#you arent selfish at all !

[miwtual]

im so fucking tired of the disrespect gifmakers get on the gifmaker website

#kai.txt #negativity tw #(sorry these are gonna be a lot of tags. i have a lot of feelings and i dont know where else to put them) #we make gifs and nobody reblogs them #when they do get reblogged all people want to tell you is that your gifs arent good enough to them and rip it to shreds #'you're missing x' 'why didnt you do y' 'if i made this i would have abc' 'hey op ur wrong and this is why' 'i dont like this op' #reposters dont even reblog your fucking gifset but they'll save your gifs to repost later asking for how to do something #that they could have asked you how to do in the fucking first place #we reblog ourselves constantly because nobody else will and maybe to make our work look like it has more notes than it does #to make ourselves feel better about the lack of interaction we're getting #and then when we TALK about this frustration we have. people who are too afraid to say it to our faces #go on anon in our askboxes and tell us how we're somehow selfish for wanting people to interact with the sets #that we spent time on. hours. days. WEEKS in some cases #or we get anons who tell us the reason we dont have notes are because we arent good at gifmaking in the first place #but this is all on anon. because they're too scared to tell it to our faces #they're too scared for us to see that they ARENT a gifmaker and that they dont know how to do it any better either #they dont see us as people doing something we love as a hobby. they see us as content machines that dance like court jesters #im just so fucking tired of the disrespect #and this sentiment goes for more than just gifmakers. graphicmakers. artists. literally any creative hobby shared on this site #we get treated like shit and for what? literally for fucking what.

[cephalonheadquarters]

I love splatoon ocs that could be background characters but they have their own little lives

#I want to give love to ones that arent splatbands or inklings or octolings or salmonlings or inktolings or agents or idols #or any typical species you already see like urchins or sea slugs Ive said this before sorry. #I wish there were more ocs like mine (might be wording it wrong sorry if that sounds selfish) #Like. I go into oc tag all i see is either splatband or inkfish #That random sailfish or swordfish or w/e they were that i saw 1 time and never again. I love them #Am i not looking hard enough...Give me sea critters that no one else would think are interesting......................... #NOTE! I AM NOT HATING ON THE TYPES OF OCS MENTIONED IN THE FIRST TAG! NOTE! I DO NOT HATE FUN! NOTE! DO WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT!

[catboysalmon]

The fucking DEMONS

#FHEY WINT LEAVE ME ALONE I #iM NOT SIXTEEN ANYMORE OKAY YOU CAN STOP PLEASE #you have to stop doing this shit its fucking embarassing its unbecoming youre an embarassment #crying over fucking nothing #jesus christ youre selfish arent you #and all youll do is get pissy and angry and frustrated with yoursekf and go NOWHERE BUT DOWN #you could. idunno. take an ounce of responsibility for your own stupidity #but nooo youre just going shame spiral and drink about it. like you FUCKING always do #THAT ISNT AN ANSWER STUPID AND YOU KNOW IT. ITS JUST A NEW WAY FOR YOU TO HURT YOURSELF ON PURPOSE #you never stopped self harming you just found new invisible ways to do it #thats why you smoke all day like a fucking loser hacking up black slime #youre an ugly stupid child and you always will be

[deadqueernoldor]

Nghhh chewing on finweans and realizing how self-sacraficial is so deeply instilled in that family, and that that particular trait is prevalent in each generation.

Finwe knew he couldnt win against Morgoth, but he could try and protect his grandchildren. He fought regardless.

Fingolfin knew he couldnt twin against Morgoth in 1-on-1. He fought regardless.

Finrod knew he would die on his quest for Beren, and still fought the wolf to save his friend. He did.

Celebrimbor knew he could protect others by dying, protecting the knowledge about the rings. He did.

It stands to reason that Elladan, Elrohir or Arwen, would have come upon a similar fate.

