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For the prompts please: "I needed you and you left me" or "why are you doing this?" For Jiang Cheng/whoever, or whatever pairing you want

This is really only getting posted cos Emily told me to post it XD so yell at her about the ending not me, thanks.

Jiang Cheng/Lan Xichen, Wei Wuxian/Lan Wangji but mostly Wei Wuxian and Jiang Cheng angst tbh Lan Xichen pov.

OPEN UNRESOLVED ENDING, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

(AO3 LINK)

“I think it’s time you retired for the night, Wei-gongzi,” Lan Xichen said as gently as he could.

Wangji had long since begun hovering at Wei Wuxian’s shoulder in a more silent suggestion of the same, since Jiang Cheng’s face had first reddened from the wine and the tenuous peace of the dinner had begun to shatter from increasingly antagonistic comments.

Lan Xichen had warned Jiang Cheng off serving wine, knowing too well that he became increasingly emotional in proportion to how much he consumed. The addition of Wei Wuxian’s presence...it had been too easy to guess how dinner would turn out.

Things were better between the two brothers, but there were still so many things unsaid between them.

If the tremors in Jiang Cheng’s hand and the glisten to his eyes were any indication, some of those things might be voiced soon, very much against his wishes, as they had been said to Lan Xichen under the influence of too much wine far too early into their courtship, and then immediately regretted, almost shattering the growing bond between them.

If Lan Xichen could spare Jiang Cheng the pain of revealing too much of his deep hurt again, and to the one person he was so adamant never know of it, then he would do all he could.

In an act of desperation not to shame Jiang Cheng too much, he met Wangji’s eye and tried to express how serious he was in his suggestion.

“I agree,” Wangji said, finally breaking his silence on the matter and gripping Wei Wuxian’s upper arm firmly. He didn’t tug, but the touch was enough to convey his seriousness, and Wei Wuxian rose unsteadily to his feet.

Lan Xichen envied them sometimes, the ease with which they communicated. Things were not so easy between he and Jiang Cheng, though he would still have the man as he was rather than seek to change him just to make things a little easier between them.

“There you go again,” Jiang Cheng scoffed, gesturing roughly at the pair as they stepped back from the table.

Lan Xichen’s spirits sunk even lower as he realised which deep pain would be voiced.

“It is late, we should all retire,” he said, resting a hand on Jiang Cheng’s shoulder even knowing full well by the set of his jaw that he had gone too far in his thoughts and pain to turn back now.

It had long been Lan Xichen’s way to be looser with the rules of his sect, but it was times like these that he believed their abstinence from alcohol was not unreasonable.

“Again?” Wei Wuxian asked, turning unsteadily to face Jiang Cheng, his eyes narrowing, probably assuming something entirely incorrect about the meaning of his words.

“Wei Ying,” Wangji said softly, reproachfully.

Wangji was quick to speak rudely to Jiang Cheng himself, if masked by the politest of phrasings, but he was just as quick to try and stop Wei Wuxian doing the same.

Lan Xichen admired the respect he held for Wei Wuxian’s love for Jiang Cheng even while loathing the man himself. But it was not enough.

Jiang Cheng snorted loudly and gestured at Wangji. “Running off with him at the merest glance from him.”

Wei Wuxian’s expression darkened and Lan Xichen bit back a groan.

There would be no saving them from what was coming. Wei Wuxian was admirably tolerant of Jiang Cheng’s insults and slights, sometimes even appearing to enjoy them, but at the merest suggestion of criticism towards Wangji and he bit back with force and no trace of humour.

Wangji shared with Lan Xichen a concerned but resigned expression, knowing this well himself, while Wei Wuxian and Jiang Cheng became blind to all but each other.

“And what’s wrong with that?” Wei Wuxian snapped. “I should ignore my husband?”

Jiang Cheng slammed the table, rattling everything on it and casting the room in a purple light as Zidian sparked on his finger.

“Should you ignore the Jiang Sect? Should you abandon the sect that took you in and raised you the moment you get a glance from him? From the Wens?”

Lan Xichen winced. He’d heard this before, he knew what came next. Not just the words, but the tears, the clinging hands. Behaviour that would horrify Jiang Cheng come morning, and cause him to disappear for days from shame and anger.

