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[theangelslittlecanary]

💜 Happy New Year 💜

And with that also an update:

I have a boyfriend now! 🎉 A real life boyfriend. So chances are quite big that I won't be coming back to my Tumblr. I haven't done any selfship art, or even thought much about my F/O's at all since meeting him. I don't know if that will come back eventually, and if it does I might be around again, but for now I want to put all my focus on him and real life. 💜

I wish everyone the very best in 2024, that it may bring you whatever you desire. 💜

#not f/o related #life update

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When I say Ji-w/oon has ruined my music taste I'm dead serious 😩

#not f/o related

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Quick drawing of Rai and my S/I before they actually start dating and when she was still one of Piers' guitarists 💜

Rai's very much head over heels, my S/I... not so much haha 😂💜 It's okay though, she comes around... eventually

#f/o #self ship #fictional other #selfship #my art #myart #s/i #self insert #selfship community

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New blog header showing off just how completely normal I am about Axel 🥺💜

Suprise: I'm not 😂

Also sometimes I forget I used to draw backgrounds professionally and then just surprise myself 😂💜

#f/o #self ship #fictional other #selfship #my art #myart #s/i #self insert #selfship community

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✨️Hospital time✨️, woooooo 😭

#not f/o related

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I am very normal about him I swear 🥺💜👉🏻👈🏻

#I'm actually not at all though #I wanna give him the world honestly #but hugs and kisses will have to do 🥺💜 #f/o #self ship #fictional other #selfship #my art #myart #s/i #self insert

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Love how I went from wanting to kiss Astarion from the start, to the biggest 180 and now I am smitten with Halsin- I don't know what happened but I'm not complaining, nature man take me by the hand 🥺💜👉🏻👈🏻

#literally had the vamp man on my list for maybe a week #and then he got booted in favor of Halsin who has been holding the fort for a little now #how can I not?? he looks so warm and is so nice🥺💜👉🏻👈🏻 #f/o #self ship #fictional other #selfship

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Silly doodle of Ji-woon and the boys I designed to be his old group.

I feel like even though he'd be much less murderous before the incident, he'd still have his... moments 😂💜

Also I did not make a spelling mistake, what are you talking about???

#f/o #fictional other #my art #myart #ji woon hak #jiwoon hak #yes I'm putting this in the main tags #watch me

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Camping with Rai outside Galar usually means one thing:

Gotta go see all the foreign dragon 'mons (and potentially adopt one if he gets attached 🥺💜)

Also this took forever but I'm actually happy with the rendering on this one???💜

#f/o #self ship #fictional other #selfship #my art #myart #s/i #self insert

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Wish I could just, sketch scenarios with my F/O's and let them be sketches.

But no.

Everything has to be rendered fully so I will do 1 art piece a month if lucky... 😔

#f/o #self ship #fictional other #selfship

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Today's mood:

Wanna kiss a vampire 🥺💜👉🏻👈🏻

#aka been playing BG3 again #and As/tarion is holding my heart captive #hnnnnnn 🥺💜👉🏻👈🏻 #f/o #self ship #fictional other #selfship

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I personally love doing faceclaims for my F/O's whenever I feel like it'd make sense (so if they're very humanoid).

I feel like the one I have the easiest time with is Ji because I found an actual Korean idol that looks like him quite a lot so that gives me an easier time imagining him more realistic, like look at them side by side??

For my other F/O's it's a bit more vague though, like I don't have a single person I feel works for them, more a lineup of features 💜

Question for selfshippers with NON live-action f/os (maybe this question has been asked before D:)

Do you imagine an irl version of your non live-action f/o? As in human ethnic features, realistic skin, hair, bodies etc as if they're people you'd meet irl?

Personally I only have a vague picture and I want to imagine them clearer (especially my main f/o) except I don't know how to 😔 maybe I'll practice drawing realistic ethnic features and draw them better to aid my visualisation!

