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lhrry · 2 years
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#I’m only starting to process everything now bc I went right back to work when I came from Spain but I just want to say#yk the trip was really really difficult for me for several different reasons piling onto each other and I was seriously considering leaving#before afhf and spent a lot of the trip crying and honestly don’t know what I would do if people like Lisa Ali and Raina weren’t there for#and with me and I’ll always be grateful to them#BUT I want to say that the festival itself was so healing like so so so healing I can’t even begin to express it#to watch louis do what he does - even before he was on stage it was so clear he was so involved with the entire concept of the festival and#and the whole thing was such a perfect vision and it was so fan oriented even with free water and vegan food and stuff#to watch the other bands perform (because there’s just nothing in this world that I love more than music and concerts)#and then watch him on stage himself was so incredible he was so so so incredible and he gave me so much joy and idk strength to keep going#and motivation and like I felt alive and myself again after quite some time and he as the person who stood there was just unbelievable and#in the context of my trip being what it was it was just ….. yeah I can’t describe it#and this in combination with the community that was there and the energy of the crowd which nobody else but louis has actually and the#fact that you really feel like you’re a part of sth it was magical#and by that I just want to say i know I complained a lot but it meant the absolute world to me to be there despite everything and louis#really is a walking beacon of light saving me again and again#Harry’s show this year probably changed the course of my life for a few reasons and it really was one of the most important moments for me#but watching louis reminded me of that and more and just yea#made me feel like myself again and I love him and I know I’m not the only one for whom the festival was so healing <3
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twopoppies · 2 months
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Different anon-
I do not believe harry is with Taylor even 0.0001%.. because it’s clear atleast for me that Harry is not straight neither Bi.. its just it’s becoming too much for me to believe that HL are together.. after seeing grown up relationships and people around, wanting to truly believe that HL when they spend half of their time oceans separating them, and knowing ppl wouldn’t put that much effort moreover in their field.. I’ve seen all your responses and India’s too .. i want to believe those because i like those kind of relationships and may be because we all do and have seen both boys going through something so beautiful together.. its just few things that happened last year made me think all i was assuming was just that.. just if you don’t mind can you tell me what you think of B being only person from H team(band or crew) on the yacht full of couples and being invited to brit and H posting his pic on valentines day.. am not sure if you’ve seen this before i kind of asked similar thing when it happened, i don’t think you responded, ‘cause may be you’ve missed the ask or you did not wanted to.. but yea just these when it happened i thought may be harry has moved on.. no intention of annoying you, you are my favourite person here, not just saying for the sake of it, hope it does not come across that way..just wanted to take this moment to say i really appreciate all that you do😇
Hi, sugar. Here’s the thing. I really have no idea if they’re still together these days. I’ve said often that there are moments that make me think yes, they are. There are song lyrics that make me think yes, they are. And there are a lot of questions about other things that make me feel that they’re not. I go back and forth.
But I’ve always said that what I want most for them is for them to be happy. If they’re happier apart, then that’s the way it is. The idea of that makes me sad, but it’s not my relationship and I’m not here to convince people they’re together.
However, I can say that there’s absolutely nothing about Brad that makes me think they were dating/hooking up etc. There was a much sexual energy between the two of them as between Harry and a stick of wood. I do think Harry’s team was very aware of fandom chatter and they probably played it up at times. For me, Brad’s existence has absolutely zero bearing on whether I think Harry and Louis are together. I can’t tell you how to feel about it. But if you think it was a relationship, it’s pretty clear it isn’t anymore as he appears to have moved to Los Angeles.
Thank you for all the sweet words, love. I really appreciate it. ❤️
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theirloveisgross · 1 year
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Recent text chain between Harry and Louis on November 24, 2022.
Lou, are you there?
Yea baby what's up
Can you check on the photoalbums for a photo of Alessandro?
Sure why
I just want to post a cute photo I took of him last summer to my Instagram.
Oooo you're breaking character again
Bambi was my inciting incident.
Alright nerd . Is the photo the one on his porch
Mmm, no. One where he's got his hands on his face?
...
Did you find it?
...
Lou?
Sorry it's hard wugh me arm like this
I know, I'm sorry!!! Nevermind, okay? I'll find one on my phone, I'm sure.
*IMG20221124185050.jpg*
Thank you, love of my life and light of my world! I will make it up to you in a million kisses and thousands of cuddles and hundreds of blowies.
Only hundreds iwabt a million of those
Yes, whatever you ask of me, I will do, no questions asked.
H you sorta already do that to becfair
But there will be zero attitude. For a year, at least.
Haha well see about that
So you can write me a song about how obedient I am.
You think you clever
Send me a selfie? 🥺
*IMG20221124185528.jpg*
LOUIS! I'm in the middle of soundcheck! Someone could see my phone! Fuck's sake!
That didn' last very long
...sorry. You are so beautiful... I want to put my tongue everywhere and I want to eat you up (except your arm because... the screws).
Hahaha sgut up
Were you naked looking for the albums?
Yea was about ti shower when you texted
Okay, go. Sorry. You're the best. I love you!
Love you too
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Let me start with saying that am a larrie.. this year the concept of them together seems for fetched and feels like people are trying really hard in proving and linking HL when in reality nothing has indicated that being true.. blue green outfits mean literally nothing at this point.. i sometimes feel like they do that to fuel the hl drama and they know that they just need to combine 2 colours and larries run with it. It is like they are gaining more by doing less.. see even how pleasing is kind of using it to market. They know that even to criticize larries share their product in which harry is involved with his own interest .. I never understood why with the years worth of content others call larries delusional but these days I feel like may be it is true.. we are very quick to say that any women h is seen with as stunt.. men he is seen with are just friends or team members. You don't bring a personal trainer to every show and even if you are crazy to be in shape because now h has got world attention at more higher level or because he wants be fit enough to perform at that level but you don't keep them in the vip area or bring them to grammy or sing to them or bring them for lunch with family & friends, look for them during performance unlike how you treat your rest of the crew.. I know some are just not trying to see the point and brush it off saying he is his worker who at this point might've become his friend because of the time they spend together... and then L is running with a different group if people altogether and trying to steer clear of anything that is harry. Please don't say that it is more the reason of them being together. Nothing has stopped him doing that before... The fond look louis used to have when harry was brought up in interviews is no longer there and now it's more like let's this question related to him over.. sorry, this is long.. but H who never curses on stage atleast in the mic however his fuck you in coachella was very personal and targeted(to louis i felt) after which I've seen the shift.. cause before that louis had worn Maison shirt, white purple checked shirt, you are home page had put coordinates pointing to louis.. But after coachella it has been different(louis blocking hld which is like the famous larry account out there which i dont think he blocked because of announcement that was in the open area).. at this point I feel like HL are also using larries.. H is kind of someone who wants all parts of his fandom happy.. remember when the songs were leaked how targeted they were. Already home to larries, him/trouble to haylors, complicated freak or baby honey to harries?? So yea at this point HL being together is more like a concept which they and their team are using to make money. May be they also does not want to reminded of eachother just like in case of any exes.. but them being in this profession and having a relentless fanbase who are hell bent on proving them being together they just don't wanna add any fuel anymore.. I know it's not your responsibility to convince me or others and one can keep believing what feels right..
