#yeah rly badly

[wardingshout]

Viridian trainers for day 5 of spesilverweek! they are my most beloved but Lance is a cursed character who is impossible to draw or portray in any way to me

#idk what's up with him but I have smth like 20 different scrapped things that contains these 3 #and yet I almost always finish my doodles of just Yellow and Silver.... sorry Lance #he's such a funny guy to me esp as part of this trio I'm sorry I always give up on you #anyway yeah no I'm so late bc I wasn't happy with this so I wanted to draw smth else but I was doing chwismas today and was too tired #so I stayed up late doing nothing... #I so badly wanted to shit on Green's dumb cape too (affectionate) #spesilverweek #pokespe #pokespe silver #my art #pokespe yellow #pokespe lance #I'm just gonna tag everyone like that I guess #anyway I feel like having a Viridian trainers prompt was a gift to my soul but I rly struggled I'm so sorry guys one day... #pokemon

[skitskatdacat63]

2009 Italian Grand Prix - Jenson Button

#more gifs yaaaaa even tho i didnt even rly like this race overly tbh #also just miss having one of my main boys on the top step so this was made to cope #i think once in a fic i read jense's smile described as 'wolfish' and my god if that wasnt the most accurate description ever #like the way his grin curls to the one side specifically.....eeeeeeeeee so wolfish #im always astonished at just how badly colored the pressers are....theyre so desaturated and icky..... #like seriously ill be watching them like 'uhhh wait do i really find this guy attractive...?' and then i recolor and im like OH YEAH I DO #its just super unflattering and drab I HATE IT!! but its the only thing i actually enjoy coloring bcs everything else is just frustrating #jenson button #jb22 #we do a little bit of f1 #f1 #formula one #formula 1 #2009 italian gp

[gurorori]

enstars lolita substyle tier list <- delivered by a guy whos been So normal abt lolita for the past 7 yrs

#yehs ya might notice i removed the old school ones cuz well frankly. i don think enstarsies wld rly b into old school. apart from.. ahem #MIKAAAAAAA KAGEHIRAAAA #anyway #note: i do nawt hate ibanagi. i hate military #but yeah the old school ones stressed me so badly i jus ripped em out ok. no one can have it only me #if yr wonderin. wat these r based off #its vibes. i kno a lot of characters on a surface level im by naw means like usin sum kinda deep profound lore #jus vibes + personal opinion of like #imaginin the person in a substyle n if it clicks i add #tier list #ensemble stars #<- sneaky main tag. im ready

[girl-bateman]

Ok serious question, do those literary magazine have a sense of humor or will they ban me for life if I tell them abt that time i didnt pee for 36 hours and got really spiritual abt it ?

#document is titled 'the best pee of my life' and its a harrowing story of loneliness. the beauty of nature. and of boldly being yourself #but like... yeah its obviously gonna be a bit crass bc its about me not peeing but needing to pee rly badly #u get it #it was a journey for me #a story simply begging to be told 😮‍💨 #etc etc

[iwantyoursexmp3]

most interesting part of andrew ridgeleys whamoir! (wham! memoir) to me is that the most engaging part + the part where he read as the most engaged whilst writing was the bit before anything to do with wham! and was just abt their friendship as kids…..the wham! stuff had interesting details and anecdotes and reflections but it felt just like a quick (sometimes very rushed tbh the pacing felt wayyy off at times) retelling of the wham! story just getting all the basic beats and details fans would want to know….my conclusion is man just really wanted to write about his best friend. good for him

#even the after part there’s like a page and a half about him and the rest is about george #they didn’t lie when they described it as a love letter #I don’t really have any criticisms bc I don’t really like to critique memoirs personally most of the time #I don’t like the idea of applying a critical framework to someone’s telling of their life #definitely a very quick read and I don’t think a lot was put into the structure style pacing etc but based on all that…. #I don’t think any of that was the point LOL #it doesn’t make it badly written to me I’m just like okay girl I enjoy you sharing your reminiscing! #my only downside was it reminded me at times that the British guy born in 1963 acts like a British guy born in 1963 #which doesn’t bother me bc I’m good at distancing myself from celebrities as people but it did have me like oh yeah. sometimes #wasn’t a big fan of the wham! in china chapter but tbh from what i vaguely know of andrews politics #we do not align anyway that’s all I’ll say LOL he’s a guy in a band I rly love I like him as an artist 👍 I thought it was a nice tribute 👍

