Please, just give me a sign 🙏
So I guess I’ve bought that dress for nothing. I guess my hope was useless. I guess I’m gonna be alone this Friday, while you have plans. And I guess I’m stupid for believing you’d still love me.
You should know that every night, when I’m in my bed, I look at the stars through the roof window and I pray for you to be mine again…
If you wonder, every time you’re online and you see me typing, I’m actually writing “I love you”.
I want to be with you each second of my day, I want to kiss you again and again, more than I used to back then, I want to wake up every goddamn day by your side, I want to spend my whole life with you until we die and have the chance to see you be the father of our kids. I want you so bad.
But what the hell do you want ?
If it’s too hard for you to watch me leave, then maybe you should make me stay.
Here I am looking for you in the crowd, expecting our paths to cross again, to see your sweet face in the middle of these strangers. It’s foolish, there are 7 billion people out there and all I want is you.
I see those places everyday and they all remind me of you. Your ghost is everywhere in them. All the memories plays back in my mind and my heart feels heavy everytime I walk there, yet I smile because I had the chance to live those unforgettable moments. I miss you like I’ve never missed anyone in my life and like I never will, and soon I’ll probably have to say goodbye to this town and to you. But these memories will always stay there, and inside our minds and our hearts. And you, my love, will forever stay in mine.
Sometimes people play hard to get because they need to know the other persons feelings are real.
One Tree Hill
I’ve been craving to tell you that I miss you for so long. I’ve written it so many times, but I never click on send. I don’t want to hurt you more than I already have so I just back off. But fuck, how am I supposed to live after you, after what we had ? I thought this would be easier with some time, but it’s not. Because I realize that we will never getting back together. Everyday this is getting more true and more painful. And the thing that hurts me the most is you still have that same light in your eyes when you look at me, and I have to ignore that like you do. I love you with all my heart, I always have, yet I have to let you go.
But how can you let go the love of your life ?
sacrifice is love sometimes. swallowing your pride and your ego is love sometimes. it’s not pretty to try to make things work and who ever said it was… is a fucking asshole. you want to find love? you want to find peace in love? then you must let go a piece of yourself. you must find a balance between who you are and who you want to be. you have to sacrifice something. that’s how it is sometimes. no one is perfect. but by understanding and respecting one another, then by all means, something special could be achieved. that is all we want ultimately, understanding, unconditional love but not many of us are willing to accept the flaws. to accept the horrors of it all. most of us only want the pretty things. most of us only want what we’ve been told to find. to find the “perfect one.” find someone who contradicts themselves sometimes. find someone who makes peace with their demons and yours. find someone who’s been through things. who’s been defeated and understands what it’s like to be under pressure. under stress and fear and has move forward from them. find someone who’s capable of saving themselves. and someone who has the heart to save others—to try to save others even if they know they can’t. the list can go on. but the bottom line is, to just find someone who makes you happy. all else means nothing. all else is meant to take so much out of you but also give so much less in return.
It was cold but our hearts were warmed. That night you saw hope. That night we knew our lives were about to change, and they did.