#yeah others cant fix you and i dont think i could physically rely on someone else enough to do so

[pwnyta]

Okay but like……. I want to talk about something, and I have no one to talk about it with so I am here…. Hope you’re okay with this 👹👹👹 Basically, I can’t stop thinking about the fact how dumb was it to change Deku’s original concept bc “he would be too much like Batman” (fights villains with his brain and gadgets, not with super powers) and I am like….. excuse you…… who tf decided that it’s better to give mc backstory of Steve Rogers (I hope you understand what I mean) than make him like a mothefricking Batman…. I mean, okay, original Deku looks kind of like a depressed bitch lmao (I think he was called Yamikumo?), but if you don’t want Deku to remind Bruce THIS MUCH then just let my dude have the same personality as now but just let him be smart and tech savvy. What I mean is that Deku suffered from being quirkless and was bullied bc of it, the beginning of the story shows extremely clearly that without quirk you can’t be a hero, but instead of being like “f*ck you and your quirks, I can (and will) help people even without it!” Hori was like “ah yes, MC suffered bc he doesn’t have quirk… how to fix it? Well, just give him quirk, obv!” IDK, but am I the only one who feels like this is counterintuitive? It reminds about “everyone can be Jedi! except…….not really”. Instead of having MC who uses what he have we now have Deku who have op quirk that he can barely control (I mean, he is better now, but still….) instead of Deku who uses his brains to deal with problems instead of running into troubles head first… I like Deku, I really do, but I still think that it was extremely dumb move that contradicts the whole point that “anyone and everyone can be a hero”. Sorry for mistakes and I hope that you understood everything, English isn’t my first language.

Yall can always come to me to bitch about BNHA....

I dont disagree! The way Hori wrote the world... it kinda does make it necessary for most people to have a Quirk to do anything against Quirked villains so thats one thing...

but thats why Im so butthurt about Mirio getting his Quirk back because even if Deku needed the Quirk boost and have it used like a prosthetic Hori still could have had this storyline with Mirio where him losing his Quirk doesnt stop him from being a hero and could have given him a great connection to Deku and All Might since they both value themselves less because of their Quirklessness when they SHOULDNT. Kind of a bad message....

Mirio has trained and honed his physical skill (strength/reflexes) so fiercely there should be no reason he cant hold his own against a lot of villains especially in the team he usually rolls with.

Are you telling me Mirio is less qualified as a hero than someone like Shinso or Kouda who rely on others to do stuff for them or Ojiros whos Quirk is just an extra limb, Aoyamas Quirk that leaves him open do to the pain it causes him...

But yeah a Quirkless gadget-based hero would have been cool. Its weird that Hori introduced a character like Mei with all these gadgets and not at least brought more equipment into the story to show that thats an important part of Hero society... I mean Dekus got some stuff now with his arm bracers or w/e but like???

And Dekus intuitiveness and ability to strategize because he studies his opponents so closely taking a back seat to his Quirk nowadays does fucking suck. It was a lot better when his Quirk was just strength based the way All Might was... I mean I love the story around it but I wish Hori didnt forget Dekus best asset being his brains and his ability to trust the people around him to have his back and he worked with others strengths and limitations to solve things too.

Thats why I liked Deku taking Overhaul out... because his ability to see Eris potential was what saved the day and it made it clear why Deku was a better choice for OFA than Mirio who kept Eri behind him and sacrificed himself to keep her as far away from the situation as possible (which is sweet and so brave but its the same thing that got All Might almost killed.).

TL;DR:

Regardless of Deku having a Quirk or not his most relied upon ability should be his quick thinking and trust in others to have his back (which was what separated him from All Mights mistakes which I thought was the whole point).

(and also Mirio should have remained Quirkless and became a great hero despite that).

You coulda had your cake and ate it too Horikoshi!

#BNHA ranting. #Dear Nonny.

