#yeah we're finally here

[swordsonnet]

two things about lena kelley:

1. she says "i'm afraid i won't be able to join you at the [pub]". what if she literally can't leave the OIAR building?

2. she says gwen doesn't "have what it takes" to do lena's job. that could just be a jibe at gwen's work ethic, sure, but what if there's a deeper meaning to it? what if there's another, less mundane requirement to be a manager at the OIAR?

#what i'm saying is that i'm fully on board with the homunculena theory i reblogged earlier #yeah i'm reaching a lot here but that's part of the fun innit #i'm so glad we're getting regular scheduled magnus content again! #i only got into tma shortly before the finale came out so i missed a lot of the fun theorising #can't wait to be losing my mind with y'all <3 #tmagp #the magnus protocol #tmagp spoilers #the magnus protocol spoilers #lena kelley

[me-sploh-rada-imas]

lublana 🥰🥰

#joker out #nace jordan #jan peteh #not jan *not* reposting the party stories to the official account but he does post a video of nace when they get back to ljubljana #do you... do you think they went home together...? #still kinda hoping that when nace moved last year it was to jan's place... #i think jan is saying 'bro we're here' and nace says 'bro finally' but like. my slovene is shit sorry #they got back at like 3am huh that's not so bad #edit ohhh it's kje smo okay #i still don't know what nace said before končno but yeah

[zeb-z]

ok listen. you're badboyhalo and having the worst week of your life. you're willing and wanting to give anything, anything, to get your kids back. forever, your crush/enemy/friend/date partner?/ president sits you down and asks you to marry him. he's on a drug that makes him manically happy and has an extreme level of brainwashing for federation purposes.

you consider for the briefest moment saying yes, because you're drowning in your grief and hard in bargaining, but it won't do anything to help bring the eggs back, forever doesn't know anything. forever wants the eggs back as much as you do, the real one at least, you know this.

you're surrounded by roses. you ask him what you can do to help him, what he needs, asking the forever that you know is in there somewhere. any other personal feelings aside, he's your friend and he clearly needs help. he asks you to marry him again. he tells you to stop making some noise that he's clearly hearing through auditory hallucination. you just want your kids back, you keep telling him this, until he snaps and starts shooting mines under both of you.

forever is still out of his mind. your kids are still missing. the roses are burning.

bad said no to the proposal, of course he did. that's not forever, the kids are gone, this is no time or place for such a thing even if forever was himself. but I don't think forever asked because he feels "opposite than what he usually feels" under the pills. he's manic and under the influence and half brainwashed - he wants every day to be the best day.

and how heartbreaking is that? that bad is only being proposed to while forever is out of his mind. that forever wants bad to say yes because that would make the day the best day ever for him. that under any other circumstances, on that bench with the roses all around them, it might have been something good?

#idk man like take this with a grain of salt too know but l'm taking a stand against every twt user that's been annoying me with their takes #you can't view all of this under a purely platonic lense because of the way they've been playing their characters. you also can't see it as #oh forever finally proposed!' because he's not! it's a whole fucked situation there's nuance and complications and so many factors #like don't be upset bad said no forever is clearly not himself? and who knows if he would even say yes in the first place? #but also on the opposite side like chill out? they've never been read as purely platonic? it's all fucked yeah don't be weirdly like #idk it's the people who are like that's fucked up and you're fucked up for watching it' with no media literacy. like yeah we're all aware #anyways. my view is that they've got incredibly complicated feelings towards eachother. forever would be happiest marrying bad #bad might not say yes under normal circumstances because again they've got a whole complex situation. he isn't sure of his own feelings on a #good day #idk. I need to write an essay about this and what bads internal monologue or thoughts might have been because #it's like. he's angry at forever. he has feelings for forever. he doesn't want to be with him but he doesn't want him with anyone else #there's a world where he could marry forever and be happy. but not here and not like this. idk #these are my interpretations at least! #either way the whole bench scene was phenomenal well done #z speaks #qsmp #mcyt #bbh #forever #q!bbh #q!forever #reposting this so my organizational tags work ✌️ #4halo

[thatuselesshuman]

Y'ALL I FINALLY GOT A FUCKING DIAGNOSIS FOR THE SHIT I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH SINCE I WAS 18 LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOO 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