A desire to intervene and save Jiang Cheng that pain still lingered within him, but perhaps it was time. Their every attempt to socialise, particularly with wine present, resulted in a fight, and even if he or Wangji separated them before it got to this point, it was inevitable they reached it one day.

Wei Wuxian strode forward to meet Jiang Cheng as he rose.

“Should I abandon what is right and good just to satisfy you, Jiang Wanyin?” Wei Wuxian snapped. “Should I abandon people in need just for your pride?”

Lan Xichen closed his eyes as if it could block out the expression on Jiang Cheng’s face, like he didn’t see it in his mind anyway. A rustle of fabric told him Wangji had moved closer to Wei Wuxian, as if to shield him, as he always did, even though it always made Jiang Cheng’s jealousy and pain worse. He opened his eyes to see Wangji had at least stayed behind Wei Wuxian and not placed himself between them.

“I needed you!” Jiang Cheng shouted, shoving Wei Wuxian only to drag him back by a fistful of his collar. “I needed you and you left me!”

There was a sharp intake of breath from Wei Wuxian, and then silence. It would soon be broken by sobs, if the overflowing wetness of Jiang Cheng’s eyes was any indication.

The brothers were locked in a matching gazes of pain and sorrow.

Lan Xichen moved silently to Wangji’s side and touched his shoulder. This was not a conversation for their ears, even if he knew all the things Jiang Cheng would say, and Wangji likely knew all that Wei Wuxian would say.

Wangji must have felt the same, though his movements as they left the room were stiff and full of hesitation, blatantly unwilling to leave Wei Wuxian alone with Jiang Cheng even though he did still leave.

As much as Lan Xichen wished to be there for Jiang Cheng as well, to see this one facet of his pain resolved, it was not his place.

#mxtx #mdzs #wangxian #xicheng #wwx #jc #yunmeng bros #my fanfic #* #this was gonna go in the fic graveyard but Emily liked it so it got saved #ylime94 #asked and answered

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AAAAAHHHHH I do in fact read tags, so thank you so much, I'm so happy you enjoy my fics!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤

#bt answers #ylime94

[fleetofshippyships-archive]

Emily: So, that ice cream you love is back in the supermarket

Me: Whyyy would you tell me that?! (me=lactose intolerant, bad at being good about it lol)

Emily: I may or may not have got some (Emily=worse lactose intolerance than me)

Me: Biiiiiitch, why would you tell me that!!!! Ruuuuuuuude

Emily: That was my roundabout way of inviting you over for ice cream

Me:

How?!?!?!

Emily: I guess I forgot the part where I actually ask you to come over for ice cream. My brain is on holiday or something

Me:

#me and emily #ylime94 #what a fail hahahaha #*

[dewitty1]

Taggy Thing

I was tagged by @gaberonimaceroni! 💖Thanks dear, Sorry it took a minute to get to this.

RULES - Copy & paste to your own post, bold the statements that are true & tag 10 people. HAVE FUN! 

Appearances

I am over 5′5″ / I wear glasses/contacts / I have blond hair / I wear sweatshirts a lot / I prefer loose clothing to tight clothing / I have one or more piercings / I have at least one tattoo / I have blue eyes / I have dyed or highlighted my hair/ I have gotten plastic surgery / I have or had braces / I sunburn easily / I have freckles / I paint my nails / I typically wear makeup / I don’t often smile / I am pleased with how I look / I prefer Nike to Adidas / I wear baseball hats backwards

Hobbies and talents

I play a sport / I can play an instrument / I am artistic / I know more than one language / I have won a trophy in some sort of competition / I can cook or bake without a recipe / I know how to swim / I enjoy writing / I can do origami / I prefer movies to TV shows / I can execute a perfect somersault / I enjoy singing/ I could survive in the wild on my own / I have read a new book series this year / I enjoy spending time with friends / I travel during school or work breaks / I can do a handstand

Experiences

I have had my first kiss / I have gotten drunk / I have told a crush I like them / I have traveled outside of the country / I have flown on an airplane / I have stayed awake for more than 48 hours / I have had a near-death experience / I have set something on fire / I have performed in a talent show / I have shot a gun / I have been on TV / I have gone scuba diving / I have broken a bone / I have slow-danced / I have gone on a shopping spree

Relationships

I am in a relationship / I have been single for over a year / I have a crush / I have a best friend / I have known a friend for over ten years / I have a brother / I have dated my best friend / I am adopted / My crush has confessed to me / I have had a long-distance relationship / I am an only child / I give advice to my friends / I have made an online friend / I met up with someone I have met online

