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minevn · 10 months

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How LI would react to mc confessing to them

Old! Minato: Minato's eyes would widen and his face and neck turn red. He'd struggle with what to say, just because there's so much he WANTS to say to you. In the end though he can only manage to squeak out an "I love you too!"

New! Minato: He's surprised that you like him back, but he regains composure(kind of). His face is extremely red and he's feeling an unusual shyness, but it's obvious he's happy as he has a huge smile on his face. He tells you he likes you back, and then rambles about it, about how long he's liked you, about what he likes, just rambles all of his feelings.

Haruto: "FINALLY! I've liked you for SOOO long!" He's chuckling slightly. His dream has finally come true and he feels as though he's been recognized. He almost starts crying on the spot, he's so overjoyed and has so much relief spreading over him.

Jun: Starts cheering! She's hugging you tightly and burying her face in your neck, telling you that she likes you too. Afterwards she'll start asking questions like "What made you like me?" and "How long have you liked me?" and then she'll start telling you about how she's liked you for so long and how you never picked up on her "hints."(they're so obvious you can't really call them hints)

Hoshi: His eyes widen and his breathing picks up. He can't believe you like him. right, he can't believe it. He laughs it off, thinking you're just joking. "Don't play around like that, I might think you're serious." He doesn't realize how hurtful that is to your genuine feeling because he believes with every fiber of his being that you're just joking. So please, make him realize just how serious you are being.

Habiki: He liked you, but he had no plans of confessing with you. Honestly he wouldn't even be sure if he's ready to go out with you. Still, you're confessing, and saying "I like you too." feels so right to him. It's one of the few times he doesn't deem his feelings as useless and he'll crack a smile at you.

Kage: He ALMOST passes out, but he forces his body to keep conscious, so instead his legs just give out. His face is so red and his eyes are so wide as he stares up at you. He tries speaking but no words come out. He decides to shakily take your pinky in his and nod his head, hoping the meaning comes across.

Kei: Smiles. Smiles the widest anyone has ever seen. His calm and collected composure is gone in an instant. He walks over to you and hugs you. "I like you too. I've liked you so so long." His effort to even being friends with you has not been in vain and he couldn't be more happy.

Yani: Does a little happy dance before running circles around you, screaming about how much he loves you!! He wants everyone to know that he's yours and you're his! He'll pick you up in a hug and carry you around everywhere, kissing your hands and cheeks. Instantly takes you out on a date.

#visual novel #💝-minevn #yandere vn #🐠-Minato #📙-Haruto #🎀-Jun #🍽️-Hoshi #🎻-Habiki #👤-Kage #💻-Kei #💕-Yani #🎤-asks

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jennyzyn · 5 months

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✵𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐌𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐧 . . .

"This world has been far too cruel to you.. "

I'm doing this for you

"I'm worried it'll decide to end your life. "

Please don't misunderstand

"So I'll send you away before it does"

They were bestfriends, they have been since they were little. In this small world, they found peace and joy in each other, one could tell all her secrets yet the other couldn't.

They say desperation can make anyone do anything, but it wasn't that in her case, her most beloved friend was seen as the worlds enemy, yet she didn't even know. Titling each and every mishap and accident as 'bad luck'...

But was it really?

[Last name] [First name] is a special woman, she befriended someone very powerful, though she was oblivious. Unmindful of who exactly her dear bestie was.

The woman sat with crossed legs, leaning on the edge of the round table with coffee in hand as she listened to her best friends rambling, about her Au and ocs. [E/c] eyes holding a fond glint as she watched Yani do random motions with her hands, a big grin on her face as she spewed information about the creator of her Au.

The short haired redhead took a small breath in, taking hold of her strawberry drink and lifting it to her lips. Yani was.. Peculiar for a lack of a better term, she introduced herself with nothing but an alias. [Name] never asked as she trusted that one day, eventually, her dear friend would tell her her real name. The [H/c] hair colored lady was swiftly dragged out of her stupor as slender fingers snapped in front of her eyes, the white and gold painted nails that was burned in her memory taking captive of her attention. When the hand was pulled away, the view of her friend came back. Yani was always beautiful, soft and smooth white skin, plump pink lips, round emerald vibrant eyes paired with light freckles that scattered across her nose and cheeks. Yani was a big eater, yet she was always slim, busty and curvy. [Name] didn't like to admit that she felt jealousy clawing at her heart, Yani was the kind of woman any man would die for.

