#yeahhhhh so anyways

[pepperpixel]

“Can't remember when we walked past the O.R. sign!

(sur-ger-y!)

Can't remember passing out with her hand in mine!

(my-my-mind!!!!)

I remember waking up with my mind repaired.

(A-OK! ^^)

I remember when I realized, she wasn't there...”

Amnesia was her name….. is. so. horrifically. sadly fitting for these two in literally every single line. And I’m gonna NEED ALL OF U GUYS TO GO LISTEN TO IT NOW OK… THIS ISNT A DRILL GO GO GO GO!!!

Anyway… uhh. the fact Betty “blessed” this guy to like. An eternally long lifespan w THIS FUCKED UP OF A MENTAL STATE IS SO SCREWED UP GHGH- Like poor Simon god damn…! u kno he’d rather just keep on not sorting out his baggage and trauma forever too cuz it’d be too complicated… too much… force him to admit things about himself and about BETTY that he really really doesn’t want to… better to just leave it all unexamined.. pack it all into lil boxes so he can just try to ignore it and pretend it doesn’t exist… HE GOTTA LIVE FOREVER W IT THO… *ME BANGING ON SIMONS DOOR AT 3 IN THE MORNING*: “SIMON U GOTTA ACCEPT URSELF!!!! LOVE URSELF!!!! ACKNOWLEDGE N ACCEPT EVEN THE “BAD” PARTS OF URSELF!!!! SIMON PLEASE!!!!! SIMON EVEN PPL WHO LOVE YOU AND WHO YOU LOVE CAN HURT YOU!!!! ACKNOWLEDGE IT!!! ACKNOWLEDGE THE HURT AND ACKNOWLEDGE UR FEELINGS!!!! AND URSELF!!!!! SIMON!!!!” anyway… gGHGH YEA, SRRY. SIMON PETRIKOVS MENTAL ILLNESSES MAKE ME FEEL LIKE IM GONNA EXPLODE. ANYWAY HAVE SOME ART. W a bunch of diff versions cuz I’m indecisive!

#adventure time #simon petrikov #betty grof #petrigrof #doodles #lol at tagging this petrigroff but nah I stand by it man!!!! #being a petrigroff shipper is understanding that I’m actually canon these two need som fuckin COUPLES COUNSELING. OR TO JUST BREAKUP. #like….. gGHG I LOVE BETTY BUT ALSO. ALSO… also…. these 2 have some issues… seperate and together issues. lmao #ANYWAY THO. ANYWAY THO. IM SO FUCKING EXCITED. I SAW THE NEW TRAILER. IM GONNA DIE. MY WIFE I GOT TO SEE MY WIFE #AND WERE ACTUSLLY GONNA GET SIMON MENTAL STATE SHIT YEAHHHHH!!!! #HELL FUCKING YEAH!!!!!!!!! #FIONNA AND CAKE DO NOT LET THIS NERD KEEP RUNNING AWAY FROM HIS FEELINGS FUCKING GET HIS ASS!!! MAKE HIM FACE IT AND WORK THRU IT!!! #pls!!!! if even Simon Petrikovs can start working thru his mental traumas there might be hope for all of us ghghg #uh but anyway yeah. AMBESIA IS HER NAME IS SO THEM.. STRAIGHT UP I FELT THE URGE TO EVEN LIKE. make an animatic for it!! it was so fitting! #im not gonna make an animatic cuz I don’t feel like it but!!! I saw it… I saw the animatic in my brain ghghg- #there’s a lot of typos in these tags but. just do me a favor… and pretend like there aren’t lol #fionna and cake #am I…. possibly…. projecting more mental trauma and issues on Simon. then he ACTUALLY has… #probably. yes. but!!!! he def still DOES have issues. I feel like I’m probably exaggerating the Betty ones cuz he #never really outright expresses feeling hurt by her. but also I feel like!!!! he’s the sorta guy!!! WHO WOULDNT EXPRESS THAT! #cuz he loves her!!!!! sO MUCH!! and she did so much and pushed herself so far and was trying so hard… and also she’s fucking basically d #dead now!!!! it’d be like. disrespectful of her memory…. to feel that. also what’s even the point of expressing that pain she’s gone!!!!! #she did all of that.. for him… how could he…. just. spit in the face of that #im writing those last few tags in the he perspective of simons mind btw… the things he tells himself…. #anyway gGHG MAYBE I AM PROBABLY PROJECTING MORE ISSUES ON HIM THEN HE ACTUALLY HAS BUT WHO CARES MAN #I’m allowed ghghgh- #I wanna draw art of Simon having a traumatic flashback to the ‘Dont worry ull be obliterated soon!’ line and hating himself for it #ice king isn’t him!!! it isn’t him! it’s not him!!! why does that hurt it shouldn’t hurt she wasn’t talking to HIM #BUT SHE WAS #SHE WAS… she didn’t think of the ice king as Simon but he IS… HE IS AND JUST. URGHGH

