#yknow. except for the amount of button mashing it requires from me. which hurts

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i think the real kicker is that the wrist braces ALSO hurt my hands so i can’t even really relax just because I have them; i absolutely have to take them off at some point during the day so i can stretch my wrists and if i don’t i get even more mysterious shooting pain that i usually can’t place until I’ve been suffering with it for half an hour 😔 but then if i leave them off for too long my hands start hurting AGAIN and it’s really just never ending. I wish i could see a doctor just so i have someone who can tell me what to do about it bc what im doing by myself is NOT good enough, clearly. internet research can only get me so far

#personal #but going to a doctor?? in THIS pandemic ??? #no matter what i do im gonna have something to be anxious about #and. as always. the easier option is the one that doesn’t require me to go out of my way to change my behavior #i had one day last week without pain and ive definitely not been as easy on myself as i should be #(playing hades.... will do that) #but i still am like. i don’t really know if there’s a way I can balance both the need to entertain myself and #the things that make my hands hurt less #cause if im not distracted i am obsessing. that’s just fact now. and sometimes i can direct it toward good things but sometimes i can’t #it’s hard to say 100% which i would prefer to have to weather but. #it’s easier to cope with my hands being in pain than it is to be obessessing over how all my meaningful relationships will fall apart sooooo #hades has been fun bc it takes immense focus and i adore Greek mythology so it’s the perfect distraction #yknow. except for the amount of button mashing it requires from me. which hurts #there’s no winning ...... except when i BEAT the GAME cause im good at it