23/INFJ. Overly emotional grad student obsessed with mushrooms, glitter and floral fabric. Studyblr…? Or procrastinateblr take your pick. Maybe occasional book reviews?
Now that I'm working in the anthropology department and we're teaching human evolution, I wonder how many anthropologists looking for ancient hominids must have found modern human remains instead. You didn't find a fossil of human evolution... but you did find the remains of a person. Isn't that meaningful, too? And also... they are so similar to us, that it's not unlikely that so many remains that could have been key to understanding human evolution have been misidentified as just humans (which raises the question "weren't they just human" but I digress)
There's an interesting story about Sahelanthropus (a hominid similar to chimpanzees who walked upright about 6 millions ago in modern Chad). When it was discovered, the remains presented wear and tear from wind and sun exposure, which was wierd because they were found buried. It was then the anthropologist noticed it was buried with its head facing towards Mecca, like in proper Muslim burial practice. Muslim nomads must have found the remains of Sahelanthropus, they would have thought it was a human, and decided to give it a proper burial, even if they didn't know its story or who was it life, they thought those bones deserved to rest.
This is your sign to stop hurting yourself. No more self harm, physically, emotionally, no more staying awake until 3am, no more starving yourself or crazy diets, no more going days without a shower, no more talking badly about yourself, no more villainizing yourself, no more punishment and cringing about every word you said, no more overexercising and toxic friends and abusing substances, this is your year of healing, this is your sign for change.
you're allowed to be proud of things that others would consider small
you're allowed to be proud of eating food
you're allowed to be proud of drinking water
you're allowed to be proud of brushing your teeth
you're allowed to be proud of washing your hair
you're allowed to be proud of going outside
you're allowed to be proud of having a conversation
you're allowed to be proud of getting out of bed
you're allowed to be proud of just surviving this long
you're allowed to be proud of things that others would consider small
my scholarly physique and delicate constitution are not well-suited to questing, but they keep me around because i’m very good at saying ominous and unsettling things at significant moments