[arthrobug]

Holy fuck it's the Mistah Rayman the Legend woah

He's so totally fun to draw and I can't wait to see if he's going to just be a major red herring and be the sweetest lil' guy ever, the most dastardly guy that's 100% going to shoot someone in the face in existence, is just being threatened into submission by Eden, is being puppeteered/brainwashed by something or other, WHATEVA it's going to be so cool anyway cuz it's THE RAYMAN

#anyway I'm super hungry and it's 10:50 ima go eat somethin #captain lazerhawk blood dragon #captain lazerhawk #rayman #rayman captain lazerhawk #art #bugbrain #arthrobug #by the way that watch is just something I searched up #it apparently is an apple watch that came out in 1995 and guess what else came out in 1995 yeahhhhh #the first rayman gameee lmao #I LOVE THIS GUY SO MUCH I CAN'T DESCRIBE IT HE IS SORT OF MY CHILDHOOD #anyway sorry utmv people just give me a bit to obsess over something new after over a decade of not obsessing over anything else asdfghjkl #the theories before the show is even out makes me even more feral RAHHHHH

[o-wyrmlight]

“I take it that you’re Plaisance?” Harry asked, pulling out his slightly-damp ledger from the safety of his coat. Kim didn’t know how he failed to notice before, but a piece of toilet paper was clinging to the back of the ledger for dear life. His fingers itched to pull it off. “Plaisance Pontier, Annette’s mother?”

“Yes, that’s right.” Her voice took on a quivering quality, looking between Kim and Harry from behind her cat eyed glasses uncertainly. “Did something happen? I don’t want any trouble, officers. I’m just a simple businesswoman running a bookshop! I don’t want any bad publicity going on around here…”

“No, no trouble at all,” Harry reassured with a slight laugh, hunching his shoulders with a grimacing grin. “It’s just—well. Let us introduce ourselves. I’m Para-Natural Detective Raphaël Ambrosius Costeau from the Para-Normal Investigations Bureau. This is my partner.” He gave Kim a nod and a smile. “Para-Natural Officer Jimothy Kimothy.”

What the fuck was happening?

Plaisance gave pause, squinting between them suspiciously, fingers fiddling with the medallion hanging from around her neck. “The… Para-Normal Investigations Bureau? I’ve never… heard of such a division in the RCM before.”

“It’s not a part of the RCM, ma’am—the Para-Normal Investigations Bureau is a separate entity that works the underground of Revachol to resolve para-natural disturbances that threaten Revachol’s livelihood. If Revachol is the body we all live within, then we are her antibodies.”

Having some fun writing the Doomed Commercial Area for my fanfic, A Toast To The Pigs--a Martinaise retelling where Harry wakes up in #1 Whirling-in-Rags with his memory in-tact and still has to work with Kim to solve the case. Check it out if that's of interest to you! Typical Disco Elysium themes and warnings are to be expected.

#disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #harry du bois #a toast to the pigs #wyrm writes #me: man i'm getting tired orz i don't really feel like writing the lorry drivers in the rain at all. is this burnout. is this how i quit #also me: wait ingenious idea. doomed commercial area goes brrr #yeahhhhh YEAHHHHH WE'RE HAVING SOME FUN AGAIN #ALSO ORIGIN OF RAPHAEL AMBROSIUS COSTAU INCOMING LMAO #anyway feel giddy feel like sharing. this is like. chapter 9 so it's a ways off #you're welcome

