#yea im crying and what about it

[c-kiddo]

nauuuur 😢 i remembered about the scene when tmn are going to talk to king dwendal and king dwendal calls caduceus stupid basically, and then i went and rewatched it (at 2:52:00, ep 87) and its just :-( oh it makes me saaaad.. like its worse because cad’s actually struggling to explain his thoughts and stops like two times to try speak louder and clearer than he usually does and is clearly uncomfortable with it . and then the king calls him uneducated in a roundabout way and cad just replied Thank you , because he didnt understand T_T idk man . .the autism relating and also hyperempathy kicked in about it. it makes me want 2 cry a little bit 

#daily cad has autism post.. ... . . #kiddo say #and i think on talks taliesin said that cad only realised later what everything meant #and i just ; _ ; yea.... . #poor cad. .. #like im being /gen about it making me actually kinda want 2 cry because .. relate. idk its just . hes trying : (( (( #hes trying his best. . #we need to explode king dwendal

[kaykoko]

I cannot STRESS how seen I feel tonight with Guillermos family. As a Puerto Rican/Dominican it is just so comforting to see a hispanic family on tv that reminds me of my own(minus the vampire slaying but 100% just as nosey lmao). His family accepting him being gay means so much to me, especially because in Hispanic/Latinx families its not spoken about/STILL looked down at... Idk big win for queer hispanic/latinx people tonight👏🏼👏🏼

#DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHO THE FUCK YOUR MESSING WITH? #wwdits spoilers #wwdits guillermo #what we do in the shadows #guillermo de la cruz #wwdits s4 #im talking #wwdits #his abuela asking if he has a gf!!! AAAAAAAAAAA yea 😖 him talking about how the lies add up over the years hes forgotten what he said!!!! #ALSO GIRLBOSS NADJA BESTIE IM ON MY KNEES #i am crying fr like seeing his family accept him was a lot for me

[smallest-moon]

detective gumshoe my beloved ♥ the sweetest and most caring, please go give edgeworth a hug

#ace attorney #detective gumshoe #mine. #i got the collection on steam and was super happy to replay the trilogy and once again also reexperience those wrightworth moments #but instead im just looking at gumworth #ngl detective gumshoe is really always there with edgeworth and i feel like people dont really appreciate it??? #or at least not as much i guess #like yea he may come across as a dummy but hes got a good heart and hes smart #especially when it comes to edgeworth and man aint that love? #remember how he knows edgeworths id card but doesnt remember his own #like pls he could totally remember his if he cared but u know how he is #i 100% love gumshoe and hes my fav #its time someone gave him a hug and u know a decent salary #and i still hate how phoenix and maya come across as really cold and uncaring. like damn so what if Edgeworth's comes across as weird :/ #aren't you worried about how he's acting? :/ #ANYWAY #now excuse me i need to go cry over gumshoe some more because he owes my entire heart #ive screamed enough for now

[cocrante]

trigger warning: death

note: ghost au, wip

After months of desperate researches and unanswered letters, al-Haitham finally glimpsed a glimmer of hope, convinced that they had found his Kaveh. However, upon reaching the destination, all that awaited him was an unnamed grave and a lifeless grey vision without its owner.

He sank to his knees, voiceless, thoughtless, gazing at the tombstone as his body convulsed in a tremor. Tears began to fall one by one, and sweet yet painful memories flooded his mind: those tight, warm embraces, the melodious laughter, the songs sung while cooking, even the arguments that ended in sighs and smiles, and then, the voice he would never hear again. One by one, these thoughts crowded his mind, growing so loud that they erupted into a scream of anguish and pain.

