#wrapped in layers of drama and ‘cringe’ and negativity.’ Like goddamn this is why I won’t be able to handle Twitter.

[ghostfixedsysknight]

Daily reminder to myself that I’m allowed to like things. Like, I’m allowed to watch, read and draw things and not have to feel guilty about it. Sure, the content I’m consuming isn’t perfect and yes it has flaws but that doesn’t mean I can’t like it. People are allowed to criticize and point out the flaws and I shouldn’t immediately feel bad for liking the thing in the first place.

I’m allowed to like what I like. One day the interest will pass but it makes me happy now by providing some laughs and entertainment. Nothing is perfect, content can be scuffed but I can still enjoy it

#ghost talks #idk what to tag this rlly. I’ve always had this feelings about a lot of things I like- mostly cause random stuff yeah know? #I feel like the bigger the fandom the more ‘hate’ it gets and the more negativity it has and the more I feel horrible about liking the thing #Like I left the undertale and ducktales fandom cause I got scared and felt horrible looking at the stuff I like which sucked cause #they were like two of my big interests cause the fandom was so big and I got hella inspired and managed to grow a lot as an artist. #I feel sort of ashamed for abandoning those fandoms but really I was glad I could semi remove myself from the burning drama. #The reason I’m still in the KG fandom is cause y’all are great and the fandom is small and close knitted so I don’t feel guilty liking it #which like- typing this out now seems like a real wack perspective to have ya know? ‘I still like it cause it’s the only thing that’s not #wrapped in layers of drama and ‘cringe’ and negativity.’ Like goddamn this is why I won’t be able to handle Twitter. #But really these feelings came back with A PASSION since I’ve entered the Dream SMP fandom. the art is rad and the essays are great #but of course- there’s ppl criticizing and honestly? valid. super valid. the points they have make sense and to me- a pussy- that’s what #makes me feel fucking horrible. of course the storyline isn’t perfect- it’s hella scuffed- things are wild. wtf is even the theme?? #But ya know what? I WANNA KEEP WATCHING FUNKY BLOCK MEN. I WANNA KEEP WATCHING THIS STORYLINE CAUSE IT MAY SUCK BUT THEY FUNNY AND #IM INVESTED IN THEIR CHARACTER ARCS. I super agree that some things are handled poorly but that doesn’t mean I can’t still like the shit #and it’s not really anyone but my own fault. I don’t know why when there’s a flaw I suddenly feel like I can’t like things anymore but I CAN #I need to get it through my thick skull that I’m allowed to like things! I can like a bunch of AU skeletons! I can like found family ducks! #It may have to do with how the internet has shaped my views. like the amount of times I saw a something do something bad and suddenly #everyone decides it’s irredeemable.One flaw and it gets dropped like trash and no one is allowed to like it or share their interest in it #That’s quite a toxic mindset I need to unlearn cause even though I don’t apply it online- I think people are allowed to make mistakes #I need to stop applying this mindset to myself. I can like hot garbage. I can go ‘yes this is trash but I love it’