[desceros]

two nights of insomnia in a row have left me too dumb dumb-headed to work on symphony but i Did manage to squeeze out a pyramid head leo fic in a quick fugue state tonight. uhhh. i'm going to wait until tomorrow to post it so i can read it over and make sure it's not a hot pile of you-know-what since again, and i can't emphasize this enough, Two Nights Of Insomnia. but yeah that'll be dropping tomorrow.

and, barring physical injury slash life getting in the way, there should be a symphony update hopefully by saturday, but if not then on sunday. yeehaw

#JUST IN TIME FOR THE STARDEW UPDATE TO DROP AND FOR ME TO PLAY IT FOR A WEEK STRAIGHT YEAHHHHH #anyway. weakly gives a peace sign before falling into bed. please god please let me sleep im so tired #and before you ask yes i have like. a whole as au around this stupid pyramid head thing now. god damn it. god fuckign damn it-- #being enabled to hell and back on discord. ugh. #text tag

[angeart]

sometimes phasmo do be like this

#ange plays #phasmophobia #just silly screenshots #because i find them funny okay #still can't get over how that blindly taken photo is three stars #how #so yeah anyway #back to your usual scarian content after this #just wanted to throw this out #now it's out of my system and we can continue #for example to be insane about poppies and lilacs yeah? #(or the hurty-hurty au my beloved) #yeahhhhh

[agelenopsis-potteri]

i gotta be honest i am stoked to be a janitor. i see mops and i get excited

#guys i have opinions on mops now #why does anyone use string mops. for instance. #they suck. they're heavy. use a flat mop for heaven's sake they're so much better and you can actually launder them??? #i think janitor is the perfect job for me i fucking hate being looked at when i'm doing things #i loved working at the greenhouse where i could just do repetitive tasks all day and then go home and #shake the cuttings out of my boots & pockets and then go and immmmmmmmediatelly buy candy #it got mind numbing but it was NOT that bad. and with janitorial work the tasks are always getting switched up #you're mopping or you're vacuuming or you're wiping something up and there's always a different tool to learn how to use #i am NOT excited about the swing machine but apparently people don't use it much anymore anyways? so. yeah :3 #gonna work for the school district. gonna make friends with all the teachers who stay late after school. fuck yeahhhhh #maybe they'll tell me about school drama shit and i'll be like *leans on mop* oh yeah? :3c tell me more #i'm a simple animal with simple animal dreams #i DO dream of labour actually i love doing things #and actually since this is being treated like an actual profession these days you get treated way better #there's workplace safety and focus on ergonomics and proper training #i'm just really excited to get out there and do stuff

[selenealwayscries]

Red (Tayngo's Version)

also my commissions are open haha

#mcyt #hermitcraft #hermitblr #tangotek #the pop star alter ego saga #yeahhhhh betcha didnt expect me to post this now aha #tayngo swift ..... such a shitty pun ..... #its barely even a pun what am i on #we have like a really specfic way of saying it in empiressona vc like #we pronounce it like taaaaaaaayn-go . just drag out the first bit for as long as you can before moving on #its so stupid but its also really funny #i actually looked up so many actual tylr swft red era outfits (not tagging cuz even tho i love her music i dont wanna get killed yet) #like all of her red era stage outfits just . screamed tango like . does that make sense #also i literally just put the album title track on loop when i worked on this one no joke #anyways this has been Selenes Bullshit thanks for coming to my ted talk #catgirl supreme

[tally-ace]

Mission accomplished, boys. Time to head home

#I BEAT IT YEAHHHHH #WAHHH IT WAS SO GOOD #im not too sure about how i feel about some story beats at the end there #and im not a fan of where it ended exactly #but all in all it was great!!!! #easily better than remake and one ill 100% go back and platinum in a bit #once i take a little break from playing video games for hours straight svsjdbd #anyway took me about 107 hours in total #i gotta collect my full thoughts about the game at some point but that point ISNT TONIGHT

[hoperays-song]

Required Information Sheet For The Human AU: Ryan

General Information:

Last Name: Willis

First Name: Ryan

Middle Name: Oliver Biāo

Nickname(s): Ry or Biāo

Pronouns: He/Him/His

Gender Identity: Cisgender

Sexuality: Gay

Birthdate: September 24, 2003

Ethnicity: Chinese American 

Dietary Style: Pescatarian 

Known Languages: English, Haitian Creole, ASL, and Cantonese.

