#yeah i saw the journals

[fr0gg13b413]

Girlhood is a spectrum: biblicially accurate angel <--> gregor samsa

#i saw this on pinterst and had to put it here like a sticker in my journal #its a spectrum that fluctuates with the passage of time #absolute mood #letters to myself #chaotic academia #franz kafka #on religion #on faith #biblically accurate angel #gregor samsa #metamorphosis #kafkaesque #HAHAHAH OMG KAFKAESQUE #anyway yeah; tis the vibe #meme #media #anderson don’t talk out loud. you lower the iqueue of the whole street. #SO MANY TAGS WHAT appologies #okay back to study i just needed a snack+nap+pinterest break #girlhood is a spectrum

[aquickstart]

i need to talk this out okay i need your thoughts.

oliver not killing farleigh. respect because of recognition of their similarities, farleigh's hustle, and potential to get farleigh back for more catton-adjacent fun (whatever it is we don't judge) OR complete disregard because farleigh can't actually harm oliver in any way hence he's not a real threat and not even worthy of as high consideration as to kill him.

my two cents: i think the interpretation of this depends on how you see oliver. i think it boils down to oliver's core traits. if he has some semblance of empathy (which i think he does) it's the former. because he did try to get at farleigh but farleigh is the only one he ever misjudged to the point of offering him sex/power/sympathy by mistake, when farleigh actually didn't need any of that from oliver. but i mean, if oliver lacks empathy on a fundamental level and really only thinks in logical categories its the latter. he just got pissed, i guess, and kicked him out.

edit: to me also the big thing is like, pettiness. i think oliver kept him alive BECAUSE of respect, like, i see what you're doing with the cattons living on their money and i see that you see me, AND because of the petty desire to see farleigh witness oliver's victory, like, now look at me succeeding in what you could never achieve. so it's like, both. but.

thoughts. (and prayers)

#i just saw someone talk about the complete disregard option on tiktok and it threw me off cause im a firm believer in that #oliver respects farleigh because he couldn't defeat him really for a time #and like there's recognition too #can you tell im really into quickstart. yeah i mean #quickstart #saltburn #mine #saltburn journaling

[aurosoul]

me and my bf spent last night in the desert and I discovered I could make art in the sand

#picture journal #also i'm burying the lede here #but we also saw some live military munitions tests from an aircraft that we cannot explain #which is vaguely scary considering the recent ufo activity this week #and i mean we assume it was an aircraft #but like...... i cannot conceptualize what it was based on the fact that it was pitch black and not Normal #other weird shit happened too #which is making me not want to think too hard about this #LIKE I DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD BE POSTING THIS??????? #????????? #anyways i hope your guy's weekend was good #um. #yeah #i guess if these tags get deleted you uh. you know why

[the-jam-to-the-unicorn]

Jam, have you read the new Time article about Ze and the war?! I'm so fucking angry about it!!!!!!!!!!! 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬 Never thought Simon Shuster, of all people, would become a traitor! 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

I have and it is, indeed, a bullshit article.

If anyone had planned to read the new TIME article - don't. Use your time for something more useful (it has one, maybe two good parts but not really anything new or what I would say is worth a read). The article is full of bullshit, pro-Russian propaganda (to a point were you could play bingo and actually get one - think of any Russian Propaganda point and you'll most likely find it in the article) and basically a backstab from Simon Shuster.

Very sad to see that Shuster is now a pro-Russian Propaganda mouthpiece (again).

The article is awful in so many ways and he throws Ze under the bus, portraying him in an unfair, unjustified and very wrong light. Truly despictable article, not worth anyone's time.

The article is actually in fact so awful, I'm going to cancel my pre-order of Shuster's book about Ze. Because now I assume the book (who's title and summary changed in the past, btw) will now be written in the same style and I'm certainly not going to throw money into an awful Russian Propaganda mouth. I'll wait for reviews, maybe I'll get my hands on a copy in book store and I can glimpse into it.

Very sad to see that Shuster had this change in attitude and support regarding Ukraine (especially after his pro-Ukraine stance last year and his insightful and good reports about Ze), but given his history maybe it shouldn't be such a surprise (he wrote several pro-Russian and Propaganda articles in the past, mainly 2014 - I always assumed last year his case is one of the typical "didn't know it better, fell for Propaganda, learnt my lesson, now I support" ... well, looks like a "no").

