#you think you'd be tired

[inkskinned]

it mattered because when my brother asked me what if this is the happiest you'll ever be? the best you'll ever get? the thing i felt was fear, not peace. everybody thought you were so perfect for me. even i thought you were "helping me grow". i had to challenge every internal clock. make myself more thoughtful, more kind, more beautiful.

i told my therapist it was good because i like the changes i made and there's something so strong about saying i did that. the problem is that i can like the difference all i want, but i changed for you. something akin to getting your name tattooed, all my progress is stamped with fuck you.

it was the happiest i'd ever been and also the best i'd ever gotten. i would still get in the car and think what the fuck just happened.

#warm up #writeblr #i spent a lot of time picturing our future #how funny to think: in each version of our future #i was never myself #i was someone smarter kinder braver #better adept. #who could navigate the way you shouted and got angry at small things and never fucking believed the best of me #i would never be needy and you'd never get tired of me #people usually talk about how we picture people as being “fixable”. but i assumed i was the problem. my idyllic picture wasn't of you. #it was a version of me that wasn't ill. that needed no extra help. that could be your wife and happy #the fact i wasn't happy was because there is something so wrong inside me. it's always been that way. i convinced myself: #if i stay i can change. if i stay i can make it worth it. i can apologize and fix this. and make us both okay. #for the last year i've been thinking about how you blamed our whole breakup on me. how it was my fault for whatever thing. #and i agreed with you. because of course i did. you'd trained me to believe everything was my fault . that you wanted to love me and i made #it far too hard. that i was always finding ways to ''set you off'. #a few days ago while i was doing something else #i realized that while i was in crisis you told me to fuck off and find someone else to get help. and you never fucking apologized . #you said i made you do that because i wasn't being sensible. i had been crying too hard to speak clearly. #you said: you're doing this to manipulate me. #you forgave yourself for that. i had to forgive you without apology. you said you were right to react that way. and then you were SO #SO annoyed. any time i said: i feel like you aren't nice to me. it is hard to trust that you love me. #i don't think about you that much anymore. but these days when i do: all i can think is that im not sure u ever really understood kindness #you were the cruelest to the people closest to you. and most of the time. that meant it fell to me.

[wenellyb]

It's 2029, Season 12 of 911 just came out, Buck and Tommy have been happily married for a couple of years, Eddie was the Best Man at their wedding and couldn't be happier for them, but one group of stubborn shippers has a thing to say:

#I know this is petty but I'm tired of seeing posts about how bucktommy is just temporary and Buddie is endgame in the bucktommy tags #you'd think these people are the writers of the show. #bucktommy #911 spoilers #evan buckley #tommy kinard #like it's ok if you think Bucktommy won't last but at least don't tag the ship and also don't act.as if your theory is a given. #it's just a theory

[mikakuna]

the way people care more about jason fighting tim than like any other rogue fighting tim during his robin run is...!

"they're brothers! jason is so horrible to attack his little brother."

aside from the obvious twinkification of tim, stop pushing the family narrative on two people who did not see each other as siblings at that moment.

#and also stop seeing tim as a 5 year old #jason fought him to prove a point #sometimes i wish he really did some serious damage to tim just so you guys would have something reasonable to complain about #gosh a 16-17yr old crime fighter who fights people like bane for a living definitely has trauma from a guy two years older than him #fighting him #yes jason todd the kid who was murdered for being robin would definitely go out and kill the next kid who is robin #because yessss his whole point is that he's jealous of the next robin and therefore needs to harm him worse than the joker harmed jason #like please i'm so tired of this discourse #why the fuck would jason- the child murder victim who died as robin and bc of batman taking on a child soldier- want to kill the next robin #you'd think the narrative that jason tried to kill tim would only be in like some fics #but nope! it's in every goddamn batfam fic i've ever read to this day #not even exaggerating #anti tim drake #anti batfam #jason todd #red hood #batman #dc

[revvethasmythh]

not to be dramatic, but why are they like this

#the way this has been circulating in their discussions for like TEN episodes-- #are they not tired. because I'm EXHAUSTED #this is like what if Ashton's ''I've known a loneliness you don't'' debacle lasted over ten fucking weeks #like you'd think orym had physically himself fed bor'dor soul to delilah like giving feed to a horse the way they talk about it #anyway dropping this and leaving because I need to go workout bye <3 #if you are weird I will turn reblogs off okay bye <3

[luck-of-the-drawings]

smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.