No matter, Yani was a good person, she was always generous and forgiving, only with her the kind of woman that would charm anyone with honesty. "You okay [N/n]? You look dazed.. " the red head worried, eyebrows furrowed as a frown tugged down her lips. [Name] in turn, smiled, feeling awed at her friends behavior. With a smile, [Name] answered, "I'm fine Yani, continue what you were saying please".

The green-eyed woman slightly hesitated before a hefty sigh left her, a small smile coming back to her lips as she begun once more. "So basically, M.O.A has a connection to each of her children, if she is hurt or pained in some way, her kids or rather the Deities would also feel it and vice versa."

[Name] let out a sound of intrigue, brows raising as her eyes widened a tiny bit. Yani was a creative woman, able of coming up with ideas and new information about her Au at the drop of a hat. "What about her oldest son? You haven't told me about him yet" the [H/c]nette questioned, Yani beamed as she ranted about the character.

"Xeyhtan is the God of delusion and insanity, he controls the mentality of anyone. Able to break minds in seconds and delude anything free of sense. His ability allows him to peek into minds and thoughts, also abling him of tapping into the body's systems. Ironically, Xeyhtan is a very composed man, very professional and stoic when it comes to his duties and practically everything else!" Yani explained, [Name] was very interested in her best friends Au as it contained many intriguing information.

Many hours passed as they continued talking, only leaving the cafe when the establishment was nearing closing hours. The duo talked and talked, well, more like Yani spoke and [Name] dropped small replies, questions and sentences. The latter was more or less familiar with listening rather than speaking. Yani stood with [Name] facing the taller woman's door, the red head intented to say goodbye as she turned her body towards the quiet woman. "Stay." [Name] interjected, staring at the more bubbly woman out of the corner of her eye.

After hours of spending time together in the [H/c]nette's small but comfortable home, both found themselves exhausted and drained of energy, drowsiness slowly creeping up on them as both of them yawned every few minutes. [Name] was listening, Yani knew that, the red head watched the woman on her lap open her eyes after a few moments as the green eyed woman stopped talking. [E/c] eyes meeting the gaze of emerald irises, a confused look was anything but visible on the taller woman's facial features. "Sleep, you need to rest." Yani instructed, the lady on her lap only turning her head along with her body, her back turned to Yani as said woman watched her friend fall asleep.

Yani thought about it, she thought of what would happen to [Name] if she stayed, but what would also happen if she was sent there.. She wished and hoped for the woman to be safe, but wherever they went, she was always found by danger. A bus crash, a car crash, a falling brick, a random shooter, a store robbery just anything that could harm her!

She knew but she refused to admit.. This world did not accept [Name] as it's child, and one day it might succeed in taking her away... Much thought was put in this decision, Yani has trust in her own creations that they will protect [Name] with all they have. Though she should be fine, their world is nothing compared to the power of multiple Deities. Surely [Name] would be safer than anyone.. Yes, that's right. As Yani looked down at her lap, emerald green eyes watched as the woman slipped in and out of slumber, the red haired Deity spoke out words, words she knew her friend could hear.

"This world has been far too cruel to you, I'm worried it'll decide to end your life, so I'll send you away before it does.. "

'What the f#ck.. '

[Name] thought, as she took in the view of a vast sea, only finding trees—a forest behind her when she turned her head. [E/c] eyes we're blown wide as she tried to make sense of everything

'What the actual f#ck is this.. '

⫸ꔛꔛꔛꔛꔛꔛꔛꔛꔛꔛꔛꔛꔛꔛꔛꔛꔛ⫷

Yani is from my Au, which is yet to be explained because I'm lazy.

ᴍ.ᴏ.ᴀ = ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴏғ ᴀʟʟ

[ʜ/ᴄ] = ʜᴀɪʀ ᴄᴏʟᴏʀ

[ᴇ/ᴄ] = ᴇʏᴇ ᴄᴏʟᴏʀ

Just so you know, Yani is 5'5 while [Name] is 5'7

And because I like op Y/n's, [Name] will have the power/ability of many Deities (they will be introduced once their ability is shown).