Hi Love!
I feel like every time we get a new stunt, I see lots of people being like “oh, maybe this time it’s real” etc.
In regards to Brad being at the show. While I fully agree that H doesn’t *need* his personal trainer with him, some people like to work out with others / have a better work out when working out with others. I’ve said before I don’t totally know what Brads role is for H- sometimes it seems like he’s security in a way? It’s also possible they’re friends, and you would want your friends at shows? The Brad situation is one that I honestly feel like people pay too much attention to, and it’s made it more of a thing than it ever was.
I think at this point, the Blue/Greening isn’t so much of a signal/way of telling us something as it is a “we know you know we know” kinda thing? I agree that Pleasing seems to Larrie Bait a bit- especially with the smiley face on the nails.
Couples are allowed to have different friends- and Louis is very clearly close with his tour group, and from everything he has said/done, they’re like a family to him.
I think if they were truly exs, we wouldn’t get the bluegreening, we wouldn’t get pleasing posting Larry related things etc.
I’ve often found that H & L will do something, and we won’t discover the true extent of why until much later.
I’m not sure I’ve hit all of the points in your ask, but I’m about to leave for work, so I wanted to at least answer some of them!
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Summary: Y/N (stylist!yn) applies to be a styling intern for the One Direction crew during the Where We Are tour. As she gets better at her job and closer to the band and crew (especially Harry Styles), some of her dreams seem to be coming true, but so are some of her fears.
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CHAPTER 29 -
I COME ALIVE WHEN I HEAR YOUR VOICE
A/N: Fun! I'm having fun writing these chapters! I hope you're having fun reading them!? Thanks to @behindmygreyeyes for letting me talk out my ideas and get some perspective for this chapter. And as always, Mae @watermelonsugacry for putting up with every single question I ask.
>> Warnings: Some language, a little angsty (I think?)
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June 13th, 2015 - Concert Day
Since your little emotional breakdown a week ago in Cardiff, you've been trying to avoid any run-ins with Harry. It's too difficult to see him with Candice. You want to keep away so you can keep yourself together.
You get to the Brussels show venue early, as you usually do, to get things done quickly. You put out a plain black t-shirt and black jeans for Harry, disappointed that he's not taking many style risks anymore. Niall will get a white long sleeve shirt and denim jeans. You make a mental note to encourage him, again, to venture out.
You make your way down to catering, hoping to grab a quick smoothie, and then keep yourself busy the rest of the time.
"Oi! Y/N!" Louis shouts from behind you, as you walk down the hallway.
You swivel around.
"I've been looking for ya!" He says, bounding up to you.
"What's up? You're so… bouncy…"
"I'm pumped up right now!" He grins.
"Why's that?"
"It's the first time we are performing 'No Control' live!" Louis exclaims.
"No way!" Your mouth drops open.
"You've gotta come watch!"
You suddenly tense up.
Louis grabs your shoulders. "It would mean a lot to me, but you don't have to, love."
Your heart flutters knowing that you want to support Louis, even if you don't want to see Harry.
[But he will be moving around on stage, it won't be too bad]
"I'll be there Tommo. I won't miss it." You smile.
"You're the best, babe!"
"I know." You giggle. "I'll see you out there."
You turn back around and make your way to catering again, needing that smoothie now even more.
[Definitely not a coffee, your nerves are now on full alert as it is]
~~~~~
<< HARRY'S POV >>
He hasn't stopped thinking and worrying about you since that last show in Cardiff. Niall told him it's not his job anymore, and he is probably right, but even as just a friend, he wants to make sure you're okay.
Only… he doesn't think he can be your friend. Not just your friend. He wants to uncomplicate those feelings, even by a small amount.
Harry woke up early and ran down to grab some coffees while Candice still slept. His mind was racing, and he just wanted this morning to move by quickly.
He arrives back at the room to see Candice sitting up in the bed.
"There you are." She smiles.
"Sorry, went to get drinks." He states, handing her one of the coffee cups.
He sits on the edge of the bed and takes a sip of his black coffee, staring at it as he holds it in his hands.
"Candice…"
"Yep."
"I…" he sighs. "I'm so sorry. I… umm… I have to end this."
She chokes a little on her coffee and scoots next to him on the bed.
"What?"
He closes his eyes and shakes his head. "I need to end it. It's not fair to yo-"
"Not fair? Not…" She scoffs. "It's Y/N."
"Huh?" He asks, lifting his head up in her direction.
"It's Y/N, right? You have feelings for her." She states.
Harry sighs for the third time. He opens his mouth but words can't come out, so he just looks her in the eye with an apologetic expression.
"I can see it, Harry. Every time you're around her." She sighs and shakes her head. "I was wrong to think I could change that."
"I'm sorry Candice. I did like what we ha-"
"But you wasted my time, Harry!" She shouts, a few tears forming in her eyes.
"I thought I could get over her, that I would be over her!" He admits.
"Over her?" She growls.
"Shit." He mutters. "Y/N and I dated last year."
"Right." She nods. "So, I was just a rebound. Someone to get over her with? I really didn't stand a chance, did I?"
He groans. "I didn't think-"
"No, you didn't think, at all. You didn't think about how it would hurt me!" She covers her face with her hands. "You shouldn't have dragged me into this."
He runs his hand through his long curly hair and then over his face.
"I feeling fucking terrible." He shakes his head.
She sits there, silent.
"Everything is so fucked up." He adds.
"Yeah, it is. What you did is really fucked up." She inhales deeply and puts her hand on his. "Just don't fuck it up with her, okay?"
His eyes shoot over to hers. "What?"
"You fucked it up with me… but… it was never me you really wanted." She looks down at her coffee. "So… just… don't fuck it up with her. Don't break her heart too."
He winces. "I already did." He whispers.
"Oh." She replies. "Well… if she's worth all this bullshit then fix it."
[Can't really do that, you're with someone else]
"I'm really sorry, Candice. I really am."
"Shockingly, I believe you." She responds.
He gives her a little smile, but she gives him a little frown back with hers.
"But that doesn't mean you're not an asshole for this." She adds.
"Fair enough." He nods.
"Let me get my things. I'll be out of here soon."
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Harry gets to the venue early, knowing that's what you like to do, being the hard-worker that you are. He doesn't even know what he's doing, or what he wants to say, but he wants to see you.
Walking through the halls, searching for you, he comes up to the dressing room, but stops before getting to the doorway.
