#yes i am ashamed

[serenashido]

hey..... guess who... switched interests.... again.....

heres a doodle dump im sorry but these shitty little fourth graders have me in a chokehold

#south park #south park creek #creek #creeksp #spcreek #sp creek #creek sp #craig x tweek #tweek x craig #kyle broflovski #kyle south park #stan marsh #kenny mccormick #kenny south park #stan south park #theyve been rotting in my brain #yes i am ashamed #sorry ppl who followed for cod/omori #but hi sp fans i like craig kenny and kyle #and creek style and bunny #hope thats ok #hope u enjoy #hope this doesnt flop

[shakingparadigm]

if my irl friends are seeing my posts can u guys like. close ur eyes for a second. maybe forever

#YES I AM ASHAMED #PLEASE DO NOT PERCEIVE ME HERE

[pinktinselmonstrosity]

fifteen favourite films watched for the first time in 2022

Everything Everywhere All At Once (2022) // Barbarian (2022) // The Card Counter (2021) // Pather Panchali (1955) // In The Mood For Love (2000) // Bound (1996) // The Grand Budapest Hotel (2014) // RRR (2022) // Spree (2020) // Nope (2022) // Gentlemen Prefer Blondes (1953) // Train to Busan (2016) //Pearl (2022) // 12 Angry Men (1957) // Prey (2022)

#i had a list of 10 films and then i watched rrr and i was like hmm might have to extend it #if u think 15 is a lot... i've watched 119 films so far this year #yes i am ashamed #this was fun to make though #everything everywhere all at once #barbarian #the card counter #pather panchali #in the mood for love #bound #the grand budapest hotel #rrr #spree #nope #gentlemen prefer blondes #train to busan #pearl #12 angry men #prey #films i like #🧃

[noctude]

listen as soon as i saw the yellowjackets symbol i knew exactly what it was

camool

#nobody is going to get this joke it's literally just for me sorry #you had to have been a deranged kind of panic! at the disco fan to recognize this #yes i am ashamed #yellowjackets #jon walker

[fizzy-fizzy]

Who else think of one thing and only one thing.

#corekeeper #core keeper #The Hive Mother #thehivemother #cells #skin cells #skincells #fiizzy shut the shit up #This MIGHT be not what I want to think about when I'm in biology (shouting emoji) !! #oh btw I have not been able to think about anything but the Hive Mother for the past like 2 weeks #I made my pinch pot after her in my ceramics class #Yes I am ashamed #No it isn't a full 360 covered. Yes its oddly naked in the back

[blairwaldcrf]

never feel more like a nerd when I'm in the ER covered in dry blood (before getting stitches) and refer to myself as looking like a vampire's wet dream

#yes i am ashamed #yes i do also constantly amuse myself with being my pfp's fav blood type #to be clear I am fine for the most part my body just hates me and unironically so does my heart #personal

[ursbearhug]

My man: *says the tamest, most leisure and chill thing during sexting*

Me:

#yes I am ashamed #will delete later

[chronically-fed-up]

not-like-other-girls-ing so hard in this makeup store my friends brought me to

#yes i am ashamed #in my defense how long could you possibly need to pick out new highlighter #it’s been 30 minutes #god

[asiawhy]

yes, I am in college and I don't have a car. There are some of us out here, blending in with the rest of society.

#car anxiety #driving #yes i am ashamed

[oregano-gremlin]

Goodbye by Bo Burnham makes me feel so much emotions

#yes i am ashamed

[kingofbr00klyn]

50 notes and I draw all the egos like this

#fuckin forgot the facial hair again but I can’t be arsed going back #I’d just like to apologise to my moots in advance #i blame Twitter #i got a new drawing tablet and this is the first thing I make with it #yes i am ashamed #no i will not stop #porniplier #life guard mark #boobiplier #in space with markiplier spoliers #in space with markiplier part 2 spoilers #ismw spoilers #in space with markiplier #in space with markiplier part 2 #iswm #markiplier #markiplier egos #art kind of