So yeah.. That's that

#one piece #x reader #op #one piece x reader #oc #Yani might be gay for [Name]#reverse harem #roronoa zoro #monkey d. luffy #vinsmoke sanji #nami #nico robin #tony tony chopper #usopp #yeah that's it

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aspiring-holistic-otaku · 4 months

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Season 2 Ramble#10 - The Wind Down

This month my focus was on the slice of life genre, specifically the subgenre called iyashikei, which from Japanese to English roughly translates to healing

Been wanting to do an episode like this for a while now, firstly cause I've read a few before and they fr changed my life, really broadened my horizons on what manga as a storytelling medium has to offer,,, and that runs into the second reason I wanted to do this which is that often times I feel that the animanga community focuses too much on trying to read “heat”.... and even when a slice of life series does get in the limelight it's usually filled with drama of some sort.… so I wanted to bring the focus to/share my findings on the more exceptionally mundane things so to speak, finding peace, joy and contentment in normal day to day life

how this episode goes is:

usually I try to be very detailed with manga info like author, artist, chapter count, etc. but in the spirit of winding down I'm gonna keep it really simple, first up are 5 older reads ranked then after that reads from this month unranked but grouped by similarity. I also free balled the descriptions in the audio and here I'm gonna give very short and probably inaccurate summaries (my bad, it's the wind down ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯)

Lastly, the intended focus was on iyashikei or healing manga but not that many manga reading sites actually have the subgenre listed, it's all categorized as slice of life so some things in this list aren't exactly fully healing manga but they're all slice of life.

ok now getting into it fr

RANKED OLD READS

5) Yokohama shopping log - lesbian android enjoys the scenery and slips into melancholy sometimes

4) the emperor & I - wouldn't it be cool if you found a penguin in your freezer one day?

3) way of the house husband - former Yakuza REALLY loves his wife

2) 'tis time for torture princess - princess is horrible at keeping secrets

1) Yotsuba - young girl experiences life to the fullest

GROUPED NEW READS (UNRANKED)

[life]

guitar shop rosie - nosey guitar shop

lucky star - not sure if questionable, sometimes funny

yani neko - bum ass cat girl

Shiba occhan - living dog husband

China girl - when will we be free from the language barrier?

nomi joshi - girls drinking a lot of alcohol

takunomi - girls drinking a lot of alcohol

sleepy barmaid - girls serving a lot of alcohol and life lessons

Saint Young men - Jesus and Buddha walk into a bar

Genshiken second season - weebs are people too :'(

[pets]

cats of the louvre - cats in the louvre

she and her cat - she and her cat

rain with you - she and her "dog"

today's walk - androgynous person and their sassy dog

[nature]

haruka reset - writer takes a nature walk when they need a break

that's journey - would you believe another writer takes a nature walk when they need a break?

kabu no isaki - chill dude has a plane and takes in the sights

Mr villain's day off - Mr villain's day off

laid back/yuru camp - excuse to eat food outdoors

that's it, a lot more manga than usual but hopefully there's at least one thing in there that caught your fancy. ftr most stuff I read can be found either on manga4life or mangadex.. besides the manga stuff, as 2023 comes to an end I hope y'all can find some comfort to close out the year with so you can face 2024 recharged.

#just another day #mm..manga #iyashikei #slice of life #yokohama shopping log #the emperor & i #way of the house husband #'tis time for torture princess #yotsuba #writeup

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blueiight · 1 year

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Yall dont gotta explain to yani blueiight why u tag claudia by one of their last names lolz its just a small timer’s opinion said in jest…. i like to close out my rambles w/ likkle zingers yawl

#yn.#we know in a modern au louis would be such a pickme wan be wifed up so bad hed make them both take lestat last name LOOOOL

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monostudy · 4 years

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My dream university just released their results and I am shaking

#yanie rambles #personal

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icequeenjules26 · 3 years

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Sometimes there's things in life that leave you a completely different person than you were before. Small, tiny things, that throw your life upside down, gulp it down and spit it back out and nothing will ever be the way it was before.

For me, there's several things that have led to big changes. The butterfly effect has always been strong in my life. When I was a tiny little girl a rush of wind turned a page of a magazine in a supermarket isle, I saw my first pony and I've been hooked, a crazy horse girl ever since.

A few years ago, YouTube Autoplay led me to my first DnP video. I will forever be thankful for that, not because I joined the fandom. But because of the amazing people I got to know along the way. Most of all one of them.

It's her birthday today, and I thank whoever listens every day that she's there and that she's my friend. She's the most amazing human being I've ever encountered in my life. I love her more than I will ever be able to put into words, and she's the best friend I ever could've hoped for.

Today is her birthday. Last year, I had the utmost honour to cuddle her for her birthday because she made the incredible journey to visit me. This year's, she's literally half a world away, and all I can do is write this post and wish her all the best from afar. I miss her every day.

Happy birthday, @jorzuela . My queen, my hero. I hope every wish you have comes true. I can't wait to hug you again. I love you.

