#yesterday I was too focused on aiming and balancing that I just didnt give 'em much thought but today- ugh

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(Lowkey rant to feel better idk;;)

#tw guns mention #Hhh- this morning the little comments of the shooting range's teacher/coach just came back to me #and ngl they're highly frustrating and upsetting for me #yesterday I was too focused on aiming and balancing that I just didnt give 'em much thought but today- ugh #Just the fact that when I wasn't able to keep the carabina (shotgun) aimed for long due the weight and said so to the istructor #them going ah sure we will give you something to support your arm- just cause you're a girl #mind you I had already done like- 10 rounds (5 bullets each) with the smaller guns so my not trained at all arms were already tired #but?? What does?? What does my biological sex have to do with it??? #Especially when right next to me a woman was doing her rounds with no problem and no support??? #Dude just tell me I'm rightfully weak as all hell and it's gonna hurt less geez- #hell thank god I was already panicked about handling a real gun for the first time and didn't register this stuff- #sigh- I just regret not standing up to it- I don't care if it was lowkey joking- it's still a frustrating kind of humor #like- it's also hurtful the other way around like- what if a man asks you for a support you don't give it to 'em? #Ya just let them hurt their arm because they're a man? #Ugh I'm overthinking this stuff as always but agh;; #I hate being reminded of who I biologically am and how many see it #it's deeply saddening #I hate this kind of labels- they're flawed and can easily hurt someone if you don't know them #oh geez what a long rant #I whine a lot uh? sorry-