#youve made it a long way through a lot of shit

[lowkeyrobin]

I'm sorry for spamming you I'm just really excited--

Reader who also streams and just rants a lot while they play Stardew Valley?

Like mid milking a cow or something they pause the game and rant about how to kiss someone or smth?...

-🌕 anon! <3

AH OMG DONT WORRY ABOUT SPAMMING I LOVE YOU GUYS 🫶🫶🫶 but I absolutely love this LMAO I made this into a preference setup instead of a oneshot bc I didn't know exactly who you wanted and I was having difficulty finding a way to stretch it out that long anyways. idk much about stardew valley so bare with me, I rewatched Tommy's video of him playing w Molly to help me 💀💀

MCYT ; stardew valley rants

includes ; tommyinnit, ranboo, tubbo, freddie badlinu, niki nihachu, foolish gamers & quackity

warnings ; language

masterlist

TOMMYINNIT

you'll just be doing some tasks and be like "you know, I've never kissed anyone before. like, how does that work?"

meanwhile Tommy came over a little bit ago to hang out after stream and he just looks at you like 🤨😨

"youve never kissed anyone?? wait... we haven't kissed before? y/n/n, what?"

you shake your head no, confirming that you guys actually never kissed somehow, your relationship was kinda new in both of your defenses.

"we've only been dating like, 2 months, it's fine"

"ARE YOU TRYING TO BE A KISSING VIRGIN FOREVER????"

literally have your first kiss on stream bro

THE EDITS 🫶🙏 I CANT EVEN

the cutest shit ever

TUBBO

you were playing stardew valley for a little calm/lofi stream before you went out to film with tubbo & tommy for a little challenge video

you got a little quiet after a while and started ranting about drama at school

you had some class time with a bunch of popular girls and you didn't exactly fit in with them and drama was starting to arrise

for a solid hour you were ranting about it

tubbo had your stream on as bg noise as he was on the bus to meet up with you and tommy

when you meet up afterwards his first words to you are "did you actually just rant for an hour about school drama?"

you nod and awkwardly smile cause you didn't know he was watching

"you're interesting to say the least"

"you are too!"

RANBOO

you literally paused the whole game mid-farming to rant about some restaurant you and ranboo went to the past day

chat was exploding with "oooo they went on a date" and you were just like "guys it was good food, 10/10"

they get you to join a call with them and you guys talk about it together and your whole experience and how awesome the food was

not to mention the aesthetic of the restaurant was so well put together

you got back to your stream with a little story for your viewers

BADLINU

you started ranting about a movie/show you're fixated on at the moment

went through all the lore, all the characters, background info, etc

Freddie was watching and using tts to talk to you

he encouraged it dw

like he was holding a convo w you and everything it was the cutest shit ever

the edits.

also people clipped the whole like half hour long thing and posted it to YouTube like "y/u/n and badlinu talk about ___!"

you don't even remember it within a week but HE DOES

just one of those cute relationship moments he loves to think about

QUACKITY

you were playing stardew while he was playing gta and you were on a vc together

so obv it kinda sounded crazy 💀💀

"y/n I'm gonna drive my Honda Accord over there and kill all your cows!"

"I swear to God, quackity, don't even dare"

not really ranting but you were yelling threats at him and shit LMAO

NIHACHU

you guys were playing together 🫶

you were teaching her how to do everything and stuff

you eventually went on a tangent about things you do and don't like about the game

she was agreeing to your solid points and stuff

that turns into a rant about hair color and if she can color your hair for you LMAO

FOOLISH GAMERS

"Dude, how do people do that van life shit? I'd die doing that"

straight up hour and a half rant about how much you hate van life tik tokkers while playing stardew valley

he's in your chat like "Yes 100 percent" and adding onto your points LMAO

you both share a hate for van life mfs

#lowkeyrobin #mcyt preferences #mcyt x reader #tommyinnit x reader #mcyt oneshot #quackity x reader #ranboo x reader #badlinu x reader #nihachu x reader #foolish gamers x reader #tubbo x reader #gn reader #gender neutral reader

[habeascorpseus]

when i was in 7th grade, i had my first boyfriend. corny shit, i know. in many cases i dont think middle school relationships are enough to be classified as dating- but to this day, i do firmly believe our clumsy attempts at recreating the behavior of couples barely older than us did count. there was an emotional connection there. we had met in 6th grade and bonded over fnaf and minecraft 3 animations and all those other things that people still found found entertaining in 2014.

another notable thing in 7th grade that happened was that i had discovered i was transgender. well, i say "discovered", but it was honestly a long time coming. between my obsession with being seen as a "tomboy," my favorite song on the Kidz Bop 16 CD being Beyonce's "If I Were A Boy" (but sung in a way to make it so much less about cheating that it really became more of a call to action to imagine life as a man) to the point where i manually would loop it on my cd player for hours, and my growing love for mlm shipping— i had been a certified egg since i was in 4th grade. but despite being raised around and parented with about a dozen lesbian and gay couples since birth, i didnt know whether or not my parents were transphobic or not. so, after looking through a list of trans identities, i decided to just come out as genderfluid to my parents as sort of a compromise to the intimidating rigidity of being a trans boy. and even though it wasn't entirely fitting to what i'd ultimately figure out about myself, i grew pretty attached to it.

back to the middle school boyfriend.

at the end of 7th grade— like, a week before summer vacation— i publically came out as genderfluid. while my ex, who i will from now on refer to as Lou, had initially taken it well, albeit with some confusion, over the summer, a much different series of feelings began unfolding. unfortunately, as middle school boys are wont to do whenever one of them begins to act even slightly against the norm, his friends began asking him if he was gay. "if michael¹ is a boy sometimes, does that make you straight, or bisexual?" are some of the things i later heard them ask. and since i, phoneless till the age of 16, was unable to talk to him throughout this relentless picking apart of his own identity, by the time we got back to school, things were... different.

¹ Michael is the name i went by irl for 3 years from 7th-9th grade.

for one, there were the jokes. he was a big leafy fan (and i really did try even back then to steer him away from that but its hard when youre a cringe nerd middle schooler) and back then "attack helicopter" jokes were kind of all the rage, so he began jokingly identifying as a toaster. then he made a toaster mask out of a cardboard box, spray paint, and duct tape that he brought to school and began putting on whenever i walked by him in the hallway. and then, and possibly worst of all- a simple html website shared between his friends called "what gender is Michael today?" which lead to a random generator of options like, "boy", "girl", "toaster", and "attack helicopter." all of which is kind of a lot to deal with when youre a middle schooler with a pretty rough time of it already, and suddenly your main bully is the guy youve effectively been in a relationship with for 6 months.

and now you may be asking: hey habeas, why this sudden autobiographical deep dive into the most traumatic period of your life? what spawned this? how is this story relevant to literally anything going on? well, that's where the next part of the story comes in.