#happy birthday #yani #personal #julia rambles

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liltaventures · 5 months

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Yanis tends to space out and when he does he gets this blank soulless look on his face.

I can definitely see him accidentally scaring someone with how empty his stare is.

Random: “Is he..alright?…” *points at the half-elf*

Yanis: *Busy thinking about how scratch brought him rope as a gift and how much he cares about his four legged companion.*

#ooc || jo rambles #Yanis || Tav #Character gushing #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate tav #tav #bg3 tav #baldur's gate iii #himbo #himbo tav

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crescentmp3 · 2 years

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hiii we're home !!

#we got me .. a BROWN BUTTON-UP #it looks so nice on me and fits my vibe perfectly . im so happy #but jesus christ my mom knows nothing about physics jesus christ #annem ve babamla beraber bi çay içmek için şeye gitmiştik . ne diyebilirim #poğçacımı ne‚ pekte bakmadım #her neyse çay içiyoduk işte ( içmeye çalışıyoduk yani‚ çok sıcaktı )#annem . yer çekiminin ne olduğunu HİÇ bilmiyor allahım yarabbim ağlicam #ya . dur bi tekrar etmeye çalişiyim #'' yer çekimi sadecr dünyanın‚ örnepin başka gezegenler için mars çekimi veya jüpiter çekimi olur ''#MY MOM THOUGHT THE SUN WAS A FUCKING PLANET OH MY GOD .#GÖZLERİMİN İÇİNE BAKIP BANA '' güneş yıldızmı ki ? '' DİYE SORDU #ALLAHIM #ya . MARS ÇEKİMİ nedir yaa #SHE THINKS GRAVITY COMES FROM ROTATION #bana verdiği örnek şuydu . '' çaycı adamlar çayı çeviriyo ya‚ onun gibi ''#YARABBİM #her neyse . artık annem fen derslerine hiç girdimi emin olarak bilemiyorum #🌙rambling #// hi non-turkish speaking mutuals / followers .#google translate wont do you any good here so if you're wondering what im saying please feel free to ask

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n-eoct · 2 years

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and when i post this video that will ruin every markfs day?

#₊˚ପ⊹ cleo rambles #yani said i was evil #and i am

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minevn · 9 months

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first ramble of many: im feeling insane but hear me out. i’d just read this reddit story, in which OP’s bf would bully them online, anonymously, with different accounts and platforms, resulting in OP turning to the bf for comfort.

in irl circumstances, this is gross af, obviously, but i genuinely feel like kei is the type to do this same thing if he’s dating mc. you know, with his hackerman abilities and whatnot…..

he does hate seeing mc hurt in any capacity; mental, emotional, physical, etc. but he also takes a sick pleasure in being the cause of a certain pain that’ll make mc see him as a safe/comfort object, even tho he’s so deeply ashamed of his actions.

the less rational part of his mind tells him that he only wants to show you that he’s safe! that at the end of the day, he’s in control of all of this, so he can get as personal or distant with the insults coming from “pinkluvr26” or “madrabb1t” as he wants. these people can’t be kei, your wonderful, caring boyfriend who’s been nothing but supportive this whole ordeal. he’s there for you no matter what; even if your enemy is actually him.

even if you do find out, it’s not like he meant any of that stuff! he loves you! he loves you so much that he’d give or do anything to get you to love him back 💕

Your brain is absolutely massive, just huge. Mega mind literally cannot compete with you. Honestly, rn I'm not going to write a drabble for this cause my brain is fried and for some reason I just don't have any ideas, but I would eventually LOVE to write something with this concept. (I'm also sadly not the best story writer. Scripts I think I write fine, but I hate my writing whenever I write a drabble/story. Anyways I'll be working on this juicy story slowly in the background<3) For now lemme gush and brainstorm some ideas for this because I'm losing my MIND over this.

At first I really struggled to see it because it is a really shitty thing to do and I just couldn't imagine sweet baby Kei doing something like that. But the more I read this and thought about this, he ABSOLUTELY WOULD! (Bro manipulated ME even though he's my character?? like what?) Even better, he'd pin it on one of the other Li's since he knows you're already being stalked. Haruto would even be an easy target to blame for saying really personal thing, since he's known you since you were babies. And Yani and Kage are not THAT subtle with their stalking, he could easily pin it on them. Maybe even a Kage and Haruto two for one special, where Kei pins Kage saying the information, but Haruto was the one that gave it to them(He could do this with Jun and Aki as well). And the twins, the twins would be so easy to frame, they're already jerks to you anyways. Kei could say some of the most hate-filled and hurtful things to you and frame them for it. Minato might be a bit more tricky but maybe if you and Minato were friends, he could blame Haruto telling Minato your secrets or making up lies about you, after all, Haruto has been known to do that stuff in the past. He's great at mimicking their texting styles as well so it's just even more believable.