[knife-filled-plushies]

i love these two so i decided to doodle them hsjfhskfj

tiny bit of style experimentation

#pastel doodles! #sun and moon show #tsams #the sun and moon show #tsams forkface #forkface #ruin monty #tsams ruin monty #forkface x ruin monty #as an added note i'd like to think their relationship is relatively simple #they just like each other-like being with each other-enjoying one another's company #ruin monty talks and forky listens #it was basically a 'i like you' 'so we dating now?' 'cool' #they love each other on a very simple and sweet level #am i talking about a relationship that has never fully been onscreen? yes and im not ashamed of it #i love them hjfhsf #still sad that ruin monty died before we could see them together :(

[inkskinned]

i. about 2 weeks ago, i was told there's a good chance that in 5 or so years, i'll need a wheelchair.

ii. okay. i loved harry potter as a kid. i have a hypothesis about this to be honest - why people still kind of like it. it's that she got very lucky. she managed to make a cross-generational hit. it was something shared for both parents and kids. it was right at the start of a huge cultural shift from pre to post-internet. i genuinely think many people were just seeking community; not her writing. it was a nice shorthand to create connection. which is a long way of saying - she didn't build this legacy, we built it for her. she got lucky, just once. that's all.

iii. to be real with you, i still struggle with identifying as someone with a disability, which is wild, especially given the ways my life has changed. i always come up against internalized ableism and shame - convinced even right now that i'm faking it for attention. i passed out in a grocery store recently. i hit my head on the shelves while i went down.

iv. he raises his eyebrows while he sends me a look. her most recent new book has POTS featured in it. okay, i say. i already don't like where this is going. we both take another bite of ramen. it is a trait of the villain, he says. we both roll our eyes about it.

v. so one of the things about being nonbinary but previously super into harry potter is that i super hate jk rowling. but it is also not good for my mental health to regret any form of joy i engaged with as a kid. i can't punish my young self for being so into the books - it was a passion, and it was how i made most of my friends. everyone knew about it. i felt like everyone had my same joy, my same fixation. as a "weird kid", this sense of belonging resonated with me so loudly that i would have done anything to protect it.

vi. as a present, my parents once took me out of school to go see the second movie. it is an incredibly precious memory: my mom straight-up lying about a dentist appointment. us snickering and sneaking into the weekday matinee. within seven years of this experience, the internet would be a necessity to get my homework finished. the world had permanently changed. harry potter was a relic, a way any of us could hold onto something of the analog.

vii. by sheer luck, the year that i started figuring out the whole gender fluid thing was also the first year people started to point out that she might have some internalized biases. i remember tumblr before that; how often her name was treated as godhood. how harry potter was kind of a word synonymous for "nerdy but cool." i would walk out of that year tasting he/him and they/them; she would walk out snarling and snapping about it.

viii. when i teach older kids creative writing, i usually tell them - so, she did change the face of young adult fiction, there's no denying that. she had a lot more opportunities than many of us will - there were more publishing houses, less push for "virally" popular content creators. but beyond reading another book, we need to write more books. we need to uplift the voices of those who remain unrepresented. we need to push for an exposure to the bigotry baked into the publishing system. and i promise you: you can write better than she ever did. nothing she did was what was magical - it was the way that the community responded to it.

ix. i get home from ramen. three other people have screenshotted the POTS thing and sent it to me. can you fucking believe we're still hearing this shit from her when it's almost twenty-fucking-twenty-three. the villain is notably also popular on tumblr. i just think that's funny. this woman is a billionaire and she's mad that she can't control the opinions of some people on a dying blue site that makes no money. lady, and i mean this - get a fucking life.

x. i am sorry to the kid i was. maybe the kid you were too. none of us deserved to see something like this ruined. that thing used to be precious to me. and now - all those good times; measured into dust.

/// 9.6.2022 // FUCKING AGAIN, JK? Are you fucking kidding me?

#witches and wizards #kids need to be able to play games without knowing the extended universe #playing was easy #i knew i wasn't gonna be able to explain chronicles of christomancy #but we could pick up a stick and run around #nd say we were magic that would be enough backstory #and i think the last time i felt that sense of community #was the summer of pokemon go #it's about cross-generational connectivity bro #yes there are insular communtities but EVERYONE had fucking read harry potter #which is me saying - i think maybe people don't miss HER or the ACTUAL BOOK tbh #they miss... feeling connected #think about how so many people felt so weirdly ashamed and lost after Game of Thrones ended - #they did SUCH a bad job that the entire community just... vanished. #where beforehand people would have GoT weddings #we are just animals who love stories and love feeling like we speak the same language #btw i am not on twitter so i hadn't seen some of the shit she was doing #and then when i was 19 she published the ''american school'' hogwarts stuff #and was reading it casually bc again a huge nerd #and in it shes like ''the british taught the natives their more civilized magics'' #and that was like..................... oh okay. okay. so.....