that year, our sex ed teacher was a 5ft transgender man named Mudd. Mudd had a buzzcut, and a higher pitched voice, and small hands, but beyond all of that, there was nothing visibly different about him than any other boy or man in the school. in fact, the boys thought he was cool as hell. they were fascinated by the idea of transformation of the self into an unrecognizable body. they never misgendered him, even after learning his status as a trans man. in fact, they were comfortable enough around him to be transphobic towards me. and Mudd, like a good trans mentor, told them to cut that shit out, and told me that regardless of how complicated and occasionally contradictory my identity was, it was still me, and i needed to stand up for who i was as a person.

a week later, Lou called me a tranny, and in response, i punched him in the nose and promptly stopped talking to him.

so again, why is this relevant? well, I'm not sure how terminally online (or specifically, on twitter) some of you are, but recently there's been a bit of a tiff in a certain fandom about bi lesbianism. specifically, how it, as an identity, is harmful to both the bisexual and lesbian communities. which, one: nooooo....??? bisexuality and lesbianism arent separate so much fraternal twins, and I've already talked too much to include further definitions to prove it. but my argument is really less about its validity as an identity and more about the principle of there being limits to acceptance, even within our community.

like with my experience, people were fine when they were faced with binary identities. a trans man like mudd is cool, or a trans girl like Jazz Jennings (we watched a lot of I Am Jazz in homeroom) could be seen as normal, and more so, inspiring. but when i came in with an identity people found to be contradictory or "too confusing," it resulted in backlash. the entire definition of being "queer" is to be abnormal to what general society finds acceptable, and even then, some things are "too weird" to be tolerated. even amongst "weird" people. which i find to be a pretty troubling trend amongst queer leftist young people who's only real experience with an "lgbt community" has been online. here, we prioritize and find catharsis in labels and categories to the point where the "queer community" has become instead split between identities- the gays, the lesbians, the bis, the transes, the aros and aces and the whatnot. in the real world, it doesnt matter what flavor of queer you are, nobody's going to stop and ask before they call you a groomer and then legislate your freedom away. which is why we, as an online queer community, have to get rid of the notion that some identities are "too contradictory" or "dont exist" enough to be worth giving support and love.

im saying all this here... because, well, one: nobody wants to read a 40+ tweet thread about my personal brush with irl homophobia and how that radicalized me against community separation in general, and two: i am deeply afraid of 14 year olds on twitter with too much time on their hands. but also im saying this because it was infuriating yesterday to watch my entire twitter feed suddenly turn into a puritanical campaign against the very concept of someones identity and have the ability to say nothing. it disgusted me how quickly we turn against our own simply because the way they are is confusing to our tiny fucking peanut brains. and i know none of those people who went on that tirade will read this, but i felt like it needed to be said anyways.

don't let society's impulse to ostracize the confusing and strange win out over human decency. don't do conservatives' strategy to divide and conquer us for them. a person's identity not being comprehensible to you is not inherently an attack on who you, yourself, are. you are your identity and you should stand up for it, and you should stand up for others' identities too. punch your bullies in the nose.

long live the confusing, the contradictory, and most importantly, the queer.

#habeas speaks #discourse #oh no hes on a soapbox again guys look out #hey sqlumi if you see this ever i hope you know that i think youre cool as hell for giving a middle finger to the entire operation #sorry so few people jumped to your defense and that you had to delete your twitter ik how hard it is to build a following there #aaaaanyways #pinning this for a day or two just bc

[eisukevint]

My You

Yosuke Sagara | Kings of Paradise

a/n: HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY @hellocupie its yosuke’s wife’s day fr i love you so fucking omg thank you for being my favourite proof reader, listening to my rants 24/7, keeping up with my shit show i love you <3 this was done last minute im sorry its not the best but this was the least i could do for everything youve done for me! have the best time of ur life!!!

…

Impulse shopping is a sport and if buying the first thing that reminds Yosuke of his wife whenever he sets his eyes on something impulse shopping, then Yosuke is a champion. There was no other way to justify the 300 squishmallows and plushies he bought simply because he thought that they looked like his adorable wife.

Yosuke, with the worker’s from the shop he practically emptied, could barely see what’s in front of them due to the gigantic pile of plushies in their arms as they manoeuvred through the mall to the parking lot. This was all part of Yosuke’s grand scheme for his wife’s perfect birthday.

He quickly rushed back into the mall after putting the other stuff in his car, to the jewellery store that had caught his eye when he was leaving. He was surfing through the various chains and bracelets but nothing appealed to him. He was just about to leave the store when his eyes landed on a pair of bracelets. It was a couple’s set and Yosuke was more or less convinced that this was meant for him and (Y/N). He quickly got it packed in their nicest packaging, exited the mall and sped away to complete the last of his preparations.

…

It was 10:00 am by the time Yosuke had gotten out of bed and proceeded to wake (Y/N) up too. He kissed her on the lips wishing her a happy birthday and to say he was overflowing with joy when he saw her smile would be an understatement. But this was just the beginning of his plans so he urged (Y/N) out of the bed and into the bathroom.

The minute she got out of the bath, Yosuke put a blindfold on (Y/N)’s eyes and led to her to the unused guest room in their home. When he undid the blindfold from her eyes and she took a good look at the room, (Y/N) started at at the humongous amount of plushies strewn all across the room. They were all of different sizes and colours, each dissimilar from the other. She turned her head towards Yosuke, jaw slack and eyes widened. This was a dream come true.

“Oh i’m not done yet.” Yosuke smirked and whisked her away out to the entrance.

They eventually set off in his car. (Y/N) kept asking him where they were going but Yosuke kept shushing her. Their playful banter kept the atmosphere lively and the two hours passed by quickly. They eventually reached the outskirts of the city to a cottage with a stream in view. The place looked warm and cozy, a serene place away from the prying eyes of the world.

Yosuke led (Y/N) in and she gaped at the skillfully assembled party decorations. The venue looked like it was for a massive party but it really was just the two of them and they wouldn’t have preferred it any other way.

“This is amazing, Yosuke. Thank you so much!’” (Y/N) turned towards Yosuke as he grabbed her hand and led her inside.

“You haven’t seen the best part yet.” He flashed a smile, settled her on the sofa and made his way to the kitchen. The sounds of kitchen utensils being put to work made it clear that he was cooking for them and (Y/N)’s heart overflowed with love for the man and the efforts he put into making her day better.

Fifteen minutes later, he emerged from the kitchen and once again, grabbed her hand and led her to the dining table.

The aroma of the assortment of side dishes and the steak enticed a grumble from their stomachs and (Y/N) had to ask him if he did all of this himself, to which he nodded. Her eyes visibly brightened when she tasted Yosuke’s cooking again and he melted at the sight. They relished in the pleasant atmosphere and appetising food and before long, the sky had turned orange.

“So, how would you rate my cooking this time?” Yosuke asked with bated breath, (Y/N) in his arms as they got comfortable on the couch.

“An 87/100?” (Y/N) grinned at Yosuke as he feigned mock offense.

“87?! But I put in so much love!” He huffed and buried his face in her hair causing (Y/N) to laugh heartily.

“You got a 70 last time! Fine, i’ll give you five extra points for that.” (Y/N) exclaimed and Yosuke instantly perked up, hugging her a little tighter.

“Did you practice?” (Y/N) asked and Yosuke hummed in response.