[winterywitch]

I just want to say that I really admire the depth you put into your OC's and your confidence in talking about them! I'd like to learn more about them, but I'm on mobile and it isn't letting me search the tags, so... are there any W@tchtower Grotto characters you haven't talked much about that you'd want to talk about?

oh!! ;-; gee thank you.......................

uhhhhhhh gee idk why but it feels like i dont have an actual comprehensive post on who/what nana actually is bc most of my friends know him very well already? so here’s that

hes like... early 30s?? in terms of appearance/maturity, hes the godking of the country in midnight

nana is uh... certainly a rebel at his core thats one way to put it, a lot of core things about him for better or for worse challenge the status quo. he thinks this is a good thing 100% of the time, like he’s some kind of radical rebelling against an oppressive norm on every single norm he challenges. (its not)

he is RIDICULOUSLY people-smart, hes likely an empath and could easily be called a genius when it comes to reading people and understanding how people tend to work.

if he were a dnd character he’d be a sorceror, he casts from charisma not intelligence [though he is certainly NOT lacking in that department]

hes definitely considered the leader of his little commune of kings [involving desiderius, hachi and kyuun], those three tend to defer to him and seek him out for advice [well. they mostly Used to now its just hachi that does that last part]

he sees himself as a teacher and guide to people, which isnt inaccurate necessarily!

hes very good to his people, his country as a whole is doing pretty well financially, there’s a vibe there of everyone taking care of one another! not to mention the fact that its lovely visually

he’s right about most things and he’s comfortably aware of the fact that he’s right about most things. but hes open to being corrected! he cant possibly be right about everything ALL the time!! he just has to consider you an authority on what youre talking about, which is something he very rarely considers other people to be, or he might just ignore your correction. but sometimes he wont, which makes you feel kinda silly for pointing out his tendency for hypocrisy! how confusing. it’s hard to keep up with this one.

he, like all of his colleagues minus desiderius, thinks he is the only Good King while all the others are complete messes who dont know what theyre doing or are just flat out bad people. but like, yknow, its a fucked up dysfunctional family! that’s totally normal, right??1/11

something about him just makes you think “theres a guy who knows his shit,” its probably his sturdy [outward] confidence, his [appearance of] wisdom, his [very real] intelligence and his long list of supporters that make you think that about him

his hair is weird as shit! there are ‘stars’ in it that glow, not BLINDINGLY bright but i mean yknow, they do glow, and where theyre embedded in his hair theres increased physical sensitivity. pulling on this guy’s hair fucking HURTS, even petting it can be uncomfortable if youre not really really careful. not to mention a fucking haircut, good lord (haha)

his parents were kind of like... very emotionally shallow, they were the sorts of people to be like Oh I’m Fine ^_^ at everything, and in subtle and hard-to-detect ways, they would punish nana for showing emotion of any kind (for example, laughing at him when he would cry at sad things as a child). because of this, he is now very open about his emotions and embraces them as something he should listen to and follow rather than only relying on cold logic as his parents tried to have him do. (its a lot more sinister in practice than it sounds, because yeah most of the time it is innocent like this but at the same time, he takes his own feelings VERY seriously and if you hurt them, even if it’s just by having boundaries, he will identify you as someone mistreating him or even abusing him depending on how close you are]

[heres where we get into The Shit, big tw for abuse, csa/pedophilia and “marital” sexual abuse/assault]

his closest friend and advisor arya kurosawa has been his best friend since they were both teenagers. they met when arya was 14 and nana was 17 [in terms of appearance/maturity are what those ages refer to, they were both immortal] and they got along very well.

of course by very well i mean on top of getting along very well, nana has ALWAYS had an inherent, base-level disrespect for arya’s boundaries. it’s been there since they were teens, and it mostly manifested in nana pressuring arya to do [mostly innocent - but the pressure and coercion made them not so innocent] things he was scared to do.

they were inseparable pretty much ever since they met and VERY, very in love with each other

they definitely were a romantic item by the time nana inherited the throne from his mother, and the age gap was definitely concerning but it only grew more concerning as nana’s mental/appearance age rose because he was growing up emotionally and psychologically and arya’s... stagnated.