#jrwi show #jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #made this within a short span of wahtever bc i gotta go up to the mountains for my stupid gay job tonight n im trying #nnot to frrRREAAAK THE FUCK OUUTTTTTTi dont wanna work but. get that bread we fuckin shall i guess #ONWARDS TO THE FISH TORMENT!! sometimes flowers feel pain when you trim them before their blossoming. atleast i imagine so #i used to draw gillion with loooong hair tied into a big ol braid. and then it was confirmed that he had short hair when he was little. #AT FIRST I WAS SAD. but then i realized the duality of. when they were little. gill had short hair. edyn had long hair. #AND NOW THEYRE OLDER. and gillion has long hair. and edyn has short hair #both mirroring eachother. looking up to eachother. subconsciously or not. they most certainly care. and most certainly miss eachother. #GILLION ALWAYS LOVED HOW LONG HAIR LOOKs. atleast i imagine so. he hasnt cut it since he left the undersea. sure he wanted to go back home #but even at the very start. he knew he was free in some way now. free to grow out his hair. an adventure would await him before he returns. #he knew it would be a while. so he cant let this go. he cant let this sought-after hair-length get cut away from him again #not yet. not yet. i like to think he loved music too. I SAW SOMETHING INTERESTING A BIT AGO #i see alot of ppl commenting on my baby gill comics like;'i wouldFIGHT this teacher i wanna KILL EM i want them DESTROYED #all very good and nice sentiments! i LOVE the energy here! and it would be nice. to have that catharsis #but the story of young tidestrider is not a story of catharsis. it is a story of agony and being so so small and so special and also so dum #and sucking so bad. and just being a kid and doing the things that a little kid does and so many tired tired people reacting badly to it #youre supposed to be the hero that will save us. our world hangs in the balance and you are the one who tips the scales. #YOU are supposed to SAVE US!! you NEED to SAVE US! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SQUIRMING IN YOUR STUPID CHAIR!! #you'd think that young tidestrider ought to prevail. and be tucked someplace all safe and sound. #elders gone missing and rotting in a jail. their cultists nowhere around. but theres no happy endings. not here not now. #this tale is all sorrows n woes. you may dream that justice n peace win the day. but thats not how this story goes #BIG ideas for this lil baby gillion series. if anything i make ever gets disproven im killing myself in a well as to poison a water supply

[0408zero]

Cutest designer husband!!!!

#roots of pacha #jukk #whoever wrote his dialogue once you romance him... i owe you my entire life #“i love you. i don't think i'll ever get tired of saying that” #“you'd look stunning in that. then again you look stunning all the time” #i'm crying as i look at all my screenshots #0408art

[write-it-motherfuckers]

Alright, I promised an update in the tags of the queued post a few days ago, so now that my internet is finally strong enough to let me create a new post from scratch, I'll actually do that.

Ultimately things ended up taking a really fucking weird turn again, and after speaking to the service company directly, we found out that the "service personnel" that had been here, weren't actually from their company despite toting their uniforms.

Unfortunately this isn't even the first time something like this has happened, so this information wasn't as hard to believe as you'd think. One of the nosy elderly men from down the street was even able to provide some photos he took of the "workers" and their van, which he had taken "just in case", which is a hell of a lot more than we could do last time.