[bravewolfvesperia]

/ so I've been thinking about how to handle Transgressor Yuri in terms of his canon, and like... I really can't do much with it. I'm probably just going to toss what existed as far as my muse goes because like... after the tree was destroyed we:

A: had no confirmation it was Yuri who did it or if he was just there at the time (i.e. could have been trying to stop someone from doing it)

B: had no confirmation on why he did it if he did (and how long it'd be before we even saw him again or if he or Lloyd's group would have run into Kanata's group) and why he would be working with Kasque unless he knew something Milla somehow didn't in this context (i.e. Milla having the wrong idea about the trees and what they're there for/what they do). that or he was doing it because he was in a situation of being forced to do it for some reason (bc basically I can't see him just being on Kasque's side because he agrees with her, and without further context I'm stuck)

I guess it really depends what the manga does as far as the trees go at this point, because the manga has skipped so much content and is literally making chapters 5-7+9 happen simultaneously and it's honestly a mess. they've skipped crossover related stuff too (without putting in replacements), which the trees were relative both to Kasque and crossover content, hence why I don't know what they'll end up doing with them and if I should wait for them to get there and cover that stuff.

they've already added in the whole "explosion we're gonna blame on you guys" thing despite Sonia not even existing in the manga as of yet if she will be, so I really have no idea what's being kept and what's not (because at this point they've already tossed a slew of non crossover content out the window - if I sound bitter it's because I am LOL).

that said if they do get to the trees and keep them and have a replacement for Yuri (which I'm doubting they will at this point), I'll probably be able to figure out what to do with him better. if they ignore that aspect since it's partially tied to Milla (and Lloyd's side story and evidently Lloyd's group's main story), I'm probably just gonna yeet it for my muse because there's literally nothing I can do with the information we had before the game shut down. most unfortunately too, that was the legit last fucking thing that happened before the story was canceled.

#{ bravewolf mun } #/ like seriously is it too much to ask of them to actually give a shit abt this cast and story #the manga is a shell of what the game was and that's not even including the legacy chars #the manga is like... okay on its own but when compared to the game it's just #kinda a disappointment to me. I know they wanted to go the cheapest possible route #to continue the story but... if they'd made it an anime ppl would've bought it #if they made it a crossover too ppl would've LOVED it. I just wish they didn't half ass #this manga so badly bc I keep seeing ppl say it's doing poorly #and like yeah no fucking wonder. it's hardly what the game was and what people loved it for #but ofc if this manga also fails and gets canceled they prob won't pick the title back up #deeming it two failures when rly it wasn't a failure in the game bc that was... a WHOLE other issue for why it ''failed'' #anyway yeah I'm salty and I want the game back that had such a deep rich story #with loads of lore and things HAPPENING around the WORLD #not just with our main cast. so many Talesy things and they were like little secluded versions #all happening around the world while Kanata is having his journey #Yuri probably would've been a semi big part based on how they introduced him #unless they wanted to go the ''it's not actually Yuri'' route bc normal Yuri appeared in a single event lol #but him and Milla seemed like they'd be influential in the story and I'm really bummed they both got tossed like that /

[mrs-kelly]

Goodnight! ❤️ I love Charlie so so so much and I’m gonna hold him so tight tonight 🥰

#that episode rly snapped me out of my funk sfhjkl #seeing everyone treat Charlie so badly just. got me out of my head #like!!! yeah!! I really do love him! ands that love is enough! #he’d never feel like I’m not enough for him. because I’m the greatest thing that’s ever happened to him #And I can rest in that!! I don’t have to wonder about it so much #ren speaks #renlie