#btw i would absolutely question his “sources” #because so many times in the article his “sources” say something completely different than what people actually say in public #and several things dont add up to reality or what we know / saw or what other journalists reported about #also i would bet money that the “close advisor” who shuster trusts so much is asshole #asshole as in arestovych #its also very fishy that ze and andriy get quoted directly and everyone else is just anon #also not a good sign of journalism (or the article) that shuster leaves out facts and explanations so it fits his views and article #and the propaganda #also the conclusions he sometimes makes are just ????????? #have nothing to do with real life??????? #yeah bad article #i could write pages and rant about so many parts of the article but its not worth the time or energy #if you have questions or want opinion on certain parts feel free to ask but im not gonna write an essay about it

[batemanofficial]

why is every piece of online literature about weed so fearmongery. i mean i know why but still it's like i'll google 'thc zoloft contraindications' and get a ton of articles with headlines like "WHY WEED WILL RUIN YOUR LIFE" and "THE DEVIL'S LETTUCE? HOW MARIJUANA MADE MY WIFE TAKE THE KIDS" and its like. thank you to the ghost of ronald reagan for that insightful info but i just wanna know if i can smoke on my antidepressants

#speak friend and enter #i saw an article that deadass said 'if you smoke weed on antidepressants you likely also have a gambling problem' and like ????? #like sorry but i didn't know every medical journal was run by fucking losers!! live a little!!! god #meanwhile if i go over to reddit or quora it's nothing but people saying 'yeah it's fine. made me a little dizzy but overall it's fine' #i did see a quora post from this guy who was deathly afraid that he'd given himself serotonin syndrome when in reality he'd just greened ou #and like. i'm a wimp anyway so i'm gonna get a cart of a strain that's got a low concentration and see how i feel #and if i green out that's on me

[yyaryyar]

taking his guard dog for a walk

#Loki #Bayonetta #Loki Bayonetta #Golem #this is based off of one of the journals saying smth like #Aesir made the Golem in the ruins to protect them #so I was like— #what if Golem saw Loki as it’s creator? #and only attacked them in game bc it saw Bayonetta as an intruder/threat? #so yeah

[mejomonster]

In case tumblr ever does go down, im mejomonster on twitter insta discord too. Please add me

#rant #ill be messaging and asking for contacts latwr #the thing is. i saw ffnet slowly break and yeah. no support does eventually mean break. #and im frustrated both to need to go backup thousands of posts and contacts #but also. tumblr is rhe only hobby social media right now structured to encourage long blog type community conversations #on twitter i cant post long liveblogs or meta and you cant respond to them long #i cant retweet with tag commentary to add to a convo without pushing on the authors words #i cant tag my art in a way thats well organized on a site #instagram is SHIT for reblogs and visibility. as an artist twitter is the only viable #social media to get exposure. and since its less organized using tags? you cant use it for an archive as well #dreamwidth from what i understand is mlre like livejournal so. its also not #great for helping new possible friends find you and converse #its like journal comments #and tumblr tags allow for strangers to find my posts and really interact and befriend me #and also allow me to organize ny own blog. in a way wordpress does NOT #in a way twitter does not. and to gef more exposure and followers than i ever could with wordpress or dreamwidth. #there is no adequate replacement site for tumblrs features as far as i can tell #maybe twitter for art promotion. but thats it #and i dont qant to be on elon musks broken twitter. #discord isnt open chill conversation with 800 ppl on my blog and curious browsers #its more like aim chat

[nostomannia]

My current hyperfixation has been writing journal entries for sols bg3 verse, which is why I've been v quiet here

#fawn speaks || ooc #i have all the entries in one doc and its 3.3k words long already jsndbdb #i keep jumping around entries and not finishing sols whole thoughts #i also wanna do doodles that she sprinkles throughout because #sol has adhd of course shed doodle #ill probably make a tag just for them so people can scroll through them #but i just saw a post of comapnio s going through tavs journal and it made me go uhog #hopefully nobody finds her journal (full permission to snoop and nose through her thoughts) #sol journals canonically because it helps her straighen her thoughts out but also in cases if she dies her memories get real jumbled #i have made minor changes to choices that you can make just because like. they didnt fit sol #specifically with Karla.ch and Wy ll #she didnt try to convince wyll to not kill karlach he made his own choice #because at this point sol knows hes a warlock too and is like oh yeah youre totally hunting things for your patron im not getting in on this #but its like really minor things like that LMAO

[ban-joey]

sending laser beams to my professor with my mind. kenneth you said midterm grades would b up by this afternoon. it is officially TONIGHT and guess what? kenneth i would love to not be clenching my teeth in my sleep tonight. kenneth i will be sending you a bill in the mail. yes i know its probably a TAs responsibility but i blame you personally. i hate school