Aesthetics

I have heard the ocean in a conch shell / I have watched the sun rise / I enjoy rainy days / I have slept under the stars / I meditate outside / The sound of chirping calms me / I enjoy the smell of the beach / I know what snow tastes like / I listen to music to fall asleep / I enjoy thunderstorms / I enjoy cloud watching / I have attended a bonfire / I pay close attention to colors / I find mystery in the ocean / I enjoy hiking on nature paths /Autumn is my favorite season

Miscellaneous

I can fall asleep in a moving vehicle / I am the mom friend / I live by a certain quote / I like the smell of Sharpies / I am involved in extracurricular activities / I enjoy Mexican food / I can drive stick-shift / I have memorized a entire song in a day / I believe in true love / I dream up scenarios to fall asleep / I sing in the shower / I wish I lived in a video game / I have a canopy above my bed / I am multi-racial / I am a redhead / I own at least three dogs / I am LGBT+

I am tagging @necromaency @ohsodraco @justdrarryme @keyflight790 @treacletvrts @lowkey-im-loki @alxhmora @ylime94 @cassiaratheslytherpuff @quicksilvermaid

#About me #personal #Taggy thingy

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Taggy Thing

I was tagged by @dewitty1... thank you!!! :)

Rules: We’re snooping on your playlist. Set your entire library on shuffle and report the first ten songs that pop up - then choose ten people.

Right, those were the rules. But I’ve already done that... so here’s my ‘80′s-ish playlist, which I usually play when I’m washing the dishes! Lol!!! 

1. Walk Like an Egyptian - the Bangles

2.  I Won’t Back Down - Tom Petty & the Heartbreakers

3.  Livin’ on a Prayer - Bon Jovi

4.  Sweet Little Sister - Skid Row

5. 18 & Life - Skid Row (I think “shuffle” failed me here, but whatever)

6. Paradise City - Guns & Roses

7. Spanish Eyes - Madonna (I’m pretty sure this one was on the last list too!!!)

8.  When I see you Smile - Bad English

9.  Cherry Pie - Warrant 

10. Crimson and Clover - Joan Jett

I’m trying to remember who I *didn’t* tag last time... @thats-the-spot-draco @the-cellar-spiral @fleetofshippyships @ylime94 @parkkate @supernovaodessa @dracopetal @s4900847 @serpensthesia @jadepresley

#i was tagged #about me

[dracomysunshinechild]

Thank you for the tag, Zoe!!!

 Tagged by the lovely Zoe who is GORGEOUS @fleetofshippyships

Rules: Write down a series of things that starts with the first letter of your name without repeating a word, then tag ten people.

UGH WHAT IS THIS FRESH HELL?!?!?!

Name: Jessie Four letter word: Jest Boy’s Name: Jesse (HA!) but honestly I would use Jamie cause I love that name!! Occupation: Journalist mwahahaha! (What I almost became!) Something you wear: JEWELLERY! :D A colour: Jade! AHAHAH I’m SMASHING THIS/ A food: Jelly, Juniper berries, Jam.... :D Place: Jamaica! Something you shout: JESUS FUCK!!!!!! Movie title: Jimmy Neutron! Something you drink:  Juice! Mwahahaha  An animal:  Jaguar mmmm Type of car: Jaguar...? hehehehe but here have another: JEEP. Song title: Jesus of Suburbia - Green Day

FUCK YES I DID IT!!! MWAHAHHAA. I am feeling ridiculously proud over this.... I am super cray-cray ahahahah

Tagging @imatardisdriver @itsdrarrydarling @acciotomriddle @hogwarts-express @ylime94 @emilianadarling @kelseyjford @daceymormonts @manners-potter

Yeeeew!

#personal #aahah this was fun #not gonna lie I had help from my girlfriend #thank you baby!

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You can’t go to Azkaban and not smoke weed. It’s the law!

Ylime94

#ylime94 #quote wars

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also, i may or may not have gone through your art tag… you’re really good. that one about genderbent hamada siblings was awesome. and i really liked the one when tadashi woke up in hospital. and the one of derek. basically all of them were awesome. [: — ylime94

Ahhh thank you so much! Sorry i couldn’t get to answer this sooner, everything is so hectic nowadays. But honestly, this is so sweet XD Hopefully I’ll get back to drawing again sometime in the future X) (let’s hope my skills haven’t dropped due to my lack of practice)

#ylime94 #reply #haven't been on this blog for a while #im getting back out now #had training and lectures all day #and still have an essay to finish orz #bye now!!