when nana was in his early 30s so to speak, arya was stuck at 14-15 or so. and like... they didnt really see anything weird about that, they figured “well we both met when we were kids so its not like nana is a pedophile or anything, why question something so good?”

to someone who didnt know better wrt age gaps in romantic relationships and pedophilia, the relationship between those two would have looked completely normal and healthy. there was certainly an appearance of mutual respect, support, love and commitment

nana could only treat a 14-15 year old so much like his equal. to be totally honest, even since they were teenagers, nana treated arya like his inferior, like a student that needed to be taught, and that dynamic only grew/got worse as nana aged mentally.

but at the same time arya also taught nana so many things! see? nana wasn’t some condescending prick! obviously everything is fine. there were a lot of ways sometimes in which ARYA was the adult and nana was the child ^_^ so it’s equal, right?

arya certainly didnt know any better, nana was the love of his life and that was all there was to it. he knew [because of nana] that any discrimination they might face due to their ages in this relationship was simply unfounded, cruel bigotry from a species of essentially cavemen who were afraid of fire. he knew he was progressive for his time, in a couple decades probably everyone else would come to their senses too!

long story short, one day arya very quickly, almost violently realized EXACTLY everything that was wrong. nana’s condescending behavior had come to a head and someone arya considered a playful rival had forced him, very painfully, to face the truth of what this relationship was: abuse from a man who should know better, taking advantage of a boy who didnt.

arya couldnt exactly love nana after realizing this. and it really fucking sucked. he really wanted to go back to the way things used to be, he wanted to “undiscover” what he’d discovered, but there was no way back and he felt so broken and dirty and ungrateful and bratty and selfish for suddenly feeling this way.

nana on the other hand noticed arya very suddenly averse to being touched or held or even looked at. for a while, he was very understanding about this - what that playful rival did was essentially cast a spell and at first he thought arya was just sick or physically not well or something, and that he’d get better soon.

he didn’t.

nana didn’t know what to do. suddenly arya was neglecting him, acting like he was terrified of nana. he’d never been like this before, what happened? it’s incredibly painful and confusing, losing the love of your life like that; one day you’re everything to them, and the next they’re flinching every time you raise your hand around them. nana had never hit him or abused him verbally... in fact, it was nana who HELPED ARYA gain the strength and courage he needed to become independent from his emotionally abusive parents. so why was nana suddenly the bad guy? he had no idea what happened, why, how to fix it, or anything like that.

eventually he snapped, unable to take being deprived of love and attention like this, so he just took whatever he wanted, physically, not caring what arya thought of it.

he knew it was wrong. he knew he’d definitely crossed the line into objectively unforgivable actions. but he was almost too afraid to stop and relinquish this power over arya, because then he had to A.) lose arya, and B.) be held accountable for his actions. both two very terrifying things he saw no personal gain in.

that went on for a long time, until nana sort of... slowly realized he was feeling weaker and weaker, more prone to physical weariness dizziness, severe headaches and nausea, and he didn’t put 2 and 2 together until it was too late.

arya had figured out how to start poisoning him and getting away with it.

by that point, nana realized not just what was happening and why, but also that he unquestionably, factually deserved this pain and much, much more. that realization was too much for him, it sort of broke him psychologically for a very long time, leaving him completely helpless to whatever revenge arya decided to take on him

[it was all physical and psychological torture, but arya was certain NEVER to stoop to his level and sexually abuse nana. he couldnt even think of sleeping with nana “consensually” anyway, it made him horribly sick to even consider]

eventually after a long-ass time of this, arya just got sick of looking at nana and couldn’t even be around him anymore without feeling absolutely god-awful, so he just abandoned nana, leaving him to fester in his broken body and mind

and y’know, stuff happens after that, but thats all there really is to the most prominent phase of nana’s development in THIS story. i also play him in his phase of development after that last bullet point [roughly 200 years later], where he’s fucked up in all kinds of ways and totally deserving it, but also trying to... not really redeem himself or anything like that, he knows that’s not really a thing, but rather to make himself useful to good people who want to do the right thing, in a dnd campaign

nana goes through a SHIT TON of changes, to the point that each phase of his development has his own individual profile on toyhou.se, he’s become a Big Trauma Coping Character for me and somewhat an experiment in redemption arcs, seeing what exactly should happen and how to make “redemption” arcs seem not cheap or forced

here’s the one i talked about in this post though

http://toyhou.se/335049.nana-of-the-stars

#kara's charas #w@tchtower grotto #mind the warnings! #misstooni

[r-moncz-blog]

