#yech

[skyward-floored]

This always happens, I get close to the end of a fic and I suddenly hate every word I’ve ever put down along with every fic I’ve ever published

#well maybe not always but it happens a lot #YECH #my tiredness caught up with me I think I’m suddenly feeling extremely frustrated with myself #rambles from the floor #delete later #I take forever and I never update anything people actually want to read #I haven’t updated most of my fics in months #why can’t I just #ugh

[gen-is-gone]

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get sleep deprived enough, you start to come up with absolutely impeccable literary Vibes ideas, like comparing your father's fall from a three-story building and subsequent TBI-related Issues to Lucifer's Fall and the resultant generational trauma to humanity's Fall and banishment from the Garden and Innocence, which is wild because your dad isn't even where you get the latent catholicism from

and not be like, wildly arrogant (ok, absolutely to be wildly arrogant) but this feels like the headspace that The Locked Tomb and Paradise Lost both came from

#but also i flat out refuse to write memoir or creative nonfiction #yech #megan whines into the empty abyss of cyberspace

[spyvstailor]

Just had a bowl of Trix. That shit isn’t even for kids anymore.

#bought it on sale #yech #it used to be decent #now it’s just fucked up rice crispies

[catboyaesthetic]

What good is poetry in times as these. My mind insists on worst subject of all Love and heartbreak, misery, the works. My pen is apathetic, as am I.

Vandalize my time and yours with words, here crudely cast in rhyme in hopes of art. Where, finding none, we'd both think it'd be best if neither one had ever started this.

Woe, o muse, a curse upon your off'ring. A fig for you and yours, it's better still to languish, torpid; take wing to my betters. Be the thing with feathers, I've my fill.

#Poetry #Poem #Yech

[wuppydog]

I had a huge discussion with husband & found so much that tumblr tags could not find & man I feel shitty but I also??? love my husband a whole fuckin lot?I wish tags were enough to explain it all. just goes to show that those who you trust mean so much more than tags can explain

#i feel horrible but he knows #&understands so much miss than black & white tabs...... #eugh i honestly feel awful #yech #💜

[waytray]

okay i’m going to write about something i’ve been experiencing

i think i might have developed an auditory hallucination. whenever i’m in the bathroom, which is where there is heavy white noise from the fan, and whenever i listen to some songs, not all songs, but during some songs in particular for which there are many, i hear what sounds like my phone ringing in the other room. when i focus on it, i can tell it’s not my phone ringing, but for example when i have my earbuds in and my hearing is impaired it trips me up and i think my phone is ringing. i think it’s a mix of a few things. i worked at a call center for nearly a year, a job that i had to quit for my mental health. i’m concerned i got some trauma from that. even before working that job, i’ve always had phonecall anxiety. another thing is i’ve had trouble sleeping lately, and have been stressed, so it could be brought on by that too. as well, there have been a lot of phone-related things going on in my life lately. applying for jobs which open up the doors for unexpected phone calls, reaching out to social services for my income troubles, and i’ve been expecting a phone call from my landlord, which, at this point, i’m not even sure i’m going to get since it’s been so long. it gives me anxiety. i know i’ve always needed (and have always been afraid to get) therapy, and now there’s one more thing to add to the mix of undiagnosed problems i suspect i have. 

#yech #kitten speaks #long post (remorseful) #long post

[unlikelytrashcreation]

Comic uuupdate!!

Weeeheeheeooohoohoo

#UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE #hiiii #i have more z-yech for you!! #i did a good chunck of pages!! #also mr Zimmerman sir #why have you got so many cameras in dibs office hmmmmmmn #W H Y. #z tech #zadr #invader zim #art #comic #my art #traditional art #dib membrane #ceo zim #r and d dib

[absolutebl]

Kpop end of 2022 shows

In which I mostly slam 4th gen boy groups, so if you’re a stan skip this post or go in prepared to be offended. I am aware that this is off brand for this blog. But I’m also aware that I have a number of followers who are as deeply into Kpop as me, and...

who probably will unfollow me after reading this. Oh well, I’m gonna do it anyway. This is my tiny corner of the internet. MINE I tell you!  

Look, there was no Between Us airing today, and so nothing for me to get my watch-along snark out on except for the 2 Kpop shows that Viki popped into my feed. So skip this post if that’s not your thing. 

