#you can use it to fight back later

[theonewhowails]

nari goes on field trips :]

#my art #cotl #cotl lamb #cotl narinder #narilamb #in my first full playthrough i was annoyed at the final boss fight still but also was collecting all the follower forms #so i indoctrinated nari but when i saw the 'immortal' trait i went BET #and immediately sacrificed him #and then brought him back the next day because actually tactically having an unaging cult follower could be really useful #and gave him the moon necklace as a HAHA FUCK YOU. now you have to spend your eternal sleepless life worshipping me #also i made him a really agressive magenta colour just to fuck with him #(and then later realized this made him look like animal crossing bob) #and THEN i stopped and went. wait. if hes a follower now. can i marry him? #and then i got the other bishop followers and made them theur own little house complex #and then got really sad narinder couldnt use his because moon necklace #so i murdered him #and looted his corpse #and then i gave him the red crown necklace. also as a little fuck you. #and then by this point the brainworms had fully sunk in and i was like 🥺 nari should get to travel and see the world #and then he died on a mission so i looted his corpse again and THEN i gave him the missionary necklace #my first full playthrough was ...... chaotic

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Spice is the variety of life!

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan jingyi #jin ling #lan sizhui #ouyang zizhen #nameless red disciple #The footage from LWJ's fight was cut due to the extreme level of violence #We'll check back later to see the final results! #Ahhh congee.....warm congee with chilli flakes and soya sauce....how I miss you #Its pretty easy to make idk why I haven't made it recently. #Another fun fact about me: I *love* spicy foods. To the detriment of my loved ones sometimes. I forget how high my tolerance is sometimes #Thai chillis are a little snack for me. I could munch on those all day. #It's another depth of flavour and sensory aspect to food! It *can* overwhelm other flavours though #I love spiced chocolate a lot. I use a lot of cayenne in baking for flavour and that nice warmth. #What's the point of eating if not to feel something! #Anyways this concludes my wwx kinnie moments part 2. He's just like me for real. I would chug that congee down in a heartbeat #Sadly the juniors are made of *paper* and are rapidly burning up. SAD. Oh well #there's other teens to adopt.

[rouge-the-bat]

can ppl let others have time to have fun for a while without reminding them of awful shit going on, insisting they "cant forget" that these things are happening. as if just going around being silly and enjoying yourself for a while means youre ignoring the suffering of the whole world 🙄

#you dont have to have this shit on ur mind 24/7 #it doesnt make you a bad person to not be expending your thoughts and energy on bad stuff all the time #people NEED breaks. if you see people having fun and go ''but dont forget [bad thing]'' that IS fucked up #people can have fun without completely forgetting whats going on in the world #its just another form of guilt tripping even if thats not the intention #also tumblr isnt using april fools to try to make people forget the transphobic shit theyre doing #this is just a yearly thing they do. they do silly shit every april fools. theres not an agenda to it. not everything is done maliciously #give people time to be silly for a while then get back to fighting injustice later (given they have the time/energy) #okay. relax for a while. putting down the pitchforks for a party popper and boops isnt going to destroy activism #*also not to say some tumblr staff may not be Hoping itll make people forget or something but like #that doesnt mean thats the purpose of the april fools shit. its not a random sudden new thing theyre doing for the purpose of distraction

[sweetandglovelyart]

Knightfall in Dream Land - Page 5

Meta Knight loses a battle and his wings to Nightmare.

#Kirby #Kirby fanart #my art #comic #Meta Knight #Nightmare #merry Christmas here’s the next page #it’s after midnight now here where I live but let’s just pretend I posted this a few minutes earlier lmao #as you can see I cannot draw fighting scenes at all but I tried my best here #I tried to portray all of the attacks Nightmare can do in his orb form #this is also my explanation for why Meta Knight doesn’t have wings/doesn’t use his wings in Kirby’s Adventure #I’m not totally sure if the wings are part of him or if they’re his cape turning into wings since that seems to vary game to game #but for the purposes of the comic the wings are a part of him he loses them here but they grow back later #I noticed that Galacta Knight’s wings come off in the cutscene after you beat him in Meta Knightmare Ultra #so I thought what if something similar happened to Meta Knight #on the next page we’ll see how Meta ended up on Popstar and we might see a few familiar faces #Knightfall in Dream Land

[puppyeared]

save me old flipnote studio MVs.......