#sometimes it just hits me with a sledgehammer like that family (esp the feanorian side) is portrayed as selfish a lot #(instert 'justice for caranthir for tslling Angrod to fucking stick with the people who arent hiding in Menegroth from Morgoth'-agenda) #(insert 'feanor was a selfish prick by abandoning the others in aman and forcing his sons to re-swear the oath upon his death' rant) #but i still think they are actually more opputunistic when you REALLY want to put a word ending with -istic there #feanor saw the opportunity to leave aman. fuck the brother he never liked. feanor only needs the people who'll be loyal to his family anyway #curufin saw the opportunity to get support form those of nagothrongld after he and celegorm had to flee like cowards from the dragons #which. for two people who i think have immense pride in their battle skill and strength must have been a HUGE ego blow #celegorm saw the opportunity to either: fuck over doriath and thingol by keeping luthien as political leverage (i dont think he's have #forced himself on her intimately. so fuck that. idc man. leave that shit away from me. he's an asshole but not a rapist imo anyway) #or: get a silmaril out of this mess SOMEHOW. #maedhros saw the opportunity of a possibly successful assault on angband after the silmaril quest of B+L and immediately began warplanning #and realistically speaking you cant tell me that maedhros didn't see the opportunity to casually drop the fact that it was HIS brothers and #HIMSELF holding basically all the eastern lands of beleriand in safety by closing off the Gap of Maglor while... where have you heard vague #rumours of turgon and ⅓ of the nolofinwean people maybe possibly not having died after suddenly disappearing? yeah. thought so. #just the opportunity to make slight political jibes available to shut anyone up about them being selfish #this is a weird post idk where this is going i stopped thinkig halfway though the second sentence #somehow that tag rant veered from self-sacraficial to opportunistic. didnt have that on my bingo card

[hecksupremechips]

Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

#the klock keeps ticking #yttd #i wanna replay yttd so bad but i also like Gotta play other stuff with the time i have akskks #but yeah the brainrot this specific character has given me idk if I ever really talked about it but it was BAD #i like obsessively played the game in like 3 days and it was not a good idea lol but just like shin #i had to take like a week to recover from this guy cuz i couldnt stop thinking about him and how hes just like me fr #first off just the very inconsistent personality hes got going on that is very me he has these different personalities he wears to cope with #all the traumatic shit happening hes both so helpless its comical and so manipulative its terrifying #and idk its really interesting how like good and bad he is at being manipulative like hes very smart and can analyze weaknesses and lie so #good not even he knows the truth but hes also grasping at straws he doesnt think things through at all #like the second main game he just didnt prepare at all hes fumbling his way through everything its going so bad #he just wants to go home he wants to outdo the game makers but hes being used by them so bad he wants it to STOP #and its just the way that like. it hits so hard cuz you know hes really not a bad person not at all he doesnt want any of this hes just #being horribly manipulated and doing whatever he can to survive but its also really scary how #well hes able to lie and manipulate and claw his way through but hes also weaker than a grade schooler #and you never forget that either and as much as he cheated his way through he still failed it was all just a cheap trick in the end #and all of this hits very hard like his personality is eerily similar to mine and just the way he thinks and acts #cuz im the same like im weak and a dweeb who likes funny cats but im also emotionally detached and observant and selfish #but where it hits the hardest is his relationship with midori like oooof that one was too real just like #the first person who was ever his friend was horribly abusive and treated him like a child and didnt respect any boundaries #and he just got sick pleasure out of seeing shin be upset and he was like. a groomer #and shin was fucking relieved when he died but also kept his scarf and adopted his personality to survive #and still goes by sou after ch2 and the scene that gets me the most is when shin ai is asked about his relationship with midori #and you can just SEE how horrified shin is because his deepest shame his abuse is being shared to everyone without his consent #and hes reliving it all in that moment and literally seeing who he used to be experiencing the abuse #he just curls into himself and like covers his ears and pulls his hair thats literally what i do AAAAAA #im just so grateful for the direction they took this character kokichi ouma wishes he was shin tsukimi so bad #and yeah just like damn. its scary how similar i am to shin like damn i really am going through it huh oof #I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I WILL DEFEND HIM WITH MY LIFE HE DID ALL OF THAT STUFF YOUR HONOR BUT LISTENNNN #have you considered that hes cute and smart and weird and maybe just needs friends who arent assholes