“I’ve been practicing to get the steak perfect for over two weeks now.” He replied. He was about to give her a quick kiss and remembered the gift he had gotten her so he quickly detangled their legs and rushed to the kitchen a second time leaving a confused (Y/N) behind.

Yosuke, with a party hat on his head and a cake in his hand, came out of the kitchen singing the birthday song. (Y/N) was beaming and Yosuke could not restrain himself from grabbing her face and kissing her adorable face right there. The cake was pink and had little red hearts on it. It was lovely, just like his wife.

(Y/N) cut the cake while they blew the candles out together. She could not ask for a more perfect day when Yosuke took the gift bag off his wrist and handed it to (Y/N), urging her to open it.

(Y/N) opened the velvet box and gazed at a pair of bracelets in absolute awe. They were platinum bracelets, with a star on one piece and a moon on the other. Yosuke took the star bracelet out of its box and put it on (Y/N)’s wrist. The star glimmered under the dim light of the living room. She was snapped out of her trance when Yosuke spoke up.

“They say the moon feels lonely without its stars.” He grabbed the moon bracelet and put it on his own wrist.

“A night sky is complete when the moon is surrounded by the stars.” He clasped her hands into his own ans gazed in her eyes. (Y/N) could see an emotion in Yosuke’s she couldn’t put a word on. This seriousness seemed out of character for Yosuke and she couldn’t help but tear up.

“You’re the radiant star that makes my starry sky complete, (Y/N). When you’re not around me, I feel lonely. The sense of wholeness when we’re together, when we’re one, is so overwhelmingly euphoric I fell in love with you all over again. Thank you for staying with me against all odds. Thank you for being born. Thank you, for brightening up my days and nights.” Tears were flowing down (Y/N)’s face at this point and Yosuke reached up to wipe them off.

“I love you, (Y/N). You complete me.” A dazzling smile erupted on his face as (Y/N) embraced him, whispering sweet words of adoration and affection for the man.

With their hearts content and bodies united, (Y/N) and Yosuke spent the after hours of her birthday tangled up with each other. They basked in each other’s presence, affirming their love once again.

#CUPIE DAY #i love you hehe #yosuke’s wife #kings of paradise #kop yosuke #l365 #otome #voltage inc #love 365 find your story

[ot3]

hey, any tips for staying in love with a series youre making? youve been working on quantum merit for 2 years now i think? any time i get an idea i just have it in the back of my mind that in a couple weeks im going to lose interest, let alone actually go through and start working on it. finishing soemthing is a distant dream. your art is amazing and a huge inspiration for me (is creativity infectious? bc thats how i feel whenever i read qm) so i was hoping maybe you had some insight. thanks <3

over two and a half years at this point actually! crazy! lacking the ability to follow through is a problem i've long had in life. i started drawing QM to try and curtail this. the trick isn't actually to stay in love with a series you're making, the trick is to learn to make things when you don't necessarily love it.

for me, the entire point of doing something operating on this level of self indulgence and experimental technique was to enable myself to churn stuff out even when i think everything i am doing is absolute shit, which is extremely extremely frequently. for long-haul projects you have to be willing and able to work on them even when you think all of your ideas are bad and all of your work is bad and not only is this the worst thing you have ever made, it is the worst thing anyone has ever made. the way i try and get through working on stuff when this is how i feel is that i remind myself i am not special in any way shape or form. everyone else in human history has had to make a lot of bad stuff before they get the privilege of making good stuff. this is allowed to be mine.

another thing that really helps is making sure that the process can be enjoyable even without good results. sometimes even when i hate everything i'm doing in terms of Substance, the act of just getting to draw something feels satisfying enough that i can make myself do it. this goes for all art, i think, not just long projects. if the Process is something you force yourself to sit through waiting for the end reward of a finished product, you're probably never going to be a functional artist. if you don't love Making art and you only love Finishing art you'll quickly find you don't make or finish much of anything.

additionally, i think an important part with long hauls like this is to never, ever look at the finish line. if i keep drawing the amount of stuff i have planned at the rate i have been drawing it, i will be at this for several more years minimum. thats an entirely overwhelming and terrifying thing to think about, and dwelling on it makes me freeze up and want to quit while i'm ahead. so i try not to ever think about actually finishing it. i have no idea if ill finish it i dont even have the slightest fucking clue what my life would even look like in the five years this could take to finish because it already looks nothing like it looked like three years ago. so instead focus on progress. if you think about finishing something you'll never do anything, if you think about just making a little bit of progress you can look back and suddenly you have over 100 full color pages. one foot in front of the other

i would also feel completely insincere if i did not mention how much all of the kind words people have had for my comic have helped me in finding the motivation to continue! seriously, it means so much to me that people like it. external motivation is not the be-all end-all of anything, but i suggest finding at least one friend who is willing to be your hype man and make them talk you out of being insane when you hate everything youre working on. when i reach the point where i literally like can't even tell what the pages im working on look like anymore i send them to my friends and make them all tell me that these are very normal looking drawings.

best of luck with your future endeavors anon i hope any of this is helpful! its an honor to be considered inspiring in any way

#Qm

[follivora]

same here, dont know which ones youve answered but choose one that interests you for me ✨

one thing about me is that I’m absolutely not able to choose one so i used the random generator thingy and:

what are 3 things that you’d say shaped you into who you are?

- definitely definitely meeting @wednesdayday when i was 16, my entire life trajectory changed that day (or maybe it didn’t change, maybe it was always supposed to be this way, i just kinda started it that day)… it would be a long story but i am not kidding when i say that Luci and our relationship has shaped me into the person i am now the most

- okay this one is not as positive but absolutely not really having real friends for most of my life has made me a lot into who i am, all my trust issues, being kinda closed off and not letting people in etc… it’s like the one part i really don’t like about me but it’s hard to change

- this is another depressing one but with a happy twist i promise - not really seeing adult people loving each other when i was a kid and all of the shit that i went through in my teens has made me appreciate and love love and vow to myself that i will never intentionally hurt someone who’s close to me and i will always make sure that my kids are safe and loved and seen, i don’t think i would be as determined and hard working in that sense if i didn’t see how things can be bad

#thank you zoreeeeen❤️❤️❤️

[todayisawthewhxlewxrld]

Someone anyone pls. My boyfriend has unfortunately had his phone broken so I haven't been talking with him, and I feel so lonely 😞 Also ALL OF MY FRIENDS LIVES ARE CRUMBLING APART?? My friend just broke up with her boyfriend, because of her mental health, but I suspect that it might be because of the boy she's been flirting with on the side. My other friends sibling is breaking up with their douche of a man, thank goodness. Two OTHER friends, who are literally bestfriend and have been for years, have been fighting eith eachother amd separating from our little group?? Also my dads been talking about death and I find myself looking at baby pictures of me and him with my grandma and great grandma, crying about thinkinf that I'm gonna be the only one alive in that picture some day. It also dawned on me that he's like the only person that I KNOW I'll have until we perish. We were watching mamma mia, and the whole time I kept thinking that I wished my mom loved me like Donna loved her daughter, and mentioned how I'd like to move into a little island or something. I guess my dad saw me holding back tears during the "slipping through my fingers" song, because he told me we could move to Alaska just he and I. (That's his dream place) PLEASE IM SOBBING THINKING ABT THE FACT HES NEVER BEEN.