On the positive end of things, the real service personnel showed up yesterday with just as foul an attitude as the fake ones had, and have apparently set to work undoing whatever was done to fuck up our internet access so badly. Though they have been significantly slowed by the presence of the police, who are treating the situation with about as much urgency as you would expect from someone being chased by a half blind snail, and really just seem to be enjoying getting in everyone's way.

All in all, shit's weird as per usual, but thankfully on the way to being fixed if my current internet status is anything to go by. (The real workers took one look at what had been done and just said "What the fuck!" which... isn't encouraging)

Either way, I wanted to thank you all so much for being so patient again Darling ones, I hope you can continue to bear with me for just a little bit longer 🖤

Stay safe Darlings 😘

#mod speaks #why weird shit like this keeps happening around here I have no idea. #I'm pretty sure this exact situation has happened with several small variations on multiple occasions already #just in the time I've had this blog. You'd think we would have come to expect this shit by now #but honestly whoever these weirdos are. they're getting better and better at pretending to be legit #whatever. I'm too tired for this nonsense. I'm going to head to bed now. hopefully everything will be settled tomorrow #also I apologise for the long update post but this shit's so bizarre I had to tell you all #have any of you experienced anything quite as weird where you live? or is it just this accursed town?

[kennethbrangh]

Ciarán Hinds on the set of The Family Plan (2023)

#ciaran hinds #the family plan #BABYYYYYY #amazing you see him smashing stuff and you'd think that he's so bad irl #and then just look at him #a soft bear #i'll never get tired of that cute smile #we are eating well again!!!!! #gifs* #(that leather jacket woooooooooof)

[chloecherrysip]

As much as I mourn all the lines that appeared in mario movie trailers but for some reason, didn't make it to the finished product (RIP "I'm not afraid! I'd do anything for my brother!" YOU LIVE ON IN MY HEART ALWAYS AND FOREVER), I've been thinking about "I hope you told your brother how much you love him, because you're probably never gonna see him again" and the rest of that whole dialogue exchange in particular from this specific trailer and how much I wish we'd gotten that moment because I think it would have helped spotlight a vital aspect of Mario's character that the movie already does a REALLY good job with getting across in the first place: the way he communicates how he feels through action and acts of service instead of words!

(more under the cut because this got too long, haha)

Mario is usually a very quiet protagonist so this tracks with the games too, obviously, but even movie!Mario seems like someone who isn't overly verbose or who's especially eager to enter into heavy, feelings-based conversations (at least not without a struggle). Talking about his feelings might not come easy to him, and he maybe even forgets to say things outloud that to him, seem obvious. (Meanwhile, I think Luigi is always up for gushing about his favorite people (see the interrogation scene lol) and probably ends every phone call/text message exchange ever with "love you!" to Mario and his parents, to the point that he might accidentally say it to acquaintances and customers too on occasion, LOL).

So thinking about this exchange with Toad and how, even if the movie didn't acknowledge it past that point, this idea would be hanging over Mario throughout his journey hits harder because you can imagine him thinking: hey, when WAS the last time he told Luigi outright that he loved him that wasn't a distracted "yeah, me too" response to Luigi saying it first? Maybe it's been a long time. Too long. So long it's genuinely upsetting for him to realize! What if his brother doesn't actually know how much Mario loves him, because he does, he does so much, and he's been an idiot for going so long without saying the actual words and now he can't, he CAN'T and he would give anything in the world to go back and do things differently!

And of course, all this panic is totally unwarranted and even silly because I think Luigi knows like his own name how much Mario loves him. Because the audience watching this movie knows how much Mario loves his brother by that point! Mario never says the actual words - in fact, he never says anything particularly positive about Luigi, other than "you were great!" regarding the commercial in the very beginning - and yet it couldn't be any clearer!!! I think it's pretty impossible to come out of this movie (if you were paying attention in the least) not seeing that love plain as day in everything Mario does, down to the littlest things, because he is a man of action and that's how he expresses himself best!