[microwaving-tesilid-argente]

someone on twitter is livetweeting ORV and experiencing their villain awakening, and anw this throwback hit me hard enough that this sentiment ended up being a significant part of the zombie AU

#mimin trying to write #zombie au #me @ tesilid thru hestio: WHY CANT YOU BE SELFISH???? WHY ARENT YOU SELFISH #genuinely it's so cruel that tesilid alone has to bear all this and that tesilid for a significant period of time just ACCEPTED it #like fuck that shitttt. who cares if everyone dies or is frozen in time kind of vibes #ailette going from 'yeah actually that world should just explode' to 'fuck i LIVE in this world and it has people i love' type of deal #teshes is fun bc it explores so many aspects of tesilid angst that tesi/lette kind of solves #like. hestio saying this wouldnt even be very out of character bc he and ephael hv been ragging on tesilid for being so #okay with suffering and sacrificial for AGES #and hestio is more aggressively critical of tesilid than ephael is

[non-plutonian-druid]

*sigh* getting real sick of “canonical” aspec rep being like. tweets by the author.

#thats been a recent trend #kids in the aspec tags lose their shit over their shiny new 'canonical' rep #and im just like. ok so are you going to show it in the source material or #oh no? cool thanks for nothing #*cough* a certain owly kids show *cough* #and several others but thats the one that annoys me most #like i get it i get it i get it its HARD to get queer rep in media still #i get it #tweets still arent rep tho #you dont have to say the words i will take ANY gesture in the direction of any kind of canonical proof AT ALL #ANYTHING to say 'yeah these words im saying had literally even the smallest iota of an effect on how this character was written' #but oh hm here i am making this post thats weird #for the void #i feel like i should add that said certain owly kids show is not the brunt of the problem #and im not a paragon of virtue for being more irritated at it than i am about the other ones #my irritation is purely selfish and petty and there are plenty of other media properties with this problem doing *worse* #the point is just that Word of God is worth jack shit when there isnt an iota of subtext #and im probably weakening that by bringing it up #but this is a vent post i do what i want

[theparadoxart]

fucked up parents and their fucked up parenting

#U cant correct them coz they are always right and u are just talking back #They can say whatever they want and make u feel completely useless #Even tho u are trying ur best for them and helping them in every small or big task #But hey so what u arent allowed to say that out loud coz they work far harder #Also they can say it out loud and let u know its their house u stay in they provide everything etc #But the second u try to do it god forbid who knows what woukd happen to them when rhey get old and they cant work anymore #Coz apparently u might justleave them or push them out the house #Which btw they themselves say quite a lot during arguments “its my house get out” #So all in all theycan say or d whatever but u cant #They woukd never acknowledge ur efforts and instead pick ur faults and the moments u start counting the times u did something good #U are just selfish and its not a big deal. #Makes u wonder why they even gave birth to you right? #They treat u like shit even hit you and then have the audacity to say how dare u talk rudely #Ill tell u what #They are scared that u will treat them the same way they treat u rn. #Wont give their opinions any value or their efforts or talk to them nicely etc etc #Talk about toxic parenting #Rant

[strwbrymlkshake]