So most days I wonder what I am doing here. Not here writting, but here existing. Its not a cry for help or a sob story its a genuin wonder. Like Im lost in this strange world curious of who I actually am-what im doing... meant to be doing. And if i continue this path how many others will walk all over me and treat me like I dont matter. Yes, I could change it but the second I stand up for myslef or make any need I have know, im the bitch im needy and i need to cut the shit. Well guess what- its a loose loose situaltion then. I am a loose loose. I get the feeling that I dont matter and dont belong consistantly from those areound me, like why am I bothering them in their life? Why am i so needy and dramtic? Its all I need is a little extra care and a little extra love. Someone to look and me and say "yeah shes broken, but I have really good glue" or stop and think "damn, she deserves the best... Im going to give it to her." Instead I am let down and left wondering why I am even in their life. Why rely on someone else to make me feel special and worth something when I can just make them feel that way and never have it in return. Pour your heart and soul into someone else so you dont have any love for yourself and they have no love for you so you are left feeling wothless.Thats a prettt accuarate word. Worthless. I cant get a sign of love or where I stand. i cant get a god damn symbol. I treat everyone the best that I can and they turn adn give it to someone else. I do not matter, as previously stated I am worthless in their eyes as long as I keep taking care of everything for them. heaven forbid I stop to try and get it in return or stop because i am emotionally and physically drained. Returning the favor to them for this lvoely gift of constant disappointment would not go kindly. I would be burned at the stake instead of a pittiful slave tied to it. Good luck to them fixing it when I hang myself with the rope they have fasened me with.

[cyincalangels]

a final goodbye

as a warning, this is going to be all my thoughts and emotions in one long post. a post i never even thought i would have to make. when i first made this page, i wanted to show this to you at a bigger milestone in a relationship, i wasnt sure what that was going to be or when that was going to happen to be honest. but here we are, at our final milestone. parts of me also never really wanted to show or mention this page to you. but in all honesty, this makes it easier for me to recognize and acknowledge what im feeling and being able to come back and see how my feelings and thoughts have grown or may have changed. i read through all the posts ive written to double check if these are even worth showing you. and i still think they are. i still feel the same way in each post ive written. and i think ill always feel the same way, even after you’re no longer a huge role in my life. i was hurting after i read through all the posts because 1. ive never written things about other people like that. i never even write my feelings out like that 2. i always felt at peace almost after writing each post. each post made me more grateful for you. and dont get me wrong, its not like i only wrote these posts when i was happy, i only wrote when i remembered or made time. there should have been waaaay more posts than there really are. so ill try to make it fit in this one. and 3. im scared ill never really be able to feel like this about a person again. or at least want to be vulnerable anytime soon. again, i never really felt this way about someone. so it definitely hurts having to sit here and write this. i hurt because i know this is my fault. i dont need you to accept or validate anything in this post or what ive done and i dont need you to say it wasnt my fault. ive come to terms that a lot of this was caused by my baggage i failed to heal on my own, which eventually ended in me basically neglecting you and taking you for granted. ive honestly had to stop and cry and recollect myself several times in writing this so it may be all over the place. im also really sorry if this is way too much for you and if this is nowhere near how you felt about me.

i can thank you in a million ways for how you have impacted my life in the very short four months ive known and got the chance to experience you. you were the first and only person who really made the effort to want to get to know me and learn about me. its taught me to be vulnerable and be okay with sharing myself and my stories with others. it showed to me that some people actually still care about what made me, me. i think thats what really intrigued me the most about you. you like stories and you wanted to hear mine. and i wanted to share and experience some of my life story with you. but now all i really have of the memories that remind me of you.

