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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 28 days
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You keep telling yourself that Namari.
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hanyi-writes · 2 months
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your incessant shivering is getting the attention of your companion, the IUDEX OF FONTAINE.
by some miraculous fate, you and monsieur neuvillette are stuck together; caught by the rain. it is pouring, droplets hitting the ground sound more like lightning striking the earth. shelter, for now, is under the aquabus stop heading for court de fontaine—it does provide some roof over your heads, but it is cold and the iudex is boring holes on you.
his intense staring causes you to shiver more if possible. out of all the days you get caught in the rain, it had to be with him who had certainly impeccable timing with you leaving the opera epiclese to go home after an arduous trial.
well. looking at the bright side, at least you can go home. days where you were stuck at the palais mermonia due to tall stacks of papers can be counted with two hands and backwards.
you sigh. it'd do you some good to contemplate on a career change…
"excuse me." something warm covers your shoulders, "please, take my jacket."
monsieur neuvillette's jacket is draped over your being and it leaves no room for argument. you're too preoccupied by the abrupt surge of warmth coursing through your veins and manifesting as butterflies in your stomach. the soft insides of the cloth turn damp from your wet clothes, but his jacket…
you're gaping at him, possibly, because monsieur neuvillette levels you with a slow nod, gently muttering, "do not worry about me. you need it more than i."
then he looks away, watching the raindrops shatter on the ground each time they reach the earth.
"m-monsieur, i—"
"i am sorry for the inconvenience," his own apology swallows your own. "this weather is hardly ideal for returning home after working such a long trial. i should have thought of those who would be taking the trip home. it seems that…"
monsieur neuvillette's words drift off into the wind; whatever he said escaping him.
"do you… require more heat?"
you're staring at him like you did moments ago.
"no, i… monsieur, i thought it strange to apologize for the sudden change of weather. the rain hardly merits an apology, sir; you make it sound like it is unnatural the rain is summoned after such a long, exhausting case."
monsieur neuvillette is an individual seemingly cold; unfeeling; stern. you know this firsthand that such a disposition is required for a man of his position—he is the chief justice of the nation, therefore such presence is needed.
but you argue that he is not all what they perceive him to be. the soft furrowing of his brows and the thoughtful expression on his countenance are other sides of him—it surprises you, you have never seen the iudex look so human.
"i was under the impression the rain is a burden; an inconvenience." slight surprise is vibrant on his features.
now it is your turn to furrow your brows. "who told you that?"
reluctance looks strange on monsieur neuvillette, but in some way it fits him. he speaks slowly, "most of whom i've met would prefer not to wait out in the rain."
the image of him by your side is replaced by the rainfall in front of you. it shocks you slightly that what remains is a drizzle but the rain is still there—yet, you brush the feelings of surprise away to ponder on his words.
"…rain is a blessing. it is nature at its finest, and the feelings of the mighty hydro dragon being released as the beauty of the world."
the conclusion you reach is simple.
water is the source of life, and if rain is the sign of life flourishing, then what is there to hate? what is there to consider a burden?
"i see."
when you look back at monsieur neuvillette, you find yourself enraptured. a less closer look would miss that soft smile of his, barely there and ghosting his face. it creates an image much unlike his usual self and it becomes difficult to tear your gaze away.
then those eyes turn to you; pearlescent in glimmer; beautiful in color. the weather is beyond you because solely monsieur neuvillette's question enters in your senses: "and pray tell, when have you thought such a thing?"
by some miraculous fate, the words used in your response seem so right.
"just… by looking at you, monsieur."
(if you looked, the rain stopped.)
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mishapen-dear · 2 months
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Cant sleep so im thinking about ayhalo
I think its like. one sided. qaypierre WOULD smooch that demon and take him on dates. qbad would not recognize anything as a romantic gesture. aypierre could throw a bouquet of chocolate roses at him and bad would just be like ! thank you :}
like they love each other, absolutely. they TRUST each other, to the point where i’d even say it gets in the way of bad seeing aypierre as anything more than a good friend. that’s his guy. The dude always in his corner. Friend resource label: team mate (coparent) (down to help kidnap people). bad doesnt do classic romantic relationships- all of his relationships are INCREDIBLY queer, but the closest he usually gets to what others read as romance is a classic chewtoy4chewtoy dynamic. He LOVES to fuck with people and he loves to get fucked with and if there’s a nice jawline or pretty muscles included?? huge bonus !!