#i dont im having a lot of fun (genuinely) but it is often pretty stressful #did find out there are a few folks adjacent to my program doing zoonoses & climate change research so im very excited to chat w them next w #possibly directing my thesis towards one health. social epi gradually becoming less interesting #plus i think my strengths do lie in applying epi to biological concepts so. one health works there #my brain continually trying to get back to lyme disease :( sometimes i really do miss the east coast tbh! #not lying actually i think the number one thing i miss is the amt of vector borne disease research LMFAO #i do unfortunately kind of have a crush on a classmate so that's fine but whatever. grad school. men are nice to me and i lose my mind ig #need to go make out w a hot trans person i think that would solve my problems rn #but also it's nice to be so excited about someone deciding to sit next to me in every class :) #like wow how isolated have i been the last 3 years to be so delighted by like. active signs i have Officially Made Friends. #even if he does live like a block away from my dad and jokes every goddamn day like 'so i saw your dad yesterday' no you DIDNT shut UP #idk yesterday he sat right next to me in a class he usually sits w other people in and it sort of sent my brain off the edge and now im jus #yeah. sitting with this one. it's fine like it's normal. but wowie i do think it's my first time having a Big Ol Crush since (redacted) #a little scary for my animal brain i think but it's okay! #im 25 in like 3 ish weeks and i still get embarrassed about this stuff somehow? stupid. #he's just really nice and always really fun to talk to! i think i had to officially Sit With Myself today bc epi is doing a holiday party #and there's a baking contest and we were talking abt it in class and i was indecisive abt whether i want to participate #and he like fully cut me off and was like oh you should bake something so i can have some :) #and. well fuck now i have to lmao. IM SO EASY IT'S SO EMBARRASSING #good evening everyone. guess this is my journal now. anyway ken rice you owe me twenty dollars and i aim to COLLECT

[luvevee]

Idk maybe it's fine to accept Sada and Turo are just really shitty parents who neglected and abandoned Arven instead of pulling the shortest straws in an attempt to make them seem like they were just sad workaholics who got too caught up in their work like a bad hallmark movie

#like honestly seeing the straws pulled on my dashboard is like...really? #'oh they had two pictures of him!!' they had a picture of him as a toddler and the other was of his dog #by a cabinet full of their trophies and a messy eating area btw not by their bed #'oh well ai said-' ai literally felt so bad for that kid that they felt like they had to make him feel loved by them #and even arven knew it was bullshit and told them to stop #'oh well-' he's referred to as ''the boy'' in their PERSONAL journals that right there shows they don't love him #arven having basic necessities doesn't mean they loved him it's that they knew how to make sure he didn't starve to death #he literally learned how to cook BECAUSE they weren't there so they even failed on that part #you can't say you love your child just because you give them food and clothes and a place to sleep that's REQUIRED of a parent #like wow they have ONE WHOLE PICTURE of arven when he was like 6 they must love him so much /s #literally arven is so traumatized by how he was neglected and abandoned why are excuses being made for his adult parents #i think it really reflects how some people who turned to pokemon as an escape see their own relationship with their parents #because yeah i def know what that's like to be given basic care and not the emotional parts of parenting #and it means people have to confront some shit that's pretty heavy #listen you having basic things like a place to sleep clothes and food doesn't mean you were loved #if your parents were constantly absent/only saw you when they wanted something/always talked about work/were never there for you/etc- #then that's something you gotta talk to your therapist about #treating your kid like a pet store fish isn't love and arven was treated like a pet store fish #people gotta realize that if you feel the need to make excuses for his parents what excuses you're making for your own or other parents #because damn realizing that stuff hits like a brick #this is a rant because arven's issues hit really hard with me playing through the game #and it's big bruh moment seeing people trying to take copium for sada and turo #they're shitty parents end of story #like it's not rocket science tbh but damn therapy is a thing some people need for how far you're reaching for some love between them all #there wasn't and there's not. the two pictures aren't 'evidence' of love #just like damn #rosebud posting 💐 #pokemon #pokemon sv spoilers

[astro-b-o-y-d]

Me: Would it be in character for the Stans to not go into deep discussion about what happened with Bill during the nine months at sea? I mean, Ford probably wants to leave it behind him but he'd probably carry a lot of guilt after him not letting people in about Bill (outside of Dipper) almost cost him his brother's life. And I'm sure Stan would want him to talk about it, now that he has a chance to do so and now that they're together.

Me: But on the other hand, these men are Pines and are so emotionally stunted as a result of everything about their upbringing, and they've been separated for the majority of forty years. I can also see them just...going on an adventure at sea and punching the nearest kraken they can find as a means of getting out any bad emotions without having to actually talk about them.