you also exposed to me a lot of my own trauma that needs to be fixed. it was a hard and ugly truth i had to accept about myself and still trying to process it all now. you were strong enough to stand up for yourself and realize that youve had enough of all my baggage. that was probably one of the most humbling moments ive had in a long time because i mean yeah, people leave me for reasons, but it didnt affect me like how this did. it really woke me up to realize that i need to stop making excuses for my trauma. i cant just rely on attention to make it go away. maybe because i tried so hard (at least in my head) to do things to make you stay and i forced us to change to make it work. when ive always known that i cant control or force someone or something to stay. thank you for forcing me to want to work on myself. for me now. 

i know i spent a lot of time talking about me and not enough about you. i asked you today and you said you never needed much from me and for some reason, i felt like i failed you. because you did not need much and i couldnt even give that to you. although i kept asking and telling you what i needed and what works for me and i just wanted you to listen, i couldnt even do the same. i wanted change in a relationship its like i wanted to help change you to be better for me but i couldnt even change myself to be the best for you. i didnt want to accept that the change that was needed, was in me instead. i guess you were right when you kept asking if i was ready for you. because now looking back at it all, there is still so much work for me to do. 

i really went through all five stages at grief today. almost all at once. one second ill be okay and productive and really accepting of what i have to do from now on. but it could be seconds later where i think of you and suddenly bust into tears because i can no longer have access to you and no longer have you in my life. i thought to myself, “wow, i didnt think the last time i saw him was really THE last time ill probably ever see him again. ill never be able to hold his hand, hug or big spoon him, rub his back, or even scratch his head again.” all weird little things, but all things that i can never do again. i was more angry and disappointed with myself because my passion and emotions cost me someone i genuinely loved and cared about. it pushed someone away. again. i neglected you and let you slip away. i always had a feeling you’d leave me, i just didnt hope it was so soon. im going to miss you so much. beyond what words can explain. but even though i was upset or needed more when i wasnt physically with you, the second youd pick me up from the airport, all of that went away. being there with you made me forget what even makes me upset in the first place. i always appreciated every moment i got to spend with you. i was never bored. i was never tired of you. i never wished to be anywhere else than with you. 

theres so many things i regret that we couldnt experience together like how we hoped we could. like we couldnt go out anywhere together. you couldnt meet my people, even though they really wanted to. and i couldnt meet your people either. im actually really sad and hurt we couldnt travel or take a trip together. i was really looking forward to it because i know how much it meant for you to travel with your partner. theres so many things i wanted to do with you because i really enjoyed your presence and just wanted to share stories with you. but we couldnt experience a normal part of a relationship because of whats going on in the world. maybe that wouldve changed some things, but also it doesnt matter now. 

i wish i wouldve told you sooner. about how i really felt. not sure if that wouldve changed our situation much and what that would mean. but i never really would have thought i would fall in love with someone through an iphone screen. and i never expected you to feel the same, which may be a reason why i was always too scared to say it out loud to you. just know that i meant every word that i have ever said to you. ill still deadass ride or die for you. still support you. still always be here for you. still be a rock for you while the world is falling apart. still got your back, front, side, whatever you need. still be a call or text away. still be a nike plug if you need more shorts (or clothes and shoes in general). i could never hate you for this or for anything. i know all this is probably super dramatic for the four months ive known you, but i can promise you that this is nothing like ive experienced in a good way. i really do love you, camilo. and i knew for many weeks now. im sorry it had to come out this way. im sorry our story ended a lot sooner than we (mostly i) expected. i promise that ill still stay true to everything ive told you and promise to you that ill go to therapy for myself. please take good care of yourself. of all aspects of yourself please. i hope i can still count on you in the future. i love you. ill always keep praying for you. xoxoxo

ps this took me about two hours to write. and i might write more on here if i ever feel the creative need to release anytime soon, if youre curious to see later. 