Anyways, it made me think of my goal in life, and its to someday bring my dad to Alaska with me. Regardless if hes with me, just inside an urn. (I'm being so dead serious, I love my dad even if I went through some shit for most of my childhood. He's like the only person in my life who has stepped up, and made an actual change in his behavior for MY sake. It's admirable, and I've always been my fathers daughter. I'm just more proud to say it now after everything hes been through, and the changes hes gone through for my well being.)

I apologize about the rant, I fear that I've been holding that within me for so long. My friends don't really care about my personal life, and sometimes I'm glad that I keep it that way. ANYWAYS.

I realize that I haven't been in your asks, but I did follow through with that strike. Stayed off my phone unless it was to check about the updates for Palestine, and reposting. Didn't buy groceries, I even stopped going to classes for the time being. I'm sad to know that it's not getting any better, and I'm ashamed to say that my little town has very little businesses that DON'T support Israel. So I can't really avoid buying things from those places :(

Been keeping up with your writing though, for the most part. I'm very sad that it will come to an end, but I'm excited to see the ending. I'm ALSO EXCITED FOR INUMAKI 😻😻😻😻😻

Anyways, gonna go shower because I feel like a dirty corndog that was dropped at a fair. Wish me luck that I don't run out of warmish water, I always seem to do so because my hair is so hard to manage and I have like 10 different products that I have to put in it. (I'm being dramatic, I usually sit and let it do it's thing while I sing the weekend and deftones. 😞)

GOODNIGHT STAY WARM!!!!

Xoxo 👽

don’t wanna be mean but i’m glad ur bf broke his phone 😊 BUT JESUS WHY R ALL UR FRIENDS LIVES SIMULTANEOUSLY IN SHAMBLES ??? LIKE WHAT IS GOING ON HERE ???😭😭 that’s crazy… hopefully the two that have been friends for years figure their stuff out…

mamma mia will get u… it always will… (i’ve never seen it) BUT HE SAID U COULD MOVE TO ALASKA JUST U N HIM STOP IM SOBBING OH MY GOD??? that sounds like a very good life goal bae!! i’m sure he’d love that whether he’s actually with u or in an urn like u said!! and i’m super glad you have him and that he stepped out to make a change in himself for u i love that for u bae :( DONT APOLOGIZE FOR THE RANT ITS OKAY I DONT MIND !!

u haven’t but it’s okay!! i know you’ll pop up eventually LMFAO and yay for following through with the strike!! i really hope a lot of other people did as well.

YAY SO GLAD YOUVE BEEN KEEPING UP WITH MY WRITING N ARE EXCITED BAE🤞🤞🤞

A DIRTY CORNDOG THAT WAS DROPPED AT A FAIR HELEOEMEME LMFOAOA ENJOY UR SHOWER!! (whats ur favorite the weekend and deftones song…)

#axel answers ☆⋆｡𖦹°‧★ #axel answers// 👽

[maschotch]

hello I've been an on-and-off CM enjoyer(?) for a decade, with Hotch being my main area of interest… I just spent literal hours going through your blog lol. tbh it was exactly the kind of CM content I desperately wanted but had trouble finding initially (jfc the sea of x reader I had to wade through) anyway I stopped watching full eps at around S5, but I'm aware of how things go for Hotch and I'm v bitter about the missed opportunities. maybe a popular opinion in the fandom, but I've always hated how the Foyet attack was glossed over for example - my disbelief when I first watched 5x02 and Hotch just... shows up to work?? why'd they bother with such a major injury if its consequences were limited to one (1) episode years later, and even then the mental trauma was 99% ignored. no mention of meds/painkillers/recovery? nothing about "your scars are gonna look just the same"?? BUT that almost pales in comparison to all the other Hotchner things you got me thinking about, like his subtle aversion to fire or autistic traits or other facets of his character/relationships that are soooo tantalizingly hinted at but not expanded upon. I don't know the whole show that well so idk how Hotch fared compared to other characters but it felt like we got crumbs, especially since he was there for 11 goddamn seasons sorry this is so long but I've never talked CM to anyone before and you've made me love Hotch even more as a character, and now I'll have to further stew in my despair over him getting zero closure

i have similar issues with the show and fandom. the show looooves to traumatize its characters and then pretend it didnt even happen the second the arc is over. i understand its the nature of an episodic show like this (and i love that style for this show! i do!) but they could MENTION how hotch has scars (especially in season 10 when theyre all comparing scars on the plane) or how he needs medication (considering thats the only reason why they found foyet in the first place). foyet was the first big arc, so i understand why they needed to get on with it and bring hotch back to work by 5x02, but i wish they’d had an extra episode in between dealing with the team’s emotions about their leader being attacked (the way we kinda see them reeling from haley’s death and the potential of hotch not returning in 5x11 (or whatever the next ep after 100 is)).

no matter who your favorite cm character is, anyone can have the same complaint of them not following through about what undergoing these kind of traumatic events would mean for the characters. it’s definitely a sore point with criminal minds. especially because the only time they do it is when they want a character to leave (like gideon, blake, and kate). it fucking sucks bc there’s so much potential

and that’s where i feel like the fandom lets me down too. there’s not a lot of talk about it—mostly it’s just self inserts and shipping. there’s hardly any good character analysis out there, but that’s why i started this blog in the first place: if it doesn’t exist, make it yourself! (i would encourage you to do the same if you still feel this way. i talk shit ab the fandom all day but i still get so much positivity despite that from people who value the characters just as much but express it differently)

sorry for getting to this ask so late! maybe you’ll come across it eventually. if you do, let me know your other thoughts on the show/fandom! if youve seen more, if youve interacted more, or if you just have more to say!

#asks #cm crit

[aguineapigcouldntdothis]

this is so long please read if it interests you and skip if it doesnt i genuinely just couldnt stop thinking of things to add.

i used to wonder why antisemites would constantly make up criticisms about zionism that are either blatantly false or a misunderstanding of facts. especially when jewish antizionists have consistently been able to find real criticisms of zionism and analyze them based on jewish history and personal experience (tbh i dont consider any goyim to be antizionist or zionist but that's not the point). it's definitely not a problem of "valid criticisms of zionism dont exist". even when i dont agree with jewish antizionists i usually understand how they got to their conclusion and i find it fully respectable. also when i say factual/valid criticisms i dont just mean shit i personally agree with. im a zionist with plenty of criticisms about the movement (yeah I know it's ironic). all i mean by that is a criticism of zionism that is backed up by facts.

imo antisemites either explicitly or implicitly know that if they look up factual criticisms of zionism they'll also have to learn about the positive stuff. it's all intertwined. to a lot of jewish people this isnt that big of a deal. we're raised to ask questions and we're taught how to formulate a good argument from a young age. its pretty normal for us to critique things that we generally support or find postives in things we generally critique. however, goyim are much less likely to be raised this way. obviously some are but the dichotomy of good and bad is much more prevalent in goyische culture than jewish. of course we know some shit is good and other shit is bad, we're not fuckin idiots, but nuance is integral to us.