This is so devious and awful but I can really see Kei doing this, like I can't get this out of my head. Like I know I just read this, but like I'm gonna be thinking about this for the rest of my life. I'm feeling insane now too/pos. Dude, you're brain is literally on another level, this is like, one of the best things I've heard. I'm literally so in love with this concept. I do think Kei would be one of the most dangerous Li's, like mentally and emotionally, Yani is def the most dangerous when it come to physical strength(and using it. Hoshi and Minato would probably be able to beat them, but also if Yani is fighting for you then nothing can stop her)

Like especially if you have a pretty big following, I think he'd put out more personal information or spread lies that way you lose your following and get more hate that doesn't even come from him, and he'd try to use that to feel better about himself as well. Like "I may have started this, but I stopped a while ago and only said one thing." or "I didn't even say anything rude."(Because he wouldn't have to, he would just have to get the info out with proof)

He would 10000000% feel guilty, I think it would eat away at him and maybe even make him more sick and twisted. Like you said, he feels guilty, but he does get pleasure from it as well. It would just further his beliefs that you NEED him. Even if you found out it was him, who else would you turn to if he ruined your social status, no one else would want to talk to you. But it's okay, he'll ALWAYS love you. Even if he didn't mean any of that stuff, other people definitely think that stuff about you now, but he doesn't. And if you think he DOES feel that way, well, he'll work on making sure you know he loves you eventually, but for now, he uses it to his advantage a bit. You can think he feels that way about you, and he'll say things like "But I'm staying by your side, no matter what." or "I won't let you go through this alone." just to make you feel even more grateful towards him. Because everyone else has left you. Everyone but your sweet, caring boyfriend Kei.

Idk if anyone here knows what smau's are, but I would love to try a topic like this with smau. Just in case you don't know what smau's are, they're "a type of fanwork where fans create graphics that look like social media accounts for fictional or RPF characters" I've been really wanting to work with that but I wasn't sure with what, but I might have an idea relating to this concept if anyone is interested.

#💝-minevn #visual novel #yandere vn #🎤-asks #💻-Kei #this post is 1000000% positive btw #Everything I say it is a compliment #also I would LOVE to hear any other rambles you have #this went so hard #Sorry im going to be gushing about this concept for forever #there is just so many possibilities for it

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solarianvoidthearoace · 3 years

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Excerpt#2 of my Gerry Keay/OC Magical/Mythical CollegeAU

Part 1

CN/TW: Relationship negotiations (narrative), mushy confessions, narrative mention of abusive past relationships, narrative mention of (aversion to) sex - two sentences after "Aside from being asexual"

Characters entering a long-distance relationship, anxiety, discussion of mental illness, reference to past trauma, character experiencing an affective breakdown, character being in a dissociative/shutdown state, self-depreciation and trying to shut people out, it/its pronouns for Michael Shelley, he/they pronouns for Gerry, they/them pronouns for OC

“These last weeks… I…”, he looked away. Gerry finally looked away. He closed their eyes with a pained little smile. His next words barely above a whisper. A quiet confession,

“I thought about kissing you.” When he could look at Yanis again, they returned his little smile. Both seeing that the other didn’t dare hope, still. Yanis pressed against Gerry’s hand on their face,

“None of that sounds romantic, to me.” Which made Gerry chuckle,

“I do hope so. I’m not in love with you.” Yanis nodded, turning to press a kiss to Gerry’s palm. They lay there in quiet, processing the moment and letting their feelings calm back down. That emotional turmoil subsiding.

When Gerry’s hand slid away, he raised a brow at Yanis. A bit helpless and his tone insecure,

“Where does that leave us?”

Yanis shrugged,

“Wherever we both want, I’d say.” Gerry nodded, looking away again, half hiding in the pillow,

“I just needed to let you know.” Yanis moved closer, their shoulders touching and them pressing together from the waist down. They raised a hand to Gerry’s hair, loosely carding their fingers through.

