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Everyone is a freaking critic. Ugh.

You can’t make everyone happy. I know that. but oh my fucking god these readers are pissing me off. I write a self indulgent fic and people keep griping ‘oh I don’t like this part’ or ‘that ship is so overdone’. If you don’t like it, write your own damn fic!

Ugh. Fucking hell! I’m just so pissed. I was so happy with the latest chapter posted but now am getting backlash just because they don’t like the same ship I do. If you don’t like it then don’t fucking read it!!

People on archive are so nice while those on fanfic are just nitpickers. I’m now regretting posting it there and am kind of considering not anymore. Of just posting that if they want to read it then go to archive. On the website that actually has a decent way to tag stories and places to provide extra notes and comments.

I’ll try updating the chapters with a disclaimer first I guess. But now that the seed of stopping on fanfic is planted, it’s kind of sounding like a good idea. Maybe post one last chapter saying that if they liked the story then go to archive and if not they can, politely, shove it.

Because bottom line, my fic is staying my fic with all my fav tropes, ships, and other twists and turns. So fuck you, nitpickers!

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I had been gone for three years and was away from all the political bullshit. A year back in the US and I am so fucking done with politics. I hated them before but i hate them more even now. My parents are shoving their views down my throat and saying my schooling made me 'wrong' in a way. Even said my sister now 'sees the light' because her views match theirs while mine don't. While I don't feel like I know my sister anymore. Just such utter bullshit in my opinion. I'm not even declared either way. I just want gays and such to have equal rights, black lives to actually matter, and for people to stop being fucking dumbasses. Is that too much to ask? Apparently so.

#my 2am drunken ramblings #just need to get my thoughts out so i can sleep

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The parentals drop not-so-subtle hints that they want grandchildren.

Me: internally twiddles thumbs because I don't want kids or at the very least don't want to physically have kids. adoption I'm open to though! but still...hoping my sis will maybe be a buffer? ugh. the stress is real.

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As an introvert, the best thing is finding someone who it isn’t draining to spend time with

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i never talk to my mutuals i just kinda exist and hope they have psychic abilities and find out i love em via my earthly vibrations

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The best types of people are the ones who tell you they’re listening, when the rest of the group seems to have stopped paying attention.

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Unexpected but... :)

I was showing my kouhai how to get to Costco and as I was randomly looking at a sign to make sure we were going the right was, when she said, “Wow, you’re really pretty!” Very random for sure but it made me happy! :D I guess I’m attractive to people. :P

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“You see, their morals, their code, it’s a bad joke. Dropped at the first sign of trouble. They’re only as good as the world allows them to be. I’ll show you. When the chips are down, these… these ‘civilized people’, they’ll eat each other. See, I’m not a monster. I’m just ahead of the curve.”

The Dark Knight (2008) dir. Christopher Nolan

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The number of times I have been delighted by witty banter only to find out later that I was “Flirting” is both unfortunate and disappointing.