he’s got something- not kinder, with aypierre? not calmer, either, but stable, maybe. pierre has proven, over and over again, that he’s on bad’s side. Spying on tubbo, encouraging bad’s pranks, the kidnapping- i can’t call it a reliable dynamic, not with how paranoid bad is, even when he trusts, but there is still a feeling of understanding that, wherever pierre’s limits are for when he cant support bad (or genuinely turn against him), it hasnt been reached yet
aypierre, on the other hand, i dont know enough about to be absolutely sure but there are some Vibes. ironically, i think hes feeling like his relationships are unreliable. max was going to have their baby, and then he wasnt, and then he left him, then max fucking died. plus whatever is happening with him and ayrobot, which probably leaves him feeling like he cant rely on Himself. like he had, if not a little crush on bad, at least some Interest in him, before. as well as several islanders. i remember the days of the Bed Threat.
but thats part of it, too? because those flings didnt have that emotional connection, and i always got the sense that he started looking for that with maximus, to Love and Be Loved rather than pure lust. To care about someone, genuinely, and be cared about in return. but he didnt get that with the flings, and We know that max was using him, but i dont know if he did, but maybe he had a feeling about it and maybe he also had a feelinf about maximus’ feelings towards bad and maybe- there’s something about that? A little push of not-spite-not-projection onto bad.
because bad IS that reliability, right now. he’s a fucking gremlin. a bastard. a prankster silly guy. he trusts aypierre and aypierre trusts him and they dont share everything but so often, when it comes down to it, it is them against the world. them in the corner, caught, aypierre shouting about kissing as a cover for their crimes while bad runs giggling away from him.
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ilovedthestars · 3 months
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also re: romance does not have a monopoly on yearning, that post is about real life and i don't want to make it about fandom, but i would love to see more stories about the yearning and heartbreak that can come with non-romantic love.
some of my favorite stories are ones that touch on this. because there is so much potential for yearning outside of romance! second guessing if your best friend thinks you're their best friend or just another person they know. thinking of someone as your chosen family, but knowing/believing that their blood family will always come before you. growing to care for someone you've wronged in the past, and worrying that they'll never feel safe around you. growing apart from someone you've known since you were a child, and missing the people both of you used to be.
there are SO many stories here. and i'm going to keep writing as many of them as I can, but I'd love to see more of them out in the world, too.
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literallyjusttoa · 8 months
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Me, adding more gay yearning songs to my playlists: It’s what Apollo would want for me.
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landwriter · 1 year
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2!
Hounds of Love by The Futureheads. Oh! What a gem!! I first loved this song when I was a wee bab and rediscovered it this past summer. It, along with all my top songs, was on a summer driving playlist which is why it is so insanely high haha. There's a sort of lovely pastoral wildness to this and I think that suits our lads so well.
An outdoorsy AU with competence kink out the wazoo, where Dream is a bird specialist at a wildlife rehabilitative centre, who becomes a minor TikTok celebrity (much to his enormous apathy) when the centre starts doing interpretive meet-birds events and the internet falls in love with this dour hottie who only smiles when he's talking about birds (Matthew, naturally, runs the account). Hob is a hunter - bow, mostly - who is regrettably very on TikTok, very on all social media - he hates the term but he is unquestionably an 'influencer'. He just likes sharing his knowledge and passion, alright? And the gear sponsorships are nice.
He sees Dream, and sees, mostly, a really great collab opportunity, so he messages him, and Dream (who is Matthew, and just shouted HOB FUCKING GADLING? IN MY DMs? at his phone when he got the message, immediately sets up a meeting at the centre. Then he breaks the news to Dream, specifically when Dream is holding Jessamy, so he can't be murdered.)