This post probably won't have much reach but ty if you participate 😁

#f/o #fictional other

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i don't know much about bg3 but 👉🏻👈🏻 you should totally post a screenshot of him and gush about it >:3c

Hnnnnn free gush pass??? Thank youuuu 🥺💜👉🏻👈🏻

Here he is, the most handsomest vampire man who is the biggest bastard (affectionate) 💜

I actually started playing the game just because of him and BOI did he not dissapoint; the sass, the cute nicknames when you romance him, the romance scenes being all kinds of fun with some good angst and backstory- and those scars on his back??? Hnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

He honestly is just perfect for me and ticks every single one of my boxes for what I love in a F/O, so it's not surprising that any time he gets a nice cutscene, or does some bantering among the group, I am just this:

Also I took this photo of my screen after he got beat up in a fight because it triggered my care mode so much even though he looks really hot all battered up too 🥺💜👉🏻👈🏻

#TLDR: I am biggest lovey dovey for the worst man #BG3 spoilers #kept it pretty non-spoilery but just in case! #f/o #self ship #fictional other #selfship

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Added Ast/arion to my list because he literally owns my life by now 💜 I'm still not that far in the game but got a couple romance cutscenes from him and can't help myself 💜

#sorry Ji you gotta share your number 1 spot for now #also! #feel free to ask (spoiler free) things about my s/i and him #f/o #self ship #fictional other #selfship

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Usually I don't go into things like this but to me this is such an interesting topic because I actually used to be a "Number One Shipper"

When I first started getting into the community I had one, unpopular F/O that I wouldn't share. I would do free art for everyone so they would quickly aknowledge my blog and ship, and would voice my discomfort to them and my blog whenever someone else shipped with that character (never went directly to a person to harras them though). It got to a point where the only thing I cared about was being known for my ship with that character in the community, pumping out drawings once or twice a day to keep up that "high status", and creatively and mentally drilling myself into madness during it all- not a good time.

The thing that really opened my eyes on how badly I was behaving was when the one other person I knew in the community that actively shipped with him, made a post saying they were removing him from their list "because someone else in the community was a better fit for him". That broke me, I wasn't mentioned but I knew I ruined something good for someone and stopped my nonsense as quick as I was able to.

I changed a lot over the years after, and don't ship with that character anymore either.

So yeah, these kinds of people do exist, some are just not as vocal about it and do it sneakily.

yet another post that mentions this supposed phenomena of people trying to be the Number One Shipper for a character and every time I see it I wonder "is that what's actually happening, people are admitting that they want to be the only/most renowned shipper with that character? or are we getting mad about people on their own blogs saying things like they're canon with their love, or that they're CEO of character? or are we getting mad that some non-sharing selfshippers aren't being completely open to interacting with doubles or people who are friends with doubles?"

because I've been in this community for years and I've followed a lot of people and I've never seen anyone actually coming forward and openly saying "only I can like X!!" and I have not seen anything more than just like. people being upset and having normal human feelings in private among friends or under a vent tag on their own blogs. so it makes me have questions, you know? like who are you following, that you're seeing so much of this phenomenon that you feel the need to address it?

or is this actually a case of a pattern I've been picking up on where the general vibe of the community has changed from that of a tag that works to collectively bring together a loose network of people who share a similar (but deeply personal) experience into that of essentially a fandom? and I have to say. If we treat this "community" like a fandom, and police people, and pedestal people, or witch-hunt people for perceived slights...... it is never gonna be that open place of community, it is never going to be welcoming to new members, and it is going to eat itself until it drives away anyone who doesn't fit the exact mold of what the zeitgeist deems popular, and with it any shred of variation and diversity that actually allows for a community to persist and develop naturally.

#let me know if you want me to remove this reblog! #just wanted to put in my two cents on the subject

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Playing Baldur's Gate 3 finally, instantly fell in love with the Bastard (affectionate), I haven't gotten far yet so no spoilers please!

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Just don't be surprised if he gets added to the list at some point 👀💜

#I knew this would happen #but still #how dare it happen

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You know what I've been feeling insecure about it recently so I'm making a post for myself and others like me. Your f/o's wouldn't think you're disgusting if you struggle with hygiene if it's because of mental illness/neurodivergency/disability. They would understand that it's sometimes hard to keep up with it when your mind just doesn't let the routine stick for one reason or another. Or if it's physically painful/impossible for you to do on your own. They'd help to remind you to shower or brush your teeth if you have poor memory and ask them to. They'd help you find toothpaste that doesn't feel horrible in your mouth. Or find products that don't trigger your sensory issues. They'd give you gentle encouragement and be proud of you when you do it if it's because of the motivation loss depression causes. They'd happily help you clean yourself if you can't physically make yourself/it hurts if you try. If anyone made rude comments about a common effect of mental illness and disability, your f/o's would immediately stand up for you. You're not disgusting for struggling with hygiene. Your f/o's understand and won't treat you differently for it.

#I am either /extremely/ clean and smelling nice #or haven't showered in days #just depends on how my brain is acting honestly #so this is nice 💜