the-problematicprincess

[the-problematicprincess]

Hiiiiii, Im back !!

I’ve grown so much I can’t wait to share my new creations. Poetry , Music , Production 🫣

Yea inner work really be hittin different but it’s so work it , i’m on the cusp of my come up 😮‍💨

[the-problematicprincess]

Her vibe carried a different hue

indigo undertones

With shades of blue

Whimsical in nature as if their aura was laced with shrooms

Other worldly

Not from this dimension

In the way that they spoke it was clear they are in the midst of ascension

From this plane

A disconnect because she can’t relate

Blue hued creature has come to hate

Everyone who inhabits the land

Not operating on the same circuit makes it harder to understand

the masses

She see the world through black brimmed glasses

communicates on a different wave

One that’s barely audible and not seen with regular sight

But when inspected closer you come to see the blue hued being is actually white light

-mäli

#locs #poetry #melanin #black poets society #body positive #lgbtq #self love #spirituality #wlw #photoart #manifestations #manifestingdreams #blackgirlmagic

[the-problematicprincess]

Feels so good to be back on this app I’ve fell in love with myself since my absence i hope you’re still sticking around to see my journey🤍🌱

#manifestingdreams #locs #body positive #poetry #blackgirlmagic #lgbtq #manifestations #spirituality #self love

[the-problematicprincess]

[the-problematicprincess]

She’s the type that makes you wanna write

Bring to open mic

and inspire

I wanna sit down and watch her live the life she desires

You know

watch her grow

I got so used to nurturing mold

Not having any true substance

But i convinced myself they had potential

That if i watered them long term itd turn into something special

Like maybe a flower

Or even a tree

But now i spotted a little seedling

And like her locs

She is already budding

Being the planter i am

I’ve already started cutting

Off my trucks

and all the dead limbs

I No longer feel attached to

lovers who’ve turned into friends

Watering dead situations no longer appeases me

I rather spend my time sowing what grows easily

My mindset has changed

now knowing why

I’ve fell for a plant with the potential to touch the sky

~mäli

#locs #melanin #poetry #lgbtq #wlw #black poets society #poets #the feels #simp

[the-problematicprincess]

Hey y’all just wanna spread love and let you know that abundance is coming soon and abundance of happiness, money, energy and wellness. Keep your head up and keep on pushing your breakthrough is coming soon...

-mal

#locs #melanin #body positive #beautiful #poetry #blackgirlmagic #lgbtq #love #happy #spirituality #growth #change #manifestingdreams #manifestations #black poets society #black tumblr #blacklivesmatter #hope #gratitude #patience #wealth #abundance

[the-problematicprincess]

*pain in exchange for a pretty poem*

It’s getting harder to write

When u feel the pain as u type

Every emotion shown on every line

How do i write about emotions when i wanna erase mine

Or have it run in the background

Sometimes i wish those negative thoughts wouldn’t stick around

long enough for me to put them in words

Because yes it makes a pretty poem but it hurts

-mal

#locs #melanin #beautiful #poetry #blackgirlmagic #poetsofinstagram #black poets society #writers on tumblr #feels

[the-problematicprincess]

Here’s a face to go with the poetry 😘

Should i start documenting my spiritual and loc journey as well?

#melanin #locs #beautiful #poetry #body positive #black poets society #lgbtq #black tumblr #black lives matter #beauty

[the-problematicprincess]

*Malachi’s Mantra *

I feel stuck

i want to get out

Feelings of anger and self doubt

Repeated ringing in my right ear

telling me that I’ll forever be stuck here

Loads of laughter in my left

Snickering to me I’m better off dead

But in the midst of it all i find peace

The grounding of my soul through my feet

I’m not stuck

I’m planted

My roots are trying to spread

Seedlings of hope are dropped in my head

It’s the external conditions that i battle not myself

And repeating this mantra everyday helps

#locs #melanin #body positive #poetry #beautiful #blackgirlmagic #poetsofinstagram #black poets society #spokenword

[the-problematicprincess]

[the-problematicprincess]

Somewhere down the line i was convinced i wasn’t enough

That I’m

Not worthy enough to experience real love

And whatever that means

So much so it’s emotionally hindered me to love freely

I don’t know weather to blame society or myself for this corruption

Or that past relationships for the way that i function now

Hard to appreciate myself when i hear other voices in the background

Telling me that and this

You know real self hatred propaganda type shit

But i rebuke it

And it doesn’t make it true just because society spewed it

I deserved to be loved

Appreciated caressed kissed and hugged

I’m not the things society tells me

Sells me

Or feeds me

I’m everything glorious and sweet

Everyday it’s a battle but I’m learning to love myself

So that way i can truly love somebody else

-mäl

#melanin #body positive #beautiful #poetry #poetsofinstagram #poest on tumblr #black poets society #black tumblr #locs #blackgirlmagic #society #self love