“Do you want a relationship? Give that a try even though it will be long-distance?”, their tone gentle, as quiet as they were talking. Gerry whined,

“I don’t know.” He turned back towards them,

“I just know you’re important to me and I want to be close to you.” Yanis nodded,

“I can’t stand the thought of our goodbye being forever either. I want to be close to you like this, I want to listen to your rambling and when you infodump about something I have little clue about. And I love how we can turn so many things into hourlong debates for the fun of it just to agree after all. I’m really happy with how much we can cuddle, can touch each other. And even with one or two of your stims straining my misophonia, being around you is grounding.” Gerry nodded, another pained smile twisting their face. Yanis cooed, then shushed him,

“Don’t you start crying now. I still need to know whether you want us to try getting committed.” Gerry chuckled at that, though it was rather watery and the first tear slipped. Yanis took a deep breath, letting their hand trail from Gerry’s hair to their cheek,

“Long-distance queerplatonic relationship, what do you say?” Gerry closed his eyes for a moment, humming and finally smiling.

“Can I please kiss you already?”

They did decide to label their being together as a committed relationship. There were still some negotiations and discussions to be had, around what they both wanted, their needs and boundaries. They did have the first of those discussions the very same day. Gerry elaborating on what they liked about Yanis dragging him around. Yanis reassuring him they will always make sure Gerry stays comfortable with that. On another matter, Gerry had known about Yanis not being interested in sex. That coming up wasn’t a surprise. Aside from being asexual, Yanis knew that they personally found penetrative sex rather underwhelming. They weren’t disinclined towards the general idea. But having had one too many ex-partner get upset with them for not meeting expectations… Yanis was ultimately rather averse to sex. Which, to Gerry, didn’t matter. And Yanis had to concede that, both of their mythical nature gearing them towards seduction and sexual indulgence, they both had a solid grip on how to deal with that on their own. Making out, mutual groping and feeling each other up was very much appreciated, though. And they both knew the other would stop if they asked to. They felt no need to bring sex into their relationship if they weren’t both enthusiastic to do so.

It worked well. They talked on the phone and through video calls every week, in addition to texting every day. And when Yanis’ semester abroad came around, Gerry was all too happy to welcome them into his London home. An apartment he shared with Michael. While it was a bit sceptic, parading the brother shtick of having to approve Gerry’s partner, Yanis grew friendly with him pretty quickly.

They shared Gerry’s bedroom for the entirety of Yanis’ semester in London. Leading to some late-night shenanigans, fumbling and groping implicit, between them. Aside from getting a taste for what it could be like to move in together when they both had graduated. And being together like that was generally nice. Solidifying their relationship as the right choice for them both.

After Yanis’ semester abroad, they were left with either of their semester breaks. And since that didn’t always line up, it was bound to happen that one of them still had lectures and courses wrapping up while the other was in their non-term already.

Because of that, they had decided Gerry would come visit Yanis. And that Yanis sending them the spare key to their flat was just most convenient. Having lived together, they had seen a few of the more ugly sides of each other. Both carrying trauma with them and sometimes buckling under the load of their respective mental illnesses. Especially Yanis hadn’t been able to hide their, sometimes attack-like, affective breakdowns even while Gerry and them had simply hung out. And while it obviously wasn’t pretty and did put their evening activities on hold, Gerry never once felt burdened by Yanis.

And during their stay in London, he had been unable to hide their own affective breakdowns, their own flashbacks and shutdowns. But Yanis had taken care of Gerry all the same, not even needing prompting to help Michael in calming Gerry down. Simply waiting for instructions how to go about that in the best way.

They simply had had to acknowledge that either their mental illnesses, with attacks and meltdowns, were just part of their relationship. That accommodating not only their own but their partner’s mental health and neurodiversity was part of the necessary groundwork for them.

And they never once had had a problem with that. With needing to reassure each other, with taking care of each other as well as giving one another space when needed.

Still, Gerry’s anxiety didn’t like that his train connection to Yanis’ university city was delayed. They had been looking forward to cooking together, having a stressless evening. But the European railway network being what it was, one delay piled up to two, to three. Until, when Gerry finally made it to Germany at all, they were a solid three hours late. On his train route that would have taken 8 hours in the first place.

And he couldn’t get a hold of Yanis.

Gerry knew they had had lectures that day but even then, Yanis should have been at home around 4 in the afternoon. It wasn’t that he needed to know what they were up to instead. But Yanis not answering to texts ever since Gerry arrived in Brussels… what had been almost 8 hours now… it worried Gerry.

Of course he was worried. And in turn suddenly glad to have a key to Yanis’ flat. He knew they both had expected him to arrive some time around 6 in the evening. When he finally did let themself into Yanis’ flat, it was almost 10 at night.