Appearance Information 

Hair Color Hex Code: #AC4F02

Curl Texture: 1b

Eye Color Hex Code: #051902

Skin Tone Hex Code: #EABB94

Beauty Mark(s): Freckles

Glasses/Contacts: Yes

Height: 5’10”

Weight: 130lbs

Build Type: Inverse Triangle

Clothing Aesthetic: Soft Boy and Light Academia

Education Information:

Past Education: Kickenclobber School of Dance

Current Education: Redshore University

Major(s): Performing Arts - Dance

Minor(s): English Literature and Gender Studies

Enrollment Status: Virtual College Freshman

Career Information:

Past Employment: Contracted Professional Show Dancer

Current Job: Contracted Professional Show Dancer, Troupe Leader, and Actor

Dream Job: Dance Troupe Leader and Professional Dancer

Company: The Phoenix Dance Troupe

Current Employer: The Majestic Performing Arts Theatre

Extracurriculars: Volunteer at Green Lake Animal Shelter and Assistant Dance Teacher at In Motion Dance Studio

Parentage Information:

Biological Parent 1: Lila Xiu Willis ‘nee Mays

Relation: Biological Mother

Relationship: Close

Pronouns: She/Her/Hers

Career: Dance Studio Owner/Dance Teacher

Birthdate: December 12, 1984

Biological Parent 2: Daniel Grayson Reynolds

Relation: Biological Father

Relationship: Nonexistent

Pronouns: He/Him/His

Career: Professional Model/D-List Actor

Birthdate: April 3, 1978

Step-Parent 1: Ellie Farah Willis

Relation: Married to Biological Mother

Relationship: Close

Pronouns: She/Her/Hers

Career: English Literature Professor at Redshore University

Birthdate: February 19, 1982

Sibling Information:

Sibling 1: Amy Fabienne Mei Willis

Relation: Biological Half Sister

Relationship: Close

Pronouns: She/Her/Hers

Education: Quartz Elementary School

Birthdate: August 15, 2016

Sibling 2: Bella Roseline Ai Willis

Relation: Biological Half Sister

Relationship: Close

Pronouns: She/Her/Hers

Education: Heartfield Daycare

Birthdate: November 29, 2018

Assorted Information:

Best Friend(s): Perry Myeong (since age 5) and Johnny Taylor (roommate)

Favorite Color(s): Sage Green and Lavender

Favorite Animal(s): Royal Bengal Tiger and Sepia Typica Cuttlefish

Favorite Food(s): Sichuan-Style Cucumber Salad, Húnán Duò Jiāo Yútóu, and Diri Ak Djon Djon 

Favorite Sweet(s): Haitian Sweet Potato Bread, Blackcurrant Sochew Bar, and Espresso Oat Milk Dark Chocolate Bar

Favorite Drink(s): Green Bubble Tea with Sesame Boba, Strawberry Watermelon Sparkling Water, and Krema

Favorite TV Show(s): World of Dance, Dateline: Secrets Uncovered, Criminal Minds, House Hunter International, Heartstopper, and Beat Bobby Flay

Favorite Movie(s): Crazy Rich Asians, The Prom, Center Stage, Wall-E, and The Emperor’s New Groove 

Favorite Song(s): Struck by Lightning by Sara Keys and Cavetown, Holy Water by Noah Davis, Sneakers by Knox, Shut Up and Dance by WALK THE MOON, and Prom Dress by mxmtoon

#sing 2 #sing ryan #I'm adding Ryan lore!!!! #I love my son #*gently holds* #he's so precious #I have one of these for like every character btw #I just wanna talk about my boy my son first #english nerd ryan lives rent free in my mind #he's the epitome of the kid dying for academic validation #but i love him anyway #oh yeahhhhh #human au #this is human au #sing 2021 #ryan formed his own troupe

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

ari.. ur entire wip list has me loosing my mind i dont even know what to think rn or where to start. i am so deeply intrigued it hurts LIKE AGH but i ofc have to ask about ur little red riding hood!reader x wolf/hunter!suguru it sounds so wonderful!