Dream, of course, expects Hob to be some like, swaggering font of red-blooded machismo talking points, and suspects Hob is only popular because he looks like an advertisement in Outdoor Living. (Matthew showed him pictures.) He disregards Matthew, who says Hob is actually super cool, because Matthew has terrible taste and would be the first to admit it. But his interest is piqued when Lucienne also knows who Hob is. It turns out Hob is deeply involved in nature and wildlife conservancy. Gives talks at schools. Gets involved with land protection initiatives. Teaches orienteering to youth. But everyone seems to expect him to hate Hob, which he would find faintly insulting except that he also expects himself to hate Hob. He doesn't. Not that much. Even when he shows up in a plaid shirt that is made of 'technical' fabric, because he's smart and excited to talk to Dream about birds, has an encyclopedic knowledge of the history of falconry, and most importantly, Jessamy takes to him immediately.
They run into each other again at a renaissance fair, another thing Dream hates but has been strong-armed into doing, and so they are both dressed in very silly clothes when it happens: the first time Hob watches Dream demonstrate falconry, the first time Dream watches Hob use a longbow made from a yew tree he fell himself, the first time they go from a wary sort of respect for one another to a wanting.
Dream, who has a recurring fantasy about running away from it all, listens to Hob tell tracking stories and thinks, If I went into the woods, you would find me. But he doesn't want to run from Hob - except sometimes, when he sees Hob chew on his lip consideringly before giving a thoughtful answer about the guiding industry, or when Hob grins wildly at the crowd after his archery demonstration, and most of all, when Hob phones him out of the blue one day - he doesn't text, he phones - sounding a little breathless with excitement, and asks Dream if he wants to come with him for a week in the mountains, on "probably a wild goose chase" and promises "all sorts of birds if nothing else." (Hob had meant to only share the news with Dream. Fuck, he thinks. I am so fucked.)
He says yes, for the birds, of course, and tells Matthew the next time he's at the centre.
"So what's the wild goose chase?" asks Matthew.
Dream plumbs his memory of the phone call and says, "Hob told me he received a bighorn sheep tag." Matthew gapes at him.
"Holy shit," says Matthew. "He's in love with you."
"He is certainly not."
"Uh, no, respectfully boss, he 'certainly' is. Lucienne!" he shouts, "Hob invited Dream to come out on his Dall sheep tag. What the fuck, right?"
Lucienne comes in and raises her eyebrows. "Oh dear," she says. She's smiling.
"What," says Dream. "It's a sheep. I don't understand."
Lucienne and Matthew exchange a glance.
"Him. I cannot believe Hob chose him," says Matthew.
"Love works in mysterious ways," says Lucienne.
"I am right here," says Dream.
Matthew turns to him, "Have fun in Alberta," he says.
this would ft. nights of wild stars, rugged terrain, type ii fun, sexual tension around a campfire, homoerotic form checks, tent sharing, dream glassing beautiful birds with hob's $3000 binoculars while hob stares at him in abject adoration, dream watching hob strip off his clothes and jump into an alpine lake, and refusing to join him out of pretended prudishness when it's really because he's suddenly so hard it hurts, camp coffee, confessions about themselves instead of confessions about their feelings for each other, sore muscles for a VARIETY of reasons, and lots of allegories about wildness and taming and running away from things, and SO MUCH COMPETENCE KINK, friends. so much. i would probably write it like - act one them leading their separate lives, their desires and aches etc., act two - meetcute and circling one another, act three - The Trip. this one has a very happy ending i can tell
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strawberrystaryy · 6 months
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don’t ever ask me what i’m doing the answer is always gonna be either obsession, yearning, or loathing (usually of myself)
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solarisce · 1 year
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friendship is just like yeah haha we have fun talking! we get along well! until one day you're tearing at your hair and the fucking skull appears
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pastelpaperplanes · 7 months
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frogive me if I am but a fool, but dost Thorns and Thrones exist as a fanfic, or a series of art, or both
Fear not, dearest Anon, thou art naught a fool, for thine own question is unequivocally valid!
Thorns and thrones resides as a story mostly told through art and various asks I have answered on this blog. I do my best to show the story rather than proclaim it, for truly, I am but a great and lowly chicken when it comes to taking up the quill and ink mine self
BUT! people have made many a fan pieces of work for the AU
Make haste! for each and every one has made masses weep tears of joy and merrious laughter. I beg of thee!
Witness the works of many a talented creators!
