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#you've survived all of ur bad days so far
trkstrnd · 1 year
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hiya. wanted to pop in after i read ur rant post, i hope that's ok.
i agree with what you've said, and personally for me, after i knew That had happened, what had kept me sane was that deep down, i knew carlos would never do this, it is so out of left field, and this is just a shitty plot point the writers pulled out their asses in the s4 writers room (if they kept insisting that they thought of this since s1, they're going to have to try harder, and even then, i'm not sure i would believe them.) for the sake of drama. they know having a wedding planning arc throughout this season doesn't make for good drama, so what do they do? add in this shitty plot to impede their wedding planning.
what really kills me is, in the process of this, it might have undermined carlos' entire character arc in the previous seasons. it really hurts. i don't hate him at all, i understand completely where he's coming from. what i hate is carlos' as a character (in canon at least) suffers as a direct result of the showrunner and writers' shitty plotting and writing (i think this post makes a damn good point of what i'm trying to say,) and i hate how there's nothing we can do in the face of this. i feel helpless, and it hurts to see them go down this route for the sake of 'good drama', whatever the hell they think it means. clearly the writers and the fandom as a whole have wildly different understanding of things, as clearly shown in the interviews they've done so far.
which is why, i'm willing to wait it out and see how this unfolds, even though from the snippets i've read re: the upcoming eps, i think it will piss me off and probably the fandom as a whole. at the end of the day, as the eps start airing and we slowly move past it, i think we can easily choose to take away whatever we want to from this arc, and shove the rest down in a deep, deep drawer where i personally would never revisit again.
it just really sucks for now bc we only have one ep of information to work with, and 5-6 more days to wait until the next ep. i really do appreciate posts of ppl reminding us of how they've handled previous bad arcs (tk relapsing, the breakup, gwyn's death, etc., you get the drill) that have turned out to be phenomenal in hindsight, and i'm clinging to this until the eps start airing, and we get a more coherent picture. until then, we only have each other to discuss and perhaps rant to, to try to make sense of it all.
sorry for the rant, and thank u for reading this all the way through. sending u love in the meantime, and i know we'll get through this with time.
anon i mean this with everything in my body and soul and heart.
you summed it up perfectly.
we know it’s a bad plot, and we know we will move past it, and i really think the thing that hurts the most is it does really taint their entire story so far, knowing he had this all along, but i am hoping and praying that we get more, better plot in the next few episodes, and hopefully we can shove this down and forget it ever existed.
the disconnect between these writers and the fandom is insane, though. that’s what’s getting me. it’s like tim genuinely likes making us upset. remember when his twitter handle was cancelledagain? it’s like he doesn’t care about his own show, and the real drama for him is watching us all react and hate him for the plots he pulls out of his ass.
it’s so out of left field, and it fucks with everything we’ve known so far, and that’s why i see a bunch of people giving up on this plot and show, because it feels like we have been lied to the past few years as well.
even though we haven’t. it wasn’t the truth until he sat down and wrote it in. it’s fucking dumb, and surviving on 43 minutes a week with a plot like this is exhausting.
thank you so much. please never hesitate to dm me, anon. this ask was so very appreciated.