i dont know what it feels like to be raised in a culture with a strong difference between good and bad. it doesnt make sense to me at all. however id assume that that upbringing combined with social media, which favors quick, shocking information, would result in something like goyim constantly glazing over factual critcisms of zionism and just making shit up. the made up shit is simultaneously more gut-wrenching and easier to digest due to its simplicity. it's really fucking hard to accept that zionism is so complex if youve been taught that things are always just good or bad. and even harder if your activism began and ended with social media instead of a medium that favors long-form content.

you cannot research zionism without being whacked in the face with nuance. its the reason i research zionist history more than zionist theory because that shit is so confusing sometimes (said with love). learning about zionism isn't an easy task at all. ive been doing it seriously for around 5 years and casually since i was a small child and i still learn shit every day. if i studied zionism for hours every day id probably still have something to learn when i die.

antisemites do not like being called antisemites, so they try to learn things about jewish history and then fail. they dont actually care about the information they just want to seem like they know something. they are not doing this for the benefit of jewish people. they wont actually spread true jewish history or recommend jewish creators that could share correct information. they'll instead say bare minimum shit that makes themselves feel proud for saying the word "jewish" and their followers are making death threats towards zionists.

ive seen some goyim say some factual things about zionism and stay in their lane while doing so, both things i rlly appreciate. and time and time again they're met with antisemitic conspiracies, death threats, doxxing, etc. not as much as jewish people are but still a lot. most people are not ready and may never be ready to support jews through the good and the bad.

this ties into the idea of the "innocent" victim. the one who is pure and kind, who never said a bad word about anyone and saved baby mice from fires. this idea of the innocent victim exists in war, abuse, crime, literally anywhere where someone's human rights are violated. however even if someone is innocent in a particular situation most people are not 100% good and innocent all the time. there's a few exceptions like babies (although i do know some babies that are fucking assholes) but in general people are a mix of good and bad.

jewish people do not shy away from being both good and bad. we embrace it with open arms and even though we try to improve our bad traits we dont fear them. "the only good jew is a dead jew" is fitting because when someone is dead you can make so much up. you can pretend they were incapable of every doing anything even remotely bad. you can say the poor jew who died was your biggest inspiration even though you scoffed at them every time they opened their mouth.

and this is why antisemites hate zionism so much and love making up false critcisms. because it throws concepts like black and white morality, the desire to consume information quickly, and the innocent victim into the fucking mud. then it punches it and steps on it and kicks it. anything and anyone that favors simple information over complicated information, not matter how incorrect, is going to have a hard time discussing zionism. people want to know things, yet sometimes they dont wanna actually put in the work to learn the correct information from good sources because that's hard work and antisemites do not want to put in hard work regarding jewish history.

if you believe im gonna solve antisemitism singlehandedly then who the fuck do you think i am. this isnt going away anytime soon. however you can do shit to help. study zionism on your own time and develop your own opinions on it. i highly recommend focusing on 1-3 specific topics trust me it's really confusing otherwise. teach others about it when you feel safe to do so. share resources with them and encourage them to do their own research. maybe point them to a specific aspect that relates to an interest they already have, and if you're mentally able to handle it call out antisemitic misinformation. a lot of people will not listen but there will always be at least one person who just needs a little bit of help starting.

anyway i may do actual research on this in the future because observations and i might turn it into a proper essay. I'll write one version where i say fuck and another where I don't.

#jumblr #jewish #holy shit there's even antisemitic shit when i try to tag zionism #yet again my point is proven

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#5

Rule: tag 9 people you want to know better

Thanks for the tag @sarcasm-vending-machine 😘

(I started a new post because that one was getting a bit long)

Favourite piece of clothing you own? Right now it's my blue wool 'hippy' trousers, they are SO comfortable. I've only had them for about a month but I've worn them almost every day.

Your comfort food? Probably pizza. I go on and off different types of food all the time but pizza is a pretty consistent like

Favourite time of the year? Late spring and summer. I get cold very easily, my hands and feet are like ice most days so I need warm weather to be comfortable

Favourite song? This is a mean question how am I supposed to answer this??? (I'll give you jólanótt by SKÁLD and shit boat (no fans) by alestorm, two very different songs which I've been listening to a lot lately)

Do you collect something? Not really, I'm just a clutter bitch

Favourite drink? Coca cola. Yes yes I know it's full of sugar and terribly bad for you but I love it

Favourite fanfiction? Again how am I supposed to answer this??? I dont think I could even give you a top ten theres just too many that I've loved over the years

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Sometimes I just think about how ichigo and grimmjow both have/had five friends/companions who they fought/travelled together with but ichigo's friends vowed to grow stronger so they could fight along side him as equals where as grimmjow's fraccion gave up the possibility of growing stronger in order to support his growth

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So, about max and her monologue about billy, it's not that I dont believe max could feel such a way or that it doesnt make sense (honestly I would be a liar if I said I haven't also wished my shitty brother dead before) but it also feels a little off to me considering how their relationship was presented in s3.

At first I thought maybe i had misinterpreted it, maybe max and billy really did hate each other right up until the moment of his death. But then i remembered this interview with sadie sink from 2019 where she spoke about max and billy going into s3

I didnt expect them to be best friends or even particulary close with each other (and I had a strong feeling billy was gonna die anyway) but I remember feeling hopeful when I read this interview, hopeful that we'd at least get to see a different side to their relationship, and I was massively disappointed when s3 barely focused on them at all.

But, the small glimpses that we did see proved that they were in a different place than they had been in s2

When max talked to el about billy she spoke in a lighthearted manner, she wasnt resentful, she made jokes, she talked about him like he was just her annoying gross older brother who liked to walk around without a shirt on and bring girls home to make 'happy screams'

And then, of course, theres the sauna test. She was visibly distressed upon seeing Billy in that state. She was in pain. She started crying. She said, "it's okay... i believe you... we're going to figure this out together okay" like she actually wanted to help him, save him...

And thats why it feels weird to me. Not because feelings are complicated and that a few peaceful months between them dont erase everything he put her through, but because she apparently went from we'll figure this out together to I dont know if he deserved to be saved in the space of three days.