[orcelito]

signed up for a credit card

disgusted and appalled

#speculation nation #this was by my own choice but i dont want to #but. i am an adult (unfortunately) and i need to build up my credit score (ugh ugh ugh) #so i signed up for a card that im only rly planning on using for mundane purchases #so i can pay them off every month. and thus. build the credit score. #also is good to have a card in case of emergencies etc etc whatever #there are several benefits. i also just really deeply despise credit cards bc i know how badly they can fuck people up. #ive seen it firsthand :p #but. unfortunately. this is the world we live in. and i need my credit score to be higher. #not like immediate need. but i have an Okay credit score. just good enough to be above average. generally. #(from this bills service thing i used some years ago. rly was nice for getting me started out.) #im trying to think ahead. me rn a good credit score doesnt mean that much #but it'll have good possible uses for me in the future. so im gonna work on building my score up now. #me years in the future may thank me for it. Paying It Forward and whatever. #and yeah i paid bills and health insurance yada yada yada. all this disgusting adult shit. #but im doing it. ugh.

[drewsaturday]

i am still so inconceivably Wired from hanging out with 1 of my old teachers yesterday i don't think i'm ever going to sleep again. it is almost 8am and i'm just vibrating.

#txt #and the fact i'm gonna stay in touch w her.... ;A; #i don't wanna be a burden etc bc i also recognize like yeah it's probs cool to check up on old students #but she's got friends her own age lol #and i'm not in that field so there's less to talk about #but it was genuinely so healing to catch up with her and it makes me happy to know that i'm Allowed to ;-;; #idk i just wish i took more advantage of still living in the area all these ppl who meant a lot to me live in #i just have a lot of residual... bad feels about myself re: high school and caring about people like that so i rly withdrew a Lot #and so i genuinely thought there was a risk of yesterday going awful bc i'm still so caught up in those old stories i wrapped myself in #and depending on if i hear back from the others i reached out to it may go badly in their own ways #but idk it was so healing after years of having all these very negative presumptions about how ppl remember me #to actually have a full hour of conversation that didn't even touch on what i was scared about but still totally demolished nearly #a decade of bad thoughts i now realize were totally unnecessary in at least one case.......... haha wild

[skitskatdacat63]

Why do I say things like this. Like what was the need. Why do I feel the need to jinx myself. What was the reason.

#lol just looking thru my drawings and i saw that tag #and im like YOU! ITS YOUR FAULT IM BURNT OUT! I BLAME YOU(catie from that specific day) #anyways trying to draw nando and ITS NOT GOING WELL YKNOW #i still really struggle with drawing real people #seb is okay bcs ive drawn him the most and like have stared at his face for hours so...familiar...yeah... #and i do in fact look at a fuckton of nando pics BUT GOD HIS FACE IS SO DIFFICULT #he just has very like odd features i guess. AND HES VERY HANDSOME FOR IT but god they do not lend to easy drawing #i miss oc drawing where theres no accuracy really required since its all from my head #not that im never drawing ocs again. theyre still my beloved but i dont rly have any ideas atm for them :< #wanna draw rüß as an f1 driver tbh bcs ive been maladaptive daydreaming about that for the past few weeks #but as you know im somewhat allergic to drawing racesuits 😭 #also im wondering if drawing chibis so much fucked up my sense of style bcs now i struggle sometimes w proportions #i just. dont want to be burnt out anymore. i know its something you cant really force yourself thru #and also that you shouldn't force yourself cause it just makes it worse but #idk. i wanna draw so badly 😭 and i do it and sometimes it works out and sometimes im just staring at the screen like. oh. #i want to also finish the pt 2 to the boy king ficlet. i always randomly add a few paragraphs to it #blah blah anyways just thinking. i feel a bit frustrated and unfufilled atm i guess #like that feeling in your chest of tightness. its the worst. i wanna throw something or break something i guess #PLEASE JUST LET ME DRAW MY PORTRAIT OF KING NANDO IM BEGGING #he'll be so pretty okay 😭😭 i just cant get his fucking face right #ignore me ignore me. catie is: going through it #i miss the sense of urgency that drawing before my flight gave me #i like having that sense of incentive and deadline. like: you genuinely need to finish this right now. #if not then its me creating meaningless deadlines in my head that actually make me have worse burn out 🙃 #i love how before texas im like i am going to finsih all my wips!! anf then finished exactly: zero #catie.rambling.txt