"So, what exactly happened with Ryan?" Niall asks, clearing his throat.
[Something happened with Ryan?]
"They broke up." Natalie replies.
[Broke up?]
"Why?"
"Oh, the dickhead didn't want her coming back on tour!" Harry hears her scoff. "He basically almost demanded that she stay."
"What? Asshole." Niall states.
"And he accused her of cheating with Harry."
[What a wanker]
"Woah. That's rough."
"He was always jealous of Harry because Y/N… well… you know…" She states.
"Is she okay?"
"About the breakup? Yeah. She's the one that ended it."
"That's our girl!" Niall chuckles.
"But about Harry? I don't know." She states. "I think she still fucking loves that idiot."
[What? You still love him? Okay, now he has definitely got to find you]
He doesn't wait any longer and walks through the doorway, pretending he didn't hear anything the two of them were just talking about.
"Hey, Nat, where's Y/N?"
She gasps as she turns around from the sudden surprise of him being there.
"What the fuck, Harry?" She shouts.
"For fucks sake, man!" Niall adds.
"M'sorry… but… please?" Harry begs.
She puts her hands on her hips and shrugs. "I don't know. Busy somewhere?"
Harry looks around, as if he'll find you standing right there. He sighs.
"Why are you trying to find her?" Niall asks.
Harry's eyes switch back and forth between their faces. "I just want to talk to her."
"Candice doesn't care that you're roaming the halls looking for Y/N?" Natalie snaps.
"I… no… I broke up with her this morning."
"You broke up with the Victoria's Secret supermodel?" She asks.
"Yes…" He responds.
"Really? Why?"
"We, umm… we just weren't working out."
Natalie folds her arms across her chest and Niall raises his eyebrow at him.
"Mhmm…" Niall states, quizzically.
Harry rolls his eyes and throws his arms up in the air. "For fucks sake. She wasn't Y/N, okay? Is that what you want me to say?"
The two look at each other and chuckle. "Yeah, pretty much." Niall replies, letting out a big laugh.
"Look, Harry, she's hurting enough. Don't stir things up any more than they already are. Please." Natalie asserts. "She deserves to be happy."
He nods. "I know. I want her to be happy."
"Wait…" Natalie says, scooting a little closer to Harry. "You broke up with Candice to be with Y/N?"
Harry furrows his brow. "No. I knew, well I thought, she was still with Ryan. I didn't know they broke up."
Natalie inhales sharply. "Oh, you heard that? Damn. So… you… broke up with Candice figuring you don't even have a chance with Y/N?"
Harry nods and clears his throat. "Yes."
"Damn it, Styles!"
"What?" He asks, eyes widened.
She squints at him. "I was still leaning towards hating you."
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As time gets closer to the start of the show, you and Natalie hide out in the common room with a handful of the other crew.
You are fidgeting with the hem of your shirt, staring down as you roll it up, and then down again.
"Honey, we don't have to go out there." Natalie states.
You clear your throat. "I just want to support Louis."
She sighs.
"And we can stand on the other side this time." You add.
"Alright. For Louis." She nods.
"Plus, I can't wait to hear and see it live." You admit.
"It's going to be yummy." She winks at you.
"Not family friendly."
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'Diana' is about halfway through when you walk out from backstage. You take a deep breath.
[It will not be like last time. You're on the opposite side. And it's a completely different song anyway]
As soon as 'No Control' starts to play, and Niall starts to sing, the crowd goes crazy with cheers. You join in, but only shortly, as you realize that Harry is walking by on the side where you are standing.
[Why does the universe hate you so much?]
(No Control)
Sweet, where you lay
He spots you, but it's a blank look. Not a smile. Not a frown. Just… blank. Almost like he would be gulping if he weren't singing. Surprise? Nerves?
Just a trace of innocence
on the pillowcase
Something hits him in the stomach, and you can't help but laugh as he bends over and gives a silly expression.
The chorus starts and you turn your attention to Louis. He is on the other side, but you can still see him, and beam with pride as he sings out. This is his song, for sure.
Taste, on my tongue
I don't want to wash away
the night before
Harry runs his hands down his body as Liam songs his verse. You roll your eyes a bit, and notice he took a quick glance at you again. But it feels a bit awkward, because he's not serenading you or anything, he's just… looking…
"I thought Harry would dance around more." Natalie states, leaning in so she doesn't have to about too loud.
"Yeah, you're right. Maybe he doesn't feel good?"
She chuckles. "Or he could just be distracted by the fact that you're here."
"Stop." You glare at her.
"No, I mean, like he wasn't expecting it."
You shrug. "Maybe."
When the second chorus starts, you turn your attention back to the other guys, and throw up your best 'rock on' hand gesture when Niall looks down at you, jamming out on his guitar.
Harry walks over to him right then and points his fingers over him in his Mick Jagger impersonation. It always gets a laugh out of Niall, and you can't help but giggle too.
Right after that, Harry starts walking closer to your spot, but turns back around when he looks at you again.
[You thought this may be upsetting and sad for you, but this is just weird]
Niall nails the bridge and Louis starts the last chorus, giving you a bit of relief that the awkwardness will soon end.
The pedal's down
My eyes are closed
No control
The song ends and Harry's hair falls in his face. As he flips it forward a bit more, he glances over to you one last time through his curly locks.
You can't help but frown, turning to Natalie and motioning for the both of you to head backstage again.
As soon as you are through the curtain, you whip around to face her.
"Is it just me, or was Harry being really weird?" You ask.
"I don't know." She shrugs, looking away from you quickly. "He's weird as it is."
You chuckle.
You both tidy up the dressing room and start packing up. Amelia walks in with a big smile, as she sees you two.
"My angels. My job is so easy with you two here." She walks over to help, and scoots right up next to you as you remove clothing from the racks.
She leans in. "Are you glad Candice is gone?"
"Oh. I didn't know she went home." You reply. "Thought she'd stay longer."
She chuckles. "Right. Well, I'm sure she would have if they didn't break up…"
Your eyes shoot over to her. "What?"
"Oh! You didn't know? Shit." Her gaze snaps over to Natalie, whose mouth stretches out in an uncomfortable and guilty expression.
You glare at her. "No I didn't."
"Well… I'm just… gonna get a snack or something and just not… be here…" Amelia states, immediately walking out of the dressing room.
"What the fuck, Nat?"
"What?" She throws her hands up in defense.
"Why didn't you tell me?" You ask.
"I… I don't know… you've been so upset lately… that's why I didn't say anything, and why I told him to stay back." She admits.
"You what?"
She walks over and puts her hands on your shoulders. "Y/N/N, I'm sorry. I just… I hate seeing you hurting. Especially since I had been pushing you to feel your feelings, and go after what you wan-"
"It's not your fault, Nat!" You interrupt. "And… it was actually nice."