[cyancapricorn-blog]

Random Stuffs with  GF

I love fruits vegibles and dont care for meat, but love it cheap. i think food a nutrition. Can't this also be relative to poor community since meat is usually more expensive,  but tahts untrue. fruits are most expensive. but it you think and watch me which you have been. it is possible that all my likes and such are otherworldly. i look at everything so differnt from everyone. when i see this laptop i still dont think of it as one but all the indivual  parts. just like quantuam physics, how am i so easy to accept that its percentages, and not certain just because einstien used to think the same thing as i used to ?

The world can be predicted with enough info is what i used to think. which is 100% TRUE. quantum physics is the only thing that prevents this due to percentages and the human brain is not fully understood yet, but after those 2 varibles are understood you can literally predict the future, which will also disprove god. ive told this to many but they are always in disbelief. and thats mainly why i dont believe in god, because if he is true after we are able to do this, he would either be 100% known. and we would be able to  find him or he would be disproven. but then how would humanity react to this. would they uprise it as blasphemy or would they move on and science would advance even futher. or would thier even be world peice. thier is so many possibilites and reading manga explores a posibility that humanity couldve taken since litterally  anything is possible in this world. even though people try  to disprove time travel and etc. this can be differnt timelines, universe and planes. and infact some place are more closer to another plane of universe than some might think. and this is all based in quantum physics, which is also advanceing even more as we are starting to get computers that computate in quantum physics, and the VR  is getting better, if using the quantum computer and more understanig the brain, it will open up the possibility for VRMMO like in sword art online. which will be i think the pinnacle. since when you understand the brain that much you can speed the mode of thinking to almost a dreamlike state and increase the rate of study to where children can maybe be adults in knowledge wise at the age of 6 or 7, becuase they are able to learn so much. or course maturity wise they wouldnt be able to be as good. and infact you can stilll make it 18 adulthood and just increase the general populus knowledge as such. maybe to the collage graduate level. imaging even the most stupid person in this world being a college graduate. what would the world be like? but we supposedly discovered all type of particles, is that is so. how come we can make a artifical brain, much like we already make hearts? if we could use a brain for a computer, i believe that  would be many times more powerful. since it is always running your body while you think more trains contemplate and even able to remember EVERY SECOND OF YOUR LIFE and still have so much space left over, about 150 yearsor video footage. thats almost like the internet in one brain. now if we have just two brains worth as a server for a game, that would be imense and since it is a brain, at the base you can essentailly do anything with it. so if we was to have a vrmmo, it would have to be an artifical brain telling the story. much like when a DM manages a Dungeons and dragons game. and since it is artifical. it can be sped up or hell supply a base and then the VRMMO computer is an artifical brain that mimics yours and generates the world around you. being a perfectionist artist and etc. but wouldnt that also mean since we know how to make artifical brains, we can also imprint on our own brains any knowledge much like of the game prey, indeed they was using alien DNA but sci-fi isn't  so sci-fi actually. since if we master the brain, some can achieve imortality, and when we are able to make an AI using a artifical brain, thier is just so much science can so. like time travel is possible to, lets just say thier is four dimensions. XYZ and Time, time which is fixed on a path traveling a certain rate and never acelerating.---hand to gf--- i cant eat vegs i been try to eat my dad most eat vegs and my mom not how i get to eat vegs but my body dont want me to eat but i not know if my son will be same you or not ---hand to bf--- yeah i understand. i actually find meat kinda disgusting like the fat, just so nasty. i dont even find spitting it out not nasty even i see. i  just go i understand, but i dont unstand when i comes to vegs cause thier so yummy.---gf---i most eat fruit than meat but i just learn someone said meat more potien to good for body but fruit mean good healthy for ur body stay live longer too and vegs more good for ur brian and body tooo i want to eat salad i try every thing not agree my body i not understand why i no eat vegs i been want to eat but if i eat i will throw up when i bite my brain not agree with vegs i eat fruit most because sometime not good body.