The flat was dark. The curtains being left open wasn’t unusual but Yanis, needing glasses, would usually put on lights when it got past 9 in the evening. Frowning, Gerry set down his bags by the door.

Shooting them another worried text message. With how quiet it was in the empty-appearing flat, he could hear the faint buzzing of Yanis’ phone.

As Gerry went looking for it, he found the device abandoned on Yanis’ bed. And being closer to the bathroom now, they heard laboured breathing.

When he poked their head into the bathroom, Gerry felt a cold shiver running through him. Yanis sat on the floor, curled up around themself. They were pressing themself into the corner between bathtub and tiled wall. And even in the dark Gerry could easily see them shaking and shivering. A sudden sob startled them both.

“Yanis?”, he pushed the door open, slowly coming closer. Getting onto their knees a good distance from Yanis still.

“<i>Kleines</i>, what’s the matter?” Yanis tensed, taking a shuddering breath before they slowly looked up. Seeing Gerry there with them, they whimpered. Struggling before they could speak,

“I’m sorry. I…” Before mortification cleared their face,

“How late is it?” Gerry shook his head, slowly coming closer,

“Doesn’t matter. Are you okay?” Yanis blinked, turning away. Sighing, Gerry reached out for their shoulder. When Yanis didn’t pull away from their touch, he moved close enough to wrap an arm around them. Neither spoke a word while Gerry slowly stroked their back. When he felt Yanis loosen up a little, he tried again,

“Do you need anything? Are you okay?” Yanis closed their eyes,

“I’m fine. And if you want to leave, I wouldn’t fault you.” Gerry almost sat back in surprise.

“I mean it”, Yanis’ voice gaining strength again,

“I would never hold it against you if you decide I’m not worth the trouble. Or you just can’t handle seeing me like this. I’m glad you care but I understand if I’m too much. You can leave me, I’ll manage.”

Gerry didn’t know what to say. The words bringing back that cold chill and feeling like a gut punch at the same time. Searching Yanis’ face, they retracted his hand.

Very slowly, he moved away. Only getting back to their feet when there was a good distance between them and Yanis.

Leaving the bathroom, he felt a stab of guilt. But Yanis remained quiet. Assuming the worst case, Yanis had had whatever breakdown or affective attack had left them shut-down like this a good 8 hours earlier. Gerry felt nauseous even considering that. And with how Yanis had left their phone in another room, they must have had a bad mental health day in the first place. Otherwise they would have messaged him, asking they help them through the breakdown via text.

Grabbing a bottle of water and a blanket off the couch, he went back to the bathroom. Yanis had shifted. No longer curled up where they sat. Instead their legs were stretched and their body turned towards the tub, head resting on the brink.

Like this, Gerry could take a proper look at them. Well, as good as the lack of lighting allowed for.

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I’m currently playing a game called Solstice- it’s some kind of mystery visual novel set in a magic city in the freezing north, and there’s a lot of interesting threads that I’m not sure how to interpret so far.

The lantern has just exploded, and Constance is throwing her party. Galen is speaking to Slava, who asks if there’s any leads on Lev’s disappearance. Here’s what I’d like to tell her I’ve figured out so far, about who the culprit behind Lev’s disappearance and the city’s sabotage is:

Theory 1: Lev

Lev’s diary indicates that he has some kind of inscrutable magic agenda. His disappearance is not unusual, and he goes missing frequently. It’s entirely possible, albeit narratively unsatisfying, that Lev is hearing magic voices that told him to dismantle the safeguard on the lantern, steal the main control room access plans, and fuck with the system to blow up the dome, thereby... I don’t know, freeing Kala or something, because she’s being Omelas’d into sustaining the city.

Theory relies entirely on unexplained magic motives and makes the rest of the cast irrelevant, so I don’t like it.

Theory 2: Istvan

Lev’s diary has a telling line- something like “I met with I today”, or something. Looks like a madman’s ramblings, but “I” could be an initial, representing the only person whose name starts with I- Istvan. Istvan, notably, is doing some kind of weird magic astronomy thing he won’t explain, and the map to the main control room that he supposedly was supposed to hold on to is mysteriously missing. The diary paints a picture of Istvan manipulating Lev somehow, encouraging his delusions and getting him to pursue some kind of unknown magical agenda.

