddenly he can’t do things that aren’t to do with pran, doesn’t understand how he could before. he pursues this way he feels so single-mindedly in order to get some kind of answers and he just abandons everything else. he’s chatting to korn but it’s about pran, he’s with pa but he’s thinking about pran, he’s doing the music contest but it’s all to do with pran. I could go on and on, but when you think about this being a pat focused or pat pov ep, the fact you don’t see him in scenes where he’s not on this pursuit to figure out his feelings for pran tells you that he really isn’t doing anything else. and you can picture him in class or say with his friends at lunch or in his dorm or at practise just being so in his own head thinking about pran or even avoiding those things so he can go to pran to figure it all out, you can see how his whole world just becomes pran, and how it doesn’t open up again until he gets in a good place with pran. you can say that yes he has that moment of relief after they kiss, but again when pran leaves he’s still in that headspace. at the bus stop and going to camp and pursuing pran, he’s not only thinking about this non stop but actually actively acting on it constantly. it’s almost like a a bug he needs to get out of his system and his body shuts down until it’s gone. just the all-consuming need to know and understand immediately, and to be in a good place with him, it’s like nothing has ever been so important. to me it just speaks to what it’s like when you know. people always say that when you fall in love, you’ll just know, that it’ll be different. and for pat, who has liked and dated others, to have this experience, it’s like he does finally know. it hits him, this is it, this is what they talk about, this is what love is, and just that simple fact turns his world upside down.

#thank you anon I think I needed to get a pat rant out of my system #this is just #so fucking good #that single minded pursuit of his to understand #it’s like he can’t handle not knowing can’t handle the grey zone the confusion the not knowing where he stands #it’s like he has to figure out his place and then Pran’s place and how that fits together and even if it does fit together #and he won’t be able to rest until it all slots in to place and everything is right #when you think about pat you don’t always think about him being a man that needs stability #but god does he need stability #he thrives on stability #he needs to know where everyone stands and he needs it to all work #when things are up in the air when things are undecided and unresolved he just can’t handle it #and that’s why I think he’s always been ok #bc he’s always had pran there as a constant #pran was his stability #and when pran was taken away he lost that stability and that’s when things fell apart #bc he couldn’t find stability with anyone or anything else #he acted out and forght and all that time just never felt right with himself #until that stability returned #and he becomes stable for a bit #but then there’s that fear of oh god but if things change between us and I lose that stability what then #but at the same time the moment the pin dropped he’d already lost grip #he becomes unstable and the one person that can stabilise him is the one person that’s making him unstable in the first place #and that’s why he can’t rest until his two feet are back on solid ground #bad buddy #badbuddyrewatch

[mxliv-oftheendless]

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#i keep feeling this crippling anxiety that I am not going to pass this semester #i think it’s because I now have a job off campus that’s eating up time that in the past I’ve been able to use to do more work #because yeah I’ve always gotten worried about failing before… but now #now it feels even worse #i have three big papers to write #one of which is what me graduating with honors hinges on #several smaller assignments that I keep struggling to keep track of #club President things to do #and history club is a whole other thing because I keep worrying that I’m a terrible club president #yeah I’m not doing ok lol… #the worst thing though is that everyone I talk to keeps telling me I’ll be fine #because I’ve always worried about passing semesters and always did pass #so people say that because I’m smart and I’ve passed before that I’ll be okay #and at this point I wanna fucking scream because NO NO I DO NOT FEEL LIKE I’M DOING FINE #that only makes it worse because now on top of everything else I’m scared I won’t live up to everyone’s expectations #there have been moments this semester where I’ve seriously felt like I’m going insane #i fucking hate this #i hate being scared I hate being anxious #i just want everything to be over #because the end of the semester is in a month and a few weeks and the pressure keeps feeling increasingly worse #i had a meltdown during work last week like an actual ugly crying meltdown #fuck this fuck it all to hell #i wanna be done #ignore this please I don’t want advice and I don’t want to be told I’ll be okay I just need to vent #random thoughts are random

