i cant imagine being a t/erf like imagine you’re literally evil for real and have horrible morals and views and everyone tries to tell you this and you cover your ears and go “LA LA LA IM RIGHT YOURE WRONG” and only surround yourself with like-minded people who are just as bad to the point where often your blog themes and attitudes center around “everyone thinks i’m a horrible person and i see nothing wrong with that because I’m better than all of you and also i’m right” when really if someone tells you that you’re being vile maybe you should concern yourself with whether or not they’re right as opposed to thinking your logic is infalliable. the brain damage. the worms living rent free in your skull. you have to have mud between your ears you have to. yes i am swinging a barbed-wire bat at a hornet’s nest right now
One the one hand it’s really fucked how nobody is talking about how cases of domestic violence has risen massively ever since lockdown occurred, but on the other hand I’m kinda glad since I know it’d just be twisted to make it seem that people only horrifically abuse when forced to isolated to literally save lives
now that i’ve moved out of the ICU into a service room, it’s time for an ✨explanation post✨ even though i’m pretty sure that most of you know what happened already
i got hospitalised after a suicide attempt by trying to overdose. i half expected myself to die, half didn’t. i’ve tried this before and although this time was triple the amount, i knew it still probably wasn’t enough to kill me but just give me the break that i needed from “life” (in general) and maybe force my parents to finally get me help.
right now i’m better. they’re keeping me for a few more days until they think i’m in a stable enough to be send home (we’re expecting it on monday) so you don’t need to be too worried anymore, i’ll hopefully be alright.
thanks for the love and care and support over the past few days. i love you all, take care ❤️