#📌 : wip #kavetham #haikaveh #genshin impact #kaveh genshin #al haitham genshin #ghost au #ghost kaveh #yea i know im a terrible person #do you think i haven't cry? #i wrote a whole draft from kaveh pov #what ive written here is just a very personal scream #bc i imagined haitham after he finds out what happened to kaveh #he becomes distraught #i imagining him thinking about everything hell never have again #and its not like the other time when they separeted #this time kaveh wont truly return #i hate my self rn

[cyeayt]

Back on my bullshit answer my questions

while doing some rudimentary research for this poll it has come to my attention that pins and needles are a feeling felt while the limb is asleep, not the period of intense sensation/tingling/sensitivity experienced while it comes back online. or maybe it's both? the stuff i read referred to it as tingling that happens while the limb is pinned/under pressure/numb. i cannot find anything that references what i have come to think of as "the agony" but ive referred to it as the pins and needles in the options for this poll anyway.

Mild: limb has muted sensation but can be moved and used carefully, pins and needles begin almost immediately after limb is moved from whatever position caused it to fall asleep. Pins and needles not painful and do not appear painful, and last a few seconds, person affected is capable of speech and moving other parts of their body during pins and needles, which last a few seconds.

Middle intensity: limb is numb or partially numb and can twitch but not be moved precisely. Pins and needles begin a few seconds after limb is unpinned or when it is moved. Pins and needles not painful but intense and appear uncomfortable, taking a lot of the affected person's attention/capacity. they last between 5 and 7 seconds.

Intense: limb is numb and cannot move/be used, pins and needles begin 5-7 seconds after the limb is unpinned. pins and needles are intense and may be painful or not painful but 'unbearable', causing the affected person to cry out, grimace, or otherwise appear to be in pain. Person cannot speak or move their other limbs during pins and needles, which last 10 or more seconds (without shaking) and have residual tingling for a few seconds after limb regains movement/becomes bearable to move

obviously this all depends on how long the limb was pinned but just answer whichever is the most common for you, and if you want you can put in the tags what positions make your limbs go numb/how you deal.

#polls #poll #tell me your secrets #idk i was just shaking out my hand but im sick/tired rn so i was actively crying out and was thinking #that limbs falling asleep/pins and needles are a very common and intensely unpleasant experience #and its kinda fuckin weird that we as a society dont talk about it more #and that it can be brushed off or be a single line in books n stuff #and like theres a lot of things that get done dirty in books for how intense/scary/dangerous they are irl #like the first time i got the wind knocked out of me and thought i was dying cause its only ever described as #getting the wind knocked out of you #rather than you can't feel the air coming in and out of your lungs #and the only way you can tell youre not dying is that you aren't experiencing air hunger #which can happen when you are dying in certain situations so fuck if i know #and like headrush like i see new colors/lose track of reality/twitch or faint when its real bad and in books its always like #a bout of dizzyness or some shit #and before i get called out yea i know what an iron deficiency is #also rip to all book characters who've been knocked out for several hours after a head injury or passed out from blood loss lol #anyway #then theres shit like my psycosomatic faux asthma symptoms or swallowing issure or the foot thing that are unique to me as far as i can tel #and boy howdy does that suck shit #but to conclude #bodies are weird why dont you tell me how yours works.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ever sit like a corpse in your own body? #im doing a job i wasnt designed for. theres this funny thing we do in academia where we beg for money. write in consise phrasing why we #deserve funding. what it is about our project what it is about our personhood that makes us deserving. what we're doing in our present to #give back and ensure a better future. and i can pull together a description of a nervous kid who couldn't read but loved to learn anyway. #who didnt kno how to hold proper a conversation until college and so tried and got better at ppl. who wouldnt let a language problem get in #the way of information gain. who cares about making complicated info visually digestible. and that's a nice story. but it falls apart when #projected into the future. what r u doing for the future? im just trying to continue existing #dont u want to help other ppl like u? sure but i dont have anything nice to say to them. does it ever get easier? no. it probably never will #ur brain was not built for reading. sometimes things r just terrible and u have to accept that. develop a crippling mental disorder or do #something where u dont have to read. see. not helpful. bad attitude. im just too full of blood and broken glass. all my achievements r #stained red and it hurts to look at them. to get myself to function i have to squeeze so tight i can feel the strain in my head. and even #then its not enough. do u kno what its like to spend ur whole life building something only to watch it burn to ashes in front of u? just a #broken machine rotting away underground where no one will see it. but dont let things fester. speak up if somethings wrong. and say what? #lmao i wrote this last night and then today when my advisor was like: hows it going? do u feel like u have enough time to get everything #done? and i had the gall to be like *voice strained high to prevent crying* its alright i think ive got enough time. bc yea technically i #think there r enough hours in yhr day that if i really tried i could get it all done. but that doesn't count the time i spend laying with #thr absolute desolation of my mind. so no. there isnt enough time bc im not doing well. but there's nothing he can do abt it so ya kno #whats the point in talking abt it except to say ya sorry im such a wretched miserable person. i dont kno how to fix it. my enthusiasm is #hidden under layer upon layer of pain. i burnef out before even getting here and im only making it worse #but whatever ill see my therapist Tuesday #unrelated

