the-crying-king

[the-crying-king]

Sometimes texting between multiple friends I'm switching back and forth from english and korean and then my brain gets all confused and I end up sounding stupid in both languages.

Just me?

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Yikes

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I'm struggling SO hard oh my god. In every aspect of my life it's a disaster.

Im just alone in this house with my thoughts for a week. It's only been 3 days and I'm already breaking down.

Genuinely don't know what the fuck to do

[the-crying-king]

“nobody but you” by Charles Bukowski

nobody can save you but

yourself.

you will be put again and again

into nearly impossible

situations.

they will attempt again and again

through subterfuge, guile and

force

to make you submit, quit and /or die quietly

inside.

nobody can save you but

yourself

and it will be easy enough to fail

so very easily

but don’t, don’t, don’t.

just watch them.

listen to them.

do you want to be like that?

a faceless, mindless, heartless

being?

do you want to experience

death before death?

nobody can save you but

yourself

and you’re worth saving.

it’s a war not easily won

but if anything is worth winning then

this is it.

think about it.

think about saving your self.

your spiritual self.

your gut self.

your singing magical self and

your beautiful self.

save it.

don’t join the dead-in-spirit.

maintain your self

with humor and grace

and finally

if necessary

wager your self as you struggle,

damn the odds, damn

the price.

only you can save your

self.

do it! do it!

then you’ll know exactly what

I am talking about.

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No cause I'm bouta lose my mind

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hey man. can i ask you about your stats? like height, cw, gw, etc

I took my stats out of my bio for a reason but..

I'm 5'9" and last I was weighed was maybe 59kg?

I don't have a gw anymore, since weight doesn't equal body image. My "goal" is to just be lean, fit, and healthy.

#tw weight #personal

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i think just coexisting with you is one of my favorite things to do. i don’t need a big event or activity or adventure all the time. just you and your smile and your existence.

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I love when the app doesn't work

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Going to the emergency room then acting like the bill doesn't exist because I refuse to even take the mail from the post.. is my talent. It's not a problem and doesn't exist until later in the future when it might be a problem

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네가 너무 여뻐 🩶.. 나는 쓰레기

#personal

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I need a brain that will stop overthinking. It's going to ruin so much more.

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I'll let this play with my heart because at least it feels like something

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I've been on a waitlist for 9 months to get into this program. The first appointment has finally come and I'm honestly stoked that they are so chill.

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The way I stopped eating and keep forgetting to take my meds as if that's gonna fix all my problems fffff

#unintentional self sabotage

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What am I even doing?