MOSSSS hi hello tysm for asking!!! U PICKED A SUPER FUN ONE perfect timing bc im planning on writing it out today!!! or . Trying to…. anyway mickey also asked abt it here (hivemind moment) but i can give u some extra details + tiny snippets ive written out !! >:33

IM SO GLAD U ASKED ABT THIS ONE bc it makes me think of u sm !! there’s def going to be a lot of teeth imagery….. and it’s also my attempt at writing smth more Twisted and gritty w sugu which i dont do suuuper often? so im excited!!

so far my idea of the story is just…. little red riding hood but w a twist? or more like . little red riding hood meets the hunter before they meet the wolf, and is kinda . coaxed into staying at his cabin … for an indefinite period of time…. and he’s charming and doting and secure but something is just Off abt him. classic sugu <33

im gonna read through the brothers grimm version of the story a bunch and take some inspiration there, also so i can reference some events and lines and stuff!! im thinking of mayybe making it a bit meta in the sense that reader knows what fairy tale they’re in, knows how the story goes… maybe suguru too? it’s just a thought but im sooo excited to finish this one hhhh....

im still super unsure abt how im going to … like …. format the whole thing 😭😭 bUT i have these lil snippets written out !! might end up changing them as i write but im pretty happy w them hehe

“i have to go see grandma,” you try, gazing up at him with a pleading smile. hoping he’ll cave. but he curls an arm around your waist. steady, steady, steady. so much stronger than you. “it’s dangerous,” is all he says, a gentle warning. “you’ll be safer here. your grandmother can wait.” he gives you a sweet smile, to ease your nerves, but something rotten settles in your gut; bile at the base of your throat. sour. you try not to eye his axe, still hanging by the fireplace.

his voice is deep, smooth, with just the slightest hint of a rasp. in the morning, or at night, it’s gravelly; like an axe dragged through rugged grounds, or the bark of a tree yet to be cut. enough to make goosebumps spread along your neck, a pleasant tremble of your spine. it happens, sometimes, when you’re lying in bed together. he flips through the pages of a dusty fable, caresses your hair with a steady hand, and out it comes — a noise that curls around the base of his throat, rumbles through his chest. deep, raspy, gravelly. almost a growl. he clears his throat, and you pretend not to have noticed it. he rewards you with another page or two.

and ah, there it is. that quiver of his jaw. like he’s trying not to snap it, trying not to bare his teeth. they’re sharp. when he kissed you this morning, you felt them nip at your skin. you think he was trying to control himself.

#TYSM FOR ASKING MOSS <333 #lil red riding hood is one of my fave fairy tales hehe #and even the more child friendly versions are very gritty LMAO so its perfect for this kinda thing i think #like wdymmmmm this girl put a bunch of rocks in the wolf’s stomach after the hunter sliced him open…… wolfie just wanted a treat :((( #anyway i just think sugu has such an obvious dichotomy to his character which is where this concept came from !! #the idea that he’s both the wolf AND the hunter…. yeahhhhh #ask tag ✩ #moss !! ✩

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

Me, randomly catching a supernatural rerun: huh...

My supernatural hyperfixation:

#i both live and hate this show #its like the characters are great but everything they do is in writing is questionable #okay this might sound a little arrogant but do you ever see something and youre like i have an idea how to make this better #i feel like a kid watching my barbies being played with in the wrong way and i just want to grab them and be like #no this Barbie is NOT a human sacrifice this one is HUMAN BAIT #anyway this is me being delusional and wanting to write fics but like I'm so anxious about it???? #part of me is like who cares practice is practice and another is like what if people find it in the future and won't take me seriously #😤😮‍💨 #so yeahhhhh #how are you guys?

[byanyan]

to whom does your heart belong?

your heart belongs to the sun

ㅤyou are a wildfire waiting to happen. one lit cigarette away from catastrophe. you are passion itself, full of rage and joy and love and pain. you are the driving force behind change, so why are you afraid of it? not all that is new will hurt you. let others into your life. you will not burn them. you do not cause harm inherently, you are wounded. you will heal. i promise you will heal.