And when I say it feels weird, I think what I mean is ffs a little consistency would be nice

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[piercedpressure]

hmmmm Myrna for the oc thing. Or. The Butcher ♥️

ill do both!!! under read more cause it gets long :'D

Full Name: Myrna the Death-Touched Gender and Sexuality: Butch trans woman + Lesbian Pronouns: She/it Ethnicity: Filipino Birthplace and Birthdate: Unknown, but was found on an island called The Spine Guilty Pleasures: i've got no idea honestly Phobias: Mirrors, the dark, abandonment What They Would Be Famous For: in canon, she's technically the last and only god of death What They Would Get Arrested For: she's also a god of death with a bounty for her head OC You Ship Them With: she has a brief romance with a girl named Erin <3 OC Most Likely To Murder Them: her older sister Argo lol Favorite Movie/Book Genre: it would be fantasy probably! Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: she wouldn't wanna touch tragedy tbh Talents and/or Powers: she has immortality! but it hurts so not really a good thing. shes also great at fighting and climbing. it doesn't know the full extent of her god powers yet and would rather keep it that way honestly Why Someone Might Love Them: she tries her best to be a kind and is very open-minded. does what she can to help people Why Someone Might Hate Them: she could end up enabling someone's worst traits when she tries to be supportive... starts out as kind of an avoidant type :") How They Change: after a long, long time of internal conflict, it lets herself get angry and comes to a place where she recognizes that she can stop a cycle. she lets herself be loved after having been convinced she's meant to be hated for a long time! Why You Love Them: its kind of hard to explain but shes my first oc, so her growth as a character is intertwined with how ive grown as a person. she struggles with the same things i do, and writing her has always been me being honest with myself and the world. her story is something deeply personal to me, and i hope to show it one day so that others who struggle with the same stuff can have a story i needed when i was a kid :") and also shes just fucking kickass

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Full Name: Marcelo Castillo [REDACTED] Gender and Sexuality: Genderfluid Butch + Lesbian Pronouns: He/she Ethnicity: Filipino Birthplace and Birthdate: fantasy philippines LOL she's probably a taurus or pisces so? Guilty Pleasures: i've got no idea. maybe [REDACTED] Phobias: VERY scared of huge parts of bright white What They Would Be Famous For: she's a mortician and also a hitman so depends on where you hear him from! What They Would Get Arrested For: hes a hitman, OC You Ship Them With: CHERIE FULTON!!!!!!! (FRIENDS PC) and also npcs named issan and plutus. butcherie is gonna be canon eventually but im slowly convincing my dm about the rest OC Most Likely To Murder Them: smiles.... some of the other players follow me so i wont say hehe Favorite Movie/Book Genre: HUGE fan of murder mysteries. agatha christie is her bestie Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: he gets secondhand embarrassment reading romance novels Talents and/or Powers: he's genuinely well-educated about mortuary science and is also ridiculously strong. he's shit at fighting though LOLLLL she's yet to find out that she can make all kinds of shit Why Someone Might Love Them: her problems have problems. a huge nerdy weirdo. but she's also a genuinely nice person, has gone to different lengths to do acts of kindness for people he doesn't know well Why Someone Might Hate Them: his stats are so frustrating in a world where combat is inevitable LMAOOOO! SHE'S A NERD!!!! he has yet to figure out he can make pipe bombs so until then she's kinda just eye candy How They Change: a descent into a path of revenge and anger while simultaneously slowly gaining agency through the power of love (plus or minus a lot of murders) Why You Love Them: sometimes a guy is just beyond fucked up and you cant help but be at awe at what youve made. hes also just really fun to write

#the contrast between these two are so fucking funny bc they have themes all around death #immortal weirdgirl god vs [REDACTED] weirdgirl mortician FIGHT #also laughing at how for myrna its that she means so much to me while with butch its 'i have to dissect his brain' #also hi dipper!!!!!!!!! so happy to see u around #boyheros

[hikari-ni-naritai]

I also did Zadnor actually! Which is why I was sad about the 4th, cause by the end of Dalriada most all of them are dead. Maybe not Pagaga and Daguza? I did like them but yeah.. BUT for Misija I like the idea of the resistance not being just "the good guys" but the problem is the betrayal of her ancestor happened a very long time ago. The new blades are that in name only, to inspire the bozjans.. So I liked the idea of someone retaliating against a system that failed them, even if through immoral means, a lot of what she does is so sadistically evil. Youve got this group of 3 assholes she kills by tempering, which is fucked up but you get it. But then she also takes pleasure in killing people like the PC or Marsak (the nice secondhand man haha). Its all fine and reminds me of Yotsuyu in some ways, but the fact the game then wants you to feel responsible somehow was really lame. The story outside of misija was pretty cool in Zadnor but Southern Front was wack. Why introduce 6 characters just to immediately kill them off in Delubrum. It just missed the msrk in ways SB didnt, while succeding where i failed in some regard, to me. Also dalriada's electric floors are awful!! youd need 4 people to disable them and then youd only have 3 left for the halls? ew! And yah delubrum was ass, the worst psrt funnily enough was the Queens Guard. Our dps was shit so we faild the first try to he enrage, then we tried again and barely made it cause I used thr LB... bleh! This turned out long sorry lol

Ah apologies for misunderstanding! Also delubrum is actually really fun if you have a group that's got lost actions lol.

I took some time to look up who in the 4th actually survives and pagaga and daguza do survive, as well as lyon, llofii, sicinius (albeit imprisoned after being turned in by lyon) and lovro, who gets cured of his tempering. Clarricie also ostensibly survives, though it's not specified. Frankly lyon and daguza are the only ones who had the charisma to really earn my affection in any way so that's enough for me. Clarricie was fun too I guess she was kind of fucking nutso.

Anyway I'm not gonna sit here and say misija's storyline is a masterpiece. But I will say that I'm far more swayed by generational trauma and oppression than I am by 6 bara furries. Making me give a shit about male hrothgars is an uphill battle that square Enix has yet to win. Sorry to any furries or man likers who follow me 😔

[enchantechante]

Hey Tae and hey last anon! This gonna be long :

Anon...THOSE ARE NOT YOUR PEOPLE!!!PERIODT!!!

Sis,when I was reading your message,I saw soooo much of my OLD self in it(years 2012-2021 to be exact).I WAS that woman who was ALWAYS there for EVERYONE no matter how I was treated in return.I would ALWAYS come up with excuses when it came to the treatment of being treated as if I WASN'T important in other people's lives. I would be like...oh,well MAYBE they are busy and have a lot going on? Because that's life and all of us go through shit even if it's not mentioned. But man,listen! I was really playing BOO BOO THE FOOL! Two of my EX bestfriends got away with soooo much because I knew they really were going through so I let things slide then they started skating on a bih! Lol. I heard the same excuses... I got a lot going on,I forgot to call you back man you know my memory bad,I thought you probably didn't want to talk,I know you hate talking on the phone,I was depressed,you could've called me,I lost your number etc.

Like,say what? I was there for both of them when I barely had and was struggling to get on my feet!Even when one of them was locked up(he was the most ungrateful and in the end thought he was better than me, picture that,lol) and the others mom passed/he was jobless and without a home,I WAS THERE TEN TOES DOWN because that's what real friends do!

I provided money,years worth of time, support and inspiring them daily to not lose their shit!I tried to get my guys to eat better etc.

While I was working two sometimes three jobs six days a week,mom battling cancer,uncle ill, catching cabs to and from because my car broke down, depressed for real, struggling with being bipolar,hair coming out ,skin breaking out etc.

Meanwhile,they would NEVER text or call me to check and see how I was,my mom,NOT NOTHING!

I felt worthless and was considering suicide!I had no one to turn to other than talking to God and my sweet mama.

I woke up one morning and said fuck it!Fuck my so called friends and fuck my mindset!I told myself it was time to make a change in EVERY part of my life and I did!