2022 Gayo Daejeon (stadium event) 

OMG! Either mic them properly or don’t mic them at all! This is a music concert, right? Why can’t Korea ever fucking get the sound right in these goddamn bonanza shows? I had this problem with Kingdom (arguably more of an issue since that was supposedly made for TV) but it’s 100 times worse with this show. It’s so frustrating. 

For example, with NCT, why is Johnny’s the only hot mic in the group? Sound tech on stuff out of Korea is mind numbingly confusing and ear wrenchingly annoying. I am reminded why I never watch the live shows and never go to Kpop concerts.

And now, here’s some offensive thoughts and unpopular opinions:

Yeonjun of TXT is one of the best 4th gen dancers ever fielded, and one of the better all rounders. But Kpop stylists gotta learn how to dress a dancer so that they can be properly watched, ya know, WHEN THEY ARE DANCING. No puffer vests, you brainless fashionista numb-nuts. Poor thing kept having to do wardrobe adjustments. Honestly, this plus their red carpet looks this year? 

TXT desperately needs a new stylist.

Stray Kids

As a group? They really can’t sing very well or consistently, their strength is in their performance and rapping. And their rappers MUST to be micced hot for live - just KILL 3racha's backup recording, okay? They can handle it. Otherwise please just let them all lip-synch so we can watch them perform. It’s a much better experience.

NCT

Yuta has more charisma in his little finger than Taeyong has in his whole entire body. Doyoung is an incredibly underrated vocalist. Their’s was some of the worst miccing and sound of the night (which is saying a lot considering how terrible it was the whole time). Fantastic use of the stage tho. One the best stadium performance I’ve seen since GOT7. Also, 2 Baddies is an objectively terrible song - which is probably why it’s so popular.

The Boyz

Definitely the prettiest, how are they consistently so glorious on their visuals? Sunwoo keeps getting hotter, it’s patently unfair. But, oh my god, if you are going to have a group sing ballads, then bring 2nd (Highlight) or 3rd (BTOB) gens up there don’t use The Boyz (or SK for that matter). No one wants to hear unstable vocals, even if it’s a CNBLUE cover. Is it weird that The Boyz make me miss Seventeen? Same vibe... better syncopation. 17 is not as pretty tho.

Who is? 

Well, UNIQ of course. But I don’t wanna talk about that. 

Ateez

Jongho is the only 4th gen idol in existence who doesn’t need a mic even in a goddamn stadium. He is insane. But there is a reason the boy likes a handheld mic, because he takes his vocals seriously. And still the sound tech didn’t trust him enough to leave that mic hot? Frankly, it’s a crime that Jongho’s voice is wasted on a performance group. (Yes, I said it.) But Ateez did give the best stage of the night. They really are one of the industry’s hardest working groups at the moment. I’m a little worried they’re being pushed too much.

Enhyphen

Actually singing for a change *gasp* what will they do without auto tune? Ooof, I’m hella mean tonight. And... they seem to have been practicing their vocals since last time. Honestly? They lack the stage presence of some of the more experienced 4th gens. NCT fucking EATS up a stadium. Enhyphen looked a little sad up there by comparison.

MBC 2022 (New Year's showcase) 

Much better sound (mostly lip-synching) and most groups handle a showcase stage better than a stadium. 

The MC team was better on this one. 

Any time the Boyz and Ateez would like to dance together, I will be happy to watch it happen.

I’m not particularly interested in either of them, but Tempest and Kepler covering Pretty U was pretty damn cute. But younger boy groups + younger girl groups intermixing on stage always comes off as awkward. Dancers should be dancing together when they share a stage together. It’s weird when they are clearly afraid to touch each other. 

Hanbin is such sunshine, so pleased to see a Vietnamese idol at last.

As expected the bands doing live Krock had the best music performances. Well and the opera singers, of course. 

NCT’s Jungwoo is Taemin’s little brother, they look too much alike, you cannot persuade me otherwise. 

It’s a sin that Jeahyun hasn’t has a break away acting role yet. No babies, he really isn’t going to do us a BL. 

It’s always great when the surfeit of music shows at the end of the year forces a group like NCT to divide and conquer, because we get to see some of the lesser publicized members do some killer performing. 

NCT’s choreographer is phenomenal. Best in the biz? 

A sexy cover of Love Killa is fine but if you can’t go hard on Monsta X’s raps then why bother? This only made me want to go watch the original. Which I did. 

I’d like to see SK cover Monsta X but that’s about it. Maybe P1H.

Speaking of MX. Why did they cover a song where Kihyun (one of the most consistent voices in Kpop) mostly has to sing falsetto? What a damn waste. 