[gurorori]

T_T i hve smth rly shameful 2 admit urgh

#i don think its DAT bad but it like.. questionable #i think ppl wld think me a freak <- is one #but ummm.. twitter. ykno when dat one 'clips dat go hard' acc was everywhere but it was actually jus liveleak typa shit jus ppl dyin n #gettin murdered #well ill b honest i gawt rly drawn to dat one when it was still up #OBVIOUSLY morbid curiousity i think its one of the things i literally operate on. on a molecular level dats me #but uh theres definitely a lot of shame dat comes with i jus feel Bad bad increasingly bad #but i console myself with the fact im not clownin on it unlike ppl in the replies makin light of it #but yeah after dat one gawt taken down i was... kinda desperate to find accs like it. so i DID n followed like a dozen #now disturbin videos of gore n murder pop up on my timeline often n i jus don have the patience to go n unfollow em all #cuz i kno ill get drawn into scrollin thru em again #2 MAKE MYSELF CLEAR i don derive sum kinda pleasure or satisfaction outta it #i jus get fixated on it n cant stawp n i KEEP LOOKIN #it makes me rly distressed cuz.. well. real life things like dat do scare me lots n i start spiralin badly...

[sensazioneultra]

am truly having the most miserable week and if i have to stay home and be sick in bed today i might truly go completely insane

#i kmow this sounds insand but i wanna go to work #i am sick and tired if being sick and tired #i wanna be OKAY mentally physically okay i wanna be fine #sorry ik i complain a lot lately but rn im feeling super awful like #im just so tired of the fact theres always smth wrong w me #either its mental illness or my body fucking fighting me i am sick of it i am tired #i literally feel like crying at the thought of staying j #in bed miserable and sick when i actually had plans today for once #and like yeah j was anxioys abt them and contemplating not going but nowk #im like no pls god. i wanna go. idc if it goes badly i just wanna GO #i hate everything im so #life rly isnt fun rn its actually rly fucking miserable and im. at my limit #and the thought of havjng to deal w mh doctor also makes me wanna scream #i hate that man hes so useless #and its fucking 6am ive been awake for an.hour and idk if i can sleep more i might have to just sit in bed and sloely go insane #ok thats enough i gota wavw of nausea im going #delete later

[nomaishuttle]

well nvm gets scared. made a poll but now im scared bc its music based

#i have this horrible horrible fear ill mention liking a song and everyone will be like Oh no that song sucks and actually you shoild kys #for liking that song. and then i explode into 5billion pieces... sigh #N ITS NOT LIKE THIS IS EVEN A 'CRINGE' BAND OR ANYTHING. i do lidten to 'cringe' #bands but. whatever #and ik its dumb yk. like its music i like it thats fine.. but i do get embarassed t say im a lemon demon fan or whatever #bc ppl associate lemon demon fans with being So annoying (understandable) #but like. idk man i just like th songs... etc #lemon demon isnt th subject of th poll i made btw. its literally a rly well loved album and band and stuff im just so scares... #its hard being a girlie who loves music n loves talkin abt music while also being So incredibly scared of ppl making fun of my music taste #ITS SO DUMBBBBB ITS SO DUMB. IT DOESNT EVEN MATTER IF PPL THINK MY MUSIC TASTE IS ANNOYING BC IT MAKESME HAPPY!! #THATS ALL THAT MATTERS AND MUSIC IS SUBJECTIVE but still im so sensitive abt it. and its dumb as hell bc it isnt even that like. idk.. #and im th same way with most of my interests likee. partially i dont post abt my interests bc i Fucking hate fandom so badly #another reason is bc likee. idk i dont consume media that much atm... I wanna start reading more books n watching more things tho #but th main reason is like. Sigh ig it ties into th hating fandom thang i dont want ppl to think of me as being In a fandom for something #not that im into anything heinous yk. but like i get scared publically being like Yeah im into cookie run. or whatever.bc theres like #already a preconceived notion of cr fans NOT THAT LIKE.. NIT THAT FANS OF THINGS R OPRESSED RJGNFJGNNG #but like yk. i get worried ppl will see that im a cr fan and think im one of Thise cr fans #not just cr..other things as well but crs th most like.controversial ig... #but even w/ fandoms that dont have baggage and stuff i dont want ppl t see that im interested in it and have that like. idk idk #i dont want ppl to think of me as A fan of a thing bc im my own person. idk if that even makes sense i think i sound dumb... #i just get rly rly rly worried abt peoples perception of me n like.every thing i do i imagine how ppl perceive that and how it changes #their view of me.yk... it freaks me out rly rly rly bad #whatttever tho. abd yes i understand i sakd Ya i wouldnt publically say im a fan of x thing..And then said it publically #but tags arent public to me.. this is my special zone for my besties only.. #whatttever. if uve read this far ill judt tell you th poll is for umm. favorite song off of how to be a human being by glass animals #its likee. one of the Very few albums where i have the entire thing on my playlist.. th knly other one i cn think of that i dont Need to #get rid of JFFBHF is daft punks discovery .... #i have a couple other full albums but theyre from when i ws #15. so like.. #whatever. idk . its dumb t be freaked out over a poll but its also bc Since i dont post abt my interests n stuff im like. well im nt llowed

