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thescrawnybutterfly · 9 months

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To any child scrolling through these tags thinking “god I wish I had an eating disorder”, “I wish I could be anorexic”, etc, I want you to know it’s not worth it.

In these posts you only see the sides of an ED that seem desirable (prominent collar bones, a thigh gap, reasons to keep pushing), but never the parts that would disgust and frighten you (inability to control your bodily functions, gaining and losing the same five pounds for years on end, pushing all of your friends and eventually yourself away).

Sometimes it seems attractive to be that “perfect broken person”. The one people look at and think “woah she’s so small” or “she needs help.” Sometimes you may feel like this is the way to show people that you are hurting. To give yourself worth.

But, sweetie, this isn’t it. It never will be. It’s not what people will tell you it is. Most of us will never be that “perfect broken person.” We’re not mysterious or tragically beautiful, we’re just hollow, wishing that we could go back to how things were before.

Wishing you have an eating disorder can be a sign you already have one. Please, talk to a therapist, a friend, a parent, anyone. Find someone that can tell you that an eating disorder cannot make things better. And listen.

I know that you are here because you are hurting. So, darling, let me tell you. I see you. I’m so sorry that you are going through this. You are so beautiful. You are amazing. You are deserving of life. Of food. Of happiness. Of everything you have tried to tell yourself you aren’t.

I know I can’t fix you. But, you can. You are so strong. You don’t have to let yourself go down this path only to look back years later and wished you’d turned away. Please leave these tags, go find anyone who can help you, and live. Just live. Please.

You deserve it.💗

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thescrawnybutterfly · 2 years

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TW : GRAPHIC IMAGE

I’ve decided that I’ve had enough. This is literally ruining my life. Ed has taken so much from me and I’ve come to realize that this relapse is allowing my eating disorder to take even more opportunities that I have in the future. It’s absolutely going to fucking suck but I’m going to start recovering again. This photo and the story behind it is what made me realize that the shit that we all struggle with is deadly. The girl in this photo sadly passed away engaging in a behavior that I take part in everyday. She has had the same eating disorder that I’ve had for the same amount of time that I’ve been struggling. She died alone and in pain. Her stomach was distended from where her ribs met all the way to her pubic bone due to binging and water loading. When she purged it added more pressure to her stomach causing it to tear.When her abdomen ruptured it cause her brain to swell and it started to squeeze out of her skull. This all occurred BEFORE SHE DIED. This angel had to live through this excruciating pain. Her family found her 72 hours after she passed. I see my self in this picture which is really why I’ve decided that it’s time that I take my life back from ed. I’m not sharing this to scare you guys. I’m doing it to spread awareness and hopefully help someone realize the realities and consequences of eating disorders.

YOUR ED IS VALID AND YOU DESERVE RECOVERY. PLEASE GET OFF THIS PROANA FILLED APP AND PLEASE REACH OUT FOR HELP. RECOVERY IS POSSIBLE

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thescrawnybutterfly · 2 years

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It’s all pro ana until you pass out at Subway

#notprojustusehashtags #tw eating mention #thiinsp0 #bonespr0 #thinsperation #i want to be skiny #bulimua #proanni #low cal cooking #not pr0 ana #pro miiia #proed #thinspi #just ed shit #tw ed related #tw ed thoughts #tw ed mention #thinspration

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thescrawnybutterfly · 3 years

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TW : GRAPHIC IMAGE

I’ve decided that I’ve had enough. This is literally ruining my life. Ed has taken so much from me and I’ve come to realize that this relapse is allowing my eating disorder to take even more opportunities that I have in the future. It’s absolutely going to fucking suck but I’m going to start recovering again. This photo and the story behind it is what made me realize that the shit that we all struggle with is deadly. The girl in this photo sadly passed away engaging in a behavior that I take part in everyday. She has had the same eating disorder that I’ve had for the same amount of time that I’ve been struggling. She died alone and in pain. Her stomach was distended from where her ribs met all the way to her pubic bone due to binging and water loading. When she purged it added more pressure to her stomach causing it to tear.When her abdomen ruptured it cause her brain to swell and it started to squeeze out of her skull. This all occurred BEFORE SHE DIED. This angel had to live through this excruciating pain. Her family found her 72 hours after she passed. I see my self in this picture which is really why I’ve decided that it’s time that I take my life back from ed. I’m not sharing this to scare you guys. I’m doing it to spread awareness and hopefully help someone realize the realities and consequences of eating disorders.

YOUR ED IS VALID AND YOU DESERVE RECOVERY. PLEASE GET OFF THIS PROANA FILLED APP AND PLEASE REACH OUT FOR HELP. RECOVERY IS POSSIBLE

#tw eating mention #bulimua #ed recovery #notprojustusehashtags #tw ed thoughts #recovery #fuck eds #just ed shit #not pr0 ana #thinpiraration #diet culture #eating disorders #pleasereblog #ed

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thescrawnybutterfly · 3 years

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rot girl summer, we're decaying in our rooms 🤪

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thescrawnybutterfly · 3 years

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A Family Guy Thread