Fun to see IM getting more confident in his vocals but I’d still rather see the MX maknae line rap. 

And… thank you for doing an end of year stage Monsta X! Holding onto my beloved 3rd gens by the skin of my teeth here. Look I just love them, okay? Even down 2 members Monsta X goes harder than other groups, but effortlessly. They gave the best performance of my whole night, both shows, 6 hours of content and I’m just left wanting to watch MX comeback stages.  

Am I 3rd gen biased? 

Probably. 

Bite me. But only if you can do it as hard as Monsta X would. 

#kpop #just kpop stuff #kpop snark #Yeonjun #TXT #i'd don't stan any groups so don't comment with your weird obsession if you have one #because yech #Yuta #Doyoung #Sunwoo #UNIQ #Jongho #Monsta X #Kihyun

[alsojnpie]

no it's not. what a stupid comparison. how is throwing away the hard unchewable part of the cheese wheel that's left behind after you're done gnawing off the good part anything like going through and tediously separating a bowl of pasta from its sauce. it's nothing like that at all you fool!!!!

#looking at the things i felt like keeping here and then looking at how harshly i censored myself feels really really dumb #i do it enough irl and that makes it just a stupid idea to do here #truly it does make me more sad when i feel like something is too stupid and annoying to say here. than when i feel that irl #that's how the irl world works but this place isn't like that #look at my dumb thoughts that i wanted to write down. that feeling is dead to me here and if it comes back I'll kill it again #anyway this article was stupid. in the end i just threw away the cheese rinds. #they're technically edible but then again so is the wax. yech

[skyward-floored]

*gives hugs*

🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

Ah thanks Ladye <3 I’m just being mopey cause I’m tired, don’t mind me.

#answers from the floor #lovely onceuponaladye #stayed up too late playing cards and writing and then I slept funny #yech

[winterinhimring]

ANTS STOP DROWNING YOURSELVES IN MY TEAKETTLE CHALLENGE

#winter says things #tea #seriously you little idiots this accomplishes nothing good #you drown and i have stewed ants in my tea (yech) #this is a mutually detrimental situation #please stop crawling into my kettle and dying whenever i leave it unattended for five minutes

[soveraign]

every day I think about Kettle's blood being fucking BLACK

#OOC / HOLLY. #it could be the lighting but I don't think it is #also his horror movie shimmering eyes . . . his corrupted veins spidering over his face . . . [shivers] #remembering that he's classified as undead like. yech. #I mean I love it y'all know I love some Themes And Motifs Of Death #[looks at Amis] [ looks at Lumbar] [looks at Quill] [looks at Kettle] [looks at Nuada + Nuala] [looks at Arwen] [looks at —

[quill-pen]

Bess: *spontaneously hugs her hubby and kisses him* Ebenezer: *chuckling* What was that for? Bess: *shrugs* Just... for you being you. Ebenezer: Hmm. Well, then this is just for you being you. *dips her low and kisses her deeply* All the kids: *varying reactions of pure and utter disgust*

#a VERY common occurrence in my scrooge household #eb and bess are ALWAYS so lovey-dovey with each other #these poor kids see so much PDA and cootie-exchanges-YECH! #BUT when they go out in search of love themselves they'll have an amazing example to look back upon for reference #whoever they all marry will have quite the bar to reach #scrooge 2022 #netflix scrooge #ebenezer scrooge #scrooge a christmas carol #scrooge #scrooge x oc #fanfiction #ebenezer x bess #ebeness

[bandofchimeras]

man I think looking back a lot of the times I've had trouble keeping friends is bc I was parroting popular opinions about their interests. "Doesn't Star Wars suck?" Etc. it didn't take me long to figure out that people attach to things for some of the most personal reasons. and it's mean. and nasty. to pick at them. and you won't keep friends by acting that way.

exception being Disney & Harry Potter adults. I will not Rain on Their Parade directly but I cannot refrain from expressing distaste or explaining the Evils.

#a lot of families “bond” this way but its so yech #please unlearn #that being said i can absolutely notice when i have DISRESPECT for someone's interests #and in that case have to come up with a better reason not to be close friends #other than “your love of basic ass milquetoast shit and total obliviousness and lack of self awareness gives me fear i will Harm You”

[alter-koker]

as a longtime advocate of natasha lyonne as columbo ive really got to try out poker face

#ryan johnson is involved though..? yech #is it rlly only on peacock?? individual streaming networks all having their own shows that dont crossover to any other platform is a badidea #maybe