#you kno I'm right

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

the last scene of season three of killing eve is definitely, like, the true ending of killing eve, isn't it?? you can feel that everything builds to that conversation that they have where they're really honest and open and understanding with each other, and villanelle being the one to initiate walking away out of love for eve shows her growth, and the absolutely stunning choice of MUSIC and the EMOTIONS on their BEAUTIFUL FACES and the TRYING TO WALK AWAY and the TURNING BACK and that magical little chime of hope that rings us out into the end credits. like, that's the absolute perfect moment to end that story on that absolutely sums up everything. the weight of what's happened and the promise of the future; the fact that they just can't stay away from each other presented as something beautiful and golden in that moment instead of something ruinous. i love their time together in the finale of season four because their chemistry is so good and it's so incredible to finally get to see them having fun together and loving each other, but everything felt so off all season, and the end is horrible and empty, and i think it's because they were trying to extend the story past its natural ending, which was that scene on the bridge at the end of season three. i almost wish i could magically eternal sunshine season four's existence out of my brain, except that i don't know if i'm strong enough to part with all the romancey moments from the season four finale. aughhhh!

but truly: killing eve has the perfect series finale, it's just that it happened a season too early.

#and as soon as they decided to not have eve and villanelle be together in s4 after that s3 ending it was just a betrayal of everything #i to this day have no idea why you would make such a god awful horrendous writing choice #agh! agh!!! anyway. #it's funny because part of it is just this weird alchemy where i can't totally voice why the s3 ending is the right ending but you just KNO #that it is. that that's the moment. #anyway i'm sad about this glorious love story ultimately being so mishandled! how are you! #dollsome's deep thoughts #killing eve #you know it's a wild and crazy saturday night when i start pondering Killing Eve Trauma

[capribornio]

Six days before Yuri Briar gets Cancelled by the anime only fandom

#I love him but you kno I'm right #Spy x Family #SxF spoilers #Yuri Briar #The Counter-Secret Police Cover Operation

[opens-up-4-nobody]

The way that the sun hits leaves and clouds. I feel like I could watch the colors change forever. If I could slow down for that long.

#i keep forgetting a have a deck now. i can go outside and sit there #im doing that now. sitting in the corner of a deck full of empty chairs. staring up at a big pine tree where the sun is striking it gold #at the top. i like how thr light hits the needles. if the sky was black it would look like its on fire #theres a tree outside my bedroom window too. in the morning. after the sunrises it catches thr light and refelcts the most perfect shade #of green. the kind of green that flutters translucent like youre looking up from the bottom of a pool. the light the light its all about #the sun. everything everything is about the sun. when i start my project I'll be focused on understanding how organisms catch the light bc #its so incredible and complicated it would make my chest swell to bursting if there wasnt an empty bleeding wound in my gut. a #metaphorical wound of course. i dunno. its just difficult bc right now my mood is inflated by hormones. not even that much i think I'm #just at what shoulf be a normal level of happiness so i can be slow for a minute. but just a minute bc i kno it won't last long #sorry i cant shut the fuck up when im like this but i dunno i just feel like i havr to document these ephemeral moments before they're gone #its just difficult when you kno the world is so full of beautiful things but 95% of the time your eyes are too clouded to see it #everyone tells me i work too much but i feel like im just staring off into space being miserable 60% of the time. ive just done so much #damage over the past few years im coming into a new lab as damaged goods. ive got an albatross around my neck in thr form of data i #collected so self destructively that the idea of having anything to do with its publication makes me hate myself. everytime someone tells #me good job on collecting so so so much data it feels like they're congratulating me for breaking something within myself. like i slit my #wrists and bled out on a lab bench and theyre saying good job and theyre excited for me and i have to grin and bear it and pretend im #excited too. but im not bc ive burned everything inside me to ash. so when im elevated enough to be distracted by the clouds and trees it #feels like healing. like seeing angels. beautiful ephemeral beams of light. i wish i could slow down enough to watch them. but now thr sun #is hitting the horizon and the sky is going gradually dark and i should go inside. bc i have many things to do in the morning. so that's #what ill do. and ill try to get more thsn 6hrs of sleep but its hard when your body is vibrating over with energy #but at least i dont feel tired in the morning. something in my head must be on fire #unrelated #hm i should maybe add a tw to this #tw self injury #but its the kind thst makes u good at ur Job. its the kind ppl reward. so they don't understand when u say its destroying ur life #but im trying to get better. i say as i gear up for an insane semester lol but i do mean it