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Sam, my flatmate

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ylime94 hat auf deinen Eintrag geantwortet “I was making kissy noises at my dog and as dogs do she was trying to...”

Well done!

thanks, I couldn't have done it on my own 

#ylime94 #replies

[fleetofshippyships]

Prompt: post cannon xicheng for "when will you finally believe you're good enough?" feel free to rephrase if you want 😊

Whoops, don’t mind me, rocking up 7 months late with this prompt fill 😅

So this wound up being over 6k, so here’s an excerpt, the full fic can be read here on AO3

Warnings: Alcoholism, Unhealthy/Unfulfilling Relationship, Low Self-Esteem, Miscommunication (but then eventual communication), Angst, Open/Ambiguous/Bittersweet/Hopeful Ending

Excerpt:

“You have never asked me to come to Gusu before,” Jiang Cheng said some time later, when Lan Xichen was on his third cup of tea and kneeling closer to the bath than he’d intended to.

The food was growing cold, but Jiang Cheng showed no signs of moving.

Lan Xichen studied him. He was still sitting with his eyes closed, but he was far from relaxed. There was tension in every line of his body. He was holding himself as if he was ready to leap out of the bath and run. It was difficult to look at his body in such readiness, so Lan Xichen abandoned is place kneeling beside the tub and moved behind him, picking up a comb and gently working it through his hair.

“You have never asked to come,” he replied carefully.

It was not the first time he had combed Jiang Cheng’s hair while he bathed and, for a moment, he wondered if Jiang Cheng had taken it down precisely in the hopes Lan Xichen would comb it. He had admitted once he found the gesture soothing, that he liked the feel of Lan Xichen’s hands in his hair. It had been a rare expression of want from him, but he had been drinking at the time.

Jiang Cheng made a dismissive sound that Lan Xichen could not begin to guess the meaning of. Was it that he did not wish to go to Gusu, or that he did and he expected Lan Xichen to already know?

How had they come to this point? How had Lan Xichen failed so completely to notice that they never talked about what they wanted? That they barely talked at all anymore?

“You never expressed any interest in anything more than me coming here to you,” Lan Xichen continued. The conversation was long overdue, even if he had not realised until just before dawn that very same day. “And you never ask for that either.”

Jiang Cheng didn’t speak, and the only sound in the room was the soft slide of the comb through his hair.

Lan Xichen breathed slowly, focused on the feel of the comb in one hand and the hair he was holding in the other. He didn’t want to ask, but he knew he had to, knew he should have asked it a long time ago. Even if the answer was as he had always assumed, the question still needed to be asked. It would lead them to everything else.

“Jiang Cheng, do you really want me here?”

The hair slipped from his hand as Jiang Cheng turned in the bath, gripping the edge and staring at him with an expression Lan Xichen didn’t understand.

He knew that Jiang Cheng wanted him, that was obvious whenever they were together, whenever Jiang Cheng whispered pleas for him to stay only to forget them by morning.

But Lan Xichen needed to hear it in the light of day. He needed to see if Jiang Cheng could say it. If he trusted Lan Xichen enough to say it to him.

He averted his eyes and lowered his hands to his lap, holding the comb tightly as he waited. The questions that would follow would be harder, he had to prepare.

“You know that I do,” Jiang Cheng finally said, his voice low, almost angry.

Lan Xichen closed his eyes. “In what capacity?”

“Capacity?”

The anger was more obvious. Lan Xichen opened his eyes to see it twisting Jiang Cheng’s features, but not his eyes. His eyes held nothing but fear.

Read the full fic on AO3

#xicheng #mo dao zu shi #mdzs #the untamed #mxtx #lan xichen #jiang cheng #my fanfic #prompted works #* #ylime94 #asked and answered

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Omg I just read nicer than any dream (and it's sequel) and I love it/them so much! The whole thing was awesome, and I am 1000% here for this. also, the way you write jiang cheng is A++, so much love for him! the line JC says in reply to someone asking when he will be done taking in strays was perfection!