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fairycosmos · 1 year
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aw bab re: anon msg about england being a shitshow, it wasn't a complaint about ur posting at alllllll 😭😭 of course you can complain on your blog!! omg im sorry that wasn't clear 😭 was just sharing how im privately wishing you the best whenever you're being espec chatty about how depressed you are, and then after finding out the other day thay you live in england, realizing "christ that's bare morbs, i'd still be suicidal if i lived there too." 💀 like you can't be sincere or openly feel like shit in england, it's always ironic or it's seen as repulsive.... and then yes exactly like you said, the tory overlords compound the problem by keeping everyone destitute and miserable. so dw, weren't being down on you, just extending my sympathy for how much harder it is to survive in england. nowhere trying harder to kill the english than england! 🔪🔪 honestly, it's a miracle you've survived this long. anyway you don't have to reply to this public obvs, just a little clarification and reassurance for you personally 💕. love u bab take care xx
OMG honestly it was my bad i think i misread the tone or something but i just wanted to make sure i don't bother you and that i'd understand if i did!! honestly your message was such a relief to read like i feel like ppl do not understand how grim it can be to live in the north of england lmfao. its been on its last legs since thatcher with grey weather n grey people and fuck all saving it. no wonder we've got a drug and alcohol problem bc ppl only express themselves genuinely when they're shitfaced 😭 obligatory second disclaimer that i know im extremely privileged to be born in england and it is by far not the worst country in the world to live in. but i can't exactly say my mental health is thriving on this tiny dumb little island with tory cunts dragging us all further and further into hell with each passing year lmfao. thank you v much angel 💘 you feel like such a mate. also im just now reading the part where you said i don't have to reply to this but ykw let me show you some love in return mwah mwah adore you and pls take care of yourself!! Xx
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matchabot · 3 years
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i am a fierce advocate of more hel alts
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reachfolk · 3 years
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i was tagged for WIP friday by my pal @korvanjund so !! here's an excerpt from my fic that's coming out later this month. the title is "runs in the family" bc i got the idea for it while listening to this song by amanda palmer. i have a couple other promos for it on my currently writing tab if ur interested!
tagging: @heyitsaloy @vikinglumberjack @rakimaiirisa @bowandarrowandbrokenguitar @the-drunken-huntsman
i don't know who does or doesn't have a wip going on rn so no worries if you're taking a break from writing or just not interested in participating but if y'all wanna do this too, feel free and pls tag me <3 also if anyone else that i didn't tag wants to do this, still tag me lol, i just wanna read ur fics!!
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"Can I ask you something?"
"You just did," Alexandria said, "but you're welcome to ask more."
"Uhm. Well, how do I put this?" Lucien thought aloud to himself. "It's just that you've been dealing with this for quite some time now, correct?"
She nodded.
"Then why are you only now acting so... snappy?"
She frowned deeply at the word, and Lucien wondered if he'd only made the situation worse by asking. Or perhaps his phrasing was insensitive.
"I'm sorry," he scrambled. "I don't mean to upset you more. It's just.. Well, I worry and—"
"It's fine," she interrupted before he could talk himself in circles again. "It's just... not easy to talk about." As she finished cleaning the station, she picked up the pieces of nirnroot and thumbed at the leaves, too distracted to begin making the potion. "I know talking about your feelings is supposed to help, but sometimes... well, it makes them more real. If I keep it to myself, all that happens is a few bouts of panic and bad nights of sleep that I'm usually able to hide well enough, and then it's over. Well, until it happens again, I suppose, but that way it's my problem, no one else's. And I can forget about it and pretend it isn't happening, and it stays there—in my head. When other people know, and when other people are trying to help, it's... different. I don't mean to imply that I'm ungrateful for your support, but in a way, it makes this all harder. Maybe it'll be better in the long term, but I'm not there yet."
The two sat in the silence as those words sank into Lucien's mind. For a moment, he wondered if perhaps things would be better off if they'd left well enough alone. But he shook off the thought easily; things weren't well enough as they were. Alexandria had gotten far too used to struggling on her own, and he'd be damned if he'd let a friend go on like that.
"For what it's worth," he said, carefully considering his words, "it's a burden I'm more than willing to share."
She gave him a small, melancholy smile. "I hope one day I can appreciate that sentiment."
"You know I'll be patient."
"Of course," she said. "How else would you survive being friends with me?"
He laughed. "Can't argue with that."
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dameronology · 3 years
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hey!! i know u mentioned briefly before you have bpd and i saw in the tags of ur last post, the thing abt mania and depression all so quick and i just want to let you know that i'm thinking of u and i hope ur ok! it can be rough but remember that you've survived all of your bad days so far and we love u❤️
i appreciate this so much, thank u!! it can just be a LOT to deal with at once, especially when there’s no obvious cause and ur brain just goes ‘hey, we haven’t been violently depressed for a bit. we should do that!’ and it’s like c’MON mAN i have things to do. and i love u too, sm!! 
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