[julykings]

you are soooo so cute omg i wanna start T but im nervy

hiiii omg thank u !! before i started T i was really nervous, too! i think it's a really natural reaction to change and uncertainty. for me, it was really just weighing the pros and cons and realizing that i could try something that might change my life for the better or stay where i was (uncomfortable all the time, basically). with the benefit of hindsight i can say it was the best decision i've made in my entire life and has really increased my comfort level 100 times over! everybody is different though - if you think it's right for you and are worried remember that you always have the option to try it out and then stop if you decide it's not what you want after all :-)

#good luck my dear !!!!!! #more on comfort... i remember as a teenager being unable to speak to truly anyone - very quiet - couldn't participate in like anything #and then recently at a fairly large reunion just chatting to anybody i could and someone telling me i'm exuberant and noting a big shift #they saw in me ... #not sure if i can attribute all of this to being on T but i do think that the last 4 years of hrt has dramatically changed how i feel i can #fit into the world etc. #whatever you decide is right in the moment is the right decision for that moment u kno. you'll be great ! #asks

[glorianas]

people damon should have fucked

basically everyone

people damon should not have fucked

elena

#tvd #you all kno i'm right #the second they got romantic his character never recovered

[string-cheese-cake]

Nobody asked but white supremacy is the reason why white women are obsessed with true crime.

So when chattel slavery was becoming cemented in the United States and other European areas, the idea of biological race and racial hierarchy emerged to justify the generational enslavement of Africans and the genocide of indigenous people. Africans and other non-whites were labeled as less developed, more susceptible to their "primal urges" and committing sex crimes and therefore needed to be controlled by white men. Specifically to protect white women.

White supremacy is typically framed as necessary to 'protect' (read: control) white women, the mothers of the next generation of whites. They must be protected from "sexually voracious black men" (read: miscegenation and mixed race children). So white supremacy operates on the myth that white women are constantly under threat of sexual violence and must be protected by white men.

That myth becomes baked into the public consciousness, many unaware of the origin or even that the idea is there. It even becomes less racially based, but there is still a common belief that white women are inherently vulnerable to violent crime. Especially among white women. To be fair, it's difficult to not internalize an idea that you are not exactly aware of but is still seeped in every interaction and bit of advice. Don't wander off, don't talk to strangers, don't go out alone or late at night, cover your body, hold your keys between your fingers, take self defense, watch your drink, don't be under the influence. Your body is soft and valuable and delicate and you must protect it.

This idea of vulnerability is reinforced in the news media, which chooses to focus on stories which fit this particular narrative of white women's vulnerability. Missing white women syndrome. This subconscious belief has saturated society. White women develop an outsized fear of death by violent crime. So what do they do? They embrace it. They eat up stories of families like theirs and the deaths of women like them.

It's been suggested that experiencing that fear of violence in the controlled environment true crime provides can be cathartic, somewhat like watching a horror film. There is also a sense of justice and closure felt when the perpetrator of that crime is punished.

In conclusion; White women love true crime because it's a coping mechanism for their deeply embedded fear of violence which was established and is upheld by white supremacy.