#im going thru old flipnotes i used to watch years ago and ouggghhg so many good ones #is twenty one pilots still popular.... do people still remember the TRNDSTTER and marble soda meme......... #its like im unlocking some sort of primal part of my brain and everything is coming back to me. one of my biggest inspirations as a kid #i still remember thinking the final transmission lyrics were the coolest thing and watching =TopHat= Bee and Melissa over and over #theres a very specific feeling of longing and nostalgia looking back and watching these again years later #especially when there isnt anything genshin or mcyt and instead its either fnaf undertale eddsworld or another obscure #interest... and not even fnaf sister location its like fnaf 3 and 2. its THAT old. and a lot of oc MVs especially pokemon ocs and furries.. #god but they were so creative u know. i still find it amazing ppl took this little lightbox animation on the fucking NINTENDO DS and #cranked it all the way to 11.. like if u look at the transitions and movement its so fucking fluid its insane..!! HOW DO YOU MAKE THE #CHARACTERS SPIN??? AND CHANGING CAMERA ANGLES??? and keep in mind youre doing this all with a shitty stylus #on a THREE BY TWO INCH SCREEN. you only get two layers you can go up to 29FPS and you only have 999 slides to work with #and 24FPS eats up a lot of that. absolutely insane it literally boggles my mind every time i think about it. AND SOME ARE EVEN FULL COLOR #i forgot how popular EDM was back then too...they were really good for timing beats though so you get a lot of MVs with #strobe last and marble soda. porter robinsons goodbye to a world was also popular with undertale and oc MVs. also a lot of vocaloid #someone made a flipnote abt the warner bros fnaf movie being announced EIGHT FUCKING YEARS AGO. it even used the stay calm audio from #the office.... i wonder how theyre doing now... i love you shitty grainy MV audio.. but i have mixed feelings abt the flashing colors #ppl LOVED animating the sans vs frisk fight. aishite and primadonna were also big ones they were SICK AS FUCK #lots of these inspired my old oc designs.. a lot of my characters had side bangs with one eye covered. animal ears and simple eyes too #now i kinda wanna try my hand at the marble soda meme cause i loved it as a kid lol.. i wonder if i should compare my old and new art here #UGHHHH IM SO NORMAL ABOUT NOSTALGIA. IM SO NORMAL ABT MY SCHOOL BOOK DRAWINGS WITH SHIBA BROWS #yapping #nostalgia

[ellenent]

Pikmin 4 pros and cons

Pros: you have a cute dog!! You can play as the dog too!!

Cons: there is another dog that won't hesitate to beat the shit of your dog, will kidnap your Pikmin and you must beat her up to get them back

#pikmin 4 #this game is full of surprises but I never expected to fight a dog D: #but I will give my life to my pikmin and she was taking them!! so Oatchi beat her up to get them back #gladly she doesn't dies #I would be traumatized #just later someone said “haha you can use pikpik carrots to distract her!!” #why anyone said something sooner #but also in dandori battles I will not hesitate to beat her up #but I feel terrible #moss I'm so sorry #pikmin spoilers #maybe

[quietwingsinthesky]

See, the thing about the Amy episode that makes Dean’s actions so reprehensible is not only the part where he doesn’t trust Sam and goes behind his back to kill Amy or even the hypocrisy of Dean ‘you can’t change what you are so you’re going to kill someone eventually’ Winchester sparing the kid right after stabbing his mom, it’s that Amy is very explicitly supposed to be a Sam parallel. There is no other way about it, from the they’re both freaks part of it to Dean dropping the line about ‘the other shoe’ right before he kills her, she is Sam, how Dean reacts to her is supposed to give us insight into how he feels about Sam. And Dean. kills her.

The not very subtle subtext being that Dean is ready to off Sam if he goes too far off the deep end? He’s aggressive and mistrustful of Sam at every turn in the episode, lays the feet of it all at Sam’s hallucinations maybe leading him astray, but end of the day, Sam’s crimes here are A) was tortured in Hell and B) is traumatized by that in a way that makes Dean’s life more difficult.

And it is hard to watch. To spend this whole episode with Sam being completely functional on his own, making a rational decision based on past experience and on all the information about Amy he has available, and for the episode to end with, ‘but yeah, if dean thinks sam goes too far, he’s probably gonna kill him. because sam can’t change or be fixed, so it’s for the good of everyone that he be put down.’

