I am just another anon adding to the piles of anons that are sending you best wishes <3 It has been a privilege to read your works (and your casual thoughts) and I am so sorry to see you go. So many content creators (and just all around wonderful humans) are saying good-bye to this platform and to be honest I don't blame them.
Thank you for being a shining light in this darkness, an island in the vast tumblr sea, and a lovely soul :)
I always loved re-reading your works and was just wondering if you will also be putting them on AO3 (or another platform)? They have brought me so much joy (?), even the angstiest pieces gave me little heart palpitations reading them <3
We will miss you and your presence here on this weird site <3
pls this whole entire ask is like a love letter and i have no words to express how this made me feel 😭🥺
thank u so much and yes i will archive/repost on a diff platform before i completely delete this blog
this entire blog has been too much for me to handle at one point bc that's just how i go about things but i really appreciate each n every one of u <3
I feel like a fool to overthink things without fully analyzing your announcment I'm so sorry
omg anon i will answer your two prev asks in here as well bc i assumed it's the same person but i totally understand how you feel! :-) i also mentioned in a recent post how i also tried to come back to some of my fave works only to find that they're gone and i couldn't quite imagine doing the same for u guys bc i genuinely cannot fathom how i've made a profound impact on u, like that one anon also said 🥺
i won't be deleting them off the face of the earth, i'll prob repost on tumblr under a different acc and trust me when i say u will know when u find me!! <3 i might also archive them on ao3 but rest assured i wouldn't be deleting the blog all at once
your works are so precious to me :( you're some of the first blog that i followed when i first joined the hq fandom, i'm so glad to find you. and happy holidays to you! hope you're doing great <3
pls omg i kept coming back to this ask and rereading it i hope u know how much i appreciate u :<
GWEN I THOUGHT ABT YOU THE OTHER DAY 😭😭 IM SO GLAD TO SEE YOU FLOATING AROUND OUR HELLSITE AGAIN
THIS IS SO WEIRD LIKE,,, U THOUGHT OF ME RANDOMLY WHILE GOING ABT UR DAY I AM SO HONORED ILY MWA
WAIT- you're deleting tetsvuhoe? :((( gonna miss you and your works bby :((( is there a way where we could reach you out again? :') hope you're doing well!
yesss bb i feel like i've grown out of the writing i posted on here and i wanted to revise them? gradually, if that makes sense and i'll still be around ofc u will prob know when u see me again :-))
EXACTLY, SO WHY?
"it's not like i can control how everyone else around me acts," kuroo grumbles with a scowl he directs at the floor as he slams the door behind him.
"you could have at least made it clear you have a girlfriend," you retort, preoccupying yourself by haphazardly putting dirty laundry away.
your boyfriend scoffs. "you've made that pretty clear yourself. you know, with how much you've been nagging me all night."
"that's because you were letting all those girls blatantly flirt with you. right in front of me!" you pause to turn to him, clothes gathered in your arms and crumpled in your fists. there's a look of anger, distraught, most of all just hurt, behind your glossed over eyes.
kuroo avoids your gaze, clenching his jaw shut out of frustration.
"i just—" your voice breaks and so does your longing gaze at him, in favor of hiding how tears lined your eyes and threatened to spill. "i just need some reassurance and you're giving me everything but that."
"why? have i given you any reason to doubt me?" he whips his head to your direction, utter disbelief in his voice.
you scoff sarcastically. "apart from tonight? no, not really."
"i really don't get how you can't trust me," he laughs humorlessly, shaking his head. he drags his feet towards the direction of your bedroom, but you weren't going to let him leave it at that.
"you say that as if i like to feel this way!" you yell after him.
"we're done here. let's just talk about this in the morning," he utters his dismissal through clenched teeth.
you shove the laundry to the floor to chase after him, feet stomping the ground furiously. you attempt to grab his shoulder and get him to face you, but you don't miss how he shrugs your hand away. "you're not understanding me, it's not that i just can't trust you. don't you get it? how-how you can literally get with any other person but—"
"exactly!" he exclaims, hands in the air, as if he's overjoyed. his amber eyes glare right through you as if the gold in them had lost their shine, making you feel small and vulnerable. you almost cower beneath his height. he grabs your wrist, slowly pulling you close to him. his voice is quiet and cold and cuts directly right through you, "so why the fuck am i stuck with you?"
you blink back your tears, mouth hanging open as you desperately try to find the words to respond to that. the silence helps kuroo to register what he said, what he did. a look of horror flashes across his face and you take it as your cue to quickly step away from him.
"i didn't mean it," he blurts out, subconsciously closing the distance you tried to make.
of course he didn't. you know how he purposely tries to be mean and hurtful when he's angry, and this was the one time he went overboard. or maybe he did. this could have been his last straw, maybe he was just desperately tolerating you until now.
"hey." his soft, shaky voice snaps you out of your thoughts and you realize you really can't stand being in the reality of the situation nor in your own head; both hurt just as much. "i'm so sorry, my love. i really didn't mean any of it."
"i... need to go," you whisper, clutching onto yourself as if to keep you from falling apart.
"where, baby? it's late. please stay right here," he pleads, trying to reach for you but you shy away from him.
"i don't know—away," you quietly sob. the guilt weighs heavy on his stomach.
"i understand, but it's late. please go to sleep and we'll figure this out tomorrow okay?" there's a tiny surge of relief when you finally let his hands steady your shoulders and arms even though you still tense up at his touch.
you can only nod, feeling weak, helpless, hurt, but mostly because you were too tired to protest. his embrace is soft and cautious but it does little to ease the suffocation in your chest.
"i'm so sorry. i know it doesn't help right now, but i'll work for your forgiveness."
"forgiving is easy, tetsuro. i could never hold a grudge against you. but i need some time to... get over everything else."
"of course, baby. anything you need."
our little secret.
shitting tears on the floor screaming and crying because i wanted to re-read some of my old fav works only to find that the authors removed their works and stepped away from their platform (which i totally understand) but it's times like these when i wonder if my works ever had the same impact to other ppl and i went on my inbox nd found some rlly sweet msgs anyway ily all i wish you all a merry christmas!!! happy new year!!! be safe always and take care see u around <3
GWEN how are you?? I hope you are doing well ☺️
omg nish haven’t talked to u in forever im doing fine ig and i hope u r too <3
hi Gwen! We miss you and hope ur doing well. I’ve been listening to Pool by Paramore and thought it would make great angst content if you ever have a moment of spark
im tempted and shall keep that in mind
champagne problems by taylor swift just screams kuroo angst for me
i streamed champagne problems on repeat bc of this ask thanks
Ayo shawty can i be added to the taglist of "If Fate Permits"? *twerks softly in sadness*
shawty im so so late on this but my blog is discontinued <//3 sorry babe
gwennieeee were you back for a bit??? I WAS AWOL DAMN I MISSED THAT WINDOW UGHHHH i miss you sm. how are you babe??
lemme scavenger kuroo art and link in the next asks ksdjfdfjk
oh naurrr ;(( i’ll be here lurking from time to time so don’t miss me too much!
SO SAD UR KINDA LEAVING BUT I J WANNA SAY I LOVE HOW THE READER TALKS BACL TO KUROO FOR THE EX THING HIHIHIHI
HELLO N THANK U im glad u liked it
I see youuuu.
HOW HAVE YOU BEEN? I missed you here a lot honestly
ofmfifhrufnhf im in the process of rearranging my life at 1 am but thank u i hope ur doing good urself <3