tagged by:ㅤ@gnarledbite ♡♡

#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ dash meme. #YEAHHHHH this is so REAL #byan as passion in both positive and negative ways is one of my favourite metaphors oml #bc it's so!! accurate!!! everything they feel... they feel it with such intensity #love might be one of those things that doesn't come easily to them bc they don't trust it to last and expect it to only result in hurt #but when they do finally let it in they embrace it with that same intensity they do rage #and oh boy will they let their rage destroy them and everything around them #they don't do things half-ass; it's all or nothing #...which i guess kind of explains how they're either 'abandonment' or 'co-dependency' with no in between :/ #anyway. 'grey don't take quiz results so seriously' challenge failed yet again #not pictured is me giggling bc of how much moon & i (and even byan tbh) tie sol to the sun #that just adds a bit of extra fun to this already v fitting result

[oldfashionedmorphine]

happy one year anniversary to that chapter sitting in my wips i guess

#i really wanted to have it posted before today but oh well #insanity that i’ve been holding onto it for so long #but i decided it was a good buffer for after ch 21 so yeahhhhh #anyways how the fuck has it been in my wips for a whole damn year??!!!! #how did i let this happen 😅

[hopegained]

thinking about how he would know of "fulcrum" and all the individuals who used that codename during the civil war... most notably ah.soka, c.assian, and kall.us

#(i feel like he would have known Of a.hsoka at least) #(but the other two men he'd only read in data files and codices) #(reading k.allus' file specifically like: this man is gay) #(but anyways this is the kind of thing that intrigues him. excites him even) #(i'm going somewhere with this i promise) #(rebellion to resistance pipeline of having incredibly dangerous people serving as their intelligence officer/spy YEAHHHHH) #(these people are his predecessors and he can't afford to give the resistance any less so i can assure you of that) #(eron is dangerous and pathetic and kind and such a huge NERD) #(he reads data files and dossiers for fun!! he's just like me fr) #ooc. is it meemees?

[dulcewrites]

Feminine urge to write a fic that is about the dance, but from the point of view of a peripheral smallfolk or lesser born woman

#I love my westerosi it girls but like… it’s not about them?? in the end is it #it’s why I was so interested in Willa being bastard born #its not flowing.. could be the slight writer’s block or the fact that I’ve been in f&b/hotd mode for months now #writing about Winterfell and northern life is not easy #anyway #imagine seeing your new king running around town and begging not to rule #and your queen is taxing the shit out of you… #idk how I would connect it all but like yeahhhhh what an urge #probably bc I’ve been thinking about jeyne Poole a lot lately #the horrors of being a girl/woman with no protection #and even Jeyne is from a house.. a minor one… but a house #no one is safe from subjugation once the game is played especially those with no ranks #if y’all have any ideas on how that could go let me know #or just tell me to shut up lmao

[celestial-sapphicss]

.

#so i just finished s1ep2 of the bear (i don't really get it so far but ok) #and there's this scene where the main character calls up his sister and tells her about the mental shit that has been happening with him uk #and like even though this feeling is always there but lile i can't help but feel like my life would have been so much better with a sibling? #like one id have good relationships with uk??? #and ik ik found family and forming meaningful relationships outside is an option but like in this capitalistic individualist society? is it? #anyways that's not the point it's that there's always stuff no body in the world would get except people who grow up with you innit? #be it school or hometowns or families and it would have been nice to have someone help me not feel this complete overwhelmness all the time #and without me feeling like im exaggerating or thinking that the person would judge me or having to keep telling everything repeatedly #but then i think would that even matter when I am the one who's the problem and like can't work to form that connection with anyone????? #like i for the life of me cannot share anything beyond the surface level or without making a joke out of it #and it seems funny but i trivialise so much of the fucking shit that happens so obviously no one takes it seriously not their fault right? #and like how fair to my friends that i literally almost always been superficial and lowkey untrue with them in exchange for their honesty??? #at this point i feel like i don't even know what i truly feel or truly am because whenever i look back at my past self im like wtf #idk most of the times it just feels like being 'stuck' in a glass container and me not 'letting' anyone in if that makes sense? #ik im being very annoying about it but im just so tierd of feeling like this its been a decade & its way too long to constantly feeling dead #and im so fucking stubborn in my sadness that i won't even go get help after years of crying about wanting it & now finally having resources #it's like this mental block which i can't seem to remove and i feel like even if i do get help ill still be untrue so what's the point!??? #yeahhhhh anyways i'll delete this later i don't journal so tumblr will have to make do #vi.txt