She drops her hands and raises her eyebrow.
"I mean… it was nice to…" you clear your throat. "To feel loved. Even for a moment."
Tears start welling up in both of your eyes.
"Are you going to talk to him?"
Confusion takes over you again. You feel sick and giddy all at the same time. You're not sure if you want to open that door again.
"I don't know." You sigh. "I just… I don't know."
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June 19th, 2015 - Concert Day
You have stayed away from Harry again, trying to process all of the confusion that once again seems to be clouding your mind.
Even with the limited styling options, you've kept yourself busy, and today will be no exception. But first thing on the agenda, Lou invited you to get dolled up a bit this morning. She has so much fun doing it and you aren't one to turn down that offer.
With your makeup done and your hair curled, you have a little pep in your step when you get back to the dressing room. You find the Bluetooth speaker Amelia has been using while the three of you work, and you embarrassingly decide to play one the 'Four' album.
[The songs have been stuck in your head lately, so why not let them out?]
(Steal My Girl)
She be my queen
Since we were sixteen
We want the same things
We dream the same dreams
Alright
Alright
You dance around as you hang up the clothes. You stand back and look at Niall's rack.
[One day you'll get him in a printed shirt]
I know, I know
I know for sure
You instinctually pretend you are sliding your fingers along the neck of a bass guitar, just as you saw Harry do that time they performed at Universal Studios.
A huge laugh erupts from behind you and you spin around.
"M'sorry." He covers his mouth with his hand.
Your mouth is halfway open and words seem to be dissolving in your brain.
"That was funny." He states. "No, like, amazing, because… umm… because you copied what I did…" he sighs.
[You have got to stop singing around here]
"Yeah." You try to clear the lump in your throat. "Umm… so… what's up? Do you need help with something?"
His expression drops. "No. I just, umm, wanted to say hi. Haven't seen ya… in a while."
"Yeah. I've been busy lately."
[Lie. Kind of a lie]
"Right. Okay. I'll let you get back to it." He gives the most subtle smile and turns to walk out.
Your heart starts to race and your breathing quickly becomes rapid. You don't want him to leave just yet.
"Harry!"
He spins around fast, eyes wide.
"I found a shirt the other day. And, well, I grabbed it for you. Just as an option. If you wanted to switch it up at all."
You feel as if you just word vomited all over the place, but feel a sense of relief when his smile grows and he walks closer.
"M'kay. Let's see it."
You turn back to the rack and let out the deep breath you didn't realize you had been holding it.
You grab the plain, cream button up shirt with extremely subtle cream texture detail on it.
"It's not wild. More of an in-between option of your previous styles." You shrug.
He beams a wide grin. "Are you bored with the t-shirts?"
"Oh god, yes!" You blurt out, smacking your forehead with your palm. "Sorry."
He chuckles. "S'alright."
"Why did you stop wearing the fun button ups?" You ask.
He starts to blush, but then he frowns and looks to the ground, shrugging.
"Didn't care much anymore."
"But you wore some when I visited South Africa, and for the shows in Cardiff…"
He clears his throat. "Yeah, well." He looks up at you and meets your gaze.
You inhale, sharply but quietly, then look back at the shirt you're holding, before he can see the blushing that wants to appear on your face too.
"Well, this is just an option to throw into the mix."
"I want to wear it." He replies.
"Yeah?"
He nods. "Yeah."
You smile and set it at the front of his rack. You try to reset your face while you're facing away from him, but it's not working. Then, as if your brain switches off, you hear yourself talking about something you shouldn't really care about.
"Hey." You state, still not turning to face him. "I'm sorry to hear about you and Candice."
"What?" His tone changes, and you can tell he isn't smiling anymore, so you turn to face him.
"You two broke up, right?" You wince. "Rumors… ya know?"
"Yeah." He frowns a bit. "It just… wasn't working."
"Oh."
"And, umm, I'm sorry to hear about you and Ryan… ya know, rumors." He smirks.
"It wasn't working either." You shrug.
"He should've been supportive. He shouldn't have tried to make you to stay." He growls. "He's a dickhead."
You chuckle. "To be fair, you never liked him."
"F'course not! What's to like?"
You chuckle again and shake your head. His eyes seem to graze over your head and back to your face.
"Did you visit Lou?" He smirks.
You giggle. "Yeah." You touch your hair a bit. "She's been playing around with it here and there."
"It… it looks really nice."
"Thank you." You mutter. "Yeah… so…"
"So." He replies.
"I should probably…" you point over your shoulder to the clothing racks.
"Right. Yeah." He replies.
You turn around, holding onto the rack and closing your eyes, trying to stabilize your breathing.
"Y/N?"
"Yeah?" You twirl back around to face him.
"Wanna come watch a song?"
You inhale, sharply and quietly again.
"You know, like, dance and sing to a live One Direction song, instead of from a speaker." He smirks.
You glare at him. "Hmm."
He clears his throat. "Please?"
The breath is taken from you again, and you feel that familiar but long absent feeling.
[Butterflies]
"Okay." You smile. "Which one…?"
He points to the speaker. "That one."
~~~~~
Natalie is standing there, in the dressing room, with her hands on her hips.
"I'm so fucking confused. So… you're going to watch a song? Again?"
You shrug. "Yeah?"
"And why?"
"He asked me to." You reply. "Well, he asked if I wanted to."
"And you said yes?"
You nod.
"Why?"
You frown slightly, but stop to think, because you don't actually have a specific answer for her.
"I don't know. I just want to. Feels like it'll be fun this time." You start to feel that inconvenient heat rise in your cheeks, so your drop your gaze downward.
"Okay, cool! If it'll be fun, can I come?" Natalie asks, causing you to snap your head back up.
"I thought that was a given…"
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<< HARRY'S POV >>
As the guys are gearing up to go out on stage, Harry feels his phone vibrate in his pocket.
:natalie: are you stirring things up again?
:harry: no, i'm not trying to
:natalie: because she is happy today
:natalie: and i don't want to see her hurt again
:harry: i don't want to either
He sees the typing bubble appear, and then disappear, but then reappear again.
:natalie: which side should we be standing on
He gets the biggest smile on his face, then excitement and energy pump through his body.
:harry: your left, looking at the stage
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You and Natalie decide to just head out there for the beginning of the show, since 'Steal My Girl's will be playing right after 'Clouds'.
The crowd is loud and vibrant. You love and have missed the energy, and now you think you can finally enjoy it again.
You watch as Harry moves all around the left side of the stage. You realize what you're doing and look back to the others, watching them have their own fun. Liam is doing his usual dancing and twirling, Niall is rocking out on his guitar, and Louis does his little bounce in place.
The next song is the one you've come to see and you get anxious.
"You good?" Natalie asks.
"Yeah! Great actually." You reply, unintentionally biting your lower lip a bit.