[skribbzy]

[Sketch dump]

The chokehold this man has on me is ridiculous (but ngl I'm not complaining)

#am i in love with a tired homeless man who sleeps in a sleeping bag? yes. #is it a problem? maybe. #but i love him your honor #aizawa shouta #mha #sketch #im not ashamed #eraserhead #daddyzawa #literally the reason why i live and breathe #shameless simp post

[abyssalhuntersnerd]

🐙

#finished fish art #my art #andreana #andreana arknights #arknights #AT LAST #HERE SHE IS SHE TOOK SO LONG PLS FORGIVE ME BUT AAAAA #I love how she turned out ;_; #y'all should throw me in Iberian prison for not drawing her sooner #I am truly ashamed of my actions please ask me to draw her more from now on I will try to deliver #yes the vest pattern in hand drawn and it was something that I came with on the spot #aka weird ass tentacles #anyways here she is now I sleep lmao

[bigdumbbambieyes]

nsfwish

“I need an oil change,” Steve mumbles in the dark of their bedroom.

Billy’s just got back from the shop an hour ago, he’s showered and ate and now he’s having sleepy small talk with his boyfriend about their days. Bitching about Keith, laughing together over a funny story Robin shared, ranting about a bitchy customer who said she didn’t need new tires when they were smoother than sealskin.

“That so?” Billy mumbles back, turning onto his side to face Steve, wrapping his arm around him to keep his pretty boy close.

Steve nods with a soft ‘mhm’ as he throws his leg over Billy’s hip, hooking it there and pulling him closer.

In the soft light of the street lamp outside, Billy can make out Steve’s face — his playful expression — as he hums, “But, I don’t have any money.”

Like a fucking cheesy line in a porno.

Billy feels an amused smile pull at his lips regardless, his eyes half-lidded as he’s staring at his boyfriend, sliding his hand up and down Steve’s back. He makes a soft ‘tsk’ sound of disappointment, as if he hasn’t changed Steve’s oil a dozen times already at no charge.

But, it’s fun to play pretend.

“Well, I’m sure we could work out some sort of payment plan for your broke ass,” Billy smirks, grinning as Steve bursts out into a bit of laughter in his arms.

He lets Steve regain his composure, although he’s flushed pink and grinning now as he says, “I just lost my job, I can’t pay you…”

“Mm, that’s too bad,” Billy hums, sliding his hand down the length of Steve’s back, smirking again, “I think we have an extra pair of coveralls in the back, let’s get you started on Monday.”

“Oh my god, just let me suck your dick!” Steve laughs again, making a show of trying to escape his boyfriend’s arms but Billy just laughs with him and clings even harder, unwilling to let Steve go for even a second.

“Ooh, is that what you were trying to do?” Billy grins again, chuckling along as he pokes at Steve’s sides just to hear his boyfriend yelp.

Steve’s quick to pinch his side, though, and that’s when they begin to wrestle.

Flipping each other over and grunting from exertion, laughing quietly in the dark as they try to pin one another, swearing under their breath until Billy’s got Steve pinned face-down, his hands holding his boyfriend’s down onto the bed.

“You…you’ve got me in a compromising position,” Steve pants with a soft chuckle.

“Not quite,” Billy breathes, sliding one of his arms under Steve’s neck and gently putting him in a headlock, his mouth pressing against the shell of Steve’s ear as he grinds his half hard cock down into his ass, muttering, “Now I do.”

He can feel the vibration of Steve’s moan in his throat against his arm, and the way his boyfriend grinds back against him, the soft and firm plush of his ass making him hot all over.

“If I let you cum in me, do I get a free air freshener to hang on my rear view mirror?” Steve asks, a little breathless now, his face flushing.

“You’re such a fucking dork,” Billy chuckles, although the question goes straight to his dick so he sighs, “Yeah, you do.”

Steve laughs so Billy flexes his arm, turning the sound into a choked off moan.

#harringrove #billy hargrove #steve harrington #lemon #am i at my car dealership writing sorta smut while waiting for my oil change? yes! #am i ashamed? no! #bambiwrites