#I've been waiting for this day #for so long #This new doctor is proof that good people exist y'all #And that my old doctors were ass #She ran like 2 tests then went: #“Yeah you have a form of long-term anemia and insomnia” #“oh and probably sleep apnea you should get a sleep study done” #“We're going to put you on *insert medicines here* and you should be feeling better within a few weeks” #GOD SEENDDDDDD #I FORGOT WHAT IT FELT LIKE TO HAVE ENERGY #JESUS CHRIST IS GOODDDDD #IM LITERALLY GOING TO THROW A PARTY #IM GOING TO FEEL NORMAL JUST IN TIME FOR FINALS Y'ALL 😭😭

[millenniummmbop]

rivalshipping is about healing to me but like in a “well-meaning yet still ill-advised codependency” way

#*pulls down projection screen and extends my collapsible pointer stick thing* #Yugi was a lonely kid with unresolved anger issues who went too far w the whole revenge fantasy thing #until The Power Of Friendship TM mellowed him out and he finally landed in a more emotionally stable state #*clicks to next slide* #meanwhile kaiba over here is ALSO a lonely kid with unresolved anger issues who ALSO went too far w his own fucked up revenge fantasy #*quickly shuffles through slides of Death-T* #but two mind-shattering comas later and yugi at the very least was willing to bury the hatchet and try to start over again #the whole 'kaiba vs peg sus' fiasco was where everyone finds out kaiba's motives up to that point and where it all finally clicks for yugi #*clicks to next slide to reveal the 'he just like me fr' meme but it's yugi crying on the balcony inside peggy's castle* #it's after this that yugi starts thinking 'Well friendship fixed ME so maybe it can fix HIM too' #*clicks next slide and hits play on the embedded video* #Yugi: good morning kaiba-kun! nice weather we're having today huh? #Kaiba: I'm going to beat u in the face and in the ass #Yugi: haha alright bud I'll see u at regionals tomorrow #Yugi said so himself that he wanted 'friends he could count on and who could count on him' (paraphrasing) #i think he saw this mess of a human being recklessly barreling towards the edge at 100 miles an hour and said #'yeah this looks like something i can personally fix' #bc he's the type of person to just selflessly shoulder a mountain of burdens if it means helping someone he cares about #like his heart is definitely in the right place but i don't think he realizes that kaiba also needs like #therapy and mood stabilizers or some shit #*a voice rings out from the back of the class* #'op they had like 10 minutes of conversation MAX over the entirety of duelist kingdom this is literally all in ur head* #no no the groundwork is there for all of this i PROMISE #lion king rafiki voice: look harder #like yes i'm delusional but i'm also RIGHT #(⓿_⓿) #ignore me

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads // twitter thread

The Sun and The Void

Venezuelan inspired high fantasy

follows a young outcast swordswoman taken in by her grandmother, the dark sorceress for a noble family, who relies on the magic to keep her alive after being attacked by monstrous creatures

and a young noblewoman who’s the shame of her family because of her mixed heritage and desire to use magic

both are manipulated by those with more power than them into a plot to free an ancient evil god

mineral based magic, politics, nonhuman MCs

#The Sun and The Void #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #hm. haha. surface level this is kinda interesting and cool but i am going to follow with so many complaints #though I feel like it didn’t go into the magic or worldbuilding as much as I wanted and it felt irrelevant to the characters #like how does the magic even work? idk man #though I feel like it didn’t go into it as much as I wanted and it felt irrelevant to the characters #very slow to start and the pacing is weird. it would also go ages without having the other POV. very disjointed? #it felt like the first 60% was just context for the group of characters getting together as a group and then it was a bit predisposed with #They’re A Group! even tho. they're barely a group for long #the authors note mentions that the story concept started with a line about the god and ritual and…..yeah I can kind of tell #I feel like everything was built up around it in a way that ultimately that part didn’t fit right #I never bought that any of them were actually like fully committed to the evil dark magic? and also there’s this plot twist #that they have to fully kill the sacrifices & I was like…did we not already know that? girl r you stupid what do you think sacrifice means #also #oh my god at like half way one of the MCs is like. oh finally this guy who I’ve been exchanging letters with for months turned up to get me #away from here! by the way I’ve been exchanging letters with this guy and we’re friends! and like. she’d been doing nothing much for the #last 10% of the book why was that not like….shown as something she was doing? and like build up the friendship for the reader instead of #just dropping it on us - and also that we know the character from the other POV. and hes a racist prick. and we're supposed to believe she' #charmed by him because of this letter writing WE DIDN’T SEE….. why. #and then also that is like. he’s a shitbag and it’s obviously not romantic at all. he’s manipulative and terrible to her #EXCEPT at the end it implies his bad behaviour is because demon and oh uwu he gets all beat up and maybe hes sowwy now #and starts to imply she likes and is attracted to him? and I get the impression the next book is gonna be like evil power couple dynamic? #which. feels like the first concept the author had; and then tried to build up to that but not effectively lmao #for the lesbians: #I DO APPRECIATE having an assumed love interest then realising that that was idealised and actually you have feelings #for this other person you’ve become friends with! nice slow switch up. though quite brief #I do however dislike that when she admitted her feelings to the first LI and she rejected her it was still framed as the other’s fault #for not reciprocating the feelings….worst trope….also like. it kind of conflated her not feeling that way to her having a bit of class disc #which. yikes? oh my god stop villainising people for not reciprocating romantic feelings (ALSO they turn out to be related anyway 🤪) #i just feel like the romance switchover could have been done with more nuance and complexity