"Okay." She smirks, shaking her head.
She be my queen
Since we were sixteen
We want the same things
We dream the same dreams
Alright
Alright
Harry's bouncing around a little, singing to fans, and seems to recognize someone in the crowd.
When Niall's part comes up, Harry does the move that he had made fun of you for doing earlier.
[Why is it so hot when he does it?]
You try to shake your thoughts off and just enjoy the song as Liam starts the next verse. But your eyes are moving over to Harry again. You can't help it.
While they are singing their last 'na na na' of the chorus, Harry looks down at you and smiles. It sends a rush of goosebumps all over your skin.
She belongs to me
It takes you back to the times he invited you to watch them perform 'Right Now' last year. The same giddiness and butterflies fill your stomach.
You take a deep breath, trying to calm and control yourself.
As Niall sings his next part, you look straight up to Harry, waiting to see if he does his move again.
I know, I know
I know for sure
Sure enough, he licks his finger and pretends to slide his other hand up the neck of a bass guitar. He looks over at you and grins.
[You need to stop getting flustered]
You start to feel warm all over, and suddenly become very aware of how you're reacting, especially because it switches when he starts singing about never letting her down before.
It tightens your chest a little.
The guys start to move down the walkway, so you are able to shake it off and go back to belting out the rest of the song, like Harry had suggested you do.
The song comes to an end, so you and Natalie make your way backstage
You reach the dressing room and Natalie gently grabs your wrist to turn you around.
"So, what's going on, Y/N?" She asks.
"What do you mean?"
"I just want to know where you stand, how you're feeling."
"What the hell are you talking about?" You cross your arms over your body.
"Y/N/N, you were humming the song all the way back here!" She puts her hands on her hips.
"So? I like the song…" you scowl.
"And maybe also like the person who was standing in front of you and singing it?" She raises one eyebrow at you.
"I… well… I mean, yes. You know how I feel." You state. "But it was just… fun!"
"If you say so." She rolls her eyes.
"Why do you care anyway?" You ask, matching her stance with your hands on your hips. "You hate Harry."
She clears her throat. "He fucked up, big time. I hate that he hurt you."
"But…"
"But… You seem happy today, and I love that."
You walk over to your best friend and grab her face. "It was just the song."
[Except it wasn't]
"Okay, honey."
"I think."
She swats your arm and shakes her head.
"You're impossible."
"Trust me." You reply. "I'm annoying myself too."
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You hear the fireworks and the cheering that occurs during 'Best Song Ever' and you finish packing up the stuff for the trip to the next show.
Thudding of footsteps can be heard in the hallway and the guys all pop into the room.
"Fuck, I'm knackered, lads." Louis exclaims.
"I do just want to go to bed." Niall agrees.
"Then what are you doing here?" You chuckle.
They both look over at you. "Love, it's ritual now. We come back here after the last show in each place. Since there was only one here, that's tonight." He nods.
"You came to see me? Aww shucks, you don't need to do that!" You joke, dramatically holding one hand on your chest and waving the other towards them bashfully.
"Oh geez. We've lost her, lads. She's gone insane." Niall states.
You all laugh.
Harry follows Liam through the doorway, and he grabs a water bottle before making his way over to you.
"So?" He asks.
"So… what?"
"Feedback?"
"Oh! Yeah! Definitely better live!" You chuckle.
He gives you a wink and those old butterfly friends of yours return.
"Told ya." He smirks. "Kinda like old times right?"
"What?"
"You coming to watch part of the show… me asking what you thought… now all we need is cooki-"
You don't even realize you have a tear until it starts to trickle down your face. You frantically whip around, pretending to cough, and wipe it away.
[Hopefully he didn't see that embarassing display]
He shoves his pants into his jean pockets and let's out a deep sigh. "It's just nice, to be friends again."
"Yeah." You smile. "It is."
His eyes are glued on yours and he scoots closer, causing your entire body to tense up as you can feel his warmth and smell in his aroma. It takes your breath away and you have to remind yourself to let in some air.
[Keep. Your. Composure]
"C'mon lads, time to go! Dad is getting grumpy." Louis shouts, as he points to Liam.
You exhale in a big sigh, and you swear you can just barely hear him growl. He clears his throat and stands up straight.
"Maybe I'll see ya around." He winks.
"Maybe…" You shrug jokingly.
They all walk out and Natalie comes bounding up to you.
"Yeah… okay… it was just the song…" she squints at you.
"Mhmm." You smirk. "Just the song."
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Annual Writing Self-Evaluation 2022
I wanted to this again as I had so much fun last year. And I have grown so much since last year hheehe. Let's see how this year turned out.
1. Number of stories posted to AO3 this year: 20 (+1 coming)
2. Word count posted for the year: 100,386
3. Fandoms I wrote for: One Direction
4. Pairings: Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson and Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson/OMC
5. Story with the most:
Kudos: If You Forget Me
Bookmarks: If You Forget Me
Comments: Caught In Between Love
More under the cut.
6. Work I’m most proud of (and why): 
When I Say Give Me (I mean the world). It was the first Girl Direction fic I have written and the first longer fic in a long time (19k is a lot for me). In the middle of this fic my crush broke my heart, but I sat that aside to write it and I still don't know how I did it. I even improved my writing speed. Couldn't have done it without @thebreadvansstuff, so thank you sweetie!!
7. Work I’m least proud of (and why):
Printed Against The Sky. It's a good fic, I don't mind it, but I think I could have done better. I wanted to write Age Play for a while so I think I overhyped it myself. It's still a great fic, but just not what I hoped it would be.
8. Share or describe a favorite review you received:
On To Voice My Love. Let me just share it because I was smiling so much when I read it again:
Oh my god, this was so so good! I am not an active part of this fandom, but I saw this on my dash and read it. Also, I never read about smut in polyamorous relationships in general because I'm a little uncomfortable with that idea. But DAMN, this was so BEAUTIFULLY written! I loved how you portrayed the communication problem and need for emotional support for Harry, and how Louis is such a sweet supportive dom. Overall, it's such a healthy and precious demonstration of BDSM and also super hot. Loved it! Would really love to read more about these three! A small request, can we get a bit more dominant side of Andrew too, that would be hot af, but that's completely upto you. Overall, loved this sm.
The fact someone who wouldn't read this kind of story READ MY STORY AND LOVE IT!!!! I can't, I love it!!! it was a first for me, and honestly it was a bit weird to write at first, but now I am so used to have my three boys, I don't know to let them go (why the series is still going).
9. A time when writing was really, really hard:
Well it was around October, beginning of November. I was feeling really really stressed with uni and writing and all my responsibilities. I didn't really know why? But it was really hard to smile.
10. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you:
ANDREW MY BABY BOY!!! Andrew is my OMC for my For My Lovers series. I didn't know I would love him so much. He is my precious little bean. Well... he's very bratty and a smart ass pain in the butt, but he's MY pain in the butt. He came together nicely, like I didn't plan much, it was so natural. Love him so much.
11. A favorite excerpt of your writing:
When Love Is Enough... it's just something I wish someone will say to me one day...
Andrew let go of his body for the first time in a long while to hold Harry’s face. “Harry, listen to me. You’re our world, our everything. You’re not your sister, you are perfect just the way you are. We wouldn’t want anyone else. You are enough for us.” “Yes, you are the most caring and thoughtful person in the world, always putting us before yourself. Even before your own sorrows.” Louis kissed Harry’s forehead and sighed. Harry bit his lip again, it was uncomfortable and he wasn’t sure if it was bleeding or not. “Of course, you’re both so amazing, I umm… I should feel thankful to just be around-” Louis interrupted Harry. “You’re worth a thousand stars, a million suns and all the moons in the universe. Don’t let me catch you thinking you’re lucky to be around us, because we are the ones who should be thanking the heavens that we have you.”
12. How did you grow as a writer this year:
Omg, I thought I grew so much last year, this year is on a total different level. I started writing faster, make better plot progressions, dialogue got better. BODY LANGUAGE got so much better. I am much better with pacing, don't need to worry about it so much anymore. Short fics stay shorter, because I have been practicing with my fic commissions. I don't know, I write Girl Direction now, I feel I even have grown as a baby bi because of that! I am not so scared to say... boobs lol. I have gotten so much more confident.
13. How do you hope to grow next year:
Well, tone it done a bit... I have written a bit too much this year. I wanted to write 9? fics, because I wrote 8 last year.... 21 haha oopsie. I have definitely overworked myself and that's not good.
Besides that, I want to get better at writing. I want to better at grammar and imagery, less repetition. I want to grow. Be better at longer fics. My modelling au for the @notjustsmutficfest will be a longer one and I already feel overwhelmed haha. And a kid fic that I won't say too much about.
14. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc):
Well I think I couldn't have done anything, if it wasn't for @onlythebravest. Julia has helped me get through this year, I don't even know what would have happened if it wasn't for them! One thing, For My Lovers wouldn't have been here haahaha. At least not the way it is now!! Thank you for always hearing my whining and overexcited 2pm fic ideas.
15. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year:
Hahahaha, ummm. Almost all the emotional scenes in my fics have some form of self insertion hehe.
16. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers:
Well, have fun. Write what you want to write, don't be scared. If you want to write a fic where the one dee boys are butterflies, do it bestie.
17. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year: 
Well I have a few.
My Modelling au for @notjustsmutficfest. My girl direction religion fic for @1dreligionfest. Next season for For My Lovers. A pantyhose fetish fic. My kid fic. And a fic for next round of the @1dastroficfest, that's coming in January!!
18. Tag some writers whose answers you’d like to read.
@onlythebravest @thebreadvansstuff @huggieshalo @kingsofeverything @harrysmaison @thedevilinmybrain @lunarheslwt @momrryrights @larry-hiatus @polaroidlouis @cyantific @parmahamlarrie @haztobegood @faithinwalls369 @panye @zanniscaramouche
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goongiveusnothing · 10 months
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Lol. Pathetic Harries when they come to your blog are all wah wah wah, excuses excuses, he’s not a creep, he’s not bald, he doesn’t take drugs - just coke and shrooms, he hates being sexualize - choke her with a seaview is about his love of oceans, cocaine side boob is code signal for help me Sony is keeping me hostage, he don’t look old- yea if you close your eyes lols. They’re all top graduates of clown college law school so you got to take their word for it everyone else is wrong about Wigrry pervert botox man.
it's so bizarre to see them in the wild, because we make fun of them and then instead of trying to show they're normal, they show up in the most parody version of themselves possible.
the truth is they all hate who harry actually is, so they've created this incredibly safe incredibly castrated 21 year old looking trapped in time version of harry inside their heads and they will refuse to accept he lives outside of that. just like swifties.
i think the 9 holes stuff has shaken some of them because it's harry sexualising his fans, enjoying being sexualised by his fans, and i guess openly admitting he enjoys sodomy with women, and doing it all in front of kids again. they know if any other celebrity dude was like that they'd be grossed out, like imagine if matty healy or god help liam or louis or niall did it. it's a total ick and they're right to be mad and sad about it.
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there's this TikTok about harry praising taylor publicly more than joe in the 6 years they were together and some people in the comments are saying it's because they were private but he could've acknowledge her talent (like taylor did about him and even publicly supporting his work) and we still wouldn't know anything about their relationship.
I mean even louis tomlinson said in 2020 that he loved taylor and that she was very talented lol
Yea you can talk about how amazing your girlfriend is at her career & not share any private details. It’s like he didn’t even want her name brought up. I’m gonna have to find that TikTok
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mercurial-madhouse · 1 year
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WIP Game
rules: post the names of all the files in your wip folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it.
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I think @louloubabys1992 @haztobegood @allwaswell16 and @larryyouknow shared this with me? Bear with me: I’m doing this on Mercury by randomly scrolling my google docs with spotty wifi. A couple of these wips I haven’t shared with or mentioned to anyone. 😱
When the Dust Settles (This I’ve already started posting!)
Bound by Blood and Magic (werewolves)
Vampire Escape Room
Sheet Anchor (abo)
Bite of my Heart (Larry zombie twist!)
These Wicked Webs We Weave (spies)
Vamp!Harry/Hunter!Louis Romeo and Juliet esque with a twist 😎
Out of Time: Larry time traveler’s fic
Love After the End of the World: LiLo’s moment
Love After the End of the World: epilogue
Abandoned: post-apo abo
Help! My Alpha is the Ghost Whisperer
Ok I think that’s all of them? Feel free to send in an ask if you’re interested in any! 🤗 I’m hoping to get back to writing shortly! I’ve been so MIA I have no idea who has done this already. @lululawrence @crinkle-eyed-boo @eeveelou you have wips right? @zanniscaramouche my love, I’m pretty sure you’ve done this, yea?
@whimsicule I’ve never tagged you before (hi, nice to meet you!). I think you write a lot of magical realism right? Have you done this yet?