Ahhhh, thank you so much! Jiang Cheng deserves all the love and no one can convince me that his people wouldn’t die for him, but will also tell him straight to his face if he’s being stupid. Especially Jiang Lei and Jiang Sushan!

#bt answers #ylime94 #thank you so much #I'm so happy people enjoy this pairing

[fleetofshippyships-archive]

hahahaha Emily just turned up at my door, walks in and says

“Zoe!! ‘Draco would have to love himself to be a narcissist’? Fuck you!”

hahahaha omg that’s 500x more awesome than a fic comment

i.e she read Cloud Watching right before heading over to hang out

#me and emily #ylime94 #*

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Why do you not recognize the word "titty"?

ylime94

#quote wars #ylime94

[clockworkbucky]

I got tagged! Thanks BountHunterSamuSaran!

(If you like Legend of Zelda you should totally check her out)

Rule one: Always post the rules
 Rule two: answer the questions the person who tagged you asked and write 11 new ones
 Rule three: tag 11 people and link them to the post
 Rule four: actually tell them you tagged them

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1.) What is your earliest memory? Playing mum to my toy doll. 2.) Have you ever played laser tag? No, I want to but I never quite got the chance. 3.) What piercings do you have (if any)? Just one in each ear, I'm letting them close over though because they keep getting infected. 4.) Did you have a favourite toy as a child? Probably but I can't really remember.... Do books count? 5.) If you could live anywhere in the world where would you choose and why? Difficult question. I love New Zealand but I want to spend some time all around the place. (Canada, UK, Japan, etc) Ask me again when I've actually travelled. 6.) What was the last song you listened to? I was listening to the Kuroshitsuji OST while making dinner. 7.) What’s your favourite food? .....Dessert? I couldn't really say, I like sweet/fruity things. 8.) If you could have any super power what would you choose? Telepathy or teleportation. I have considered this question far too often. 9.) Can you ice skate? Never tried so, no. But I'd love to learn! 10.) What is your favourite childhood memory? Uh..... My childhood memories are pretty hazy.... Holidaying in Napier/Hastings? 11.) What’s the worst injury you’ve had? Never really been injured that badly. Few fairly bad scrapes?

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1) Longest relationship (Romantic or otherwise)? 2) Best Friend? 3) Favourite Possession? 4) Movies or TV? 5) Last person you texted? 6) Favourite season and time of day/night? 7) Closet (and bedroom) door opened or closed? 8) Last thing that made you smile? 9) If you had children, what would you name them? 10) Top or bottom bunk? 11) Favourite school year?

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[dracomysunshinechild]

Tagged by @acciotomriddle ^_^

-Nickname: I don’t have one

-Zodiac sign: Virgo

-Height: 5″8

-Last thing you googled: Hyperkalaemia (for study notes)

-Favourite music artists: Oh god there’s so many: Evanescence, Gwen Stefani, Fall Out Boy, Within Temptation, any form of Musical really, Delta Goodrem, Imogen Heap, Sonata Arctica, Florence + the Machine, Sia…. Man, I could just keep going. Music is my life.

-Song stuck in my head: I’m currently listening to music so I suppose: A Mourner Unto Sheol by Danny Baranowsky

-Last movie you watched: Star Wars: Force Awakens

-What are you wearing right now: pyjamas: naughts and crosses flannel pants, and a “I 1UP life” Mario shirt

-Why did you choose you url: Because Draco is my bby. I love my little Dragon.

-Do you have any other blogs: Yaaaaas. A lotrs side blog: gaaaaaaaaaandaaaaaaaaaalf

-What did your last relationship teach you: That I really, truly did not like being in a relationship based on society expectations and normalities. Nek minnit, I’m Ace hahaha.

-Religious or spiritual: Hmm… mostly atheist, a tad spiritual.

-Favorite color: Red

-Average hours of sleep: 5 or 6 on a good night.

-Lucky number: 4

-Favourite characters: Harry Potter, Draco Malfoy, Severus Snape, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, Marceline, Legolas, Aragorn, Pippin, Deadpool, Captain America, Sailor Moon…. Again another list I could go to town on.

-How many blankets do you sleep with: Er, two? Well a quilt and my Slytherin blanket

-Dream job: Paramedic (ALMOST THERE!!!)

I tag: @imatardisdriver @ylime94 @fleetofshippyships @buddy-poe-dayumeron and anyone else who’s keen!

#personal #tagged