The problem with this theory, though, is that Istvan doesn’t have a clear motive. He’s the man in charge, here- the main thing we know about the sabotage plan is that the result of the sabotage plan is that the city becomes an uninhabitable freezing ruin and everyone dies. This is his city, and he doesn’t seem to have any obvious troubles that would be solved by its destruction, even if he had some secret method he could escape the city and survive. It’s possible he’s behind this, but- while I’m pretty sure he’s behind Lev in some meaningful way, I don’t think the sabotage was his idea, unless there’s some desperate political situation he’s embroiled in that forces him to take drastic measures like this. An insurance scam, maybe?

Theories 3 and 4: Constance or Laura

As mentioned, the primary goal accomplished by the plot is the total destruction of the city and everyone in it, including the plotter. So... who’s potentially suicidal? Laura is very obviously depressed and angry at the world, that’s not hard to imagine- and Constance is clearly repressing some kind of painful past, and isn’t very happy with her current situation, though she pretends otherwise.

What points to Constance? Opportunity, primarily. If we assume a single plotter... her bathhouse is highly suspicious. Not only is it a prime place to poison the water (thereby killing Galen’s herbs), but it has that special whispering gallery phenomenon that allows her to hear everything that goes on there. It’d give her access to information no one intended for her to have, and... whispering galleries are two-way. If Lev is hearing the disembodied voice of Kala, and operating on her orders... who better-suited to trick him into thinking he’s hearing voices? As for motive... I can’t be sure, but hints at her backstory point to a possible revenge motive against whoever put her in this situation.

What points to Laura? Again, opportunity, plus the motive already discussed. Laura is closed to Istvan, which puts her in a position to do things like steal the main control room map, steal Lev’s key while he was visiting Istvan, and eavesdrop on whatever Istvan’s plan was and possibly hijack it for her own ends. She’s also terrible at tarot reading and blatantly lied about card meanings (wasn’t expecting that to be evidence), and is just generally well-positioned to interfere and complicate whatever’s going on between Lev and Istvan.

Who’s not a suspect?

Profile: Galen

I’m Galen. So I know I didn’t do it. But if I were Yani, and needed to evaluate him without that benefit, I’d say his timing is suspicious, his Academy affiliation is suspicious, and his attitude is concerning- but if there’s a motive, I can’t see it.

Profile: Yani

Again, I’m Yani, except actually I’m Galen right now. Yani has a few potential suspicious points: she’s the only source we have on the claim that the lantern’s first safeguard was deliberately sabotaged, the timing of her arrival is suspect- but most importantly, she nearly died just getting here, and clearly isn’t such a master schemer that she could pull off everything else but not avoiding a chilly death in the desert.

Profile: Kasiya

Kasiya is acting weird, but it’s weird in a way I think I have figured out. He’s refusing to properly look into Lev’s case, but also... he went to Sem, asking if the dogs could help find Lev. He snuck away from the party, thinking he had a new clue. He’s clearly looking into it- but he needs to look like he’s doing nothing. This points to Istvan ordering him to stay out of it, but him being too good a dude to actually do nothing. Also, he doesn’t strike me as suicidal. Possible weak link, vulnerable to Istvan, but not the one making moves.

Profile: Yakone

She’s an idiot- and furthermore, a hedonistic idiot who I doubt wants to freeze to death. She has some vague connection to Kala and the town’s history that I haven’t looked into enough, so she might have a role in that mystery and have some magic motive like Lev, but I doubt she’s too important.

Profile: Sem

Sem’s misanthropic and cunning, but I don’t know about suicidal- and moreover, this plan threatens the dogs. He just wouldn’t do that, plain and simple. Could be he’s up to something, but it’s not on the same scale as destroying the city.

Profile: Slava

Well, Slava, if I had suspicions on you, I wouldn’t tell you, would I? But I don’t see it- again, you’re distraught but not depressed and suicidal, and while it’s not out of the question that you schemed to get rid of your deadbeat husband somehow, that’s a selfish motive that doesn’t involve city-destruction, even if I bought the idea that you’re up to something.

Profile: Everything else

There’s space for two more character tabs in my notes. I bet one of them is Kala, but I don’t know about the other. The named characters aren’t literally the only people in the city- there’s guards at Istvan’s house, for instance. An unnamed culprit could be flying under the radar, though it’d bring Knox’s Decalogue down on our heads. The Academy and the Faculty also seem to have their own motives here, but it’s unclear to what extent Galen and Yani embody those motives.

That’s all I’ve got for now- I’m going to keep investigating and see what new tidbits I can dig up.

#solstice #solstice game #moacube #i don't know if there's a fandom or anything for this that i can reach by tagging #anyway yeah some mystery liveblogging

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