You see it in how he shifts from mildly embarrassed to immediately Intense and Ready To Throw Down on a dime when Spike insults Luigi, you see it in how he pauses to open doors and create paths for Luigi to safely follow him through the construction site as he's parkouring, you see it when the dog becomes aggressive and Mario is just entirely focused on keeping Luigi behind him, pushing him out of harm's way, getting the dog's attention so it will attack him instead, etc. You see it in the warp pipe when his entire demeanor changes the second he realizes Luigi is in trouble, how he desperately paddles to reach him and grab his hand and comfort him about the situation. You see it in how his brother is front of mind for him at every point in his adventure and that's why he fights so hard to talk to Peach, why he agrees to the fight with DK, why he keeps trying even when things seem hopeless and no one believes he can do it. You see it written all over Mario's face during the reunion, every single little way he touches Luigi and brings him closer and checks in on him with crystal-clear relief and joy and gentleness!!! The "show, don't tell" aspect is just OFF THE CHARTS IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE because that's how Mario is. He's not so good at words and remembering to say them. When he loves someone, he wears that feeling, he lives that feeling in so much of what he chooses to do and how he interacts with the world, and while it's always good to say these things outloud now and then just to be clear everyone's on the same page (and I'm sure he does after the movie, haha), it doesn't make it any less meaningful. :)

#mario movie #mario movie spoilers #super mario bros #mario and luigi #super mario bros movie #super mario bros movie spoilers #cherrysip hc's & rambling #i know some people have talked about this a little already but i just really wanted to do so too :) #because it's just WILD to me that you leave this movie knowing in your soul how much mario loves and needs his brother #and yet if you looked at only the spoken dialogue separated from all context i don't think you'd get that at all #(or you would get it a LITTLE but the effect would be so much more muted and nowhere near as emotional or vivid as the final product) #because the non-verbal stuff is critical!!! and that's perfect for mario as a mostly silent protagonist!!! IT'S SO GOOD #(also please PLEASE don't tag this as ship i am so so tired)

[mythicalcoolkid]

Y'all please stop responding to "I wish someone had told me that these experiences weren't normal" with "well NOTHING is normal, normal is all subjective." THERE ARE THINGS THAT ARE OBJECTIVELY NOT AVERAGE OR EXPECTED. THAT'S WHAT THEY'RE SAYING. It isn't an "I'm so weird I'm not normal" thing it's "most people are not regularly in pain." "Most people do not feel physical pain from sounds they dislike." "Most people do not wish they had different sex organs." "Most people do not feel so much fatigue that they are unable to work." "Most people do not feel their mouth itch when they eat bananas." "Most people do not still feel intense fear 6+ months after a distressing event." "Most people do not have immense difficulty reading." There are things that are legitimately statistically abnormal. That's FINE. It's not a value statement!! The existence of "norms" will genuinely always be there in any given area! You don't look at a fish that's six inches long in a species that's normally two feet and say "well fish are all different sizes, normal is subjective!" You find out why that fish is so much smaller than its peers, then see if you need to do something for it. Maybe it's fine and healthy! Maybe it's not getting access to food or it's sick! But knowing that something is uncommon HELPS YOU UNDERSTAND YOURSELF AND OTHERS, and if someone is directly saying "I wish I'd known this wasn't normal," they're probably saying "I spent a lot of time feeling confused, alienated, and struggling because I still knew I was different. I just thought it was my fault"

#m/cc #negative #kind of #I dunno I'm just tired of people only interpreting it as 'normal /pos' and not 'normal /neutral' #'normal (opinion/perspective)' not 'normal (statistical range)' #also THERE ARE SOCIAL NORMS. IF YOU DO NOT SEE THEM IT MEANS YOU KNOW THEM AND DON'T NOTICE #but you'd notice if they were broken!! #'social norms aren't a thing everyone's different' go kiss your new coworker on the lips. go ahead #oh that would be awkward? you have reason to think it would make them uncomfortable? #WOW it's almost like 'don't kiss strangers in the workplace' is an expected social rule!