[multi-lefaiye]

a modern ghost story - wip re-intro

finally, a re-intro for my first ever writeblr wip intro... waow how time flies.

taglist (i'm gonna be real with y'all, i lost track of the taglist and had to dig it up again--tentatively tagging the original taglist as well as folks i thought might be interested): @albatris @skitzo-kero @anexor @lychniscitrus @transmasc-wizard @chaieyestea @vacantgodling @kingkendrick7 @jezifster @manuscriptsatmidnight @fictionalbullshitter @astral-runic

(if you'd like to not be tagged in posts relating to this wip going forward, lmk!!! <3 and if you'd like to be added to the actual taglist, also lmk!!!)

synopsis: A Modern Ghost Story is the tale of the four members of The Cyclone Seekers, a group of semi-famous storm-chasers, and their harrowing adventures chasing after storms in Nebraska in 2006. On the way, they quickly come to learn that they have far, far more than tornadoes to worry about waiting for them in the storms. Something sinister is afoot, and their past may come back to haunt them in a very literal way.

setting: various fictional locations in Nebraska, United States, in 2006

genres: postmodern horror (?) with traces of comedy--fundamentally a road trip story, though, about healing and facing the horrors head-on.

vibes except it's not clear what these mean: late nights at sleepovers where no one wants to go to bed yet, a mason jar full of bottle caps, the highs and lows of a long road trip with your friends, strange messages on the radio in a voice you thought you'd forgotten, the past is always one step closer than it appears to be, the coppery taste of blood on your tongue, your heart pounding in your ears as the world roars around you, a group of queer adrenaline junkies, "therapy is expensive, but sitting in your car while it rains is free."

characters:

picrew: [link]

Roach - 29 - they/them - 5'2"

Roach is not the face of Cyclone Seekers, as they find the idea of actually appearing on camera daunting. For the most part, Roach prefers to stay behind the scenes, most often handling their budget, equipment, and transportation, as well as acting as their cameraman. A lifelong smartass, they always say exactly what's on their mind and they're not particularly graceful or tactful. Why would they be, after all? Talking around the point only wastes time, and Roach hates to stop when there's important shit to get done.

Despite their blunt and often rude nature, Roach has a big heart deep down, and they care deeply for their fellow Cyclone Seekers, considering the others their best friends in the world. Roach doesn't have a lot of people in their corner, and they're steadfastly loyal to the end.

Oliver Cox - 32 - he/him - 6'1"

Oliver, like Roach, is not the face of the Cyclone Seekers. Instead, he is the manager of their ViewTube channel and website, as well as the one who usually deals with the people side of things. He's very sweet and enthusiastic, and generally a very gentle man who hates to even raise his voice. While, like everyone else, Oliver has his moments of anger, he prefers to redirect this anger into something productive rather than taking it out on others.

This isn't to say, of course, that Oliver is an innocent child. He's had his fair share of hardships and struggles in his life. However, he believes wholeheartedly in the goodness of humanity and the world around him. And this extends to the team, especially Roach--despite their often prickly exterior, Oliver considers them a very dear friend and is very happy to have them in his life. He sees the best in everyone until they give him reason not to.