#and then of course there’s the issue of the subtext setting something up that gets no resolution like. there is no point where dean is ever #really going to be able to kill Sam. no matter how bad his hallucinations get. not even a mercy kill crosses his mind later that season #which means that the Amy episode gets rewritten later from ‘explicit Sam parallel’ to ‘well we can use this for Brother Drama™️’ #god. god. and really what gets me about the Amy episode in general. like Thee Horrifying Part to me. #most of their hunts are very life or death. that’s how we get around the morality of it. either they kill the monster or it kills them. #Amy’s. not that. Dean tracks her down while she’s running and kills her while she’s asking him not to. #like if she had attacked him the scene would be totally different. but she doesn’t. she doesn’t even fight back. and he kills her. #like she has a kid and Dean is an unfriendly hunter in her motel room. it wouldn’t be out of the question for her to try to kill him #to protect herself and her kid. but she doesn’t. she doesn’t. I don’t know what you can take away from that except that she was telling #sam the truth about not wanting to be a murderer. if she won’t even try to kill Dean to protect herself. #there is no way to look at this episode that makes Dean come out looking good unless you’re willing to claim everything Amy said was a lie #AND that Dean would be right to kill Sam for *checks notes* Being Visibly Mentally Ill #fucked up. why’d they do this. #spn #dean winchester #sam winchester #amy pond #like to be clear if you’ve got a different view on this that’s. not the above thing I just said. please tell me. #because from where I’m standing Dean doesn’t come out of this clean in any way

[pepprs]

genuinely so angry and scared im shaking. how many other times this week this month this year have i been exposed without knowing it. do people even tell each other anymore. it’s just so grim. it’s so fucking grim

#purrs #delete later #covid19 #i am fighting for my fucking life every day to stay safe and to keep the people around me some of whom are disabled / chronically ill / #immunocompromised / medically vulnerable safe. i am fucking fighting for my life. it’s already hard that i am usually one of two people in #any given room still wearing a mask let alone an n95 mask. hard and bad enough that we get looks for wearing masks and people think im crazy #for my life still being on hold and for my family still basically never going anywhere. ITS FUCKING WORSE that we are still very much in the #throes of all of it and we are in constant physical and quite frankly EXISTENTIAL danger not only of getting sick / becoming (more) #disabled / literally fucking dying but also returning to the absolute hell of lockdown which while important was psychologically damaging in #ways that are difficult to even articulate. like not only have we as a society decided to not give a shit about unpacking all of that and #healing from the trauma and assuming everyone went through the same thing when we very much did not and to just send everybody back to #school and work because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 but we have ALSO decided to pretend like the freakish unceasing danger just doesn’t exist #anymore and to get rid of every tool we had available to keep us safe or at minimum make people have to pay exorbitant amounts of money to #access them because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 !!!!!!! im TIRED. im so fucking tired of it. i am so fucking exhausted and angry and scared. and i #HAVE the luxury and privilege of being able to afford n95 masks and covid tests and to be able to work a job that i can do remotely if i #need to and to not be disabled or immunocompromised. what makes me fucking furious is we decided to throw all the people who don’t have #that access or privilege under the fucking bus and forget about them lol. but what do you expect from a country rotten to its core the way #it is lol. im fucking despondent. why are we living in an incinerator. #* the lockdown(s) werent just important they were necessary. and arguably we should have another one even though if we do i genuinely fear #for my mental health both during and afterwards and quite frankly before. im tired. i am grateful for the life i live which has resulted in #part from the different things that have happened because of the pandemic but i also so desperately wish this never happened and every day I #think about what life would be like if it hadn’t happened. the grief of it all is unspeakably big.

[jaypg9]

good evening gamers and fuckers you're never gonna guess what i have for you (it's more of guys)