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neverforpickles · 1 year
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louis on harry just couldn’t shut up every time the other was asked a question like;
random scene 1:
int: “harry, what’s your favourite colour?”
harry: “blue”
somewhere in louis’ braincells and we just have to know: “yea like my eyes”
scene 2:
int: “harry, have you got an apartment to leave somewhere or just suitcases”
harry: “we do have somewhere to live”
louis, the ever-oh-hey-harry-is-asked-a-question-about-something-i-must-add: “yea it’s nice actually”
scene 3:
int: “louis what’s your favourite taste?”
louis: “salt and vinegar”
harry who must add just because: “i know right???”
scene 4:
int: “louis, you like football?”
louis: “yes love em footy, we go have a kick when we have the time”
harry somewhere in the back who had heard louis being asked: “did u know he’s very good at it?”
they just have to add
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braverytattoos · 1 year
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Omg Love, you’re too sweet! Thank you for making me feel included and not gatekeeping. I’m always soooo nervous to join a new fandom, especially knowing how passionate this one is! And yea sorry I tend to be too much always but ya know I’m working on it.. kinda? But yea Larry just feels wildly important to me for whatever reason? Like a month ago I had no clue who/what it was and now suddenly I’m trying to figure out how to fix all of society so they can just be. But I also just want to shake them and tell them to stop hiding and playing games and just do what they want and be together and fuck what everyone else thinks (unless of course this is what they want but it doesn’t feel like it is).
Also, can I just ask, do you/did you have a favorite out of the boys? I feel like in every fandom you have like you’re one favorite even though you love the group but like with these guys?? HOW??? Every time I think I could maybe choose I see a new video clip or hear a song or read a tweet or something and just like welp nope. Like oBviOuSlY Louis is amazing and so funny and like sharp witted and sarcastic which is my kind of humor and his solo music is incredible. But then you have Harry who is an icon and pushes the boundaries and makes me feel like free and confident in who I am and his music is just better! But then also Niall who is just the kindest sweetest purest little marshmallow to exist but is also funny in that kinda dorky silly way but then his music is like my obsession and he’s grown up and got all seductive. And of course Zayn I feel has just grown so much and seems so happy and healthy and his music is killing it and he really just said fuck what anyone says I’m going to do this for me and be better for me and just took back control of his life. And I can’t forget Liam who I feel like held them together so much and did his best to protect them all when he could but also stood by them and fought back against the industry. And he just came into his own and is still so playful and funny. All of them stayed so grounded and seem like genuinely good people and all of their solo careers and music is so good. I honestly cannot choose who’s vocals I like better. Is it just me? Is everyone else broken up by their favorite of the guys? Idk sooo sooooo sorry again for the long ramble love. Totally feel free to ignore this lol 😂🫣
hmmm so i 100% understand where you're coming from but i personally think there is a lot we dont really understand still. like in the past we put some pieces together but now since they're all solo i find it a bit harder to understand the reasoning, i mean its widely known that harry's team is trash, and although louis was finally able to get out of sysco and stuff i feel like theres still an element of not being truly themselves for the benefit of money and fame, which is what anyone high up in the music industry cares about anyways. so it's hard, but all we can do is show our support, right? ahhhhhhh omg those descriptions of the boys are so accurate and how i feel exactly. so i'm an ot5 stan through and through, i will always love them all, but louis holds a very special place in my heart due to personal things hes gone through and me being able to relate to some of those things. most of my mutuals do have a fav between harry and louis but a lot are also ot5 so i appreciate that. and do not be sorry to ramble at all! if you ever feel comfortable to come off anon please feel welcome too, you dont need to hide here 💕
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larentyouglad2 · 1 year
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Sometimes I really do believe they’ve broken up, like everybody assumed Harry and Louis were gonna celebrate together after the grammys and then they went to two entirely different parties and multiple people said H left at like 4am, and yea you could say that they still went home to one another but I just can’t believe that to be true. Like even recently when H&L weren’t working they were both in different countries, and it just makes me think of when they were younger and how utterly in love and obsessed they were with one another and I can’t imagine them being the same in present day because of how distant they seem to be. Sadly it makes more sense that they’re not together because of how insanely hectic their lives are, there’s really no way of them to even be together anymore (esp bc of harry’s huge success) and when they are in the same area they’re always everywhere but with each other :/
Idk I can’t really get behind that theory completely at this point in time because I know that especially when they’re actively working, it feels like we see them a lot, but in reality, we only see a very small fraction of their real personal lives and what they’re doing in their downtime (as it should be). If we see them, it’s because we’re meant to see them, whether that be to push a narrative or simply to get their faces out there as a promotional tactic. They’ve never really been near each other for big events/holidays after the band, so that really wouldn’t be a determining factor for me either. I can certainly see why you would arrive at that conclusion though. I obviously can’t say definitively one way or the other what their status is. I think certain things would make less sense to me if they are no longer together, but then again, I’m aware that I experience fandom in a bit of a bubble, so someone else could easily arrive at a different conclusion given the same set of information. Like I’ve said before, our days of knowing anything for sure are over. I will say in response to what you said about how you think back to how in love and obsessed with each other they used to seem, long-term relationships evolve over time, and goals change, people grow up, and maybe they grow apart, or maybe they grow together. Who really knows what’s gone on. The only thing that’s clear to me is that if they are indeed still together, they’re not as comfortable as they used to be sharing that part of themselves.
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twopoppies · 1 year
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hi gina do you know this one popular alpha harry/omega louis fanfic where harry finds a pic of louis as a child with another boy on top of him and thinks that louis is in love with someone else and is waiting for him. then harry starts to distance himself out of jealousy and they argue and he finds out the boy on top of louis in the pic is him, and then make up and yea yea. i've been looking for it for so long but i still havent been able to find it 😭
I do! I love that fic.
Forever, Uninterrupted by sparkk (E, 9K)
Harry finds a mysterious picture in Louis' bag one night and drives himself crazy over it. It's definitely not what he thinks.
An excuse to write Harry in rut, because there's already so many heat fics out there.
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restless-rebels · 1 year
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1. Number of stories posted to AO3 this year: 5
2. Word count posted for the year: 46,825
3. Fandoms I wrote for: One Direction
4. Pairings: Liam/Louis, Zayn/Harry, Zayn/Louis, Louis/Harry
5. Story with the most:
Kudos: all the small things
Bookmarks: all the small things
Comments: me and you is all I’ve ever know
the rest under the cut!
6. Work I’m most proud of (and why): this one is hard if I’m being honest. I think it’s a tie between All The Small Things and Me and You is All I’ve Ever Known. With ATST, it came so easily to me, and it was for my very first fest. It was the first story that I said, yea okay. It’s actually good. But with Me and You, I worked on it for over two years and when I finally finished it, it was the most accomplished I had felt in soooo long. I can’t choose between the two.
7. Work I’m least proud of (and why): I do love all of them honestly, but I think if I had to choose, it would be But I Know I’m Better With You. It was a last minute thing that I wrote in like two hours and it was more because I was going through some shit and needed to put my feelings into words and writing was the only way I could do that.
8. Share or describe a favorite review you received: Anything that was left on Me and You really. Every one was soooo fucking nice. Each and every one told me how much they cared and loved and related to the story and it warmed my heart.