Sydney "Syd" Ambrose - 29 - they/she - 5'11"

Syd is a friend of Roach's from college, an extremely anxious person who, at heart, has always wanted to leave their mark on history in some way. With their thirtieth birthday rapidly approaching, they want to do something great before the big day. This has, in part, reflected on their work with the Cyclone Seekers. As one of two hosts of the show, Syd is often in the spotlight, despite their severe anxiety about public speaking. When the cameras are rolling, their fear falls away, and they easily steal the show.

Aside from their ambition to do something great that lands in the history books, Syd has had a lifelong fascination with storms. The world of more traditional meteorology wasn't for them, so they've decided a more fulfilling career is to chase storms around and study them directly. It's working out so far, despite Syd's growing restlessness regarding the group's lack of mainstream success.

Yara Key - 30 - she/her - 5'7"

Yara is the other host of the Cyclone Seekers, and she's the much more outwardly optimistic and outgoing one. Their bit on the show is that, though Syd is the anxious one, they're also first to jump headlong into danger just to get a good look at a tornado; Yara, meanwhile, is friendly and outgoing but also the first to hide. It's a good bit and one that brings her a lot of joy, though it does irritate her sometimes to have people assume she's actually a coward. Because she isn't--she's just not stupid.

Though Yara hasn't known the others that long, she's a loyal friend who cares about them all deeply, and her not-so-secret crush on Syd is something Roach teases her about rather frequently (to which she gladly responds by teasing them about their similar crush on Oliver). When it comes down to it, fame isn't important to Yara, but she has a genuine love for entertaining people. And if she can do it while educating them about dangerous storms at the same time? All the better.

Vincent Cruz - 28 - he/him (questioning they/them) - 5'9"

Vincent Cruz is not a member of the Cyclone Seekers, nor does he have any particular interest in joining their little group. In fact, he thinks they're pretty ridiculous, and more than that, they're fucking stupid. He's grown up his whole life in a small town in Nebraska and knows all-too-well how dangerous storms like the ones they seek out can really be. They're going to get themselves killed, and they'll be lucky if it's quick.

However, Vincent feels an obligation to help them, or at least to make sure they can't put themselves or anyone else at risk with their antics. He isn't sure what makes him feel such a desire to protect them, but he insists it's not out of any care for them. They're just stupid. If he doesn't do anything, then they'll die. Simple math. (Ignoring the fact that they're his first friends in years, and they seem to genuinely like him for who he is when few others do.)

Vulture - 31 - he/him - 6'2"

A mysterious figure from Roach's past, one that they, until now, were completely certain was out of their life forever. Vulture is cold and cruel and pretentious, seeing himself as quite literally better than everyone else. He loves to hear himself talk and wants everyone to think he's the coolest motherfucker in the room at all times, for better and for worse.

For the most part, he doesn't seem interested in Roach, for which they're grateful. However, he has been contacting them again for the first time in nearly ten years, asking to meet up again.

#a modern ghost story wip #wip intro #wip reintro #writeblr #writblr #multi makes text posts #christ FINALLY.... WE'RE HERE #got lost in the sauce making that vulture picrew lmao #anyway yeah :) #i think vincent had the biggest glowup here but i'm so happy with them all #so excited for the directions they're going now #this really feels much more like a story i can sink my damn teeth into #i hope y'all enjoy :3 #also i know i said the rewrite is roach centric #but god i love syd.... revived my affection for them.... #so we'll see #roach is the primary protag but uhh :) we'll see

[sysig]

Your Weekly TV Guide

On Monday you can expect:

2:30 PM: Handplates

And Tuesday:

2:30 PM: Handplates

Wednesday:

2:30 PM: Star Control II - Helix +4:20 PM Bonus!: Helix shitpost

Thursday:

2:30 PM: SCII - Helix

Friday:

2:30 PM: SCII - Helix

Saturday:

2:30 PM: SCII - Helix

Sunday:

2:30 PM: SCII OCs

Thanks for tuning in! (Patreon)

#Weekly TV Guide #Hey guess what I was up to this past week #If you guessed ''Editing 150+ individual pieces to stitch together into the next Month's worth of queue posting'' you'd win the prize #Absolutely sickening amount of editing lol but I did it! #I really wasn't sure if I was going to be able to since there was like - a lot lol #I realized there's like seven steps to my doodle posting wegh that's a lot of steps #But the system's been keeping things moving! Slowly but surely #I'll need to set aside a bit more time to work on my second behind-the-scenes project yet >:P #But I think I'll be able to! Patience bleh #Anyway! Finally starting to round out the Handplates stuff! #There'll still be some here and there :) #But for now the focus has shifted to Helix lol #Even right now - y'know how the queue is behind by like a month? Yeah lol #I set it down for a bit and now it's back again! It's convenient in its own way haha #And no we're still not into 2024 yet lol #Technically anyway - some of these were started at the end of last year and only finished recently!