#pokemon #pokemon oc #pokemon spoilers // #again in a noncanon sort of way that hints at endgame gimmicks #and because you're here (again) you get MORE BONUS LORE!!! (again) #the yellow color in laggaan's hair comes from oxide rich clay! he combed it in for style. #he's an adept fighter who's just as ready to throw down as his pokemon are. life comes at you fast in paradox prehistory #he's also kind of like prehistory goku. like you're minding your business making a basket out of reeds #and somewhere in the distance you hear an explosion and you're like 'hey what the fuck' #and it turns out this absolute mad lad decided to go fight a bear made out of gunpowder for fun or some shit #life in the maybe-never-was past is pretty vibrant! there are lots of different peoples living in all kinds of places. #the world is still largely warm and tropical (with a cooling & drying trend starting to set in.) #lagaan and his friends live in the sand sea - an enormous sand-and-rock desert. #the fur he's wearing used to belong to a beast that has no name in our time (but may have appeared in the spaceworld demo.) #wicked drill is one of the creatures that lives in the desert - it's well adapted to the harsh conditions. #it's primarily herbivorous (feeding on whatever plants and tubers can weather the elements) but Do Not Turn Your Back On It. #it's a ruthless opportunist that has no qualms about hunting if given an opening. (it's also known for being a cantankerous bastard.) #arcane idol (later given the provisional classification UB-00 'vision') is... not from the desert. #it's very far from home actually. unlike drill (who's known lagen for years) it's a recent addition to the team #but listen when you're as lost as it is? you take kindness where you can find it. #(and its ability to fire lasers and snowball stat boosts comes in handy in a pinch.) #oh btw laggaan is trans and top surgery hasn't been invented yet but that's a post for another day #or maybe never because i think tumblr automod would send me to the shadow realm. #ps apologies for the watermark i just wanna make it marginally harder to use my work in a dataset. lol

[chirpsythismorning]

📝 💐 🛼 💔⏪️💭🧊🌄❤️‍🩹

The Chain by Fleetwood Mac

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#stranger things #bizarre love triangle playlist #el hopper #els pov #fleetwood mac #there are a lot of el coded fleetwood mac songs holy shit #but this one whew #'damn your love damn your lies' #GET HIM! #“and if you don't love me now (you don't love me now) you will never love me again” #it's basically a big testament to the fact that this is a big fight you can't come back from #if after all of this time after him already apparently saying it and after her saying it to him and writing it to him... #him not being able to say it even when she's practically giving him an ultimatum #then that must mean it's never going to happen #'i can still hear you saying we would never break the chain' #'you can't let these mouth breathers ruin you. ruin us! they're nobodies. they're nobodies! and you're a superhero!' #i just realized that mike corrects himself from you to us....... makes the whole what about us line from will hit different #knowing he tries to use it on el later to attempt to make them more romantic when in reality......... #he is trying really hard here #he's trying to dance around what she wants him to say without outright saying it #but el's not having it #not anymore #'chain keep us together' #begging 'the chain' to keep you together... it doesn't get much more forced conformity than that folks #4x03 #gif

[abyssembraced]

Given that you get something like this whenever you backtrack after completing any of the mouse puzzles in Cyber City:

I like to think that Rouxls had been following Kris/the Fun Gang around for a decent chunk of time prior to his fight. At least during the City section of the Cyber World, anyway; before then, he was probably doing all the stuff that Swatch and Sweet, Cap'n, and K_K talked about. And after that he was preparing for his battle with them in the Acid River.

Exactly why he was following them, I haven't decided. What feels the most likely to me though is that he was searching for Noelle, since he had overheard that Queen was looking for her and wanted to impress her by capturing Noelle himself and delivering her to her. But he uh. Didn't actually know what Noelle looked like, so he never realized that the new reindeer Lightner that Kris was exploring with was the person he was looking for. ...And then he also got distracted by the Inferiore Puzzles That Daredst To Showeth Their Patheticke Faces To Him; The Great Duke Of Puzzles dgshshdfs.

It's also possible that Rouxls was teleporting back and forth between Kris & Noelle and Susie & Ralsei, spying on both pairs (since hey, if he was looking for this "Noelle" person who he didn't know the appearance of, why would he exclusively stick around Kris?). And if so, that opens up the possibility for a thread (or multiple) with Susie and/or Ralsei to be set during that time!

Though... Perhaps there was also a (very very small, he would insist) part of him that wanted to check in on Kris specifically, because he knew that Lancer was still with them.