[bisaster-energy]

okay what you have to understand is that while against the kitchen floor is a dean song...willard! has cas written all over it

#guess who really started listening to will wood 😳 #like just listen to me ok hear me out... #i dont owe u my heart or my body but shit i do fuckin owe u and im so sorry that i cannot be good as u are #the irony of dean not thinking of himself as human as cas learned to be is not lost on me #and even tho he fucks up constantly he cant bring himself to want cas to end their relationship (wtv it may be) #apologizing for the way he is bc tbh if dean never figures out how he feels simply because he himself doesn't know #what he wants he probably would end up just giving cas.his body because he owes him something and #he cant figure out what he can possibly give in the face of that all consuming frankly terrifying love #ahem. onto willard #ik i said cas knows how to be human but that's in dean's eyes. cas doesn't get being human at all even tho he does (?) #like his homeless/steve arc he cant get a grasp on how humans do all the things they do and live they way they live #the beginning of the song he talks about not being able to step on ants and crying for moths #now that could be cas talking about actual insect but ALSO humans! bc he's learned to care!! #but yea if cas had some sort of animal he saw every now and then while on the street? a cat or a rat etc that's how i envision #him with this song #he himself has been stepped on so many times! it started to feel like his place! not truly part of the winchesters not truly angel #just cas now... #is there room for me in your cage whether that be earth or a real rat he feels he understands #it's confusing for him to connect! never learned what to feel from childhood like humans do! #he was thrown into the deep end #they call me crazy but their words all seem made up to me -> honeybee cas fr #also i can see steve bringing a little creature into the gas n sip his own little guy #also the peace vs freedom thing. animals are put in cages. humans locked in heaven. #and cas has achieved free will but he has to wrestle with whether it's better to be content or break chains #you might seem behind bars but friend this cage is inside out! dean and sam are trapped in this destiny #but they both say fuck it !! but heaven wasn't just a cage to humans it's a cage for angels too #yeah ur fate is fucked but at keast you had a fate to change yknow. cas didn't just change his story #he didn't have one so he literally wrote it #i can't listen to this song without thinking about cas human hungry and alone #it's AWFUL out here socrates. it's DANGEROUS out here socrates. it's lonely out here socrates 🤡🤡🤡

[todayisafridaynight]

PLAYABLE DAIGO REAL!!!!!!!*

*in that Gaiden Battle Arena DLC

My boy's no longer oppressed I'm so happy 😭😭😭😭😭also Yong Yea was slaying NGL, first time I'm actually (tentatively) excited to check out an RGG dub