[yellowloid]

FINALLY managed to make some progress on my wip thank GOD and all the saints in heaven for this christmas miracle

#it's kind of a funny story btw. life has been so hectic since the end of october i haven't really had time to write as such #only editing stuff that was already written and ready (the first two chapters of my fic that i posted) #but over the past few days i've gone back to reread the next parts and i've made some interesting discoveries #one of them being that i miscalculated and i don't in fact just have the 3rd chapter ready. i also have the 4th lmao #so that was a nice surprise #anyway. the other day after rereading the whole thing and making a couple of edits here and there i closed the doc and called it a day #that's what we call progress 🥰🥰🥰 #(was procrastinating as a result of being irrationally afraid of writing again after two months) #but yeah long story short. i FINALLY got back to actually writing tonight #made some actual progress on the 5th chapter and i'm so proud of myself for that you have no idea lmao #we're SO back baby #writing stuff

[mikoriin]

maybe this is a controversial opinion but like....some of yall are getting Way too comfortable at the idea of killing another human being just because theyre “problematic”

#like idk it just rly rubs me the wrong way #some people on here see someone with a '''bad'''' opinion or moral stance and are like #well then die :) #like....maybe chill a bit #i know ive personally said elon musk and jeff bezos could die tomorrow and id be like jesus finally #and maybe im being a hypocrite but i feel theres a difference between saying that #capitalist pigs that hold all the worlds money and dont do shit to help fix the world or whatever #and instead spend it on going to space for fun or buying a social media site only to run it to the ground #could honestly die today and id be like yeah we're better off than like #saying a celebrity should die for being problematic or something #i see it with like creators and vas and other random users too #like u guys need to stop being so comfortable being so horrible #and understand that there are so many differing opinions and morals in the world #u are not righteously good because you feel you are the ''least problematic'' because good and bad are not things that are so black and whit #also wishing death upon someone for having a kind of shitty opinion when instead you could be wishing that they eventually become educated #and change their views and morals #thats not rly up the alley of 'good guy' lol #vent tag #sorry all my thoughts are in the tags

[revvethasmythh]

If you ever wonder why Shadowheart is legit one of my top origin characters, I can tell you it is 100% because "faithful cleric of Shar, convinced her deity is right and their relationship a kindness, eventually learns how wrong she was and must change her path" is not just a story I vibe with deeply on a narrative level, it is one I once actually, literally played myself

#me hearing shar is in the game: 👀 #me hearing there's a playable cleric of shar with a similar emotional story to what I've done before: 👀👀👀👀👀👀 #this was prompted by my shadowheart origins playthrough #like yeah. obviously I'm doing her origin it's so in character for me that I've literally independently done this before LMAO #I think about this a lot. like. they really said 'we're doing this for rosie specifically' huh #rosie plays video games poorly #also that campaign was never completed so here I actually get the emotional catharsis of seeing the whole thing through finally #god's favorite princess

[lapis-lazuliie]

going off of my tags in the last m2d post i rb - maybe the point of the writers bolting a woman onto the boys lives was to hone in that nicole didn't need a female presence to make up a family bc she had joey & michael, two perfectly adequate and loving guardians. so allison and sarah were just for their benefit rather than their daughters if that makes sense???