9. A time when writing was really, really hard: Writing Storm Warning for sure! December is my hardest time in my personal life and I knew I wanted it to be incredible because it was a secret santa. If you can’t tell, I write rare pairs and Louis/Harry is so out of my realm and I switched prompts like 3 or 4 times trying to make it amazing
10. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you: As stated above, writing Louis/Harry is definitely not one I would have expected. Also anything with smut because I suck at it lol. Oh! And a genderswap, I did that too.
11. A favorite excerpt of your writing: This is from Me and You
Louis laughed lightly but stopped walking abruptly. Zayn had to catch himself before he fully ran into him and looked around. They were still a good five blocks before they reached either of their streets. “Why did you stop walking?”
Louis swallowed roughly and Zayn watched as he curled his fingers into a fist. “Because I had to think for a second.”
“And you couldn’t do that while we walked?” Zayn wondered, his brain slowly coming out of its cloudy haze.
“No. Because I needed to know if it was even a good idea,”
Zayn rolled his eyes and raised his arms and let them fall back beside his thighs. “If what was a good idea, Louis?”
Before Zayn had a chance to blink, a hand was gripping his waist, pulling him close. “Tell me if this is a bad idea.” Louis whispered, barely able to open his mouth enough that his lips weren’t already brushing Zayn’s. The black haired man let his eyes shut slowly, his eyelashes fanning his cheek bones.
When Zayn couldn’t think of any words, it seemed like Louis took the silence as a go ahead and closed his lips around Zayn’s, pressing back slowly until Zayn’s back hit a light pole. Zayn sighed and kissed back tentatively, the warmth drowning him. Louis’s hands wandered up Zayn’s sides, stopping on Zayn’s cheeks, holding him there and deepening the kiss. Eventually they had to come up for air, and leaned their foreheads together. 
They were silent as they breathed in the same air, both of their chests rising and falling rapidly.
“I love you. I still love you.” Louis whispered, his hands dropping back to Zayn’s sides. “I never stopped loving you.”
Zayn whimpered and bit his lip. He couldn’t do this, not with the fog of alcohol still muddling his thoughts, his emotions overwhelming his entire being.
“I- I can’t do this Lou. Not now. It was.. It was a bad idea.” He mumbled and quickly slipped out of Louis' grip and walked down the street, his hands back in his pockets and his head tucked low. He bit back the tears as Louis called his name from where he left him.
12. How did you grow as a writer this year: Believing in myself. Imposter syndrome kicks my ass, often, and I learned sometimes I need to take a step back.
13. How do you hope to grow next year: See above, but also, stopping with procrastination. I need to manage time better and not put things off until the very last minute,
14. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc): Honestly, I’m not good at making friends, even within the fandom, but there’s definitely a few! 
First is always @wabadabadaba She is forever my first internet best friend, she gets when I’m overwhelmed, she knows what I mean when I send 👉🏻👈🏻, and she never doubts my abilities, even when I do!
@imasmallbi even though we both suck at texting, she is my by best hype woman ever and she has set the bar so fucking high that I don’t know if I’ll ever find someone that can beat it.
And basically everyone within the @writerscornercafe, even though I’m not on too much, they are so supportive and excited for everything. Knowing there is a community that understands what I’m going through is so comforting and calming and I so appreciate it.
15. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year:  Um, not really. Writing I Know It’s Weird was a little odd because it was about sexual identity and I used some therapy conversations that I had myself. But other than that, no, nothing of my real life
16. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers: Just breathe and believe in it. Believe in yourself, in your ability to write a story that you believe in. Pick the silly prompts, pick the dramatic ones, pick whatever you want because at the end of the day, you have to be comfortable with what you want to put in the world
17. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year: I have been working on an ot5 a/b/o pack story and I really want to get it done next year!
18. Tag some writers whose answers you’d like to read. Um like I said, i don’t have too many friends and idk who’s already done this, but anyone who hasn’t already, I’d love to read!
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whoreforlarrystuff · 10 months
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I've been going through the 'gayest moment of Harry' thread and first of all there are hardly any quotes related to HL and then I've seen these and am not sure if they are true or what to make out of these and if I consider them true then it negates all that I thought about H and larrie say that he is been with louis since forever and if that's true how come these exist??
https://twitter.com/ass_it_was/status/1664634477358854144?t=kn0oJiR38IGpLA8vFIlZvQ&s=19
https://twitter.com/chesthairrry/status/1664603106464915460?t=ElSI2lD_BkEVyFP6s8cVSw&s=19
Am just trying to make sense of these.. I actually don't believe HL have been together all these years(I hope they would) but I don't think that actually is the case.. could've been on and off is what make sense.. but do you ever feel we think they are too ideal and when something like these come up, we brush it off saying these are fake or be in denial.. 😕😕😕
But H songs are soooo contradicting to all these.. am not sure if I made my question clear but yea.. do you think their profession allows them to be exclusive and together??
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So- I think that both of these do fit a narrative- maybe not the typical one that we think of when it comes to H, but they do still fit a narrative! It serves to remove us from the idea of Harry and Lou as a long term monogamous couple.
That being said- I think that due to the very nature of H & L's relationship, and how private / hidden it's been since the beginning, we will never truly know if they have been together, or if they took breaks etc.
But- to answer your question at the end - I do think that their profession would allow them to be monogamous & together currently- plenty of people have jobs that are more long distance and are exclusive!
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imogenleewriter · 1 year
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I’ve read your last chapter (it’s me again) and I’m so scared that something bad is going to happen and they’re going to fight big one because they’re not communicating with each other!!!!! 😭
I’ve never been so invested on a wip, so this is new for me, I’d have already binge read the fic (mostly what I’ve done today but I need more yk? hahaha) but this last chapter was so good!!! I love it, but that ending? It was like ‘okay I’m right to be afraid of them fighting because of a misunderstanding’ and I’m just like, going to scream if that happens, which probably will happen so I’ll come to scream here, sorry about it 🫣 hahaha
Also, I’m more into leaving messages here that in ao3 so I’ll probably be here every time I read a chapter! Would love to know what Louis and Anne talked ngl 🫣 And Louis changing his shift so he could spend more time with Harry!!! They’re so in love omg And the other 3 being so fucking subtle with the sitting change, yes babes, nobody notice, ahaaaaam, keep doing it! And then texting while they were in the same room and Zayn like 👀 but also like 😏😌 because he knows! Louis helping Harry with so many ideas, yea baby, you’re so smart!!!
Ugh love this fic! It’s probably going to be one of my fac fics ngl The tension is so good, the slow born too, Louis is so well written, with his confusion and internal homophobia! I’m afraid is going to be like that in another chapter if things go more serious, so I can’t wait to read it!! 💖💖
Comments like this honestly make me laugh so much. You are all so funny!
Thank you so, so much for putting some much time into it.
I'm so glad you like it and I'm so glad you're so invested!!
If you ever have to scream here, I'll understand
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