[miabrown007]

the ml fandom's climate and attitude towards leaks is a direct consequence of the show's structure, wherein the showrunners keep building up conflict, putting the audience on edge emotionally without granting any resolution in a years-long cat and bug game. in this essay I'll--

#ml spoilers #miraculous ladybug #ml recreation #ml conformation #I am SO tired. give me an ending when you promised you'd give me an ending #I was very against leak all this season but now I was just thinking #'hah good thing we have so many leaks so I won't have to wait until the next episodes to air to find out what actually happens' #and then it hit me that THIS is why we have so many leaks #because people are tired and we have been told to be patient and wait for the resolution for such a long time #they are fighting back the only way they know how #like our leak culture is ridiculous but so is this slowburn and leading on and on and on and on story structure #miaing

[andy-clutterbuck]

𝐀𝐧𝐝𝐲 𝐚𝐭 𝐒𝐚𝐯𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐚𝐡 𝐌𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐫'𝐬 𝐰𝐞𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐧 𝐃𝐞𝐜𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝟗, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟐 𝐢𝐧 𝐋𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐧

#SMILEY #Andrew Lincoln #* #al #it's not the best pic but it's perfect anyway #kudos to the photographer for capturing my favorite cryptid #EYE CRINKLES 💕💞 #excuse me but The Nose™ #and his glasses were in his hand of course #gael make your husband put on his damn glasses challenge #my what big hands you have #him and gael were obviously listed as Clutterbuck in the pic of the seating chart #you'd think i'd be used to seeing his actual name but when i read it somewhere new my brain needs a second #or im just tired

[shopcat]

LIKE i'm just saying there is no moral negative in using tumblr (/participating in an april fools thing that happens every single year) just like there is no moral positive in passing around a post saying something like "you guys better not be supporting staff" as if we are a) children and b) unable to think for ourselves and have to be guilt checked at the door. there is a huge and palpable difference between praising flawed companies and platforms and the people who run them v Just Existing which i know everyone does know deep down or else they wouldn't be here too. but no you're one of the Good Ones for sure.

like this is literally just a website and they all have horrible staff and bigoted practices and useless report functions and communities of violent people that happens EVERYWHERE, and doesn't mean it's like, diminished because it's "normal" it's just silly to act like it's unique to tumblr, just like it's silly to pretend it doesn't happen. and you're not more or less of a Bad Person just by existing on here with everyone else, just like you're not more or less of a bad person for criticising and not supporting these companies btw. it'd be like getting mad at someone for living in a city because crime happens in cities more or smth... like stop being stupid and trying to pat yourself on the back at the same time for reblogging a post or two about something as your brave deed of the day (while at the same time being needlessly condescending to others i mean). and to be honest some of these people need to go to a damn doctor and get their anxiety disorder or whatever in check bc this IS affecting your life a lot Clearly. maybe google moral scrupulosity. so. anyways.

#🐾 #as much as i would never do it myself no one is going to fantasy jail for saying something like ''wow this is so cute thanks staff'' like #oh my god. it's just not that serious #people act like they're getting into heaven bc they reblogged a condescending post on tumblr #which you'd think would be impossible what with the fact there is a 1:2 ratio of condescending posts on here 😭 #and just bc of the nature no this isn't about any post i saw on MY dash it's stuff on other people's blogs / searches / trending #that ive been seeing #also the reason i keep bringing up like mental health stuff or ocd and whatever is bc indulging in this isn't HEALTHY and is Actively #harming you or others. usually others. bringing everyone else down with you like idk it's just tiring to see #i wish people were just more mindful about what they say whilst still being appropriate to the gravity of the situation they're discussing

[voskhozhdeniye]