MY BROKE ASS WHEN I FOUND OUT PLAYABLE DAIGO REAL AND I GOTTA BUY GAIDEN AND THE DLC

#snap chats #FUCK WHAT DO YOU MEAN I HAVE TO BUY THE GAME TO FINALLY PLAY AS MY GUY WITHOUT MODS #rgg knew i been wanting kiryu to nap this entire time so they said 'hey if you play the game you can have your silly guy' #and theyre right. theyre absolutely right give me my guy NOW #OUUGGH THATS SO EXCITING WITH HOW THE AMEPLAY FOR GAIDEN LOOKS SO FAR...... #i hope daigos fun to play. i hope it'll be wrth the like $80 ill end up paying. #also im so sorry that i keep putting yong yea on your timeline.... i promise i wont be annoying about the future dubs of the games #i was so happy to see him and kuroda tho (❁༎ຶ▽༎ຶ`❁)(❁༎ຶ▽༎ຶ`❁) #THE FACT THEY GOT EACH OTHER GIFTS AND YEA GOT ONE OF KURODA'S SICK ASS BRACELETS id sob..... id cry.... #AND THAT JACKET HE GAVE KURODA GOOOOOD ........... so epic....... so cool........

[flowers-and-literature]

Someone needs to stop putting that chalamet guy in sad films he's gonna have to cover my therapy

#yea this is about beautiful boy #WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT #sobbing crying screaming etc #worst film of my life (im going to remember watching this in awe for the rest of time) #lets not even get into cmbyn mostly because im scared to discuss it

[jesusbutbetterrr]

My dear, come sit with me while I tell you some truths.

You are one of the most empathetic, caring people I know. I admire your selflessness and your big kind heart every single day. I am so SO honored to know you and I love that we can literally have entire conversations about everything from very deep things to nothing in particular 💙 I am so so grateful to have you in my life.

Man, I will forever be too into my emotions to ever properly respond to this. Just, thank you so much, for everything, i could've never asked for a better friend <3

#yea im about to cry #what about it? #mac tag #i love you silly #jesus responds

[toytulini]

mental health just straight up plummeting

#toy txt post #everyday the smallest things have me spiralling into such stupid despair #constantly fighting myself cos every single thing has me wanting to throw up my hands and walk the fuck off bc theres bo point #whats the fucking point!! just despair and exhaustion and burned the fuck out and gnashing at the fucking walls and then spiralling into #a stupid little self pity self hate spiral cos im just a weak stupid little baby who cant handle the real world. plenty of ppl have it so #much worse and havent given up yet so whats my fucking problem? which is so stupid. but i cant logic my way out of this one #so i am simply sitting here feeling so god damn bad #and i dont even really have. a good reason for it. idk. like i dont have a lot of concrete quantifiable reasons i can present about why #i am so goddamn miserable at my job. im just. going insane i need out im performing badly its not worth it theres no fucking point #every day im fighting the urge to just fucking walk off over the stupidest tiniest things that are definitely not worth that kind of #reaction. like yea maybe i do need like mental health meds or smth but i also know. i need out of this fucking. job. but i dont know #like. idk its like my options are just kore of this same stupid bullshit or retail/food service. and like. shout out to retail and food #service. i fucking could not i fucking cannot. but like im reaching that point here too. everything hurts all the time with no reprieve and #all my options just feel like its gonna be ! even more stupid repetitive motions that wont help! like idk! idk what to do. i just #wanna read about stupid little fucking worms and fish but doing that professionally im not sure im up to it and #between me and that career path is thousands of dollars and homework. so #now im the rat instead now im the rat instead now im the rat instead now im the rat instead #trying so hard not to display idk red flag behavior but im Going Insane. i should just start crying at work. why bother hiding it. whats the #point #vent #ig #i should go eat. and waste the rest of my stupid fucking night playing zelda trying to soothe my brain enough to function except im not #functjoning cos then itll be 5am again and ill have done nothing but play zelda and be up too late and go to bed and not get enough sleep #and be a little to a lot late and be miserable and the cycle just fucking never ends #not enough fucking podcasts about worms out there for this #i opened several academic papers on tongue eating isopods to cope and barely read them bc i cant do that at work it takes too long and i get #lost and my productivity is already in the shit and i need to stop being on my phone and i know that but like also if i dont fucking #distract my stupid fucking brain right fucking now im gonna start throwing things and crying #anyway. thats how im doing. bye

[cinnabeat]

u know fairy tail was terrible but i appreciate its refusal to let literally anyone die

