while yuna has chosen her final aeon in kimahri as my personal choice and discussion with aqua? and in my writing with my exclusive tidus aka aqua, he does step up to be her final aeon but that would be...unbearable for either front. a father figure or the man you love?
yuna, whose innocence and naivete throughout the game dies screaming, even before that, in her training as an acolyte / priestess, which she still qualifies as, has constantly looked in the ‘scriptures’ of yevon on one thing.
for when she battles sin in the calm lands on her own, to spare her final aeon and die alone. she will not belittle the strength and courage and shared love of spira even when they literally hate her as a heretic / traitor for discovering the truth? she still is choosing to die for them. she still will choose a final aeon. what her primary question she asks for me in my portrayal of yuna however?
is her very explicit wish to die with sin and herself, and only herself. the longer time passes she becomes desperate to hurry to zanarkand to see if it’s possible, and while her guardians choose to do this willingly, there is immense self-loathing and guilt that she doesn’t know how to make this, her journey, her own demise so ALL of her guardians can enjoy her calm once she dies and becomes high summoner.
yuna doesn’t stay naive in x. she just....becomes wiser. and infinitely more tired while still having that strength that could topple the heaviest sword.
thankfully yuna stands her ground as ever, and with a firm but soft voice, puts the final nail in the coffin against yunalesca by defeating her with her guardians, ending the reign of yevon’s religious cult.
even so, yuna never really forgives herself for the fact that she has people who love her enough to die with her, and the what-could-have-been if she hadn’t defied yevon / the system still gives her nightmares as she ages / into the sequel . no one thinks her selfish in a world where morals are very warped and hers so pure are rare? but i don’t think it’s ever something she’ll be able to come to terms with unless someone keeps talking about how she was only thinking of everyone but herself. again.
by the time yuna reaches zanarkand, from both her soul bond / physical exertion of ceaseless prayers and communion with the fayth? parts of her own being entering her body? which i imagine is very painful? she’s exhausted beyond words. and if not for her family and guardians / friends / relatives / tidus , she would have slept all by herself in the final night before her death.
3 notes · View notes