#still i'm not a fan of the finale for the entire fact that 'we're a family and i'm not leaving you' theme in the bin #a lot of people argue that michael - who wasn't a fan of raising a kid - stayed with nicole in the end #while joey - who wanted to raise a kid - left to be with a woman and heR child #and like. yeah i get that of course and it's all wrapped up in a neat little sitcom bow #but it still would've been nice for the boys to be like 'hey actually why're we dating all these women anyway? all i need is right here' #but yeah idk as i said their introductions were more for the boys needs since nicole didn't actually HAVE a need for another mother #my two dads #she speaks

[glittergoats]

and if you don't love me now

#hunter x hunter #hxh #kurapika #uvogin #hxh 2011 #my art #tw eye horror #kinda #yeah ive been watching hxh for the first time w my bf! #he finally got me to watch it after begging for months and i have been loving it #we're somewhere in the greed island arc rn idk how far though #but yorknew city arc had me GRIPPED #definitely my favorite so far!! #anyways yeah uh kept singing the chain while we were watching it bc the word chain was said SO much #and then this was a joke doodle #until it wasn't #so now here we are #I'm happy with it though! #uvo is very fun to draw and i struggle with kurapika everytime i doodle him lol #i have some other art from my watch thru i need to post here! ill do that over the next couple days probably

[xoxoemynn]

Just literally lost my breath watching Ed stretch out his boot to tap Stede's foot.

I have seen this moment I don't even know how many times now, I have seen hundreds, if not thousands, of pieces of art of that moment, I have read all the metas and all the screaming and examined all the gifsets and it STILL has such a visceral effect on me

And somehow knowing it was improvised just makes it even more lasjdakldaj?!??!?!

Anyway, got me sitting here cradling my head in my hands wondering what kind of small, intimate action that ordinarily you wouldn't think twice about, but in the context of Ed and Stede it is simply EXTRAORDINARY and PROFOUND we're going to get in season 2.

What's going to be that unexpected but undeniably romantic moment that launches a b

illion emotional breakdowns?

We are going to be weeping on the floor and I cannot wait.

WRECK MY SHIT!!!!!!

#OFMD #Edward Teach #Stede Bonnet #Ed x Stede #emynn.op #I have been deliberately doing a very slow final rewatch #I'm saving the final two eps for tomorrow so I don't have my final image of Ed be him sobbing for too long #but I am just.......unwell #also I sit here debating the number of emotional breakdowns #I started with a thousand just to be true to the saying but that was obviously low #and no clue how many people actually watch OFMD? #a million? ehhhhh #but we're all having multiple breakdowns yeah? #so billions #my math checks out don't question me

[themyscirah]

Can feel my brain chemicals bubbling as I think about Artemis

#shes been here for FOUR issues and i adore her already you dont understanddddd #also the ginger bit does NOT help lmao. i mean okay her ginger is one i headcanon into like a ginger/brown kind of mix that would maybe just #get more sunbleached and stuff as opposed to being like. traditional ginger etc #but IM ginger so it is one of the ingredients in making my brain bubble teehee. we're twinning fr. #i dont cosplay but i could be her. get me a wondy costume and ill do it ahdjahdhs #what am i saying. oh yeah i think shes neat : ) #paying off my pain at the first half of the messner loebs run by finally getting to the bit i care abt #anyways shes ticking a few of my special character boxes. some that havent been seen with dc comics for me yet. that being redheaded woman #with at least one of my major character flaws. #gosh what was i saying. i dont remember. anyways the art sucks and the writing isnt how i think most characters would behave at all #but by god does she compel me. <3333333 #blah

[domesticmail]

.

#will be breaking up with my boyfriend soon because this situation is straight-up untenable #and then i guess i'll be moving! #i feel so weird and unhappy but ultimately i think i'll be happier alone #working on myself alone #working on my life alone #because he is just. not conducive to any of it #he rightfully pointed out that i have flaws i need to fix but he also #goes on screaming tirades and ignores me for days #so i feel like ultimately i am justified in leaving. #i know i have issues and i need to work on them and I AM! #if that isn't enough for him that's okay #but it's not okay to oscillate between screaming at me and giving me the silent treatment #i mean my god. #this is not a relationship. #this is me letting myself get berated #and then disrespected #and tbf i've allowed this behavior for two years so he is not entirely to blame #i have had many chances to leave and i've always discarded them because i thought we could work it out #but yeah i've reached the point where i don't think it's work-out-able #i mean he straight up told me our relationship is not important to him and that i'm not important to him #i don't understand how that could possibly be a GOOD thing in a relationship #and i'm honestly a little saddened that i let myself think that was okay for so long #i may have flaws but i'm not abusive or manipulative. i'm just lazy #but i take care of my responsibilities too. #so ultimately i'm just not okay #i'm not okay with any of this and i'm finally okay saying that #it doesn't make him or i bad people #it means we're not compatible and probably haven't been for a long time #i am unhappy here #he is unhappy here