--bf-- acutally salad is made of celluslose and that is a double helix of glucose, it just cleans your intestinse since your not a cow. --gf--  my mom most make meat my dad most make vegs he work home maker plant his garden he been make me to eat vegs but my mom said no i cant eat because my mom make me eat meat most than vegs--bf-- lol like space. yeah i guess if thier is such things as gods all i can imagine is kids having fun and swapping people from differnt worlds like in anime. like who ever just imagines, hey imma plant this to eat here, because if you look at the old age plants they was ugly. black watermelons, single stalks of corn. just hidious, if we look at people who go into the forest and try to survive they build a shelter, hunt and forage. they never try to domesticate because of the time needed. its takes someones life span to demesticate, and thus the first person to do so threw thier life away for the greater goood of his community, but it happened across the globe so thier is something untold in history books that had to happen. yeah is all of humaity just appeared one day. like bout 1mil or so. since we are recent in this world. we are advancing super fast, but it doesnt matter if we can just survive by ourselves. we rely on chicken for eggs, meat. cows for milk, whats with all this technology but 0 self sufficiency. yeah its hard to do it but its nessary. like if we are able  to then we will be able survive in space. first we need calories, second sleep. thats about it. yeah nutrients are important but not nearly important as your body keeping energy. we rely on plants and the planet we live on so much, we domisticated plants and animals to make it easy. including adding how to tell baby chicks apart. male and remale, even though how minor. like chickorias (flame pokemon) and the thing is that was thought  impossible before. and also patriotism, i dont understand it. yeah for the nation and all, but it should be for humanity. because asains, blacks, whites. we are all humans and bones is all we leave behind. artifical gravity seems impossible due to gravitty being due to mass. ---gf--- i understand how we change to way to get world better and ur family is mess up fuck up because how ur family learn from drugs and my family hate me because i am deaf they abuse me and we cant help them change better that why i figured out no one is work all world is bad no one will help us to change nothing work that why i figured it truth i thought GOD will help it not true i not see them work out world is fuck up now---bf--- like i said if thier was a god, we are his TV. and he watches for amusment and doesnt care of our wellleing. but i dont care, since tthe only way the entire world could be change is someone like me who can understand almost every mind set lived in every country and became the top and elected a WORLD leader, that ruled over ever country and elected by every country by the majority and use military might to from others to force it and the vvotes would have to be based on science, tech, military, humantarian, and population. since 1 person with a gun can only kill three people even with (ak-47). [the reason why i say since if smart enough they would use meat shields to get close enough and the metal infused into the meat shield makes a even harder shield. inhumane but effective in a general sense] now yeah the internet is huge and everything but THE INTERNET IS A MINORITY. so alot of people are still unaware of it and unless knowing about it since little will it start to be apart of culture. so IF thier was to be a world leader it would have to be for over 70 years to be effective since the next gen will think its natural. much like how a lot of north koreans only think thier way of life is natural. like in one of the mangas i read. you can learn from drugs gf simplely really. its like a thief learns how to steal. after a while of doing it you develop skills. like how a thief knows what a royal looks like in  fantasy, druggiees know what druggies look like and waht dealers look like. and if a druggy is re-hab. they can still fall back to it due to genetics and mental stimuli making thier brain in a mold. but going back to being a product of your envirment. a hero comes across a village, he has 3000 DEX but only 10 str and 20 hp. so he is weak but fast and able to escape. when the village learned, they just grabbed him and he wasnt able to escape. they planned to rape and use  him and new genetic material due to all the inbreeding done. and using him as food, (since thier is a healing arua that restored lost limbs) so they chop off a lleg and cooked it. but this is all they knew since they grew up and this was thier way of life, she loved him he was her food  and source of children and for the village she devoted to him. but his entire body was poison so the entire village died (unique trait he picked up) and he completely understood where they come from and its reasonable. and all of  the mangas like this are reasonable and such well developed. so the sci-fi created from them is becoming more and more reality as we closer to discovering if thier was a god... going to bed? ok my love, is it ok i post this? cool.

Anyone reading this comment your thoughts, its fun to talk random stuffs.

#random #science #scifi #anime #manga #deaf #love #gf #bf #new #time travel #fantasy #text #fbi #cia #lol #randomness #enjoy #the #read