Something that really sucks about being so fucking disabled is how much support I need and how it forces me to constantly rely on people regardless of whether I trust them or want to rely on them.
Requiring so much support forces me to constantly rely on shitty doctors/medical "professionals." I have to listen to them, I have to be nice to them, I have to ignore it when they treat me like shit so that they can give me subpar "medical assistance" and I can stay alive. It's not like I can afford to constantly be switching doctors or something, especially when a lot of them especially dislike disabled people like me who have so many visible issues and such a complicated medical history. (Not to mention I'm Black.)
It's anxiety wracking-So many people can't even imagine what it's like having to rely so much on people I don't even trust, people who don't even respect me! I can't even go to the ER anymore because of how badly they treat me. But it's not even just doctors. I'm also forced to rely on other people too! Because of my disabilities, I can't do a lot of things. I need "family" members to help me, even if I don't trust them or if they're abusive towards me.
I don't have control over so many aspects of my life because I can't control them because of my disabilities but I also don't have autonomy over them either because I have to rely on shitty people to control them for me! I've lost more autonomy than I ever knew I had because of my body becoming more fucked up and while I mourn that, more than that, I hate being forced to rely on people and not even being able to chose reliable folks.
But I have no choice. And it's just as infuriating as it is terrifying.
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๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ฅ๐ข๐จ๐ฆ ๐๐๐ฆ๐๐ฅ๐๐ฆ
Pairing: Uchiha Itachi x Haruno Sakura, Uchiha Itachi/Original Female Character(s)
Tags: AUโModern Setting, light angst, jealousy, lust, dubious morality, sexual tension, unrequited love?, POV Haruno Sakura.
Warnings: (implied) Infidelity, sex mentioned (but no smut)
Words: 464
Summary: ๐ฒ๐บ๐๐๐๐บ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐พ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐ฝ๐'๐, ๐๐๐พ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ฒ๐๐พ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐พโ๐ ๐บ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ป๐
๐พ ๐๐พ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฟ๐๐ ๐พ๐๐พ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐บ๐ป๐๐๐ ๐ป๐๐๐
๐ฝ๐๐๐ ๐๐พ๐ ๐๐บ๐๐๐๐๐พ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐พ๐๐๐พ ๐พ๐
๐๐พโ๐ ๐๐บ๐๐. ๐ฒ๐๐พ ๐๐บ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ป๐พ ๐๐พ๐
๐ฟ๐๐๐. ๐ก๐๐ ๐๐พ'๐ ๐๐ ๐ป๐พ๐๐๐พ๐, ๐๐ ๐๐พ? ๐ง๐พ ๐๐บ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐บ๐๐พ, ๐๐บ๐๐พ ๐บ๐๐ฝ ๐๐๐ ๐พ๐๐พ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐พ ๐๐. ๐ง๐พ ๐๐บ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐บ๐๐พ ๐๐๐ ๐ผ๐บ๐๐พ ๐บ๐๐ฝ ๐พ๐บ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐. ๐จ๐๐บ๐ผ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐
๐ฟ๐๐๐ ๐
๐๐๐พ ๐๐๐บ๐. ๐ฎ๐ ๐๐บ๐๐ป๐พ ๐๐๐พ๐'๐๐พ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ฝ๐พ๐๐พ๐๐๐พ ๐พ๐บ๐ผ๐ ๐๐๐๐พ๐.
a/n: English is not my mother tongue, so please excuse me for any mistakes I might commit in it. ๊ฑเฟโก ห.*เณ
Summer heat was unbearable. The only thing that kept her from melting was the slight breeze in her hair. That and the little flowery summer dress she was wearing. Sakura sighed, her emerald eyes scanning her surroundings. Her gaze fell on a couple kissing. When she recognized the tuft of black hair, her heart sank. She wanted to look away, she really wanted to, but she couldn't.
They looked in love, lost in their own world and the sight alone was enough to make her sad. A more petty part of her also felt angry, jealous. He had told her that morning that they couldn't be together. He hadn't explicitly said that the night they had spent together was a mistake, but he hadn't seemed enthusiastic about breaking up with his girlfriend either.
She snorted.
His โperfectโ little girlfriend. "That's cute," she thought mockingly, โthey have the same hair and eye color. He might as well fuck his sister at this point.โ
She chided herself inwardly for her pettiness. She was jealous, she didn't mean it. But she would love to steal her boyfriend though. This was the ugly truth. She felt awful but she couldn't help it. She wanted him so badly. Her eyelids closed as memories of tangled limbs, rapid breathing, moans and fiery kisses flooded her mind. She felt heat rise in her very core and squeezed her thighs together to relieve the ache between them, but that only made things worse.
"Stop it, Sakura. He's already taken."
She bit her lip, guilt gnawing at her. A movement in her peripheral vision made her look up and her eyes suddenly found his. Her heartbeat quickened. Damn it. He must have sensed she was staring at them. She blushed with embarrassment, and if it weren't for his smirk, she would have looked away already. Was he taunting her? If so, why?
Her eyes followed his every move, hypnotized. His lips kissed the woman's on his lap, bending her to his desires, if Naori had her eyes closed, Itachi's gaze was directed straight at her. He was playing with her. Ugh, of course he was, she should have seen it coming. She watched helplessly as they kissed passionately, remembering perfectly what his sinful tongue could do.
She hated him for doing this to her, but it made her want him even more. If he couldn't be with her, then why was he tempting her like this? This man was infuriating. It was clear to Sakura now that Uchiha Itachi was going to be the source of many of her torments.
Itachi had a girlfriend, and yet, yetโฆ His pretty black eyes smoldering with desire seemed to be directed right at her. Maybe fooling around with someone else's boyfriend wasn't so bad after all?
Hello guys! โ โฟโ
First of all, I hope youโre well!
Second, please know that this is not part of a fic or anything. I wrote it when I participated in a "sprint" on Discord but I hope you enjoyed it anyway.๐ค
Feedback is appreciated and welcomed.๐ฅฐ As usual, if you don't know what to say, comment with emojis. Also, I notice and recognize some of your usernames on my posts and it warms my heart to know that I have regular readers (if I can call you that.) Once again, THANK YOU for your support. Whether it is given silently or openly.
I send you all my love.๐ฅน๐
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i know you're not suppose to "engage" with radfems but there's something really disheartening about seeing a post that was suppose to be about the discussion of gender in left-leaning spaces written by a closeted trans woman get hijacked by radfems that are completely allergic to any sense of self reflection and it honestly makes me sick to my stomach
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PSA: FYI, Some people still do not have the option to use beta-editor. The switch to turn it on does not exist for some blogs. They literally have no choice but to continue using legacy or make a new blog. And not everyone has the time to make a new blog and move their threads. Especially blogs that have been around for a long time. Hopefully tumblr will resolve this error soon. But in the mean time, please be aware of this glitch and be understanding of those who do not have access to beta.
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just a statement... me liking bob doesnt make me a your boyfriend fan by proxy
it doesnt mean i like deplorablely toxic and dangerous relationships
the wholeย โbloodthirsty killer x the person they somehow fell for and wouldnt hurt a hair onโ dynamic is RIGHT there. a character being evil doesnt mean EVERYTHING they do is going to be just as deplorable.
the amount of stuff ive seen of him that is just downright disgusting constantly kills my mood or gets me on the verge of panic attacks.
i will die on theย โevil but will always love and protect their partnerโ hill any day
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