thatlonelydarkprince

[thatlonelydarkprince]

Being autistic and Deaf/HoH is an interesting experience. I need hearing aids yet movie theaters are too loud. I can’t hear you speak when there’s other noise happening but the lights are too loud. Sign language requires facial expressions as tone, yet I can’t read facial expressions well. It’s a conundrum. 

#don't know why i'm posting this #hard of hearing #Deaf #autism #autistic #sign language #facial expressions #conundrum #meltdowns

[thatlonelydarkprince]

Can you post videos to Tumblr? Like would anyone be interested in my content I make for TikTok?

[thatlonelydarkprince]

CBT therapy is taking a negative thought, such as:

I wish I were dead.

And making it positive, such as:

I am struggling right now so I need to do more self care to support myself.

That’s all

(Totally wasn’t the exact convo I had in therapy today)

#don't know why i'm posting this #coping #CBT #therapy #negative thoughts #positive thoughts #suicidal #not really suicidal #chronically ill

[thatlonelydarkprince]

I don’t know what to do, the doctor told me to lose weight so my problems go away but the only way I know how is to starve or puke up everything like before. My boyfriend tells me I need to eat but the doctor told me to lose weight. I just don’t know what to do.

#don't know why i'm posting this #coping #disordered eating #eating disorder #i need to lose so much weight #food

[thatlonelydarkprince]

The holidays are hard, here’s to everyone who’s making it through without offing themselves

#don't know why i'm posting this #holiday #depressing thoughts #anxious #suicidal

[thatlonelydarkprince]

If I died rn would anyone even notice?

#don't know why i'm posting this #coping #deprressed #depressing thoughts #suicidal

[thatlonelydarkprince]

because the og post had reblog bait and really doesnt help people with ocd:

Depression Hotline: [phone]

Suicide Hotline: [phone]

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: [phone]

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

If you ever want to talk: My tumblr ask is always open.

[thatlonelydarkprince]

It’s official- I am the Hulk! Why? Because last night I got so overwhelmed I turned into another person.

DID joke

#did #actually did #did system #dissocative identify disorder #dissociative system #dissociative alters #dissociative identities #dissociative identity disorder #overwhelmed #coping #incredible hulk #hulk #hulkout

[thatlonelydarkprince]

I’m making good ass pizzas- take that you fucking eating disorder!!

#don't know why i'm posting this #coping #eating disroders #disordered eating #eating disorder #eating disoder recovery #pizza

[thatlonelydarkprince]

Can’t my tea just heat and soothe my uterus? Do I really need medicine?

The answer is yes: I DO need medicine

FUCK

#don't know why i'm posting this #uterus #period cramps #period #tea

[thatlonelydarkprince]

Sometimes the day sucks, even if it was a great day, and you need to masturbate. That’s all.

[thatlonelydarkprince]

Shoutout to everyone vacationing right now who keeps getting misgendered by family, but you’re too afraid to correct them.

It’s me, shoutout to me.

#don't know why i'm posting this #coping #shoutout #trans #misgender #vacation #family

[thatlonelydarkprince]

Charlie bad girl

[thatlonelydarkprince]

Mood of the Night:

I feel so lonely and I’m trying to use positive coping mechanisms, but negative ones just feel more effective. I know they aren’t, but they’re comfortable. I wish I had more friends. And don’t get me wrong, the friends I have are amazing and helpful, just don’t want to burden them.

#don't know why i'm posting this #mood of the night #lonely #depression #coping #feel like a burden

[thatlonelydarkprince]

I (host) didn’t know the Phantom from Phantom of the Opera was the bad guy until college

Tell me a thing about your childhood that isn't inherently super traumatic but is sus and kinda indicitive of the environment you grew up in.

I'll start, my childhood favorite movie series from when I was under five was the Final Destination series.

#phantom of the opera #did system #suspect

[thatlonelydarkprince]

Mood of the Day:

I grew up being told I was spoiled, as if that’s a bad thing. It’s created so much anxiety on working to deserve to be spoiled and loved. I need to earn love and to be spoiled, when that’s not really true. That’s what they told me, I didn’t deserve to be spoiled, but I earned the abuse.

It bothered me when they said I was spoiled because I WAS abused, like wtf. I guess both can be true, but that always bothered me.

#don't know why i'm posting this #trauma #spoiled #i deserved it #abuse survivor #mood of the day #mental illness

[thatlonelydarkprince]

Mood of the Night:

For the first time in a long while, I feel normal. Relaxed, not dreading the future

I wonder how long that will last

…it didn’t last long…

#don't know why i'm posting this #mood of the night