#Hayley Writes Triangulum #The struggle of 'this is obviously not the right choice but they are people known for not making the right choice- #-so would it be a wrong choice they'd make?' is real #I mostly just need Ford to start relapsing into his old 'I have to handle this myself' behavior and Stan being like- #'Just LET ME HELP. That worked before!' #While also not entirely understanding the true depths of WHY Ford is doing this #Like yeah Bill is bad but Stan really has no idea just how deep that stuff runs for him #'What about the journal?' I assume those pages about Bill being his muse were ripped out; and will likely say as much in the fic #So Stan never saw them #I mean; Dipper could always tell him but look #Bill's just back out of nowhere; tensions are high; nobody is thinking as clearly as they should #The writer struggle of 'The solution to this is SO SIMPLE so how many of their bad decisions can I blame on stress/PTSD?' #Probably a lot #But there IS a limit

[loverboybitch]

Euripides,Grief Lessons: Four Plays by Euripides, tr. Anne Carson

Anna Akhmatova, Poem Without A Hero and Selected Poems, tr. Lenore Mayhew & William Mcnaughton

John Berger, A Seventh Man

Li Qingzhao, “Tune: Pertridge Sky,” tr. Jiaosheng Wang.//.

#uploads #imjustsittinghere #poetry #originally collected by whetstonegirl #kathryn us core... saw the orignal post n thought of u but there were too many these r my favs #also ryan messaged my friends discord last night to say he just woke up from a dream where him and some other friends #had bought the apartment above me and connors place so we all lived in the same house #theres a staircase that connects my unit to the one above mine and he said we smashed out the wall that blocks it so we all lived together #thats sweet... <3 #he said his car got towed the first night we all slept there lol #idea of people dreaming about living with me is so.... #remember writing in a journal years ago that i wished all me and my friends could live together in a giant house and then id be at peace #realistically that would be maybe too insane but in my dreams.....yeah #life is so <3

[rexscanonwife]

Hey guys!! Sorry for the radio silence lately, I took a small vacation and was very busy spending time with my wonderful partner and had the most AMAZING time 🥺🥺💖💖 I came back feeling a tad bit under the weather and in addition to that a 6.4 earthquake last night knocked out the power, but I'm not hurt 😂 it's just been a Everything Happens So Much kind of past week or so!

#jane journals #i went to san francisco w my best friend his mom and my partner ruby!! 💖💖💖 #it was so much fun and we ate lots of good stuff and saw cool things!! #i literally just got home like day before YESTERDAY and this fuckin happens ajfjgk #enough good things have happened that im not too bothered by this tho #even though my groceries i JUST bought are ruined thanks to the power outage 😭😭 #im just glad nothing broke in the apartment but i was really shaken up #pun intended ahfjfj #but ah yeah!! thats why ive been silent for a while #but ill defs have more to say soon #abt the trip and also just in general youll be back to your regularly scheduled nonsense #i even have.....a new fictional crush thanks to my partner >//>

[grendelsmilf]

So what do you think Sasha and Marcy’s parents are like?

the thing is, despite the fact that we never actually see either sets of parents in the show (and only ever hear mr. wu's voice – although his american accent is telling...) there's a lot we can extrapolate from sasha and marcy's behaviors as well as the tidbits we do get in the journal. i've given this matter way too much thought, so here goes:

we know from marcy’s journal that sasha’s parents divorced when she was 4 and that her father remarried and her mother is dating a guy who has kids. it’s pretty clear that this divorce wasn’t “clean” (for divorce standards) either, and that going through that at such a young age scarred sasha. based on her feeling the need to prove herself worthy of love and/or attention, I think it’s clear that sasha’s parents are neglectful, too busy with their own respective families to give her the attention she deserves. this neglect also explains why she has much better survival skills than anne or marcy, who grew up in far more comfortable, loving homes.

based on her control issues due to feelings of abject powerlessness and the way she seems to assume that any family unit or authority figure in general is inherently untrustworthy and even villanous (which is not only how she justifies her hatred of hop pop and dismissal of the boonchuy parents, but also why she acts out and sees no problems with being a delinquent despite wanting to be a hero), I definitely do think that sasha is abused by her family members to an extent. the “end of discussion” line is most certainly learned from (at least) one of her parental figures. the fact that grime is also clearly the healthiest father figure sasha has ever had does not bode well either, considering that he’s horribly exploiting her for the first two seasons and yet she still genuinely values him as a friend.