#((small note: that ''invasive species of puzzle'' text can be seen even when you're still with noelle!)) #((i just could only find footage of someone backtracking after the fun gang got back together)) #.🂡 #🂡 headcanon | rouxls #ooc #((also. if rouxls was following kris around in the city. that would mean that he could see a lot of the shit that happens in snowgrave)) #((which would be interesting)) #((and if he did witness a bunch of other darkners getting frozen--*killed*--)) #((that could kinda support my thoughts about rouxls intentionally fully statue-ifying himself in snowgrave)) #((because. why would you bother freezing an unmoving statue)) #((and i guess to go on a separate tangent although i should make a separate post about this later:)) #((yeah. i do think rouxls intentionally let himself fully be turned into a statue in snowgrave)) #((it just makes sense to me? because he lasted so much longer in the normal route)) #((even by the *end* of that one he wasn't even fully turned to stone. his head was still fine and he could still speak. unlike lancer)) #((so i imagine he was probably using the rule-bending abilities that he might have to either delay or outright prevent his statue-fication) #((but because he was fighting against a Darkner Law Of The Universe it took a lot of his magic to uphold it)) #((so by trying to unleash his ''reale power'' on ralsei and kris he got too ahead of himself and lost control over his anti-statue measures #((and thus immediately started turning to stone until he went back to putting all his magic into stopping that)) #((but in snowgrave he purposefully released his own magic and let the statue-fication happen)) #((to protect himself from the much worse fate of being frozen to death)) #((the fact that he turned to stone in front of swatch's shop COULD suggest that he was trying to protect him and the swatchlings too?)) #((but. i love rouxls but i don't think that's super in character for him. he doesn't feel like the ''heroic'' type like that)) #((actually. i recently saw an idea that proposed that swatch and the swatchlings were only *pretending* to be trapped by rouxls)) #((but was actually just using that as an excuse to hide and be safe from the lightners)) #((which i think does make more sense actually! rouxls might be super tall but the swatchlings are still larger)) #((and even though he's made of stone there are several swatchlings who i'm sure could work together to move him if they really wanted)) #((so combining that idea with what i said about rouxls probably not thinking about trying to protect swatch and the swatchlings)) #((maybe the swatchlings actually specifically moved rouxls to block the entrance to the cafe?)) #((anyway. uh. yeah. dhshshfh. i'll make another headcanon post detailing my thoughts on rouxls' abilities eventually)) #((and possibly a separate one discussing all the snowgrave stuff i've talked about in the tags here so that it's not just hidden in here))

[baconcolacan]

Okay but how would small RTord react if he woke up in older RTords body. How would he react, to his army, to his soldiers, to his friends (that he doesnt see no longer) Tom imprisoned, strapped down and all that. He seemed a bit more..decent back then

Aaaahhh, you want to know how he was like before he escalated.

Mmm, well, since we’re talking about a kid who thinks what he’s doing is all harmless fun, and hasnt been desensitized to more harmful things yet (that he actively justified as he pushed the boundaries even more), I would say….horrified, maybe.

This kind of thing doesn’t seem all that fun, and Tom is clearly really hurt, sure he used to get into little scraps with him, but it was nothing a quick bandage couldn’t fix.

This….isnt fun anymore.

#asks #regimen ao3 #So uhhh small confession in the tags: #I used to be the kind of kid RTord was #I was mean I was a brat I was the kind of kid you’d want to punt across the room #As I got older I got into fights with other kids in my neighborhood #I’d literally be asking for it and I’d come home kinda bloody #What I’m saying is its really easy for young kids to fall into bad stuff #and keep escalating it as they grow up #I’m PLENTY ashamed of the guy I used to be I wasn’t a good person back then #But I kept justifying what I did with ‘its nothing serious’ or ‘They’ll be fine later’ #Thats a bullshit excuse and too many guys like me used it without knowing the harm we caused #Eventually you stop justifying anything you do because you know you can get away with it #I cut out my clown behavior pretty early on because people around me didnt put up with my bullshit #So I’m lucky but a lot of other people arent #So yeah thats probably how I’d write little kid RTord #His older version is just the result of not enough people telling him No #And him refusing to be better #letmeaskdanielaquestion

[b0nelessdoodles]

hehehehe silly goblin doodles from the year

#dungeons and dragons #dnd goblin #dnd character #goblins my beloved #they're just so fun to draw and color #thank you dm for letting them be colorful little guys 10/10 content #this post is actually just a collection of drawings showing that yes i ship tic with tear and gnash #which is very fun when you consider the fact that rip who is their leader is actually just a fragment of tic #very good content very fun very tasty i hope they can be friends later on #granted tic and gnash already get along well enough since he recognized and remembered who she was #and like man i just really need to gush about gnash more she's so fuckin' cool #tear is good too he makes me sad cause man he really was just gonna get killed by groll #until rip stepped in and was like “hey he could actually be a really good asset” #and tear saw that as “rip values me” when the truth was that rip only valued him as a weapon basically #as someone he could use to fight battles no matter how dangerous or deadly #anyway in the end uh here my lovelies have a silly little goblin who isn't gonna make you feel like shit or be scared! #tic maybe its better that uh you don't take rip back his vibes are horrid