#im very gullible so i tended to cry anyways if it was really dramatic #u know in the tenrou arc or whatever when they got blasted to bits (supposedly) by uhh whats the fuckers name #acnologia? i think? that guy #i didnt cry at that bc i was like theyre the main characters obviously they wont be killed off #however i DID cry when i saw uhh god whats his name romeo?? the little kid from like the second episode or whatever #i didnt realize it was him at first until they name dropped him and i was like huh whys he so big and then they were like its been seven yea #years :( and THEN i cried #very dramatic of me i guess i just wasnt expecting a years long time skip like that lmao #im tryinf to think of any other instance i cried?? #its been so long since ive read fairy tail tbh idek if i remember all the arcs #no nvm i do remember the arcs and their order bc i remmeber the ops LMAO #i have no idea why im suddenly thinking about fairy tail actually #michi tag

[estellarsun]

me when i don't know what happened to my silly comfort characters

#im still thinking about them #(lightcannon) #i can't function properly that's for sure #ITS BEEN DAYS #i miss them so much </333 #i should probably draw them... #yea ok #living off of being delusional & copium? #it's more likely than you think #you know when you wanna know what happens but you also don't . yeah <3 that's me #i want to see more content but i don't want it to be over either !!!!!!!!! #AAAHGHSHH #i've been crying every morning its hilarious at this point #sorry i'm very emotional </3 #they mean a lot to me </3 #estella.txt

[merry-the-cookie]

might cry ngl (a like emo cry about good things)

#my boss is gay basically #hes an older gay man whos known me my whole life and we just talked about queerness and stuff #he clocked me not thru my desperate attempts to look gay cus what even does looking gay mean anymore #but thru my gay drawings ‘full of tenderness’ as he put it #‘u can’t hide from another artist’ he said #it was such a nice talk and it hit harder than i anticipated im ngl #like during the talk i was fine but then he went away to get something and i found breathing was difficult lmfao #im just. yea #teresa.txt #might have to go hide in the restroom for a few minutes so i can compose myself and also maybe cry fjdjHDKSJD

[foxstens]

this game is so fucking sad

#my posts #gameblogging #liveblogging rain world #i just read through the iterator logs bc i found some of them in-game and was curious #yea im fucking crying #ITS SO FUCKING SAD WHAT THE FUCK #and its so easy to get attached to and feel for many of the creatures in this game #but most of all the iterators bc of the logs and how they interact with the slugcats #and i sure wish we got to know more about the other iterators #like technically there's enough material for a sequel but somehow i dont think that'll ever happen.... #on a different note one thing i dont really understand #and i dont think is ever clarified #is how much the scavengers know about the state of the world #like they bring moon things and they try to kill overseers as an act of defiance... #i dont think any of that accidental so it's interesting to think about #but its annoying that we just dont /know/ #and this game still has a lot of such things despite all of the lore we /do/ know #its just hndghsngshfn

[orcelito]

I rly do love when ppl talk about the angst I've written in ITNL and Sentido & I'm just sitting here like. Man I'm glad it hit u. But holy shit u got a storm comin

#speculation nation #itnl shit #iiiin approximately uh. 3 chapters? if it all goes according to what i have planned. #that's gonna be the first time i truly tear him down. #yea sure he had a huge panic attack in itnl chapter 2 but it was mostly just misery #most of the angst in itnl has been the quiet kind. taking it at his own pace. so much time to just sit and process. #but an angst where it's a suckerpunch... where he has no time to even recover before it's on to the next thing... #i have some brutal plans for itnl lol. one of which is slowly approaching. #gonna have to see what readers say to that. probably mostly 'What The Fuck Man' #like SORRY it was either This or the bird dies! no one wanted the bird to die so this is what we're getting instead! #anyways im home from the hospital and thinking about itnl. i need to press thru these next few chapters PRONTO #bc if i dont get to wolfwood by the end of july i'll cry. i will. full tears. i want him in my fic so bad. #i just need to not fall into another huge pit of despair. we'll see!