[chisatowo]

Gm I forgot to take my melatonin supplements last night and as a consequence I now have deep backstory hcs for deep cut. And by that I mean for Shiver, Frye and Big man had pretty normal lives fkgndjd

#rat rambles #splat posting #I rly rly dont like ex octarian soldier shiver hcs but I think it could be interesting for them to still be from octo valley #without going too deep into my worldbuilding hcs I imagine that their family sort of split up turing the great turf war #so some of them were pushed into the underground like the rest of the octarians while some found shelter with the other two hero families #I just cant imagine that literally all octarians were forced underground to begin with and I feel like its especially possible for such a #culterally relevant family to be able to find some allies willing to help them wait out the worst of things #I also just feel like its implied that octarians have like been around in greater inkling society before octo expansion #and I dont just mean ppl like marina I mean octarians that have potentially always lived outside the underground #like that diss pair octoling I feel like at most his parents would have had to left before he could remember #I just feel like it would make logical sense for octolings and tbh octarians as a whole to not have literally all been shoved underground #anyways back to shiver long story short they were put under a lot of pressure to be the most flawless at not only shark taming and stuff #but also as a political figure since I imagine the half that went underground probably have to serve a pretty strong political role #but I also imagine the two halves have some contact but its become more strained over the years as the two picked up different ideals #but yeah after shiver learned of the other half and started to also crack under the pressure they were like yknow what fuck this #so at around 13 he snuck out along with master mega which was a troublesome ordiel but didnt draw enough attention to go too badly #and they showed up to the town the rest of their family lived in and they were like holy cow kid ur so good with that shark already woa #and they accepted them without much difficulty leaving shiver to relax and by relax I mean imedietely explode from the change in emviorment #and then abt a year later big man and frye came to crash on their couch leaving to them initially being the grumpy old man of the trio but #eventually the other two help them realise that being stupid is fun so they throw away their braincells #well more like big man has a whole character arc abt independance and such and then helps shiver learn to loosen up s biy #while frye is sitting in a corner being a nerd and trying to learn shiver's dialect of octarian since theyve only ever heard the outer #version from this half of shiver's family #and shiver is having to learn like 50 different laguages gjfbdjf #but yeah I hc that frye has a big interest in linguistics which is why even though frye and big man used to only interact for like a week #each year frye still went out of her way to becomr fluent in understanding big man's language #but like on a deeper level too since I imagine most in the greatwe world at large probably have to learn at least 2 or 3 laguages in their #lifetime thanks to the wide variety of animals theyre having to commune with on a day to day basis #god I am getting off track as shit why do I have to base so much of my hcs on even more worldbuilding hcs fhdjdhj #aaand now Im out of tags shit just know they all have character arcs and shit then move to splatsvile ok by