#statistically white women are the least likely to be victims of violent crime. they can be and all victims need support but white women are #just not as vulnerable as society makes them out to be. and it becomes the standard of behavior and treatment for women of all races #women don't need control and protection they need empowerment and for men to treat them like goddamn human beings. #i kno im using binary language but u tell me how to better word this. the binary is fake tho. all the little stranger danger things got to #me. walk away from the street don't walk too close to unknown men I'm not afraid of my community!!! no one should be!!!! #we should not fear each other. i understand that violence and assault are real things that happen to people all the time but it's much more #likely to happen to men and women of color. they deserve love and support and real effective change. and white women shouldn't have to #be afraid and feel vulnerable. we need legitimate efforts to address and prevent random violence #not fearmongering and the offloading of responsibility onto potential victims. anyway thank you for coming to my ted talk #why am i talking #maybe I'll use this one day #i wrote this at 2am don't @me. i am right tho. i also like me some ethically filmed #true crime content. it needs to be tasteful though. and people need to be normal about it.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

billions(tm): it's incredible how we just provide a little snippet of material designed to be "guy we all want to push down the stairs immediately somehow" and through this amazing acting alchemy it becomes gold. electric. magnificent. we can't get enough so we will just keep writing this loser character and the actor will somehow keep bringing the dazzling transmutation through his ability

actor will roland: [is aware autistic people are real]

#this is at least half humorous in several ways lmao but also like fr... #winston billions #will roland has pretty much said he is aware that autistic people real. and not [ppl's utterly off the walls assumptions abt what Defines #Autism or what an Autistic Person is like and how you would Know] #i don't think that Billions(tm) would be very much better at that than re: say; taylor's being nonbinary (surprisingly alright yet. u kno) #quant kid 2 could've been anyone but writing Winston is like so certainly the common deal of the inadvertently autistic character #drawing from all the autistic people allistic ppl encounter all thee time without being aware & deciding they're annoying / jerks / too #weird to live too pathetic to die / grating nerds / Funnily Odd in a way you deign to merely raise an eyebrow or scrunch your face at.... #so on so forth. ''oh you know Those People we all know who are just Like That'' #and deciding they must be ''just like that'' b/c they're either too arrogantly rude &/or clueless / Unaware to be neurotypically superior #also do not get me wrong lmao big old proponent of Did You Know That? Actors Act. Now You Know #so of course yes will's acting is off the shits i mean here i am am i right. and he is using it when he is acting. #the acting talent Is off the shits. the tiniest moments they give him & he CRUSHES KILLS it really is amazing i'm not waving it off at all #cue twitter randos so betrayed when kelly aucoin is not dollar bill & is like ''yes in my acting job i'm playing this fuckin asshole'' #meanwhile i'm still following the interviewer who a) asked will anything abt billions b) talked abt the immediate striking intro of will's #as quant kid 2 And the immediate draw of / effervescent dynamic between winston & taylor. Someone Who Gets It #anyway it's like will can fathom that actually the people who are Always ''acting wrong'' w/their bad grating vibes no matter what they do #are not always Those People(tm) who We all know & loathe right....thee magic of knowing winston can be someone fully earnest #and of course always actually trying; & having perfectly comprehensible wants & needs. damn how's he doing that #bringing a certain je ne sais quoi to this Insufferable Loser Nerd material! so we don't mess with the process. #i.e. we will only ever let his role get dunked on forever b/c sure can't fathom anything else anyways. our Correct characters could never.. #only tuk; adjacent in wrong nerd loserdom; can be his friend. rian who is correct but zany with it can be his abusive friend

[keii]

Jowa big

#yeah his dick hangs low #anyway why did i say that #oh right it's sushi's fault #git ur head outta the gutter sushi -rolling eyes emoji- #LMAOOO i waste so much time drawing the details underneath #but i can't stop myself from NOT drawing muscles even tho it gonna be covered up anyway #i have been looking for a rock band drum set for so long #i wanna play rock band again so bad but specifically the drums #my father... got rid of it bc i broke the kick pedal... #none of my guy friends still have their set #useless bunch tch LOOL jkjk... but i WANNA PLAY!! #you kno i look at jowa's hands and like i'm sure it would make someone feel a certain way to have em wrapped around their neck right?? #they look big LOL why am i saying that #he just looks like the type of person that would put people in a chokehold w just one hand #i kno the stussy logo don't look like that just didn't wanna draw the actual one loool #art #killamonart #killaocs #jowa #joro #sketches #digital art #artists on tumblr #original #original character #oc

[battlebreasts]

Having to chant "i love my mommy" over and over after a 10 minute call with her to cleanse myself of the evil after listening to her say the dumbest and also worst shit

