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My Story: I don't want to be like this :( via /r/ADHD

My Story: I don't want to be like this :(

My life sucks but I am still happy about the person that resulted from all the stuff I went through. I am a very silent person but at the same time extremly turned up. It's like a never ending roller coaster ride with its ups which make me feel like I am god or downs which want to make me kill myself. I wish there was an in between but it just doesn't exist ;( My mood is uncontrollable and it is most of the time more depressiv than happy. The depressiv mood has arised over the last three years and the lockdown aggraveted it extremly. Currently I'm 18 years old and life feels like that it is getting worse and worse the older I get... Procrastination, mood swings, lack of concentration, being emotional, high sensetivity, impulsiveness, bad memory, sleeplessness,messiness, daydreaming and the fact that I just can't change it by myself are murdering me.

I'm in 12th grade right now and at the first two weeks I stoped going to school because of suicidal thoughts. I think it was in 8th grade when I started to research my first issues in the internet to learn more about me so I hopefully fix my problems. Back then I had friends that harmed me a lot and caused a huge amount of anxiety in me. The only common ground we had was playing video games together. At school I felt like an outcast since I started going to secondary school I had big issues to keep up with the learned and almost had 0 friends because I was so different and weird than anybody else. Everybody laughed at me when I started to talk in class because I stuttered a lot, had issues to creat and understand sentences and lost the red threat everytime I was talking. One of my teachers waged my folder all around the classroom because all of my papers weren't staple in so that every sheet of paper was distributed in my classroom and I need to collect them all by myself infront of the whole class while I couldn't hold back my tears... I always thought that it was my fault at school even though I was the most silent kid and never made any problems. My selfconfidence was almost nonexistent and I was soooo happy when the school bell rang and I could go home. I was addicted to play video games all day long because I was only with me when I played and because I was so good at it sometimes. I was very inconstant and I had phases where I played like the worst player ever but also moments where I played like a world champion where nobody could beat me. It was the only thing where I would have said that I am good at it. I also took part of sportsclubs but I almost changed the sport every year cause I got bored so fast. In those days the internet was the only place where I could search up my problems.

I lied everytime to my parents about the situation in school to prevent punishments. Since I was born my Dad consumed a lot of alcohol and that's why my mum was forced to manage my upbringing alone. Both of my parents were pretty much nonexistent to me because I was all the time alone in my room and refused to talk to them. Both of them came from turkey to germany that's why they can't speak the languague well. My turkish is very bad too that's why comunication is almost impossible with them. 11th grade was the time where the school classes were mixed up again and I thought that could be my turn in school. I wanted to change everything so I can focus only on school. But I couldn't manage to change my behavior at all. I still couldn't do my homework, I still postponed to learn for exams until the last second even though I wanted it so bad... When I did my homework I couldn't focus at all. It was a nightmare I couldn't awaken from. I wanted to progress in school so bad but nothing changed. Instead my situation got worse and I started to judge me more and more. Half of the 11th grade was over and covid was taking over the world. Our school was set to homeschooling and my grades got kinda better because nobody was around me so I could focus better and I had more time solving the tasks. It was enough to establish 11th grade.

I still wanted to know how to fix my problems and researched a lot of my problems until I found truth. --ADHD/ADD--. I read everything about it, all symptoms, experiences on reddit and I thought I finally found the thing that is bothering me all my life. The disorder that has formed me to the wise, empathic, genius but at the same time to the depressiv, disorganised, emotional, unmotivated and impulsiv human I am. It would explain everything and I sometimes cry when I read some of the experiences of other users of this wonderful forum because it reflects everything of me so precise. But it was still just the internet where I got the information from and I was really unsecure if it is true even though it matched so hard. I told my older brother all about it but he is really unsecure. Back then I told nobody about my problems and he said that everything comes abruptly. I asked him if he could find me a therapist and I managed to get a meeting with a child psychologist. He didn't really took serious what I said and diagnosed me depression and anxiety. He called me an "internet psychologist" when he asked me where I got this knowledge from about ADHD/ADD. He said that I can't have it because I am not fidgety enough... I went home totaly depressed and questioned everything. I wrote him a SMS that I don't feel great and that my suicidal thoughts are back and he asked me if I wanted to go to the psychatry next city. I said yes and my brother drove me there. He told my brother that the police would had drive me there if nobody was able to do that. Thank you for everything my brother. As I arrived there I told the psychologist my story but didn't really mention that I think I have ADHD/ADD and focused more on the suicidal thoughts. He asked me if the thoughts are extremly or not and I said I only think about it when I want to focus and I am just not able to do it no matter how hard I try and that I'm thinking about it but that I am to strong to end my life. I also told him that the pressure to perform in school is supporting the suicidal thoughts and he offered me that I could go home if I promise him I wouldn't harm myself. He gave me a paper that released me from school for some weeks and I felt so much better for a while. He made a meeting for a outpatient psychologist and at first i visited her every 2 weeks. The time inbetween was a nightmare because I couldn't do anything else than lying in bed because everytime I tried to to something productive I felt sooo god damn bad because I couldn't focus at all that it always threw me back to suicidal thoughts. Session after session I told her everything. I met her 2-3 months and everything I did in this time was just staying at home doing nothing while I had such a pressure to be productive but I just couldn't. She told me that it is possible that I have ADD but that she can't diagnose it to me because she doesn't meet me often enough to observe the symtomps... That's why she told me that I should make a meeting at a day clinic. After that I met her only once a month without doing anything helpful there. In the end my brother prepared the meetings for the day clinic and now I am on a waiting list.

6 months passed when I stopped going to school. Nobody was able to tell me professionally what my defecits are and couldn't diagnose me ADD. I still don't know how long it will take until I get into the day clinic. I am very convinced that I have ADD and I have huge problems living with that and I am not able to get the medication I deserve. It's driving me crazy and I don't know what to do.

This post is very long and I am very sorry about that. That's why I hope somebody will manage to read that :D

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