ohh I do want to pass away why am I so stupid

#mine #🎸 #why am i such a terrible person 😇 genuinely what the fuck #me when i want to cry and tear my skin off over a minor mistake ufhdshdjfjg can i stop being fucking stupid for once #crying over a mistake right NOW actually everything is so difficult i dont know what im supposed to do in these situations!!!!!!! #i get in trouble for not knowing what to do in social situations then i have to apologize and i didnt know THAT either. #bashing my head against the wall violence maiming killing death torture bloodletting slicing tearing defenestrating murdering annihilating #me anmd my epic autism powers. shouldnt i know better why csnt you understand!!! who is at fault here! i dont even know #ashshsjdksjfklsfke im wanna cry so hard everything sucks right now im too busy for this shit. for Emotions #why are you punishing me do you hate me?! did you never even like me at all are you trying to make me mad!!! why #im so tired and frustrated i want everything to go perfectly but its not nothing can be perfect in this terrible world he is going to hate #me now. hell why do i have urges like this it always ruins everything im being so selfish arent i aren't i arent i !!!!!!!! why cant we #be FUCKING compatible and perfect snd everything what is the problem am i the problem?!?? why cant you understsnd what im trying to tellyou #maybe it really would just be better if i died nothing good has happened or is going to happen to me since he probably hates me and #my life sucks!!!!! my face hurts from crying i cant cry properly it hurts it feels so hot why cant it end already!!!!!!! why cant #we be perfect like we are supposed to why cant you UNDERSTAND it seems easy to understand to ME whwueh i am mortified my throat hurts #my head hurts i hate this world why couldnt i resist why did i have to be vulnerable id be better off if. well i dont know #i do want to crush bones and flesh beneath my hands to be honest i dont KNOW i thought it was going well i thought it was good #the thread i am hanging on by is quite thin actually why do i care so much why do i care so little im going to explode right meow!!! #my mood is so ruined i dont know if im even used to this whole thing i cannot get in particular moods im so. rgrhrhggr none of this post #is going to make sense i just need to say words while crying then itll be fine probably #this is just another one of god's little tests i think that everyone will hate me no matter what in the end so i have to enjoy it while #it lasts. no matter how hard i try everything always ends up the same way. all this started because of my mistakes and itll end with them

[endious]

it’s so frustrating being in a position where i dont have my own car i might just kms and be done with it all

#— rambles with cadie #im kinda joking kinda not #im just so tired of fighting and arguing. i dont have a god damn voice and when i do try to speak for myself i get manipulated and guilted #into shutting up and staying quiet on what i want. can i just be a little god damn selfish for once in my life ? is it #really that horrible of me to move forward in getting a job ? ‘how will you get there? no one can drive you i dont have time for it’ #thanks mom. you really are just the best person to turn to arent you ? i hope you fucking realize #how your words affect me mentally and emotionally. i hope you realize that #the second i have a chance to get the hell out of here i will take it and leave #god i hate it here so much. i cant fucking live i feel suffocated and i feel trapped #just wanna kinda die atp lmao. like what is the point in all of this

[sk3l3t0n444]

heyo

#im a fucking liar and imma vent in the tags #a server i was in got fucking raided with homophobes calling me a faggot and telling me to cut myself #and i miss people that arent coming back #and you can guess if youve been following me for a while #i miss them #so much #but i feel like i cant talk about it #like they were the only person i could imagine spending my life with and just like that they were gone #i cant function at all...everything reminds me of them and it hurts #what am i supposed to do now? just act like it never happened? cuz i cant #they changed my life...and to forget is like forgetting the best parts of my life #but those memories hurt too much #and i miss my brother...but no...hes not moving back here #and hes happy there...but i miss him... #and maybe its selfish...but just seeing him leave and not talk to me every day? it hurts like hell #all i have is my friend #and i feel bad putting this all on her cuz shes amazing #and she doesnt need to try and fix it...it cant be fixed #and i just want her to realize that ill be fine on my own #but the truth is i wont #i cant even begin to think of what life would be like without her #she celebrates good things with me #mourns bad things with me #and i dont need her to feel sad or like she has to be responsible for me #and im so clingy to her that shes prolly so sick of me #like she prolly has had to stop herself from blocking me #and she fucking saved me so many times...and she doesnt know how many #i would be sitting there with a blade or pills in my hand and she would call or text and be a guiding light for me #and im prolly becoming codependant on her and i need to give her some space but i cant #anyways thats 30 tags now ummmmmm well ill prolly reblog this and keep venting cuz im a mess

[tardisesandtitans]

I'll never forget on Christmas or maybe new years when I watched 2015 Cinderella, having a good time I made a post saying I'd like the idea of me writing this as an au for my ships. Those antis attacked me and bullied me over fiction lol, thanks a lot to those weirdos! Hope 2021, 2022 and 2023 taught you to be less toxic to ppl expressing their silly harmless little daydreams 🤣 miserable bitches

#i know those idiots wont see it and im glad nm #i cabt stabd this selfish need for so called fans fo control others #antis get a life #im not in that fandom or like thise ships anymore the films arent my thing anyway never were i judt thought id try smth new #doesnt bother me im just showing you all how pathetic antis are