#MOM PLEASE SHUT UP AND STOP BUYING INTO RIGHT WING FASH PROPAGANDA IN BEGGING YOU #she just started blaming biden for a ton of shit and like listen i dont like the guy for a whole host of reasons but it's not greedflation #i always feel like a salted slug after she does this shit and it obvs is harmful in lots of ways including to my mental health #but ya kno #i wanna have my mom in my life because I'm a sentimental fool and she was there for me always so WHATEVER

[homosexual-fanfiction]

okay theoretically .. if you were to look at the word count for a chapter.. how many words do you think would make you say "this is too fucking long"

#extremely unsure as to weather i should chop this up yet again cus . i maybe sort of really rushed the planning near the end #when i was drafting everything out at the beginning of november #because i REALLY wanted to start writing but now i am paying for it by having to wrestle with these last few chapters #i think if i did break it up #i have an idea of where i would do so. but then i think i would end up with like a long chapter and then a shorter chapter and then a long #chapter again? #i want to give everything the space to have the attention it deserves and its looking like i might have to split this and make it 12 chapte #chapters if i want that tumblr can you please stop putting error messages over my tags while im trying to type. you bitch #anyways #all that is just to say i'm curious what everyone's opinion would be on what would constitute too long of a chapter #cus right now im thinking if it breaks 10k i'll find a place to break it up #but i'm interested to hear other opinions #i could have said that a lot more concisely instead of having an essay in the tags but u kno #btw NONE OF THIS MEANS ANYTHING IS READY SOON. just incase. i dont want to get anyone's hopes up on accident i think this chapter might tak #take a hot second here to write like i have chunks of it done and i know what i want to happen but i'm going to have to beat at it a lot to #make it happen smoothly #soooooooo be patient with me #for the sake of having a good chapter to read <3 instead of a rushed one <3 thankies <3 #not an update

[mattodore]

love seeing ask games go around like i'll always be there to send in some asks to my little friends on tumblr dot com but i won't reblog the games myself bc my anxiety is weird about that in particular for some reason <3

#river dipping #well really it’s more like my avpd not my anxiety but ya’ kno #idk if it's bc then there's an expectation for me to reply...? or if it's bc i then have to hope people send in asks??? #but i'm like. i cannot reblog that or i'll DIE of embarrassment #that last time i did it doesn't count bc someone specifically asked me to do it and i didn't want to let them down fdjkhnkdfjh #but okay................................. <33333333333333 #i am logging out and you won't see me for a while 🧍 #tonight's the series finale of my current biggest obsession alongside my ocs so. #i will be going crazy and losing my gourd over on main after i watch the episode and then i'll probably start grieving very soon after #i'm fully expecting to rewatch the ep like six times MINIMUM after it ends #like i always give the eps two or three rewatches right after i finish watching them the first time anyway ! so dkjgnhkfjn #but since it's the finale.......................... no i really am gonna be grieving it's bad for me #if you never hear from me again know that it's jesse armstrong's fault !!!!!!

[panb1mbo]

wait actually the worst part of growing up is realizing that a lot of grown-ups don't color anymore

#maybe you'd feel a little better if you colored a leaf. maybe not. but it would kill some time at least #''i'm not good at-'' SHUT UP. you shut it right there. #you can be bad at your hobbies!! how are they gonna be fun if you can't improve anyway cause you're already amazing at it? #hmm u kno for a perfectionist i am fiercely protective of people getting to be bad at things #2000scrybaby.txt

[navramanan]

I go through these short periods of time feeling very okay and good even only bc i distract myself from what pains me until it catches up again and the cycle repeats itself