I deleted their numbers and blocked them on social media including a couple others.I focused on myself for seven months.I lost weight(85 lbs),got my money up, credit right,fell in love with ME and met amazing people.I even got started with real estate.When I think about that I laugh.WHY?Because one of my EX friends is the one who made it seem like I wouldn't make it in real estate because he knew more than me and at the time,had more connections than I did.GUESS WE'LL NEVER KNOW BECAUSE I'M JUST GETTING STARTED AND ABOUT TO PURCHASE LAND! 😩🤭😂

It's crazy how life will turn around in a positive way once you release what's not meant for you and also FOCUS ON YOU!

What's also even more crazy is more than likely you will cross paths with those SAME people who treated you like shit and took you for granted once you really get your life together!

And when that happens,still SAY FUCK EM!Ain't no spinning the block on a REAL good person who IS genuine and did EVERYTHING out of love and NEVER counted them favors!You'll see what I mean baby girl!Release everyone who makes it seem as if you're too hard to love or show up for!Nothing is wrong with you!I wish you the best with EVERYTHING!and once again,FUCK ANYBODY WHO DON'T POUR INTO YOU LIKE YOU DO THEM. Leave them where they had you fucked up at boo! PERIDOT!!! 😉

me, cackling through the mssg 😂:

yall are hilarious!

And thank you for this thoughtful response.

Youve caught on to something really empowering & often hard to see at times like this.

Our love and care are powerful.

Pouring out for ppl who only take (regardless of the reason) will drain you. Not just during those interactions, but draining you of energy that could make a real difference in your own life.

Creating boundaries w ppl, like blocking them on social media, closes that drain.

We decide how long we suffer w bad friends. We need our own friendship deeply, before anyone else.

i love yall sm

#anon #friendship goals #self love #advice #acceptance #boundaries

[rippeds0cks]

5/27/2023

Im falling apart at the seams physically. My body cant keep up with all the pressure, stress, and work im putting it through. Its to the point where im taking ludicrous amounts of meds to keep it together. My body hurts so fucking bad from my muscles to my tendons to my bones im in pain all day. If i lose focus on whatever motor function im doing (using stairs, walking, running, fighting) i just collapse. Ive been dropping things cause the nerve damage in my hands is progressively getting worse. I deserve it though not only for being a piece of shit and failing those around me but just for my existence. My pops always told me growing up that “guys like us arent supposed to do well or live long” and i guess he was right cause im barely keeping myself in one piece. It’s ok tho cause im living for absolutely nothing right now. If i drop dead a couple people here n there will be sad but theyll soon forget and move on. I dont contribute anything to anyones life so its not like anything crumbles in my absence. Anyways every little detail ive ever known of my ex flooded back into my mind today in the gym and it left me fighting back tears and choking up while working out. Everything from how her old fursona back when she was a furry was a dutch angel dragon, how beautiful she looked everytime i saw her and her face lit up, the one time we were standing in the park at night and she kissed me and said “feels familiar”, how she always wanted to play apex or valorant, and most importantly as for now, how she used to make music. For shits and giggles i decided to go see if her music page was still up and it was. I decided to listen for old times sake and it reminded me of how i never told her how good i thought she was. I went straight to criticism and telling her how to improve it. Idk why im like that. Maybe cause its the way my parents were to me anytime i did anything i dont know. Its no excuse though. Dont get me wrong she still did rookie things like fill syllables with unnecessary curse words or make her vocals too low in the mixing process but its genuinely good music and ive been listening all day. Listening to the lyrics has made me realize how much i failed her. She placed a lot of emphasis and faith on me to help her or value her and i failed. And while my therapist would say something along the lines of “its not your responsibility to carry the burden of her happiness” i dont believe that to be the case at all. I think its something she placed in my hands trusting me and i failed. And that doesnt negate the insane way things ended between us. Her mother is still batshit fucking insane for the next level mental manipulation she did to my ex to make her mental state even more volatile than before. Idk. Maybe its my fault for leaving in the first place. Ive failed her every other way i cant not think i failed her by leaving and making those the only people she spent time around. Back when we first got together shes agree when her mother would say insane shit or treat her bad or her sister would bully her but by the end of it she flat out didnt think those things were happening. I just hope she got therapy like i begged her to so many times. Her ex best friend is a piece of shit though. Texting your best friends ex of almost 5 years the week after they have a nuclear break up confessing your unhealthy obsession from almost 6 years ago is disgusting. I was nice and all in my response because i thought my ex and her were doing it together as like a test of my character but i later found out it was just her disgusting ex best friend. And her reasoning as to why my ex shouldnt have gotten mad was “ive known you longer” no you dumb bitch youve known OF me longer. I didnt speak to you for 5 years you let this middle school crush go to your fucking head. I shared everything, heart and soul, with my ex for four almost 5 years and your disgusting selfish ass thinks you know me better cause we were locker mates in the 8th grade? Truly disgusting insane gross behavior. Anyways heres my exes music

#SoundCloud

[bunny-heels]

Okay, I finished The Third Force, I read it super fast. SPOILERS DOWN BELOW:

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Okay, so yeah I definitely see a lot of future G-Man DNA in Slowslop, more so than the games, since by the end of the book Slowslop pretty much says he’s an alien while in the game he seems human.

As for his relationship with the prototype Alyx, Elena, it’s… weird. I don’t know how far you yourself read into the book, but there was a very strange scene in there where Slowslop projected his consciousness into a book Elena was holding (long story) and he seemed a little TOO pleased to be held by her, and his consciousness got rather touchy-feely with her as he exited the book. Although he hates Orlovsky for pursuing Elena, as you said, that scene and a few other strange comments from Slowslop makes me wonder if he secretly had feelings for her, too, and it was not a father-daughter relationship.

Although I suppose you could make the argument that like the G-Man, he experiences certain emotions differently from most humans, and that feelings of love of any kind are foreign to him. It’s certainly a one-sided thing on Slowslop’s part; much like how Alyx is currently scared and upset at the G-Man by the end of HLA, Elena regards Theodore with dread through most of the book, though by their final scene there seems to be at least a mutual respect.

If you don’t know what happens to Slowslop at the end, I’ll give you the short version: Elena kills Orlovsky and Slowslop catches her, and after she disappears, when guards come find Slowslop with Orlovsky’s body, he takes the blame for it to protect Elena so she can leave the Earth on the Ark, which she does with her brother, Louis, and the six scientists. Afterwards, Slowslop is subjected to the Sensorama that’s an important part of the book, but his alien biology causes the Sensorama’s beams to make him totally explode. I think his fate in the games is different, I believe he leaves Earth with the scientists, make of that what you will.

So yeah, Slowslop, after all the horrible things he was complicit in, did at least one good action before he exploded, and I think it would be fitting if the G-Man made a similar sacrifice for Alyx, though the circumstances would have to be way different since G-Man is so much more powerful than Slowslop.