I honestly don’t think it’s out of the realm of possibility that she was sexually abused either, (possibly by her mother’s boyfriend?), since her deep-seated self-loathing that manifests in the way she seems to embrace being “evil” as if it’s always been a secret fantasy of hers, the way she feels fundamentally unworthy of unconditional love and fears being “discovered,” that her only role is to protect others but does not deserve protection herself (to the point where she is actively suicidal), and the way she so quickly oscillates between entertaining delusions of grandeur and believing that she’s disgusting “trash” do strongly suggest this possibility to me.

at her core, sasha wants to protect the vulnerable, but considers herself unworthy of saving. based on the little we know about her home life, this is what i can extrapolate from that.

as for marcy, I do actually think her parents mean well. her journal adds a fuller picture, and the fact that they didn’t move away when she disappeared, coupled with the fact that she immediately went to therapy after the events of amphibia make me think that they want to connect with their daughter, but like most parents of teenagers, simply don’t know how. (parenting teenagers is basically impossible, frankly, and we should definitely be cutting well-meaning parents more slack on that front. I say this from experience.)

I do think they’re somewhat strict with her, because she’s always been a prodigy so they expect a level of maintained excellence (a standard to which she also naturally holds herself), but not the extent that it appears in “true colors” from marcy’s perspective. I think when her father texts her saying “we need to talk,” she gasps because already knows what’s coming, and she’s been trying to sabotage their plans to move across the country to no avail.

when her father tells her that he’s taking the job, she clearly flies off the handle, which is why I think that by the time she runs out the door in tears, he sounds stern with her, because parents do often make decisions that upset their children, and get frustrated when said children act as if they could possibly overrule their parents’ decision. you can’t always make your kids happy, no matter how much you try to. two of my best friends moved to other countries when we were in middle school because their fathers got job offers elsewhere, and even though we were heartbroken, this wasn’t a malicious act on the part of their parents, it’s just how life works sometimes. we find ways to adapt.

marcy’s fundamental fear is that she won’t be able to adapt, and her loneliness causes her to lash out. I don’t think her parents are aware of her internal pain and fear, because she keeps it bottled up, but that if she had been more communicative of her anxieties they might have considered therapy before her return from amphibia.

on the outside, marcy seems like the perfect child any parent would want, and I think she’s more afraid of what the consequences of not maintaining perfection would look like than how severe said consequences actually are in reality, only because she’s never actually failed, so she simply doesn’t know. when she does fail, for the first time in her life, the results are, of course, catastrophic, but based on the fact that she clearly received a lot of therapy and grew up to pursue her passion for art and writing, I think that learning that lesson (that even the most catastrophic failure is survivable) sooner rather than later was probably for the best, and she turned out all right in the end.

#ask #anon #frogshowposting #the way sasha grows up to help vulnerable children too.... it makes me so :''') #but yeah marcy's journal definitely confirms that marcy has good parents #it was up in the air bc of the whole andrias thing #but i think she saw andrias more as a peer than a father figure anyway #whereas sasha sees grime as a father figure specifically because he's so terrible #she's just like 'yes this is your average dad actually' #oh. we also know that sasha has a pool. somewhere #but it could also be marcy's pool. unclear

[soft-bugs]

I haven't been on this account in a hot min 😭

#im gonna try to be here more often & switch between this acc and my fandom one #updates: im still kinda isolated a bit BUT i hung out with one of my friends last week #he took me to dave & busters and i havent been there since i was a kid #the arcade games are SO MUCH now dnjdis #also it was so loud and overwhelming but overall was a chill night! #despite the almost-panic attack 😅 #also saw my best friend the other day and we strated watching good omens!! #and im gonna both of them again tomorrow 🥰🥰 #also my best friend is kicking our mutually-former friend out of his house due to loooots of stuff #so once they move out ill be able to go to his house and see him a lot more often 🥺 #am excited i miss that dude a lot :( #but yeah thats about all ive done the past month 🫠 #bugs agere journal

[angustully]

i dont think i necessarily have a drinking problem i just am constantly afraid of developing one bc of my parents lol.... and it feels like too big and serious to say im going to stop drinking entirely but i think i might try to just like. not buy it or keep it in the house anymore? bc having a few drinks while im at a restaurant is fun but whenever i have alcohol in the fridge its like it turns into the only thing i drink after 5pm. idk i just feel like its a real out of sight out of mind thing for me and i kinda just want to keep it that way for as long as possible. im 28 now im in my saturn return im thinking about these things okay

#im typing this while im drinking hard cider. i know this #i think part of the problem too is like i am actually worried about how my parents would react #if the next time i saw them i was just like oh yeah i dont drink anymore. #i mean they might be happy about it but idk. perhaps i will journal about this to get to the bottom of my feelings #times like this i wish i had a therapist! lol