[diluc33rpm]

2/2 Are you a jealous person?

i regularly commit the sin of envy every time kusuo saiki flexes his capability of teleporting coffee jelly to his house onscreen

#no clue #if i am then it’s not outwardly as far as i can help it #i’m not sure what the like... normal levels of this emotion to have are #on the other hand if this is meant to refer to in a romantic sense then i don’t think so? #thinking about that one time i had a crush on a girl and thought i was nuts for feeling mildly bad #about the fact that she’d confessed to someone else and then gushed to me about it (not that i even said so) #but then i realised i was just 15 instead of crazy and it is in fact expected to allow yourself to have weird selfish teenager feelings #and that being excessively worried about implications on yourself as a person is the thing thats not normal #like bitch. calm down we can all stand to be less than considerate in our heads sometimes #what matters is if you fuck up on the outside you take a look at it and learn how to be better from that #you’re only a person and its fine to feel guilty about it but you’re not a dick just cuz your emotions arent always 100% accommodating

[ihophashbrowns]

do you think armys and exols can be friends

i have no idea what prompted this but the answer is no

#✉️ #anon #and while we're at it armyexols arent a real thing either. 99% of the time theyre just armys who listen to exo sOmEtiMes nd #blame exols for army/exol fanwars instead of realizing armys start shit with godfuck everyone lol. #considering all the evil shit armys say abt exo and the ZERO cordiality between the groups nd how many times #~theyve~ been idk. accused of copying exo's concepts for their own theres just so many reasons why i think #no. knowingly exols and armys cant be friends and double no you cant be an armyexol you REALLY gotta pick a side here 😭😭 #like idk how to explain but its deeper than ''just kpop'' to me. being an army is an actual moral failing LOL #i digress. how selfish can you be to want both sides. after everything armys put exols through. after everything theyve said and continue to #say about exo. considering how armys are nasty to all non-bts groups and non-army fandoms but 1000000000x worse to exo n exols. #why would you wanna be friends with someone who has not even a slither of respect for your ult group. why would you wanna double in a #fanbase that has no respect for your ult group. i truly dgi #like the minute you even open urself to the idea of army/exol friendship or being BOTH youve #already picked your side. and hun trust and believe that its not the exol side!!!!!!!!! lol

[sar3nka]

I love the fact I'm dating one of the few valid OSA males sometimes cause he gives genuinely good advice. I told him abt how shitty I feel and he just went. Well no one can force you to go anywhere really and if they try just yell and be aggressive. And yknow what. Yeah. Prioritize myself and all this shit

#he also helped me stop shaving #and made me realize how a lot of my clothes arent suitable for everyday stuff so he gave me some of his and advised to buy mens shorts #unlearning female socialization sure feels good lol #its funny cuz most women in het relationships become more feminine but its the opposite for me #and he straight up roasts me if i act too idk submissive. eat all you want wear no makeup dont shave and be selfish as fuck babyyy #anyway i love him. so grateful to the universe etc etc #sorry lesbian followers for moidranting

[bbqhooligan]

you gotta have the self respect to leave unfair relationships and get as much as you give from someone VS you are a futureless queer whose family will disown as soon as youre out and on top of that destined for a lonely existence

#mypost #at least i will always be too proud to ever make myself too vulnerable! PHEW! CLOSE CALL RIGHT THERE! #im too alone vs I WILL NEVER BE CAUGHT GIVING MORE THAN I GET IN ANY RELATIONSHIP! BET! #im gonna sound sooo annoying but. #hurr durr most people you meet dont know how to love and dont know themselves #is it pessimism stoicism or solitism or highly enlightened ans compassionatr view on the human animal. ill let you judge #people just arent very good at not being selfish and trying with admirable effort to right by those they are close to. #me included. for all my talk of lovr and care. im deeply flawed an isolation master detached disassociated blob #but like. i just need like mjnded people aroujd me. i need a lot of friends #do i deserve said friendship? doubtable #sigh #there will be love. thats a constant. even worst people have families and wives and husbands #there will be love #believe it.