#Not just non-American lives. #I said on here in 2020 if Biden was elected most of those white people at the George Floyd protests would disappear. #Because politics is a game to be won for them. #Team Biden won so Championship parade and go home everybody. #Police killed a record number of people last year. #Covid is still killing and disabling people. #You criticize Biden and people automatically say think about what will happen to People of color and the disabled if Trump wins. #We don't have to. #If you were paying attention you'd know. #So four years later I'll say it again. #White liberals are afraid of Trump because he makes them feel like niggers in America. #It isn't fun when the laws you thought protected you suddenly don't anymore. That's a new feeling for them. #And they will swallow whatever horrible thing Biden does to avoid that feeling. #Because when you vote for the lesser evil you are still voting for evil. Evil they're willing to swallow. #And most of us are tired of our struggles only mattering when middle class white people start catching hell too. #The country is in collapse. #The marginalized folks see it #homelessness is skyrocketing. #And as someone on Twitter just said..the war always comes back home. #They think it matters who is in control when it falls apart. #T. S. Eliot said not with a bang but a whimper.

[variousqueerthings]

people who see themes in a text that are intended to be unsavoury and respond by going "how dare there be unsavoury themes in this text, does the writer know?"

people who see bad guys having bad opinions and respond by going "the text is sanctioning the opinions of the bad guys by presenting them to begin with"

people who see "good" guys having "bad" opinions and respond by going "this text is sanctioning the opinions of bad guys by presenting people who aren't perfect"

people who see characters having complex and uncomfortable journeys in which they're not always the uncomplicated good guy/handling their situations in unpalatable ways and go "but if the character we're meant to be rooting for isn't purely good, then that character must be bad, and if a character is bad then this text is bad for depicting them in the first place"

people who see interesting, charismatic, enjoyable to engage with bad guys and respond by going "this means that the writer/audience approves of [x] bad behaviour in real life"

people who see bad guys occasionally or often showing behaviours that they might agree with and respond by going "this means that they're being redeemed for their badness or their badness is approved of by the narrative, because no bad person ever does things I would ever agree with"

people who see bad guys having self-awareness about their actions and possibly even redemption arcs and respond by going "but no bad person can ever be less bad, all bad people are uncomplicatedly, un-changeably bad and must be punished, and any text that says otherwise is sanctioning badness"

people who see intentionally foreshadowed narrative moments in complex (and often not even that complex) narratives coming and respond by going "i can't believe that the writer is working intentionally with the audience to set up this moment, it must be bad writing, because they've been depicting bad behaviours and therefore the story/characters doesn't/don't deserve catharsis"

people who get to a point or the end of a complex (and often not even that complex) narrative that has depicted unsavoury themes that ties up the exact threads that it was following, and respond by going "this was clearly an accident, considering the unsavoury themes that made me uncomfortable, there was no way the writer was doing this on purpose"

people who engage with a story where things aren't all neatly wrapped in a bow, and not all emotional threads can ever be fully explored, because it's emulating the limitations people have in real life and respond by going "but if everything isn't perfectly wrapped up then that means that the writer endorses bad things happening, and should be punished/sanctioned in real life"

people who engage with tragedies and respond by going "i can't believe this was tragic"

people who engage with gothic romances and respond by going "I can't believe people did bad things"

people who engage with horror and respond by going "I can't believe this was gruesome"

people who engage with dramas and respond by going "I can't believe people couldn't communicate adequately"

people who engage with a story that includes conflict and respond by going "I didn't like that this story had conflict"

people who read stories and go "I didn't like that there was an arc"

people who engage with stories as if they're the enemy and any well-constructed element is an accident and not the craft of storytelling, rather than attempting to engage with what the texts are trying to do -- whether or not they manage it is something one can discuss afterwards, but people who fall down at the first hurdle by not even asking "what is the text about and why is it about this" and then perhaps the next question which is "what is the format of this narrative and why is it being told this way"

I think literacy and analysis ought to be a recurring class throughout adulthood, considering some of the things I've seen. sometimes it feels as if people don't like stories at all