[enbydindjarin]

My course selection is over a month due now but I just can not convince myself to do it. I also need to write a two week notice and I have no idea what to say😭

#thanks adhd #adhd things #hayden is rambling #I really need to have it come before I go away next week #can someone just do it for me please?????? #being an adult sucks so much omgggg #idk the online portal for course selection is so confusing but I really don’t want to have to meet with my academic advisor #because ✨anxiety✨ #and handing in my two week notice is so stressful #like I want to go in the evening when the managers not there and I can just leave it in her office #also 5 other people have given theirs this week and I feel bad giving mine too but I can’t do this anymore #it’s such a bad place to work everyone is leaving for a reason #so I’m just going to sit in the back yard and ignore it all today🤷 jus t like I have been for the last month #it’s $150 late fee for course selection but osap will take care of it soooo #plus I was stocking all day yesterday and work so now I have the worst headache today I’m just not in the mood to get anything done #and my dads coming tomorrow which always stresses me out #so yeah I’m doing great today #ok so my dad just told me he’s leaving for my place at 4 am and it’s a ten hour drive here so he’ll be here around two #which is stressing me even more because I usually have all day to get the house cleaned and stuff but I won’t this time #ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #but I get to see snickers and I’m going to camp for a week🎉🎉 #for my non French Canadian friends camp=cottage

[sun-lit-goth]

I got big romantic and platonic turn offs that I shouldn’t shame myself for cause it truthfully bites me in and around the ass later

#I need a lot to feel a genuine mutual relationship with someone #I need reciprocity and that looks different to everyone #for me that looks like being engaged in conversation more often than not #not dropping out of convos repeatedly without saying why #and this seems to exclude some neurodivergent behaviors from getting too close to me #and that’s ok! #what makes it shit is wanting things to be different #we can have a distant relationship but we can’t get close #because I’m not pushing myself anymore #because that’s out of not accepting you or my needs #and neither of us are bad or in the wrong #it’s just how it is #and it’s ok #what gets me most is when someone tries to be closer after repeatedly failing me #and vice versa #something fundamentally doesn’t work #and it’s best to leave it as such if it’s a pattern #we can be friendly #we might be able to be freinds #but we won’t be close #and that’s best for the both of us

[milk-lover]

Fucking. Pet peeve in fanfic is when Character A has any sort of anxiety or sadness fueled breakdown. They call it a panic attack. And then they alway have the exact same scene, where Character B tells them to take deep breaths, hugs them, asks ‘Feeling better now?’ And the ‘panic attack’ is just? Over???

#panic attacks #like??? first of all. crying is not a panic attack #it’s great to show panic attacks in fiction! but not everything is a panic attack!! sometimes characters just break down #second if someone told me to breath during a panic attack. i would not be able to for several minutes. if it worked at all. #the most likely result is i would start hyperventilating bc breathing exercises don’t really work for me lol #i do like hugs but only sometimes and only if you ask. and again it won’t just. end the panic attack #even if I’m not having a panic attack. even if I’m just crying. this scene is unrealistic #it takes a lot more back and forth to calm people down from high emotional/anxiety states. if it’s over in a few lines without #some back and forth. then that means that Character A is bottling it up #(obv not in all cases but like. generally you don’t go from ‘distraught over almost killong your best friend’ to ‘ok I’m calm’ in 1 minute #and most of all. this isn’t how people talk??? it’s like there’s one script people think is the ‘healthy’ way #that they follow to show a ‘panic attack’ #and it is always like. straight out of a 2014 tumblr style mental health post #please can we have character B fuck up comforting them some times? bc getting someone down out of a panic attack is not fucking easy #not everyone knows to say ‘can i touch you’ sometimes they just think ‘ok hugs comfort I’ll give them a hug’ and then it Does Not Work