Y’know, something I think about a lot in the context of Triple Deluxe and more specifically Sectonia is how both spiders and wasps are some of the most hated, despised creatures on the planet.
People do not like either of these animals. They’re perceived as terrifying, dangerous pests. It’s interesting, because Sectonia effectively went from being one detested type of bug to being another.
I feel like, on paper, there are other types of insects HAL could have chosen that are much more commonly associated with beauty: ladybugs, dragonflies and, of course, butterflies just to name a few.
So why did HAL choose to make her a wasp of all things?
I almost feel like it has to be a commentary on her character. Something about how no matter how she changed herself she was never going to truly be someone she liked or was satisfied with. She could try and she could try to become someone else, but she’d never escape what she was inside: just a gross, unlovable bug.
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oh beans I knew there was another reason I went on here lmao anyway
running out of time before I go to work but y'all know I'm gonna be kicking about at work bc uhhh yeeah. well.
Anyway weekend game? same stuff as last weekend! Except I'm in my own flat this time!
The WIPs
Shapeshifter wip (Syn/Halliel, fantasy, star crossed lovers (fun little shapeshifter spy dude and the War that is Coming))
Soul of the Party (fantasy, light detective shenanigans)
DnD (specific characters are; Maverick, Tem, Chant/Luci/Makaria, Razmatazz, Tosh, Karo, Phorg (specific file names; Dumb of Ass, Snake of Tits; The Life and Lies of Makaria Chant; Always Yearned to be a Concert Pianist. Raz/Tosh/Karo/Tem don't have specific titles yet jsksks))
Dorks 'n' Disasters (fate based ttrpg currently in edits. Full first arc draft can be seen at @dorksndisasters)
But hey listen if you want to ask about any of the others, go crazy go wild
The Games
Three by Threes: For each filename you receive in your ask box, reply to the ask with 3+ NEW sentences on that WIP.
Lore Corner: Answer questions about your WIP. It can be anything from headcanons to backstory that you have for your WIP that don't even make it into the fic. Askers - get creative with your questions! (If you are playing Lore Corner, please give a single-sentence description of each of your WIPs so askers have some context)
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Funny that I say something like ‘to overshare or not overshare’ when I’m going to anyway. Pfft.
So, hell, why not. Rambling MGS4 thoughts below. Though I won’t be using my standard MGS tags, since I want to keep it out of the main tags. This is all mainly nonsense anyway, but I want to eventually put them out there b/c I want to replay this again and Idk. You guys know how allergic I am to shutting up.
TW: Medical, Death, Abuse, SA Mention (Non-Descriptive)
I finished MGS4 in a haze, crying hysterically and bothered to a point I couldn’t even lay my finger on. For a while I let it sit and just didn’t know what, exactly, had bothered me so much.
As the game went on, I noticed vaguely somewhere around maybe the half way mark this was bugging me, but I chalked it up to the sad nature of the game itself, and left it at that. I have no issue with the themes within the game, and you all know how much I embrace bothersome or disturbing content. And if you don’t, well. Now you do. I’m not shy about liking morally questionable content, nor disturbing content.
In any case-that wasn’t the issue.
No, the issue was Snake’s aging. Or, more specifically, the way the game presented it. Of all things.
But-eh, hear me out.
When I was a teenager, my life was hectic. I worked to help my mum pay the bills, but had to quit after an SA that I was blamed for (I was sixteen, and the victim, but I’d apparently asked for it. Whatever, fuck cops anyway). My grandfather was slowly dying from terminal illness, and time not spent at school or helping my mum was taking care of him. He had a variety of illnesses, but one of them, COPD, had him suffering violent coughing fits that he’d black out from. When he used to sit up, he’d cough himself unconscious, and sometimes end up on the floor. I’d call ambulances those days; I wasn’t able to lift him. I knew how to distribute his meds, his masks. All that stuff. I’d be woken up from a dead sleep to him calling my name, or coughing so loud I knew he needed the meds now. Fill the mask, do the tubes, fix the oxygen tank levels. I was very sleep deprived for most of my High School years.
(Only to go to class the next day and have my friends nag me about my slipping grades, askdnsajk) anyway.
I was pretty close to my grandpa. My dads, well anyway. Not worth discussing rn. My grandmother, his wife, died when I was 14. I was raised by my mum and my grandparents. My grandfather wasn’t even that old during all this-early 60′s, and everyday I just watched him slowly fading away, unable to do ANYTHING to stop the inevitable as he had another coughing fit, another shake, etc.
In any case, he passed when I was 19, and time has it’s natural way of having things get pushed aside, I went through even more upheaval in my early 20′s that lead to a serious mental breakdown around 25-26 that had me admitted to a psyche ward. Eventually I was diagnosed with Persistent Depressive Disorder, Psychosis and PTSD,
Things changed, I got my mental health under control, and life carries on.
And then I played MGS4 this year.
It’s funny, things I’d forgotten all about just crashing to the surface, seeing reflections through a screen like that. How my brain was ticking through watching Snake smoke through his violent coughing fits (Something my grandfather did up until one of his hospitalizations FINALLY got him to quit). The general helplessness Hal has, because there’s NOTHING you can do. Hell these days *I’m* chronically ill but not..terminally ill. I think they did much of Snake’s ageing and decline well, I guess for my brain? Too well.
S’funny, and maybe even kinda dumb. Stuff you don’t even think bothers you anymore, just sort of. Comes too a head.
It’s not like this post has a point. I am capable of controlling my own media intake. And there’s a large part of me that even wants to replay it! I just think it’s..strange how brains work. And how the most random things can be so big when they reflect your life in the most..disconnected and bizarre way.
Or something. Maybe I just wanted this out in the open cos that’s how I function (though some of my friends had heard this before from me).
Brains are weird. Life’s weird. But hey.
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I want you to know that JTTA literally inspires the most gut wrenching emotions in me 😭😭 SHE CALLED HIM BELPHIE !!!! <33
Mammon saying I love you over the walkie talkie. And what if that was my last straw !!!!! /pos
Everything about them fammmmly just ..... I don't know something about the way you write them all together makes me pace around so bad I LOVE IT SO MUCH words actually can't describe thank you so much
This is off topic but I was rewatching Encanto for the funnies and these lines in All Of You:
"We see how bright you burn
We see how brave you've been
Now see yourself in turn...
"You're the real gift, kid, let us in.""
It made me think of the brothers saying that to IK (especially after she and Belphie start bonding) and I collapsed onto the hardwood floor
ANYWAYS !!! I hope you've been well, thank you dearly again for the meal
oh the encanto lyrics are so cute :(((((((((
trust me i also go so insane about the family in my head, i'm happy i can share the feeling!!! if it hit you just imagine being belphie in that situation... he internally went nuclear i can only assume
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