#i think it's verrrrrrrrry close to catching up again after i've had normal 2 weeks lol #so many ifs and buts and would things be better had i made a different decision lived in a different place or time etc #but i'll never now i'll always only have the here and now and the unchangeable past #and the very incertain scary future i'm trying so so so hard to be hopeful about but seeing things as they are right now. i really dont kno #i can only fake it to some point. i cant fake it till i make it. i'll fall apart countless times and then wont make it anyway #i feel like. i feel like all the circumstances i've been in have all always been against me #like i'm the only unlucky one among the people i know #i try so so so hard to remind myself that people who seem to have it so much better have their own problems too #but then also i remember something i wrote down once as a teen. the phrase you typically hear #''i have been battling (?) with this problem but am lucky enough to have a support system / loving friends etc'' #and idk how right i am with thinking this way but no matter what problems you have. #it's the toughest thing to lack deep connections with at least 1 person ideally like 3 i guess bc it's such a fundamental thing #you know having someone you can ALWAYS turn to without feeling bad and you know that they can and do turn to you too #and i do have a few wonderful friends i love so so much but i feel and know that no one needs me like i need them #every friendships feels so fragile to me. no one depends on me turns to me for advice or to vent etc #and when i feel like i need to do any of those things i cant turn to any of them #there's still inevitably a sort of disconnect i feel #and it terrifies me that i'll never find someone i connect with on a deeper level and it's mutual and we both can depend on each other #and there are no boundaries no shame no unspoken words #i dont know how true any of my feelings are but. but yeah #nesi rants

[boethiahsboytoy]

Ivrasi got her first Dragon Soul everybody say congratulations Ivrasi!!

#i'm miraak and you're watching disney channel #stars plays skywim #Ivrasi Playthrough #ivrasi's like 19-20 btw shes definitely scared as fuck right now #she probably goes 2 irileth like MA'AM. WHAT THE FCUK JUST HAPPENED 2 ME. #like u kno how u gravitate towards ppl of ur ethnicity or like other queer people #irileth being like Okay. First Of All youre a warrior Calm Yourself #second of all i dont know what the fuck that weird glowy shit was. but u killed a dragon so i like you. #third of all go sit down you look ready to faint also your daedra is scaring everyone #she looks at vulon like 'hey why did you summon That out of any daedra' ivrasi's like MA'AM I DONT KNOW IT JUST KINDA. CAME HERE. #vulon is like trying to pry a bone off mirmulnir 2 bring home as a souvenir for vyrthaal #everyones like 'hey can u. not.' n vulons like 'FUCK OFF im getting my princes kid a PRESENT. ASSHOLE '

[dickggansey]

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#please do not read further if you're triggered by disordered eating in any way shape or form thank you 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 #I've gained so much weight these last 2 months I can't stand the feeling of my own body #I don't even know how much i gained #but it feels like too much #im short so even a little is noticable #i. I don't wanna kno how much I've gained #but i feel so. i feel so fat. in a wrong way #I've been binging too much #and then starving myself too much #and then binging again #week off week on #and im. I've covered all my mirrors i only wear stretchy clothes I haven't lefy home much #I don't know how much I've gained really #but i feel so wrong. too fat. too round #it isn't bad to be fat or round. but I'm not healthy. like. I've been binging and binging and it's #I can't. i feel like it's hopeless to try and eat normally bc i won't lose this weight fast enough #even starving myself I won't lose it fast enough #i can lose it in a month. month and a half. if i do things right #but it's still... seems so far away #like i have to spend yet another month without looking at myself in the mirror #when I've already spent 2 months without doing so #i feel so fucking ugly #anyways i promise I don't post about this often #but i wanna tear my own skin off my fucking body #it's been 12 years of this i want out i want out i want out #ed tw

[nostalgia-tblr]

okay but theres that place in england that's called "maidenhead' and apparently that name for it is p damn old so was the virginity-euphemism/innuendo because someone saw the placename and went 'LOL' and how did that poor town cope with the several centuries (?) in which people they met would be all "you're from WHERE????"

#history stuff #'oh hi i'm from the town of Hymen yeah people do tend to do that face you're doing right now when i tell them that' #at least Scunthrope was okay until the invention of online autocensors u kno? #first time i saw talk of 'her maidenhead' in a book i was like wait what about the place-name?? #Visit Sunny Virginity-Town i guess??? #this is even more awks than 'hi Your Maj yeah so we named the colony after the fact that's you've never fucked that's okay with you right?' #'we were thinking if you do get married after all we can just rename it to She's-Had-Sex-Now-Land what do you reckon?'