In conclusion, this book was really weird and I’m not sure if I interpreted things correctly, but that’s Gadget for you. If I ever happen to get in contact with Marc Laidlaw, I’ll ask him about it, for sure.

first of all, holy shit i cant believe you read the whole book that fast. i mean its not big but i am a slow reader so.

second, yeah some things i couldve missed cause its been a while since i went back to the book. but the scenes that stuck with me that established Slowslops feelings for Elena were the ones where he was very rude to Orlovsky, especially when Elena was mentioned.

like the scene where she was dragged alone in a room with Orlovsky and when she left Slowslop was worried for her and made sure she was okay. and the beginning scene where he was telling her to go back to safety in the start of the book. and when he got made at Orlozsky for saying things about Elenas feelings that he didnt like.

Slowslop also clearly has always cared for Elena, even during the flashback scene when he tried to help her and Orlovsky get engaged, only to realize after she ran away that he was a doing a super fucked up thing.

i honestly can only barely remember the last scene i read before i stopped reading the book and having picked it up since. i think it was when Elena found out the Earth was going to crash. so all that other stuff youve mentioned is just beyond me.

its either two things. Slowslop was showing regular love to Elena and he just worded it weird. cause hes an alien, and probably wasnt meant to feel love of any kind, not even family. OR, if Slowslop DID have feelings for her, it seemed like he was more hellbent on making sure she was safe and fine, and never pushed anything like that on her out of respect, either because he knew she wouldnt be interested or because he knew he was old enough to be her dad.

Gadget is a VERY weird series but thats what makes me love it like i did the movie Begotten or the game G-String. i love weird shit that just throws things at you and you need to take a break to process everything, and then when youve cooled down you get back into it.

if you do question Marc about it, i hope he gives you a good answer! not sure how hes doing with emails these days but hes a weird lil old man so take it what you will

#the bun answers

[inkytsuki]

Hey, uh. Merry Christmas if you celebrate it ❤

#im not religious and mostly celebrate it bc my family does #but there are plenty of reasons to celebrate this time of year #i know i reblogged some hannukah stuff earlier but whatever youre up to! happy whatever bro! #get pumped for new year even tho its still an uphill battle! #have zoom parties with your friends! eat some good food and drink a lil of whatever you like this time of year #celebrate in a way that makes you feel good! #weve nearly made it to the end of 2020 and even if its been rough for you and things have been hard! #youve made it a long way through a lot of shit #❤❤❤ especially to my friends out there who have lost someone in 2020. im so sorry that you had to experience that. #but youre doing great. its okay to grieve and youre not bad for wanting to treat yourself in some way for making it through the pain #good luck out there yall ❤ i believe in you.

[ashthemadwriter-archived]

What would be atsushi's reaction if his twin sister got pregnant with akutagawa's baby?

You bastard! How dare you disgrace my sister! (Akutagawa x fem!Reader)

Fandom:Bungou Stray Dogs

Pairings:Akutagawa x fem!Reader

Genre:Comedy,Fluff

Format:One Shot

Warnings:Some NSFW! content

A/n: lmao i just cant stop laughing! XDDDD the idea of him getting angry over you is hillarious! this was awesome actually,i had a lot of fun writing this!

heres the first part of Akutagawa dating Atsushis twin sister if you wanna check it out :)

waking up from the feeling of being kissed by soft lips,you opened your eyes and saw familiar moon color eyes staring at you.he looked like he didnt feel anything,but if you looked at him carefully,you could see a small smile on his lips.

"good morning" you said before reaching him,planting a small kiss on his lips. he closed his eyes for a second,then looked directly into your beautiful e/c eyes.

"good morning...and thank you...for last night.it was amazing"

you smirked as the image of last night came to your mind.well...last night was definitelly something else.one of those special nights that happens rarely.

"theres no need to thank me.you pretty much did all the work by yourself"

"i know...so...how was it?"

"honestly,i passed out after the forth time"

a slight chuckle came outta his mouth,which made you chuckle back. you loved him being like this.the side of him that nobody could see except for you...

it made you feel important.

drowning in your thought,the bed moving made you come back to he real world.he quickly put on his clothes and reached his cravat,but your hand quicky took it from him and held it tightly.

"let me do it for you"

remaining silent for a second,he blinked which meant that it was ok. you stoond on your toes,tied the cravat around his neck and gave him a quick goodbye kiss.he was going away for a mission and you knew you were gonna miss him so much,but since it was his job you couldnt really do anything about it.

"just...get back soon,ok?"

touching your cheeks with his pale hands,he gave you a long,small kiss on your forhead.

"ok"

***

"c'mon Yosano sensei,it has to be the cancer!"

Yosano shook his head with disappointment and showed you the result of your test again.

"its not the cancer y/n,youre pregnant"

"but...what the hell am i supposed to do now?how am i gonna tel Ryuunosuke?"

"whos Ryuu...oh,you mean Akutagawa.well,you should have thought of this when you were doing dirty stuff with him"

"but we used protection!"

"condoms cannot prevent pregnany all the time.i think its effection is just 98%"

"whatttt?"

you started trembling,shaking with fear.you didnt know what to do. Akutagawa was comming back from his mission today.you didnt want to greet him like this...he wasnt ready for this.

"what if...he break up with me...?"

holding your hand,Yosano tried to comfort you and make you relax a little bit,

but it was not enough.

"stop overthinking, y/n.theres no point in regreting it.you have to tell him anyway.hes the father of your child,for gods sake.he deserves to know"

"but...i dont wanna push him.im afraid that he might break up with me,but maybe its better that way..."

"What the fuck!?that son of a bitch!"

Shocked,you and Yosano both looked at Atsushi who was looking at you through the door.

"you...how long how you been standing there?! what did you hear?"

"ive heard enough to know whats going on!did that bastard knocked you out and then ran away without taking any responsibility?im gonna teach that jerk a lesson!"

"nocked me out?w-what?noooo Atsushi! youve got it all wrong! its not like that!Hey!where the hell are you going?hey!wait!"

running after your furious brother who was going after your boyfriend,You left Yosano shocked,alone in the infirmary.

"Atsushi...knows how to swear?"

***

"hey!Akutagawa Ryuunosuke!im going to beat the shit outta you!"

sitting on the couch,Akutagawa noticed Atsushis yelling voice which was comming from outside of his apartment.he put the coffie mug in his hand back on the counter,quickly opened the door and looked at Atsushis face which was red like a tomato

"whats going on?"

before he knew,Atsushi was holding his cravat,ready to punch him in his face.

"how dare you do this to my sister!after all shes done for you!

"what?what are you talking about!what happend to her?"

"dont play dumb with me you little peace of shit! i knew that you dont deserve her! she deserves to be cherished!"

a slight peace of fabric came toward Atsushis neck,but stood still a few inches from him.

"hey now.i have no idea what the hell are you talking about,and dont think that im gonna go easy on you just because youre y/n's brother"

"go to hell!im going to make you pay for this! and im not gonna let you come near ...

"Atsushi wait! i still havent..."

you just got there and was trying to stop Atsushi,but your brother was way too faster.

"my sister and his baby!"

Akutagawa literally froze.you let out a deep breath while looking at your boyfriend worriedly.

"told him about the baby..."

well,shit.

ok i wanted to write more,but im exhausted!and you just wanted to see Atsushis reaction,so...

yeah.

i hope this is what you wanted and tysm for requesting baby :)

take care,

-Ash

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