[the-problematicprincess]

Remember how far you’ve come

*I did it again *

I wish i could have a recap

A mental picture of all the times i was happy before i relapse

Because maybe then i could see how i loved myself

how I’m not only affecting my soul but my health

This curse i possess constantly haunts me

Taunts me

And dangles my desire to be skinny over my head

I feel like this demon won’t stop til he sees me dead

How he triggers me

throwing images in my head on how i used to be

Promising me all my wildest dreams

Saying you’ll look like how u did when u were 15

Prying at my insecurities

Until he gets to me

And today he did

Because i did it again

-mäl

#body positive #beautiful #ed recovery #eating disoder recovery #eating disoder thoughts #get help #poemoftheday #poets #black poets society #poets on tumblr #poets corner #poetsdaily

[the-problematicprincess]

*Bonsai Tree*

I know you feel the distance

How it’s different

Product of my new found clarity and a new found intuition

Not that it’s it’s anything against you but i was tired of getting droplets of water and stings from bees

I needed enough love an energy to grow a tree

And you weren’t giving it to me

My sap went dry and i stopped producing

I thought it was you but it was my self worth i was loosing

Bc no plant should weep for rain

Feel pain

Or beg for affection

I hoped seeing me wilt the first time would’ve shown i needed attention

But there are lazy planters your better of with a cactus

Someone low maintenance

And less attractive

But that’s not me

I’m more like a bonsai tree

Who needs to be watered and loved meticulously

A mr. miagee

To water my roots

Who cares to see me grow the ripest fruit

Love with no conditions

i found a gardener who shows his affections

So is it wrong to stay in his garden where i am cherished

In your garden is where i would’ve parished

-mäl

#poemoftheday #melanin #locs #blackgirlmagic #poets #openmic #heartbreak #plants #trees #planting #poets on tumblr #poetry #lovers #love #follow #black voices #small rant

[the-problematicprincess]

MIGHT SURVE AS A TRIGGER WARNING FOR SOME STRUGGLING WITH BULIMIA

*A Vile Ritual *

After a meal you must prepare the alter , find music to drown out the sound and run water. I kneel before the throne speaking my wishes into it. Giving offerings up to it . Moral rot and tooth decay is the you pay for these things. The punishment for indulging is that you purge your heart out and except that after you finish the ritual you leave a piece of you behind. A unfair deal that you make with a shit God because you just can’t learn to love yourself. You starve because your soul is hungry and weep because your heart is dry. Stuck in a cycle of wanting to be beautiful has your insides black and you sold your soul to a porcelain throne that doesn’t garuntee anything and quick fix to deeper issue and a vile ritual for a lost girl...

-mäl

This was one of my first poems I wrote about my ED. I struggle with bulimia and body dysmorphia so i know how alone you feel going through this but YOU ARE NOT ALONE !!! Seek help , reach out to someone or write about it. Make sure your voice is heard this is a hard battle to fight alone .

#bulimia #body dysphoria #triggerwarning #ed recovery #eating disoder recovery #poets on tumblr #poetry #black poets society #openmic #poetslife

[the-problematicprincess]

*jada n will *

I want a real love

Dark skin aunt Viv love

Not the jada and will love

Because who the fuck got time for a entanglement

He said wayment

Why every-time i say sum you gotta say shit

Then flip it

Now we goin back n forth because i said i hated him and he actually think i meant it

We’re constantly trying to copy the perfect couple

and that’s what got our dumb asses in trouble

False expectations

Hidden allegations

Are things we never see on tv

So when we look at their broken ass relationship im left askin why we can’t be that happy

Because in media we rarely see behind the scenes

the late night arguments , hookups with August and broken promises

Instead what they shove down our throats is a facade

Leaving us to think we’re doing everything wrong

And I’m not blaming the smiths that’s not what I’m doing

But be carful who’s relationship goals your pursuing

-mäl

#poets on tumblr #poetry #melanin #locs #blackgirlmagic #poetsofinstagram #will smith #jada smith #jaden smith #willow #media #tv #drama #pop culture #celebrities #openmic

[the-problematicprincess]

I’m back!!!

Deleted all my content and planning to pick back up posting keep a look out for my poetry, rants,body positivity  post, ED recovery and anything else i want to post ;)

#poetry #poets on tumblr #rants #ed recovery #bodypositivity #venting #college life #im back #body dysphoria #black voices