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Throw myself into reckless abandon

Awaiting danger

Awaiting the sweet sweet embrace of the reaper

..oh my love won’t you join me?

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Log date

April 7th

…..

Maybe I’m a fucking lunatic.

Maybe.

I’ve ..stopped obsessing over people..kinda

It’s better…but then ..I think about everyone’s minds..

How we’re alike

…how I think of myself through someone else…

I wonder how they’re doing..I hope they’re in good health..

#rambles #Star logs

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this one post from @poryphoria has been living rentfree in my head for months. it’s so true. i am so normal about this concept and this theme and this fandom.

alt ending below the cut, based off the project nexus ending. while it’s cool as fuck, i am not sure if it conveys what i wanna convey!! so it’s just here as bonus content

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CANT LEAVE

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Ya know…I hate to be ‘that guy’ and bring all this on my main. But I’m jus not how I was before. Of course we’re all not

We all find change somewhere in our lives. Gain things we don’t want.. have changes we don’t like. Get more stable or grow unstable.

I’ve seen patterns as a bystander and experienced them myself.

Some complain about friends leaving

Others fear enemies they’ve gained through one measly text ..call it stalling with all this talk but it’s jus babbling nonsense I got going on in m noggin.

Clearly I think now.

And though perception of life style maybe flawed my perception of people who I called friends and found family still remain the same..

Inspiring

Kind

Lovely people.

…it’s so sad how I’ve shut myself out of speaking now in days..

Sorry

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Themes of self harm , suicide , and overdose

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lrb is SO FUN

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HI GUYS.

MY FRIEND BLUE (@danielleglamour) AND I (@vicen-non / @syxadel)

MADE A HORROR VISUAL NOVEL FOR A GAME JAM!!

it is...

ABOUT AN HOUR LONG!

MSPAINT REALISM GALORE!

IT'S FREE!

(THIS GAME DOES NOT PROVIDE FREE DENTAL!)

please enjoy the fruits of our labor, eye bags, and screaming!

(CONTENT WARNINGS BELOW)

Game includes: Detailed descriptions of gore, violence, suicide, depression, death, and body horror.

If you are sensitive to these themes and they may be harmful to you, please do not play this game.

Also, I drew a few scenes in here!

Thanks for reading!

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I despise how we grow apart.. why couldn’t you stay.

Why did we drift so far.. was it me?…

..it was wasn’t it.

How many years was it?..2..3 or 4 perhaps?.. felt like an eternity ago and yet I still mourn you presence. … I remain in anguish all whilst you continue your blissful life. And not to downplay true struggles of life no!-

But to simply say and give me closure that I am no one to you

That I am nothing but the jester in your court fore all I say is babble and spite and nonsensical.

You had told me how you despised feeling like you were walking on eggshells with other people.. yet I dare keep my lips zipped tight as to not say anything I may regret.

I’ve wept many tears for you my dear sibiling. And although we may not be related by blood you’d have me hope that somewhere in our hearts we’d be connected.

…I suppose I was wrong.

Because I feel ..rage.

Inward a Cauldron of fire and bile boil in my chest flaring up to its most intense heat. My mind argues with this of “what do we have to be mad about”

…and sometimes the list goes long and the list is short

My memory is foggy.. and how I do wish it forgets the day YOU entered my life…oh how I still adore you.. call me pathetic but I’m always crawling back or finding moments. Gaps. Yet

I doubt you’d miss me

I doubt you’d ever want me back.

Tell me

#tell me #tell me god damn it #it’s not that hard #you know #what is going on #I won’t be mad #you have every right too

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the 5 love languages are:

- Sharing a blunt

- All forms of cooking

- Being incredibly stupid on purpose

- Collaborative hating

- Ignoring things

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Squeeze it apart and drain.

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Squeeze it apart and drain.

#vent art #vent #vent tw #my artwork #vent tag #tw: mental manipulation #overwhelmed #oh well #that figure could be anyone’s guess #but to avoid questions #is a representation of my family. #or my brother at most #he’s an asshole

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[id: a light purple userbox with a pastel purple border, and pastel purple text that reads “this user is prone to hallucinations under stress.” on the left is an image of two pastel purple hearts. /end id]

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=)

Hope yer having fun.

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You.

Y O U

MY FUCK DO YOU TIRE ME OUT. How many times do I gotta pull out hair I don't even have fer ya?, how many times do i gotta push it down. Till I can't feel squat.

H o w .

M a y a.

P a t h e t I c life of mine

Appease you.?

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Maybe I am that bad.

...why do I feel so..bad when I see them so happy together

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Log jan 3 rd? 5 am .

Had a freak out all night.

Partner helped.

... I'm gonna..just work on an essay.