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rowans-blues · 17 days
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i just want to say I love you again
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soyoudneverguess · 4 months
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SPOILERS THE SILT VERSES 36
This is a little bit of a live blog
HEART BROKEN HOLY FUCK
RELATIONSHIP ENDED WITH THE JOY OF HAYWARD AND CARPENTER FUCKING AROUND, RELATIONSHIP STARTED WITH THE TRAGEDY OF SEB AND DEV MY LOVES MY DARLINGS MY AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MEAN MEAN MEAN YOU MOTHERFUCKERS ARE SO MEAN CANT THEY JUST BE HAPPY CANT THEY AKNDKDNFKEBDUEHFBKDLXNDHDJDBEJDBDJDNEBEBDNNDKDNDJDBDNDNDKKDKDKFKRKRBRJSJBDHDIEBJ DE IEKRJJDHJEE DE
Anyways, happiness is fleeting but “hold on Dev, I’m coming” for a man you’ve known for days who’ve you loved almost upon first sight.
HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY SHIT HES ALIVE SEB IS SO POWERFUL SEB SEB SEB SEB SEB YOU FUCKING DID IT OH MY GOD MY LOVE DEV DEV DEV DEV DEV YOU MET A MAN AND HE FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU AND HE WENT INTO HELL FOR YOU AND SAVED YOUR SISTER AND AND AND EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY NOW YOU KNOW EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE BETTER FOR BOTH OF US
Oh bitch. Oh you fucking bitch. I’m. I. Yeah. It truly was too good to be real.
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goldshadows · 5 months
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forcing myself to stay awake to fix my sleep schedule. like for a mini starter.
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estbela · 2 months
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i'll be frank, unless I do actually go through with making my own story about personified nations I doubt I'm ever truly leaving the hetalia fandom. I suppose there will be periods where I'll be less into it and focus on other things, but at the end of the day I am much too fond of these characters (or well, the versions of these characters that I have in my head) and the concept in general(tbh i simply just love history). I love the OCs I have made because of Hetalia as well, althought I'll definitely take them with me wherever I shall go (I'll also take my characterization of some characters as well).
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ante--meridiem · 4 months
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To socialise or not to socialise, that is the question.
#Looked at two places I could move out to & they are complete opposite vibes in terms of socialableness#Both have roommates ofc but one gives me a lot more of my own space & it seems like I would barely have to interact with them at all#So I'd be left pretty much completely alone. Which is usually the dream#And ngl knowing the other people there would keep to themselves & have no interest in knowing me is especially relieving#Given the whole thing that pushed me to move out in the first place#The other has extremely small & cozy vibes. Owner's stuff all over the place#By cozy I do mean cluttered#The girl I met with there (not the person I'd be renting from) gave me a tour for five-ten mins#And then the next 30 mins-60 mins we spent chatting over tea#Someone more sociable than me might call it instant bestie vibes#Which. Has been something I've kind of very much been missing/yearning for irl I will admit#& from the sound of it the person subletting has the same vibes with her#She says he's 'interesting' and 'I'd like him'#From the combination of her description and the clutter I'm getting eccentric professor vibes#Which is generally a good vibe to me#But I am even more skittish of renting from someone t#Too sociable#After prev landlord#Though I want to trust othet tenant's vibe check. Because it might actually be very nice to have some kind of real life friends#It's also a very different kind of sociable than prev landlord#She was 'chatty and gets you to open up easily' sociable & it sounds like the other guy will be approximately the same#& also 'repeatedly assures you can ask her to stop if she's being too much' sociable. Which is always a relief#Meanwhile prev landlord was 'wants to know why you're not relaxed & tells you you should be without doing anything to help you be' sociable#'gets very pushy about finding time to talk/hang out' sociable#'teases you for being awkward' sociable#None of which were the real issue with him of course. But they didn't help & I can't help but see them as red flags in retrospect#I'm currently leaning towards 'to socialise' because it was a very cosy vibe & I do feel starved of irl friendship just a bit#But it could either be very good or very bad#& I don't want to risk very bad again#Anyway. This has been missives from a pizza shop I ducked into to charge my phone before I go back to being lost in a snowstorm
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lynne-monstr · 3 months
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seimei: it's not like we'll ever see each other again bye seimei: lmao can't believe you showed up after what you said
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