#media literacy #analysis #literacy #narrative #fiction #tropes #critical thinking #media criticism #media critique #people really do jump straight to *and how does it make me feel* bypassing all the relevant points #how it makes you feel is only important in the subjective sense of whether you'd want to go back to the story personally #it's not really critique outside of actually asking what the text is doing and asking how it Wants you to feel #we can then argue if it's successful in that goal but also tbh. the least interesting question a lot of the time #because how you feel may not be how someone else feels #(this with caveats and disclaimers -- i am tired)

[daz4i]

how and why is there discourse about whether or not certain queer identities exist/if people should be allowed(???) to use them. why is "people know their own identity better than you ever could, and they're the only one who get a say on what they are" such a tough concept to grasp

i think if you find yourself offended by the label someone uses (especially if they're a stranger) or think it invalidates your own, it's a good idea to look inside yourself and question why that may be. more often than not, it's a result of insecurity or uncertainty of your own identity (or many other things, but i won't make a whole list here). whatever reason it is, until you resolve it, you shouldn't take it out on people for having an identity you don't understand

many have said it before but it's worth saying over and over. infighting only helps our oppressors. conservatives don't care if you're a cis gay or a xenogender aegosexual aplatonic lesbian, they hate all of us either way. trying to fit in by going for people who are easier targets for them isn't gonna help you, it'll just alienate you from your own community, and you're never gonna please them. the momentary rush you get from hearing you're not like "one of /those/ gay people" is not worth it and is gonna do more harm in the long run, i assure you

also, it is important to me to say this, but having some less than nice kneejerk reaction caused by confusion about an identity you don't understand doesn't mean you're a bad person or anything. as long as you aren't mean to that person, and you take a second to think smth along the lines of "wait a minute, this isn't any of my business" after having said reaction, you're good 👍 a lot of reflexive reactions we have to things are ingrained into us simply by. well. living in a society 🤡 and you're not terrible for having those thoughts. it's your actions that matter, and your second thought (the "wait, why did i just think that?") is more defining of your actual character and morals than your reflex. i know that having thoughts like this, even tho they're unwanted, can very easily make one spiral, so it's important to me that whoever needs to hear this knows this doesn't make you a bad person 🙏 you're good, keep taking actions to be good, accept other people even if you don't understand them, and you're on the right track :)

#i considered adding that last part in the tags but i figured it'll be too long for that 😭 #i noticed i'm posting a lot of rants lately. sorry. but i do wanna make sure no one's actually feeling bad over them #if i complain about something that you do or call it mean and such. that doesn't make you a bad person #you can always work to change and grow 👍 it's not easy but it starts with smaller steps than you'd expect #and now i just switched to a whole other topic from my original point. oops #i do firmly believe that any discourse about someone's identity is dumb as fuck #seeing it in poll blogs always makes me 😐😬 like how is it any business for any of us. why is this up for debate #if a person says they're queer then they are. they don't need to pass some test or go through initiation to be accepted #if they feel comfortable with a certain word that's awesome. why does it matter to *you* which word they use #'they're only using this microlabel to feel special' so? is there anything wrong with that? #'this label contradicts [insert other identity that falls under the same umbrella]' ok. but does that hurt anyone in any way #a lot of identities can even be self contradictory. does it matter tho? does it affect anyone in any way? #'they might realize that label is wrong later' again. what's the harm in that. #i don't blame anyone for these thoughts bc like. this is how cishets view a lot of the even more common labels #so you're basically taught to think this way from day one. that doesn't mean you need to stick to that thought process #you might have these reflexes forever no matter how hard you try. but you'll get quicker about moving on from them #but you do have to try. you do have to realize that other people's identities aren't about you #anyway. this post feels like batting at a hornets nest. really hope i don't get some bad faith readers here lol #(i noticed a lot of places one could apply bad faith but like it's 3:30 am i'm too tired to add this many disclaimer. #so i'm gonna trust you to not jump to conclusions and to approach this in good faith okay? mwah 🖤) #also my whole ramble abt morality (in the tags too) is relevant to. any topic really #i may just make a separate post about it really. .....tomorrow tho.