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[theriskyredhead]

“I have a touch of PTSD-

And I’ve been gaining weight

My doctor asked if my diet changed

I said “No sir it has been steady.”

The weight I’ve been carrying on my shoulders let me know

It’s these memories that are all too heavy.”

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Recently I was in a medically induced coma after a complication from surgery that almost took my life. I’m now suffering from PTSD from the whole ordeal and can’t fall asleep most nights. I don’t know how or when this will get better. Any tips would be greatly appreciated

#ptsd #coma #trauma #trauma survivor

[theriskyredhead]

I did it guys.

4 years ago I was sitting in my car all alone, sobbing in preparation to end my life.

Tonight my husband and I, dressed up our 4 month old son in a silly elephant costume and took him trick or treating.

It breaks my heart to think I would’ve missed out on all of this.

Please don’t give up, even when it seems utterly impossible, it will get better.

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[theriskyredhead]

“I want to look at myself in the mirror and shake the reflection

I want to stare into her eyes until she blinks first

I want to assert dominance over the person I see

Yet every time I just look away

Turning away is easier than staring a stranger in the eyes.”

-theriskyredhead

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[theriskyredhead]

August 23, 2023

Dear Diary,

It’s me again.

How can I escape the confinement of my mind? The darkened space where there seems to be no outlet. This void echoes lies and threats that cripple my being. I want to feel free and vibrant. I want to swim through the blood in my veins and feel the pulsing of my heartbeat. I want to escape the confinement of my mind. I want to sit on the ends of my fingers and feel the touch of my lovers skin. I want to feel alive.

-theriskyredhead

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[theriskyredhead]

Agony strikes

The rain is pounding on the windows with a violence I have only ever witnessed in movies. Every time lightening strikes I hold my breath in preparation for the crack of thunder that will surely follow. In all of my twenty-four years, I have never been prepared for the thunder even though it has always been preceded by the rain and lightening. Maybe that is what love is like, falling in love over and over again. Even when you recognize the precursor warnings and flags, you are still never fully prepared for the crack of heartbreak.

-theriskyredhead

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https://patreon.com/Theriskyredhead

Join my Patreon for exclusive art and poetry! I want to build a community of creators ❤️

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[theriskyredhead]

“Why are we so afraid of complacency

We say it like it’s a swear word

Yet when I’m complacent

I’m no longer running from my mind

Or striding towards some over achieving goal

I’m relaxed and at peace

I’m happy where I’m at

It’s a relief to feel complacent “

-theriskyredhead

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I am so afraid and excited to become a mom.. I’ve never been a mom before but I want to be the very best mommy I can be. I don’t know how to be a mom but I pray that I figure it out along the way because I am so so so nervous… I didn’t know a baby I’ve never met could be so very loved already. Mommy loves you ❤️

#mommylife #momlife #pregnant #pregnancy

[theriskyredhead]

A big adventure ahead… ❤️

#pregnant #pregnancy #momlife #mommylife

[theriskyredhead]

Meditation is the key. 🪴🍃🔑

[theriskyredhead]

I started drawing again today, it was a simple self portrait in the mirror but it felt like a step in the right direction.

-theriskyredhead

[theriskyredhead]

Confession. : I really love creating art and I wish I did it more. I just criticize everything I make to the point I don’t want to do it anymore.. I wish I could just do it freely.

-theriskyredhead

[theriskyredhead]

[theriskyredhead]

“And suddenly I woke up, and I was no longer afraid

Because the pain I once felt, had long faded away

I didn’t flinch and shy anymore

I smiled and welcomed the new day

I feel like I was born again

The same old soul

Only this time I was wearing thicker skin.”

-theriskyredhead

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[theriskyredhead]

“I can’t help but wonder… are you still reading these?”

-ash