[matamisin]

google how to stop crying about the shinazugawa brothers

#im weak #WEAK FOR TRAGIC BROTHERS STICKING TOGETHER AND BEING PROTECTIVE OF EACH OTHER #*ugly sobs #i want to draw them but ive been too shy to draw in front of my fam ehehehe #im in the philippines btw!! out of the country as the younguns say #it is HAWT over here but lots of rain!! #bug bites have been nasty but its all been fun lol #ive been on art block as you could see but either i may return with demon slayer art or sdv art #art block can suck ass cause bro tell me why the urge to draw foes away once i have time to actually draw 🙄🙄🙄 bitch ☝️ #babble #delete later #ive BEEN in the PI for like a month lol im actually supposed to go back to fighting for my life in the US this weekend 🥲🥲

[bmpmp3]

they need to STOP making cute headbands and hairclips and scrunchies and shit i have a wannabe 2016 zayn malik ass wannabe zac efron ass number 1 fade on the sides with a bit on top dad in 2004 ass faux hawk and im MAD i cant wear them

#fighting for my life trying to learn how to accessorize #i MIGHT just barely have enough for a couple hairclips to grip onto depending on the style #theoretically i can wear headbands but um. actually this has less to do with my hair lentgh and more to do with how my hair behaves LOL #its like. memory foam. it starts flat and over the course of the day it expands into whatever shape its decided #and if u press it down. its stuck like that. until a few hours later where its expanded again. really really slow memory foam #and like if i wear a headband the hair in front of the band gets SO flat and tamped down and then the back is UP THERE #its like. not thick (used to be. going balding mode <3) it just has 100000 cowlicks and likes to defy gravity #now i will say cutting my hair short has made my headband game even worse. i look like a strange hedgehogged beast #flat in the front with the back spiking straight up like an anime character. and not even a cool one #one off class clown character from a 2000s shonen anime ass hair #scrunchies are a no go tho. nothing to put it on LOL #i saw a scrunchie with like a little cat head and a cat tail and got so mad i dont have long hair anymore JLKDAJHFDK #i wouldnt give my short hair for the world i hate having long hair with all my heart but......cat scrunchie #maybe i could wear scrunches as bracelets but i dunno im not good with bracelets... anklet? scrunchie anklet?????? #maybe i should wear like. a furry tail. put the scrunchie on that #wait that was a half joke but i just realized the accessorizing potential of a tail #you could put so many hairclips on that bitch........................

[shoveitevil]

god. why does no one care about me in this damned house

#two days of hanging out with childhood friends having the best fun I’ve had all holidays just to be ruined by my brother #my god #firstly you have a complete fucking meltdown right before we’re supposed to leave despite you having a full 6 hours to prepare while im #in a rush to get in the car 10 mins after waking up because my mum didn’t wake me up #then you make us call you because you were feeling left out despite you specifically saying you didn’t want to hang out with these people #then the next day you agree to go and immediately start insulting me for laughs and then hitting me with hard plastic when I respond #you continue to do things to the rest of us and then complain when we do the same #eventually going to mum and conveniently ignoring any part where he hit me #then you act moody the rest of the damn day watching youtube and then say all that time watching YouTube was stressing you out #then I get home after a 40 min drive of josh crying over some unexplained problem with all the “stress” on his face leaving immediately #my mum asks me why I wasn’t feeling the best and I explain all the shit that josh did to me #and then she has the nerve to stay “why have you stayed so mad about this” as if josh doesn’t constantly pull this shit #apparently she thought all the times we didn’t fight were just normal?? as if I don’t have to constantly walk on eggshells around josh #and I had to explain how I constantly had to comprise for him and how I just for once wanted to have fun with my friends #and even then we constantly invited him to play with us #and then refused to #the two hour later I decide for once in my life to be vulnerable with my dad and get on the verge of tears explaining how I’m treated by jo #and how despite doing the actual limit to what I can mentally handle to appease josh he still treats me like dogshit #and he decides to make this about him and his brother and how their relationship worked #and then told me basically that my brother will never leave my life and I have to stay with him forever #I love my mother #My father and my brother not so much #but when it’s not about josh getting a pinprick and having to cancel a 2 week holiday #it’s about mum and dad and how they are going through a rough patch and constantly have to let us know #the only time it feels like I’m paid any attention to at all is when I’m with my sisters or I get a grade back #ughhhhhhhhhhhh #vent